#learning to be alone

[rawritsnikky]

#my post #lesbian #california #cali #single #poems i like #poems #courtney peppernell #lesbian poems #wlw poetry #wlw poem #break up poetry #break up poem #learning to love me #learning to be alone #learning to be single #pillow thoughts 2 #poetry books #I deserve better #saving myself

[inspirationaldreams54]

#being alone #lonely #loneliness #learning to be alone #alonequotes #sadness #my depressing life #life

[jhyd]

#alonetime #chilling #limited interaction #pandemic #cafe mode #learning to be alone

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

*sniff sniff sniffs but in a charismatic anteater/hedgehog-nibbling-ripe-pumpkin flesh sorta style* ah new tumblr feature

#freeeeeeeeessshhhhhhh #or sliiiiiightly more likely #i am just really impressively bad at noticing routine update alerts #who knows *shrug emoji i still can't pronounce* #you have my Most apologies. #sincerely i have NOT been sleeping recently in a respectable NOR conscientious pattern #hashtag ignore me im a disgrace #BUT sidenote a disgrace that has learned 3 different salsa recipes and TWO AND A HALF STEW RECIPES #in the last week alone so #it's possible i may be incredibly attractive and charismatic actually? #...no no nope. just deeply sleep deprived probably. #it's 6 A dot fuck the M #ok ok ok MORAL OF THE STORY IS: #BASICALLY ANY MIXTURE OF BROTH AND ROOT VEG CAN BE TURNED INTO A STEW #YOUR PREFERENCE OF MEAT/GREEN VEG CAN BE ADDED FOR YOUR OUR SATISFACTION AND I RECOMMEND IT! #but fundamentally root veg + broth will give you a good start #AND BE GENEROUS W/ THE GARLIC + SEASONING AS PER USU #basically just throw in the shit that gives you good vibes and simmer on low for 2.5 hours #ok that is NOT a valid recipe #but it's like. 75% of it. so google the rest you lazy ass sugar tongs #(fyi the new feature i only just noticed is the Featured Tags thing) #(i really like a lot of the User Interface changes tumblr has made recently and I feel sorta defensive about it #like im back in middle school and feel the terrifying need to prove to the other lunch table kids that my Transformers OC #could kick THEIR transform OC in the AC/DC socket! #...i wasn't even in the fandom i didn't know what a transformer OR a socket was I JUST WANTED TO DRAW FAST CARS

[frednought]

some normal unicorns (and one bicorn)

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edit: these are also on redbubble now

#artists on tumblr #unicorn #horses #fantasy #quagga #chunky horses are my favorites 😔 #przewalski's horse...what a star #just learned about quaggas.....i shouldn't be alone right now..... #any girls want to come over and scroll the wikipedia pages for extinct animals with me #i was gonna give them all names but i got stuck on the black one and gave up bc i have a goldfish brain #my art

[positivelykirby]

a baby waddle dee, drawing over an important legal document: wa

dedede, nodding his head solemnly: so true bestie

bonus:

#kirby #king dedede #waddle dee #bandana dee #based off some hcs about bandee #I like to imagine that half the paperwork to come from dreamland has childish drawings on them #mainly bc ddd doesn't have the heart to redo em #much to bandee's mortification aslkfd;js #my art #I am going to learn how to draw ddd through the power of fluff alone #long-ish post

[keikakus]

Watching Kotaro Lives Alone and reaching the episode about the Tissues

#THIS SHOW GOT ME EMO #Its so sad learning about why kotaro lives alone and why he behaves rhe way he does...the tissues #ill never get over this #kotaro lives alone #misc

[twenty-orange-balloons]

I love how the Juniors just immediately latch onto Wei Wuxian after Yi City. They're like "This man? This crazy man? This is my senior and I love him. Only Hanguang-Jun can compare and no one else." But also, "This man is a self-sacrificing dumbass and we must protect him at all costs." at the same time and I love it.

#cell rambles #mdzs #the untamed #cql #mo dao zu shi #wei wuxian #also a third option ''I can't believe he's just leaving us to do this alone! senior wei come back!!!' #when wwx takes them on nighthunts then hangs back so they can learn for themselves 😂 it's adorable

[rouge-the-bat]

REPEAT AFTER ME:

GETTING UNCOMFORTABLE FROM SOMEONE SIMPLY EXISTING AS THEMSELVES IS YOUR PROBLEM, NOT THEIRS.

IT DOESNT AUTOMATICALLY MEAN YOU ARE WRONG TO FEEL THE WAY YOU DO.

BUT IT DOESNT MEAN THEY HAVE TO CHANGE TO CONFORM TO YOUR COMFORT, OR THAT THEYRE DOING SOMETHING WRONG.

IT SIMPLY MEANS ITS SOMETHING FOR YOU TO WORK THROUGH, NOT FORCE ONTO OTHERS TO CHANGE WHO THEY ARE INNATELY.

#''something something seeing other trans ppl being gnc is dysphoria inducing'' #sorry about that buddy but thats something for you to work through. not try to make everyone shape to your comforts #this doesnt only apply to that. this is a general statement for a lot of things #someones identity is theirs and theirs alone. if it bothers you then i mean this in the most genuine way possible: thats a you problem #sometimes things will make us uncomfortable. but that doesnt mean the thing making us feel that way is automatically bad #please learn to properly deal with your feelings rather than trying to force others out of what makes THEM comfortable and happy #its immature frankly. and i dont mean that as a jab. but its something yall need to realize and reflect on and work to get better about #if u think these tags should be spread too feel free to share them with the post if u want #sometimes i add additional thoughts when i start talking in my tags and am like. #well this adds to the post tbh but i dont feel like moving them into the post itself lol. so do whatev u want #queer #mogai #lgbt+ #probably applies to other stuff too

[drachenedits]

Estinien and the Scions: Krile edition 01 / ??

#estinien wyrmblood #estinien varlineau #estinien #krile #krile baldesion #ffxiv #final fantasy xiv #ff14 #final fantasy 14 #things i need to learn how to do: stop making huge gifsets #but the krile and estinien friendship is very cute to me #when he started off really disliking her #but it's this moment alone to me #when he finally warmed up to her #also how she has to run to keep up with him #i like to believe he's even slowing down his stride to let her catch up #that man's soft gentle smile #such a blessing

[yallalreadyknowitsunderale]

DO YOU [[Remember]] HOW YOU FELT WHEN YOU HEARD THEM [[Scream]] YOUR [[Name?]]

DO YOU [[Remember.]] HOW IT FELT TO WALK ON THAT [[Stage]], TO THE ROARING [[Cries.]] OF THE AUDIENCE

YOU [[Remember..]] THE [[SMOOTH TASTE]] OF THE [[AWARD]] ON YOUR [[Skin]]

YOU [[REMEMBER...]] THE [[Feeling]] THAT [[Tore]] THROUGH YOUR MIND

YOU [[Made It.]] YOU [[Won.]] 

YOU HAD THEM [[Eating]] FROM THE PALM OF YOUR HAND

IT DIDN’T [[Matter.]] THAT YOUR [[Friends.]] STOPPED [[Responding.]] IT DIDN’T [[Matter.]] THAT YOU WERE ALWAYS ON THE [[Receiver.]] NOT EVEN THE [[Clown.]] COULD TOUCH YOU NOW.

YOU HAD A [[Miracle.]] YOU HAD A [[Magic.]] AND YOU THOUGHT YOU REALLY [[Thought....]] WITH A [[Magic.]] LIKE THAT AND WITH A [[Power]] LIKE THIS

There was no way you could lose.

#NO MORE [[MIRACLES]] #NO MORE [[MAGICK]] #WHEN ARE YOU GONNA [[Learn.]] YOU [[Beautiful Sponge]] YOU?? #NO ONE WILL [[Help]] YOU!! #NO ONE WILL [[Care]] !! #YOU ARE ALL #. #.. #... #.... #...... #[[Alone.]] #........ #............ #...................

[pharmacycowboy]

i wanna write a fic sooo bad about an alternate 15.06 where cas isn’t strong enough to defeat the djinn because his grace is slowly deteriorating and so he gets captured and sam and dean don’t hear from him for like. weeks. and dean is of course worried as hell but he’s stubborn so he’s not gonna check in on him but sam tries to go find him behind dean’s back and he discovers that cas is in an unconscious dream state and so sam has to enter cas’ mind to try and snap him out of it like how dean did with charlie a few seasons before and so sam shows up and he finds himself at the lakehouse where jack was born. and there’s cas sitting near the tree line digging with a hand shovel and planting flowers and sam runs up to him and cas is like oh hey sam you’re here early for dinner where is eileen? and then his face falters as he realizes this is the REAL sam. and cas gathers up his gardening stuff in his arms and tells sam that he needs to go and sam is like no. you’re dreaming. this isn’t real. and cas is like yeah. i’m an angel. i know. and i don’t care. just leave. please leave right now. and he’s sort of desperate and nervous about it and sam is like wtf ?? and then they hear dean call from inside the house and cas freezes and then dean walks outside and hugs sam in greeting and then kisses cas on the cheek. and cas can’t even meet sam’s eyes. meanwhile dean drags them both inside the house and jack is sitting at the kitchen table coloring and he calls cas dad. and sam is just standing there in silence the whole time taking this all in. cas leaves the kitchen and goes to the living room and sits down on the couch with his chin resting on his propped up hands. he still can’t look at sam. and sam follows him in and sits next to him and goes... so. this is your happy place. and cas says yes, it is. sam nods silently. it’s nice, sam says. it’s peaceful. and cas says, again, yes. it is. and then there’s a long pause and cas finally, slowly explains the empty deal to sam. this is all i can get, cas says. i know it’s fake. but it’s the best thing i’ve got. dean said i was dead to him. i could probably last decades like this until all my grace runs out, but it would be enough. and sam gets it. he DOES. but he also just looks at cas and says that’s fucking bullshit. you need to come home. we both want you at home. dean hates it when you’re away. and if you died? if you died because you didn’t feel like you had a place at home? he’d blame himself and tear himself apart. he’s doing terribly right now without you. and cas looks so sad. not because he’s about to lose this. it was never about this. he looks sad because he hates hurting the people he loves, and he knows sam is right. and he feels so much shame. so cas and sam manage to break out, and when they’re standing near the car, sam fiddles with the car keys and he looks up at cas and is about to say something when cas interrupts and says, “you can’t tell dean about this.” sam wants to protest but doesn’t. okay, he says. opens the car door, gets in. cas gets in too. he’s weak and there’s blood covering his white dress shirt. they drive back to the bunker. sam doesn’t say anything

#like it would cas' pov #i think his reasoning is like. dean wants nothing to do with him anymore and jack is dead #he isn't a human and the angels dont want him either #he really is all alone in the world #so this happens to him and he KNOWS it's fake and he feels so ashamed of himself #but he also doesn't have anything else going for him #idk.... #i think cas as a character in the early seasons takes and takes and takes #because he feels like since he can he should #he takes whatever he wants #but then he learns shame as the years progress and that behavior stops #but he's still impulsive! he WANTS he DESIRES #and i dont think he would play along with the dream at first because he knows it's wrong #but i think eventually that want would push him over the edge #and since he knows it's not real it isn't TRUE happiness but it's damn close #so he also knows the empty will never come for him like this #anywayyy #spn #m.speaks

[batarangsoundsdumb]

never thought i would say this but the creation of conner kent and boticelli's 'the birth of venus' truly make me wonder about the alienation & loneliness that would come along with being born as a fully realised person.

#you are 16 you are a newborn. you are a body that is somebody else's. you should've learned how to crawl how to walk how to talk #instead you are learning to breathe without a tube down your throat #missing out on the chance to shape and create yourself in childhood #@ conner kent. how are u not more fucked up #im a pretentious nerd. but ive always found venus/aphrodite very lonely? #the myth of the birth of venus just always felt lonely to me. she is alone on that island for who knows who long #a fully formed person all on their own crawling from the sea ready to take her first steps on land #it drives me insane #conner kent #kon el #venus #wha'ever #yes i am pretentious dont @ me #fave

[redrobin-detective]

I keep thinking about Retired Batman Bruce and how it really would round out and complete his arc if DC weren’t a bunch of cowards.

Batman isn’t about punching people. He’s a symbol of grief, of protecting those who need it and bringing justice and control to a city without it. He grieved his parents his whole life and the antidote to grief is time and new love which he found in his adopted family and friends. He saved so many people over his life, people who never would’ve had a chance and while people will always need saving, he helped create something bigger than him so if he were to step back, people would still be saved.

I want Bruce to wake up one day after a long hard night and realize he’s accomplished what he wanted, he will never truly defeat crime in Gotham but he made it into a place where children don’t have to fear losing their parents in an alleyway. Bruce is in his late 40s early 50s, he’s achy and weary but still alive. How much longer can he tempt fate? What if the next battle takes him away from all the things he’d built but never had time to appreciate?

It’s Alfred who would also be the turning point. He’s at least 20 years older than B, the whole family starts to notice that their indominable butler is working slower, pushing himself to keep up the demands of almost singlehandedly keeping the family up and running. Alfred saved B from himself, he wasn’t perfect and made mistakes but loved Bruce and raised a good man. A good enough man to be able to put aside his own ego, his own interests to care for the man who cared for him.

Aging and death is sad but it’s also beautiful in its own way. Children are meant to bury parents, its the natural order. Bruce buried his far, far too soon and missed out on so many milestones such as caring for aging loved ones. And how perfect is that Bruce gets to complete his cycle of grief by taking care of his father in all but name and blood? How soft that both he and Alfred get to finally put a name to the nebulous relationship they’ve always had and let the unhealed wound they’ve let fester closed. 

None of the rogues who tried to take Batman and in the end, that legacy ends when Bruce puts the cape away himself to care for his family. He won’t go out and risk a devastating injury that once more leaves him in need of care from people he’s already relied sometimes too heavily on. He puts that part of him aside to give back to those he’s loved and hurt. Bruce first helps Alfred around the house, learning and soon takes over the duties. It’s a transition, one often fraught but they cherish the time spent together. Bruce still feels angry and antsy and wants to be out there but as time passes, he sees more and more clearly where his responsibilities lie.

It’s having afternoon tea with Alfred, talking of old stories before B needs to go pick Dami up from school. It’s being more actively involved in Gotham’s political and social infrastructure, pouring money and time into interventions to ensure the city has a safety net. It’s gently bandaging his kids up after their patrols, offering the slightly burnt cookies he made while they talk through their latest case. It’s long afternoon naps and traveling without ulterior caped motives and discovering he enjoys knitting and model making.

The world can survive without Batman, Bruce ensured it with all the good he did. And eventually B realizes that he too can survive without Batman. Bruce knows everything there is to know about detection and fighting. But there’s a whole universe of mysteries for him to uncover now and that he can’t wait to explore.

#retired batman #yes Im still on this #honestly it makes me soft #esp B and Alf #batman was born of grief over his parents #and that batman would 'die' not in violence but of his own will #putting down the cape and cowl to ensure another parent does not die alone and in pain #but taken care of in comfort #finally both B and Alfred can have closure for that #Bruce for completing that natural life cycle and learning to grieve like a real person #and Alfred for all his mistakes bc despite everything he raised a good man a good son who loves him enough to stop #Its an adjustment for all: the kids feel lost the world abandoned and B has no idea how to NOT be Batman #but he learns and pretty soon finds he craves the kevlar and the stinging pains less every day #he finds contentment in folding laundry and catching up on his reading and spending non mask time with his kids #god what a way to round out a full extraordinary life #with quietness and filling in all the missed opportunities and losses over the years #now that is something incredible

[depression-stays-but-you-dont]

#depression #art #vent art #digital art #depressive #sad #sadness #alone #lonely #meaning #pain #abstract #digital abstract #digital landscape #quotes #poetry #im not that great at drawing buildings but im trying to learn by starting small #and im drunk so. idk! trying something new with the writing too #artists on tumblr #poem

[jnpie]

ht papyrus would love the grocery store a lot, and i always think about him when i go by myself. imagining him enjoying browsing all the food items. giving his opinion on everything and just never shutting up in general. i just think he’d be a chatterbox and i love it so much. he would either be convincing me to stick to my list or buy something irresponsible. and be offended when i ignore him. too bad i can count on one hand the number of times i’ve been shopping in person by myself in the last 2 years

#and here. i dont even have the option. i dont have the option. #ahhhhhhhhh i have the option but............i have to learn how to take that option............ #i'm so scared of going by myself so i just. havent. #i have to take a cab to get to the big store that has stuff i cant get delivered ;O; #taking a cab is terrifying #i want to learn how but i cant do it alone ;~; i need my husband to come with me and be there to hold my hand while i do the scary thing #and then maybe i can do it on my own..... #he hasn't even had free time to do this with me since september though :O:!!! #makes me miss living in china. makes me miss living back home. i just feel so uncomfortable here but i dont want it to stay that way. #ahhhh you know......i drew this because thinking about it really soothed me.....but you know maybe i...should really ask paprus to take me #can imagining him with me give me courage to do it on my own?? maybe i should try it.... #i almost tried it before but actually it wasnt really an option before school started. the kids would fight and yell while i was gone #but now......maybe i can try that again... #horrortale papyrus

[doodlingstuff]

We all know Andrew is a picky eater, but we never talk about how Aaron must hate canned food

#imagine the trauma of going through withdrawal alone #locked in a bathroom #eating ONLY canned food #now imagine the foxes taking canned food every now and then as snack during their game travels #aaron surely wants to break a window and get away #or do you think that in his attempts at being normal he sucked it up and kept going? #aaron minyard #andrew minyards #twinyards #all for the game #aftg #aftg textpost #aftg headcanon #aftg fandom #aftg hc #aftg trilogy #aftg series #side note: i get violent everytime i see andriel instead of andreil and apparently is a popular hashtag #WHATS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE #LEARN TO SPELL

[captain-flint]

not me thinking about dean in 15x19 arriving to hastings, minnesota to meet up with sam and jack, still wearing the clothes he wore when he lost cas, with the handprint and all, and realizing he drove from lebanon, kansas which is what an 8 hour drive at least, and noticing his eyes were still red and voice hoarse when he got there, which means he probably hadn’t stopped crying since he left the bunker. my man sobbed on that floor and then continued sobbing in the impala for the next 8 hours. not me thinking about him having to pull over several times bc he got so overwhelmed he almost drove into a ditch. not me thinking about him entertaining the idea of it. not me thinking about doing the same rn upon connecting these dots 

#dean winchester #castiel #destiel #supernatural #i didnt notice this before now bc i only watched 15x19 once and forgot it takes place in a whole other state #just the idea of dean going over everything that happened #and re-examining his entire relationship with cas after learning the man was in love with him the whole time #while in the car ALONE #after losing said man for good #there's not a single doubt in my mind that he full on sobbed in the car bc who was there to see but him #the whole world was dead #F U C K #Txt

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

how big is the ball of shed fur emmet combs out? how many lumpy zoruas can it make, is it enough to make a very weird (but cosy) coat?

GSSJHKSJH would you BELIEVE i have actually been thinking about this... like i feel like the drawings dont maybe capture this but in my head lord zoroark is Huge and his mane is Long As Fuck so yeah it's. a Lot of fur. emmet stares at it and contemplates that if it weren't so disgusting and matted with blood and spit, he could totally weave it into a lot of really nice yarn

bc also zorua fur has this interesting quality, being part ghost type, where it's like, semispectral in the right conditions. when you clump it up into tufts, or cut it, it turns into this partially-existent mist. it's also suuuuper soft when it's clean. so probably back before the clans turned on them, lord zoroark's fur was a very common thing to see his warden wearing!

this is all to say

emmet with a zoroark fur scarf to match his new fox family

#submas #pokemon legends arceus #the nemesis answers #the nemesis speaks #nemesis art #anonymous #warden emmet au #train man tag #with normal zoroark included to emphasize that lord zoroark is Big #'how did emmet spin the fur into yarn let alone weave it' have you learned nothing. do not ask questions #emmet is living out my childhood dream of being Accepted into the Evil Monster Family let me live this

[squash1]

gansey’s social anxiety being like don’t bother people by dying omg, so embarrassing !!!

#honestly so true #better to die alone then ruin a party??? is that what we learned #richard campbell gansey iii #trc #ronan lynch #blue sargent #adam parrish #adam and ronan #henry cheng #the raven boys #the raven cycle #the dream thieves #blue lily lily blue #pynch #blusey #gangsey #the gangsey