#last sleep dream and last life dream :

[non-un-topo]

All it takes is a wee little nightmare to make you too scared to step foot outside for fear of Bad Things happening, like it’s an omen lol

#also it is p o u r i n g outside and it takes me an hour and fifteen minutes to commute to campus #i'm a good little student but sometimes i just can't be assed #esp with all the crazy stuff that's been happening on public transit and on my campus for that matter #i'm just getting a bad vibe today [insert empath meme here] #warning for me complaining about a graphic nightmare!!!!: #had a few stress dreams(?) last night but one particularly violent one in which a woman got run over by a streetcar-- #--and the paramedics were moving people along but i accidentally got a really good look at her and it fucked me up #she looked like she was just sleeping peacefully but i could only really make out the top half of her body #probably because the bottom half was... yeah. #i think i also had another dream that i was being hunted by a sniper?? and they had called my cell and were threatening me + my folks? #and another one where i had to hide some children from... i don't really know what. some dangerous person who wanted to kill all of us #but the kids wouldn't leave me even though i begged them to. #yeah just a normal collection of dreams for me. literally ugh. #i don't even think i'm stressed in my life rn?? #not any more than normal lol

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

why yes, voices in my head, i Will take a nap at 3 pm

#snzzzzzz snz snzzzzzzzzz #if anyone tells you you cant take a nap at the worst time of day #they are lying. cut them out of your life. you dont need that energy #ruin your day <3 nap in the afternoon <3 doesnt matter if you already had a full 12 hours of sleep <3 #getting cozy is an all day event #and babeyyyy im about to Snuggle In #without a blanket because its hot up here but yk #the one con of having a loft bed smh... heat rises.... #absolutely unprompted #hopefully i wake up before 10 pm! We Will See!!!! #at least im actually getting into bed this time instead of just laying on the floor #it fucked up my neck and back a lil too much last time so Mattress It Is #snz snzz snzzzzzzz eepy time #highschool me: no sleep ever. running on fumes always all the time #me now - unemployed and unenrolled: Sleeping Always #had a wild dream last night actually #it included an alien invasion / a timeloop (not mine) / building fire / endless museum labyrinth / the doctor & tardis for some reason #good times! very fun! #i vaguely remember there being a Horror element! my life was in danger! festive! #but it wasnt a death dream so yk. bonus! well. it wasnt to me #guy who lived the timeloop said we all died at least once so ig it was.... anyway! snzzz!

[b4kuch1n]

brain also insisted that was played by an employee. despite it being realistically impossible due to how the neck looks in the side shot

#ghost files #bakuspecial #cw: body horror #cw: unreality #ask to tag #critters #hi. literally dont know who the fuck this is. never seen this guy before in my life #my brain has! decided to give me awesome cool things to rotate in the night #this is decidedly not an omen I don't have omen dreams. I just have really really scary stress dreams. dw #this is not entirely outta nowhere tho I did spend last night watching the last ep of the season with my friends #so like. it makes sense that its ghost files this happened in. just #I'm still a bit baffled that this guy just showed up lmao. just kinda is there! just hangin out #fun way to spice up your sleep #okay. today's insanely busy and this dinner's gonna be a whole thing #so I will have to get off the desk now. but damn. contemplating <3 #have a good day lads!! ghost files good show check it out. no weird mascot guy in it tho

[thediktatortot]

Don't mind me, I'm just fucking depressed

#life feels meaningless again and i don't know how to make it go away #i have friends but i cant find the energy or the mental ability to be around them #i cant even get myself out of my house let alone see people #ive got no car again which means you habe 0 autonomy #the VA has zero empathy for anyone and im left stranded for help #ive got my parents winter depression to deal with on top of my own #I'm basically the primary bread winner in my house because of my disability being more than my dads SSI #everything is breaking and i have no money to replace it #my country hates me in multiple ways #my avenues of enjoyment are being priced out or gotten rid of #there's no third spaces #no places to hang out #my grocery bill is 2x the price now #my body hurts my brain hurts my heart hurts my teeth hurt everything fucking hurts #i cant even use Tumblr anymore because the account ive been using for the last few years wont get un shadowbanned #i dont even get the reprieve of dreams when i sleep

[hairtusk]

impossibly long week ahead of me, but made infinitely easier knowing that i am so deeply beloved by my boyfriend and that we belong entirely to each other :') the light of my life forever and always

#i had a dream last night where we were travelling through the european countryside and decided we were going to elope #so we found an abandoned tiny chapel in the hills and cleaned it out together inside to make it neat and pretty #so that we could get married there secretly #and the dream brought me a lot of peace #because i don't think it was really a dream about marriage but was much more metaphorical #and felt as if we were carving out this little space in the world that was created entirely to house us and our love #which is what it feels like we're doing in the waking world. carving out space in our lives dedicated just to our love #i feel so deeply secure in our love. he truly is the absolute love of my life and i feel so lucky that we found each other #i'll keep him all my life if he'll let me :') #anyway. i can face the week. i can. #we just spent the most beautiful weekend together. i slept so soundly after my last long week #because i sleep so deeply next to him; knowing that i'm safe and loved :')

[qoldwater]

I always forget how people back in the olde days used to just die so easily from the flu, until I get the flu myself dhhdhdhf because on one hand I know our medicine is just soo much better now a days but on the other hand I have the immune system of a dead man and once I get sick I'm like the ye olde victorian child on a death bed dhdhdhhd it's been 4 days and I just NOW can get on my phone to watch videos and text, and eat and drink water, and coherently string words together and do more than just lay in bed and moan in pain, and sweat and cough in sick delirium 😭

#im being so deadass #i only slept once between just staring at whatever i was hallucinating on the ceiling and that was last night #and i dreamt that i was eating glass #i know its because ive hurt my stomach and ribs from so much coughing because i can barely talk #at least in my dream i was picky about the glass i was eating LMAOOO i was like NO I WANT THE BUBBLE AMBER DRINKING GLASS NOM NOM #and raided a flea market just to find it and eat it #i dont fucking know #i finally ate some chicken noodle soup and apple sauce too and ive finally had some wonderful and amazing water #i swear i never enjoyed it more in my LIFE #i hate being sick because i get so sick so easily and soo soo so bad #fucking rough man #i had no idea it was Saturday until i just checked #fucking was Tuesday last I remembered god damnit #also its really scary looking in the mirror because I dont look well or look like myself right now #body image warning #but my face looks so hallow and dark and scratched up because apparently I either was scratching in my sleep or something happened #and I'm soo much thinner than the last time I looked in a mirror and got out of bed like 4 days ago #my beard is big and shaggy and i need to shave but i really really don't look good and its hard to do any self care #when you go from looking healthy and glowy to pale and dark and thin in just a couple days #like fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck that #im caught in a state of #this isn't reality #which i know isnt safe or good but ill be okay because i know im just in shock and that i cant push myself through it #especially in this weakened state #i just need to take it slow and steady #drink my water stay in my blanket and eat what i can and take my meds and thank FUCK I came through the fog and rest

[spengsart]

Hope your kidney transplant goes well bestie!

#fascinated by why i have received this ask #couldn't sleep last night cause its so hot so i checked tumblr only to see this #and got worried my normal life was a dream and i'd woken up to a reality where i was soon to have a kidney transplant #anyway im now convinced that this ask passed thru the fabric of reality from another timeline where i AM soon to have a kidney transplant #in which case thank you and godspeed to other timeline me!

[jatlokgwo]

she went to bed a few hours ago am just calming down it went good!!! we took a break cuz i had to go to mamas house and they didnt start texting me right when i git there!!! they asked if i wanted to keep talking when i got home and i said i didnt know and she was ok with that!!!!! i told it that am still radqueer and they said that radqueers are awesome and seem so accsepting ^^ am still scared i think its just automatic am so used to just. gestures how do i put that in words. ignoring me to not upset you when i talk to them but !!!!!!!!!!!!!! i had fun i didnt relize how much i missed them!!!!! i kinda want to go to layla like ey said even though i dont need help i just like to be with them and even though it went good i kinda feel like i got shaken around but its midnight so ey is probably sleeping !!

#i feel bad for feeling like it might be a trap but ah um #she used to be a brother to me i trusted it with my life it started good the first time to #idk i forgive her i was never mad but am scared #also saying rhe last part about layla with the same vibes as ''I WANT TO PLAY [SOMETHING SONG I CANT REMEBER]!! BUT MY WIFE (??) IS SLEEPIN #ON THE COUCH!!! SHE IS MY WORLD!!!!'' i hope that you have a good sleep and lots of good dreams that come true :3 #pup talks #vin

[allalrightagain]

The good news: no longer wasting away from a vitamin deficiency feels great

The bad news: it doesn’t necessarily make me not tired, it just gives me slightly more energy to make poor decisions with

#happy daylight savings #my sleep schedule is fucked #i had some wild amazing dream that this weekend would be filled with writing #and cleaning up the mess I’ve made of my life the last six months #but no I laid around reading merlin fic #LT talks #chronic health tag

[tsuyoiqueen]

I was listening to a Dreamling playlist yesterday and couldn't help but wonder how much fun the people who assembled it together must have had while doing it because I can't even properly describe how I felt the moment I listened to Venus by Sleeping at Last and heard Ryan O'Neal sing "You're as beautiful as endless" for the first time. That song was meant for Hob and Morpheus and this fandom is delightful. Thank you all for your service, I love it here.

(By the way, this is the playlist. You have to listen to it. It's the only thing getting me through the long hours in uni these days.)

#you're the universe i'm helpless in #i was a billion little pieces till you pulled me into focus #it was me who was discovered #dream #DREAMLING #the sandman #the sandman netflix #dream of the endless #hob gadling #dreamling #dreamling playlist #sleeping at last #this song is beautiful #the whole playlist is #not to mention all the taylor swift songs??? #i had no idea she was a dreamling shipper like wow #so many songs #whenever someone says in a song i scream #this is just my life now #aryspeaks #Spotify

[gdlavzo]

may the horrors (nightmares) stay away from me and everyone reading this, god bless

#signed your suffering GDL #<- hope I still remember my vent tag lol feel free to mute etc etc idk #I'm so tired of dreading going to sleep because I don't have dreams I only have nightmares #at least I used to for the majority of my life. for the last 1 #<- 1.5* years I've FINALLY been seeing DREAMS. few of them. but still. development. progress. #today I woke up from two consequental nightmares #all about running away from danger and failing failing failing to do so. inescapable. it's (whatever it is) always inescapable. #I JUST WANT TO SLEEP IN PEACE

[lem-argentum]

i actually never played videogame today like i said i was going to.. joined my dad on an errand trip and was soo tired when we got back -v- <3

#lem text #i will tomorrow though. <3 #hellpp i was so distracted the whole time because of whfmdnfj. ACKG. curse of dreams #i would nevvver hold his hand in real life. mischaracterizing me. #derailed the post. what i wanted to say was we had to go to the mall for something and it has a lil gallery #i bought something small from there last time.. but ​aa there was this painting of a lighthouse and it was so pretty #cape caem from ff.xv is a very comforting place for me so i think of it when i see lighthouses. so i was like waa….. #one day i’ll have the money to get a ton of expensive paintings that is the dream <3 #i hope its not annoying that in every post i talk about a dozen topics in the tags hekfdjd.. theyre like. journal pages or somethinf #im probably gonna watch a lil more of wayne’s t.otk vod then sleep ^^ i hope u all sleep well when you do <3

[twistedappletree]

I’m cryingggggggg I’m sorry I just woke up from a dream where Jin Ling was teaching one of my circus classes??? and it was unicycling?????!?!???? afasfaadDHGSHJKLKGNLMAO

#literally something he would probably never be caught doing in his life it was sO F CKING FUNNY AMBSJWJSJS #especially since he was still wearing his Jin sect robes and weapons like he wasn’t dressed modern AT ALL 😭😭😭😭😭 #also #not me talking about this kid sm that he starts appearing in my dreams oh my god LMFAO #good fuckin lord I didn’t even take anything to sleep last night either so that was just #my brain being my brain in its natural state ajdhajhdAJDHAJDH #apple babble 🍎

[pepprs]

tfw im taking a day off of work today (my first day off since december 😍😍😍😍) and got absolutely shit sleep w fucked up dreams i kept waking up from and just woke up to a text about the stupid fucking book chapter asking me to do one more read through of it as if i haven’t done like 5 in theladt 3 days (and by all appearances been the ONLY one doing so lol)

#purrs #no way in hell i can go back to sleep now. im too angry. and also feel abandoned in a stupid way by a certain someone involved in this but #we all know that by now so i will not elaborate but i am REALLY. really and truly. at my wit’s end. how hard is it to… idk. how hard is it!! #delete later #(this isn’t abt anyone here ir anyone i regularly work w btw thisis just me being a dumb baby about last july again lol) #like omg not you haunting my dreams and then texting me THAT and. not replying to my other text about redacted 😂😂😂😂😂😂 am i NOTHING to you. #actually don’t answer that because clearly the events of the last 9 months have shown me everything i need to know that actually i am! #and ​i wish i could talk abt this saga more openly on here bc it’s ruining my fucking life but AGAIN i hold back to protect YOU and not talk #shit about you online to other people where you’ll never read it. the litcheral way in which i am STILL making sacrifices and working around #your shape and whatever. the way i still think about you every DAY!! and you clearly didn’t think abt me or how i would be impacted by this #…… AT AWL!!!!!!!!!! shaking with rage lollllll i am being dangerous abt it but oh my GOD. it’s so fucking unfair. in my life or not at ALL.

[klinejack]

i think what really gets me about the idea of babygod jack is like.. you have no real choice but to love your kids. (i wouldnt actually know but. lets not go there).

my point is loving god like a father isn’t as good because love for a parent is unreliable and unstable and likely to have conditions even if it’s only the most extreme kind

whereas love for ones child is usually absolute. irrational even. its just either there fully and wholly or its not at all (again. extreme conditions). so from the perspective of loyalty as it can be encompassed in love and devotion as it manifests in total unconditional connection i just think that.

it works better. tastes better. feels . dare i say.. organic

#out of everything that turned my life upside down in those last few eps #(of spn) #this one thing actually kinda made it bearable #that they let him be the ultimate word after all the uncertainty all the insecurity of his very existence and self #and all he ever wanted was good . ok well thats not the point i was making the point was #it wassomethinh i could hold on to andfeel good about. #if they take that from me now after all this.............. i fi break. youl l hear the sound. #jack kline #supernatural #spnwin #the winchesters #the winchesters spoilers #(another track my brain went - this ramble made me think abou t the parking lot scene in dogma #where ben affleck and matt damon monologue about missing god and heaven and how unbearable wisconsin is #anyway that always made my heart sink. i guess i relate to teh idea of not feeling whole #in fact i frequently think about that scene when i think about cas too and hannah and daniel and adinah and balthazar #:((((((( #(mayeb if i sleep ill dream of the tabernacle..............

[alcohol-eyes]

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#2 whole weeks sobeR let’s talk abt it #this the longest I’ve gone without a crumb of weed in my system in 5 yrs and the second longest in 8 yrs #For a long long time I thought I was self medicating the adhd but turns out I was making it Significantly worse #I have an attention span now I can watch tv without scrolling on my phone or playing w fidget toys #My apartment has stayed perfectly clean for the past 2 wks #haven’t rly struggled with eating or sleeping routines are v important wit it tho #been relying heavily on safe foods I’ve eaten the same exact thing every day for 2 weeks but it’s fine #ashwagandha helps me not wanna peel my skin off in rage #time moves INSANELY slower when ur not h*gh every waking second of the day these have been the Longest 2 wks of my life #but also I have So Much more time to do things and SO much more energy to do the things #I thought being anxious and exhausted was just my constant state of being but turns out that was Also just the weed #The insane nightmares have been The hardest part but most of the time my dreams are just weird #Feeling emotions is weird I’ve cried more in the last 2 weeks than I have in the last 2 years #I cry about good things I cry about beautiful things art as a whole is just so moving #self regulating after stressful things like work or staying with my parents is definitely New as w as decompressing after socializing w ppl #I do things like paint and journal and make silly little bracelets now #Idk man it just hasn’t been as hard as I thought it would be #A few months ago me and ******** were talking about how we’d actually k word ourselves without it #turns out the jazz cabb was making my depression and anxiety so much worse than it actually is #shits literally fine #Anyways don’t let ppl tell u u can’t develop an unhealthy relationship w weed I was h*gh every waking second of my day for 5 yrs #Last time I tried this I immediately became an alcoholic instead this time I don’t even feel the desire to have a single little drink #Overall I have A Lot more self control in every single area of my life #I don’t waste my money on dumb shit I can eat normal amount of food like a normal person #The thought of buying my favorite cookies and only having like Two of them used to be such an unreasonable concept to my little brain #I don’t know if this is gonna be a permanent thing I definitely know I can’t do it habitually #just like I learned I can be normal about alcohol if I don’t keep it in my house and only do it when socializing for special occasions #anyways if ur thinking about taking a break from ur favorite substance maybe give it a try #thx for coming 2 my ted talk if u read the whole thing I luv u take care of urself