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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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Dear readers of Fictionkinfessions,
Hello! It’s been a week since my last ask assignment (or, well, around a week since I sent it in), so! That means it’s time for another!
Thank you so much, everycreature who responded, and to everycreature who didn’t respond but stayed in the background and watched, I appreciate you, too! I hope you all had a good week, by the way.
So, to be honest, I want to start by giving this a bit of context: you know how almost everycreature who realises they’re a
There are some who react well, some who just take it without much reaction either way, and… well, some who don’t react very well at all.
Given who I am, you can probably guess I was one of the latter.
To be honest? I had a breakdown. A really really bad one. I was scared I was going crazy, or having ridiculous thoughts that made no sense, and how this was in no way logical whatsoever.
But soon enough, I realised that I wasn’t going crazy at all. I was just… a fictional character. And however illogical it was, well, it just felt wrong to deny anything - so intrinsically wrong that it made me wince automatically whenever I tried.
So, with that said, the question for today is this: How did you feel or react when you first realised you were Fictionkin yourself?
Your local pony princess,
Twilight Sparkle.
P.S. I should probably go to sleep early tonight. III kind of messed up last night and stayed up way too late reading a story. Eheheh…
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dubacheryking · 1 year
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That one kinnie again cause I wanted to check up on ya
Absolutely glad I helped in your kinwakening lmao have fun being john (and dirk lmao)
And welcome to the kinmunnity and what not. Dont let people give ya any shit for being kin or how you kin
Love that one kinnie passerby (whos also a dave ayoo)
hello again!! thank u<33 for both the kinwakening and the checking up lol. and the welcome! should be an interesting experiance for me lol:DD
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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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how did i discover i'm fictionkin? because someone passed around an edited version of the last fight scene in catws and i Could Not watch it all the way through. that was literally it. it was like "hey you know how you feel weird when youre Not In The Mood To RP and a friend fills in for you as bucky and you feel jealous that theyre 'the Bucky?' yeah buddy youre literally bucky im so sorry." some of the other better ones include: realizing i'm kh xion because i cried skimming her wiki page; realizing i'm sam winchester because i literally dreamt that i said "i can't believe i was sam winchester in a past life that's so depressing!"; realizing that i'm jon sims after a paranoid insomniac tear before even starting tma; obstinately denying that i'm dream of the endless despite having dreamt of my own capture a few years ago, having an oc based on other kintypes with clear parallels to dream, and having a penchant for writing revealing fever dream scenes in my stories. #👁️🩸💧
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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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To Twilight, regarding your recent question:
I like how thus far, I've only answered these if I have a funny story.
I have a funny story, though!
I realized I was kin when I was doing a lot of learning about the topic. Back then, the anti-sjw stuff was as its peak. As a young queer with "cringe" interests, I felt protective towards any community targeted by them. I wanted to learn how to be a good ally to the kin community. As it sometimes happens, in trying to be an "ally," I realized that I wasn't exactly on the outside looking in!
I was in denial, at first. I thought that I was just trying to be special (re: the anti-sjws). But, gradually, I slowly began to accept my first kin. I couldn't ignore the way that I felt and the things I remembered, it all lined up with everything the 'kin I followed were describing.
But I was still very hard on myself. I thought that a REAL fictionkin only had one kintype, their one true Self. (Which is pretty funny. I have so many now lol.) So, I tried ignoring the nagging feeling that I might also be Cecil Palmer.
Well, my brain, or the kin gods, or whoever's in charge around here, eventually got sick of me suppressing every memory I got. As punishment, I was hit with a sudden and powerful bout of memories of Carlos (who I missed dearly), all at once.
Unfortunately, this happened while I was riding my bike, which I, VERY caught off-guard by all this, proceeded to fall off of, in the middle of the fucking street. Thank the powers that be, I had just exited the more major street I'd been on into a slower, residential area. There was only one car around, and they were driving slowly enough to hit the brakes with plenty of time to spare. I do wonder what they were thinking, though, when they saw me just collapse off of my bike unprompted.
-Cecil Palmer (WTNV) #🎙🔮 (New tag just dropped!)
(PS- I know you said, the FIRST time I realized. I think story is a much better one to tell, though!)
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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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Re: ask game
When I realized I was fiction kin I was in denial. Like at the time I could rationalize being horse and sheep kin. Those are real animals. My belief in reincarnation at the time was that I could die and be reborn as any animal on the earth or I could be reborn as a human in this universe only. But once the denial went away and my concept of reincarnation broadened to reincarnation across universes I accepted it and tbh it made sense that I kin my OCs. All the things I wrote about them felt personal and often these memories are more vivid and intense than anything I could imagine.
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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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@how did you realize you're fictionkin
I honestly just started getting really happy when people complemented the characters I was and was referring to them in first person. Then I got memories and it sealed the deal.
Candy Diver was different though I just got deja vu whenever I was on screen
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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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Dear Twilight Sparkle,
I've had memories I've been drawing my whole life. In sketchbooks, on the backs of pieces of paper used for other things, on napkins. I recalled several places - a huge circular room with black-and-white checkered tile, a small room with a dozen computer monitors and a round table, a fire by Stonehenge, a room with a copper sculpture in it of a person with a sword in his head - and I had no idea where they came from. They felt familiar. From an early age, I would think of those places as I drifted off to sleep, thinking of/remembering walking down the halls, up the stairs, talking to someone by the fire, the smell of dust and incense in the checkered-tile room and the smell of the Earth after it rained by the campfire. For the last 15 years I've had these places in my mind, always nearby, more familiar than some places I've been in real life.
This January I played a game on a whim, just to see if I could get my computer to run a rip of it, curious about the contents and frustrated due to a lack of plot summaries or info online. And I had to stop within ten minutes when I arrived, once again, in the checkered-tile room, with those strange devices I'd been poorly drawing since kindergarten...
Regards, the Main Character from Drowned God
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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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re: twilight’s question: one of my irls has called me out (/lh) multiple times for “extreme [one of my kintypes] behavior” and they are always absolutely right about it. i do the same when they exhibit extreme [one of their kintypes] behavior. even with the few sources we share, our kintypes rarely interacted. we’ve known each other since we were eight. i cannot imagine my life without them. they mean the fucking world to me.
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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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In response to Twilight Sparkle,
I knew what kin was for awhile as the first time I heard of it was from an online friend who was fictionkin! I didn't think much of it at the time beyond "oh huh. neat!" and then I didn't really think about it again for years beyond "oh okay that's a thing" and the occasional "why are people so mean about it".
Anyways, jump to 2017-2018, Doki Doki Literature Club came out and I loved it! ...Also felt a weird connection to Monika I couldn't explain.
I was in a DDLC server, and they had a kin channel so I figured maybe that'd be a good place to ask since whatever the feeling was felt like more than just relating to, but I couldn't really place it. Some of the others talked with me about what I was feeling and I remember one asked if I felt like I could've been Monika once, and I realized that that... Felt right, that explanation seemed to be the most accurate. I just hadn't considered that "oh this could apply to me"
A little more talking later, and I figured that yeah I probably was kin with Monika. And awhile later I got my first solid kin memory, so... Yeah! Seems I was right!
I was pretty calm about the whole thing, but that's probably because I already had heard of what being kin was and all. ...Though, I've had other kinfirms that went pretty bad - but it's never been the part where it's being fictionkin that was bothering me, y'know?
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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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About the open ask regarding how did I react when I realized I was “fiction” kin: I kept thinking I was deluding myself for years to be honest. This blog was/is my only solace in talking about things related to that aspect of myself for years.
I didn’t let myself believe I was anybody but the person I am in this life, but it made sense, I knew languages I could’ve known, I knew faces and names of places I shouldn’t have known. People thought I was imaginative but I just knew something, like a part of me was missing. No one listened when I tried to ask them;
“Why does it feel to life like this? Why does it feel like something is missing? Will it always be like this? Is it like this for everyone?”
feeling like I’m constantly yearning for a home that doesn’t exist anymore and cut off from everyone, and everything else no matter how hard I try it’s not going to be good enough. It’s still like that, so maybe it is like that for everyone and I really am just deluding myself into thinking I’m special.
I wish I didn’t have to hide this piece of myself and feel like it wasn’t desirable or wanted.
That’s to say, it was a hard adjustment for me, I still have a hard time thinking of myself as “human” in this life and lives before it. even if I was human then it’s difficult…. and I cannot describe it fully.
— #HOUND🐾
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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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how we discovered our other lives:
we accidentally joined a kincord thinking it was just a regular fan discord! whoopsie! spent a very long time being too afraid to ask what 'kin is until someone else asked instead (phew!).
still spent a good while not knowing we were also kin ft. plenty of ranting to ourself about how we relate to the kin experience just "not in a kin way" -_-
until one day we had a big ol' flashback/memory and realised it wasn't from this life. pow! kin awakening right then & there!
it was actually quite exciting! 😊
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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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@ the question of how you realized you were kin:
i literally just saw stuff about kinning online in like 2017, researched a bit, and Immediately started trying to sort out who i kinned bc i was pretty much positive i did.
then i looked at my irl older sibling’s tumblr and realized the kin list for the first time. turns out that Years ago when i was still a kid they told me about kinning and i thought they were weird for it and made fun of them. i don’t remember this but clearly i was wrong! anyway now we’re canonmates shout-out to my kinnie sibling.
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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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how i felt/reacted when i realized i was fictionkin:
i was. so fucking relieved tbh????? i didn’t realize that’s what it was until i brought it up to my friends and they said it sounded like fictionkin. i just thought i related to the character(s) on an unhealthy level. and i was so excited when i found out there was a word for what i was going through!!! it was still a little weird bc it was new, but i had/have a lot of kin friends so i got used to it really quickly. and i also quickly realized that i kin a LOT more characters than what i first thought. overall it was a really exciting thing to learn and i’m really glad i was taught about the term!!!
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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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Heya Twilight! This is a nice question so I'm gonna answer.
Really, the first time I realized I was fictionkin, it was waaay back, and I realized I was MAG Hank J Wimbleton from Madness Combat, due to running a blog themed around him then and realized I felt like him (especially with a giant phantom lobster arm /hj)
I just thought it felt right. It felt good!
Ever since then, I've never felt happier about who I truly am.
Most recently, I've been Donatello from RotTMNT, and I feel great being a turtle, despite all the difficulties with memories and feelings.
Realizing it was a bit hard, because I was kinsidering all the other brothers before I realized I was Donnie, haha.
Either way, I am proud of being fictionkin! It's a core part of who I am.
-Donatello, RotTMNT, #🃏💜💗🤡
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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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Dear Twilight Sparkle,
When I first realized I was fictionkin, I denied it for half a year. I didn't want to admit that a subculture I'd always seen ridiculed online could have some value in it. I'm a biracial person with one Muslim parent and one Jewish one, and I'm trans. I wanted so hard to be normal and ordinary and not someone anyone would think of as weird that the idea filled me with dread. But at the same time... I'd had flashbacks all my life, kin memories that did not otherwise make sense. I was confused for many, many years about this. Finally knowing the cause was a blessed relief, like water in the desert. This isn't the past life I would have chosen for myself, but I'm hopeful that now that I know, I can find some peace and some closure regarding it.
Regards, Fang Ray Shin/Fang Rui Xin from the game Detention (Note to the mods: both of those are my name, from different releases of the game, so please tag as both)
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fictionkinfessions · 1 year
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in response to twilight's ask about first realizing you kin: it was many years ago for me now, so i don't quite remember all the details, but i do remember being surprised- my friends had talked about kin stuff before, but the most i had only ever felt was just standard relating to a character [using the term sympath]- because the day i had first realized, the situation had occured via realizing i had memories that werent of my current life.
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