#let me heal the wounds

[raepliica]

protecting each other

#trigun #cw blood #nicholas d. wolfwood #vash the stampede #vashwood #my art #hurt/comfort #i needed to draw them covered in blood #nothing more romantic than going ape shit when your buddy is injured<3 #and then lovingly tending to his wounds and staying by his side to comfort him<3<3 #they both would blame themselves sm for letting the other be wounded #ww wouldnt try to argue with vash that its no use for him to feel guilty and would just be there until his mood is better #while vash would try to understate his pain to try and reassure ww but he would totally see through his bs #THEY NEED TO COMMUNICATE PROPERLY IT MAKES ME GO CRAZY #vashwood nose nuzzle heals my soul #raepliica_art

[mayasaura]

There's something really hauntingly familiar about the way Gideon phrases it, when she's describing the torn-open vulnerable feeling of having opened up to Palamedes and been forced to confront the fucked up rotting parts of herself. Something. Hm.

Hey, Kiriona, honey? Do you wanna like.... talk about the chest hole thing? Maybe in connection to how escaping from the Ninth didn't change as much as you thought it would? No? Maybe a little?

#making me a little insane that the first person to pull her shirt open and take a good long look at the wound on-page was..... Palamedes #almost enough to make me wonder if the wound is still open because Kiriona can't LET it heal #she needs that hole that musty fucked up dead interior to show everyone exactly what she is #and she hates it she hates being so exposed she hates that people can SEE but #now people have to see #but you know #still mostly only if she shows them #the locked tomb #gideon nav #kiriona gaia #ntn spoilers

[rozugold]

In regards to your tommy getting possessed comic, what happens to the eyes on his arms if he manages to break free? The way they came in makes it look like they’re not going anywhere any time soon? Can tommy use them like in the arm eyes au? Maybe dream could still see out of them, even if he’s lost his control over tommy?

I think once they got rid of Dream the eyes went with him, though they didn’t go without leaving some damage

#dream smp #dream smp fanart #villaininnit au #c!tommy #rozu asks #notaceofstars #rozoodles #it’s important to me that dream gets eradicated in every au 😌 #Wilbur doesn’t let him look at the wounds until after they healed a bit more sjdhdj #he had to see them first hand so it left him really freaked out #I imagine that Tommy lost a lot of strength in his arms after that #YEA I’m putting a lot of thought into a one off page of drawings! what of it?? #distorted illusions

[greetings-humans]

rereading one of my fav mid-length codywan fics and skdjfskdfjsal;dfks my children my babies i love them they deserve the absolute best and if anyone ever tries to fuck over their happy ending i will throw hands and im a black belt so fuck you

#tbh im not really a violent person tho so I'm more likely to talk you to submission but a n y w a y s #also the fic is called “Love heals all wounds (so they say)” by K_R_Closson on ao3 #codywan #codywan recs #commander cody #obi wan kenobi #sw tcw #obi wan kenobi fic recs #fic recs #also yes ys canon fucked them over I'm aware BUT BOLD OF YOU TO ASSUME I WOULDN'T THROW HANDS WITH GEORGE LUCAS OVER THEM #also let me live in my delusion they both survived and retired to fucking Kashyyyk or sth idk #obi trained luke via jedi face time / astral projection and the power he unlocked via darth vader duel was teleportation <3 #deelay words

[yeahbumbleby]

nothing broke me more in yesterday's episode than realizing that the only reason why ruby doesn't describe weiss to little when looking for blake and yang simply is because she thinks weiss made it to vacuo. girlie already racking up seven different kinds of breakdowns and she doesn't even know her best friend's presence on the island is going to introduce a brand new one... please pray for ruby rose because she's about to eat dust this volume

#rwby v9 spoilers #v8 was truly all kinds of good but one of the best because it gave me v8c13/14 #which are simply masterpieces. like... yang sacrificing herself to save ruby and leading to her falling off the platform #IN FRONT OF BLAKE #who just got yang back #so obviously blake does the only thing she thinks of. and launches gambol shroud and MISSES #and then her next step is to try and follow yang because she PROMISED she wasn't leaving her again. and weiss holds her back #and she won't let her go over the edge #then they're back to fighting and blake tries to save ruby. and fails. and they're both falling #and weiss.... WEISS HAS TO WITNESS IT ALL #her friends her FAMILY seemingly fell to their deaths and there was nothing she could do #but it doesn't stop there. because then penny gets mortally wounded and jaune has to mercy kill her #and weiss sees it happening again. she lost so many people #AND ALL OF THIS HAPPENED IN A TWO EPISODE SPAN #AND NOW THEY GOTTA DEAL WITH THE AFTERMATH WHILE IN AN UNKNOWN REALM #AND MOST LIKELY WITHOUT THEIR AURAS #oh team rwby.... what emotional horrors are you going to face next. where is the line going to be drawn #when ruby finally can't take it anymore and snaps and lashes out and they all get a peek at the teenager ruby shouldve been #because she's finally the same age as them when it all started. they didn't get to be teens either #but on god they gotta make sure ruby gets to heal as well #im gonna fucking SCREAM #bumbleby #rwby

[therianimal]

I have always said on this blog that I'm animal AND human. I've openly claimed since my very first posts that human is one of my species identities, in a way. It's still professed in my About Me. But over the past year I've felt more and more alienated from humanity, and I'm not sure whether it's true anymore.

If I'd had to guess a few years ago, I would have thought that if I ever lost connection with humanity it would be because of my otherkinity. Because I felt more attached to being otherkind than being human. But it hasn't really been that at all. It's been my asexuality, my autism, my psychosis, my neurodivergence in general.

It's so hard to feel human when I look at the vast majority of humans and see something completely different than what I am. When I "don't get" things that are supposed to "make us human", like sexual attraction or the elaborate dance of social interaction. Of course logically I know that I'm not the only ace or neurodivergent person out there, that we're more common than most people realize, but--

I still see humans and don't see a reflection of myself. I don't understand them. They don't understand me. As an autistic person, that feeling of being an alien among humans, a different species, an ugly duckling/swan among ducks - it's so profound. It's so alienating.

And as a disabled person it's easy to see how little human society WANTS me. Wants me to exist, accommodates my participation in it. I am isolated not by choice but by my own nature and the nature of the society I live in. I feel such a fondness for humans; I really love them. I'm not misanthropic in the way you'd expect. But I also feel so utterly exiled from them.

In the end, it feels like I'm choosing between being a human that's broken, that's contructed wrong, or being something that's not human at all. Maybe the latter is marginally more comforting. But it feels less to me like proudly reclaiming nonhumanity and more like grasping at the few pathetic scraps I can reach as a person who's been shut out. It hurts.

It feels like this world wrenches humanity from me and I'm too exhausted to keep holding on. It would be such a relief to finally let go, but also something so painful to mourn. Giving up on the idea of ever truly being a member of a group; accepting that there are so few people like me that I'll never completely fit into the human world. I love animals, I love monsters, I love the strange, the queer, the grotesque, the insane, the deviant, the bizarre, the fundamentally unhuman.

But I wish it was possible to have both.

#blue speaks #really cracking my chest open and letting something out #this has been paining me for a long time #a wound that never quite heals or closes #ill think ill tag this- #voidpunk #-even though im not sure whether I claim that yet or not #this is vulnerable but im refusing to let myself second guess or regret this post #i need to get it out of me

[theragamuffininitiative]

I watched the doctor donna specials and I have emotions. Also I kinda love fifteen. Also none of those plots made sense but they were still good lol.

I just love the Doctor and his bestie Donna so so much. 😭 she got a happy ending after all 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 and so did he alkdlrfkleldd 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 ok I'm normal I'm fine.

#ragamusings #the doctor donna #doctor who #tenth doctor #fourteenth doctor #donna noble #also how many times was the doctor mortally wounded/dying while wearing that face #bc i feel like it's an alarming number of times #partially bc of his whole crisis about not changing lol but still #anyways if you're david tenant why would you want to change fr #THE HUG FIFTEEN GAVE HIM #like kinda weird to be hugged by yourself but also like fifteen is not himself really? #the bi-regeneration thing is hurting my brain #but it's like the doctor knew he couldn't keep going with all that history and pain holding onto him #so he shed that part of himself in the kindest way to let fourteen heal slowly #albeit while fifteen got the fast track on therapy bc of it lol #don't even look at me about donna i love her so much #i'm so glad she is back to being whole both with her memories and with who she made herself to be since #and now she's made a home for herself and her bestie #also mel???! mel coming back what joy mad auntie mel #and wilf 😭😭😭😭😭😭 my beloved #ok normal normal i'm normal #i was so mad when nph showed up though lol why

[capricioussun]

Question for void! What is your favourite outfit??

*He sounds nostalgic. The gift must have been from someone important to him.

#this is kinda ooc bc he wouldn’t really answer a question w/ smth this personal right out the gate BUT #I saw this in a vision and it made me emotional so I really wanted to do it anyways <3 #the friends shown are a dreemurr family from an au where monsters were never trapped underground and the monarchy was dissolved over time #they live on a big peaceful farm. Void crash landed in their au once and they helped him heal enough he could travel again. they told him #to come back and visit sometime and he convinced himself it was to repay their kindness w/ some sort of gift but he wound up visiting #multiple times after that. he sort of kind of has a rule against Just Because visiting AUs but it should be no surprise he winds up making #exceptions often lol #this sweater in particular meant a lot to him because chara and Asriel were so excited to give it to him bc Toriel let them help make it #anyway- #💕💜✨🌻 #alpacacare #tyyy for the ask ❕❕❕💚 #vf void #capricious skeletons #vesselfell #vesselfell papyrus #snow and hail

[caracarnn]

SO NYNAEVE WAS MORE ANGRY AND ABLE TO CHANNEL BECAUSE LIANDRIN SHIT TALKED LAN THAN SHE WAS ANGRY AND ABLE TO CHANNEL SEEING RAND WOUNDED ok sure wot show writers. SURE go ahead and tell me that. ok. AND Rand al'Thor doesn't get crap again but getting shielded and 2.5 second scenes where he needs to be protected by Egwene. BUT SURE THANKS GUISE.

#W T F #wot spoilers #wot s2 spoilers #WHY CANT NYNAEVE HEAL? #she just sat around looking afraid the whole finale besides one part with the sul'dam which IN TURN became unnecessary #since egwene didn't even need that #elayne is healing? WH AT what i'm confused #I'M SO LOST #let NYNAEVE HEAL FOR ONCE #if nynaeve saw Rand wounded laying there and it was a wound she could heal #I'M SURE THAT SHE WOULD BE ABLE TO CHANNEL #ESP WITH ALL THAT CHAOS AND USELESS DEATH HAPPENING but whatevers #number 398752839578525 that shows that this show cares noting for Rand or the point of the Dragon but ok #let me vent #not even sorry bye #all I will say about this BYE #.ooc #not to mention breaking canon with the dual sul'dam #wtf #so all other damane are useless and weak #and only egwene managed it

[navree]

Let's be honest, and I say this with full offense, Lucerys Velaryon is the Archduke Franz Ferdinand of the Dance of the Dragons. He is meant to be a sacrificial lamb to kick off the entire war proper. If we had gotten a full season of development with him like we did with the younger cast in Game of Thrones, I guarantee more people would've felt something. The only reason I personally feel bad is from a baseline level of empathy, because he was a child who was placed in an unwinnable situation due to his mom being completely irresponsible with him and his brothers.

However…

The comparison between Lucerys and Aemond is no contest. Love him or hate him, Aemond has an actual personality and goals when we first meet him. There's enough dimension in Aemond as a child to showcase the potential for sympathy between him and Jace at the funeral, a scene they didn't need to put in, but they did, which emphasizes his own innocence. Even before he breaks bad fully in S1E10, he's still far more compelling to watch due to the number of scenes allocated to him and his dynamic with other people.

This is where you and I are going to disagree just a bit, because Lucerys does do something in S1E07 and S1E08. He gouges out the eye of a family member and petulantly whines that he “didn’t do anything!” when confronted with the possibility of getting in trouble for it, then years later has the nerve and complete lack of sense to giggle at the person he permanently maimed only hours after his legitimacy was publicly called into question (again) and resulted in a murder. The narrative (perhaps unintentionally) glosses over these moments in favor of portraying him as good, whereas if you read between the lines, you can see that as being an oversimplification. The problem is that because S1 was truncated, secondary characters like Lucerys don’t receive screentime dedicated to portraying anything other than a single personality trait. Unfortunately, because of his role in the text and the way it was adapted for television, there was never a chance that Lucerys would be interesting.

I don't even have anything to add, this is just objectively correct.

#personal #answered #anonymous #and yeah lucerys refusing to take any responsibility or even show a hint of remorse for what he did is so galling to me #i could never care about him after that #like first of all you were in the wrong in the fight period #aemond did nothing wrong he claimed a free dragon who let him bond with her #i get why rhaena and baela were acting irrationally upset their mother died and they're young #grief makes you act weird #jace and luke had absolutely no reason to act the way they did #like it's not your fight and also again aemond literally did nothing wrong #but because he made a nasty comment after already being yelled at for doing nothing wrong y'all decide to gang up on him #with your cousins #and then this little idiot decides to take a whole knife to someone's face and refuses to ever feel bad #luke could have KILLED aemond #aemond could have DIED #not just from the immediate wound but also any issues that arose during a really long and arduous healing process #it's why fics with luke where he feels bad or contrite don't work for me #because he literally doesn't??? #he doesn't care at all #he doesn't care he almost killed a person for no reason and left them with lifelong issues as a result of his fuck up #out here kicking his feet and giggling over maiming another human being #again vhagar eating him was too easy #he should have gotten his eye poked out first anyway #literally only feel kinda bad for rhaenyra cuz i'm neutral leaning positive towards rhaenyra and losing a child hurts #luke himself can rot i feel nothing

[storm-of-feathers]

There's a special type of grief that comes with losing a friendship where it apparently meant more to you than it did to them.

#i wish more people understood that even if i dont talk to you every day or even often i still love you #i wish i wasnt so sensitive then none of it would have bothered me and this wouldnt have been an issue and everything would be fine #im caught between wanting to reach out and talk and not wanting to bother anyone #and wanting to let wounds heal #and its like. im mourning something no one else cares about. #and im mourning alone because i always am.

[wheredidalltheusersgo]

I think I accidentally made an Aleduncan AU where Alejandro is a witch and Duncan is an outlaw

#so basically #Alejandro saves duncan from being put to death #alejandro lets duncan stay with him for a couple months while he heals his wounds #they kinda get FEELINGS for each other during that time period because neither of them see many people around and they're both lonely #alejandro tells duncan about his plan to create a divine being #they part ways after a while #duncan returns a few months later to find alejandro being burnt at the stake (bc he's a witch yk) #so he runs to alejandro's woodland cottage and finds a letter left for him #in the note alejandro leaves a set of instructions/explanations and a map #because he hid a giant statue in the forest along with some of his body parts using magic #so duncan sets off to find the statue and the body parts #(he's pretty determined because there was a note on the letter that read “If you couldn't save me then at least save my offspring”) #he feels like he owes alejandro for saving him #he brought the note with him incase it had clues #when he got to the life-size statue of alejandro in all his glory #he broke open the hollow torso to find a small manticore #which alejandro made using magic combined with his own flesh and blood #duncan also finds ANOTHER note that explains how he needs to find each of the organs alejandro hid around the vast forest #and feed them to the baby manticore #to increase it's powers #this could be such a banger AU if I actually put effort in #this keeps sounding dumber as I write about it #I just wanted to draw alejandro as a pretty witch #I love aleduncan because I can make bullshit like this about it #I came up with this while listening to “Bernadette” by IAMX #I just wanted to toss this dumb little idea out there #td alejandro #td duncan #aleduncan #total drama

[thetarttfuldickhead]

“If no one’s passing to Jamie we can always drop him to midfield.” 

Okay, so I’m don’t think Nate’s motives for suggesting this back in 2x03 were entirely motivated by an understanding how to best utilize Jamie, but he was the first to suggest that our number 9 might play in another position. That, in combination with how they both spotted Colin being open in the lastest game against City… I am very interested in seeing how Nate’s to Richmond will jell with the team’s Total Football approach and Jamie’s new position in it.

Roy does say that Nate’s great at the things Roy is shit at, and back in 3x07 Jamie had to be the one to tell the coaches how to best use him in their new game plan. You have to think that if Nate had been there, Jamie probably wouldn’t have had to that, yeah?

Think there might be something here. Something intriguing. 

#hmm hmm hmm #i'm still not super onboard with nate coaching richmond in the long run #though i am VERY invested in them all renconciling! #but i can't deny the potential here... #should i have thoughts on the actual football of it all? #probably not #but there's no one here to stop me #i also think that there's some unresolved tension with nate and jamie #mostly from nathan's side #him and jamie worked together well enough after nate's initial glee at the team giving jamie a hard time upon his return #but i think - without having much basis for it - that nathan never fully let go of the fear jamie had once instilled in him #it was managed but lurking under the surface the wound of the abuse never healed #and we never say jamie explicitly make nice with nate - he apologized to the team not to the coaches #yeah i am intrigued #nathan shelley #jamie tartt #3x11 #football

[pepprs]

in april 2022 this phd student researching study abroad experiences interviewed me and my mom bc her dissertation was all abt the return experience and how that impacts the family and ive literaly been looking forward to getting her dissertation and reading it for over a year and she just sent it to me at last and. it turns out she excluded my contributions to it bc her study doesn’t encompass experiences of ppl who were sent home early / had their study abroad cancelled when covid started and the world shut down bc that experience was “non-normative” 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 i get it but i am also feeling murderous rage

#purrs #like. i was rly looking forward to being part of it bc at least SOMETHING good would’ve come out of that absolute nightmare of an experience #and it turns out i didn’t get to be part of it at all despite pouring my heart out in the interview and being so excited because… i had a #nightmare of an experience!!!!!!!!!! 😻😻😻😻😻😻😻😻😻 awesome. love how i still have not healed from that and never will and this is rubbing salt #in the fucking wound lol. she asked me for my feedback and to see if my experience is represented and i don’t even know how t reply to it bc #it’s like… you quite literally say on page 51 that you are not representing my expeirence so 💖 #delete later #brighton #i feel bad for complaining bc she was really nice and i loved talking to her and im sure her dissertation will be an eye opening read for me #but it fucking sucks like. can those of us who got our experiences ripped away from us not have anything in this world <3 #like why did she interview me if she wasn’t gonna include me in it 😭 i did all that just to get let downnnnb

[falderaletcetera]

love to get partly spoiled for doctor who (this is not sarcastic; spoilers help me remember to actually go watch it) and STILL have absolutely no warning for how long he's going to spend in his underwear

#it's not that I'm a prude. it's slightly that I have minimal experience taking men in their underwear seriously when in strange contexts #and it makes my brain short-circuit #which made that section of the episode An Experience #yes I cried. yes I'm so pleased. #I dunno if it's perfect but this healed some OLD WOUNDS let me tell you #doctor who spoilers #doctor who #falderal speaks

[pumpkinsouppe]

It breaks my heart that people think the hero of time’s story is just a tragedy

Ocarina of time is absolutely a tragedy, but Majora’s Mask is not

Majora’s Mask is one of the most hopeful pieces of media I’ve ever consumed. It has a bittersweet end, but you finish the game knowing that link will be okay, that he can and will survive on his own. Sure he had to leave his friends behind again, but he CHOSE to do that this time. He knew he couldn’t stay in Termina and he made the choice to be a child again.

I do not for a second believe his entire life is a tragedy, NOT after all of Majora’s Mask. The game specifically designed to be about healing and love. Idk where the theories that link died or became a child soldier (?????) came from but I feel like the entire message of Majora’s Mask was just completely lost on a ton of people 😭

#tiny rant bc sometimes I feel like I’m the only person who understands Majora’s mask 😭😭😭 #no I actually genuinely hate all the theories that link’s life went downhill after Majora’s mask #the entire story is about healing from grief and from wounds understanding your trauma #if link were to die or become a soldier that just spits on the entire message of the game #it spits on people going through similar experiences and tells them their life will never get better #THATS NOT THE MESSAGE AHHHHHH!!!!!!!! #the message is that things will be okay #life is hard now life will always be hard #but there are people who love and appreciate you and you are meaningful to this world #don’t let grief consume you #things will get easier one step at a time #I have so many positive thoughts and feelings about Majora’s Mask it’s genuinely such a great game #especially if you are also going through trauma or grief it really helped me understand my own feelings through both #tloz #Zelda souppe blurb