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Nirvana, 24.01.92 - Phoenician Club, Sydney, Australia 馃嚘馃嚭.
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Kurt Cobain and Kim Gordon (Sonic Youth)
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Courtney Love with dark/black hair.聽
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thesibfiles 7 months ago
Courtney going on tour right after?
Theres a misconception that after Kurts death, Courtney went straight on tour right away. This is false. The album was already set to release a few days after and they couldnt change that on such a short notice. Promotion for the album was cancelled and she pushed back the tour 4 months.
鈥淟ive Through This was supposed to provide Love an opportunity to step out from her famous husband鈥檚 shadow. 鈥淚t鈥檚 annoying now, and it鈥檚 been annoying for nine years, Love said in a 1999 Jane Magazine interview of always being connected to Cobain. Released four days after Cobain鈥檚 body was found, the album鈥檚 promotion was put on hold. Rather than retreat from the public eye, Love openly mourned and helped fans of Cobain and Nirvana make sense of the singer鈥檚 death. She sat with grieving teenagers gathered outside the couple鈥檚 Seattle home and recorded a reading of parts of his suicide note that was played at the singer鈥檚 memorial that gathered near the Space Needle. In the days following his death, Love showed a very raw and emotional side and admitted that, like many fans, she didn鈥檛 have all the answers.聽
It was, and still is, impossible for people to discuss Live Through This without noting the irony of the album鈥檚 title. Love has said the name was not a prediction at all, but instead a reflection of all she had endured in the months leading up to its release, including a very public custody fight with the Los Angeles Department of Family Services over daughter Frances Bean. Rumors suggested that Cobain had written much of Live Through This (it鈥檚 Miss World, not Mister, just FYI). 鈥淚鈥檇 be proud as hell to say that he wrote something on it, but I wouldn鈥檛 let him. It was too Yoko for me. It鈥檚 like, 鈥楴o fucking way, man! I鈥檝e got a good band, I don鈥檛 fucking need your help,鈥欌 was Love鈥檚 response to critics in Spin鈥檚 oral history of Live Through This. Love and Cobain often shared notebooks and lyrics with each other, and while there is talk of Cobain鈥檚 influence on Love鈥檚 work, or the writing of all of it, less is mentioned in the press of her impact on his lyrics and music. Rather than sucking all the life out of Nirvana or threatening the success of the band, like many assumed she would do, she inspired Cobain. Fun fact: In Utero, Nirvana鈥檚 last album, was named after a line from one of Love鈥檚 poems.
Sadly, songwriting rumors would be replaced by other rumors. Women are often vilified and condemned for the deaths of their male partners. Love, like all women, was supposed to save her partner from death and addiction. Fans of Cobain projected all their anger and resentment over the loss of the Nirvana front man onto Love, and soon she was blamed for not only his addiction but also his death. There are even two movies devoted to the theory that Courtney killed Kurt: the awful Soaked in Bleach (2015) and the equally awful Kurt & Courtney (1998). If you think we鈥檝e come a long way, baby, sadly we haven鈥檛.聽
One year after Anthony Bourdain鈥檚 death, Asia Argento is still being blamed, and in September 2018, Ariana Grande had to take a break from social media after fans blamed her for the death of her ex Mac Miller. A few months later, she would be blamed for new beau Pete Davidson鈥檚 mental health and addiction issues. It鈥檚 amazing she finds the time to write hit songs what with all the dude destruction she has going on. When women are not being blamed for the deaths of the men in their lives, they are being attacked for not grieving properly. 鈥淪he wasn鈥檛 crying. She鈥檚 got $30 million coming to her. Do you blame her for being so cool?鈥 a hospital staffer said of Yoko Ono following John Lennon鈥檚 murder in 1980.聽
About four months after Cobain鈥檚 death, Love went on tour to promote her new album. Some questioned and judged why she would go on tour so soon, but Love has said it was a necessity. She had a young daughter to support. She needed to work. She also, sadly, still needed to prove herself. 鈥淚 would like to think that I鈥檓 not getting the sympathy vote, and the only way to do that is to prove that what I鈥檝e got is real,鈥 Love told Rolling Stone in 1994.
Twenty-five years later, Cobain鈥檚 death still hangs over Live Through This. In the days leading up to the anniversary of Cobain鈥檚 death, former Hole bassist Melissa Auf der Maur wrote an open letter to music magazine Kerrang saying she 鈥渨ould not stand for Kurt鈥檚 death overshadowing the life and work of the women he left behind this year.鈥
鈥淲e were extremely well designed for each other,鈥 Love has said of her relationship with Cobain. In a letter reprinted in Dirty Blonde: The Diaries of Courtney Love, she calls him 鈥渕y everything. the top half on my fraction.鈥 The two had similar upbringings, both came from broken homes and spent childhoods shuttling between relatives and friends. They both grew up longing for love and acceptance. When we tell the story of Kurt and Courtney we talk about drugs and destruction, but we don鈥檛 talk enough about love.
The two also shared an intense drive and ambition. 鈥淚 didn鈥檛 want to marry a rock star, I wanted to be one,鈥 Love said in a 1992 Sassy interview. Evidence of her drive can be found in the many notes and to-do lists she kept, some of which are collected in Dirty Blonde. There are reminders to send her acting r茅sum茅 to agencies, to write three to four new songs a week, to 鈥渁chieve L.A. visibility.鈥 A scene in the documentary Kurt & Courtney features an ex of Love鈥檚 reading from one of her to-do lists, which has 鈥渂ecome friends with Michael Stipe鈥 as the number one task to complete (not only did Love do this, but he is her daughter鈥檚 godfather). This ambition is not surprising from a woman who, when she was younger, mailed a tape of herself singing to Neil Sedaka in hopes of getting signed. Love knew what she wanted at an early age, and what she wanted was fame.
She was certainly living by the 鈥渄o not hurt yourself, destroy yourself, mangle yourself to get the football captain. Be the football captain!鈥 motto she championed in the 1995 documentary Not Bad for a Girl. Ambition is often a dirty word when it is used to describe women and Love is no exception. She has been repeatedly described as calculating and controlling when she should be rewarded for her blond ambition and viewed as an inspiration. Critics and the press often call her a gold digger who only married Cobain for fame and money. They fail to mention that when the two met Pretty on the Inside was actually selling more copies than Bleach, Nirvana鈥檚 debut album. Even post-Kurt, Love鈥檚 intentions were always under scrutiny. On the Today Show to do press for The People vs. Larry Flynt, Love refused to talk about her past drug use, despite the host鈥檚 repeated questions, saying the topic was not an appropriate fit for the show鈥檚 demographic. She was right, but it didn鈥檛 stop a writer from describing the move as 鈥渃alculating鈥 in a 1998 Spin piece.
Cobain was ambitious too; he was just much slyer and more secretive about it. He was known to call his manager and complain when MTV didn鈥檛 play Nirvana鈥檚 videos enough, and he would correct journalists who misquoted the band鈥檚 sales figures in interviews. While success is typically celebrated and rewarded for men and it certainly was for Cobain, he also had to be mindful of the slacker generation that loved Nirvana and greeted success 鈥 and especially mainstream success 鈥
While female celebrities like Love are criticized for their rebellion, male celebrities, like Cobain for example, are celebrated and mythologized for it. Cobain and Love both struggled with addiction, but it is Love who is repeatedly vilified for her drug use. 鈥淪he was vilified for being a mess, for being a drug addict, for not being a great parent 鈥 in other words, all of the things we expect in a male rock star,鈥 said Bust magazine in a piece in the magazine鈥檚 20th anniversary issue, which featured Love on the cover.
We make jokes about the drug antics of male celebrities from Keith Richards to Charlie Sheen, idolizing their debauchery and depravity. The new Netflix/Lifetime movie by Jack Daniels, The Dirt, about M枚tley Cr眉e, takes the band鈥檚 excesses to almost comic levels. Check out crazy tourmate Ozzy Osbourne snorting a line of ants by a hotel pool! Such zany antics! I would love to see Lindsay Lohan try to get away with that. We never allow women to live down their arrests and their addictions, but we repeatedly allow men to have a redemption arc. Robert Downey Jr. was in and out of jail and on and off drugs for much of the mid to late 鈥90s, but we rarely, if ever, talk about his past.
When Love isn鈥檛 being attacked for her addiction issues, she is being judged for her parenting. Love鈥檚 first unflattering press was 鈥淪trange Love,鈥 the much publicized 1992 Vanity Fair profile by Lynn Hirschberg. While the piece talks at length about Love鈥檚 drug use and constantly questions her parenting ability, it doesn鈥檛 paint Cobain in the same light. 鈥淚t is appalling to think that she would be taking drugs when she knew she was pregnant,鈥 says one close friend in the piece. Hirschberg relies on many unnamed sources and focuses often on the tabloid-like aspects of Love鈥檚 life and addictions. 鈥淐ourtney has a long history with drugs. She loves Percodans (鈥楾hey make me vacuum鈥), and has dabbled with heroin off and on since she was eighteen, once even snorting it in Room 101 of the Chelsea Hotel, where Nancy Spungen died,鈥 she writes. 鈥淩eportedly, Kurt didn鈥檛 do much more than drink until he met Courtney.鈥 (Even when it is reported by Kurt and Krist that Kurt tried heroin in 1989, way before Courtney, It was also known that he smoked weed and used caugh syrup to get high in 1989 and 1990.)
This double standard was common in coverage of the couple. In Kurt Cobain: Montage of Heck, the 2015 documentary by Brett Morgen, Love asks her husband, 鈥淲hy does everyone think you鈥檙e the good one and I鈥檓 the bad one?鈥 Later in the film we see a scene of Frances Bean鈥檚 first haircut. The child sits on Cobain鈥檚 lap while Love searches for a comb and scissors. The camera shows Cobain nodding off, and while he maintains that he is just tired, it鈥檚 clear he鈥檚 not. The scene is painful to watch, especially because those around Cobain carry on like nothing in wrong, giving the feeling this is just like any other day in the Love-Cobain household. The scene is a reminder of how the press treated Cobain鈥檚 addiction when he was alive. They just carried on like nothing was wrong, instead directing all their judgement at Love.
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The song name: Tearjerker (written for Kurt Cobain by Anthony Kiedis)
鈥淔irst time I saw you鈥╕ou were sitting backstage in a dress鈥ˋ perfect mess
You never knew this
But I wanted badly for you to
Requite my love
Left on the floor
Leaving your body
When highs are the lows
And lows are the way
So hard to stay
Guess now you know
I love you so
I liked your whiskers
And I liked the dimple in your chin
Your pale blue eyes
You painted pictures
'Cause the one that hurts can give so much
You gave me such鈥
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Nirvana, 23.01.93 - Hollywood Rock Festival, Rio de Janeiro, Brazil 馃嚙馃嚪.
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That smile at the end eeeee
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Most people don't realize that large pieces of coral
Which have been painted brown and attached to the skull with common wood screws
Can make a child look like a deer
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鈥淲anting to be someone else is a waste of who you are.鈥
鈥 Kurt Cobain
Read more acceptance quotes here: https://spreadgreatideas.org/quotes/quotes-self-acceptance-knowing-oneself/
#spreadgreatideas #qoute #qoutation #qouteoftheday
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It's better to burn out than to fade away.
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POP MUSIC : In Love With Courtney : She may be married and expecting, but Hole鈥檚 Courtney Love hasn鈥檛 toned down
(Rare? Courtney Love Interview August 16, 1992, Los Angeles Times)
An hour with Hole鈥檚 1991 鈥淧retty on the Inside鈥 album might be one of the most harrowing experiences in rock 鈥榥鈥 roll, a black, labored, twisted hour that is closer to a gruesome-sex Mary Gaitskill story than to anything you might think of as popular art, a slack, grinding hour that imprints itself on your consciousness like an extended fingernail-screech.
Most of the songs are about bad sex, bad drugs or a bad day at the abortion clinic. The most famous song from the album begins 鈥淲hen I was a teen-age whore. . . .鈥 If 鈥淧retty on the Inside鈥 were a horror movie, it would be all the parts that you have to look at through your fingers.
Sometimes it is good to experience excruciating things.
On a quiet back street of Los Angeles鈥 Fairfax District, a quick walk from Canter鈥檚 and a stone鈥檚 throw from the hippest record stores on Melrose, Hole auteur Courtney Love sprawls in the living room of her groovy railroad-flat apartment, smoothing the week鈥檚 British music tabloids around her on the floor, listening to the new Pavement CD, tugging at her tight, black skirt.
At one end of the room, a line of well-worn books leans against the wall; on the floor by the couch, an exquisite thing in cream Atomic Age Naugahyde, is a vividly colored textbook chart of the female reproductive tract. Love looks up only occasionally, to say something snotty about the blaring music or to read a particularly juicy notice aloud. She puts down the copy of Sounds and picks up a New Musical Express.
Her new husband, Nirvana singer Kurt Cobain, has spent the afternoon straightening up. Sprawled on her clean living-room floor, Courtney Love is happy and in love. The British music tabloids have all mentioned her, she has a baby on the way, and she鈥檚 been signed to Geffen Records for a lot of dough. Love has more money than she can count and a husband the world desires, a singing voice that could crack glass, and cool pads in both Los Angeles and Seattle. She loves the British music tabloids almost as much as they love her, which is more than plenty.She reaches over to the coffee table and leafs through a packet of letters that teen-age girls have written to Sassy magazine about its recent Kurt & Courtney cover, half of which are admiring and half of which say that she鈥檚 a skank. Love is obsessed with people who are obsessed with her.
About a year ago, Everett True, the American-underground correspondent for Melody Maker, found something deep and unsettling in Love, and the English weekly ran a full-page article on Hole at a time when the band was still third-billed at small club shows in Los Angeles, its own hometown. True called Hole 鈥渢he best . . . no, scratch that . . . the only rock 鈥榥鈥 roll band in the world,鈥 and positioned Love as sort of the underground鈥檚 answer to Madonna. The rest of the British press followed suit.
Love, who does not think of herself as a beauty, was named the third sexiest woman in a recent Melody Maker readers poll, just behind Madonna and Kylie Minogue. Overseas, she is a paradigm of damaged slutty glamour. Over here, within the very glamorous world of underground rock, Love is notorious, and people who barely know her often gossip about her for hours.
But happy as she might be, at the moment Love is miffed. She shuts the latest issue of NME hard.
鈥淎ll of a sudden,鈥 she whines, 鈥渁ll these boys from all these papers are turning into New Man Feminists. Until they turn into something else next month, in which case they鈥檒l take it out on Patti and Debbie and Chrissie and meeee . I was reading one of these last week, and every single article had my name in it. And it鈥檚 not like I鈥檝e written a 鈥楤rass in Pocket鈥 or anything. It鈥檚 all because I took a couple of pictures with my eyeliner smudged.鈥
Love is to smudged eyeliner what Karen Carpenter was to denim leisure suits.
鈥淭his whole 鈥榰nderground鈥 thing is really scary,鈥 she continues, twisting around her finger a platinum strand of hair, 鈥渂ecause there鈥檚 such a frenzy going on right now, and the industry thinks they can purchase it and make it pay. People are offering a million dollars to these scruffy little dirty stoner bands. And--I can just see--it鈥檚 going to be like new wave: 鈥楪et that kid into an old sweater!鈥 What鈥檚 going to happen is that these underripe bands are going to put out these underripe records that nobody is going to buy, and it will ruin it for the rest of us.鈥
She stifles a yawn.
鈥淚 think there should be a standard, almost like socialism, where bands that deserve to get as big as the Pixies get as big as the Pixies and not any bigger because money will ruin everything. All the pomposity, all the crap . . . all the creme brulee.鈥
The phone rings, and she trips in her hurry to get to it. She says hello; her face contorts into the most remarkable fright-mask expression. She covers the mouthpiece, and yells out to her husband: 鈥淚t鈥檚 Kiii -iirk from Me- tallll -ica, darling. How in the hell did he get our phone number?鈥 before hanging up the phone and sinking back down to the floor in a slump. She puts her face in her hands.
鈥淚鈥檝e always been comfortable with notoriety,鈥 she says, 鈥渂ut I feel like I married Bobby Sherman. It鈥檚 like that bad, you know what I mean: 鈥楽he keeps him locked in the closet, and she doesn鈥檛 let him take his phone calls, and everybody knows they鈥檙e sitting around shooting smack.鈥 Y鈥檏now. Please. I鈥檓 pregnant, and it鈥檇 be my baby sitting around doing smack, my fetus, about eight inches, and it鈥檚 got little legs and hands. I am not stupid.鈥
(Then again, she recently admitted heroin use after she got pregnant to Vanity Fair. Or did she? See article on Page 54.)
She sighs: 鈥淵ou know, I think the worst thing about L.A. is how I鈥檓 somehow considered accomplished because I nailed a rock star. You know what I mean; that makes me scary, that makes me dealable with people. . . . Now Kirk Hammett knows who I am. And that makes me sick.鈥
Love, 25 or so, grew up near Eugene, Ore., spent some time in Los Angeles, hung out in Liverpool with cult new-wave singer Julian Cope, spent time in San Francisco and fronted an early version of Faith No More, all the while studying British music papers as if they were the Scriptures.
She auditioned for the Nancy Spungen part in 鈥淪id & Nancy"--she ended up playing a minor role in the film--and director Alex Cox built an entire movie (the megaflop 鈥淪traight to Hell鈥) around her dark-star punk charisma. She heard the Replacements鈥 鈥淟et It Be鈥 and moved to Minneapolis for a while in the mid-'80s.
Minnesota was a place that she had always thought about.
Still on the floor, Love blushes. 鈥淚 had a Bob thing,鈥 she says. 鈥淧eople are ashamed of their Bob things, but I grew up on Bob. When I went to Minnesota, I went to Hibbing right away. It鈥檚 right near Duluth. I totally went to Hibbing . . . isn鈥檛 that scary? I went to the house, they had a little museum there, a Bob museum. I went to dinner a couple times with Jesse Dylan, Bob鈥檚 son--I was about 19 at the time.
鈥淎nd then his uncle, Bob鈥檚 brother, owned a theater in Minneapolis. Me and my friend Lori decided to put on a show at that theater with the Butthole Surfers and like nine bands, and we overpriced the tickets and nobody came, and we lost a whole bunch of money. Biggest disaster of my whole entire life: I got on the outs with the Butthole Surfers and the Dylan family in one evening.鈥
Denied a career as a rock promoter, Love supported herself as a stripper, was in a series of all-woman bands, including one in 1986 with guitarist Kat Bjelland, who went on to form Babes in Toyland, and bassist Jennifer Finch, who helped start L7.
She moved back to Los Angeles in 1989 and formed Hole, settling on the eventual lineup of Eric Erlandson on guitar, Jill Emery (formerly of the Hollywood death-goddess trio Superheroines) on bass and Caroline Rue (ex-Omelets) on drums. (Emery and Rue recently quit the group; the band is more or less on hiatus until the baby comes in September.) Hole recorded the well-regarded 鈥淩etard Girl鈥 single on the Long Beach indie Sympathy for the Record Industry, and the harrowing 鈥淒icknail鈥 seven-inch for Sub Pop.
Love talked Sonic Youth鈥檚 Kim Gordon into co-producing Hole鈥檚 album, thereby ensuring her entree into that in-group underground cool sort of vibe, which she surfed like an expert power-floating six-foot peelers.
After the British music tabloids got through with her, Hole became the subject of a major-label bidding war, eventually won by Geffen. Love seemed to particularly enjoy spurning a personal offer from Madonna to become the very first artist on her brand-new Warner Bros. custom label, Maverick.
(A representative for Madonna confirmed that the company did pursue Hole, among other acts.)
鈥淢adonna has a clipping service send her everything about me,鈥 Love says with a sneer, 鈥渁nd I totally figured out what it is--it鈥檚 like Madonna wants to be the goddess of everything blond. She wants to own any piece of the blond experience she may have forgotten about--in my case the rape victim/battered child persona--and she wanted to swallow me whole.
鈥淚 could never have worked for Madonna, because she鈥檚 too short, and she鈥檚 never been a fat girl, and she has like this Napoleon thing going. I could never deal with a boss that has never been fat. But Madonna has got good taste in art. And she also, like, knew some of my lyrics by heart. To me, that was amazing.鈥
Love lifts herself off the floor and walks over to the CD player in the next room, where she takes off Pavement and puts on the Tori Amos piano-ballad version of Nirvana鈥檚 鈥淪mells Like Teen Spirit.鈥
Cobain appears from the next room, wearing a moth-eaten fuzzy sweater, rubbing the sleep out of his eyes, and imitates high-voiced Kirk Hammett trying to persuade him to go on tour with Metallica and Guns N鈥 Roses. 鈥淲e鈥檝e gotta wipe the stage with the Gunners, maaaan ,鈥 he whines, and then dissolves into smirking laughter.
She reads him some of the better items about them that have appeared in the week鈥檚 tabloids. He grabs Melody Maker and reads some back to her. They share a perfect, quiet media moment together, man and wife and newsprint. Then Cobain leaves to have supper with his friend Mark Lanegan of the Screaming Trees, and she takes off the Amos album and replaces it with the new one from Teenage Fanclub. 鈥淗ave you heard this band?鈥 she asks. 鈥淭hey鈥檙e trying to sound exactly like my husband.鈥
Love settles onto her Naugahyde couch.
I have this thing about me, this catalyst, that brings out hate in people, and I wonder about it,鈥 she says. 鈥淚 think I may have always worn it around me, I think it is why I was always picked on, which is why I don鈥檛 blame anybody. No matter where I go, or what context I鈥檓 in, I seem to provoke people, and I enjoy it. I was the ultimate Christ of the schoolyard. 鈥淥ne night at the Underworld in London, on our first English tour, there was this entire contingent of guys who kept yelling, 鈥楽lut, whore,鈥 and I dived on them, and they just shoved their . . . it was intense. I got (groped) by the crowd, and it was very insane. And I got back up on stage with nothing on, and then they rushed the stage and started grabbing us, and Jill and Caroline just couldn鈥檛 deal with it. That鈥檚 why they鈥檙e not in the group anymore. . . . I want a bass player who will be like Elvis Presley. I want a bass player who will stand on stage in front of 80,000 people with her shirt off.鈥
Bigger than the Pixies, then!
鈥淎 few months ago I went to Martin Luther King Day at my old junior high in Eugene, which used to be an ass-kicking, Led Zeppelin, evil, stoner high school,鈥 she says. 鈥淣ow all the girls are like Sassy readers with Nirvana shirts and little dreadlocks and nose rings. My God! No matter what has happened, no matter the order of being, if the charts were just and fair and the Pixies and Nirvana and Hole were the most . . . I鈥檇 probably start listening to Poison. I don鈥檛 want utopia, I want cacophony.鈥
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badkarrmaa 7 months ago
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absolutely love this pic of kurt
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