#konwontshutup

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thinking about how when i was younger, the only interaction i had with the homestuck fandom, despite reading it in its heyday, was when i would go to msparp.com or whatever it was called and roleplay as dave, set it so i only ever matched with people roleplaying as john, and i would start every conversation with the lyrics to No Air by Jordan Sparks, but spelling air as heir

“tell me how to breathe with no heir” was my starter Every. Single. Time. and i would rarely get past that point because people would either catch on and not wanna deal with my bullshit or they would think i was just ooc off the bat but when i did get to go further with it i was hilariously bad at keeping up the bit, i was not committed to the bit at all, and im bad at improv so it was just a sad-in-the-moment but funny-in-hindsight attempt at trolling people through roleplay

#homestuck #john egbert #dave strider #johndave #davejohn #pepsicola #those are the tags for their ship right? #i guess #konwontshutup #it wasnt even me trying to do shipping in roleplay i just wanted to make my stupid joke over and over

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Green Day really is just the epitome of “oops, all bangers” like every song is fucking great

#konwontshutup #green day #im listening to saviors rn and it just reminds me of why ive loved green day from the first time i heard them #fucking love green day

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i know you dont want to hear this but karkat vantas would be a swiftie

#he likes romcoms and romance and he would fucking adore taylor swifts music #konwontshutup #karkat vantas #homestuck

[tactiletelekonesis]

so i havent read homestuck 2/beyond canon/whatever its called since 2020 so forgive me if im wrong but based on what i remember of how the ultimate self works, why arent there more homestuck crossovers with the movie Everything Everywhere All At Once? especially ones where dirk is jobu. it would work really well i think. ive only found one crossover of the two on ao3 and i havent gotten the chance to read it yet but im surprised there arent more out there

#homestuck #homestuck 2 #homestuck beyond canon #eeaao #everything everywhere all at once #dirk strider #jobu tupaki #konwontshutup

[tactiletelekonesis]

every time I think about the relationships of the trolls in Homestuck I think of the Greater Seattle Polycule, so I now present to you this poorly edited meme

#homestuck #sollux captor #aradia megido #feferi peixes #eridan ampora #this is inspired by that one post about humanstuck karkat needing a whiteboard to explain his friends dating lives #i fucked up drawing eridan but oh well #konwontshutup

[tactiletelekonesis]

actually i dont care how much batman prepares, i still think kim possible would defeat him if she had to

#kim possible #batman #dont read too much into this im just watching kim possible #konwontshutup

[tactiletelekonesis]

thinking abut the time like a year ago or longer that someone told me that the main young justice characters were essentially batfam. what does that mean. no theyre not???? like. sure tim is there but i was talking about bart and conner and cassie and cissie and greta and anita and slobo. where the fuck are you getting batfam out of those characters???? because you assume i ship timkon or something? hate to break it to you but 1. i prefer other ships to timkon and only interact with timkon stuff if im particularly in the mood, 2. being in a ship doesnt change the fact that conner is not part of the batfam, 3. you come at me, the superboy obsessed superfam stan who named myself kon and accuse me of only liking batfam, 4. you dont fucking know me, 5. have you even read young justice?, 6. biting you biting you biting you biting you

#do you ever just get angry about something thats long in the last for no reason? anyway im in a mood #konwontshutup #dc comics #young just us #young justice

[tactiletelekonesis]

to the tune of baby shark: muuurder squash do do do do do do

#the raven cycle #trc #murder squash song #konwontshutup

[tactiletelekonesis]

fuck it, it’s 5am, here’s my rambling powerpoint that took me a week to make. it’s 90 slides. go ham. tell me your thoughts/things i missed

#homestuck #hs #didnt include beyond canon cos im eh on it #anyway i went insane making this #gotta love hyperfixation #amiright? #konwontshutup #hope you enjoy

[tactiletelekonesis]

gonna just ramble my thoughts for a bit

i was talking about how ive been asked to be evaluated for bpd in the past and got told by the doctor that i “dont want that stigma” and shut down before i could decide for myself if its worth it, and the person i was telling this to said they think i dont have it and like.

im kind of mad.

because im still getting to know this person and the more i think on it the more i know i at least have things that mimic the symptoms

and being told “i can tell you dont have it” feels like its diminishing the fact that i worry i do

and dont get me wrong i know the symptoms can be caused by other things but i would still like to know

and like the reason im thinking this is just… dirk strider from homestuck. ive been seeing people say hes textbook DID and i GET IT, i do, but i also really see bpd in him more. and i also see myself in him, though i dont have DID

i see his splinters and lil hal specifically as like. i can see how hal would be an alter, but lets not focus on that. hal is the epitome of a version of dirks self that he gets aggravated with, probably even hates because it reminds him of who he used to be, and to some extent whi he currently is.

if you look at the symptoms of bpd on mayo clinic, i could argue for all of them in dirk - and myself

and like. ive fucked up so many relationships because a flip switches in my head and im convinced they hate me or dont care, and people dont see that BECAUSE I FUCKING HIDE IT

I HID MY AUTISM FROM MYSELF AND OTHERS FOR 19 YEARS. MY PSYCHOSIS FOR 27. whos to say i havent been hiding bpd from people?

i already have dependent personality disorder but if you have one personality disorder youre more likely to have more

the reason people dont believe my struggles is i mask automatically and suffer inside because i dont know how to talk about how im suffering or even explain whats a mask and whats not

i keep going back to the time i was told “youre incapable of being mean” and the visceral reaction of wrongness i felt because i shut myself down so fucking much because the idea of upsetting others is so goddamn terrifying yet until i was 19 i would purposely make lists in my head of actual ways to ruin my friendships of i wanted to. like i would make full lists. just cataloguing all their insecurities so i could weaponize them. i never did because when i admitted to doing this when i felt safe i was told that was a dick move. and theyre right but it still fucking hurt because i dont do it on purpose. i dont.

im currently losing two of my best friends because my brain wont let me fucking talk to them because im simultaneously afraid theyre mad, and mad at them myself, and im sabotaging myself by not talking to them at all

i literally swing from thinking im worthless to thinking im a literal celestial being. i dissociate all the god damn time. im so fucking angry every second of my life

i would go into more detail about other symptoms but im making myself sad.

i dont care about the stigma i want validation for these symptoms and acknowledgement that i am extremely mentally ill at times and i just

i know they meant well but being told im not bpd by a newer friend who im still opening up to is frustrating. youre not my doctor, youre not me. how would you know? my doctor doesnt even know all my experiences because i dont know how to talk about them

im not sure if its the 4am talking or the stress from the roommate situation but like im thinking about bpd again. i think its worth looking into

anyway i cant believe im turning into a dirk kinnie but im not complaining

#konwontshutup #talk about in therapy later

[tactiletelekonesis]

wait wait wait i realized that before when five was in this body originally so the first time he was a teen, he probably focused on clothes for survival and not fashion, and then he was working for the commission so he had commission approved fashion, but now he can explore his fashion sense all on his own!!!

#i hope his fashion sense is atrocious he deserves it #umbrella academy #tua #the umbrella academy #five tua #five hargreeves #konwontshutup

[tactiletelekonesis]

I haven’t even read the jon kent pride story yet but from the one spoiler I saw, I already feel sick to my stomach

having a joke about Damian using violent tactics to disperse a riot in relation to pride makes me feel legitimately unsafe. like I only saw this panel:

and I feel unsafe. I plan to go to pride this year, the first time in 7 years, and the idea of someone using Damian’s tech at pride makes me sick. I know it’s fictional, but it reminds me that people actually think this way and now I’m uncomfortable going to pride

DC chose to allow a tone deaf joke in their story that makes me feel unsafe as a queer person, all so they could make the point of “well pride is a party now” that they wanted to make

pride is not going to be just a party until all forms of violence against the queer community stop, and this writing? not fucking helping that

#anyway fuck devin grayson #and fuck dc for allowing this #tuesday spoilers #dc comics #dc spoilers #jon kent #damian wayne #dc pride #dc pride 2022 #konwontshutup

[tactiletelekonesis]

*twirls hair* yeah im sooooo normal about this character you can trust me with him! *puts him in horrific situations beyond your comprehension*

#konwontshutup #this is about chad dickson from codename kids next door

[tactiletelekonesis]

Crossposting from my insta to here cos I love these edits I made. This is the inspiration I’m using for my outfit for @taylorswift ’s Eras Tour!!! It’s gonna be an outfit inspired by Arrowette but in pink for Taylor’s Lover album, with an Archer inspired jacket painted by one of my friends!!! I’m so excited!!!

@taylornation what’s your thoughts on this? Too nerdy or just right? :D

#cissie king jones #cissie king-jones #arrowette #dc comics #dcu #yj98 #taylor swift #eras tour #the eras tour #fan edit #edit #konwontshutup

[tactiletelekonesis]

I have a theory about Dark Crisis: Young Justice!

So we know it’s about Cassie rescuing the boys from a world they don’t want to leave. And it’s been hinted that they’re gonna touch on Tim and Kon’s history and sexualities.

What if the world involves them dating each other, and they have to talk about the implications and ramifications of that after they’re rescued?

#conner kent #kon el #kon el kent #tim drake #yj #young just us #young justice #dark crisis young justice #konwontshutup

[tactiletelekonesis]

I’m a bit late to the party, but here’s a preview of my fic for the SFW version of the Superboy Superzine!

@superboysuperzine is a project I have loved working on, and pre-orders are open now!

If you’d like more info, you can check out the caard or the FAQ, but if you’re like me and want to check out the shop first, you can do so here!

Pre-orders are open until January 10th, 2023. As this is a zine for charity, proceeds go to Project Hawai’i - a charity geared towards helping homeless children and families in Hawai’i.

I’m so excited for you all to see this great project!

#superboy superzine #superboysuperzine #superboy #conner kent #kon el #kon el kent #zine #charity zine #fanzine #konwontshutup