#kokichi still cares for gonta. that shows after gontas execution.

[wisheduponastar]

The Villain (1.8k words, Gen and M/M)

For Day 27 of @danganronpashipmonths Saioma month. Inspired by the prompt : Identity Crisis

After the fourth trial, something in Kokichi breaks. He doesn't care about his plan, he doesn't care (as much) about finding the mastermind. He regrets everything, and he doesn't want to be the villain anymore. He just wants to be treated as human, to not have everyone hate him.

As he breaks down, he wonders if it's too late for forgiveness. The he ends up at Shuichi's door, pressing the buzzer.

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“Everyone… hates me… so the role of villain is perfect for me…”

“I wanna enjoy this game filled with suspicion and betrayal from the bottom of my heart!”

“The more you suffer, the more I enjoy it.”

Trying not to run away, to curl up and hide, Kokichi continued to stalk towards the exit. He was breathing through his nose, to avoid the tell-tale signs of his ragged breath. But that just meant he could smell metallic blood. Bright pink, and choking, Horrible. Reminding him of Gonta’s execution, of Kirumi’s, of so many deaths… The scent of blood made him want to throw up.

Bile did pool in Kokichi’s throat, just as he reached the elevator. He managed to push the door shut, waited for it to close, before Kokichi allowed himself to sink to the floor. Trembling almost as much as the machine he was riding in. But he forced down the bile, and he forced back what few tears were threatening to show themselves. He was the villain for god's sake, a self-proclaimed one at that. And with everything he had done… a self-made one as well.

Kokichi couldn’t afford for anyone to see him cry. No-one deserved to see Kokichi cry, either. Not any of his ‘classmates’ and certainly not the people watching, whoever they were. They didn’t deserve anything, let alone something near his true emotions. So as the elevator creaked that little bit more, signifying the ride being over, Kokichi forced himself to his feet. Standing slightly unsteadily, he left the elevator. He left the entire shrine of judgement, only stiffening slightly as he heard the elevator lower itself again. So everyone else would be out soon. He could face them.

As soon as he had left the shrine, more bile suddenly pooled in his throat. As silent as everything was, his fight or flight instinct began to kick in. His brain replacing the silence with the buzz of insects, the crackle of fire, a horrible cough. He shouldn’t have multiple people in his life coughing up blood. Kokichi shouldn’t… Kokichi shouldn’t even be here. It isn’t fair. He isn’t the villain.

No, with everything he’s done that’s wrong. He is the villain. But he shouldn’t have to be, even if this role did seem to be made for him. But that wasn’t fair. Being this… person, wasn’t truly Kokichi. He was a pacifist. The worst thing he had done before the killing game was petty crime, and pranks. A theft from an overzealous jewellery store. But never murder. He shouldn’t have had to resort to murder, he didn’t want to resort to murder.

Eventually, Kokichi found himself at the library. Staring up at a pile of neatly stacked books. No-one had touched them since Kaede had. The only changes in this library had been the removal of Rantaro’s blood, and the rest of the crime scene. Moving almost on autopilot, Kokichi swung open the hidden door - looking at the card reader. He’d taken Shuichi’s idea of placing dust there. And it had been disturbed, from when he’d most recently placed more on. So Kokichi put more dust on, trying and failing to pretend like this day was any other.

But he was trying to catch the mastermind. He wasn’t all bad, at least not yet. His objective was still to ruin this game, which wasn’t villainous. At least, he was fairly sure it wasn’t villainous. He’d become so caught up in everything that had happened, he wasn’t sure if what he was doing was right. But Kokichi was trying. He was trying.

The night time announcement played, and Kokichi still didn’t move. At one point, he’d picked up a book from the library. Eyes scanning over the letters without reading them, fingers numbly turning the pages. It must have been… almost midnight when Kokichi finally hit the end of the book. He blinked suddenly, as if going out of a trance. Turning the book over in his hand, Kokichi checked what it was. ‘The philosophy of a hero’ by some random professor. Of course Monokuma would put this in here.

As Kokichi closed the book, his finger caught on a slightly textured bit of the page. It had been wet. He looked down at it closer, the small circle shape the water damage was in. Almost subconsciously, Kokichi brought a hand up to his face, briefly dabbing at his cheeks. They were wet. He had been crying…

The realisation brought more tears. He was crying like he did when he wanted to fake it. Except this time they just wouldn’t stop. His throat was hurting, his eyes were hunting. Everything… everything hurt. Kokichi was still crying as he began to move again. He didn’t want to be the villain he’d made himself.

Numbly, Kokichi got up. He was still aware he was crying, he could feel the tears running down his face. He could taste the saltiness, ever so slightly. But at least he wasn’t tasting blood. Still moving, although he wasn’t sure where too, he focused on his footsteps. At least they could fill the silence, so his brain didn’t fill it in for him. He’d had enough of screams for one day. He’d had enough of screams for a lifetime.

Moving under the dome, the ‘end wall’, Kokichi didn’t bother to look up at the stars. They weren’t stars from their galaxy, at the very least. But they might have still been real, just new constellations - from wherever they were in space. He moved back to the dormitory, eventually. The doors opening as he approached.

For a second Kokichi simply stood there as they opened, staring and wondering if he wanted to go in. He didn’t, of course. But he needed to sleep, and he wanted someone to take his mind off today. Taking a deep breath, that was nowhere near as calming as he would’ve liked, Kokichi stepped into the dormitory building. It was silent, and there was no movement except his door closing behind him.

Kokichi wasn’t sure if he could face going into his room. The whiteboard on there, the people he’d have to move to dead… The things from each case, lying around. The reminder that he needed to get something from this trial as well; so he could complete the set. But with everything around, Kokichi wasn’t sure if he could face his room. Kokichi wasn’t even sure if he could face himself… who he’d become.

Maybe it was because something about Shuichi calmed him, maybe it was because Shuichi’s room was so close to the dormitory’s entrance; but Kokichi found himself outside Shuichi’s room. Looking at the buzzer, he brought a hand up to press it - only to realise he was still holding the book. ‘The philosophy of a hero’. How ironic for him. But the book didn’t stop him, and something made him press the buzzer anyway.

As he brought the book to his chest, he scowled as a tear fell onto it. Why was he still crying? The execution had been hours ago. Why was he still crying? And why were they falling faster again? How come tears were still falling, and his throat was still hurting? He was doing the breathing exercises, he should be able to control his tears. They shouldn’t be painful, and they shouldn’t be out of control. What had happened wasn’t even that traumatic, was it-

A pair of arms suddenly enveloped him. It was a hug. Gently, someone pulled Kokichi towards themselves - and ignoring every instinct, Kokichi let them. He leaned into the hug, resting his head into the person's chest. Listening to their heartbeat, and trying to stop sobbing. The book he was holding had crashed to the floor, but his chest wasn’t hurting as badly anymore. It was horrible now, just uncomfortable.

For almost a minute, Kokichi let himself be in the person’s arms. Something in him was too tired to care about this. There was a part of him that was just relieved someone cared. Someone didn’t think he was a horrible monster, a villain. Someone who believed in Kokichi, even when he didn’t.

But eventually common sense came back to him, and he struggled out of the grip. They let him go without resistance, but a slightly shocked noise. A slightly sad noise. Blinking to get rid of any remaining tears, because there were some, Kokichi squinted briefly to make out who it was that had hugged him. Who was still treating him as a human, even after all he’d done. And it was Shuichi…

Shuichi was standing there, patient and kind and caring. He hadn’t questioned why Kokichi was here, or why he had been crying. He just helped. And then something in Kokichi snapped. He didn’t care about keeping up his pretence as the mastermind, and being the self-proclaimed villain. He just wanted to talk to someone. He just wanted someone… not to hate him. The words rushed out of Kokichi before he could think, “I’m sorry.”

And then, as an afterthought, “I… I don’t want to be the villain anymore.”

Shuichi looked at him for a second, understanding flickering in his eyes, “I don’t want you to be either. Do you… want to come in?”

Kokichi nodded stiffly, moving into the room and quickly looking around. It was incredibly bare, compared to his at least. Just the basics, with nothing else attached. Although Kokichi knew what his looked like wasn’t exactly normal. For once, words didn’t come easily to him, and the two sat in silence for a while. Eventually, Kokichi took a breath, only slightly wincing at how his voice sounded, “I… I regret what I’ve done. I was doing it because I thought I could end this stupid game and have us get out together as friends. And I know it was baseless - and I do have a plan, and it’s working. But everyone hating me just feels-”

“I will never hate you, Kokichi,” the interruption is soft, gentle even. Reaching slightly out, Shuichi takes Kokichi’s hand, running his thumb over the back of Kokichi’s hand. “And I forgive you… this situation is the villain, not you.” “But-” there’s bitterness in Kokichi’s voice, and he yanks his hand back, “I’m a murderer!”

“You were scared,” Shuichi corrects, “What you did wasn’t… the best thing to do. But we’re teenagers, we’re in a death game. It isn’t us.” “I’m still a villain.”

“Do you want to be?”

Kokichi looks up, as though shocked at the question. His choices run through his mind for a second, and he feels slightly sick, “No…” “Then you’re not,” Shuichi says firmly, “And we’re going to fix this together.”

“Realllly?” A slight teasing tone enters Kokichi’s voice, but beneath it there’s a genuine question. Insecurity.

Shuichi just takes his hand again, with a small smile, “I promise.”

#danganronpashipmonth2023 #saioma #saiouma #omasai #shuichi x kokichi #kokichi x shuichi

[catgirl-catboy]

Finally someone who gets the symbolism in him, he is very greatly crafted and very symbolical one and it hurts to see people just care about Inori's death and reduced him just Inori's murderer.

Gosh I love him.

And I believe he and Taka can actually tolerate eachother, it is fun to Imagine my favourite characters interaction.

Well I would agree Kanade being a victim in some degree, her parents really bad parents and it did not help she was bullied too, there is no positive figure for her but still she is very bad about finding coping mechanisms!

And which character dynamics would great to see other than Byakuya and Taka?

I'm gonna write the last part of this first because I have a list!

Mondo and Junko are perfect foils, but he has to go and die before they can interact. They literally committed the same crime, but one of them regrets it an aaa. I am actively resisting the urge to write a fic about those two due to scheduling.

I know we get an entire set of FTEs, but I'd really like more interactions between Makoto and Mukuro in the main storyline. I love Sayaka, but can Muku have like, 20% of that screentime. If I were in charge of writing the series, I'd have her actually develop her crush on Makoto here and get cold feet about this whole plan, and then have her defy Junko for real. We can still get her dying lines, but in a "how did you know I was going to betray you before even I did" way.

Speaking of Mukuro, can I drag you down into rarepair hell with Mukuro and Celeste? There's so much potential there for drama. Celeste is an Ult. Gambler, she is the most likely to catch onto the fact some shady shits going on. Celeste wants to be served and Mukuro has served others her whole life. Its such an interesting concept that we never got to see.

Taka and Toko are also an interesting one. I imagine that the possibility of Toko being locked up for a crime Syo committed would challenge his already shaky sense of justice. I also think he'd be torn about her self loathing. On one hand, she's a genius. On the other hand, anyone can work hard enough to overcome their flaws. Also, Toko is a romance novelist, so if anyone can convince Taka to snap out of it and keep living, its probably her.

There are more I could talk about (like Byakuya and Sayaka) but this is getting to be long! The epic version of THH that exists only in my head is a wonderful thing.

A Byakuya fan? Excellent taste! I'm so sorry the fandom did him dirty by either erasing his flaws or demonizing him for his treatment of Toko. (which was scummy, but she was equally if not more toxic.)

I could see him and Taka getting along in chapter two, after Taka has learned to be slightly less judgmental of others. Taka did not care about his negative comments, which bodes well!

Nah, if I ever met Kanade in real life, I would run like hell! But since she's fictional, I can enjoy her depravity! (though I would prefer if she never made that face again. You know the one) Same holds true for most of my faves. I just really dislike the "she was born evil" take. I mean, from canon I think she shows signs of being a psychopath, but not all psychopaths end up becoming mass murderers! I think it'd be like, especially fucked up if during that scene of her killing her parents, she gets called Hibiki. Ouch.

Yessssss the symbolism in Danganronpa is so fun, and nobody overanalyzes it enough. One of my favorite gems of symbolism in the series is Gonta getting killed by mechanical wasps, aka technology. Because he was a victim of the virtual world just as much as Miu. and Kokichi too in a sense. I could write a whole essay about stylistic choices such as these, but people'd probably think I've gone batshit. (Anyways, the Sword not being very practical represents Sayaka. Despite everything, she's not really made for combat and leaves residue (clues.) wherever she goes)

(Tangent, the more an execution tries to teach a fucked up lesson to the killer, the better it is. You can't change my mind.)

#ask tag #danganronpa

[cookiesnt]

DRV3 boys with a chaotic good Ultimate Peacekeeper antag

(Sorry these are short) This sounds interesting... I’m writing each boy as a protag, then making Y/n the respective antag. Hope that’s okay!

Rantaro:

He thought you were chill at first.

An Ultimate Peacekeeper could come in handy.

However, your true colours began to show when the time limit was announced.

He noticed that you started to be more controlling over the other students.

When Kaede’s body was found, he already had his suspiscions.

You can imagine his shock when Kokichi was found guilty, only for the leader to scream about being tricked.

You admitted to manipulating him to kill Kaede.

“It had to be done. Both were getting in the way of peace, so I got rid of them.”

After that, most of the other students avoided you.

Yet somehow, you still kept them wrapped around your finger.

Ryoma:

He noticed that something was off immediately.

You didn’t seem to trust him, but he didn’t care, since he was a killer after all.

However, you seemed... different from the others.

You had a tendency to boss them around and claim it was for their own good.

But since you were a peacekeeper, he saw nothing wrong with it.

Even once the killing had been happening and for were on your 5th case, he just thought you were doing what was best for everyone.

Until...

“The killer is the Ultimate Peacekeeper! You killed Kokichi, Y/n!”

“Yeah, I did. He was in the way.”

The class was confused.

“He was in the way of keeping the peace. That’s my job, after all... Well, Monokuma, let’s get this over with.”

Your execution was swift.

All that just to keep the peace...

Korekiyo:

He found you interesting.

He’s an expert with humans, so he knew that something was up right away.

Once the killing game was announced, he watched you closely.

“I’ll do anything to keep the peace, Kiyo. And I mean anything.��

He quickly realized that you were telling the truth when he caught you about to kill Kokichi.

“Y/n, how could you do such a despicable thing?!”

You simply stared at him with no emotion.

“I had to keep the peace, and this was the only way of doing it.”

After that, he and the others avoided you.

You didn’t care. As long as peace was kept, it was fine.

Gonta:

Let’s be real here, it’s Gonta.

He didn’t understand why the others barely trusted you.

So he tried to befriend you!

You went along with it, and you did have a solid friendship.

However, everything changed when the 4th class trial happened.

Turns out you were the one who killed Miu.

“Y/n... Why you kill Miu?!”

You shrugged.

“She was in the way. It’s not personal, it just needed to happen.”

He cried during your execution, even as the others explained what happened.

Kokichi:

He found you very entertaining.

“Y/n, the reason I hang out with you is because you’re not boring, that’s all!”

You played along with his games, leading him to believe that you were wrapped around his finger.

However, it was all a lie.

Kokichi only realized this when you approached him with a weapon.

“You’re disrupting the peace, Kokichi. It’s nothing personal, I promise.”

He didn’t have time to react before there was a sharp pain in his chest and he fell to the ground.

“I promise it’s not personal...”

At least he didn’t die alone.

Kaito:

He was suspicious almost immediately.

You just seemed... off.

Once the first murder occurred, he knew that he was right.

You didn’t even try to cover your tracks.

“Angie was disrupting the peace, and I couldn’t have that. You understand, don’t you?”

No one understood.

“Well, that’s fine. I did my job. Get it over with, Monokuma.”

It left a weird feeling dangling over the remaining students, especially Kaito.

You were right, after all... Right?

Kiibo:

He was never able to see through you.

Emotions aren’t really his thing, after all.

He sees things in black and white a lot; You’re either good or you’re bad.

So when he saw you, the Ultimate Peacekeeper, he assumed you were good.

Then he realized that he was wrong.

You were very good with words and frequently manipulated the others.

It never resulted in anything bad, but you still did it.

When he confronted you, you shrugged.

“The end justifies the means, Kiibo.”

He decided to keep a better eye on you after that.

Shuichi:

He had some suspicions about you from the very beginning.

He hated suspecting anyone about anything, but he was a detective. That’s his job.

So it was hard for him.

He managed to catch on to your tactics pretty quickly, but didn’t intervene since you had good intentions.

Then, when Kokichi was killed, he knew it was you right away.

“Well, I didn’t plan on hiding it. He was in the way of peacekeeping. He was stopping me from doing my job.”

Even when you were gone, your words still stuck with him.

Were you really a bad guy?

#danganronpa #danganronpa imagines #danganronpa x reader #kaito momota #kaito momota x reader #rantaro amami #rantaro amami x reader #ryoma hoshi #ryoma hoshi x reader #korekiyo shinguji imagines #korekiyo shinguji #gonta gokuhara #gonta gokuhara x reader #kokichi oma #kokichi oma x reader #kiibo #kiibo x reader #shuichi saihara #shuichi saihara x reader #mod mizuki

[momota-kaiharem]

maybe this is just my kinnie speaking but i think a lot about the way that shuichi and maki interact with kaito. let me take an interaction from the talent development plan as an example.

just rewatching this interaction made me pretty mad again FLKJDSLKFJ i love training trio and i freaking love their relationship, but god, the way that maki and shuichi treat kaito here just drives me absolutely crazy, so let’s break it down.

i think maki is the more egregious offender here (because shuichi is a simp with manners) but throughout the interaction she’s very dismissive towards kaito, asking why he brought them out there (when shuichi says it’s something they do a lot) and then saying he was useless when he went with them to the novoselic, and saying he didn’t need to go along at all. but up until here shuichi does defend kaito a bit, even if it’s in a bit of a patronisng way (remarking that kaito “does this a lot” but “isn’t it fun” and remarking that kaito’s use on the novoselic mission was to invite maki).

and then kaito says that when he goes to space, he wants to see if he can see shuichi and maki from up there, which is a really sweet sentiment, albeit unrealistic. maki shuts him down pretty fast saying he couldn’t see them from that far, and shuichi says that he might be able to see the general region, and then kaito says that he’d like to take them up to space, and THIS is the thing that really frustrates me.

kaito loves shuichi and maki. romantically, platonically, however you’d like to describe it, it’s obvious that he cares about them a LOT. i mean, he tries to convince kaede to become an astronaut too in his ftes with her, but you could argue that kaito was trying to convince her to go to space because he really respects her (as indicated by the way kaito was the only one to consistently stand up for kaede through chapter one, and the way he was willing to fight the exisals to keep monokuma from executing her, and the way he was crying after she got executed... also he asks her for hugs a lot and it’s really cute kaito you simp ilu) so again, it shows, kaito says he wants to take people to space because he loves them. space is what kaito has always been most passionate about. it’s his longest standing goal and something he wants to share with the most important people in his life.

obviously he’s being unrealistic here!! but maki and shuichi have been friends with kaito for three years by now, and they should be used to it-- they are used to it, actually, as shown by maki’s response-- but maki’s response is mean!!! it’s mean. kaito shared a sweet sentiment about wanting to share his most treasured thing with them and maki responded by calling him stupid-- which, if you remember, kaito really doesn’t like being called!!! i’d go grab screenshots, but i don’t want to go sit and watch trials until i can find it, but often when kaito is called an idiot he responds by yelling that he’s not, and that he doesn’t like being called that. i know with maki a lot of it is just banter, but still, the utter disregard for kaito’s feelings just because he’s a hahaha positive himbo man hee hee hoo hoo is... ugh. it happens a LOT throughout the game and it’s really upsetting to me.

and then shuichi’s response is what really upsets me. i know it’s just meant as a tease, but let’s think about everything that kaito has done for shuichi and maki for a moment, here. sure, his practical abilities might not be on par with theirs. he’s not a detective and he’s not an assassin, so he can’t solve murders or fight off danger, but his EQ is INCREDIBLY high. he saw maki and shuichi, and he saw that they were struggling, and he decided to take them under his wing and help them to grow. he didn’t have to do that!!! he didn’t owe them anything. maki and shuichi could’ve grown at their own paces, of course, i believe in them, but a large part of their becoming more comfortable with who they are was owed to kaito’s help and love and guidance that he showed them over the years.

so the implication that kaito, an ASTRONAUT, would need them to go to space to save him, is utterly ridiculous. and mean!! it’s really mean. it implies that kaito is useless without them, that he needs them to go up there to save him (like they’re always saving him or whatever, which i find really stupid because there are absolutely no tdp events where they help him even SLIGHTLY) when he’s literally been training to be an astronaut and go to space for the last three years!!! it’s his special interest, and it’s so invalidating, to take kaito wanting to share that with them and imply that he’s useless at it, and that he needs assistance that they’ve never offered him because of it.

and maki’s response is really gross to me too, like kaito doesn’t have any other friends, which is totally stupid. i’m sure kaede would jump to his aid if he needed her, and gonta, and any other members of their class-- i mean, kaito is a nice guy!!! he helps people!!! it was easy to rally everyone in chapter five to save kaito because he was inspiring them!!! kokichi took him because if he didn’t, kaito would be there making everyone want to keep going. maki saying that implies that kaito is so annoying that they’re the only ones who would put up with him, that they’re these two skilled people who are just there because they pity him-- which isn’t true at all, i mean they’re totally talented but ALSO i know for a FACT that maki and shuichi really appreciate kaito, so why don’t they just act like it??

actually, i have thoughts on the reason why they behave that way. it’s something that happens a lot when you get comfortable with people. kaito projects confidence, this really strong, self-satisfied demeanour. it’s clear (or at least it seems to be clear) that he has a lot of self respect. so the teasing, to maki and shuichi, feels harmless, because kaito has high self esteem, he can take it. besides, he clearly has an inflated ego, right? so he needs them to take him down a peg.

except that’s not true, and you can tell that kaito has low self esteem because of what happens in chapter four. all throughout that chapter people rag on kaito, calling him an idiot, saying he’s useless during trials, saying shuichi is the only smart one. kokichi calls him an idiot and antagonises him over and over and over and shuichi NEVER sticks up for him, never once sticks his neck out and says “hey, i really appreciate kaito, and i need you to stop talking bad about him”. instead he just lets kaito fend everyone off alone, and of course maki doesn’t stick up for him either. that’s part of what fuels kaito’s turn on shuichi in chapter five. sure, you could argue that it was about gonta-- but shuichi also turned the tables on kaede, who kaito showed more consistent affection/respect towards, and he didn’t hate shuichi for that. no, the problem was that shuichi was getting all the credit and appreciation from everybody (which was fine!!! he led the trials) and kaito was getting dumped on over and over and over and shuichi was just letting it happen, soaking in all the admiration and letting kaito be called useless.

and i mean, that’d be hard for anyone, being called stupid over and over, getting forcefully logged out of the simulation twice, once by your own sidekick who didn’t even bother asking you permission first, but it’s clear to me that kaito feels inadequate, especially as compared to shuichi, who is so intelligent and composed. kaito projects outwards, he puts on this big grin and calls himself a hero, and that must stem from a place of insecurity. there’s no way that someone who gave himself a dorky title like luminary of the stars is super secure in himself and his relationships. 

there’s another reason why maki and shuichi probably treat kaito that way, and that’s because when you respect and appreciate someone that much, and you struggle expressing it, struggle with vulnerability, it becomes... hard to express. maki hasn’t been close to someone like she’s close to kaito for as long as she remembers. she’s never had a freaking nickname before, i mean, her life is really sad. clearly some of the teasing comes from a place of love, of “i respect and admire you so much, you helped me come out of my shell, idk what i would’ve done without you” and not knowing how to express it. i’ve been there. we’ve all been there. when you love a person but don’t know how to say it, sometimes you just end up playfully ragging on them.

and that’s fine, if it’s two-sided. banter has to be mutual, it has to be something that everyone is enjoying and is comfortable with. you choose things that they’re not sensitive about, that they’re fine with you taking the piss out of them over-- that they take the piss out of themself over. but let’s think about kaito for a minute here, and whether this is really banter.

1. does kaito ever jokingly call himself an idiot? does he ever say he’s useless, or he needs people to save him, or he’s dumb? how does he react when other people do it to him? even when maki calls him a dumbass ingame he gets upset about it, but then he brushes it off, because genuinely being hurt over something like that requires vulnerability and kaito doesn’t really DO vulnerability lmao

2. how does kaito respond? does he tease them back? i think if this was a case of healthy banter, kaito would’ve gone with a jab of his own, like, “haha, you two are hilarious, you know you love me” sorta thing, and then moved on to talk about the moon like he does in his next line. he doesn’t, though, and you never really see kaito making fun of those two. he calls maki a coward in chapter three, but he’s just being honest with her, being blunt about her weaknesses to help her grow. kaito doesn’t sugar coat things, doesn’t hold your hand and walk you through your problems. he’s a tough love sort of guy and that doesn’t work for everyone but it does really work for shuichi and maki, to the point where both of them become pretty confident in themselves, owed at least in part to the way that kaito guided them through becoming the people they wanted to be. but he doesn’t really tease them, never calls shuichi out on wearing his hat (he doesn’t even notice it) and never makes fun of maki for being an assassin/having a kill count/whatever stuff they’re insecure about. of course he doesn’t! kaito is a good friend.

i think it’s important to mention here that kaito does respond with lighthearted indignation before he brushes it off, but i just don’t feel like this is healthy, two-sided banter. you see maki and shuichi acting dismissive of kaito a lot, despite everything that he does for them. he puts up with it, but if anything that just shows to me more how everything in the relationship flows one way. all the care, love, and respect goes from kaito to shuichi and maki. he takes care of them, he helps them, he doesn’t mock them. in return they tease him (even if their intentions are good!!!) and don’t ever really push him to open up, nor do they stand up for him when people put him down, nor do they particularly try and get him to be honest with his emotions. take chapter four, for example, after kokichi punches kaito and he doubles over, coughing up blood. maki and shuichi just buy that it’s a cold when kaito says that, they don’t push, even though they’re both clearly skeptical. respecting boundaries is important, but you NEED to push sometimes, you need to make people open up, because in that case kaito was literally dying, and he had to spend the rest of his life putting up a front.

i mean, even when he was dying he was holding back the urge to cough, acting brave and strong, putting on a hero face so that the two of them could go on to defeat the mastermind and focus on things that mattered. not on him.

i love training trio, i think these three work so well together and they can bring out each other’s strengths and weaknesses, but i just think that shuichi and maki do NOT treat kaito well, and unless he opens up and communicates about it, it’s going to lead to building resentments and an increased lowering of kaito’s self esteem. maybe this wasn’t intentional on the part of the game, but if it wasn’t, clearly it just shows that dr is incapable of writing healthy friendships. i’d love to write a character study someday about these guys, where kaito talks about his feelings and maki and shuichi realise they treat him like crap, but until then i guess i’ll just sit here and scream about it.

#kaito momota #shuichi saihara #maki harukawa #momota kaito #saihara shuichi #harukawa maki #training trio #ndrv3 spoilers #saimota #kaimaki #harumota #u know u know #can you tell that i think about this a lot #character analysis #relationship analysis

[k0kichiimagines]

Hi, I love your blog! You’re very good at writing 'w' Here’s a request(sorry if too specific):

Something where the reader is a very empathetic person that sees through Kokichis facade thingy and is friends(nothing more) with him, feeling absolutely crushed(no pun intended) when they realize it’s Kokichi who got crushed in the press in ch. 5... Happy or sad ending, either one is fine.

Oh and can I be 🌷✨anon?

WKJDUE 'CRUSHED' NOO

waaaa thank you so so much!! and of course you can be! lovely to meet you 🌷✨anon!!

[note: the p! is for platonic!] and! so i did this with a sadder ending buut i included a bonus happier ending :)

- mod kichi !

Kokichi Oma with P!Reader seeing through his facade

CW: spoilers for chapters 4 5 and 6

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Kokichi Oma was a curious character, one who, at first glance, seemed nothing more of a brat to be frank. But under that, under the birds nest of lies carefully placed, under the personality he'd so elegantly built like a metaphorical wall, under all that was someone more. Someone who did care, no matter how many times he denied it.

And you saw through it.

And it put him on edge for a bit, how could he trust you wouldn't use it against him? But time passed, and he noticed you seemed kind. You supported him, but didn't hesitate to tell him when he was stepping out of line, yet still in a somehow gentle way. He began spending time with you, enjoying your company. You found board games and places to explore, you were each others closest friend in that damned school.

And then stage one happened, the first domino in a chain of catastrophic events. Miu Iruma died.

You felt something was off about him, his smirks a bit too wide, his personality seemed even more done up. He denied your claims, not meeting your eyes fully.

For someone who prided himself in lying, he wasn't doing a very good job at it. And then the truth came out, untwisted and spread across the table like a ball of wool after an encounter with a kitten.

Kokichi Oma had gotten Gonta to kill her. And now Gonta would face his death. You noticed the jitter of his eyes, the white of his knuckles as he said he would take his place, begging the bear.

He had no reason to fake those tears, his pain and guilt was honest and yet he still played it up afterwards, even pretending he was the mastermind. But you knew he wasn't, you saw his lies, you had torn your eyes away from the destructed world for a second and saw his eyes dulled.

Because despite his jokes, and his claims he didn't care. He did.

And then he died. When it clicked that, no, it wasn't Kaito, that it must have been him, something in you broke. It was a killing game, of course you knew it was a risk. But to lose your closet friend near hours after you cheered him up, gave him a hug, told him it wasn't his fault. Hours after he finally opened up, and spilled his emotions.

You couldn't even cry, you stared dumbly at the floor, hoping somehow, someway it wasn't him. He would still face execution but at least you could say goodbye, see him just once more.

Kaito knew better than to talk to you before he faced his death, but his eyes pleaded for the forgiveness you didn't want to give him.

You were angry, so angry. It was Maki's fault for staring it, it was Kaito's fault for agreeing, it was Kokichi's fault for doing it, it was everyone's fault and it was yours for not looking after him. The rage flowed into hurt and unjustified guilt and the dam broke.

And when your eyes rested on his portrait, the mocking check mark a final spit in his face. You knew who to turn your rage to. The person who caused all this in the start. The mastermind. And you did, despite the new shocks and despair you yelled and pointed fingers, he could have lived, he could have been next to you but he wasn't.

And it was their fault. Their fault.

...

Your hand reached out to the blue of the sky, the rubble of the Academy around you. The mastermind was gone. You alongside the others had 'won'.

He didn't die for nothing.

bonus: happy end

And then there was nothing. You found yourself engulfed in black like a sea of ink.

A sudden, sharp white light surrounded you, partnered with an indescribable noise. You gasped as you felt yourself almost torn awake, sitting in a bed and people around you. Their words were a blur, but as your eyes looked around you saw him. Alive.

In hindsight you saw everyone was alive and well, but in the moment you stumbled to toward the boys hands reaching out. For once he accepted your hug without a sarcastic comment, without a playful show of his persona.

There were questions. So many questions. Truths and lies to uncover, you needed to know what the real outside was.

But it could wait a little longer. In a second your heart healed over, he was alive and breathing, and despite his shaking shoulders he would be okay. You'd all be okay.

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#🌷✨anon #kokichi x reader #platonic reader #danganronpa imagines #danganronpa x reader #angst

[positivementalaxolotl]

Here’s a few hot Danganronpa takes

1. Kaito is just as bad as people keep making Kokichi out to be. Kokichi keep in mind never once physically assaulted a person and even banned physical violence and murder in DICE. Kaito on the other hand? Punched Kokichi right in the face, threatened him, was just over all a dick to him. I hear so many people in the comments already saying “Oh but he’s just stressed!” Yeah he is- let’s also keep in mind that when he was proven wrong by his arch nemesis he voted against Kokichi instead of Gonta, knowing he was wrong, to spite him. Taking such a serious thing and treating it like it was a personal attack- like... Oh yeah but Kokichi is such an awful person because he says stuff sometimes that inappropriate and teased people... (I can kind of understand the whole “pretending to be Mastermind” thing but also keep in mind that that was a part of his plan to over through the actual master mind. We all saw the pile of evidence in Kokichi’s room and remember his last words. If you guys think he’s a bad person for what he did to Gonta please remember that A. It was self defense, it was either trick Gonta or get ded and B. He had a literal mental breakdown at his execution. I might be forgetting some of the things that Kokichi did or said but no matter what he says it’s no call for violence like from Kaito you could NOT convince me that Kaito was justified there) 2. Gonta was kind of annoying... Now don’t get me wrong. He was a nice character- but the constant not-understanding of the situation at hand, the fact that literally no one understood that he hadn’t remembered what happened in the virtual world, and the fact that this kind of character is pretty much everywhere (Big softball dumby boi)... It’s been a while since I’ve interacted with V3 and I remember there are so many other things that I didn’t like about him, but I just don’t remember what they are. If you like Gonta this isn’t an attack on you- you’re allowed to like whatever characters you want, just as much as I’m allowed to dislike whatever characters I want.  3. I don’t understand the hype around Rantaro- is it because of how mysterious he was or something..? Is it purely avocado energy..? I honestly forgot about him so fast- 4. Kokichi was kind of the unsung hero of the day. Yeah he was a bit of an antagonizer but so was so many beloved characters- He was like the Kirigiri of V3 where he directed most of the class trials, helped to find so much of the evidence, showed that he genuinely cared about his fellow peers, tried to put an end to the game just for Kaito to put an end to that... (Also unrelated but I saw someone say that Kokichi’s sad backstory wasn’t canon and although they’re mostly right they seriously can’t think there wasn’t anything bad happening to him- he clearly has serious trauma problems and weight issues if you look at his canon weight. He has an awful backstory, as vague as it is, that you kind of need to consider when talking about his overarching theme. He WAS a good person, he just did some semi-questionable things. Maybe a bit more of an anti-hero but still.) Some facts, some opinions, don’t hate me, and I don’t hate you (unless you go after other Kokichi fans just for liking the guy and group me in with the like... 5-10% of toxic Kokichi fans.)

#Danganronpa #V3 #Kokichi #Ouma #Gonta #Gokuhara #Kaito #Momota #Toxicity #Rantaro #Amami #I get there are a lot of toxic Kokichi fans but so do the rest of the cast in all three games and no one is talking about them #and a big part of why they think Kokichi fans are toxic are because they haven't actually looked into Kokichi as a character

[dangankingdom]

Makoto, Keebo, and Shuichi with a s/o who uses humor to cope

TW// Ka/de's exec/tion, arguing, mentions of M/m, cursing,

Extra// hope you like this! i set this up in the Killing Game! Tell me if you want it changed Anon! And yes i can't do humor very well shush. Also my brain wasn't working so have a kinda long story for Shuichi and just headcanons for the two 💀 also please take care Anon, know that people care about you! <3

Original Ask -> Hii kinda random but could i please request a Makoto, Kiibo and Shuichi with a s/o who uses humor to cope with everything and is just always trying to make everyone laugh even at the worst times?

Masterlist

Makoto Naegi

This guy doesn't really mind, as long as you aren't trying to murder someone then that's alright

He honestly loves your jokes, he laughs at everyone of them

But when it gets serious he will tell you to tone it down for a bit, since the atmosphere is really heavy at the moment, of course you tone it down, but you still crack a few small jokes here and there making him sweat drop

"S-S/O can you uh, please tone your jokes a bit down?" He whispered, nearly dying because of Byakuya death staring at the two of you "hah! Who cares Naeggi? That richard bitch got nothing on us two anyway!" You yelled out loud, you know your ass was gonna get beat by Byakuya and Toko "What the, eff did you say?" Byakuya stands up from his seat, and started to walk to you "Shit run-" you grabbed Makoto and ran to save you two's lives "YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE YELLED THAT S/O!" Makoto screamed out running up to your pace "Kyehahahha well sorry lucky babe but too late now!" You laughed, you were getting fucking scared since Genocide jack must've sensed that you cursed up a storm in the library where Byakuya lives in

Genocide jack found you two "WHAAAAAAT? YOU DAMN S/O MAKING MASTER ANGRRRY"

You two got beat up and Aoi and Yasuhiro has to heal you two up, was that worth it? It's a yes to you

Aoi and Yasuhiro laughed a bit at you for fucking with Byakuya, but they are safe since the door was closed and Genocide Jack tried to get in for like 6 minutes before giving up, that traumatized all of y'all, you all tried not to repeat what you did

K1-b0/Keebo

He may be able to learn more because of your humor or jokes im so sorry. he doesn't sometimes laugh but he's intrigued of your humor

He doesn't tell you anything unless someone tells him that you need to tone the jokes down or they'll tape your mouth-

You laugh around the trial, it was the trial and Kirumi was voted to be the culprit

"Kehahhah! Woooow Kirumom was the culprit all along! So how's the execution gonna end?? Is she gonna clean until she's tired?? That must hurt y'know!" You spoke really fast, which everyone was annoyed and looked at Keebo, he sighed "S/O can you tone it down for a bit? You are ruining the mood here S/O.." Keebo bluntly spoke, your heart shattering into pieces but you metaphoracally picked it up "Of course! Y'all can ask me later to make you laugh! It's my dream to make people laugh afterall" you giggle

"Affirmative S/O.." Keebo spoke once again, everyone agreeing except for Kirumi, screaming about not gonna die

That was traumatizing but atleast you weren't there to witness all of the disgusting stuff that happened.

Shuichi Saihara

Angie cant crack a joke im sorry

Honestly he thought you were being an idiot for cracking jokes all the time when you all are in a killing game for gods sake.

But when he interacts with you more he now understands that Humor is your way of coping in this life of yours, he felt guilty for not realizing that

After Kaede's Execution, everyone was traumatized. Seeing Kaede's death, and Rantaro as well. You on the other hand was cracking jokes to make yourself laugh and it seems to be working, but not everyone. The others were annoyed since, you all saw them get killed and you crack jokes??? It's not a good time and you know that. The others were disturbed at your cheerful state. Shuichi was crying, he saw his bestfriend get killed and you were just there trying to make everyone laugh. That set him off

"Y-Your so stupid S/O! Don't y-you see that Kaede died?? Try to i-inject that into your brain!" He snapped, this was a whole new level of Shuichi. That surprised you and the others as well "Hahahahehe.. Wow Shuichi, you should've told me first than snapping at me riiiiiiight Shuichi..?" You laughed at this current situation, this is already hopeless to you, why make it worse?

After everyone left including Shuichi, you were just there looking at all their dorm rooms "th.. this is despairful wouldn't you say? That's too bad for me." You walked to your dorm room and slept, not bothering to change your clothes

He grabbed your hand, tugging you lightly "Hey S/O.. sorry for snapping at you last night, i wasn't thinking and, well-" he tried to apologise to you but got cut off by you laughing with a bright smile across your face "Who says you apologise to lil ol' me? I should be the one to apologise y'know Shuhara?" Your face softened, likely showing that your really sorry for what you've done "A-ah S/O.. your too nice" he sweatdropped "yyyeeeeah sadly.."

after the eating you approached to Shuichi "Heeey detective Shuhara, bein quiet because you investigatin stuff?" You said before leaving him alone

You took his hat off and put it on your head "you should take this off y'know? You look more cool without it, though you can still wear it. I don't really mind."

After waking up to the morning announcement you finally fixed yourself before bursting out of the room laughing like this situation never existed in the first place, you saw the cafeteria being quiet, the atmosphere being heavy. You tried to lighten the mood up "Good mooooorning everyone! How is the food? Must be delicious since the ultimate Mom cooked them." You laughed "Good morning S/O! Yes food is good, Tojo-san made food to everyone." Im so sorry i cant do him Gonta greeted you. Well, it did lighten the mood up, props to you. The others greeted you other than Shuichi, it did make you guilty.

"W-well, i am gonna take this off now so i don't really mind anymore.."

He appreciates that you try to make the group laugh even at the worst times, he even laughs a bit at it, Kokichi and you try to make a joke battle

S/O you and Kokichi have been battling for 40 minutes now please give it up so we can spend time together.. " Shuichi mumbles at the last part but you heard it perfectly so you decided to end the battle "Fiiiiiiiiine, you win Koshi!" You held up a balled fist, but Kokichi knew it was a lie but he left you alone since he too, has a few jokes left

"There! Now he's gone we can cuddle now right??" You excitedly yelled, making Shuichi flustered "How d-did you know-" "i have my secrets." you actually don't but okay-

But you needed comfort so you were happy

#mod kichi savior #🍂; mod angie #🍂; writing #shuichi saihara x reader #shuichi saihara #shuichi x reader #kiibo x reader #k1 b0 x reader #makoto naegi x reader #makoto naegi

[oumakokichi]

Do you think that Kokichi had any remorse for Gonta during trial 4 or did he actually not care? I've seen a lot of people saying different opinions from both sides of the argument. But I'm really confused because there was a moment where after Gonta was executed, correct me if I'm wrong but Shuichi asked Kokichi if he could reveal the secret of the outside world (?) But Kokichi replied with something like “I don't want to....” and seemed generally upset? But then a few moments later he snapped out if it and began acting like he had no sympathy whatsoever. I just really wanna know how Kokichi actually, truly felt about Gonta and if he regretted manipulating him. Sorry if you've already been asked this and have already given an answer, thank you!

Hi anon—I actually wrote a pretty big master-post on chapter 4 not too long ago which I think more or less sums up my thoughts on Ouma’s behavior in the post-trial! You can find it here if you want (it’s pretty long and I tried to answer a whole bunch of questions about Ouma in chapter 4 specifically, since it’s the chapter I get asked about the most).

More specifically though, I’m afraid that there is no easy, definitive answer to that question. I can only share my personal opinions about how I believe Ouma felt in that scene. And personally? I do think he was genuinely upset and distraught about Gonta’s death, that he even momentarily considered giving up all his plans and being executed alongside him, and that he cared about Gonta and deeply regretted using him as a sacrificial pawn in his plans.

I’ll discuss what I mean in more detail, but it’ll probably get pretty long, so I’ll put the rest of this post under a cut as always!

The thing is, though, I’ve shared my personal thoughts about the chapter 4 post trial many times, including my reasoning and all of the textual evidence that shows how much Ouma cared about the rest of his classmates. But ultimately, there will probably always be some people who disagree, because their reading of the text will always be a little bit different. Unless we ever have an interview from Kodaka in the future where he directly says, “this is what Ouma was thinking and feeling at this exact moment,” there really won’t ever be a way to know what was going through his head with 100% certainty (and I do feel like leaving it open-ended is something of Kodaka’s intention, anyway, especially since Ouma is supposed to be a very polarizing character).

That being said, I do think it’s worth analyzing the text and drawing your own conclusions, because ndrv3 is a game that changes a lot depending on how you interpret it, and Ouma’s character is included in that. It’s really easy on a first playthrough to get wrapped up in what Ouma says or does without really looking at why he says it, or at his underlying motivations. Going back through the game on a replay though, I do personally think it’s possible to guess at what he might have been feeling during those super conflicting scenes in chapter 4.

In my opinion, I think Ouma did truly care about Gonta as a friend, and that his guilt and remorse over what he did was genuine. Not only did Ouma and DICE have a very strict taboo against killing (mentioned directly in his motive video in Japanese, though the part about it being an actual rule was stripped from the localization), but we don’t see Ouma’s façade crack like this very often. Most of the time when he does his trademark “crocodile tears,” it’s with his very loud, exaggerated crying sprite, and he bounces right back to acting normally within a moment or two.

There are a few exceptions to this, of course—he uses the “crocodile tears” sprite to cry at Kaede, Amami, and Toujou’s deaths, but it’s still very likely he was shaken up by seeing them dead). Nonetheless, we don’t see his much more subdued crying sprites more than a handful of times, particularly in the chapter 4 post-trial just before Gonta’s execution, as well as in Momota’s flashback in chapter 5 when he talks about how Ouma actually hated the killing game the whole time.

I’m aware that some people simply brush these moments aside and assume that Ouma is lying though all of them, but I personally just can’t agree with that interpretation. Assuming that Ouma is lying whenever he shows remorse or guilt or hatred for the killing game means assuming that he’s telling the truth in pretty much every other scene—which doesn’t make much sense, given that his entire character is centered around the concept of lying, as well as moral ambiguity and subverting expectations. Assuming that Ouma actually means what he’s saying 100% of the time unless it just happens to involve showing any kind of guilt or remorse turns him into a very boring, predictable, uninspired character (none of which are words I would use to describe him personally).

Ignoring those moments where Ouma shows genuine attachment to his classmates and distaste for the killing game also means ignoring several key pieces of evidence and clues about him that we are directly provided in the game, including his motive video and Momota’s flashback in chapter 5. Personally, I don’t feel like there’s any reason to include these scenes at all unless it’s to help shed light on Ouma’s motivations and provide players with a clear reason to try and go back through the game again to look at Ouma’s actions through a new perspective.

I also feel that Ouma genuinely cared about Gonta because to put it simply, there was no incentive for him to lie in that scene. He got absolutely nothing out of it—and considering he turns around and starts playing the villain on purpose all of 5 minutes after Gonta’s death, he definitely wasn’t trying to earn sympathy points or trick the rest of his classmates into trusting him. In fact, he could’ve easily tried to make himself look more sympathetic by putting all of the blame on Miu for trying to kill him, or even on Gonta. But instead he fully admits to coming up with the plan to kill Miu and spends the entire post-trial trying to convince everyone not to hate or blame Gonta.

If he was truly as sadistic and horrible as he pretended to be, I think he would’ve pulled a 180 and started throwing names and insults around while Gonta was still alive to hear it, not after he was already dead. If he didn’t care at all about Gonta’s feelings, he had no reason to try and take all the blame on himself while insisting that none of what happened was actually Gonta’s fault. If anything, revealing himself to be this horrible, evil villain who enjoys seeing other people suffer or die would’ve really been adding insult to injury, and probably would’ve crushed Gonta completely, even before his execution started.

But… Ouma doesn’t do any of this. Despite having every opportunity to either portray himself as more of a victim and fling all the blame on Miu and Gonta, or else to completely embrace being a villain who loved seeing people suffer, he doesn’t do either of these things. The way I personally see it, Ouma waits until Gonta is already dead, and when the rest of his classmates begin pushing him for answers about the outside world and demanding to know what Gonta saw, that’s when he finally snaps and resigns himself to acting like a villain in order to make everyone hated.

You could argue that trying to make everyone hate him had a twofold effect: it helped set the stage for him to pretend to be the ringleader in the next chapter, which he clearly wanted, but it also was a way of taking things out on himself and shows just a small glimpse of how much he hated having to dirty his hands in chapter 4. After all, Ouma even says it himself: that the “role of a villain is perfect for him,” because he’s already made everyone hate him. We see Ouma occasionally tease or antagonize the rest of his classmates plenty of times throughout the game, but it’s true that he doesn’t really step into that “villain” role until the end of chapter 4, once he’s crossed a line that he can never come back from by manipulating both Miu and Gonta to their deaths.

None of this is to say that what Ouma did to Gonta is okay, by any means. I think he definitely did care about Gonta and even thought of him as one of the few trustworthy people in the killing game, even someone close to a friend, but that doesn’t mean that manipulating him and using him like a chess piece was okay in the end. I just also think it’s important to realize that there were plenty of extenuating circumstances that led Ouma to act the way he did—including the fact tha he knew Miu was going to kill him, that he already suspected she had measures to prevent him from fighting back or killing her himself in the VR world, and the fact that he did not want to die or get everyone else killed in the trial.

It’s possible for people to care about others without necessarily treating them the best or doing the right thing. A huge part of Danganronpa, something that’s been evident from the very first game, is that sometimes characters can and do hurt each other, even when they care about each other or wouldn’t be a threat otherwise.

It’s the existence of the killing game itself that causes so many characters to go to extremes that they normally wouldn’t, whether it’s Maizono trying to frame Naegi in dr1 despite caring about him a lot, Kaede deciding to try and commit murder under everyone’s noses despite trying to unite the group and wanting everyone to trust her, or Ouma using Gonta as a pawn to kill Miu in his place because he didn’t want to die.

At the end of the day, people are still probably going to have very polarizing opinions about Ouma and the things he did in chapter 4, and that’s honestly okay. In my own opinion, Ouma definitely isn’t a completely flawless, innocent baby who “did nothing wrong”—he absolutely is manipulative, cold, and calculating when he wants to be, and it’s a fact that he got two people killed, even if he didn’t want things to reach that point. But I also personally don’t think it’s fair to write him off as the exact kind of “evil villain” he pretends to be; not only is it a shortsighted interpretation of his larger motivations, but it also completely ignores any replay value and completely shoots down the appeal of trying to interpret Ouma’s thoughts and actions because “he was lying about feeling bad anyway, what’s the point in analyzing him.”

Tl;dr: I do think Ouma cares about Gonta, that he probably even thought of him as the closest thing he had to a friend in the killing game, and that what he did to Gonta in the end wasn’t okay. I think he really did respect Gonta for being such a sweet and kind person, but that he also knew Gonta was extremely naïve and that he would be one of the easiest people in their group to manipulate, hence why he decided to rely on him instead of anyone else. Their friendship is an important part of both of their character arcs, but it’s definitely not what I would call “on equal footing.”

I understand why Ouma’s actions might make some people really resent him, but I also believe that kneejerk reaction of anger and dismissal is exactly the point: Ouma does feel terrible about the things he did, but he doesn’t want anyone’s sympathy or forgiveness, not even the player’s. This, in my opinion, is why he starts embracing the villain role so completely from this point on, and why he’s never quite able to make the same sort of cold, calculating sacrifices in chapter 5 that he did in chapter 4.

I hope this helps answer your question, anon, along with the other chapter 4 post I wrote! Thank you for all your support!

#danganronpa #ndrv3 #new danganronpa v3 #kokichi ouma #ouma kokichi #my meta #ask #anonymous #ndrv3 spoiles // #okay to reblog

[toriliashine]

Hold on, I’m conflicted

side 1: Kokichi wanted to Mercy kill them all to not be stuck between a hellish world and a murder school.

 a) If that was so, why didn’t he just let Miu kill him? He knew about the plan, and could’ve just let the plan run smoothly. The rest of them could be executed innocently without tasting the hell of the outside and Miu could’ve felt true despair on finding out all her plans of murder and escape were for naught when she saw it.

Result - Miu lives, and feels despair yadda yadda; everyone else is execute blah

ai) But, what if Kokichi found out about the outside world after he found out Mu wanted to kill him? It was a short time span between her making it and him possibly doing the tunnel thing but like. What if he was like, hey, one of my classmates that i thought was an ally is trying to kill me. that sucks, whelp, at least let me look where this card key leads, maybe it’ll get my spirits up in some way before i decide how to take care of her????

K:....

K: well then.

Then, after that, the pieces for the plan couldve started falling in place? He couldve then showed Gonta what was going on, making him feel the same despair and how the only right way to escape this hell word was to die. 

Gonta agreed.

Result! - this would have made Gonta the sole survivor if the plan worked. Would have depressingly thought it was the gentlemanly thing to do for the rest of his friends to find peace in death while he held the pain of surviving in that hell alone. (also alsjklsn Kokichi said yeah i wanna DIE but Gonta is the sweetest person here and the most worthy to live through all this shit HE’S gonna be the blackened and i’ll use my lies and trickery to make sure he LEAVES THIS DAMN SCHOOL)

b) In the trial, after both Kokichi and Gonts knew about the outside world. Kokichi could’ve just let him continue ‘pretending’ to not know what was going on. It would’ve hurt to have the only person you confided such delicate information ‘lie’ and throw all of you and your plans under the bus like that but it wouldv’e got shit DONE. He couldv’e continued lying pinnning the crime on anyone else, even himself as long as it meant the plan worked.

Result! - Gonta lives! He’d probably only be told why after the incorrect vote though. Monokuma would laugh as he brought Alter Ego Gonta out to say what the plan was. Alter Ego Gonta and Kokichi would’ve had a bittersweet feeling knowing their plan... succeeded... The rest of them would be executed. And Gonta would have to rely on the knowledge this computer version of him had to say abt the outside, he mightve not had enough time to prepare himself due to him forgetting though :(. -> Monokuma might push him out and shut off the school. He might fully succumb to despair :(

-> this relies on Monokuma actually bringing out Alter Ego though, he might just force him out crying and sobbing, feeling nothing but despair as his friends get executed while goNTA DOESN’T KNOW WHAT’S GOING ON. WHY - HOW AM I THE KILLER. WHY KOKICHI LIE. MY FRIENDS SHOULD NOT DIE. WHY -

side b- Kokichi didn’t want to mercy kill them all, and still wanted to survive after 

Oohh this is a VERY sinister side when u think about it. I don’t like it and want to see it as a last minute plan B that he chose during the trial but i have to be KIND of objective :(.

This was all triggered once he found out Miu was planning to kill him though.

a) He found out Miu was going to kill him, showed Gonta the despair of the outside world which made him agree to kill her.

Easiest path to go down when attempting to understand chapter 4′s trial. 

The chapter (according to a random comic i found 5 minutes before rechecking the trial nyeheheheeh im so reliable) The trial relied on Kaito supporting Shuichi to choose the truth. By making a point to prod them both in the trial, he could succeed in making the trial interesting and still let them find the culprit. 

bi) He did it plainly to survive

A truly evil route! Would suggest he truly cared not for Gonta, Miu nor the rest of his classmates, yet this is refuted by how he acted in the Chapter’s end and the next. If he didn’t care about the mastermind’s doing, a lot of what have happened next - simply would not have. it’s a really popular choice of events for people who just dont like kokichi though akskal His previous lies could’ve just been accepted as truth and he couldve gone the rest of the game ignored and hated just because. But this ouldve gone against a lot of things.

bii) He did it for a final ultimate goal - to find and expose the mastermind. 

He couldnt diiee!! He had come so close! to get all that ( to be revealed) evidence on the mastermind, secrets of the school and after. He couldn’t just die, he needed to save the rest of them and - look the other 2 he couldn’t save in the eye and lie. Must have been painful. In this route, i want to believe he truly did care for them all,, his tears were real. but the final endpoint was so close! he couldn’t leave now! But by doing this, and watch a friend kill another for his own chosen greater good would have cemeneted, in his heart, that he truly was a villain. And led to him fully accepting, living in and dying in that role after the trial and in the next chapter. Aka: damn, boy was straight suicidal after det :///

Will i think more on this later??? No idea but im tired and hungy rn - bye

#ndrv3 #killing harmony #danganronpa #kokichi ouma #gonta gokuhara #ramble!

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V3 VR au - Post game headcanons

Rantaro

Rantaro wakes up early and easily. He already went through the killing game once, so his body learned the difference between the simulation and real life, so the shock from the shot put ball didn’t affect him as much.

When Kade wakes up and recovers, the first thing she does is apologizing to Rantaro. And then she learns that It was Tsumugi who actually killed him.

It was a riddiculously tragic moment

Kaede

Even though she learns that she didn’t kill Rantaro, she still feels really guilty. 

To say that she feels spite towards Tsumugi is an understatement

She also is very emotional and cries after almost every death

She just can’t stand watching everyone suffer, but she keeps watching to cheer on Shuichi

She develops fear of wearing enything around her neck: Necklaces, scarfs, collars.

Even though she still has her talent, her execution (which forced her to play a song for begginers really poorly) made her lose confidence in her piano skills.

She knows that It’s riddiculous, but still.

Ryoma + Kirumi

After Ryoma wakes up, Kade takes the best care of him - She wants to give him something to live for

Despite Ryoma saying that he forgives her, and that he was ready to die, Kirumi takes a long while to start socializing again

Later it is discovered that the best way to get closer to her is to ask her for small services - It’s a small psychological trick, it makes Kirumi think that people trust her

Angie

When Angie first wakes up and learns the truth, she tries to convince herself that applying to participate in Danganronpa must’ve been her god’s order

But why would he want her to suffer so much?

When she finds out that he isn’t real, she’s devastated (I'm sticking to the japanese version where her god's name isn't specified, as I doubt that Angie's Atua is the same as real polnnesian Atua)

She’s stuck in the endless cycle of discovering new religions and abandoning them when she feels distressed and no divine intervention is here to help her.

She also gets a huge artblock and even her implemented talent doesn’t help.

Despite dying while being unconcious and not suffering so much, she’s still one of the most traumatized people.

Tenko

Tenko recovered pretty quickly. However, she developed a fear of the dark

Watching the rest of the game play out - Shuichi encoruaging Himiko, Kaito’s and Kiibo’s sacrifices, and Tsumugi’s betreyal helped with changing her opinion on males

However she still despises Kokichi and Kiyo. Esecially Kiyo.

She gets that Kokichi had good intentions, but her sense of justice doesn’t allow her to forgive him for indirectly killing two people.

Korekiyo

Kiyo learns that he has no sister and when ot comes to this fact alone, he takes it suprisingly easily.

Although his personality is the same, he has none to kill for anymore so he just... Stops.

Everyone is still creeped out of him tho. None ever trusts him again.

It wouldn’t bother Kiyo back in the simulation, because he thought he had sister on his side, but...

He gets extremely lonely and depressed

Miu

Miu waking up from the simulation was pretty funny

She was terrified at first, desperately gasping for air. When she realized that everything’s fine, her fear was replaced with mindfuck

“OH, COME ON, REALLY!? THAT LITTLE RAT... WHAT THE FUCK DID HE DO!?”

While she watched the 5th trial play out, she figured out Kokichi’s plan pretty easily.

She was actually proud and secretly hoping that It would work.

But after Kaito showed up, she claimed that she knew that it wouln’t.

Just as Kaede, she devbeloped fear of any things you can wrap around your neck. And toilet paper. On her worse days she finds it hard to get closed to jumpropes or cables

Gonta

When Gonta woke up, crushing Miu in a hug and apologizing was the first thing he did.

He also cried a lot

Miu thought that she’s about to get suffocated again

She calls Gonta a dumbass a lot, but she forgave him for what he’s done. 

He forgave Kokichi, but got actually angry when he “confessed” to be the mastermind

Only to be get confused when his real plan was revealed. It took a lot of explaining for him to understand.

Actually he’s confused about everything. 

Kokichi

Took the longest to recover.

Not only his whole body experienced trauma, but he also suffered psychologically like nobody else in the whole game.

Miu was the first one to visit him (or more like break in) into his room. 

She claimed she wanted to kick his ass, but seeing him in such a pathetic state and knowing what he was going through the whole time, she felt bad and guilty for trying to attack him.

She took time to work on the equipment in the hospital and improve it. Why did she start from Kokichi’s room? It’s because it was the closest to the dining room, duh.

They never really had a talk about what happened.

But once Kokichi recovered enough to throw any kind of insults at her, they started bickering again. 

But... Kokichi lost confidence to keep it going for too long.

They both hate that fact.

Kokichi cried when he first saw Gonta alive.

Only him and the nurses know about it tho. 

Kokichi REALLY didn’t want to socialize, he was afraid of it, but Gonta’s forgiveness and kindness helped him. Their relationship gets healthier.

Kokichi will never be the same, but his friendship with Gonta and Miu is actually really wholesome and healthier than back in the simulation.

Kaito

He feels guilty as fuck

He wants to apologize to Kokichi for killing him and not handling his plan, and basically wants to get to know him better.

But at first Kokichi doesn’t accept visitors, and later he spends time with Gonta and Miu.

So he spends time interacting with others instead.

Despite being regretfull himself, he commits himself to encoruaging others and helping them to recover.

Sneaks out on the hospital’s roof every night.

He LOVES the fresh air and finally getting to breathe without worrying about his sickness

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So what if for a motive instead of kokichi being a giant he’s shrunk and stuck with shuichi :0! ( like continuing off of the other motive writing you did -)

hiii I'm glad for this req I was hoping someone would catch my drift and ask for a sequel since I had an idea for it in mind 💃 altho I took a wittle little bit of liberty with your req I hope you don't mind

(again terribly sorry for the delay friend I hardly had any time for this hope you'll enjoy either way)

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Word count: 1800

Summary: The game master has a new dirty trick up their sleeve to get rid of a certain little liar; but Kokichi isn't going down so easily, even with the threat of now death waiting for him at every corner.

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It seemed the mastermind wasn’t too pleased when the motive hadn’t gotten him murdering and executed, so their next plan was to get him directly murdered.

Kokichi stands in Monokuma’s shadow, expression blank in face of the bear’s cruel cackles. It's a wonder how the mastermind can see him as a threat when he hasn't been able to stop any of the past murders, but he's still flattered that he's managed to mess with their plans enough that they'd stoop to such a low motive.

When the monochromatic bear leaves, Kokichi is left silently staring at the rest of his classmates from his spot on the cafeteria table, standing at the miserable height of a toy. Any other day, jokes and taunts and lies would be flowing out of his mouth, but his mind doesn’t come up with anything when he’s surrounded by classmates who he knows are already thinking of killing him and hiding his body to avoid a class trial; the same classmates whom he could hold in the palm of his hand only yesterday.

Silent and unmoving as he is, they must think him a scared little child; Kokichi Ouma, supreme leader of evil, reduced to some cute joke, some fanservice for an audience to coo at before he inevitably dies. The thought of the mastermind looking down on him and laughing to themselves at the moment is near sickening.

Kiibo is first to speak up, “So… What should we do about this?”

“I say,” Maki’s reply is instantaneous, like she’d been waiting to say those next words for too long, “We end this killing game right here and now.”

And when she takes a swift step forward, red eyes piercing through his tiny form with a murderous intent he’s seen too many times already, Kokichi can’t do anything but resign himself to the fact that he won’t live to stop the killing game.

Then something darts in front of him and blocks his view, and he thinks he somehow must’ve dreamed the words, “Maki, don’t hurt him.”

It takes his paranoid brain longer than he’d like to admit to realize that the hand in front of him isn’t coming to grab him and squeeze his guts out, rather, it’s shielding him. A gesture he wouldn’t expect coming from anyone in this room, except-

“You can't fall for the mastermind's trick so easily.” Shuichi stands towering in front of him in a protective stance, like some knight in shining armor; and to think this is the same boy who was cowering in his presence only days ago.

"Yeah! Harumaki, you promised, remember?" Kaito, the actual knight in shining armor of the academy, doesn't come to protect him; instead, he steps up to Maki and places a hand on her shoulder. Of course, when killer girl is trying to kill poor lil' Kokichi, it's still her who needs help and support and not the doll-sized villainous boy about to be murdered. "This has gotta be a trap or somethin'."

"Right," Shuichi joins in. He briefly glances over his shoulder at Kokichi, and the now tiny boy meets his gaze with the same blank expression. "Think about it, doesn't this new motive seem more like a way to…" his gaze lingers on Kokichi's small form for a second longer, before he tears it away, "… to get rid of a specific classmate?"

"Yeah," Kaito chimes in, "I'm starting to think the mastermind wants Kokichi dead for whatever reason," The grave expression on his face matches the morbidity of his statement. He slams his fists together in determination, "We can't let that happen."

"I do agree," Kiibo pipes up, "That if Kokichi was the enemy hiding among us, it wouldn't make sense to put himself in such… disadvantageous situation," he's hesitant and careful with his choice of word, like he could somehow be tiny-phobic.

"You're all overthinking this too much," Maki's cold gaze falls back on him, and if looks could kill, a body discovery announcement would have played out, "The killing game stops when the mastermind is dead. Simple as that."

The pressure of her stare threatens to crush him. Kokichi's legs nearly give out under his weight, and his first reaction is to stumble a few steps back and plaster a grin on his face.

“Pish posh, poor Harumaki… wants to kill me so badly, she's ready to do it in front of everyone,” His voice nearly wavers, he takes another step back for good measure. No use in trying to reason with an assassin or try to gain anyone’s sympathy; it’s always easier to stick to the role he’s written himself into.

Kokichi speaking for the first time seems to trigger the whole cafeteria to erupt in a cacophony again. Maki tries to push past Kaito and Shuichi to get her grubby hands on the little leader, and the two boys defend him (at least he thinks they do); someone yawns and someone else gasps and exclamations and accusations are thrown around.

"There has to be more to this motive!"

"You're protecting him over a maybe?"

"This is terrible, we shouldn't fight!"

"Nyeh… we still haven't had breakfast…"

They argue and bicker, like they always do when a new motive is presented and they don’t know what to make of it. Kokichi finds it easy enough to block out the obnoxious voices. He lets cold logic take over his mind and shadow his fear as he assesses the situation.

Even if he refuses, they'll probably force him to be baby-sat by someone. Staying with Maki or Miu is out of the question. Kiibo would be a good choice if Kokichi wanted the eyes of the mastermind and the audience on his back at all time, and Himiko would be a good choice if he wanted all the protection of a bodyguard who doesn't tolerate him and sleeps most of the time.

Gonta does tolerate him and has already worked with him in the past; he wouldn't be a bad choice, but for now Kokichi has a feeling he'll end up sleeping in a bug case with cockroaches if he goes with the giant entomologist, so he'll pass. Kaito superman-wannabe-Momota wouldn't be so bad either, but he'll probably take advantage of the situation and try to get the tiny boy to open up about his super evil dark past or whatever; so again, he'll pass for now.

And then there's Shuichi… Staying with his beloved detective, they could stay up late at night and braid each other's hair and share their secrets, they could make plans together and explore the school and beat the mastermind like some iconic duo, they could even pick that night's game of chess back up since Kokichi still remembered the setting of the board. Staying with Shuichi, truely a dream come true, and a dream right in his reach. But he wasn't in dreamland, he was stuck in a killing game hell where he couldn't let his facade slip and show vulnerability so easily to the protagonist of their game. His eyes fall to the floor with the shame of entertaining such a dream before remembering the sobering reality. Staying with Shuichi is out the question.

Kokichi goes back to listening to the conversarion, but he finds the room silent and eight pairs of eyes on him.

“Kokichi,” Shuichi speaks again. The boy is tempted to look away, but he forces his eyes to meet the giant detective's faded gold ones, “you can stay with me if you want?"

A taunting smirk pushes its way to his face. “Man, Saihara wants to get a hold of me so he can do all kindsa weird stuff to me? Ew ew ew, so gross, I'm so terrified! How could you do this to a frightened little boy?”

“Kokichi,” he considers the exasperation in the detective’s tone a victory to him, although an unpleasant one, “You don’t need to be so obnoxious, if there’s someone you want to stay with, you can say it.” Sheesh, wasn't Shuichi dying to talk to him the other night?

His best option isn’t ideal, but he can't get too picky in his current situation. “Welll, I think I’d like to stay with big sis Shirogane!” he hears the girl in question sputter a noise of surprise, and all eyes turn to her.

“What are you planning?” Maki speaks again after a long silence, voice betraying her skepticism.

“Oh, are you jealous I didn’t pick you, big sis Harumaki?” Do you want to die?

“Do you want to die?” Bingo. Too predictable.

“Uhm,” Tsumugi’s meek voice cuts him off before he can retort, “Why me? I-I mean, I don’t mind, I just don’t understand?”

Kokichi turns to her, and she nearly flinches at his attention. At least there’s one person in the room who’s still intimidated by him. “I just wanted to stay with my absolute favourite girl in this academy," as he says that, he walks around Shuichi's still outstretched hand to better face the absolute favourite girl in question, shooting on his way a quick glance up the detective, "aaand there's also this one cosplay I really wanna try now that I'm cutie-sized. That is, if Shirogane is fine with it?"

Tsumugi looks down to her feet and starts to vibrate with excitement hard enough that he can feel it under his feet. "O-Oh, I am fine with it. I wonder if we're both thinking of the same anime… but the only male character there has a dark skin tone, and there's one girl that really looks like you… You don't mind wearing a dress, do you?" She's already walking up to him with an outstretched hand, as if driven by the by the force of her love of cosplay.

Kokichi blinks his fear away and steps into the unsteady surface, immediately understanding the fear and discomfort in Shuichi's face that last night. Questions and accusations are still coming at him left and right, but he pointedly ignores it all and waves back to his remaining classmates with his cockiest smile as he leaves in the giant girl's hand, mind already buzzing with plans to survive the new motive.

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hope you don't mind the bit of saiou angst twist thing in the end 😔😔 I was too tempted to resist. Well hope u enjoyed dear !!

#danganronpa #ndrv3 #gtronpa #gt #Kokichi ouma #Shuichi saihara #maki harukawa #kaito momota #tiny!Kokichi #giant!shuichi #giant!Maki #giant!kaito #ask #request #writing

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While I’m here sharing AUs that “non-canonically” branch off from my chapter 5 protagonist-Kaito AU and end up doing things with Kaito’s character that I didn’t even think were possible, here’s one more completely different and even more heartbreaking one for the road.

What if the plan failed, and Shuichi did get executed?

This would happen if Kaito didn’t think things through and just blurted out that Shuichi’s in the Exisal the moment he realised it, then managed to make a convincing enough case for his hunch that everyone – including Monokuma – decided to trust it. And then they’d all realise in horror that if Shuichi’s alive then he’s got to be the culprit and they’re going to have to vote for him and get him executed.

However, I really don’t think this is that likely to be how things would go. In my “canon” version of the AU, Kaito gets a vague sense that he needs to figure things out better before telling anyone Shuichi’s in there, and he listens to it. At first I just wrote him having that sense because it felt right, but after some thought, I’ve concluded that this’d essentially be more of Kaito’s intuition at work. He already instinctively grasps the idea that if Shuichi is deceiving them then it’s for a good reason and he should play along with it, before he even consciously reasons any of it out to himself.

So, before things get heartwrenching, be reassured in the knowledge that this is extremely unlikely to be how things would happen. It is most definitely not remotely the more “canon” version of an AU where the single initial difference is who gets chosen for Kokichi’s plan.

  The worst possible failure

As Shuichi explains why he killed Kokichi and what the plan would have achieved if he’d succeeded, Kaito realises with growing horror that, despite being the blackened, Shuichi was never supposed to be executed here. If the plan had worked – which it would have done if only Kaito had kept his mouth shut – Shuichi would have been safe. Shuichi is going to die and it’s all Kaito’s fault.

…I mean, it isn’t by any reasonable stretch of morality. Kaito couldn’t have been expected to know what was going on, and none of the students are ever meaningfully at fault for someone’s execution just because they uncovered their crime and voted for them, not when the game forces them to do that or die. But that wouldn’t stop Kaito from thoroughly blaming himself for the fact that Shuichi is about to be horribly killed.

This is also way worse than the equivalent situation in canon with Kaito’s execution, because Kaito was fully expecting the plan to fail and knew he’d die either way even if it didn’t, so he was as prepared for it as he could ever be. But with Shuichi taking part in the plan, it had a very good chance of succeeding, and Shuichi knew it. He wouldn’t have become a murderer and risked his life if it hadn’t. He knew there was always a chance he might die, but he was expecting to live. It has to be terrifying for him to be suddenly facing his death like this after all.

Faced with Shuichi’s imminent execution, seeing how scared Shuichi is even though he’s trying to be brave, Kaito would furiously try to fight to prevent it with everything he has. He’d be more than happy to completely throw his life away doing so (he’s going to die anyway, he doesn’t matter next to Shuichi…!). But Shuichi’s desperate pleas for him to stop coupled with the fact that they’ve been in this position too many times before would make it all too clear to Kaito just how completely powerless he is to change anything. You can’t fight Exisals without weapons (weapons they don’t have right now), and Monokuma will never let a blackened escape punishment, nor somebody else take their place.

Even Kaito literally getting himself killed fighting for it – and he would, even if he wasn’t already dying, he really would, he’d die a thousand times over if it meant Shuichi could get out of this alive – it won’t save Shuichi. Absolutely nothing he does will save Shuichi now, and he knows it—

—but no, that can’t be right, there has to be something he can do, there has to be something, this can’t be it, because—

—he can’t die failing Shuichi like this!

and with those words, Kaito’s voice just breaks, and though he’s not looking Shuichi in the eye, Shuichi can see that he’s crying…

…and it suddenly hits Shuichi all in one go just how much Kaito’s been suffering in silence this whole time.

He really was always dying; he’s always been so scared of dying, scared of dying a failure – and something about the agony in Kaito’s voice tells Shuichi that it’s not just about his “failure” here in this trial, but that he’s somehow always felt he’s been failing him. Why…? For how long…? Is that why he avoided him after Gonta’s trial? He must have been feeling so horribly trapped and helpless – why didn’t he just talk to Shuichi about it? Why would Kaito of all people have been carrying a burden that heavy all alone?

Meanwhile, Kaito has completely lost all semblance of control, screaming with desperate, helpless rage even though he knows it can’t and won’t change anything. It should have been him! It should have been him that Kokichi chose for his stupid plan, because then when Kaito messed it up – and of course he’d have messed it up, he always messes everything up – it wouldn’t matter that he’d be executed, because he’s going to die anyway, because he’d deserve it for being such a useless pathetic failure of a hero.

(at some point during this his screams of fury burn themselves out, because nothing can distract him from pain this unbearable for long, and he just degenerates into helpless, broken sobbing.)

  The worst possible breakdown

Kaito completely openly breaking down like this in front of everyone, expressing every bit of the pain he’s been bottling up without having even remotely come to believe that it’s okay to do so… this is something I’d never quite thought was possible, really. Usually Kaito is so, so stubborn about suppressing his own pain and continuing to pretend to be Completely Fine so that he can keep encouraging the people around him even a little – but when Shuichi’s going to die, how the hell would that even help? And he’s failing Shuichi even more right now by being this much of a disgraceful broken mess in front of him – but that doesn’t matter, not when Shuichi’s about to die because of him, not when Shuichi’s always been the real hero and surely must have always known how pathetic and useless Kaito was (right)?

…What I’m saying here is that, welp, I guess I’ve found another scenario that would achieve my eternal goal of Kaito’s sidekicks realising how much he’s suffering and therefore potentially being able to help him. This might just be the most heartbreaking possible way for this to happen… and also rather too heartbreakingly late.

And it has to be Shuichi’s imminent execution for this to work. Shuichi simply having been the victim in this case, or in any case for that matter, wouldn’t quite work the same way. If that had happened, Shuichi being already dead would make it undeniable that there’s nothing Kaito can do about it and all that’s left is to try not to fall apart going forward. He’d still be in agony, but he’d be determined to keep himself together somehow.

But here, when there’s nothing Kaito can do to stop Shuichi being killed, and yet it hasn’t happened yet – it gives him a desperate, completely irrational sense that if he just explodes with all of the unbearable, overwhelming reasons why he doesn’t want this to happen, then maybe it somehow just… won’t?

(It’s that same kind of sentiment that led Maki to express her romantic feelings for Kaito in canon when she’d probably never have done otherwise, even though she must have known on a rational level that it was never going to stop him dying. Her feelings and wants and pain matter and deserve to be expressed! – and so do Kaito’s, and it’s so heartbreaking that it’d take something this painful for either of them to realise it on their own.)

It being Maki’s imminent execution instead also wouldn’t be quite as bad for Kaito. It’d still be agonising to be unable to save one of his sidekicks, but it’s worse if it’s Shuichi. That’s not because Kaito cares more about Shuichi than Maki, but rather because he has so much baggage about feeling inferior to Shuichi and feeling like he’s failed Shuichi in particular, and all of that would come flooding out to break the dam in a way it wouldn’t quite do if Maki were the one who was about to die.

  Maybe it’s not too late

Realising in these final moments just how much Kaito’s been suffering this whole time, and how much he’s going to keep suffering and die in agony if he keeps feeling this way, Shuichi would suddenly and overwhelmingly want nothing more than to help him however he can before the end. He’d reassure Kaito, as firmly as possible, trying to make sure Kaito realises that he’s saying this not just to make him feel better but because it’s the truth, that he’d never felt like Kaito had failed him at all. It’s thanks to Kaito that Shuichi could have all of the strength he’s been able to show this whole time, and he’s so grateful for everything, and it’s not Kaito’s fault that things are ending this way.

Shuichi’s words manage to somewhat shine a light into the dark pit of self-loathing that Kaito’s fallen into – but even so, this is all so backwards. Can Shuichi really mean all that stuff about how Kaito inspired him? Because he’s the one who’s being a hero to Kaito, even right now when he’s about to die—

--but that’s only because Shuichi learned it from Kaito, and from Kaede, too. He’s so scared, but he’s trying so hard to be strong because it’s the only thing left he can do. It’s what Kaede did, and Shuichi knows it’s what Kaito would do here too if the roles were reversed, and he’s drawing all of his strength from that. He’s only a hero because of them.

“Kaito, listen. I need you to do one last thing for me.”

“Y-You need…?”

“You never gave up on me, or Maki, or anyone else. So, promise me… you won’t give up on you.”

Kaito’s sick, but there’s no proof it’s incurable – so maybe there’s still a chance he can make it, if they escape and get him to a hospital in time.

“The impossible is possible, right? All you gotta do is make it so. I believe in you. And, please… don’t bear the burden all by yourself.”

Kaito stares in astonishment at hearing his own words from Shuichi, and at realising how much he needed to hear all of that right now.

Shuichi smiles at him one last time through his own tears. “See? I told you I learned it from you.”

  After Shuichi’s death, it’s still far too awfully likely that Kaito would just die from his illness a day later anyway, pointlessly, hating himself, not even able to keep his promise. But, no; I refuse to allow that.

So, while the students would never be able to do a trial 6 without Shuichi, well… they don’t actually need to in order to escape. All they need to do is break down the wall. If it’s really not an apocalypse out there, then they’ll see it for themselves when they leave.

Kaito is resilient as hell – not falling into despair, no matter what, is practically his superpower. This would be agony for him, but it wouldn’t break him completely. That final promise he made to Shuichi would be just enough for him to cling to and keep himself going. There’s got to be something he can do to keep that promise. …There is something.

Shaken with grief, probably holding onto Maki for support – he isn’t even sure what to think any more about what kind of a hero this makes him look like, but at least she’s still here – Kaito turns to Keebo. With no room for argument, he demands that Keebo puts his goddamn weapons on right now and gets them out of here. They all don’t want to lose anyone else, right? Not even him.

Kaito won’t let Shuichi down.

  The totally-cheating happy ending

Alternatively, if you want to imagine this with a happier ending than that – which I very much do, because even one ending in which one of this trio dies is plenty and it breaks my heart to imagine others – then… well, the only way to really do so in this situation is to cheat. So how about we pretend this was actually happening in a VR AU all along! An AU in which the whole killing game was virtual reality and everyone wakes up alive afterwards is the perfect way to keep all of the emotional trauma but none of the permanent death, which is exactly what I’d like to do here.

So please enjoy imagining Kaito and Shuichi, after all that pain and anguish, waking up from the simulation to find themselves and more importantly each other alive and safe, and just clinging to each other and sobbing in desperate relief. (They are friends.)

(As some bonus irony, this being in a VR AU would mean that Monokuma definitely always knew the culprit anyway because of his admin powers over the simulation. So despite how badly he blamed himself for it, Kaito was never even slightly responsible for the plan failing.)

Once they’ve got over that initial emotional tidal wave of simply being alive, Shuichi wouldn’t be able to stop worrying about Kaito’s breakdown in the simulation and the reasons behind it. Even if Kaito pathetically tried to paper over it and pretend it didn’t happen and insist he’s Fine now that they’re all safe, Shuichi would know. He’d be sure that this is bound to still be haunting Kaito in some way, and he’d refuse to let his friend keep suffering and carrying his burdens alone like this.

Luckily, Kaito made it clear enough during his breakdown that the root cause of it was feeling like he’d failed, so Shuichi and Maki would hopefully be able to figure out from there that it’s for this same reason that he keeps trying to insist he’s totally fine now. That’d be exactly the starting point they need to tell Kaito that he’s not failing them by suffering and needing support too and he doesn’t ever have to be afraid of that. One way or another, they’d be able to talk him into letting them help him at last.

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Ouma Month Day 15 - Motives

One Shot

Characters: Kokichi Ouma

Words: 1,298

Summary:

Do you know how long it takes for a guy who just got shot and has been coughing up blood for the past few weeks to climb up some stairs and turn on a camera to film a hydraulic press dropping? Long enough for the guy under the press to think about some stuff.

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Why did this happen to me? … What a dull thing to wonder before you die.

 Probably what Gonta thought too. Given the memory loss and all.

 There was a really simple answer though.

 Murderers get the death penalty.

 Those are the rules.

 …

 Those rules weren’t exactly fair, were they? That’s what Momota would say. “It’s not fair.” Idiot.

 Human beings were so fragile.

 “Gonta would never do something like that.”

 But he would. Kokichi watched him strangle Miu. All he had to do was show him a little video about how they were the last people on Earth.

 Which wasn’t true. Probably. No definitely not. Kokichi knew how to sniff out a lie. These facilities weren’t built for people to survive in them. They were so clearly constructed from the ground up to be made for killing. And there were cameras. Someone wanted this so, so badly.

 Sick mother fucker.

 ...

 Would Kokichi have done it? In Gonta’s position?

 Well, the obvious answer was no. It was the answer that Kokichi felt instinctively.

 Except that was exactly what made Kokichi so sure he couldn’t trust that sentiment. Because the obvious and instinctual had been untrustworthy from the very beginning of this game.

 One rule. No killing people.

 That was in his motive video.

 The one with all the fake blood. The one that made his heart ache despite the people in the video clearly not being malnourished enough to be prisoners.

 None of his feelings or memories made any sense at all.

 He was like Gonta that way.

 Except unlike that bastard he actually had at least half a brain cell devoted to fighting back.

 The part of him that blanched at the thought of death, the thought of a complete human sentience being deleted from the world, that couldn’t be trusted either.

 Miu hadn’t felt it. Gonta hadn’t either.

 “The only rule is no killing!”

 Why the fuck would that be in a video that was supposed to give him a motivation to participate in the killing game?

 There was only one reason for that line in the video, for the feelings in his brain.

 It was to mark him for death.

 Because this was a game, he had to remind himself. It was a game where people died.

 If he hadn’t used Gonta, someone else would have. If Miu hadn’t died, she would’ve killed someone else and Shuichi would’ve ended up getting her executed anyway. Kokichi had minimized the net cause of death. None of the remaining players on the board had the vast physical or technological advantages that Gonta or Miu would have had in trying to commit another murder.

 Well. Except for Killer girl.

 Holding Kaito should’ve taken care of her, though. His plan to end the killing game really had been good. Even now, looking back, there probably wasn’t a better plan he could’ve come up with. He had disabled the mastermind’s technological enforcers, which had left him free to put the remaining suspects under his thumb. Since this was a game to be watched, it was obvious that Kaito was the protagonist. He embodied all of the standard tropes. Dumb. Stupidly friendly. Idiotically trusting. Did he mention that he wasn’t smart? For a while Kokichi had suspected it was an act so that the weird bearded liar could live out some sort of hero complex, but if Kaito really was the mastermind did it entirely make sense for him to give himself a disease? Coughing blood had not looked fun, and Kokichi’s experimenting in the last trial had humiliated Kaito to the point where he was pretty sure that if Kaito really had been the mastermind Kokichi would’ve seen better consequence by now. That trial made it pretty clear that the mastermind had to be someone less assuming… During the second trial Harukawa had been his biggest suspect. You know, because of the room full of guns and such. Except now that very fact kind of ruled her out. She had breached that level of super extra suspicious where she just wasn’t suspicious at all anymore.

 Well, except she had just killed him, hadn’t she?

 Dammit.

 He shouldn’t have trusted her.

 Whatever. Whatever.

 It didn’t matter, he was going to save her life anyway. His reasons for that were another example of his emotions trying to betray him. Because he hated Killer girl from the very depths of his soul. A person who didn’t see anything at all wrong with murder… that disgusted him. But Kokichi couldn’t trust his feelings, he had to trust his brain. And his brain said that Killer girl wouldn’t die without being killed and Kaito on the other hand… Well, he probably had more blood outside of him and inside his lungs than he had in his actual veins. Kokichi bet he wouldn’t last the next two days. Even if Kokichi’s plan to break the killing game didn’t work, the net loss of life would be lower because of his actions.

 Maybe it would make up for-

 No. Gonta would’ve died anyway, remember? Kokichi had just snatched him up as a pawn before any other player could, that was all. He was easily manipulated and willing to murder. Kokichi couldn’t…

 …

 That was a lousy excuse. He was still dead.

 Kokichi’s plan hadn’t worked.

 What was he even talking about? Net loss of life?

 Disgusting.

 Kaito still had a chance to live. Probably. Maybe.

 …

 Unless Shuichi went and fucked it up.

 …

 No, if Shuichi figured out the truth, it’d be Kokichi’s fault for not being able to plan around him.

 That unpredictable piece of shit. If anyone deserved to survive this dumbass killing game it was probably him.

 …

 Kokichi wasn’t sure Shuichi would do it, if he were Gonta.

 He didn’t know anything about Shuichi, though.

 Gonta’s trial had really proved that. Kokichi spent so much energy trying to dismantle Kaito’s position of authority in the group. Trying to get them to think for themselves. Notice how they were all being manipulated. Make them think for one goddamn second to be even a little bit suspicious of the bullshit that-

 …

 But he just sounded like an asshole.

 …

 Haha, yeah maybe the punch had been a bit excessive.

 Whatever. He could work with being an asshole when he was pulling the mastermind schtick. He could with that when he was certain that the killing game was about to end.

 …

 Kaito would do it. Kaito was doing it right now. Killing him. Kokichi had foreseen that. Another good reason why it had to be Kaito who he grabbed out of the herd. Because he could be made to kill someone like Gonta could be made to kill someone. And he might be able to manipulate everyone else into condoning it, like Akamatsu had. Kokichi had let him become too powerful.

 Hah. Shuichi’s little speech after the trial sure had made that clear…

 This was stupid.

 Ugh. It was all so stupid.

 He shouldn’t have trusted Killer girl. Or, at least, he shouldn’t have trusted how far the game was going to let her character arc go.

 …

 Damn it. Kaito was going to kill him. There was no other way to do it.

 He tried to convince himself he was already dead, but he couldn’t. The pain of his wounds, and the poisoned blood flowing out of them reminded him how desperately his body was still trying to stay alive.

     I don’t want to die.  

 …

 That’s probably what everyone thinks when they’re about to die.

 What a boring last thought.

 The metal press hit his nose first, but he didn’t have time to process the cool touch of the metal surface.

 It hit his nose and then-

 …

 …

 …

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Kaito Momota x Reader-Without You

Requested by Crystie1234 on Wattpad Trigger Warning: Angst, suicidal reader

This place was Hell.

From the moment you arrived, you thought this. You were shoved into this school with sixteen other students and told by some weird robot bear cubs that you had to kill each other to leave. Then when you were given the hope to escape through a tunnel, it was ripped away from you.

The people you were trapped with were nice for the most part. They all had their quirks, but you didn't mind most of them. Out of all of the people here, the one you were closest to was Kaito Momota, the Ultimate Astronaut, and honestly, that wasn't even really your choice. When you met the guy, he immediately declared you his 'sidekick' and would sit beside you every day at breakfast, lunch and dinner. He'd spend as much time during the day with you as he could. He was very eccentric, but you had to admit, being around him made you happy, as if you weren't in the middle of a life or death killing game.

Then Rantaro was killed.

Any happiness you had felt went away, and all your fears returned. You were no help in the investigation, shuffling around and flinching whenever someone even so much as accidentally looked at you. The trial didn't help things. With everyone arguing and fighting, you started to become overwhelmed until-

"This is the truth behind your lies, Kaede Akamatsu, the Ultimate Pianist." The Ultimate Detective Shuichi had come up with what seemed to be the biggest stretch ever. Kaede? A killer? How could that be? She did everything in her power to encourage everyone.

But it was the truth. Everyone voted for Kaede, and you watched with terrified eyes as one of the only people to give you hope in this place was taken from you.

Once the execution was over, you trudged back to your room slowly. This place kept getting worse and worse. You didn't know how much longer you could take it, and not even Kaito's persistence of getting you to join activities and to be more social didn't cheer you up as much any more.  

Two more class trials came and went, and each one made you feel less and less hopeful. You didn't think you'd ever get out of this place. At this point, you were barely more than a husk. You didn't feel anything. No happiness, no anger, no sadness, not even despair.

It wasn't for anyone's lack of trying, you'll give them that. Gonta would show you butterflies and bring you pretty flowers, and while you accepted them, the most you could muster was a weak smile that looked obviously forced even to the naive Gonta. Shuichi attempted to speak to you and cheer you up, but you could only ever give one word replies. Keebo would show you different features he had, and while you found it interesting, you could only nod between each feature. Even Kokichi would do whatever he could to try to make you laugh, and wouldn't be as harsh to you as he was to others with his teasing and lies.

But the person who tried the hardest was definitely Kaito. He would go up to you and tell you awful jokes, tell you stories about his "adventures", and drag you around to places around the school in attempts get you to "loosen up" as he said.

But nothing worked.

You tried to have fun with everyone, really. But you just couldn't muster the energy or the will. The thought of "What's the point?" kept circling around in your head.

But when Miu came to everyone and claimed to have created a safe virtual reality for everyone to escape the killing game, you felt a tinge of hope. And for the first time in weeks, you felt happy.

As you all entered the world and got used to your strange new bodies, you walked up to Kaito, a smile on your face. Kaito looked at you, a pleasantly surprised look on his face. "Hey, there's my sidekick! And you're smiling again!" He threw his arm around your shoulders, causing you to let out a soft giggle. "I was starting to worry about ya! You haven't been talking much!"

You looked up at him bashfully. "I...haven't been feeling great recently." You told him quietly.

Kaito smiled softly and ruffled your hair. "I can completely understand that. But you know ya can always come to me, right sidekick?" He asked you with a beaming smile.

You laughed softly and covered your mouth as you nodded.

Eventually everyone went to look around, going in the groups Miu had put them in. You began to go outside, but were stopped with a hand on your shoulder. You turned and saw Kaito.

"Hey." He said, smiling at you. He gestured his head to the stairs that led to the roof. "Why don't ya come with me, sidekick?" You smiled and nodded. Kaito was the person you felt the safest with here, so why wouldn't you go exploring with him? Sure, Miu had told you to go elsewhere, but two people exploring the roof would be more efficient, right? He beamed as you nodded and took your hand in his, leading you up the stairs. When you reached the top, he let go of your hand and flashed you a smile. He walked over to the railing and crossed his arms on top of it. You walked over to his side and looked over to him as he stared out into the distance. You turned to look as well, leaning on your elbows as the virtual wind blew through your avatar's hair. There was a peaceful silence.

"What's been bothering you, Y/N?" Kaito asked, breaking the quiet.

You blinked and turned to look at him. His head was turned to you, a serious look on his face. You stood up straight and scratched the back of your neck. "It's...nothing." You murmured.

Kaito rolled his eyes and straightened up, his arms falling to his side. "Cut the crap." He said sternly. "You've been avoiding everyone. I thought we were all your friends!"

"You are!" You squeaked out, backing up as you anxiously picked at your hand. Your anxiety started to pick up as your friend turned to you.

"Then why have you been acting like you hate us?" He asked in a low tone, stalking closer to you.

You began to breathe heavily. "I...I...I don't hate any of you..." You stammered out. "Please...leave me alone..."

Kaito shook his head. "No. I won't. You need to know I care about you."

You gulped as you began to hyperventilate. You continued to back up until you stumbled over your feet. With a frightened yelp you closed your eyes and braced for impact.

But it never came.

Instead, you felt a strong arm wrap around your middle. You slowly opened your eyes and saw Kaito holding you, a worried look on his face. "Whoa! Y/N, you ok?" You nodded slowly. He gave you a soft smile as he carefully brought you to a standing position, though he didn't remove his arm from your waist. Your eyes flickered up to his, and you inhaled sharply when you saw he looked genuinely worried. "Please, Y/N." He said softly. "You're my friend. I want to help. Please tell me what I can do."

You looked up into his eyes, and all the anxiety you were feeling prior melted away. You let out a shaky sigh. "I...I..." You looked to the side. "I've almost given up, Kaito." You admitted. "All of this killing, this betrayal, this..." You reached up and grasped at your hair. "It's too much, Kaito! We all trust and call each other friends, but in the end, none of it matters! It's all lies! Just... lies! Kokichi is right! Everything is a-"

You were shut up by Kaito pulling you flush against him with the arm around you, then pressing his lips against yours. You squeaked in surprise. Before you had any chance to react, he ended the kiss and placed his forehead on yours. "Don't you ever say that little shit is right ever again." The purple clothed man said quietly. "And stop saying nothing matters, because that's not true at all."

You blinked rapidly in confusion. "Wh...wha-?"

Kaito chuckled and brought his free arm up to run his fingers through your hair. "Don't I matter, Y/N?" He asked, his voice a whisper.

Your eyes widened as you nodded. "Y-yes! Yes, of course you do! You mean so much to me, Kaito!"

Kaito gave you a warm smile. "I'm glad. You mean more to me than the stars themselves." He placed a kiss on your forehead. "I'm sorry if I scared you earlier." He apologized softly. "I just really care about your well being."

Your mind was still reeling over what was happening. "Kaito, I'm sorry, I still don't really understand what's happening right now."

Kaito laughed. "The kiss didn't make it obvious?" He teased. He grabbed your chin gently and tilted it up. He looked down at you and smiled sweetly. "I really, really like you, Y/N." His voice was a whisper, only barely audible. After he finished his words he pulled you into a gentle kiss. Your eyes immediately fluttered closed, and you heard Kaito hum happily into the kiss. He pulled you even closer into his chest, almost protectively. The hand that wasn't around your waist rested gently on your hip, rubbing up and down comfortingly.

And then, his presence was gone.

You blinked open your eyes, which widened in confusion when you saw no one was there. "K...Kaito?" You called. "Where'd you go?"

Miu was dead.

She had been murdered, and Kaito was the main suspect because he disconnected the earliest.

And just like that your mood was even worse than before.

You were picking at your arms as the trial went on, the arguments becoming garbled nothingness. You moved your hands over to the railing and gripped it tightly, the words of your peers disappearing completely until-

"Well the killer is ooobviously Y/N!"

Your head shot up and looked over to the one who spoke. It was Kokichi, and he had on a shit eating grin like always. The rest of your peers slowly turned to look at you.

"Hmm. Well...she doesn't have an alibi." Tsumugi mused, holding a finger to her chin. "Kaito claimed he was with her on the roof when he was booted out of the game. So if Y/N was left alone, she could've found a way to kill Miu."

"W-wait a second!" You rebutted anxiously. "It...it's not me!"

"Yeah! It can't be Y/N!" Kaito yelled, slamming his fist against the railing. "If it was her, why the hell was Miu's body on the other side of the river?! Y/N couldn't have gotten to that side 'cause the bridge was out!"

"Miu was planning to meet me on the roof, remember?" Kokichi countered with a smirk. He placed his arms behind his head. "Y/N might've overheard and decided to catch her off guard." He covered his mouth in fake surprise. "Or maybe she thought I'd come up first?!"

You shook your head, taking a step back from your podium. "No. I-I didn't kill her. I swear." Kaito looked over at you worriedly.

"Y/N has been awfully quiet for a few weeks now." Maki pointed out. "Maybe she was trying to lower our expectations of her, so when she finally struck we wouldn't suspect her."

Kaito's head snapped over to Maki, and he looked angry and disappointed.

"Gonta no believe Y/N kill someone." Gonta spoke up in your defense. "Y/N may be shy and quiet, but Y/N like bugs! And anyone who likes bugs is a good person!"

"I also do not believe Y/N committed the murder." Keebo agreed. "The facts do not line up."

"Nya. But if Miu was going to the roof, then Y/N could've killed her easily." Himiko said lazily.

"Something doesn't add up here." Shuichi said, looking over at you as you held your sides tightly in fear. "This doesn't seem like the right answer."

"Because it isn't!" Kaito exclaimed. "It's not Y/N!"

"Yes it is!" Kokcihi retorted with a snicker.

"Uh oh! Looks like we have another split room!" Monokuma interrupted. "Hope's Peak Academy is happy to present, the morphanominal trial grounds!"

The podiums raised up like they had many times before. But unlike those times, the height was making your anxiety much worse. Soon they came to a stop, and just like the other times, the room was split down the middle. Kokichi, Tsumugi, Maki and Himiko were on the left, while Shuichi, Kaito, Keebo, Gonta and yourself were on the right. You gulped as you gripped the podium so tightly that your knuckles turned white. You began to breathe heavily, and your vision started to fade as you heard the argument begin.

"Y/N was alone on the roof when Miu went up there to meet with Kokichi!" Tsumugi began the debate.

"Keebo!" Shuichi called, pointing to his debate ally.

"Y/N herself said that as soon as she realized Kaito was gone she left the roof!" The robot rebutted the cosplayer's argument.

"But can we really trust her word? No one saw her leave the roof, after all." Kokichi pointed out. "She has no alibi!"

"I got this!" Shuichi announced as he glared at the purple haired boy before him. "I mentioned earlier about noticing Y/N come down the stairs to the roof! I'm her alibi!"

You crouched down to the ground as the voices seemed to get louder and louder. They were almost overwhelming.

"Nya. Even so, Y/N is the only one it could be." Himiko interjected tiredly. "She has to be the one that killed Miu."

"Gonta!" The Ultimate Detective pointed to the large man.

"If Y/N is the one that killed Miu," Gonta began, putting a finger to his chin. "Why Miu body on other side of stream?"

"She's been quiet for so long." Maki said matter-of-factly, eyes narrowed. "It's a common tactic to lower expectations so you'll never expect them to murder you."

"Kaito!" Shuichi yelled and pointed to Kaito, who looked over to Maki sadly.

"She's only been quiet 'cause she's been scared of all of you!" The astronaut snapped. "She's lost all hope because of you all!"

Everyone went quiet after that, and all eyes went to you, who was all but in the fetal position. The podiums slowly went down, and as they settled back into place, the trial slowly but surely picked but up speed, with everyone now certain you weren't the blackened.

But the damage was done.

It was Gonta.

He didn't even remember he did it. Kokichi tricked him into it, and he didn't even remember doing it. Just another blow.

You hurried along to your dorm, not paying attention to anything happening. Kokichi seemed to be doing something that caught everyone's attention, so you were able to sneak by without anyone noticing. You entered your room and locked the door. As you pressed your back against it, you felt tears begin to form in your eyes. You let out a sob as you pushed away from the door and hurried into the bathroom. You put in the stop and began to run the hot water. While you waited, you walked over and grabbed your sharpest razor. You swallowed as you tested it with you finger, letting out a wince as it bled. You let out a shaky sigh as you turned back to the tub. You turned the water off and got in, gritting your teeth at the hot water. After you had adjusted to the heat, you took the razor in your right hand and placed it against your left wrist. With one more deep sigh, you slid it across. You yelped as the blood spilled. You switched hands with your razor and prepared to do the same to the other wrist.

Directly after the trial, Kaito had planned on finding you, but he had gotten caught up in some stupid fight with Kokichi. The astronaut trainee coughed lightly and wiped away any remaining blood. He made his way straight to your room and knocked. When he didn't get a response, he knocked again, but louder. "Hey, Y/N!" He called. "It's me! I came to check on ya!"

Still no answer.

He bit his lip, getting even more worried now. He knew you had to be here. That trial obviously made your anxiety act up, so you wouldn't have gone anywhere else. He banged on the door as hard as he could. "Y/N if you don't answer I'm going to break this door down!" He threatened.

No reply.

With narrowed eyes, Kaito braced his shoulder and ran at the door. He heard a light creak, so he backed up and did it again, this time getting a loud crack as a reward. "One more time." He muttered to himself, repeated the action a last time. As he did, he tumbled into your room as the door splintered into pieces. He pulled himself to his feet and looked around your room. Noticing your bathroom light was on, he peeked his head in there. His eyes widened at the sight.

Your head was lying against the wall, both your wrists were slit open and bleeding red into the tub water. Your eyes were closed.

"Y/N!" Kaito screamed, rushing to your side. He pulled you out of the tub as quickly as he could. "Y/N, stay with me!" He pleaded. He wracked his brain for what to do. He stumbled to his feet and ran out to your broken door. "Guys! Hey! Somebody, please! Please fucking help me!"

He ran back to you, not waiting on a response. He ransacked your cabinet for anything, finding a first aid kit. He threw the lid open and grabbed the bandages. He immediately grabbed your arms and applied them, making sure to apply pressure when needed. "Y/N, please. Please don't leave me." He begged, tears filling his eyes as he moved on to your other arm. He watched as the bandages almost immediately turned completely red with blood. He just continued to add more, and more, and more, until he felt a hand on his shoulder. He looked up and saw Shuichi. The detective looked terrified, but he crouched beside Kaito.

"Here, let me." He offered, his voice shaking. Kaito nodded, moving to the side. He moved over to your body and ran his fingers through your hair.

"I'm so sorry, Y/N." He muttered. "I knew you were anxious, and depressed, but I didn't see exactly how bad it had gotten." He held your soaking wet shirt tightly. "God, I love ya so much, Y/N. Please don't leave me."

"I...love ya...too...Kai....to."

Kaito's head shot down to you as he watched as your eyes slowly fluttered open. He quickly peppered kisses on your forehead. "Y/N!" He breathed. "God, you're ok. Please don't leave me."

"I'm...sorry..." You managed to say. "I...I couldn't take it anymore."

"I told you..." Kaito said, clenching his fists into your clothes as his tears fell on your arm. "You mean so much to me."

"I know..." You responded. Guilt began to hit you. "I'm...selfish."

He shook his head. "No. No you aren't. You were just stressed. They turned on you in there. You felt like the world was against you."

You managed a weak smile at Kaito. "But you didn't turn against me."

Kaito smiled and kissed you passionately. "Of course I didn't. Because I believe in ya."

You turned to look at Shuichi, who was standing up, having done all he could. "Thank you...Shuichi."

He nodded, smiling at you. "Of course, Y/N." He said softly. "Please, get some rest." He looked to Kaito and gave him a nod before leaving.

Kaito looked back at you. "Let me get you to bed." He said, standing. He picked you up carefully and brought you to your bed.

As he placed you down, you held a hand out weakly. "Stay with me." You begged.

He smiled at you and nodded, lying beside you. "Of course, Y/N."

You snuggled up beside him and closed your eyes. Kaito carefully placed an arm around you and nuzzled his face in the crook of your neck. "I don't know what I'd do without you, Y/N." He muttered. "Please. Never leave me." He gently pulled you closer to him. "We'll get through this together, I promise."

You nodded. "I..believe you Kaito." You murmured sleepily. "I know we will."

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Postmortem- Chapter 4

Kokichi visits the others in the dining hall. Saying it doesn't go well would be an understatement.

tw: suicide attempt/mention

ao3

A few days had passed since the nurse informed Saihara and the others that Ouma was awake, yet he still remained unseen by the others. Holed up in his room, purposefully avoiding the others, Ouma was doing less than well. He barely ate, hardly slept, and had no social interaction besides minor occurrences with the nurses.

Time passed incredibly slowly. Ouma had tried keeping a journal to prevent himself from going insane, but quickly discarded the idea after being paranoid that someone would eventually read it. There was a TV in his room, which was his main excuse as to why he was always in his room whenever the nurses asked, but in reality it did little to keep him occupied. He would stare at the TV for hours, imagining himself in the killing game, thinking about what he could’ve done better in order to make his plan work.

Ouma’s plan had failed, and he only had himself to blame.

Not Momota, for revealing himself in the Exisal.

Not Harukawa, for starting the killing game when it should’ve ended.

And not the mastermind, for instigating Harukawa’s actions via a flashback light.

If only he had lied more… No, lied less. Not lied at all?

Every single variation on what could’ve happened was jumbled in Ouma’s brain, swirling around in a hazy fog, clouding his mind’s focus and distracting him from the present.

Why did he even care so much about the killing game? It was all virtual reality, so who cares if his plan had failed?

…

Ouma just felt useless. He gave his life for a plan that didn’t even work, only to find out that even if it did work it would have all been for naught, as the killing game was just fabricated.

He knew that it was pointless to think about what he could have done. He knew that, yet he continued to think about it. Intrusive thoughts permeated every crevice of his mind, taking control of his voluntary thoughts and forcing him to obsess over what he could’ve done better.

Maybe he was selfish, craving recognition for having successfully saved everyone. If his plan had worked and succeeded in exposing the corruptness of the killing game, he could emerge from his pod with a smile on his face, being greeted with open arms and smiles from the rest of the group for ending the killing game. There would be no need to isolate himself from everyone, hiding himself away in his room, and he wouldn’t feel the crushing burden of guilt in his chest for lying to everyone.

If his plan had worked, his lies would be forgiven and the evil reputation he had built for himself would be expunged. But his plan hadn’t worked. It failed. And now he had to deal with the consequences.

Setting Ouma’s twisted thinking aside, the reality of the situation was quite different. The others didn’t care that his plan had failed, they only cared that he tried. After all, Akamatsu had tried to kill the mastermind and failed, yet everyone still forgave her. They felt the same about Ouma, acknowledging his efforts to end the killing game even though his efforts were unsuccessful.

The only difference in Ouma’s case was the fact that he committed multiple atrocities during the killing game: his constant lies, falsely claiming to be the mastermind, and, above all else, causing the deaths of Gokuhara and Iruma. But everyone had committed malicious acts during the killing game, such as murdering someone in cold blood simply for personal gain.

In actuality, even Gokuhara and Iruma had forgiven Ouma. The only person who hadn’t forgiven him was himself.

This had held him back immensely, distorting his thoughts into thinking that everyone else had yet to forgive him. Naturally, when backed into the corner of now having to live up to his actions, Ouma did the only thing he knew how to do: he lied, lied, and lied some more, trying to lie his way out of the situation at hand.

Ouma knew that his time was running out. He couldn’t run forever, and would have to go see the others eventually. That is, if the others were even truly alive. The nurses could have been lying about that, after all. Ouma truly trusted no one.

He had mulled over his options in his head for a while: he could wait it out in his room until one of the nurses forced him out, or he could take the initiative and go see the others himself. Having someone visit him wasn’t even an option; Ouma knew that no one would ever come see him in his room.

Sighing to himself audibly, he pushed himself off the bed, knees wobbly from laying down for so long. It was now or never, he supposed. He exited the room and made his way to the dining hall.

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Once he arrived at the entrance of the dining hall, Ouma lingered outside for a bit, listening to everyone’s voices. He could make out what was most definitely Momota talking to his “sidekicks” about what was most likely some nerdy space thing, as well as Tojo announcing what she had prepared for everyone to eat. Bracing himself for the worst, Ouma steeled himself and pushed the doors to the dining hall open.

As soon as he opened the doors the dining hall went dead silent, all eyes landing on his pale and sickly form. Ouma paid no mind to their staring, instead proudly announcing his presence to the group, as if it wasn’t already obvious.

“Ta-daaa! I, Kokichi Ouma, have arrived in the dining hall of this sad little hospital! Bow down to me, or face the wrath of one thousand suns!”

His announcement was met with wide eyes and gaping mouths. Momota seemed bewildered, dropping his fork onto his plate with a loud clank, while Harukawa’s piercing glare was immediately upon him. No one spoke, thus prompting Ouma to continue:

“Man, you guys look like you’ve seen a ghost or something! Well I guess that’s not too inaccurate, what with me being totally dead and all!” Ouma announced cheerfully.

“Holy shit, dude…” Iruma began, “You look like shit! When was the last time you ate somethin’?”

Ouma’s smirk only grew at these words. Of course it was Iruma who chose to speak up first. Ironic.

“Well if it isn’t my dear Iruma-chan! The last time I saw you was when Gonta strangled you on the rooftop of the virtual world! Hey, how did that feel by the way? Did it feel as disgusting as you look, you filthy slut?” Ouma chirped, raising his arms behind his head.

“Umm… Gonta no think we should talk about the killing game…”

“Puh-lease! Are you telling me to just ignore everything that happened in the game?” Ouma brought a finger to his lips, then pointed the accusing digit at Gokuhara. “No one tells the great Kokichi Ouma what to do!”

“Cut the crap, Ouma!” Momota interjected, standing up from his seat fiercely. “We all know you hated that stupid game just as much as the rest of us, so cut it out!”

“Oh? Is that so?” Ouma tilted his head innocently. “You mean you really believed all that crap I said to you in that Exisal hangar? How pathetic! Guess the great old ‘Luminary of the Stars’ is as stupid as ever!”

“Do you want to die?” Harukawa stated flatly. “If so, I have no problem taking you out right now.”

“Take me out, hm? Sorry Maki Roll, you aren’t really my type... “ He examined his nails, as if they were more interesting than the conversation at hand. “I’m gonna have to pass on that one!”

“Don’t…” Harukawa muttered, eyes downcast.

“Don’t what, Maki Roll?”

Harukawa’s gaze returned, pure wrath emanating from her entire body. “Don’t fucking call me that!!”

In a flash, Harukawa had leapt out of her seat and sprinted up to Ouma, a kitchen knife in her hand. Now that the killing game was over, she could kill someone without being executed for it if she got caught. Within seconds, she had Ouma pinned against the well, a knife to his throat. Harukawa applied ample pressure to the knife, making marks in the tender flesh of his neck.

“Well… this is… Gh!” Hearing Ouma try to speak led Harukawa to apply even more pressure to the knife, adding to the burning sensation he felt on his throat.

Several gasps could be heard across the dining hall, as well as the movement of chairs and shuffling of footsteps towards Harukawa and Ouma.

“Maki Roll, don’t!!” Momota shouted, “We all promised to get along! You can’t do this!”

“Watch me.” The first prickles of blood appeared beneath the knife, dotting the pale skin of Ouma’s throat.

Ouma didn’t dare to speak, lest Harukawa try to slit his throat wide open.

“Stop it, Harukawa-san!” Akamatsu cried.

A few gasps for air and choked sobs escaped Ouma’s lips before she finally let him go, his body collapsing in a heap on the ground along with the knife.

Momota immediately ran up to Harukawa to hold her back, preventing her from doing anything else. Akamatsu and Saihara went up to Ouma, helping him back to his feet. The rest of the group watched from a distance, too afraid to approach the scene.

“Calm down, Maki Roll!” Momota held on tightly to her, not letting her go. “Just leave him be!”

“I can’t! He just walks in here, provoking all of us like that after not showing up for over a week… He deserves it!!” Harukawa wasn’t struggling much, indicating that she had at least calmed down a little bit, although she was still quite furious.

“I know, but… Just let me talk to him, okay? I know what he said in the hangar had to have been the truth… I’m gonna talk to him later and try to get the truth out of him.” Momota reassured her.

Saihara and Akamatsu were at Ouma’s side, attempting to help him stand back up. He was already weak enough as it is, and having a knife to his throat didn’t help. His vision was blurred and fuzzy, and he barely recognized the other two at his side. It was strange, having people by his side to help him up after being so alone in the killing game, but he wasn’t in any position to reject their help. He accepted their outstretched hands, begrudgingly.

“Ouma-kun, are you okay?” Saihara asked, lifting him up along with Akamatsu.

“Nn… I-I think so?” Ouma had one hand clamped around his throat, his other arm going limp at his side.

“Here, move your hand. Let me see your throat.” Akamatsu suggested, gently placing her hand on Ouma’s. He  removed his hand from his throat to reveal a small amount of blood and a minor cut. Nothing that wouldn’t heal on its own.

“...’M fine…” Ouma drawled, pushing them away. “I’m gonna go back to my room…”

“Wait! At least let us-” Saihara was cut off by a wave of Ouma’s hand as he staggered out of the dining hall by himself, one hand against the wall for balance.

Unbeknownst to the others, Ouma had slid the knife underneath his shirt, taking it with him back to his room.

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Ouma shut the door behind him, flopping down on the hospital bed. He immediately broke down crying, grasping onto the blankets of the bed tightly, his knuckles turning white.

Why couldn’t he just act normal? Why couldn't he just walk in there and apologize for his actions? Why did everything have to be so complicated?

Everyone was so happy without him, too. No one even came to visit him to see how he was. They didn’t want to, and they never would. They were all perfectly content living their lives without him.

Ouma was used to this kind of isolation during the killing game, but that doesn’t mean it didn’t hurt. During the killing game he cast aside his personal feelings for the sake of the group, enduring all kinds of pain in order to see everyone else smile in the end. If they were happy, he was happy. But being selfless had its limits.

Ouma felt selfish for wanting to be included with everyone. Laughing and smiling with everyone, talking about what they were going to do after they were released from this place; He just wanted the same feeling of happiness that they all had. And he felt incredibly selfish for having such desires.

He sighed into his pillow then flipped himself over, staring at the ceiling. Remembering that he had taken the knife with him, he slipped it out from under his clothes and held it in his hand.

Selfish.

You’re so fucking selfish for wanting to be happy with everyone else.

Ouma sat up straight, still grasping the knife tightly in his hand.

If only you had really died during the killing game.

No one even wants you here.

You would be better off dead.

He brought the knife up to his throat, wet and sorrowful tears streaming down his face.

Better hurry up and finish what Harukawa-chan started.

Closing his eyes, he prepared to slit his own throat.

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[toxicpineapple]

is there a specific reason u dont like oumota?? or do u just Dislike it

oh boy anon you’re really gonna have me go into that kinda conversation alright... i guess it’s no secret that oumota is my least favourite pairing, so i don’t mind talking about it. all that aside please keep in mind that these are my opinions and i have a lot of respect for people who ship any pairing (aside from the problematic ones, obviously, pro-ship dni) and i have zero desire to start any fights with anybody.

i’ve never been a fan of enemies-to-lovers as a trope. i think it’s good to start there. one of my earliest fandoms was the death note fandom, and there was a LOT of lawlight (l x light) content. still is, i’m sure, i just haven’t been by the fandom in a while. i just, i absolutely hated it. i was in fifth grade at the time so i was a bit... oblivious, to chemistry between characters as a whole, but also, it just didn’t make any sense to me! they hated each other! why would you think that’s a good relationship! light LITERALLY wanted l dead and i’m not gonna say any spoilers in case i have followers who haven’t seen the show yet but the way things go down... it just didn’t make sense to me. there was the homoerotic foot rubbing scene, of course, and l tells light that they’re friends, but light was being ACTIVELY MANIPULATIVE the entire time. i didn’t see why people would want to ship people who are enemies. i couldn’t wrap my head around it.

after being in fandom for a bit longer, i think i’ve managed to figure it out, lol. i am (and will always be) of the belief that any pairing can be done well, given enough time and attention. (again aside from the problematic ones i’m not here to engage with incest or pedophilia okay that shit is nasty and i don’t need your “it’s fiction!” bull that kind of mindset perpetuates abuse.) if you can sell me on it, then damn, sure, i’ll be into it. i’m still not big on enemies-to-lovers, that fifth grade mindset of “it’s so weird to ship people who hate each other” hasn’t really gone away, but i’m open to it. if you can sell it, i’ll buy it! that kind of thing.

i still prefer friends-to-lovers though. in the danganronpa fandom, i’ve always prefered naegiri and hinanami over naegami and komahina. (oumasai and saimota are the exception, i go back and forth on them but ultimately i love them equally, ouma being my favourite antag and all) i just think that positive interactions are healthier, and communication is easier when you’re not at each other’s throats all the time. this is obviously my opinion, subject to debate and all that, yadda yadda yadda. i’ll take shy smiles across the breakfast table over homoerotic pauses in the middle of arguments any day of the week.

i think you’re starting to get the reason why oumota isn’t my cup of tea. still, i like naegami and komahina, like, a LOT. enough that i would write them on my own time, extensively, just because i feel like it. there are pairings where i wouldn’t be so willing, where i’d just shrug and do it if requested but ultimately keep to my side of the playground. even if i don’t immediately jump to shipping people who dislike each other, that doesn’t mean i should have an avid hate for this pairing! so what gives?

it comes down to this, anon: ouma and momota HATE each other in canon. with a lot of enemies-to-lovers things, there’s like, a brief moment of mutual appreciation to give people steam. byakuya and makoto have that!!! byakuya is there to help makoto as much as he can after their killing game, and from post-chapter four onwards byakuya is unreservedly on makoto’s side. they work together!!!! at the end of the game byakuya says he’ll help if people need it!!!!! (through the byakuya translator ofc.) and then he DOES!!!!!!! he went into the neo-world program to help makoto!!!

and komahina has that too!!! all of chapter one, for example? nagito’s ftes? at the end of nagito’s ftes hajime starts to really, truly understand why nagito is the way he is. he doesn’t agree with his actions but he gets it! and he feels BAD for him!! so bad that nagito lies and says what he’s been talking about didn’t really happen. not to mention 2.5, and post-canon, all the potential for slowburn while the remnants are living together on jabberwock island.... they make me soft.

saiouma has that too, i mean, i wouldn’t call saiouma enemies-to-lovers necessarily if only because shuichi is so passive for most of the game, but they have those, like, those small moments. ouma calls shuichi his beloved, and i do believe his behaviour in chapter four was just manipulation, but still, y’know, he was flirting. ouma’s love hotel shows that shuichi is LITERALLY his ideal, and shuichi puts up with all these death threats and games throughout ouma’s ftes in an attempt to understand him-- the final fte is so sweet, how shuichi bandages his finger after he cuts himself.... pique chaotic dumbass energy but they’re adorable as hell.

and i’m sorry to say this, but in my opinion and as far as i can remember... oumota...... doesn’t have that. not once does either ouma or momota show anything but cool distaste for one another. momota PUNCHES OUMA IN THE FACE in chapter four, which is the first real time you see the two of them like.... interacting? (aside from kaito begrudgingly, secretly agreeing with kokichi about people watching the motive videos, but that’s not shipping fuel imo.) and it only gets worse from there. throughout chapter four kokichi goads kaito, trying to pick at his insecurities-- not to mention he tries to get closer to shuichi, someone who kaito has been very close to this entire time!!! he insists that shuichi investigate with him, rather than with kaito, and keeps egging him on throughout the entire trial, mocking him and praising shuichi, the like. and after the trial kokichi PUNCHES KAITO IN THE STOMACH!!! AND KAITO HAS A COUGHING FIT SO BAD HE FALLS TO HIS KNEES!!!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!! sorry i’m trying not to be akdljflk about this it just... gah. i dunno. ouma absolutely SLAUGHTERS kaito and shuichi’s relationship, deliberately picking at kaito’s insecurities in order to tear down the group as a whole, and i just... it rubs me the wrong way.

chapter five is even worse for me. i know it’s like the biggest shipping fuel people have for them, and i,,, i get it? it’s poetic, the villain and the hero, these two purple dudes who represent opposing ideals, in this scandalous romance behind the exisal or whatever. i just can’t with it, though.

let’s talk about what ouma does to kaito in chapter five :)

-he knocks him out with an exisal and takes him hostage -he sends all his friends (except maki, beautiful, erratic maki) into a DEPRESSION so that the audience will get bored and stop watching the killing game -sorry i already said this but he KIDNAPS KAITO!! HE KIDNAPS HIM!!!! AND TRAPS HIM IN THE EXISAL HANGAR!!!! -he forces kaito to be indebted to him by pretending to drink the antidote and then giving it to him -he THREATENS MAKI!! HE THREATENS HER LIFE!!! IF KOKICHI DIES MAKI WILL BE EXECUTED AS THE BLACKENED AND KAITO KNOWS THIS!!!! i don’t care if you ship momoharu those two had A relationship regardless of whether you saw it was romantic or platonic and kaito cared about her??

he essentially held both maki and kaito hostage and BLACKMAILED kaito into going along with his plan. at the end of the chapter five trial kaito states that he went along with it because he thought it was brilliant, not because kokichi threatened maki, but i still just... it kind of horrifies me.

(i want to be perfectly clear that i LOVE kokichi ouma, he’s a brilliantly morally ambiguous character who did a bunch of fucked up things to try to achieve a noble cause and in no way is this me shitting on him, i’m just saying that given the things kokichi did to kaito i just, can’t get behind it.)

i should also address that even after kokichi did all that, even started BREAKING DOWN in the exisal hangar, kaito maintained that kokichi was a bastard who was difficult to understand. kokichi was being perfectly clear about his intentions. he wanted to end the killing games. i don’t think he ever wanted anything else, in the game. after all of that, for some reason, kaito still just didn’t get it. and i don’t think it’s because kaito is stupid-- kaito is NOT stupid, as funny as the memes are-- i just think that he was genuinely unwilling to try to understand kokichi ouma. he was sympathetic towards a lot of people. shuichi and maki and kaede and gonta and all of them. but he just, he didn’t like ouma. and i feel as though (this is just my speculation so don’t take this as anything real) kokichi never held anything towards kaito except resentment, either. because here’s this THICK DUMBASS who is ruining EVERYTHING that he’s trying to work towards-- not only that, but everyone absolutely adores him, the one thing that kokichi can not, no matter what, hope to achieve. because in order for his plan to work, he needs them to hate him.

all this is canon-compliant, though. i think ouma would’ve been a lot more mild in a non-despair au. i still don’t like the pairing in any aus though, regardless. i just don’t feel like they have the right kind of chemistry. ouma is, he’s like, he’s childish! he likes picking at people, trying to get reactions out of them. y’know who’s easy to get reactions out of? kaito. and not because he’s some funny stupid man, because he has CRIPPLINGLY LOW SELF ESTEEM. kaito is DEADASS afraid of ghosts and i know it’s a funny haha but he nearly shits himself whenever they’re so much as mentioned and ouma is the type of person who would just continue to bring them up to get the reaction out of him. it’s like shipping hiyoko and mikan, y’know? mikan gives hiyoko the reactions she wants and mikan takes it because she’s desperate for attention of any kind. they both feed into each other’s worst tendencies. kaito is easily challenged. all you have to do is imply he’s not a man and he’ll do whatever you want. that’s not HEALTHY!! and ouma would take advantage of it. not because he’s a bad person, but just because, he like,,, he messes around and he takes things too far because he’s a child and he hasn’t seen any real repercussions. that’s what i believe.

this is more of a petty, unrelated reason, but i also used to follow this really annoying oumota shipper who was constantly shoving the pairing down everyone’s throat and absolutely slaughtering kaito’s characterisation in the meantime. in a lot of fics i read before becoming actively against it, i saw ouma being a sniveling crybaby, totally unable to defend himself from anything, and kaito being this callous asshole who was mean to everyone but ouma. i just, i don’t see it? and then maki is always portrayed as so abusive, threatening and hurting ouma all over the place because kaito likes him and not her and shuichi is borderline obsessive if not outright creepy, either jealous of kaito or kokichi because there’s no grey area with these people, and they just, they make shuichi and maki so unsupportive and mean and i just... i don’t like it, not at all. the fastest way to make me hate a thing is by vilifying my favourite characters.

sorry for the long answer, anon. i know i have followers who like oumota, and i respect you for it! it’s just a MAJOR squick for me and i try not to engage with it if i can avoid it! thanks for the question!