#lesbians with ink

[raspberryrot]

diesel dyke i doodled to cheer myself up

#i wanna ride her. motorcycle #my art #sketchbook #ink drawing #traditional art #lesbian artist #queer artist #art #diesel dyke

[inkskinned]

yesterday while feverish i wrote about how boats can moor next to each other like pigeons, cooing with the gentle rap of water against their hull. you once said that that the way i see things - birds in the water, feathers in marina paint - was "childish and naive." you said i'd been misdiagnosed - "it can't all be adhd. you might be just kind of stupid and lazy."

i still do certain things like how you taught me - turn the pillow case inside out before putting it on. drive defensively. hate myself entirely.

the prompt for this poem is "mahler's fifth." i wish it wasn't, but mahler's fifth was our song. it ended up in my book. every person that knows your name has promised me they'll give you one swift rabbit punch, right to the face. dean read the book and showed up on my front porch, drenched in sweat from running the 8 miles at 4 in the morning. he was shaking. pacifist and gentle - he works with children - i'd never seen him furious. a punch isn't going to do it, he said, and then said i'm sorry. i had to come to see if you were okay.

mahler's fifth was mine first, like my girlhood. i like the way each movement piles onto the next movement, each instrument bleeding into the next. i like the horn version the best. before i met you, i danced to it on grass still-wet from sprinklers.

later you would tell me that the way you heard it was somehow better. you understood something in it that i couldn't quite wrap my fingers into. once, on our anniversary, you asked the classical music radio station to play it for us. we missed hearing it because we were fighting. one of the things people get wrong about abuse is that sometimes victims are, like, brutally aware of the stupidity of our situation. what do you mean that you thought i wasn't good enough for you? you? you're just... nothing.

sometimes people can pull the poetry out of your life. i watched my words become clothesline, and then thin out into kite twine. i watched you chew through every good syllable of me. so many good songs and places and moments were ruined. i am glad you didn't like most of my music - less to tie back to you.

but still mahler's fifth. the music swells, and i am 21 and throwing up in a bathroom on my birthday. a woman i will later refer to as lesbian jesus runs a cool hand down my back, her perfect pantsuit starch-pressed. she told me to leave you. she said - and this is true, and not an invention of rhyme or fantasy - i'm you from the future.

i am 22, and i got home from an award ceremony, and i remember you telling me - you act so proud of yourself when you're actually so fucking embarrassing. i took you to disney world. you took my virginity. i gave up visiting spain for a week with my family - i instead choose you, to spend the time just-cuddling. you called it "our fuck week." the music swells. it probably should have been a red flag that for about 3 years - i just gave up on crying. my grandfather died and you said nothing. my uncle died and you ghosted me for 3 weeks. you said i need to protect myself from your ongoing tragedy.

every so often i come back to the memory of one of our last afternoons in person. i had just told you that i wasn't going to law school, despite the free ride - i was going to join a creative writing program. master's in fine arts. i was going to finally do it - i was going to follow my dreams. this blog was already internet-famous. however reluctantly, i would occasionally refer to myself as a poet. i got into umass amherst's writing program for fiction authors. it is one of the the top 5 programs in the country.

wait are you seriously considering actually attending that? dumbfounded, you turned completely towards me in your seat. for the 3rd time in our relationship, you almost crashed the car. you actually want to be a writer?

the first time i went viral, it was for a poem i wrote about you:

he wants to say i love you but keeps it to goodnight because love will take some falling and she's afraid of heights.

every time i see that, i want to throw up. you weren't in love with me, you were in love with the control you had over me. a little truth though: i am afraid of heights. you caught a rabbitgirl and skinned her alive.

mahler's fifth still makes me sick.

give me that back. give me back music. give me back everything i had before you. give me back fearlessness. give me back bravery. give me back a scarless body.

give me back what you took from me.

#nosebleed club #sorry stephen not ur fault #just like. thinking #writeblr #spilled ink #warm up #every time nat is like - oh let me get that for u #im like .... this is a trick right like ur gonna be mean now bc u did something nice rn #so obviously if ur being nice now either u did something mean and im about to learn about it #or you're going to BE mean #or ur gonna hold this over my head forever and i'll never get a nice thing ever again? #and every time nat is like .... babe i just actually like u #lesbian jesus story is 100% real btw. she also told me not to be an event planner #literally changed the shape of my life

[tenderanarchist]

Was feeling my fit today

#my portfolio #my art #queer art #trans #pen and ink drawing #queer artist #self portrait #they/them #butch #dyke #lesbiansafe #butch dyke #butch lesbian #punk #pen and ink #pen drawing #sketchbook #spring 2023 #eliot goes to art school

[drawsoneverything]

Sunday morning

#butch #butch4butch #queer #gay #lesbian #early morning #art #illustration #my art #b&w #black and white #ink

[whim-prone-pirate]

hey guys what do you do when you dream about a girl who doesn't exist. you meet her, she lives in your building, you and your other friend start to get to know her. your friend is kind of a dick, but that's just how he is. as you get closer with this girl, you start to convince yourself that you like her—you don't. you think she's gorgeous and you think you're supposed to fall in love with her, but you haven't. and in your efforts to love her, you do something that hurts her, your friend egging you on, trying to get you to go further, double down, and the girl pulls away from you. she doesn't look at you like she used to. she won't stand close to you and her new boundaries are clear—she needs you to keep your distance and you're not going to be able to fix this completely, not ever. and you understand that, and you're a kind person, so you are as respectful towards her as you know how. again, your friend is a dick about the whole thing, which doesn't make you feel better at all. maybe you shouldn't feel better. because you started it. you told yourself you were going to love her and you didn't and you did it wrong. and now that you've fucked it up for good, you feel yourself starting to look at her differently than you did before, just like she's doing now. but you're looking at her with shyness and gentleness and from six feet away, shrinking into yourself with a tiny glint of light in your eyes, while she stands stoic and tall, her eyebrows tensed and her mouth flat as you fumble your way through an attempt at aftermath-themed small talk, her responses short and clipped and knowing. she knows what's happened to you. she knows why you're looking at her like that. and she knows that you know that you lost your chance and you're not getting the same chance back and definitely not in the same way. and when she asks you for a small favor or wishes you well, you skip away, your voice soft and light and far too gentle, so fucking gentle, and you know that she hates you a little bit. and you know that now, only after, you love her a little bit. and then you wake up. what do you do then?

#dreams #writeblr #spilled ink #spilled words #spilled thoughts #spilled dreams #my writing #technically #feels a little too artful to be a textpost #based on real events #!!!! #awesome sauce #i want her back #she was brunette and she wore round framed glasses #her favorite coat was grey #lesbian #lesbianism #sapphic

[litta-jpg]

best friends! with no subtext whatsoever

based on the sillies! the tinies!!!

#save me wet blotting ink brush in csp save me #cissiecassie #cassie sandsmark #cissie king jones #wonder girl #arrowette #young justice #young justice 1998 #yj98 #lesbian #dc #comics

[zuccnini]

Gengar and Clefable's Moonlight Dance.

#Pokemon #Fanart #Gengar #clefable #ghost pokemon #fairy pokemon #art #painting #Illustration #flowers #traditional art #watercolor #ink #artists on tumblr #my art #lets go lesbians

[thereifling]

Hazbin Hotel human au

#vox hating having feelings for Alastor is so funny to me #Alastor being an aro/ace icon and being clueless to Vox #nifty being a scary house maid #charlie and vaggie #charlie x vaggie #lesbian couples #aromantic #asexual #nifty hazbin hotel #hazbin nifty #alastor #alastor hazbin hotel #alastor hazbin art #hazbin hotel #Hazbin hotel au #human Hazbin hotel #art #digital art #digital drawing #digital #inking #digital painting #fanart #procreate #artist #vox hazbin hotel

[dontforgetaboutgeorgie]

a small excerpt from my most recent love story. a tender take on butch4femme love

#butch4femme #lesbian #dyke #butch #femme #mine #spilled ink #spilled words #sapphic #dyke poetry #butch writer #love #for my star #I know that its “to be carved from” dont come for me #its like this on purpose #also istg if the straights make this about themselves

[taffywabbit]

local silly girl tries to learn something new, dozens injured

(this caption could refer to Claire or myself and it would still generally apply)

#SLARPG #super lesbian animal rpg #claire higsby #fun fact: this is the first traditional piece I've inked in at least 3 years #(it is also the one i was working on at that wedding i mentioned) #it's been fun to shake the rust off and push myself to work traditionally here and there when i have some time to kill #anyways i wanna colour this traditionally too but I'm posting this now in case i lose motivation or mess something up #furry art #witch #taffy art

[iceghosto]

I drew this to fix my stink brain today haha.

It’s from a new Shonen Jump series Girl Meets Rock. I doubt it’s intentional but my god did they write the MC as huge mess of a lesbian haha

#my art #ink #fanart #lesbians #silly

[wayslidecool]

#splatoon #splatbands #yoko and the gold bazookas #ink theory #sorry i had to. shoutout to lesbians

[inkskinned]

you have to be sexy but you have to be sexy in a way that's kind of bloody. you learn this early because you are wearing a ruffled skirt and the snow around your ankles kicks little sand particles against your calves. baby's first catcall. welcome to sexiness! welcome to the eyesore of your own body!

you have to be sexy like high heels. like sculpted eyebrows. like lean stomach and highly treated hair. you have to be sexy like youth is sexy, which means you have to be sexy like boxtox and plastic. a 30 year old can be sexy but she's not going to be bloody, and they like the bloodiness of it. a 30 year old is sexy when she is a whiskey glass and a wooden desk.

but you need to be sexy like an open mouth. you need to be sexy like a bitten apple. like plucked skin and white-knuckling the waxing kit.

so sex is a performance, not an enjoyment. for a while, you just assumed everyone else was also in on the joke - nobody actually likes sex that much, right? like, some men probably do, but why would you? it is like a gender - your gender is sexy. your gender is the performance of sex. you are thigh highs and garter belts. which, to be fair, do make you feel sexy.

part of what does make sex good is that you can tell that other people want you, which means the performance of sexiness is both bloody and wanted, which is good, which means you are winning at having a body. being wanted is the prize. being wanted is the thing you are searching for, not hope. you think you are looking for a soft grave in easy loam, but that is bloody but not sexy. to be sexy you must be bloody like a red open sign. bloody like a handprint. this will make you wanted.

any wanted or unwanted body is subject to supply and demand, which is to say that the more demand, the better you are valued. you must be highly demanded to be valued. this is stated in matter-of-fact by some men. sometimes it is a priest that says it, and sometimes it is a podcaster, and sometimes it is the 45th president of the united states of america.

(if you do not have any experience with being told your value, i want you to grab the nearest bird to you and i want you to crush it into a thin paste in your hand. spit into the center, and then hold your fingers closed tight around it for days and days, long after the rot has set in. feel bones itch inside of your fist. this is only a fraction of what it actually feels like, but it will suffice for a moment.)

good sex feels like you have earned their desperation. you have earned your own value. for a while you operated under the understanding that everyone knew about the power structure, even him. that their desire to take you - the violence of it - means that you must desire to be caught. little prince, guardian fox - you would rather have cut your own arm off. you liked the secret, cunning little voice you keep tucked into a box. you think you are fucking me. i am not even here right now. you are fucking what i conned you into perceiving. this is a painting, not a person. dominion over the body before all things.

so you bend your body like a wheat shaft and learn the steps so perfectly that it almost seems graceful. (if you do not have experience faking your own connection to your body and sexuality, cut each of your articles of clothing just a little bit incorrectly. pour fishbones into each of your meals. this way, you will experience the average noon on a tuesday.)

you have to be sexy like light spilled over a desk, but not desperate. not a noose. you can't be sexy like an electric guitar, you are the acoustic. you have to be on top of the bull but you can't have control over the animal.

okay, okay. the little rabbit of your heart went to sleep so long ago that winter has ravaged your concept of the human soul. there's something very-bad inside you, something that has taken over, a little fetid and rabid animal, angry and hurting and willing to bite first.

oh but even that's a pain that's sexy. open your mouth. be careful not to let the canines show.

#spilled ink #writeblr #warm up #the reason i tag warm up on so much is bc often i write them between me doing other things so im mostly telling myself to come back and edi #bc i rarely have time to check for typos lol #this is partially about compulsory heterosexuality btw #and why it took me so long to realize im a lesbian #i just assumed sex wasn't really supposed to be that good #been reading feminist lit and u can always tell

[weaponizedtit]

I’m attracted to safety. Coming home to the most beautiful person you've ever seen and you know however bad everything outside maybe, your person will be there to support you, no matter what. You know your feelings are safe as you lay your head on her lap. She listens to your vents and your sighs, all the while holding you gently in her soft, warm arms, stroking your hair. And you get to protect her just the same. There is no judgement, there is no danger, there is only love. Safety. That’s all I want. The romance of safety in my lover's arms.

#wlw yearning #wlw love #lesbian poetry #sapphic yearning #navindaki #lesbian yearning #romantic academia #spilled ink #literature #prose poetry #poetic prose

[sapphic-sensuality-returns]

#beautiful women #lesbian #sapphic #wlw #inked beauty

[arabic7up]

#hot as hell #so hot 🔥🔥🔥 #thicc girls #thick babe #thickwomen #ass ms sethi #thicc af #thicc babe #thicc white women #thick vibes only #fit girls #inked girls #girls dance #saudi girls dance #tumblr girls #curvy girls #women #hot as fuck #dm me for my content #arabian #art #arabic #رقص شرقي #beauttiful girls #girls with tattoos #this is what makes us girls #boys #fashion #cute #lesbian