Haikyuu boys and commitment issues.
Ft. Kuroo, Kita, Akaashi, Ushijima
Kuroo grew up without a mom, his divorced parents is the reason why he sleeps on his stomach, head shoved down to his pillows to prevent hearing their nasty arguments. Which attributes to his signature bedhead. Because of them, he doesn't know what love is.
He may seemed overly nonchalant about relationships but he could actually be distrustful of love and romance, afraid that he'd lose the person he is once he falls in love. Afraid that he'll end up losing feelings to his significant other after years.
He does gets jealous of couples being lovey dovey in broad daylight, going on a dates, holding hands, and kissing but he couldn't picture himself in their shoes. In the end, he knows they'll end up breaking up and separating so there was no point in dating.
At most he'd have a fling or two, never getting anything serious.
Have you seen Kita with his parents? No, so he doesn't know what it means to love your partner unconditionally.
This guy just seemed extremely perfect in every aspect except one: relationships. He doesn't understand why a person needs to constantly pour all their attention to their significant other. The world doesn't revolve around love, he's got things to do, matters that actually needs attention. Why can't things remain as is? He doesn't understand.
It's exactly because he's so independent, physically and emotionally that he thinks his partner is too clingy and he gets suffocated easily. He tends to withdraw from all that affection to preserve his freedom.
He is so self reliant that he doesn't ask his s/o for any help making his partner think, they're useless.
Akaashi's habit of overthinking is the reason why he could never properly form a relationship.
Even before starting a relationship, he's already thinking of breaking up. He beats himself up thinking that if everything fails, it would be because of something he did. He thinks poorly of himself.
He tends to be clingy, giving a hundred percent of attention to his s/o but he gets too observant with their emotions that he's always on his toes for any changes because he's afraid that he might upset you or be disappointed.
He's hungry for your affection but he doesn't want you to think that he's desperate because he certainly think he is. Now he's staying away again to give you space.
If you ask what's wrong, he'll brush it off as nothing leaving him repressing all the negative emotions until he could no longer suppress them.
It's the hot and cold treatment that confuses you of his intentions.
Ushijima is also a product of divorced family, thus, he barely knows what romance is.
Like Kita, he doesn't understand why people have to revolve themselves around their s/o when he also has his own life before the relationship. He has his own volleyball career and he doesn't want to choose between his career and his relationship. (We all know that his last remaining brain cell is just volleyball)
He avoids relationship in general for fear that he'll eventually forced to make a choice.
Sometimes, he seeks affection but will eventually draw back when it disturbs his normal routine. He doesn't want anything to affect his career.
He doesn't know what it's like to love unconditionally, he thinks it's just like being friends with added label which frustrates his partner. He thinks it's too much if he has to update you constantly, 24/7, about what he's doing, or demanding things from him.
I like to think about this all the time and I feel sad everytime i hear about their backstory.
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