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nightswithkookmin · 3 years

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Goldy I never thought I would reach out to any Jikook blog but after your last post I have to. I am an east asian american and trans. I have never spoken on this issue, commented or posted about this. I am a Jikook supporter but sometimes Jikook supporting blogs don't feel like the friendliest place. I want to thank you for changing my opinion on that. It is an insult to BTS to say Jikook don't know they seem gay or that they don't know what gay looks like. It is an insult to fans like me to say it would be OK to do the things they do if they were cisgendered straight men. I personally saw a few people say or dance around this and they got intimidated by big blogs for it. I would never name names because I beleive in free speech and the right of people to express themselves, as long as it isn't hate speech. Supporting lgbt people and making sure they don't feel endangered is MORE IMPORTANT THAN STANNING A KPOP BAND and I say this as a 4 year long bts and Jikook stan. So many people don't want to touch this issue and I understand why.

But thank you for supporting ACTUAL lgbt people as well as bts and showing stubborn people that BTS mean gay rights when they say gay rights.

I don't know why but this Ask made me cry...

I've been reading it over and over for the past two days and each time I feel humbled by it. Thanks so much for sharing this with me.

I think the era of the obsessed 'kids' and '13 year old shippers' in this space is coming to an end. I think it's time for a more nuanced mature conversation on what it means to ship and stan our faves in today's sociopolitical climate.

Let's intellectualize shipping and use it as a vehicle for social change not just pleasure. Sabotaging political hashtags is a start. Trending and donating to BLM is equally important. Fighting for gay rights and recognition is the next step and a natural progression from here- and about damn time!

Gone are the days where celebrities and idols were immune to accountability and personal responsibility. We live in a world where everyone is required to be converstant in and sensitive to social issues. Awareness is woven into our collective consciousness and for some of us we cannot divorce that from our pleasure receptors.

Hate to quote my pastor but, 'As a kid, I spoke, thought and reasoned like a kid. As I grew up, chilee darling, I put my ghetto ways aside. You feel me?' Lol. Yea, my pastor hood like that. Lol.

The fact of the matter is, BTS has a higher mature demographics now. Majority of us grew with them, if not past them. They are not seventeen anymore, Jin is almost thirty, the youngest in the group is past twenty three and majority of their fanbase are breaching Young Adult well into Adulthood and beyond.

We simply cannot view them with the same lens anymore. If we did, we would be infantilizing them if not enabling them.

We ought to be able to have certain conversations that reflect our age, hearts, backgrounds, experience, values and beliefs.

We can't sit behind our television sets and smart phone screens in this day and age and assume BTS sat through a performance like this and did not for a second think about what it meant, why the crowd cheered at certain moments or even understand the impact, message and intent behind it- especially not when Halsey, an openly bisexual woman and advocate for LGBTG rights is an acquaintance of thiers.

I don't know how a fraction of this fandom can assume BTS would have a collaboration of this nature and not know anything about the gay rights discourse or what queer baiting is or not consider how their actions may or may not be contributing to the marginalization of persons as these- to not have agency and personal responsibility or empathy.

JK cannot stan a gay artist such as Troye Sivan and divorce his music from his sexuality because it flows from it. Not when Troye has openly spoken about the struggles he went through as a closeted gay man, coming out and how that affected his mental health.

JK knows what gay is, he is aware of the struggles queer people face on a daily. His decision to cover, license and recommend songs by this artist is a deliberate act coming from a place of being informed on the matter.

Jimin knows. RM knows. Suga knows.

BTS cannot prepare a speech like this while oblivious to the plight of the LGBTQ plus community. I refuse to believe that simply because it's not true. Anyone who says otherwise is a scammer. Lol.

And I think they are intelligent enough to have cognisance of the fact majority of the world view certain aspects of their home culture as problematic and non-progressive and that this same world is watching them and what they do in this space matters.

They are part of the conversation. And it's in their interest to present themselves as queer a queer friendly band and company by distinctifying themselves from these 'traditional' Kpop bands.

I believe they know that being woke gives them a competitive advantage as MCs and advocates for the youth in today's world.

I believe they are aware certain things in their 'fan service culture' doesn't fly in the space they compete in and want to compete in. They are competing and rubbing shoulders with top LGBTQ plus advocates, sharing seats with them at awards, standing next to them- they best to look sharp.

It's obtuse for anyone to fall on the 'culture' rhetoric to excuse certain behaviors of their idols when actual queer people from and within that same culture fight against it.

Most S. koreans I know and have come across complain about their 'culture' and some even harbor strong resentments against this whole fanservice culture.

Holland, an openly gay Idol from South Korea, has equally spoken out against the 'fan service' culture prevalent within Kpop on several occasions and laments how it depoliticizes queerness and affects actual queer people within S.K.

And isn't it funny that the same conservative Christian population who strongly oppose homosexuality in S.K often lead online campaigns against Jikook for 'promoting homosexuality' because of certain fanservice and skinship they do?

If skinship is normal and fanservice is culture, why does conservative S.K keep pushing back against it? It's their culture uno?! Lmho.

Queer south Koreans and conservative Christians hate fanservice culture and yet here we are using their culture to defend it as if it's all black and white. Lmho.

Did they or did they not see South Korean's reactions to this performance by Jikook? The mixed feelings most had about it?

Men can nibble on men's ear but God forbid they toss them in the air and catch em💀

South Koreans are not a monolith. Their culture is nuanced like any culture. It's not static and not clear cut black and white either.

It's one thing to respect other's culture, it's another to perpetuate it in ignorance. Perpetuating their culture and being religious about it does not allow for the dynamism inherent in their culture.

Troye Sivan talked about how he'd stop in the middle of his concerts and performances upon seeing the hyper fangirls in the front row and then think to himself, 'I know they know I'm gay, so why are they still here...'

And this was before he came out.

Jikook know we know they are queer or that we think of them as queer. When Jimin talks about 'those that love me for me' he knows exactly what he is talking about or rather who he is talking to- it's not these hets I'm afraid.

Troye also talked about being privileged because he lived in a rather queer friendly neighborhood where everyone is gay and so he'd always felt safe coming out.

Isn't that what JK is doing?

Now this is a person who's without a doubt had a lot of influence on JK in his early formative years as an Idol right down to his decision to move into a much queer friendly neighborhood of Itaewon.

They know we know. Jikook is gay.

Thankfully, there are reports of a rising number of LGBTQ plus in South Korea, a lot of allies, a lot of queer folks coming out and a lot of companies opening up to working with gay idols and aspiring idols.

It's such a relief but a lot of work still needs to be done and I stand with them on behalf of Jikook and any queer folk in SK.

My sister is helping me reach out to an LGBTQ plus advocate from Seoul for an interview for my blog. If everything goes well, I'd love for her to share her thoughts on queer passing, queer baiting and fan service within Kpop and how that affects LGBTQ youth in South K.

It's a conversation I'm really passionate about and interested in.

I love me some ships, but I also love me some queer advocacy and human rights uno? Lol.

Thing is, I may quit BTS one day, but I can never quit being me. Being human. Always put the human first is my motto.

Oh and I hear people are plotting to cancel me? Chilee. Y'all do that but:

Let it echo.

Signed,

GOLDY

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devilimosa · 3 years

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— BASICS !

birth name.

lee so young

pronouns and labels.

he/him , ace + biromantic + non-binary

date of birth.

9th june 2000 , gemini

birthplace and hometown.

nashville , tennessee , u.s

ethnicity and nationality.

korean-american

languages.

eng (native) , kor (advanced) , jpn (converstional)

— CAREER !

group. devilimosa

years active. 2018 — present

positions. lead rapper , visual , producer

company label. melodi records

training. 3 years

— PHYSCIAL !

height + weight.

168cm + 52kg

faceclaim + voice claims.

karina of æspa + dami and moonbyul

— PERSONALITY !

CLINGY. his love language is through physical affection. hugs, kisses and all. the other members don't mind it at all because they find it really cute.

RESPONSIBLE. whenever the leader (eun) is away, he takes up the job as a substitute leader and becomes more mature in order to take care of the other members.

WHINY. he starts complaining and making noises when he doesn't get what he wants. this only happens if for a example he can't put what he produced into a album.

EMOTIONAL. he's the most emotionally sensitive one of the group. you'll see him cry at useless things and on stuff which most people don't cry about. his emotions are more heightened than others.

#💥 — so #💥 — profiles #oc kpop gg #oc kpop group #kpop oc #kpop aesthetic #kpopidol #ocs #oc profile #kpop profile #profile #get to know my oc #deluxeocnet

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pariah-indp · 3 years

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☆ BASIC

Given Name: Son Jeonghan

Stage Name: Death the Rapper

- Nicknames: Death the Princess, Han, Hannie 2.0, Jeonghannie, Jeong

Place of Birth: Incheon, South Korea

Day of Birth: April 30, 1995

Ethnicity: South Korean

Nationality: South Korean

Languages: Korean (Native), English (Converstational), Japanese (Learning)

☆ FEATURES

Face Claim: JB of Got7

Height: 5'11 ft / 179 cm

Special Markings: tattoo sleeve, matching frowny face tattoo at the back of his right arm

☆ IDOL LIFE

Group: PariAh

Sub-Unit: ─

Position: Leader, Lead Rapper, Vocalist, Producer

Trainee Period: Big Hit Entertainment (2013 - 2019), PNation (Jun. 2019 - Jan. 2020)

Survival Shows: Mixnine (2017)

☆ IMPORTANT NOTES

° Most think from his appearance and stage name that he either very mean or very dirty minded, which is false bc he's babie and has only been with one person sexually in his life.

° Jeong doesn't consider himself a great rapper. He just finds that it comes naturally so he does it. It's one of the only ways he knows how to express himself.

° He wears long sleeves during stages and show appearance bc he doesn't want the editor of the stage/show to have to waste time blurring his tattoos.

° Jeonghan is truly incapable of being mean. he pays for his members' food and clothes, takes care of them when they're sick. He's just an all round good guy.

° He's in a relationship with Hoseok / J-Hope of BTS. They've been dating since 2016.

° He was disowned by his parents when he was seventeen, so he was homeless for a few months.

° His name was inspired by Death the Kid from the Soul Eater Manga & Anime.

° Jeonghan ranked in the top nine for Mixnine and was set to debut before the group was canceled.

#death the rapper ◇ information #death the rapper ◇ tings #aeskocnet #kumokocnet #oc boy group #oc kpop group #fake kpop boy group #oc kpop idol #kpop oc

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bunnyhani · 5 years

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Safe Haven

Pairing: Platonic! Han Jisung x Reader, Romantic Hwang Hyunjin x Reader

Genre: Fluff and angst

Summary: You love your boyfriend Hyunjin, that was for sure. And somehow, because of the amount of love you held for him, you did some stupid decisions. Including holding your concerns and struggles to yourself, in order to become a safe haven to him. Thankfully your best friend is there to knock you out of that mindset and makes you talk to Hyunjin. You're going to be just fine.

Warnings: Cursing, angst.

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You quickly gathered your stuff into your backpack and dashed out of the classroom, where you had previously sat for two hours. Jisung was hot on your tail as the two of you ran across the campus to where the next class was held. Although Jisung was an idol, he too had his limits. When both of you reached the classroom's door, Jisung was leaning onto his knees, while you were panting and honestly ready to collapse. You had made it before the class started, so you had a minute to spare. Not either one of you said a thing, before the harsh beating of your heart had stopped and you didn't feel like you were on the verge of passing out. You got upright and stared at Jisung.

"Never again. Never running through the whole campus. I almost died!" You started deadpanning, but nearing at the end of your sentence, you had started to whine. Jisung took a breath and nodded, eyes wide.

"Yeah no kidding. This shit isn't worth it. I would rather just be late like a half minute rather than killing myself and you on the process of trying to get to lecture on time. Plus miss Kim is always late", he said. You nodded in agreement.

"Maybe dying would be better than sitting two hours with miss Kim, trying to understand and learn math", you muttered as the said teacher opened the door to let all the students in. You and Jisung exchanged glances and sighed, heads hanging low as you walked into the two hours of torture.

You rubbed your head and stared at the math problem that was right in front of your eyes, written neatly into your notebook. It just didn't make sense and you let your head fall against the surface of the wooden table. You whined a bit at the sharp pain that you felt on your forehead, but made no signs of moving what so ever. Jisung groaned beside you and you heard a similar thud, as Jisung copied your actions. You both just lied there, for 5 minutes and just cursing the person who decided that these equations were needed.

"Tell me, Jisung. Where in the hell would I ever need this equation? To absolutely nothing! So why on earth am I learning this?" You raged as you lifted your head up and slammed your notebook shut in anger and frustration. Jisung flinched at the loudness of your voice, but didn't protest against your statement.

You and Jisung have been friends for a longer while. Probably four or five years to be exact. You two had gotten to know each other, when the boy had came back from Malaysia to try and audition for some company. You were there just to support your cousin, who was also auditioning, when you had met Jisung. Your cousin had left to get something to eat and leaving you to keep an eye on how quickly the other auditioners went by. You weren't mad at all, knowing that the stores were packed, you rather had stayed at the building, in case your cousin's turn came quicker than expected.

Jisung was waiting for his turn anxiously, lower lip caught in between his teeth. He seriously looked like a scared squirrel. You were also very anxious and still a bit new to speaking korean, you still managed to say hi to him. He had greeted you back and the next few minutes was a bit awkward, but in 20-30 minutes, you two were talking about everything and anything. Jisung didn't make fun of your weird accented, broken korean, but tried to get you talk more. He was supportive and encouraging, in those 30 minutes that you had been talking with him. Of course, you were still self conscious of everything you said and did, but that was nothing new. You were just a ball of anxiety.

When your cousin came back, she was nervous for two reasons: 1. She was worried about her auditions. 2. Who were you talking to, so comfortably? After explaining briefly what was going on, she smiled softly and joined the converstation. When your cousin went to audition, you and Jisung waited with shaking hands and tension so thick, that it could be cut with a knife. Jisung tried to reassuare, that everything would go well. He proved himself to be a very nice emotional support.

At the end of the day, you and your cousin waited for Jisung's turn and waited for him to come back. Your cousin had to leave, as she had some plans with her family, but you were alone, so you just stayed and waited. You had nothing better to do either way. You were alone in a foreign country, your only relative also had some plans to do and just sitting alone in the dorms with your roommate (who you didn't know well) and awkwardly try to interact with her. Staying and waiting for Jisung was the best decision you had made right after deciding that you would move to Korea to study. Jisung smiled brightly, when he came back and noticed that you had kept your word and had stayed. You and him talked some more, exchanged numbers and also found out that you two were going to the same school. To say that you were excited was an understatement. After that, you have been basically glued to each other's sides. Well... As much as he could with his busy schedule.

Finally, when the two hours of math was finally over, you and Jisung sluggishly dragged yourselves out of the classroom. Your eyelids felt heavy and you yawned, so that your eyes watered. You just wiped your eyes tiredly and Jisung quietly said:

"I feel like my last brain cells just died." You tiredly snorted and said:

"I wasn't aware that you had any at all. But yeah same." Jisung just jabbed his elbow to your ribs and and you groaned, slapping his hand away from you. You glared at him halfheartedly and Jisung responded to it by smiling innocently.

"Jisungg... I'm so tired, that I feel like I'm going to... I don't know, faint", you said, voice suggesting that you were being sarcastic. You actually weren't. You just didn't want to worry Jisung too much, but you just had to get off of your chest. Jisung glanced at you, frown tugging his lips, eyebrows furrowed. He looked concerned and you felt bad for saying it. Jisung knew you well enough to know that you were actually serious and suggested:

"Do you want some coffee? We have a 20 minute break now, we can go get some." You just nodded. You knew that if you didn't get any caffeine to your system soon, you would collapse or start crying, because of how exhausted you were. Neither of those options sounded appealing. You usually didn't like to drink coffee, but right now, you didn't have a choice.

Jisung sat next to you, scrolling through his phone, but every so often peeking at you to make sure you were doing okay, as you drank the iced coffee, that you just bought from the grocery store near the school. Now you had returned and were sitting on the school benches. It didn't take too long, before you were done with your coffee (you actually loved iced coffees) and stood up to throw away the cup. You got up too quickly though. Your vision got dark, ears ringing and head pounding, you swayed on your feet. You didn't exactly understand what was going on or what were you doing, but you did realize that you had to take support of something. You tried to grab onto anything that could stabilize you and prevent you from falling and possibly injuring yourself. You presumably took a tight hold on Jisung's jacket and gripped so hard that your knuckles were white. You felt Jisung grab onto you. Finally, you got your vision back and your ears stopped ringing. Jisung's eyes were wide and the boy's hands were holding your shoulders.

"Jesus, Y/N. Are you okay?" He asked frantically. You nodded and breathed out deeply. Even though, you said that you were fine and that you had just stood up too quickly, he still insisted on walking with linked arms. The rest of the school day consisted of you snoozing on clases and Jisung being glued to your side, making sure that you actually didn't fall over. Your normally good observation skills were now severly lacking, due to tiredness, so the boy became also your eyes, pulling you away when you were about to bump into people. You did feel guilty for making him do this for you, but you just were so tired. Also, Jisung kept reassuaring that he really didn't mind doing this for you, saying that you would do the same for him. It wasn't a lie, your tired mind couldn't come up with any protests or comebacks so you decided to just nod.

The school day ended, you and Jisung made some plans that you would hang out in the dorms to do homework and work on your projects. The trip to the dorms went pretty quickly and you started to perk up. You were a bit annoyed that you were basically dead in school, where you were supposed to be awake and focus and now when you didn't need to focus your attention 100% to something, you started to feel normal. Jisung didn't mind. At all actually. He was just glad that you were feeling better. He comforted that now you can focus and catch up on the studies that you missed during the day. You agreed easily and walked to the Stray Kids dorms.

The dorms were empty and silent, when the two of you got there. You shrugged it off, heading to the kitchen table. Jisung followed behind you and scattered your books to the table. You glanced at Jisung and nodded, with a determinded look on your face. You two worked effectively, coversing at the same time about the topics that you were working on. Jisung had always been easy to work with, at least to you. With him you could easily propose an idea without fearing that he might make fun of you. At least seriously. Slowly but surely, the pile of homework started to decrease, but so did your patience. You gritted your teeth, as you were faced with math problems again. Jisung was trying to understand the concept of it all, in order to help you both out. Suddenly, a light bulp went on in your head.

"I got an idea! If you try to figure out the concept of that bullshit, I'll try to learn how to teach you that one english assingment, that you have a hard time with", you said, with a bright smile. Jisung tapped his chin with his index finger and then pointing it at you, accusingly:

"Are you just trying to escape math homework?"

"Yes", you admitted easily. Jisung chuckled at your honesty, but agreed. For some reason, that one english grammar exercise just didn't make sense to him. After the little negotiation, you dove back to work.

In the span of next two and a half hours, you had managed to finish all the homework. In that time you and Jisung had the time to have 2 mental breakdowns and down maybe a few cups of coffee. To say that you were exhausted didn't feel like it was enough to describe how you were feeling. Jisung watched as you laid your head on the table and sighed. He observed your state. You looked absolutely wrecked and burned out. Only he had seen you in that state, he realized. Not even your boyfriend, Hyunjin had seen you like that. In fact, Hyunjin had seen you, when you were smiling and laughing. Or just... Blank, but never when you were truly having a hard time.

"Y/N... Have you ever realized, that you have never shown your weaker states in front of Hyunjin? Why? Do you not trust him?" He asked, straight to the point. He might be your friend yes, but so was Hyunjin. He wasn't accusing you, but he was curious. Your wide eyes told him, that he had caught you off guard. You were silent as you thought about it.

"I have kind of realised, that I tend to do that. I don't know... I feel like I need to be strong and not to burden him with my own problems. I'm his safe haven", you replied, eyebrows furrowed and lips tugged into a frown.

"You know you can trust him, right? He's understanding and wouldn't judge you, because you're a human too. And more importantly, he's your boyfriend", he said. You nodded in agreement.

"I guess I was trying to... I don't know.. Be something more than a human apparently. I feel like he deserved a space where he can be comfortably without any stress or anything", you replied, playing with your fingers. Jisung's frown disappeared and his eyes turned fond at your explanation. You truly were one the most selfless people he had ever met. He admired and hated you for it. You continuously ignored your own needs, emotions in favor to help others.

"You know that's not going to do any good to you if you keep doing this. Not to you, yourself or Hyunjin. What if one day he finds out that you've been bottling all this inside you and starts to question that do you trust him. Or what if you start lashing out?" he asked. Even though you didn't want to admit it, those thoughts had occurred to you too. It gave you the shivers and made you want to curl into a ball.

"Yeah I know... I just don't know how to open up about these things so suddenly. Like am I supposed to dump all my burdens and worries to him?" you asked, voice feeble. Jisung froze. Well, he hadn't thought about it that far. He smiled sheepishly and scratched his neck. You huffed out an amused chuckle and rolled your eyes. A calm, controlled silence settled over you two as you both got sucked into your thoughts. You thought about the ways how to open up about your hardships without overwhelming Hyunjin. You tapped lightly on the kitchen table, where your books were waiting to get picked up and put back into the backpack. Your mind was too far away from this world to even realize something like that. Your pondering session got interrupted by the very person, who you both were thinking about: Hyunjin. The front door opened and closed quite briskly and you heard the shoes clank to the floor as they were toed off. You and Jisung simultaneously turned to look at the kitchen entrance, only to your boyfriend march in with a tired smile, which only got larger at the sight of you. He loped the last few steps and captured you into his arms.

"Hello, baby", he whispered quietly into your ear and pecked your cheeks. You squirmed a bit and smiled happily. Jisung just eyed the two of you softly. You two cared about each other so much and people needed to be blind in order not to see it. You leaned against Hyunjin and sighed tiredly. Your face was a bit pale and eye circles started to resemble a raccoon's mask, Hyunjin noticed. The warning bells in his head started to go off at the sight of you, so tired and exhausted.

"Are you okay?" he asked as he craned his neck to look at your face. You made quick eye contact with Jisung, he nodded firmly. You swallowed thickly and said:

"Not really... School's crushing me currently." Jisung gave you pointed look.

"And today was really hard." Another pointed look.

"I dozed off in many classes." And Jisung groaned and said:

"Y/N nearly passed out today." Your eyes widened and you reached forward over the table to swat him rather aggressively. You heard Hyunjin gasp behind your back, but you were focused on smacking the life out of your best friend. Jisung tried to block you, but his attemps were in vain. That was until Hyunjin decided to take a pity on Jisung and pulled you back, by wrapping his long arms around your waist.

"What happened?" Hyunjin asked, he sounded corcerned, terrified even.

"Jisung is being over-dramatic! I just got up too quickly!" You said while throwing death glares at Jisung. Jisung stuck out his tongue and crossed his arms. After awhile of thinking he finally opened his mouth.

"Yeah that too. But that most definitely wasn't the only factor that played a part in this. We've had exams, group projects and essays coming at us mercilessly so none of us have been sleeping nearly enough. You're tired, Y/N. It's okay", Jisung reasoned to you. You stared at your best friend in.. awe? Respect? You didn't know, but what did you know, was that your body relaxed at his words. Like you had been unconsciously tensed and his words were the key to let yourself relax. Maybe it was the fact, that you felt like now your feelings were justified. The feeling of exhaustion and getting reminded that other people still had it worse than you. Of course you knew that it was true, but it didn't mean that your feelings should've been just pushed aside. You just leaned against Hyunjin, who had been quiet this whole time, rubbing your arms comfortingly. Now when the tension was gone, your body was lax and the real tiredness started to make your eyes droopy.

"Okay, now we will take a nap and talk about this after. Okay, baby?" Hyunjin suggested. Well, it was more like command. You agreed easily, you were getting tired again.

"But what about you, Jisung? Will you be fine?" You asked, eyes scanning him. Jisung smiled gently and shook his head, replying:

"Yes, I will be fine. I'll take a nap as well, I'll just clean up the kitchen table. Just rest." And with that, you let Hyunjin drag you to the dorm's bedroom. He gently pushed you onto the bed and let you situate yourself comfortably on the bed, before joining you. He wrapped himself around you, cuddling tightly your back, then pressed his face into the crook of your neck. You usually were kind of awkward when people got close to your neck, but you made an exception with Hyunjin. You could feel his heartbeat against your back, his breath fanning across the skin of your neck. You felt the most comfortable, that you've felt in weeks. So you let your droopy eyelids close and fell into the dreamland. It wasn't haunted by nightmares this time.

The next time you opened your eyes, you noticed that you were actually facing Hyunjin. He wasn't wrapped around your back anymore, his nose was touching yours and you could almost count his eyelashes from this distance. You didn't have the heart to move from your position at all, he looked so peaceful like this. Sleeping, no signs of any stress or concerns. You smiled softly at him and let your hand wonder through his hair, after remembering that the boy could probably sleep through the apocalypse. His hair was fluffy, a bit rough from all the hair dye. You let your hand trail his features with light touch, just gently caressing the skin as you went by. Then his eyelids started to flutter, then those beautiful brown eyes opened. His gaze seemed a little out of focus for a moment, then they looked up to your eyes. Your breathing hitched a bit, but nobody needed to know that. Your lips lifted themselves into a smile, the corners of your eyes crinkling a bit. The amount of adoration you felt towards the boy, was almost too much to handle, so you kissed his nose. Hyunjin broke into a smile too.

"What was that for?" he asked, voice a bit hoarse from the lack of use. You just shook your head and mumbled something about him being cute. His cheeks flushed into a pretty pink color and laughed a little. You cooed at him again, this time lightly pinching his cheeks. He just let you do it, before pushing your hands away from his face with an adorable giggle. After that, there was a silence. Not an awkward one, not at all. You were just fondly gazing at each other. Then Hyunjin opened his mouth and said quietly:

"We should talk." There was a moment of confusion, but you soon understood what he was talking about. You sighed heavily, but nodded. It had to be done. You fiddled with your sleeves and looked around the room. Hyunjin sighed and took a hold of your hands, halting their movements.

"You're not getting interrogated here. I just want to hear how you've been doing lately", he said with a soft yet firm voice, not exactly leaving room for arguments. You nodded and said:

"I'm just going to spill everything. I don't want to drag this conversation any longer than it needs to be." The boy in front of you nodded and squeezed your hands.

"Yeah so... I might have been an idiot for the last few months. I may or may not have kept my struggles and concerns from you in order to become a safe haven for you. You've been so stressed and I just... I don't even know what was I even thinking when I made that decision. I guess I was just thinking about the amount of stress you already had about your job. I didn't want to be a reason for your concern. So that's how it went on", you told. In movies and in books they always said how relieving it felt to finally confess your long held concerns, but you just felt neutral. Calm. There was no wave of relief or tension. Just calm. You waited for Hyunjin to process it all, when he was done, he asked, stuttering a bit:

"I.. Okay... Is there a specific thing that's been bothering you?" You stopped to think about it. Only one reason popped to your mind, really.

"School. It's been trying really hard to bury me under. It's been stealing my sleep and by taking my sleep, it simultaneously made my focus.. Crap", you admitted bluntly. Hyunjin sighed.

"Is that why you nearly passed out today?" He asked seriously. You nodded, Hyunjin tut-tutted at you, making you lower your head sheepishly. Hyunjin grabbed your chin gently and lifted your head so he could look at you in the eyes. He took time to just observe you. He wasn't mad at you for your actions, because he understood why you did it and were glad that came clean about it to him. It just showed that you cared about this relationship.

"I'm not mad... I'm just concerned about you, it's okay to show that you're tired and exhausted, even though it does hurt me a bit. But that's normal, that's how relationships work: Both parties take turns to worry about each other. It just shows that you care. So you shouldn't feel bad about being tired... Being human", he gently scolded you. You nodded. Then you surged forward to tackle him into a hug. You held him as close as you possibly could. Hyunjin smiled softly and brought his hands around you. You two were going to be just fine.

"We're going to have to thank Jisung. He was the one who made me realize that I really need to talk about this. That what I'm doing right now isn't healthy", you confessed. Hyunjin just nodded against your shoulder, pulling back and having the most beautiful smile on his lips that you've ever seen.

"I'm still proud that you did it. Maybe Jisung did encourage you, but it was still you, who made the decision to talk to me about it. So give yourself a bit more credit here", he said, while stroking your cheek with gentle motions. You leaned into his touch and looked at him with adoration. You were so lucky to have him. And of course you were lucky to have a best friend like Jisung.

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okcommander1-blog · 6 years

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Swap languages

is there anyone who can teach English or swap languages between Korean and English. I can speak English, actually broken English that I am used to say! So I need who can have converstion and correct my odd nuiance and expression.

#swap #language #korean #english #learner #learning #happy #friendship #education

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incorrect-ace · 6 years

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hi! i'm kinda new in ace fandom, i know them since their predebut, but i wasn't really interested in them much, but now i'm kinda obsessed. do you have any video recommendations for a newbie? i'd also love to meet new choices here (and by meet i mean silently reblog their entire blogs and never talk to them, because what even is socialising????) i'm sorry for taking your precious time, i decided to write to you, because i love your tumblr, i hope you're not mad at me ;3; have a nice day!

Heyy baby choice Albert~~♡ (even tho u r older than me…obs…little casual stalking too??)

Welcome to the fandom! It’s really the sweetest fandom and everyone is very nice. A good recommendation to keep up and meet new people is if you create a vapp account and go to the “fan” part of the ACE channel. We call it “Choiceland” and everyone is very nice there. I go by “DERPY” there Haha, with the same profile picture as on my main blog @derpy-creep-face ^^

I really dont know what you have seen so far, or what you prefer. But there is this guide to ACE on YouTube that I think covers all the most important parts!!

https://youtu.be/yrDlFvDNpRs

I also think a fun activity is to check in on Idol Class every Wednesday at 1pm Korean time on Arirang Radio’s Vlive channel. The DJ translates everything to English for us live. And it is also a very fun activity for all the fans because they actually read and listen to our comments.

You are free to talk to me! I mean I’d prefer it if you did on my main blog @derpy-creep-face because I’m more active there. But I’d def respond on this blog too!If you dont know how to start a converstion its alrighty. I’m social and will start a convo with you. Just send me a random pic of ACE or something so I know you WANT to talk. (This applies to everyone really hahah…just feel free to talk to me).

You didnt take my time at all! I’m honored that you feel that as a new choice you want to write to me! Dont be sorry. I enjoyed it. Even tried to control myself from spasming out an entire list of videos to watch hahqhq. Thank you for liking my blog, I like yours too. And I love you ♡Have a nice day, week, month, year, decade, life!!!

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channiechanchan · 6 years

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20 Questions Tag!

Rules: Answer 20 questions and then tag 20 people you want to get to know better!

Tagged by: @himeaegyo and @3rachans

Tagging: @changbeanie @felixmahdork @starlightdreamland @arqueritefrost @hey-hey-chan @kpop-stole-my-lyfe @strayykiddos @spearkook @kxmwoojxn @likem8stopprocrastinating @chanrismatic @min-ber @lxx-fxlix @s0ftminho @myaussiesexiness @stray-kids-stuff @mywigflewtodistrict9 @realstraykids @straykiddosmom @awkwardly-drawnstraykids If you’ve already done this please ignore me :’)

name: Sanessa, but please call me Sonette 🙂

nickname: Saness, Sonette, Sonny Bunny(hehe) Sene, Lochnessa(technically my bio teacher calls me that) Nessa, habipti, baby(some of my friends call me that 😐) Italics are my favourite nicknames

zodiac sign: Leo♌

height: 167cm so like 5′6

languages spoken: English, Tagalog(Filipino), conversational Japanese, conversational?(I’m not sure cause I know more than converstional...) Korean

nationality: Filipino

favourite season: I like spring and summer

favourite flowers: Lilies, Hibiscus, and Roses

favourite scents: cinnamon, fruity and floral scents! oh aND I LOVE STRAWBERRY!! AND.

favourite colour: pink, blue, purple, any pastel colors tbh, I also love black and white

favourite animal: LIONS, PENGUINS, giraffe, ooooh pandas too

favourite fictional character: Mulan, Jasmine, and Pocahontas

coffee, tea or hot chocolate: coffee!! I love all 3 tbh

average sleeping hours: 5hrs.... yes I am aware I need sleep :’)

dog or cat person: both

number of blankets you sleep with: 1 but if I’m really cold I have at least 3

dream trip: I want to travel the world 🤧 that’s my dream, I must marry rich so I can do that lol

blog established: ummmm I think August 2017

followers: （ ಠωಠ）

random fact: My mom did not name me Sanessa when I was born... My very first name was Carl Sonnette(it’s a combination of my mom and dad’s name) but on of my grandma thought that Carl Sonnette was too long so they changed it to Sanessa along with my birthday on my birth certificate lol

#tagged #20 questions tag #personal #about me #yeah umm I was born born in july 30th but in my birth certificate its on july 31st #yall im turning 21 oof #imma go to a club #im joking

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kandadiff · 4 years

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HA Chapter 10 : confessions

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Jin waited for Jungkook to come home for two hours before he started texting him. The texts stopped being read after an hour and his calls went straight to voicemail.

“Kookie please call me back.” / “Kook just a simple call or text to let me know you're okay.” / “Jeonguuk” Jin cried desperately ashamed that he even put himself in this position “Please forgive me, I’ve never let you down before but I can’t stop my feelings please! please understand! I know it feels like I betrayed you but as your hyung I always wanted you to be happy. Please allow me the same thing! please! All I ask is for your understanding, I know you don’t want to forgive me just please try and understand me.”/ He waited a few minutes before calling again. / “Kook please im worried about you at least call someone to let you know you are okay.”

Jin attempted to leave another voicemail however the voicemail box informed him his voicemail was filled and to try the call again later. With a heavy heart Jin washed his face, attempting to get his eyes back from the red rimmed mess they had become. As he looked in the mirror he decided he should confess to you. He tried to speak to Jungkook and if you weren’t interested at all maybe they could work on what to do from there even with the heartbreak it would bring Jin but if you had feeling back for him then... well he would work on that even harder. He would have a better reason to.

He wiped his face and grabbed his keys headed to our house.

Jin wasn’t the only one in a melancholy mood, I wasn’t so great either. I knew Yoongi said those hurtful things out of his own jealously and insecurity but they still hurt me and now I had to deal with those feelings in a house full of people. I saw him when he came in the house, I was draped over the chair in the living room in a bright red dress, it was impossible not to notice me but still his gaze avoided my own and instead Hobi decided to speak to me for him. But as soon as that started I refused to listen instead heading upstairs and shutting the door to my room.

The silence of my room only seemed to amplify my worry, so I put music on the speakers hoping it would drown out my intrusive thoughts. But it only made them louder. Did I make a mistake picking Yoongi? Technically we’ve only been dating two weeks and what if the end of us is the end of my relationship with BTS. I loved those boys, they were like my family and now I don’t get them? Of course they’d pick yoongi, and I snapped at Hobi. I frowned looking up at the painted stars on my ceiling. I felt like crying.

“Cara mia” I heard Max say but I didn’t look at him although I felt his presence looming in the doorway. “Are you alright? I brought you food and I told Jackson to leave you alone for right now. Hes trying to set up a cage for the animals-” He wandered over to the bed placing the plate on my desk “Whats wrong?”

“Nothing.” I lied.

“You’re about to cry.” He said sitting on the bed, his sympathetic face “do you want to talk about whats bothering you?”

I turned over and buried my face in my arms so he couldn't see me. “Nothing is wrong principe, thank you for my food.” My voice cracked betraying my true emotions I cleared my throat but I felt hot tears coming out. “I’m okay go downstairs and enjoy the party.”

“Kay” he said rubbing my back his voice soft “if you talk about it maybe I can help you or it might make you feel better.” I stayed silent and he sat in my desk chair. “Or we don’t have to talk.” he lowered the speakers slightly “You can listen to me sing, I love Backstreet Boys.”

“This is Nsync” I said my voice muffled in the covers.

“I love them too” He chuckled and sung along badly missing the words and his pitch way off but it made me laugh and look up at him. “Theres the smile, I love.”

I sighed and turned back over “Did you hear the fight between me and Yoongi?” He nodded. “It was that loud?”

“Whenever I hear you voice I listen and I saw you walking out.” he said and I nodded.

“Well I don’t know where we stand, he was avoiding me downstairs and now if we're over then I lose him and all of BTS and I like him a lot Max, and” I sigh “I don’t want this to be the end. God I hate Christmas!” Max leaned towards me flattening out a piece of my hair.

“I don’t think he knows how to say sorry, and I think hes trying to figure out a way.”

“I hope youre right.” I wiped my tears and Max looked at me for a moment before kissing my forehead. “Eat a little bit okay? Drink some water too.”

“I’m not hungry.” I called as he went downstairs.

“I didn’t ask you.”

Max went downstairs heading into the backyard where Suga and Evan were talking. Max gave a small nod to Evan and sat by Suga. “Yoongi, I know you don’t know me very well but I care about Kay very much, and I know you do to. So you need to go up there an apologize-”

“She doesn’t want to see me.” Suga said biting his lip “I don’t deserve to see her.”

“She waiting for you idiot,” Max interrupted “So you should go upstairs now and tell her every little thought swirling in your head because she needs to hear it and I know you really need to say it. So go and hurry up because if you leave her alone to her thoughts to long she’ll start crying again.”

“She was crying?” Suga asked and Max simply leaned back. Yoongi walked back to the house passing Jin as he went up the stairs.

Jins heart was racing a mile a minute as he finally found you laughing with Makayla and Ang, a nervous pit in your stomach just waiting for GD to arrive. “Adi I need to talk to you.” Jin said and you looked ta him puzzled.

“Now?” you asked and He nodded furiously. “okay ill be back” you said to your two converstion partners before Jin pulled you into the small laundry room and closed the door. “Jin-” you started confused but Jin shook his head.

“Adi please just listen to me” he started to speak quick but slow enough for you to make out the words, he was trying not to speak Korean because he wanted you to listen and hear everything he was saying. “I need to tell you something that has been on my mind for a few months now. I like you, I like you a lot more then just a sister or whatever we were before. I like you like V likes Katya or Kay likes Yoongi or Makayla likes BI. My heart races everytime I see you and when i’m not around you I want to be. and I know Jungkook is still on your mind but I needed to tell you because I can’t hold it in anymore. Do you understand me?” He paused briefly nretahing hard “Please say something.”

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