There’s something about Eddie and Buck in the kitchen scene and then the balcony scene, where both times Eddie is dressed far more formally (BOTH times in a black shirt and green trousers) and Buck is in a hoodie.
Something about “I’m not really a guest” but Eddie maybe not feeling quite the same way about himself in Buck’s house, despite having a key, despite finding such comfort (3x09) and the ability to be emotionally vulnerable (3x12), and despite it being a safe place for Christopher (4x08).
Something about Eddie still holding back, being a little buttoned up, keeping a little figurative and literal distance (could you stand any further away in 5x04???)
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Will I ever not talk about the kitchen scene? Not likely!
Buck doesn't avoid talking, Buck doesn't judge, Buck says /softly/ and /apologetically/ "I am stepping in the ring with you"
He speaks Eddie's language, he steps in with him in his world, instead of just being a spectator watching his rage, he /feels/ with him and says "you choose. You lead the way, but I am in here with you and I will add myself to the situation if you like it or not"
Eddie doesn't get it, he's like "is he really doing this right now? Someone's doing this with me? Someone's voicing my pain and dealing with it with me? Not possible"
But Buck goes there.
Buck says "I'll talk through this with you. I'll fight you, if that's what you need."
He says "I'm here for you in whichever way you need. Maybe I'm a little late, but I'll offering you whatever you want to ask for, I'll give you suggestions and you can pick and choose what you need"
Which ofc, scary, Eddie tries to go "it's not that bad, it doesn't matter"
And it's only bc Buck insists that "it does matter. You matter. Your pain matters your experiences and feelings matter" that offers Eddie the space to show himself and heal
That's what goddamn friendship is. That's love. That's accepting someone in your life, sharing this life and your life, your existence with others. That's how we grow and that's how we live with empathy and compassion and live fricking humanely if that's even possible.
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