I didn’t say everything I wanted to, because if I did, I really don’t know if you’d still be here. It either would’ve pushed you away or closed you off more. But because this blog has been my outlet for the last 8 years, this is where it will go.
I wish I could’ve met you earlier to save you from the heartbreak you’ve received. Not just from a few months ago, but even before that. I look at you and see someone who deserves the whole universe, and someone who deserves to feel adored, cared about, showed off, and appreciated deeper than any part of the ocean. I see someone who’s felt a lot of pain, and has had to keep it bottled in because the people you’ve been with haven’t been able to understand it. I see someone who has so much to give, and yet every person you’ve been with has treated you like every other rock they find on the ground. When in reality, you’re the diamond in the rough with a heart and soul that should be treated like so. You have a beautiful mind, and the way you think is unlike most. You see the world differently, and have such a different prespective because of the things you’ve been through. But I also see someone who doesn’t think they deserve this because of how they’ve been treated. You’ve become closed up, scared, built up unknown feelings about everything, overthinking even the slightest stuff, and not knowing when you’ll be yourself again. The craziest part, is that you will get treated in the same way you have treated others. You won’t ever have to overthink, you won’t get your heart broken, you won’t have to wonder whether you’re good enough. You must heal before this happens. But believe me, there’s a person that will give you every fucking bit of this shit when you are ready. That person will give you all that you have ever given to someone else. And that person will cherish you and care for you more than you ever thought you would be. That person is here, you just need to be healed before it happens. But believe me, that person will do just about anything for you, even right now. They see something different in you, and they will give you their all. You know who that person is, and that person won’t ever hurt you the way you have been.