I low key wanna set some shit on fire, eat the meat a bag of cheese puffs, watch it burn, and get a new tattoo for no reason 🤷🏽♀️ I think I may have lost it……
I’ve been missing for months, low key, trapped in my head.
I broke up with my dude on New Year’s Eve at 11:59pm, then sat on the porch dressed up to the nines and threw shots back like a boss.
My dads birthday came and went, he’s been dead for almost two years, so there’s that part. And my mom’s birthday is in a month, she’s been dead three years. Shit stings on some real shit.
A “friend” told me that I shouldn’t be sad about losing my parents, like whom the fuck is she talking too? Cause no ma’am, I’m a strong ass bitch, I’m not going to cry about it but girl, you have no right to tell someone that when you still have both of your parents and all of your siblings.
I respect your thoughts but bitch you can claim you know how that shit feels, but it hits different when it actually happens. Like this girl didn’t understand, I lost two brother a week apart from each other last year. She was getting annoyed by the fact that I said I was busy with funerals and work and other shit.
Like, I had nine siblings I’m down by two, plus family fuck shit that was occurring in the middle. Like this bitch was about to catch a whole bunch of a unpleasant words cause how dare she?
I think what pushed my buttons was when I told her that she couldn’t join a certain “family” activity during Christmas because it was something sentimental and between me and my siblings. Then had the nerve to get mad at me for distancing myself, no ma’am cause after she said what she said in a certain tone, it was fuck her, I’m sorry but no.
That’s a “friend” for you. No person that call a friend on this planet should invalidate your feelings or your boundaries no matter how big or small.
That and some other bullshit made me cut off everybody and I worked on myself for a month straight only to realize I’m not okay but I’m okay.
I have 13 drafts just sitting staring at me waiting to be posted.
So at this point, I reckoned I’d just say it instead of floating off on a tangent of fuckary and foolishness.
Bitchhhhhhhhh!
I really want to watch some burn, like I want to start a big ass fire!!!!!!
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