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lovestrucklyuniverse · 3 years

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Top 5 ships and 5 facts about them

I had originally seen @airasora do this on her account and I’ve been wanting to do it for a couple weeks so y’know what? We’re doing it! Yes, I have made it very clear what my top 3 favorite ships are, but the other two after them just may surprise you, so this should be a treat! (Also, please do not go to certain links, some of these videos are very very bad)

1. Renga (Kyan Reki/Hasegawa Langa from Sk8 the Infinity)

-When I first started shipping them

February 2021

-What my first video was with them

Love Me Like You Do

-What the main reason I ship them is

Well, I was introduced to them by my friend @peanutbell / @spellvoid after Episode 7 had come out. But these two are 100% made for one another. While they seem very different on the surface, considering Reki’s nearly limitless energy and Langa’s pretty non-chalant expressions. But they fill in a void that was missing in each other. Plus, they’re red and blue, you can’t go wrong there.

-A fanfic idea I have with them

(I will be nice and not cheat by mentioning my current fanfic). A band au where Reki and Langa reconnect with music while grieving after a loved one passes away in each of their lives.

-My favorite video with them

cause i’m nobody’s but yours...

2. Klance (Keith and Lance from Voltron: Legendary Defender)

-When I first started shipping them

October 2017 then March 2018 (I took a long break)

-What my first video was with them

Rewrite the Stars

-What the main reason I ship them is

Much like Renga, they’re red and blue, the stark contrast of their personalities is very interesting and they balance each other out perfectly. Keith is Lance’s reassurance and Lance is Keith’s stability. Plus, their married couple arguing is just perfect.

-A fanfic idea I have with them

*pulls up list* Lance works as a secret maid at a maid cafe in the next town over (Maid Sama inspired) and it’s a way for him to express a side of his personality that he’s ashamed of: how he enjoys feminine things. That all changes when the quiet Keith comes across his secret. Basically a character study mixed in with some further discussion of toxic masculinity.

-My favorite video with them

Mine

3. Hiccanna (Hiccup Horrendous Haddock III from How to Train Your Dragon and Anna from Frozen)

-When I first started shipping them

December 2014

-What my first video was with them

Beautiful in White (I pretend this video doesn’t exist most of the time)

-What the main reason I ship them is

They’re both selfless, awkward and very caring. But they’re also different enough to balance each other out beautifully. On another note, I thought that Anna was too good for Kristoff so when I found this ship, my heart was very happy. They do look great together but to me, they’re just such a sweet pairing that I can’t even express all the reasons why I love them. Though I do want to make a video on it someday. I can 100% say that they definitely work best as childhood friends to lovers dynamic.

-A fanfic idea I have with them

A Wish Dragon au where they were childhood friends that ended up separating for years. And more than anything, Hiccup wants to reconnect with Anna. And thanks to Jack Frost (a spirit that can grant wishes that look frosty).

-My favorite video of them

Helpless

4. Ajim (Aja Tarron and Jim Lake Jr from Tales of Arcadia)

-When I first started shipping them

December 2018

-What my first video was with them

still falling for you

-What the main reason I ship them is

I won’t lie, I have always found Jlaire to be very, very boring (don’t kill me). But when 3Below released and we got D’Aja Vu, my shipping heart lit up. They have so much chemistry and they have pretty cute banter throughout the episode. Aja is very impulsive and quick to action while Jim is patient and thinks first, but he also had to learn that. They’re very similar and the show even makes that comparison. Plus I just love the idea of them sparring whilst flirting, plus I believe they could learn a lot from one another. (Also keep in mind that I do like Staja as well, I just like Steli more for Steve)

-A fanfic idea I have with them

Perhaps Aja and Jim start fake dating for awhile because they both accidentally found out one another’s identities so the fake dating is used to cover each other from the people in each other’s lives. But then, of course, they start to fall for each other for real XD It’s a staple of the trope, what can I say?

-My favorite video of them

still falling for you This is unforunately still the only video I’ve made with them specifically, which I should really make another before or after Rise of the Titans comes out.

5. KristElsa (Kristoff Bjorman and Elsa from Frozen)

-When I first started shipping them

June 2014

-What my first video was with them

Wonderful Life

-What the main reason I ship them is

You mostly have Once Upon a Time to blame for that, as they actually INTERACT there. While I do headcanon Elsa as ace-aro, this is the only Elsa ship I still like and actively ship. They both love ice, skeptical about Anna’s leap into romance, and aren’t super engaged into the life as a royal. If only Disney would let them interact more.

-A fanfic idea I have with them

It’s a sad one and requires me to kill my favorite character ever but it’s all I got...Okay, so imagine that Anna’s frozen heart had no cure and she had stayed frozen forever. Elsa has immense guilt over it and Kristoff is sad since it’s Anna who wouldn’t be sad if she died?! Sorry, my bias. Anyways, a lonely Elsa invites him into the castle to stay and they end up falling in love. But Elsa still feels guilty and causes a blizzard.

-My favorite video of them

i will be right by your side

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space-girl-in-a-space-world · 5 years

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Wow it’s been so long... But I’m so happy now!!!

WARNING: this post is a bittersweet but extremely positive post reflecting my disappointment about the “LGBT rep” and sexist tropes and how I have finally moved on and am happy with the people who create the fanart and fanfics that keep the rep we wanted and deserved alive...

It kinda sucks that I feel the need to explain myself but you know what? I don't care because I am so fucking happy right now...

I been ignoring this blog for months because I was sad as fuck. Call me sensitive if you want. I was really heartbroken because I haven’t been able to find a book, show, or movie to fill the void of rep that hits the spot for me. We all know there aren’t that many options especially for a Black QTPOC like myself. Ima very open person so I ain’t gon lie... My soft ass shed a few tears. Yes, I know how some of you might find this humorous because the show ended how you wanted or you just didn’t get attached like I did. That’s fine. I know it was my own fault for getting my little queer hopes up.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I REALIZED?

I realized that I just have to be one of those people who create stories for people like me. And that’s what I’m going to dedicate my life to. In fact, I already did before this show even existed because I have always wanted to be an author. And guess what? I am now a published one. One day, people will know my name but I don’t give a fuck about that. I just don’t want people to have a safe place (meaning media content) where they don’t have to set themselves up like I did. I’m creating stories for QTPOC. ALL OF US. Everyone under every umbrella with as many narratives as possible.

And then I thought... Wait a minute... There are plenty of people who are creating art on Tumblr. Hopefully, you can understand this in a way that is beyond Klance or a TV show but... That art makes me smile. It’s a reminder. It inspires me. It motivates me.

I learned my lesson. And I learned it very fucking well. Stories are powerful and we all have the power to create them. We cannot expect anyone to create stories for us. We have to create them.

FUCK. I HAVE HELLA BOOKS TO WRITE. I LOVE IT.

#klance #adashi #lgbt #lgbtq #LGBTQIA+#keith #lance #Adam #shiro

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wertdifferenz · 4 years

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Altea Airlines – Part 19 I don‘t have anything to say honestly… So I‘ll just yeet this part at you and vanish into the void. #klance #laith #kick #vldklance #klancevoltron #klancefanfic #lancexkeith #keithxlance #klancedrabbles #keith #keithkogane #keithvoltron #vldkeith #lance #lancemcclain #lancevoltron #vldlance #vld #voltronlegendarydefender #voltron #fanfic #vldfic ** #flightattendantau #pilotau #airlineau #stewardau #klanceairlineau https://www.instagram.com/p/B4YDlQoos4e/?igshid=1m2ysiolverth

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arcane-pride · 7 years

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Someone had recently asked me, "why haven't you been around and posting that much lately?". My answer: Otp Fanfics (I can't get enough)

#been sucked into the void of reading and writing fanfics again and will hopefully start posting more again soon #fanfics #ao3fic #snk #haikyuu!!#voltron legendary defender #yuri on ice #and all other fandoms I've been reading from #which is a lot #victuri #kagehina #jeanmarco #shklance #sheith #klance #riren #and many more otps #ashramblesbl #don't hate me please

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klanstability · 6 years

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God I want klance mental health fanfic cus I'm a sucker for that hurt comfort shit

i gotchu fam

Hopeless Situations - jilliancares

“Where are you?” Allura demanded. “We can track the blue lion, but if you’re not with it—”

“Then you can’t track me,” Lance concluded. He nodded his head. Yeah, totally hopeless.

“What do your surroundings look like?” Pidge asked, all business.

Lance hummed. “Wet. Dark,” he concluded.

“That narrows things down,” Pidge said snidely.

“Very wet,” Lance added, looking down at where the water now lapping against his belly button. “Getting more wet by the minute, actually.”

Or:

In which Lance very nearly drowns and becomes (pfft! totally not!) terrified of water.

The Earth is Shaking but I See a Light - GlassAlice

Dark thoughts ripped through Lance’s mind and tore him down, piece by piece, unraveling him like a thread from a sweater. It was all he could do to keep from panicking. He could feel himself swallowed whole by the dark void of space, until nothing left of him existed. Darkness on all sides. Darkness and the inevitable call of death. He pulled at his hair and shook back and forth, trying to ground himself, trying to remind himself he was safe. This was all a prank. There was no way Pidge would actually let him die, here, alone. Right?

A bright light cut through the darkness, washing away his panic and fear. Keith.

Keeps Me Up All Night - 2towels

“I didn’t know you had nightmares.” Keith blurted when he recognized the soft tilt at the corners of Lance’s mouth, not allowing himself to coast on the momentum of not having said something stupid just once.

The frown returned, and all Lance said was, “Not exactly newsworthy.” He shrugged while he sipped his water, and when he closed his eyes a little languidly Keith could only think that he looked very, very tired.=Five times Lance couldn’t sleep, and one time he couldAlternatively: Five times Keith was parched, and one time he was just thirsty

(make believe) it’s hyper real - windsprout

After the Wormhole Incident, Keith can’t sleep.

He’s not alone.

and i also recommend keeping an eye on @vldwhumpzine…

#voltron #klance #hurt/comfort #fics #klance fic recs #Anonymous #ask #sdflkajsd im sorry this took so long i had a busy weej #the zine will only be including soft pairings (that can be interpreted as plationic)#but if u got ur shipper goggles on.....#hmmm maybe i could post that short wip i have too

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angst-in-space · 5 years

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1, 2, 4-11, 13-18, 20-22, 24, 25, 27-35, 37-48, 50 👍💕💖

holy shit alex

1. What was your first fic and could you stand to reread it today?

my first fic was altea rising and yes i’d still reread it today bc 1) i’m still writing it lmao, 2) i only started it two years ago dkfdj

2. What’s your most recent fic and how far do you think you’ve come?

if we’re not counting fic updates i guess the most recent thing i finished was my piece for @extrasolarzine (WHICH I’M GONNA FINALLY POST A PREVIEW OF THIS WEEK...AAH)!! and well, again i’ve only been writing fic for a couple years but...hmm idk, i mean this piece is very action-y and that’s something i used to have very little confidence about, so i’d like to think that’s something i’ve improved upon!

4. In your opinion and without looking at any numbers, what’s your most popular fic?

ha i mean i know for a fact that “if the silence was a song” is my most popular fic both in terms of hits/kudos....it also seems to be the one people rec the most and the one i most often get the reaction of “wait, YOU wrote that??” sdkfjd

5. Is there any fic that makes you super happy to reread and remember you wrote that?

answered!

6. Is there any fic that makes you super embarrassed to reread and remember you wrote that?

nah not really, i’m pretty happy with all my fics lol...i guess there’s parts of them that could be better but none of them make me like Truly Embarrassed

7. What’s the fic you most want to continue (unfinished or no)?

answered!

8. What’s the oldest (longest since last update) fic you most want to continue (unfinished or no)?

i guess it’s altea rising since i haven’t updated it in like three months haha, but uhh don’t worry it’s coming! (as in i’m super close to Finally finishing a draft of the next chapter heh heh)

9. Have you ever written for a fandom without watching/reading/playing the source material?

nope! i’ve only written fic for voltron

10. Have you ever written for a fandom without reading other fanfic for it?

also no....i binge-read a ton of voltron fics the summer it came out and then started a fic of my own!

11. Have you ever written a fic for a concept you know someone else has done before? How did it impact your writing process or feelings after posting?

i figure everything has been done before in one way or another so that’s something i try not to sweat it too much about. i try to be original, but there’s also a lot of popular tropes i like so it’s fun to take those and try to make them my own somehow!

13. What’s the biggest change between your style when you started in fandom and today?

answered!

14. What’s the biggest change in your taste between when you started in fandom and today?

i’m not sure if this refers to reading or writing fic but...i guess in general i’m a lot pickier now than i was at the beginning of the fandom?? like i remember at the beginning i’d just kinda read whatever was popular but over time i’ve developed a much better sense of what i will and won’t like lol, and i p much only read things written by friends and/or rec’d to me by friends.

15. Have you ever purposefully written one fandom/fic idea over another because you knew it’d be more popular?

not really?? in fact i seem to gravitate more towards my super long complicated aus even knowing they’re not gonna gain as much attention lol.

16. Have you ever stopped writing a fic/for a fandom because it wasn’t receiving enough attention?

no i’m a masochist so i continue writing the aforementioned super long complicated aus even when it feels like i’m just dropkicking updates into the void lmao. but tbh even if literally no one was reading my multichap fics i’d probs still write them bc they’re fun to write and i love them a lot, so!!

17. In your opinion, what’s your most overrated fic?

ha i mean, again i like all my fics and i’m happy i wrote them all but...i guess probably “a truth in the blood”? dgmw i still like that one a lot and i’m glad a lot of people enjoyed it, i’m just not as like emotionally attached to it as i am to my other fics (probs cuz i wrote it in like two weeks haha).

18. What’s your most underrated fic?

ummm i’d say it’s defo “the stars are bound to change.” idk man like i really poured my soul into that one and it’s so rare someone tells me it’s their fave....i have this particular soft spot for it that whenever someone tells me they love that one i’m like *SOBS*...THANK YOU.

20. Have/Would you ever rewrite a fic? If yes, would you take the original down?

probably not?? there’s some things i’d probs change a bit in some of my fics but there’s nothing that i would rewrite completely.

21. If someone starts kudosing and commenting your fics in a spree and has a few works of their own, would you go look through theirs?

i gotta admit i don’t think i’ve ever done that...? i usually don’t start looking at someone’s fics unless they’ve been rec’d to me or like unless we’ve become friends and i then find out they write fic.

22. Has there ever been anyone who’s made you freak out because they read your work and followed/favorited/reviewed?

answered!

24. What’s the meanest review you’ve ever gotten? Do you think the reviewer intended it?

i’ve never gotten a truly mean review really. *knocks on wood* i think the only slightly negative one i can think of off the top of my head was someone who complained about the end of “the stars are bound to change” and said it was too abrupt but...i don’t think they intended it to be super malicious or anything, and like, i get it bc i wasn’t 100% happy with the ending either. but oh well can’t win ‘em all.

25. What constructive criticism, however well-meaning, always makes you feel bad when you see it in a review?

again i haven’t really gotten much negativity or criticism in comments so uh...*shrugs* and i’m p good at taking constructive criticism i was a creative writing major sdkdj

27. If you could only ever write crossovers or single-fandom fics ever again, which would you pick?

i’ve only ever written single-fandom fics and don’t have a desire to ever write a crossover fic so lol.

28. if you could only ever write for a single crossover or a single fandom again, which would you pick?

i mean i guess voltron bc it’s the only fandom i’ve written fic for anyway and klance still owns my ass, so...

29. Does the division of your writing across fandoms line up with your reading? What’s the biggest discrepancy?

....i only read/write voltron fic pretty much so uh n/a haha

30. Do you continue to write for a fandom after you’ve moved on or do you focus solely on the new one?

again i’ve only written voltron fic and yeah i’m still writing it even though i’m not watching the show anymore. what can i say, a bitch loves klance and that bitch is me!!

31. Who’s the one character you’ve just never managed to get perfectly right?32. Who’s the one character who shines without you even trying?33. Is there any particular character whose scenes always wind up being longer/more frequent than you expected? Does the quality hold up?

answered!

34. Was there any fic that you wrote that really surprised you in the fandom reaction? Was it just by the numbers or did they take it an entirely different way?

also answered!

35. Have you ever written a ship into a fic without meaning to?

not that i can think of...there’s been a couple times i’ve decided partway through a fic to include some side-pairing later on in the background, but it’s not really unintentional, just that i didn’t plan on it from the beginning.

37. Have you ever purposefully bashed a character/ship in a fic?

i wouldn’t say “bashed” per se but uh i do often really stress on shiro & keith having a brotherly relationship although that’s more out of the fear of people interpreting it the wrong way... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

38. Have you ever purposefully written something you know your readers would find uncomfortable/would not enjoy? If yes, why?

i....no. why would i do that?? dlkfjdk

39. Do you consider yourself to have a readership?

a sort of small one but yeah!

40. Do you feel like you put out enough content?

yes and no...i write a lot but it’s mostly just piling more and more into my multichaps. kinda wish i wrote more short oneshots but oh well.

41. If you cross-post your fics on multiple sites, do you have a favorite? Are there certain fics you would only post on certain site?

i only post on ao3 so yeah.

42. How many views has your most popular fic gotten?

“if the silence was a song” with 23,744 hits whew!!

43. Your least popular?

“a million little pieces” (the fic i wrote for lancito) it only has 349 hits rip.... (i mean it’s a gen fic and only like 2k words long so i get it but sdlkfjd)

44. Do you follow/favorite/kudos/comment/review more stories than you have received?

i’m a little confused by the wording of this lol, but uh if i’m understanding the question correctly...i think it’s about even? although tbh i’ve been slacking a lot in my fic reading lately, but in general i try to support other fic authors as much as i can!

45. If you had to call yourself an author of a single genre (besides fanfic) what label would you give yourself?

answered!

46. Do you consider yourself a diverse author?

i’m not sure if this means like in terms of diverse content/genres or in terms of like character diversity but i’d like to say yes to both?? i like moving around between different genres, also i care a lot about character diversity and representation so yeah!

47. If someone you know in real life who isn’t involved in fandoms asked to read your work, would you let them? If yes, what would you recommend they read first?

i mean this has happened to me before and i’m like “sure lol.” it depends on the person but probs i would have them read “a million little pieces” or maybe “a truth in the blood” since those are the shortest and uhhh the least shippy lol.

48. Does anyone you know from outside of fandom know you write fanfic? Are they involved in the same fandom too?

yeah i’m an annoying bitch who can’t shut up about writing fic so p much all my friends/fam know i write it hahaha. and uhh i have a couple irl friends who are in the same fandoms as me but not a lot.

50. Has writing fanfic had a significant impact on your life? Would you say it’s entirely positive?

answered!

aaaaand now i think i’ve officially answered all the questions for this meme lmao

fanfic author ask meme

#sorry it took me forever to get through these askdfjd #ask memes #fanfic author ask meme #alfyrion #brigidanswers

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makorragal-312 · 4 months

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Just a little Void update for those still waiting...

Okay, so here's the deal.

I am FINALLY DONE with this damn chapter. All that needs to be done is an editing run-through and proofreading. And I was hoping to get it done today because I'm going out of the country in a few hours for the holidays and wanted to chill for the next two months once I came back.

However, due to time issues and a 10-minute glitch, I'm not gonna have time to do my final edits and post the chapter before I'm scheduled to leave for the airport.

So, Chapter 18 is gonna be posted New Year's week (specifically after New Year's Day).

Thanks for the understanding!

Happy holidays and have a happy New Year! <3

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stardust-and-blades · 6 years

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:OOOOOO Yay! Questions! Thank you so much I LOVE THESE!!!

1. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?-Believe it or not, I do. My parents and I are really chill, probs because I’m the first kid to go to college in the family and I’m not on drugs. A funny fact is my parents were drug addicts throughout my childhood, but I didn’t really know because both of them wanted to hide it from me and still give me a good childhood. They are honestly my best friends. My mom is a bit harder to get along with, especially when I got older, but my dad is the EASIEST to talk to. Minus mental health shit. He tries but he never struggled with it himself, so my mom has to teach him.

5. What is your relationship status?-Single pringle my dudes. Relationships are just not my thing. If I find one, great! If not, meh. I’ll live *reads klance fanfic to fiLL THE VOID*

70. Is there anyone you would die for?-Ooooooohh boy. Okay so not meaning to be morbid, but I would literally die for anyone bc this planet stresses me the fuck out.

In all seriousness tho, I would die for my friends and family. Not just one person. They are my world and if I lost them then the world better be ready for a fucking storm because i will rip anyone apart for hurting them.

Just call me Keith I guess hAAAAAA

Send me a number!

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fuckingxstop · 7 years

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a short rant about Keith.

so..I feel like Keith has a very small sections, and general appreciation in the fandom compared to Lance or Shiro, or even Hunk and Pidge. Everyone’s always talking about that Langest(while I’m not hating on it, I do adore it <3 and might even write some in the future) all because Lance is so see through. Keith on the other hand...is more like a dark, empty void like mystery.

But of course with my favorite PJO character being Nico, I immediately fell in love with Keith Kogane. And couldn’t help but believe there really was so much more. going on in his head that he never really said..and the voltron writers didn’t even try to think about. And that’s what bothers me..is that-well, everyone has a story..but I’ve been yet to know much of anything about Keith.. (but I haven’t watched season 3 or 4 so idk, this rant might be for nothing). And the fandom’s just..constantly making fun of Keith...and it really bugs me.. especially because it sounds all to familiar.

And can we talk about the lack of fanfiction about Keith? literally...so many fanfics, are all about Lance, Shiro or Pidge, and Keith is hardly even there unless it involves Klance..and the lack of headcannons-the fluff, its all angest, he’s a person too! (well, part galra, but that doesn’t matter!) where’s Keith being a dorky teen!? honestly, I need to see a casual episode of Voltron, where the paladins get to be friends, dorky teens coughing down junk food. demestic. that’s all I ask, I’m going to start writing some cute lil headcannons,(not including all those adorable hippo cannons) maybe klance or some other ship, idk. requests are always welcomed, but here we go. start the #Keithcanbeadorkyteentoo hashtag. :3 repost if you agree

#keith #keith (voltron)#voltron #voltron legendary defender #vld #voltron spoilers #angest #klance #rant #personal rant

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hikarimitsuko · 7 years

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Middle of the night thoughts

What I realized was...it’s not my nickname that made me feel this bad... Actually it does make me feel bad...BUT not as much as getting rid of it...So perhaps my name will change some day...or maybe not. I’m indeed sad and affected by the fact that I deleted my instagram after 4 years of working hard on building an audience...but said audience of 12k people were ghosts and mainly inactive towards anything I post. Not to whine...nothing like that, the world doesn’t owe me anything...but I do not like wasting my time or speaking in the void. I do feel bad about the fact that some of my followers were following me and encouraging me since the very start and I will definitely be nostalgic for that part and for those amazing people. Hopefully they’ll find me elsewhere.

I’ve been realizing since about a year ago that whatever I tried, to change my style, to cosplay new things, to post some art, to join new networks that would touch more people who could be interested in what I do, I realized that in the end...it’s internet people. They are not friends, never will be. I’m realistic, people follow/followed me for Levi. And anytime I’d try to do something else as well, the difference in interaction was beyond bearable. Now I never wanted to stop cosplaying Levi, but this sort of situation sort of pushed me away from him. The last few times I’ve been him, I had absolutely no fun doing him.

I think also the cosplay community has changed alot in 4 years. Not only that but there is alot of SJWs now and it’s making the community toxic... Cosplay used to be fun. I will still be doing it on my own but low profile. I will post my pics as posts but if anyone wants to see all my pics they will have to go to my fb page as this is more of a closed space where I can easily deal with toxic people and don’t really care as much if it produces absolutely no reaction.

Some will say...oh she’s still in depression. Well no, actually I’ve been off antidepressants for two weeks... and withdrawal is very bad, like VERY VERY BAD, but I know I can make it. I know I can feel good and happy once I work on things that don’t make me happy anymore. I always said: when cosplay will stop making me happy, I will stop.

It’s not really the case. I love cosplaying...but I just don’t like to do it for an audience anymore. Especially an audience that is 80% ghosts. Sometimes I wonder what steps I took that were wrong or what I could’ve done differently. Of course you compare yourself as a cosplayer and sometimes seeing people who would put about the same effort as you and started waaaay after you did or even some people who didn’t put any effort at all get so much feedback on their stuff while I was sitting there wondering if what I did was worth sharing or not. Guess insecurity, anxiety and need for validation do that, but I won’t excuse myself for being how I am.

I stopped being excited about sharing photos (photography is one of my main passions so that’s very bad)... And I started feeling like conventions didn’t give me that feeling they used to. It started feeling fake and forced and...it started feeling like a competition all the time. Without even noticing I started comparing myself and finding flaws after flaws in my things...so much that I began to hate most of my cosplays.

As you know, all of this is expensive, it’s expensive to maintain and I tried really hard to keep it going because god knows I love to cosplay...I tried ko-fi, I tried patreon, I tried commissions, I tried tutorials, I tried plenty of things...but it simply didn’t work. I know some people go ebegging all the time but frankly it gets on my nerves so I never intended on making people access my stuff for a price. I always loved seeing people smile and appreciate what I do. A simple thumbs up would make my day, but all these were gone after a while... While my wallet was getting emptier as I kept on going.

I’ll always love cosplay...but I’ll keep it for me. I’ll do it for me. I’ve been cleaning up the 40k pics I have of cosplays. And you know what? I know I did a good job. That’s all that matters. I don’t need anyone’s input on that because most of them are just pixels on a screen looking for easy and free entertainment (which is fine), but I expected too much. I didn’t want people to lurk, I wanted people to interact. In the past few days I needed help, still do but I’m done asking for any so don’t bother... And out of the approximate 18k persons following me around all social networks i’m in...do you know who helped me? 3 people.

@kozumesenpaii My closest friend.

@angelica200555 One of my most faithful followers since a long long LONG time ago and an angel

And another person who just started following me.

I know...I know that the world owes me nothing. But you’d think after 4 years of doing this...someone would care enough to offer a 3$ ko-fi. But no.

It’s fine, it’s totally fine I’m not mad (anymore cause i have to admit I was mad when I was panicking about not getting a fucking paycheck this week)... But it did make me realize that....like Max says...it’s only internet people, they don’t care.

It makes way more sense now. And I’ve accepted that. I’m in peace with it. Yesterday was a revelation. I guess I needed something to kick my ass to actually finally make a move. Deleting my instagram made me sad...and once I saw ‘’permanently deleted’’ appear... I immediately cried for 15 minutes.... It took me so long to build this. I’ve loved this so much. But I’ve loved a dream, I’ve loved a bubble and it’s been burst for a while.

Now I will love it differently. I will love cosplay/anime/art and whatever else only for me. I will post but only if I want to.

I will maybe write more fanfics or one shots if I feel like it... I do feel confident about my writing in fanfics but I don’t want to go around parading and promoting the shit out of it. They’re little hidden AO3 treasures that ereri and klance fans might stumble upon and fall in love with.

I will not censure myself either for the sake of having ‘’followers’’ that might not like what I do... I’m done living for people. I’m still not sure about name changing my stuff because my youtube and facebook pages are still under hikarimitsuko and I am keeping these so don’t you worry about that. I re-changed my tumblr and twitter back to hikari but if it makes me feel bad, i’ll just find something else later on. I changed my twitch username without noticing u have to wait 60 days to change it again so if you are looking for hikarimitsuko on twitch...it’s actually ephemere87...for the next 60 days...lol...I’ll probably change it back to hika.

SO hum I guess I wanna say thank you to those who followed me so long and kept believing in me even when I was deep in depression. I know it wasn’t always easy to read my posts because I have very negative phases towards myself...but I try to stay away as much as possible when it happens. Thanks to those who cared no matter what. Thanks to those who get genuinely worried about me. My final request would be : IF YOU ARE A GHOST FOLLOWER, PLEASE, unfollow me.

PS: For future references, I will be posting videos of ALL my cosplays on youtube eventually as compilations. Pretty sure Levi’s will last half an hour or longer lol...But anyways... I keep my youtube too for CMVs and such if the inspiration strikes.

Plan - without timeline:

-Deadpool and spidey skit (with max) - youtube

-Costest of Viktor Nikiforov (gotta style the wig) - on here and facebook

-Cosplay Keith Kogane (when I feel like it) - on here and facebook.

Thank you for these 4 years! It’s not over.

#hikarimitsuko #cosplay #ereri #klance

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pinkipie100 · 7 years

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Gone Is the Light of Your Palm

...

I’m not sure I should even post this.

I’ll not lie. This is an EXTREMELY UNCOMFORTABLE READ.

It was so draining, physically, emotionally, just to write it. It’s... honestly? It’s the single most depressing thing I’ve ever written to date. I always love to write angst, but... I didn’t even fully enjoy writing this.

It started out as an image in my head, an interesting concept, innocent enough angst, just like every other fic. But then... it got dark. It got EXTREMELY DARK. And I’m not usually disturbed by my own writing, but this...

I think it’s because I wrote a little too close to my own heart. I may have self-projected too much, made too many parallels to my real life, and written it based off of fresh wounds...

Just to be perfectly clear, I’m referring to the suicidal topic of this fic. Now, I’ve never actually lost family or a friend to suicide, but in light of Chester Bennington’s recent suicide... yeah, that’s really the first time suicide’s ever directly taken something from my life. And... I think this fic is honestly just me venting about it, projecting on parallel characters from Voltron.

I’m extremely conflicted about posting this fic, and I fear I may receive some serious flame for it. I don’t really blame people. I already know there are many people who are distraught about the way Shiro was treated this season, believe me, my best friend @lenarart wept right next to me after watching 3.5, and I know how much he means to various fans.

Sometimes, writers can’t control their visions. This is the first time it’s gotten so out of hand for me, that writing it actually made me feel physically sick. I just... don’t know how I lost control so completely...

This isn’t my first fanfic. Maybe it’s the first one I’ve posted online, but I’ve written fanfic for Avatar, Korra, and my own original writing. Angst is my specialty. I would not consider this your average angst AT ALL. If this leaves a bad taste in your mouth afterwords, don’t hesitate to unfollow me. I’ve only got, like, ten of ‘em, anyway. Follower count doesn’t matter that much to me.

Just... be safe. Read at your own risk. This contains disturbing imagery, possible reminiscent of that of panic attacks, I’m not sure. And again, there is pretty clearly implied suicide.

This is not a fluffy Klance fic. This is not hurt/comfort Shallura. This is not background Hunay.

This is something so deeply real and personal for me, I’ve truly left myself horrified at my own work.

I don’t expect you to enjoy.

Words: 2046

Category: Gen, Pidge-centric.

Contains: Major Character Death, Suicide Mention, Possibly Panic-Inducing Imagery

Takes place about 5 years in the future.

insp.

Pidge stepped down from the pod, along with several other Olkari. She let them pass by her, unwilling to look up, almost unwilling to be here at all. She already wanted to go back to Olkarion, just hide in the city, surround herself with her silent garden plants. She’d rather be surrounded by silence than the loud, loud faces.

Begrudgingly, Pidge looked up. The first face she saw was Hunk’s. He was facing her head-on. His countenance was loud. So, so loud… louder than she’d ever seen it. The Guardian of the Forest sensed a pungent sting in her heart at the sight of solid, begging tears in the bigger paladin’s eyes. Hunk refused to let them go, though, the strong anchor that he was.

Pidge’s lips wobbled. The small paladin went forth to hug Hunk unabashedly. She could still barely wrap her arms around him, but she wasn’t about to let physical reality stop her from trying to crush around Hunk’s waist, encircle him totally, until she squeezed all his sorrow out, along with banishing her own. Hunk’s arms reciprocated accordingly, reaching down to Pidge’s back. Pidge felt something thick and wet plop on top of her head, and she dared not to mention it to her friend whom she was trying so desperately to crush.

When the two finally parted, Hunk’s hands remained on top of Pidge’s shoulders. Hunk then turned and let one arm rest across her shoulders as he led her up to the rest of the funeral party.

God, why is everyone’s faces so loud?

Coran’s expression mumbled. It mumbled of not understanding, of a thirst for answers. So say we all. He looked so tired. The older Altean’s eyes were half-lidded, and his mouth hung open in a zombielike fashion. When he blinked, he did it too slowly. The man was half-alive. Everything about him was just… reduced to half of what it used to be. Except for his spontaneous cheerfulness; that was just gone. Pidge wanted nothing more than to go to him, to hug the pain away like she’d attempted to do with Hunk. But she worried that if she did, she might just snap the old man in two. Coran’s physical body was the only part of him still whole; Pidge couldn’t take that away.

Hunk escorted Pidge up to her brother. Pidge could understand every word his face was saying. The grey words lining every crease on his face, and the agonizing sympathy his face screamed at his sister. Don’t say that. She wanted to throw back all that sympathy in his face. She was the one who should be screaming comfort at him from her eyebrows, tightly knitted together. She should be boring her slightly cold amber eyes into his to give him the life to carry on. Pidge could almost laugh when she realized her and Matt’s expressions toward each other were complete mirror images, each trying to lift the other back into survival from this valley.

Hunk and Matt, too, traded solemn, supportive expressions, then Hunk gave Pidge’s shoulder as strong a squeeze as he could [it held a weakness uncharacteristic of Hunk] before grimly sauntering over to someone else in the crowd of mourners.

Pidge and Matt wandered over to the front of the congregation, meeting Lance and Keith. Quickly, even more quickly, Pidge’s blood was draining from her veins, leaving them cold. The noise was so much… Seeing those two together was deafening. Lance gave Pidge a smile. The Green Paladin could throw up. She barely registered Matt wrapping an arm around her shoulders as Hunk just had, but it must have prevented her from passing out on the spot. Pidge took a deep breath and gave Lance a weak smile back. After a moment of this, they both glanced sideways at Keith. He was like a marble tombstone. His eyes were wide open, shaking, and his pupils were pinpricks. Pidge could detect nothing but static. Loud static. Piercing static. She felt like her ears were going to bleed. But seeing Keith brought about a new kind of pain in Pidge: the pain of helplessness. Because there was nothing she could do to put a stop to the static. Lance eventually looked back at Pidge, then came forth and gave her a light hug. Pidge hugged back; somehow, though Lance’s hugs were made of water, they never failed to help her breathe. She was pulled back from the edge of insanity.

When they pulled back, they noticed her stepping up onto the podium to speak. She had left the twins with Hunk, whom had come over to take them from her arms. Thank god they were too young for this noise.

Allura took center stage on the podium. Coran stood on the ground, facing the audience, ever the protective sentinel for her, even though everyone here felt death infecting their very beings.

Pidge took in a deep breath of life through her nose, then let it go.

Then Allura spoke.

“Hello, everyone.”

Pidge’s eardrums were broken. That couldn’t have been Allura. That was not the Allura who used to shatter her ears with hope every word she said. That wasn’t her Queen Allura.

This was the voice of a broken old woman. Her voice sounded like sandpaper rubbed on ashy gravel. She stood as tall as she could on the podium, and normally, a pregnant belly would not have hindered her one bit, but her shoulders carried new life on top of a fresh, sinking death. A death so terrible and oppressive that the whole universe could feel it. This was the voice of no queen. This was the silent sound of someone gargling a dead heart in their throat.

The silence from Allura spoke of heroic deeds. Selfless actions. Persevering and inspiring in the face of insurmountable odds. Defying, no, spitting in the face of the impossible. Spending a year in hell, and coming back to still see hope and good in the broken universe that everyone else thought of as not worth saving. Losing so many essential pieces and having them warped and replaced with something demonic, but still using that vile instrument for something pure. A guiding light to so many, a light that never gave up shining on anyone, no matter how much the void tried to stamp it all out. Just take that hand, that glorious light, and you were already halfway to heaven. The first king of New Altea, the Savior of the Universe, the last Champion…

“Takashi Shirogane, the Black Paladin.”

Pidge heard a flicker as Keith woke up. His eyes could focus now. The static diminished. The Red Paladin could finally see. And it was breaking him apart like glass cracking in the fire.

Meanwhile, Pidge was going numb.

“None of us wanted to be here for a very…”

~ ~

“…very long time. We certainly never expected to be here under these circumstances. But I…”

“…understand more than many that he was in so much pain. It…”

Allura kept taking huge gulps of air between words, very unlike her when giving a speech. And they were so loud.

“…pains me to realize… ~ …that I will have to raise our… ~ …children alone. And I’m far from the only person who… ~ ~ ~”

Coran looked at Allura worriedly.

“…lost him,” Allura finally managed. Keith blinked, tender tears slipping down his cheeks for the first time. “But just because this life became too much for him, it does not… ~ …mean that we must only think of him as a tragedy.”

Matt’s eyes were slowly drowning with tears, and every paladin’s face turned up directly at the Queen.

“Far from it!” Allura managed to inflect a tiny bit more optimistically. “Everyone’s life is a ride of ups and downs. We can overcome every valley, and fly upon every high! Coping with any trauma, any grief…” Pidge’s ears twitched. She was starting to hear the real Allura again. “…is not impossible. All our hearts are heavy here and now, but… we are not done fighting. We either count on our friends,” the paladins saw that pink glint in Allura’s eyes, “our families,” Coran almost looked like he was smiling, “strangers, even,” the Olkari, Shay and the Balmerans, Slav, and the other members of the crowd lifted slightly, “even the stardust can keep us company.” Allura’s voice wobbled a bit on that last word. “The future is ahead- the future Takashi gave us. We will make the most of it, and make him proud from wherever he is watching.”

Pidge witnessed the casket carriers lower Shiro down, his body made beautiful and broken one last time, exposing all his perfect flaws and damn beautiful tarnishes, yes, even the burn that he ended his life with, and she almost thinks she can hear a melody in this noise.

Lance, Keith, Matt, Pidge, Coran, Allura, Hunk. They stood in a straight line facing Shiro’s grave. Their shoulders were all perfectly squared off. Like seven sentries greeting visitors to the grave.

Breathe.

No one speaks.

Breathe.

Grey clouds and the empty, flat, wind-blown grassland expand around them to reemphasize how alone they are.

Just breathe, Katie.

The sound synthesizer starts playing behind her.

Go. Be great.

The melody from before picks up.

“Should have stayed… were the signs I ignored.

Can I help you not to hurt anymore?”

Lance let his lips go slack, closing his eyes. Keith sniffled, breathing strained.

“We saw brilliance when the world was asleep.”

Allura, now holding her twins, let her warriorlike facade down for now. Instead, she looked like an ocean.

“There are things that we can have, but can’t keep.”

Coran’s breathing had to be cold, meticulously calculated, mechanical. Controlled.

“If they say,”

Katie’s voice wavers at these lines, but she won’t let up.

“Who cares if one more light goes out

In a sky of a million stars?

It flickers, flickers.

Who cares when someone’s time runs out

If a moment is all we are?”

Her diaphragm stings like acidic ice. She’s unfazed.

“We’re quicker, quicker.

Who cares if one more light goes out?

Well, I do.”

Katie knew these next lines were going to hurt. She just had to stay alive. Just survive.

You can do this. For Shiro.

“The reminder...”

That already felt like a javelin through the stomach.

“…pulled the floor, from your feet.”

It was unclear whether Hunk’s arm had spread the trembling to Allura’s shoulders, or if it was the other way around.

Katie braced her voice for the next lines.

“In the kitchen… one more chair than you need.”

Keith sobbed. He cracked and shattered and splintered and combusted and quaked and convulsed and he wept. Right into the crook of Lance’s neck, as a crying Matt hung his head and clasped Keith’s closest shoulder.

“Oooh...”

Katie’s stance had been stock still throughout the entire song so far. Feet spread, unshakable, shoulders tensed and squared, hands tight but open at her sides. This was where that would all change.

“And you’re angry… and you should be…

It’s not fair…”

Hands became claws.

“Just ’cause you can’t see it…”

Voice cold iron.

“…doesn’t mean it…”

Melody a warsong.

“Isn’t there, if they say,

Who cares if one more light goes out,

In a sky of a million stars?

It flickers, flickers.

Who cares when someone’s time runs out,

If a moment is all we are?!

We’re quicker, quicker-

Who cares if one more light goes out,

Well, I do.”

Finally, the instrumental break. Katie needed to surface after drowning. She breathed, albeit shallowly. She could sense the mutual pain around her. Her fists clenched so tight, she could have broken someone’s neck. Katie realized she had doubled over, hinged at the hips, knees slightly bent, and she tore her vocal chords asunder when she preached,

“I DO!!!”

A sob of an inhale, and,

“If they say,”

The last lines sounded like shit as she wept them out.

“Who cares if one more light goes out,

In a sky of a million stars…

It flickers. Flickers…

Who cares when someone’s… time runs out.

If a moment is all we are?!

We’re quicker, quicker!

Who care if one more light goes out...”

“Well, I do…”

“…I do.” Gentle, like a proud breath on the wing.

#voltron #voltron fanfic #my broken perfect nonsense #shirangst #seriously #read at your own risk #pidge gunderson #pidge #takashi shirogane #shiro

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donnarider · 7 years

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Some random facts and rl shit

This post is sort of a behind the scenes for chapter 3 of my Klance soulmate au

First some random (fun?) facts:

Like the nerds we are me, my beta&friend @alteanmoonchild, @beetle-love, and @lee1810 actually celebrated Lance’s birthday. We put on face masks and watched voltron, it was glorious ^-^

I had immense difficulties with the texts. I’m the dad friend™ (gonna cosplay Shiro) and wrote everything in proper English and all. Everytime alteanmoonchild made me delete an apostrophe or end a sentence without a period, I died a little inside.

The disgusting tea Lance drinks and Keith’s “Heathen” reaction were inspired by an actual conversation me and alteanmoonchild had when she told me about a chai latte coconut thing with white choclate or something. (ewww)

The restaurant scene also sparked a dicussion about what food Lance and Keith would order and eventually led to the pineapple pizza debate. (also ewww)

We had quite a few food/drink debates, e.g. when making cocoa, do you put in milk first or the powder (I do milk - powder, she does powder - milk) we almost started a war.

At one point we were pretty tired (3am or something) and couldn’t form coherent senteces anymore, I’d like to quote myself here for a sec “Talk is a word right?”

The sentences “Thx Keith”, “Keith shook his had in fucking disgust” and “he vomited rainbows” existed at some point. (again, we were really tired)

Writing a fanfic together is so much more fun! 11/10 would recommend!

Now on why I took forever to update:

In case you didn’t know, I failed university a couple of months ago and dropped out. Bascially I failed an advanced Japanese test 3 times (because mental health was shit and Japanese is hard) and therefore could not continue my studies. I was almost finished with my major (English) but would have had to start a new minor from scratch to get my bachelor, meaning I would have had to study 3 more years (I already had 3 and 1/2 years behind me at that point so thanks but no thanks) Stupid German system

Anyways... I worked at a clothing store part time for a couple of months until I could apply for a full-time job and this past month I suddenly got more hours than usually at that store. So yeah... work was in the way.

Then I had to apply for a new actual job, had job interviews and then had to work a couple of days at that job so they could decide if they wanted to hire me. Good news: I got the job. It’s actually an apprenticeship (is that what you call it in America? idfk) in the most wonderful bookshop I’ve ever been to. We have a fucking café in their, a juice stand, a carrousel in the children’s section and a roof terrace where the customers can read. It’s beautiful and giant and I feel so blessed to be given this chance honestly. The English novel section alone is to die for. Anyway that starts in two days and I’m stressed and scared and feel like dying but yeah... I’m also really really happy!

Because the new job is in another city and I can’t drive two hours every day and rely on public transportation (which is shit in the part of Germany I live in) I’ve also been looking for a new flat. So more stress.

A lot of my free time is ‘lost’ to my #1 hobby, cosplay. We had a big con last month where we cosplay greek gods in a big group and I worked on my cosplay for quite a while. (I was Poseidon and had to build a trident and all) If you’re interested in that, check out my cosplay tag.

Mental health’s been a bitch. I had a lot of void days and basically just lay in bed a lot. I had existencial crisis almost daily because if I hadn’t gotten that job I would have had to move in with my parents again and I’d rather die. Also my funny little brain kept telling me that everything that I write is complete garbage so that wasn’t helping either. You can all thank alteanmoonchild for motivating me and always offering to help, without her this would have probably taken another month.

So yeah, this is it. I don’t feel like I have to justify why it took me so long because I have a life after all but I just wanted to let you guys know this so you have some background and can understand it better. Thanks to everyone who actually took the time and read this ♥

#personal #things you never wanted to know #klance #klance soumate au

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