#knowing oneself

[outstanding-quotes]

This very heart which is mine will forever remain indefinable to me.

Albert Camus, “The Myth of Sisyphus”

#albert camus #the myth of sisyphus #philosophy #absurdism #philosophical essay #french literature #heart #self #knowing oneself

[bryverros]

pretty sure both photos are from dallas’s ig (the first one definitely is, don’t remember where the second one’s from)

#i have my priorities straight: drawing zukka > sleep #on an entirely irrelevant note does anyone know good ways to force oneself to stay awake #avatar the last airbender #atla #atla fanart #zuko #sokka #zukka #zukka fanart #ceesar(t)

[living-with-bipolar]

"Today, I will own my power with people. I will let myself know what I know, feel what I feel, believe what I believe, and see what I see. I will be open to changing and learning from others and experience, but I will trust and validate myself too. I will stand in my own truth."

Melody Beattie

#melody beattie #hope #self growth #daily motivation #motivating quotes #inspirational thoughts #inspirational quotations #self healing #self image #codepency #codependant #experience #knowing oneself #validation #emotions

[snakeguy999]

'How to render fast' 'how i painted this in one hour' 'tips for quick and easy shading' 'how to draw like a pro in a month' 'how to make your sketchbook beautiful' 'fastest shading method' how about have fun for once

#not art #ive worked as an illustrator i know the stress of tight deadlines #but most of these videos are clearly targeted at beginners and are presented as integral to ones artistic development #your art when it is most personal and out of passion is not a product but an extension of you #why must one turn oneself into a machine? making a kitsch out of your own art? what is the point? #disheartening....just draw scared as they say

[mirrorbird]

so I was thinking about my character type and then I spent the evening making a character sheet.

a couple fun examples of my own OCs, who I was thinking of when building this:

#character sheet #on my behavior #writing #character building #knowing one's type #dragging oneself #writing tools #writing resources

[crazy-dane-art]

"He was no true knight," she whispered to him.

#my art #asoiaf #asoiaf fanart #valyrianscrolls #sansa stark #sandor the hound clegane #technically. joff come get your dog hes using a kid as a therapist again #been in this situation a couple times myself 0/10 cannot recommend #edit: not intended to be ship but feel free to continue tagging that way. just wanna clear that up ! #art is subjective ! artist commentary is that it's based on the feeling of overlooking oneself while comforting adults as a young child #yeehaw the more you know carry on having fun 🫡

[martyrbat]

batman: gotham knights #2

‘Her experience of being trained almost from birth as an assassin leaves her less than fully able to acknowledge her own capacity for good. Not for doing good. But for being good. He knows all of his partners, sometimes better than he knows himself. He knows, for instance, that if Dick—Nightwing—had disobeyed his order to come back to the ship, it would have been because of his need to be useful—and because of his unabating desire to demonstrate his filial loyalty. He knows that if—Tim—Robin—had come back, it would have been because of his empathy, his inability to leave someone else in harm's way. Jason, the one he lost—he was headstrong and disregarded orders as a matter of rebellious individuation. Batman doesn't want to lose another one, which is why he wishes he didn't so well understand what brings this one back.’

#im gonna throw up. #bruce & cass #the recognition of oneself in the other and the despair at knowing what cass feels. #theyre both always going to be children with blood coating their hands and guilt devouring their minds. #they're both always going to blame themselves. bruce for not preventing the deaths of his parents. cass for taking a life. #despite it being irrational. he was a child and thats all they knew and were raised for. #the martyr complexes and how people would call them suicidal for the way they live for others with neglecting their own well-being. #forever heedless of the costs to themselves #they literally make me feel insane GOD !!!!!! #c: batman: gotham knights | i: 2 #crypt's panels #batman #bruce wayne #cassandra cain #batgirl

[ride-a-dromedary]

Again I know it's supposed to be a haha reference to the turns into a bear when he's too aroused thing, but in again refusing to brush just over the surface of this character: "I must be careful or I'll lose run of myself again. An Archdruid should show *some* restraint." comes across to me as more melancholy than perhaps intended when a. You take it into consideration that several lines imply that Halsin has issues with self control and self servitude, and presenting an "acceptable" version of himself as an outwards facing authority figure, to the point where he brushes over his own feelings, or pushes things that he wants down in the effort to reflect better what others want from him.

And b. Remember that Halsin was essentially just an apprentice when he was forcibly situationally promoted to Archdruid - he wasn't taught *how* to be an Archdruid or trained for it, or mentored; he was thrust into it because they didn't have any other choice. But they needed someone, so he stepped up. Halsin has spent the last century studying and learning things on the fly or through trial and error, and in a position of leadership like that, he is aware that every failure to uphold that mask *counts* and others *are* very much affected. How many times has he muttered that same mantra? Or heard it thrown around? An Archdruid not having control over their own magic is a big deal. Even when he is no longer Archdruid, he still grumbles it to himself. He's been at it over a century and he *still* doesn't feel like he's gotten it right. Even when he is in a place of progression, of trying to gain hold of himself again, those wisps of failure and self doubt still creep into everything. And that's sad to me.

#BG3 Musing #Halsin Posting #haha funny line in response to saucy line that man is about to go feral ooh se- HEY TRAUMA #it's like a med student being promoted to the head of emergency #or an admin assistant suddenly being put in a ceo role #like i know it's a meme scene!! but halsin sounds *humilated* when he accidentally wildshapes during his romance scene #he sounds flustered and embarrassed and is so quickly launching off excuses with a tone that indicates *he thinks it's over* #like he fucked up he fucked this up just when he was *starting* to come into himself again and it never stops #i keep thinking of that one lyric from big thief 'i can't find surrender/and i can't keep control' #and again i'm reading too deep into it but halsin's struggle with failure really is embedded here you just have to...like listen to him #Even when he *says* that there's little point in denying oneself #he does it literally all the time - he did it for a *century* #and i'm not saying he doesn't have fun or not enjoy things but he cuts himself off so early at the root #or buries himself so thoroughly in a self indulgence until it wrecks him and neither of these things are healthy #note that he says as long as others aren't affected - he doesn't say as long as i'm not affecting *myself* #anyway i'm unwell #maybe i was never meant to be archdruid - you weren't! you were meant to protect nature's spirit and roam with the wilds #and yet he still did the best he could and people *admire* him and followed him but he may never come to see it that way #you ruined a perfectly good wood elf - look it's got trauma and anxiety (and larian turned him into a meme and i won't forgive them)

[aspiringnexu]

Okay, so, Alastor theory. As far as I know nobody's discussed why Alastor ever made such an apparently disadvantageous deal.

I mean, his power is apparently leashed. He cannot access his true strength. He essentially handicapped himself in Hell. Alastor detests not being in control, he craves power because it nets him control and therefore nets him safety and security, a very rare commodity for a demon. Even an Overlord.

So why the hell would Alastor make such a shitty deal? He's a dealmaker, he knows how this works, it can't just be the result of tricky wording, there must have been something else at play.

Additionally, I'm in the camp that its Eve that has something to do with it. Lilith makes sense of a sort but why would she leash Alastor and then have him help Charlie with a project that would piss off Heaven? She's Lilith, she knows that trying to bypass the initial judgement and redeeming yourself would upset the bigwigs in Heaven. She knows they don't like having their rules bent and twisted. She gains nothing from pissing off the Heavenly Host by indirectly helping her daughter. She made a mysterious deal with Adam to get into Heaven, why would she knowingly jeopardise that?

But why would Eve care? Simple. She feels like Lucifer and Lilith betrayed her by gifting her the apple from the Tree of Knowledge. They betrayed her and she was forced into a life of pain and suffering with a husband who she realised didn't truly love her and children who started to turn on each other the moment they could. And then that same husband (or ex-husband by that point) turns around millennia later and gets Lilith into Heaven.

What the fuck?

So Eve decides that the best way to sort this out is to do what Lilith supposedly did. Betrayal disguised as assistance. Charlie is a well-known bleeding heart by now, all Eve need do is find a way to stoke that altruism until it becomes a Problem that Heaven needs to solve. Poke the altruistic bear enough and that Problem will blossom into a Shitstorm that'll drag Lilith off of her cosy perch in Heaven to sort out her wayward daughter and try to avoid Heaven deciding to exterminate every demon in Hell. Plus it'll give Adam a headache which is only a plus in Eve's eyes. And what better way to help the Princess than gift-wrapping Hell's most powerful Overlord and depositing him on her doorstep?

Her ultimate goal might be provoking an all-out war or simply petty-revenge that'll eventually get out of hand but I digress.

How does she persuade Alastor to accept such a shitty, hampering, restricting joke of a deal?

Again, simple. She's in Heaven and as such has access to angelic steel and a plethora of souls. Including Alastor's mother. The only person he ever truly loved in his life.

I'm willing to bet Alastor would do anything to safeguard his mother. Even selling his own soul.

Of course there's still the seven-year gap to tackle but who says Alastor didn't spend those seven years in Heaven? Maybe Eve managed to smuggle him up there and disguise him, let him enjoy seven years of bliss by his mother's side before blindsiding him with her ultimatum. Makes the clipped wings comment more literal.

Just my thoughts, of course, but I really can't see why else Alastor would sign his own soul away if not to protect the one person he lets himself love. He hardly made the deal for power if the deal restricted his powers and he was certainly in no danger from the other Overlords. So he made the deal, he saved his mother, but that doesn't mean he's not gonna try to find a way out of it.

#hazbin hotel #alastor #hazbin theory #the radio demon #I really just want Alastor's devotion to his mother to be a major plotpoint #The man is a cannibalistic serial killer but he loves his mother and that is too tempting a weakness not to exploit for angst #it'd also be the first time we know of where a deal is made to protect someone else instead of saving oneself or to try and get something #Great Alastor Altruist sold his soul to protect his maman and now he's paying the price #it's why he's so touchy about it #nothing else riles Alastor more than reminders of his own weakness #he's definitely being used to further someone's agenda but I don't think it's for Charlie's benefit #Those pesky feelings of friendship and family are gonna come and bite Alastor in the behind when it comes time to be forced to betray them

[nashvillethotchicken]

The way louis has always had his sense of self created by his proximity to others because hes never been alone in his life...

#Jacob Anderson #louis de pointe du lac #interview with the vampire #like louis has been lonely before. everyone has #but theres something about living and being alone that helps shape ones sense of self that louis hasnt gotten yet #his whole life hes been someones something. someones/son/father/wife/husband/whipping boy/partner #i dont thinks hes ever had to be louis. i dont even think hed know how to be just louis bc he “thrives” being partnered #and frankly i dont know if hed want to. being alone and knowing oneself is hard and what if he doesnt like him? #like really doesnt like him

[nonasemporium]

points at how john interacts with, talks about, and even resurrected g1deon

points at how john engages with augustine in comparison to both g1deon and mercy (will get more into in just a second)

points at how ianthe sought power in her relationship to john by shifting to a more masculine presentation, when before she had a relatively feminine presentation

points at how john seems to take some extra joy out of both shaping alecto into the appearance of a white woman and also how he seems to feel a very specific facet of power in how he engages with mercy, who is also presumably a white woman

points at the concept that if pyrrha WAS a white woman there's a very specific exchange in how john perceives and engages with her relationship to g1deon

points at how cavaliers are repeatedly referred to, in some way, as largely darker in skin-tone than the necromancers AND how they're constantly described with/compared to beasts in some sense

points at how john is fixated on the roman empire and also catholocism

points at actual catholicism (and the history it has with race and colorism)

now.

is it hard to see how colorism is also a possible read into his character

#discussion on colorism #john gaius #white ppl do not come crying to me about him being maori I know he is maori #that's in fact a huge part of the reading I have #don't misunderstand me on my point for mercy and alecto's form lol #it's specifically on the idea that there IS power to gain in dominating/demeaning white women #to engage and position oneself closer to white masculinity #I've been around so many men of color who have taken their trauma with race out in a very specific and similar way #opens my mouth and bats fly out of it because I have too many words to even transcribe a third of them

[lainalit]

#since we don't know if rhysand banned children from these camps I will assume that their still trained there #rhysand out here building soldiers from a young age so they become canon fodder for velaris #rhysand literally would say to this children that they should pull oneself up by the boot straps and go die for their court #who doesn't give a shit about them #acotar critical #sjm critical #anti sjm #anti acotar #anti rhysand #anti ic #anti inner circle #acotar memes

[cerise-on-top]

Hiiiii how have you been love bug? (Please tell me if your uncomfortable with that term since you are non-binary and they/them I’m not sure what nicknames you are uncomfortable with it’s just what I call my friends and just a nickname I have for people in general🫶🏻🫶🏻 ) so I’d like to to request farah with a adhd reader who is hyper forgetful and sometimes has meltdowns ( as someone with adhd)🧡🧡🧡

Hey! I'm fine! Bought some more yarn for my leftover blanket today, which I'm excited to work on! And don't worry, I think love bug is really cute! I don't mind most nicknames, but thank you for being considerate, I really do appreciate it! Hope you're doing well as well ^^

I don't have ADHD, so I don't know at all what it's like for someone with it! I had to do some research on it, so I don't know if these are actually viable methods of helping, but I tried! Please do correct me with something that might help and I'll add it in this post afterwards! I hope this is enjoyable to you regardless! Thank you for the request!

Farah with a Reader with ADHD

Farah doesn’t particularly know a lot about mental illnesses. She may be traumatized, yes, but that doesn’t mean she ever had the time to research any of them. So she’s definitely not the best person to go to when it comes to things like these, but she tries, even if she can’t always understand everything that’s going on. You’re suffering, and that’s enough for her to know she should do something to help you.

You being this forgetful may be a cause of concern for her, though. It’s not every day she meets someone who forgot what they did five minutes prior. It’s especially concerning when it’s something important, though, like seeing a doctor. Although she may be worried for you potentially developing something as severe as dementia eventually, she’ll try to push her worries aside and help you to the best of her abilities. If you ever need reminders, she can help you. Farah remembers and retains things very well, she’s never had any issues with it since she had to in order to get by. If you need to remember something, she’ll remind you a few times a day. You have an appointment? Don’t forget about it tomorrow, I’ll tell you again then. However, she’s also a big fan of post its and will write down whatever it is you may need and place it somewhere she knows you’re going to see it. I know, out of sight, out of mind, but she’ll also text you and have you make reminders on your phone for important things so you don’t forget. Won’t get mad at you for forgetting your anniversary, she can see that it’s hard for you to remember things and won’t yell at you or anything either. However, she will mention that it was your anniversary, or maybe her birthday. For the most part she just wants to spend those days with you, if she can, and will thus remind you. Again, you don’t need to feel ashamed for forgetting, she’ll tell you that it’s quite alright and that you shouldn’t worry. She’s patient like that.

If you have a meltdown in front of her, she definitely would not know what to do at first. Depending on what kind of meltdown it is, she’ll react differently. If it creeps up on you, slowly making you irritated, then she’ll ask you what’s wrong. Regardless of your answer, she’ll ask you how she can help you, if you would like to be left alone or if you would like to take a small break in any way. She gets it and she’ll get you away from whatever is stressing you out so you can slowly recharge. If you really do want to be left alone for a while, she will comply, but will knock on your door to check up on you every once in a while and will bring you some food as well. Farah just wants you to be well, so she’ll take care of you how she thinks might help. Food is always good, food usually helps her, so she hopes it’ll do the same for you as well.

If it’s a sudden meltdown where you don’t know where left and right are anymore, then she’ll get you away from everyone else at first. While she can’t imagine what it’s like for you, it likely isn’t very pleasant for you to be crying and screaming in front of other people. Hoping that you trust her, she’ll try to ground you, asking you how you’re feeling, what you’re feeling and how she could help you. What happened is also another question she would ask you. Again, she won’t really know what to do on her own, but she tries her best. Farah will talk to you in a soothing tone and try to distract you at first so you can calm down a bit. Whether it be cracking a joke or asking you about your top five favorite reptiles. Even if you can’t answer her properly, she’ll just reassure you that it’s okay, that everything is just bad in this moment and that it’ll pass. She’s with you this entire time and won’t leave you unless you want her to. Asks you to breathe a bit with her. In all your time being together, she’s likely learned a breathing technique or two that might help you.

Once your meltdown is over, she’ll be very gentle with you, especially if she can see you’re beating yourself up over it. You really shouldn’t feel ashamed for something that you can’t help, it’s not your fault. If you feel especially down, she’ll give you a kiss on the forehead and get some ice cream with you. Something like a meltdown seems exhausting to her. While she doesn’t want to seem like she’s rewarding you for having a meltdown, she does want you to be kind to yourself afterwards, that’s what the ice cream is for. And if you don’t want ice cream, then some berries, fruits or a small snack will suffice as well. Either way, she’s there for you the entire time until you feel better.

#cod #cod x reader #farah karim #farah karim x reader #I didn't think anyone at all would notice or remember that I'm non binary #I don't really mention that fact as much as other things but it makes me happy that some people do pay attention! #also love bug is a really cute nickname! your friends must be very lucky to have someone like you in their lives! #again I don't have ADHD I only have schizophrenia and there doesn't seem to be too much of an overlap among them #so I really don't know what it's like to live with ADHD but I get the forgetfulness #I have so many reminders on my phone and on small paper notes it's incredible #I also journal every day so I don't forget what I did during the day. that's one of my best habits yet #but yeah I'm also the kind of person who can't remember what they did five minutes ago and it's so very frustrating #sometimes I wanna look something up on google only to forget five seconds later what it was #sometimes retracing my steps helps me remember but not always unfortunately it's very annoying #but we are just so very strong for living with our mental illnesses!! #being mentally ill is exhausting and I can't think of any positives either #I know it may seem hard at times but it's important to be patient with oneself. I learned that the hard way #so please do be kind to yourself anon! you deserve it! you seem like such a nice person!

[mizukiko-kun]

something something being the only one shirtless in a conversation about opening up to your friend and your crush

#i was taught that there's a connection between mr darcy in the 2005 film wearing his shirt open at the end and him finally opening up #you know. revealing oneself both physically and mentally and all #but boy... #this is VERY revealing #but that's the end of my thoughts. they can't go very far with him looking like that #my adventures with superman #maws #also he looks like he could pose for one of those very passionate romance fiction covers #you know the ones with wild shirtless men and half-undressed women with the forest as the background lol

[irritablepoe]

covered in blood and baring blood-stained fangs like a wild dog would be my ideal state rn, alas I am not doing that but - again, like I usually am in such times - rotting in bed instead.

#johnny's silly rambles #can't a guy just be feral for like 5 min? #you know. werewolves truly are onto sth #like once a month you can be a dick (a human biting and perhaps eating monster) #and then when you're angry at sth otherwise you can just breathe like “a few days til i can let it out” #like at least they have a coping strategy that isn't repressing and turning anger against oneself #*shrugs* TELL ME I'M WRONG

[bybdolan]

so much of gaylor analysis is like a rich tapestry woven out of connections to obscure queer imagery and code and then you look at the media Taylor actually claims to be inspired by and it is American Classics Everybody Knows or Netflix Movie.

#It's always like. God I love learning about that stuff but i don't think taylor knows #And i know this isn't the point of the majority of these posts!!! And it's more about making the connection for oneself and the community #But once in a while there is a 'she's being so loud!!!' in there and. Is she really #EDIT also this is not to say Taylor is stupid or whatever. She has pretty mainstream taste that's all #Which is not correlated to any kind of intelligence