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A little life update "summer 22 with no solid poo"

for anyone who cares lol

as some of you may have seen from my other social medias and here, my health has gone to pretty downhill and I want to share my story and explain bc idk

And for not to scare anyone, no its im not deadly ill. Im prob gonna be just fine.

gross warning i talk about poop

So umm this all started at the end of may- start of june when i started having diarreah. no biggie, i get anxiety diarreah like once a week so i didnt think much of it at the time. Only took me like few more weeks for straight diarreah to realize that something may be wrong lol. So i joked about it and let it be. I call this summer "Summer 22 with no solid poo" and wanted to wait till august to go to doctor. Then i got covid. So i had to wait that out before going to the hospital.

And finally the day I got to go to the doctor and everything was fine, i was supposed to get blood work tested and maybe poop in a container and the doctor thought that it might be celiac-disease bc that runs in my family. But i got fever straight as i got home. I didn't feel so good. The fever continued for a couple of days and then we decided its time to go to ER.

We went there, got bloodwork done etc. Waited there like 6 hours and finallly at 9pm the doctor had time to see me and turns out my inflammatory values were super high and that theyd like me to stay at the hospital for a while. So i stayed at the hospital for 7 days.

In those 7 days they took so much bloodwork from me it was insane! (and fun fact, turns out my veins are shit and no one can find a good spot to draw blood or put an IV tube in). For a couple of days, no answers. They had no idea whats wrong with me. My fever rise and they gave me antibiotics and other meds. Went to the ultrasound and nothing. And then, they had to give me a observation aka "put a little camera up my ass".

But bc i live in a small city theres like one doctor who does that and his schedule was full. So I had long long days waiting for my appointment. And they got me on friday.

But before we get to the camera up my ass part. Hell was loose. They had to "clean" my bowels. And they told me, and I QOUTE "It's either 1: drink two cups of this cocktail that tastes like orange juice or 2: drink 3 litres of water". Obv i took the orange juice! It cant be that bad! WRONG! JESUS CHRIST I WAS WRONG.

As soon as i drank the bad tasting orange drink, i felt like throwing up. Then the pain came. Oh god the pain. It was like level 10 menstrual cramp kind of pain. I was literally crying and screaming bc it hurt so bad. Only thing that helped at the moment was to stay still but i couldnt do that bc i had to shit out the cocktail like every 5 minutes. Many times i thought to just shit my pants on the bed and not let that be my problem. I was in so much pain I was in panic mode. And the worst thing was, no one warned me. They didn't even mention that it might hurt with some people. I don't remember all bc panic lol but i remember this one bitch ass nurse going "Duh its gonna hurt it has big chemicals in it! Even gas can hurt inside bowels". I would have punched her if I wasnt shitting at the time. Then the nurses took their sweet time to get me painkillers and nausea meds. But I couldnt take those bc i felt like throwing up. And then I remember a doctor came. He was nice and explained to me that it hurts bc the orange juice made my bowels like spasm to clean it. I was like "lol thanks for warning me beforehand". Some time goes, they give me that yummy tranquilizer trough IV and I'm high asf. It still hurt but atleast i was high. Then came the cup number 2! I tried to drink it, immeadetly i threw it up like no way that stayed down. And again, panic bc idk what happens next. Do i need to do this all again? Is my bowel clean? Am i gonna be okay? And then i passed out and slept trough the night.

And at this point, on a serious point. WHY THE FUCK IS TELLING PATIENCE THAT THIS THING X IS GONNA HURT SO FUCKING TABOO??? Like i get it, you dont want to scare people but a little heads up would be better than nothing! I just wish someone had told me.

Okay, morning comes, its friday, camera about to go up my ass. they give me nice tranquilizer again, YUMMY. Im high again. they roll me to the operation room, and the nice nurses and a doctor explains whats gonna happen. ( I knew this was gonna hurt beforehand bc they gave me the tranquilizer and figures). At this point they tell me that going up my ass is the hardest part and hurts but after that its easier. Im like okay i can do this, im high and im a big boy! So there i was, laying on my side, doctor rips hole in my underwear to put the camera up my ass. And there it goes, felt weird. Then this stinging pain comes and i curse. Nice nurse lady notices and presses against my tummy and the pain gets easier. They tell me to take a deep breath everytime the pain eases. I do. I'm breathing so good baby you wouldnt believe ( still fucking high). And that thing happens over and over again for like, maybe 3-4 minutes but felt much longer. Sometimes the pain was larger but the nice nurse always pressed my tummy and i, kind of, farted the pain out? It's weird but you get it. Then i hear the words of heaven "We are there"! THE WORST IS BEHIND. I'm happy! I turn around, look at the screen where i can somehow see ( didnt have my glasses) the inside of my bowel part. And i said "ew" and turned my head back. I dont wanna see that. it was pink. Then the doctor spoke something doctorly that i didnt understand. They spend a minute inside my ass doing... doctor stuff and then they took the camera out. It didnt hurt just felt weird, like taking a weirdly shaped long shit. And then they were like "lol we done! We gonna take these samples to the lab asap!" And I was like "you took samples?". THEY TOOK PIECES OF THE INSIDE OF MY ASS WTF.

okay its done, im still high and after couple of hours, they let me go home. I'm happy. I'm feeling good. Life was good. Untill the next morning.

I felt bad again, I threw up at night and I had a mild fever. We call the ER to ask what we do. They tell me that i havent drank enough liquids. So for the next two days I drank so much water you wont believe but i still felt bad and had a fever. So off to ER again!

We went there, they were like lol again bloodwork. At this point im sure i have no blood left. Then we waited and waited and they take some more blood and wait again. Results come back. My inflammatory values were high again. They again want me to stay at the hospital overnight. Hospital booked full. I wait. And finally its time. They take me to a 2 person room, as a 3rd guy. Like it was so cramped and I didnt even have the emergency button. Everything is overwhelming. It smelled like shit. I cried. it was a horrible experience and i can go all night about how shit it was but ill skip it at this point.

So i spend like two nights at the hospital, and they finally have the results in about the pieces of my ass they took. they dont know what it is. THEY HAVE NO CLUE. But atleast they got me meds that work and i dont have a fever anymore. But its like 5 different meds. They make me nauseous and tired. So its not going that well now but atleast im in a good shape to be at home rn.

Im still waiting for more results and follow-up things at the hospital. I'll update as I get to those. Thanks for reading, feel free to ask any questions and stay healthy lmao.

#so yeah its been like 3 months and i forgot what it feels like to have poop thats not liquid #legomirage rant

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I just had to act this scene from the comic it’s hilarious

#apex legends #apex legends octane #apex legends comic #legomirage

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coming soon

#apex legends #apex legends zombie time #legomirage #legomirage art #its a comic #im excited im shaking #wow #this is a lot of anxiety

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Lego Mirages 2020 picks

2020 has come to an end so I’d like to tell you all my fav apex/apex related tumblr blogs by categories! 

Art

@virtualcookieart @pencil-prince @pannuart @tenkain

All VERY talented artists!! I’ve been enjoying their work all year!! Make sure to check out their content!!

Writing

@ohthatsviolet @seerofmike @kittymsmithwritesstuff  @rashavince

These all writers did amaizing writing this year! Got me into reading! Go check out their content!

Streamers

@mozambique-and-a-dream @smeachthepeach @biffikatti

Really love watching them play when I have time!! Go check out their contetn!!!

Memes and other

@apexlegendsthings @soulheartthewolf @cursed-apexlegends @unpopularofthekingscanyon 

I LOVE their content, always makes me happy! Always makes me smile. What else can I say? GO CHECK OUT THEIR BLOGS!!!

And now I’d like to thank all of you! Apex Tumblr wouldn’t be what it is without you. It’s been hell of a year, we shared jokes together, enjoyed content together and found new friends!!! And I’m happy to be here and share this with you all! I’m excited for the 2021 and I want to get to know more of you all! I LOVE YOU ALL <3 

Stay Legendary!

#apex legends #apex legends 2020 #apex legends picks #Legomirage

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Hi everyone!

This is post about what’s going on in my life, why I haven’t been active and other stuff that’s coming!

I’ll be talking about mental health and depression so this is your trigger warning!

and no I’m not leaving this community so don’t worry :)

Well some of you know that for the last 5 month I’ve been in a open psych ward. And for those who are worried, I was there at my own will and no, I didn’t attempt. 

I’ve been struggleing with mental health for basically my whole life and I’ve been seeking help for years now. But at last now it seems that I’m getting the help I need. The time in ward went great and I even made some awesome friends while in there! The nurses were great and nice and I have many great memories from there so I was pretty sad to leave. But for the first time in forever (Frozen preference) I feel like things are going to be all right.

I’m probably getting my very own apartment soon and I’m excited and scared! I’ve never lived by myself but I have support people with me and they help me with daily things so I know I’ll be alright! 

Also I’ve been wanting to stream for ages! So when I finally get my apartment and better internet I’ll probably start doing that! So if you’d be interested seeing me stream and support me, stay tuned!!

With all these going on idk if I’ll be as active that I’ve been last year but after things are sorted out I’m sure I’ll be making my usual content!

And if you have any questions my asks are open and I’ll gladly answer your questions!

And I know many of you also struggle with mental health and I want to say that, things will get better. There is always help available and there is always people that care about you!

Everyday is a new victory! Fight strong felagi fighter!

here are numbers for International suicide hotlines

And now I’m wishing you all happy holidays and new years! I love you all and thank you all for your support! This year has been amaizing and full of new things! I’m ready for 2021 and what it will bring for us all! Thank you <3

#apex legends #mental health #Legomirage

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new video up

this stupid drinking challenge or whatever

https://youtu.be/T1l_o3Fu3TI

#apex legends #legomirage

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why he looking so scared

#apex legends #legomirage

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here a lil mirage in a outfit i thought would look cool uwu

#apex legends #apex legends fanart #apex legends art #legomirage art #mirage apex legends

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check out Seer

#apex legends #apex legends season 10 #apex legends obi #apex legends seer #legomirage art

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#apex legends #apex legends fan art #legomirage art #apex legends mirage

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ayy fuse

#apex legends #apex legends pride #apex legends fuse #legomirage art #¨

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Here octane I made in class

#apex legends #apex legends octane #apex legends art #legomirage art #art

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okay so I have been having this idea of this art piece a while now but inspired by @virtualcookieart saying Seer should be in a dress I made this!

this is one of my first times using blending shading that i have been avoiding for so long but since I started art school I wanted to challenge myself and better my art ^^ anyway all feedback is welcome again!

#apex legends #apex legends seer #apex legends fanart #apex legends art #legomirage art #seer apex legends

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Here’s quick Loba in a dress (I can’t draw the tattoo) I made while class was going on

#apex legends #legomirage art #fan art #apex legends art #apex legends fan art #apex legends loba

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Wattson

#apex legends #apex legends art #legomirage art #apex legends fanart #apex legends wattson

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so i tried the apex legends from memory

template by @hazardlevei

BANGALORE HERE LOOKING LIKE STEVE FROM MINECRAFT

WHY GIBRALTAR LOOKS LIKE A FUCKING TROLLFACE ;-; ASHGJDASJHDG

octnae is now a raccoon

#apex legends #apex legends art #legomirage art #can you call this art