#lets at least pretend to care

[tsuchinokoroyale]

The way my hand is perfectly made to hold her evil little head… I was born to love you the way you were born to love me…

#she is my darling baby girl and I love her so #I have no favorites amongst my kids they all fulfill their own separate niches #blue is my cat who is like a dog Eva is my cat who is a cat barnaby is my dog who is a dog and beau is my dog who is just a lil guy #blue is my sweet handsome cuddle bug who will purr just from looking at me and lets me know I am loved #barnaby is my devil child who sings and grumbles and slaps me to get me out of bed and play to keep me active and engaging with fun #beau is my nervous boy who is allergic to leaving my side so he’s like my +1 for daily existence and makes sure I’m never alone #and Eva is my little princess who pretends like she doesn’t care but actually cares soooooo much who asks me to seek her attention… #she does get priority attention since she asks for it the least so when she does yell at me for pets it is my duty as dad to oblige… #gpoy

[scrimple]

I can regulate my emotions just fine as long as I can cut myself :3

#bunny talks #988blr #988twt #styr0twt #styr0blr #i’m ok just venting #block don’t report #Playing a game called lets see how long it’ll take me to attempt suicide while I’m off my meds #Why is being self-destructive so bad for me anyways? #My self-harm only affects me physically #It doesn’t affect anyone else. Just me and my body #So Why do therapists want me to stop so badly? Hey at least I’m not killing myself! Shouldn’t you be happy for me? #Be happy for me just as happy as cutting makes me feel #I’m so happy #So happy so calm #‘it affects those who care about you’ just stop caring about me. I am not worth positive emotions #Pretend I don’t exist #Pretend I’ve died already #Pretend you never met me #I don’t deserve anyone’s kindness or care #I’m so sorry for convincing everyone that I’m a good person #Please believe me when I say I’m the worst #Please. I don’t want to hurt anyone else #This is all I have please just let me have this #I only post about it here so I can keep track of when I relapse please I swear I’m not attention seeking please don’t look at me #Don’t look at me don’t perceive me don’t please don’t #I am not here. I never was

[lorethebookworm]

I just saw 10 things I hate about and immediately thought yeah , this is okay but what if we remove the messed up shit and make it andreil so it becomes prefect? Here's my idea

You know the drill, Katelyn wants to date Aaron but he can't date unless Andrew does because as always, those two are a little fucked up. Enter the only guy who isn't scared of Andrew : Neil. Now , in this universe I want Neil to be his unfiltered self, meaning that he accepts the money Kate gives him because that's what you do when people offer you free money, but he has no intention to go along with the plan. That's because 1 he is as demi as they come 2 he is an asshole but even he can see that making someone believe you fell for them and building a relationship with them just because you've been bribed is just cruel. So Neil won't date Andrew, instead he approaches him ,tell him the whole entire crazy truth about the situation, and proposes that the two share the money and start hanging out to get more money out of Katelyn. And Andrew, against his better judgement, is so fascinated by this unhinged pretty boy that he can't help but agree.

At this point everything is going great, Kate and Aaron are happy, Andrew and Neil are spending more and more time together, trading truths and falling in love. As always they both believe that the other would never reciprocate so they are pining for a while. And , before you ask yes, the scene where he sings for her in front of everybody and the cute date afterwards 100% happen for andreil too, because I say so.

Okay so everything is going great and Kate and Aaron want to go to prom so she pays Neil 300 dollars to make Andrew go as well ( I'm making Kate rich as fuck because otherwise I'd feel so bad for her, she's literally throwing money away). Neil obviously accepts and pretty much offers all the money to Andrew in the form of candy and ice cream and other stuff Andrew requests (Andrew is so smitten that he would go just because Neil asked, but the man has a reputation to uphold ).

What happens at prom and after in the movie doesn't really make sense for this au so I'm deciding that Andrew and Neil are completely bewitched by each other the entire night until they finally kiss and have their happily ever after.

#ten things i hate about you #10 things i hate about you #10 things I hate about you au #andreil au #someone write this please #aftg #andrew minyard #neil josten #andreil #aaron minyard #the movie is cute but I just hate that the relationship between the two protagonists is based on lies #he doesn't actually care about her #at least in the beginning #also she starts being interested only after he pretends to like the same music as her and acts like he doesn't smoke anymore #and I know that in the end they fall for each other but the original plan is just fucked up #so I got the healthiest ship ever to fix this #neil would 100% be like #hey man some idiot paid me to date you but since that's stupid let's gwt ice cream with the money she gave me #cut to andrew making heart eyes

[imminent-danger-came]

Sorry if you‘ve been asked this before, but since we know you‘re fav lmk characters, I was wondering what you‘re favorite duos and trios were?

And/or however many characters you wanna group together. Just in general, the character dynamics you find neat!

(My guess is that MK and Mei are somewhere on the top of the list- if not THE top)

One of my favorite things about lmk (of which there are many lol), is that you could throw two darts, and whatever two characters the darts land on are bound to have an interesting dynamic.

One of my favorite episodes is the Sandy and Huntsman episode (2x08), Tang and Macaque also have an intriguing conflict in 3x08, and Pigsy and Chang'e (3x07) have such a heartfelt shared passion that you can't help but enjoy their on screen time together.

I'm someone who wants a sort of Ne Zha and Yellowtusk "we reluctantly work together" arc, where even though Yellowtusk may have helped nearly bring the world to it's destruction, he ultimately helped save it, and he also happens to know a thing or too about keeping the Jade Emperor's power contained. I think it'd really fit in with lmk's "past mistakes vs making the right choices now" theme—in all honesty Yellowtusk has already paid his time with an eternity spent in the scroll—and now he can truly help make a better world. I think it'd be a neat way to keep him involved in the story, give Ne Zha someone to bounce off of (they both view power as sacred and a huge responsibility, unlike Wukong for example who is much more flippant with power), and would give some juicy drama ("You would betray your brothers?") between Peng and Yellowtusk later down the line.

Though anon you're 100% right, MK and Mei are at the top of my favorite dynamic list lol (They're whole motivation is to protect each other out of 100% platonic love. Obsessed with them). I'm also really partial for the MK, Mei, and Sandy trio that pops up here and there (1x03, 1x04, 3x04, 3x06). Traffic light trio is a treat, and the sunburst duo has my heart forever and always (I love seeing the way MK and Wukong's relationship has developed over the course of the show, both for the better and worse). Pigsy and Tang are always a delight (thank you 1x04, 2x03, 2x04, 3x05, 4x04, and specifically the line "Sometimes it's that little bit of char that makes for a more flavorful meat! Even if it is a bit tangy."), they're definitely at the top of my list. Obviously I like shadowpeach, and shadowpeach + MK (ooooo the monkeys are such delicious/tragic foils oooo), and I think Mei and Wukong have a really interesting dynamic (Wukong seeing Ao Lie in Mei, Mei viewing Wukong as someone who has hurt MK). Wukong and Azure's dynamic is also super interesting (Azure with his unrequited crush and heartbreak), so is LBD and MK's (could talk forever about these two), however I'll cut this off here since I could probably go on for a long while about this specific topic.

#no one's asked me this before and it wouldn't be a bother if they had! #Sorry I kind of went on a tangent about different dynamics in the show and my Yellowtusk and Ne Zha agenda adsfafs #Come on Mr. "Wukong is not the loner he pretends to be'' see the good in Yellowtusk. Let him help keep the world from breaking. #Do it for me #Am I perhaps a bit too invested in a character that's honestly not had that much screen time? Perhaps #But what we are given is *muah* I love Yellowtusk #''This is not the change we dreamnt of'' lowkey the moral backbone of the brotherhood. #His little ''Azure...no!'' in the s4 special gets me too #He's just like Mei and MK fr fr #Yes. Maybe I DO like characters that would chose the person they care about over the world. What of it? #lmk writers are fucking masters at giving the most characterization with the least amount of screen time #And I'd say they mainly do that through parallels/foils/themes but I'm no expert #You can just usually put together a lot of who a character is and their arc based off how they interact with what's been established #I have a long rant about Pigsy's arc rattling around in my brain that I want to write out at some point #I will say this though: Pigsy being a man of tradition/family (2x04 - 3x07) and then giving him qualms with his family in s4 is. *muah* #Like. The thing that get's him to soften up about Zhu Bajie is learning he worked hard to become someone better #Like DO NOT TOUCH ME. I LOVE THAT PIG MAN GOD #I'm a pigsy stan blog now #Actually I love every single character I'll be real this is just who I am #I just also happen to love MK Mei LBD and Azure a little more than the rest afdasdf #asks #lmk #lego monkie kid #monkie kid #lmk speculation

[zehecatl]

anyway i think you can interpret Kaeya’s and Diluc’s relationship however you want, and it’d be canon either way

like Hoyoverse has fucked the boat so thoroughly that, at this point, whatever you want is probably canon in one translation or the other

so maybe stop being dicks to one another 🤷‍♂️

#genshin impact #ragnvindr brothers #kaeluc #like if you wanna see them as brothers that's fine if you don't wanna see them as brothers that's fine #either way it's going to be canon adjacent #like who the fuck knows anymore. or cares #'but they're brothers!' and numerous chinese people have told you they aren't in the very original version so maybe calm down #you can't pretend like one translation trumps all the others so let's just accept that kaeya and diluc's relationship is whatever you want #(and now some chinese people ARE saying they're brothers. like genuinely everyone is saying different things and contradicting each other) #(so can we just Stop Fighting Maybe and be nice to each other instead) #(or at least fucking learn how to block and stop sending death threats 💀)

[brinnanza]

realizing I have a Type that's butches with long brown hair who dress like teenage boys and don't wear makeup I could have been this butch in high school if I had figured Anything out high school I in fact usually was this butch but if I had Ever owned it while I was thin and hot and insane (differently) I could have been chewing my way through the schools lesbian population, which was pretty significant at my school I could have been the hot butch lifeguarding instructor with cargo shorts and a backwards baseball cap I'm a different kind of butch now but god I could have landed mad pussy back when I had game

#the biggest tragedies jn my life are that it took me so long to let myself become myself #i spent so much time pretending to be normal when I could have been being gay and weird #at least I can be gay and weird now #life's better when you have room to be yourself and if you're just surviving you don't have the room #anyway you know the drill it's marble time whoosh #you hit follow I'm just standing in my truth #part of which is that I have to Justify every moment of my existance to an imaginary party who doesn't care and is never satisfied #anyway having a real normal one #brinn's marble run

[scaredofmyocs]

I love it when i accidentally stay up on the night im supposed to be catching up on sleep it totallly doesnt make me feel horrible all week long

#talk post #i love this blog i want to live here #I cant!!! i just cant!!! go to bed at a normal fucking time istg #but noooooo the wild grinders wiki no some stupid bullshit no one has ever cared about before #WHEN I DONT GET ENOUGH SLEEP MY MENTAL HEALTH GETS WAY WORSE!!!!! IF I DONT FIX IT WE ARE GOING TO GET TOO SILLY #(yelling at a mirror) #seriously bothers me tho that Im always worried about how intense my negative feelings have been lately #and im like “oh ill just get more sleep” and then immediately fuck it up the next night making me tired all week #making me feel SO bad in the mornings and at night and increasing my paranoia and other such thoughts #and in trying to tune it all out just forget about it again leading to me fucking it up again #this is a bit dramatic its only happened 2 weeks in a row #but that feels like a lot because thats like 10 nights where i felt like i blinked and i had to wake up and go to school #and not only deal with my shitty social skills but the results of said thing #and also try to fight the thoughts that are like “this shits pointless im not doing this” LIKE PLEASE pretend to be normal for one year #and also that one teacher i have who demands every students attention while he teaches like i already finished the work sheet shut it #like i do well in that class just let me do what i want im not being distracting like girl i have at least an 87 dw about me #PLUS most of the time im not even on my phone he just really wants me to look at the board but girl as i said I ALREADY DID WHATS ON THERE #i feel like i never get to relax but i do all the time so i dont know what i mean #i keep saying “its ok as long as i can bury all my thoughts and just keep going while filling what free time i have with things i enjoy” #but things only work for so long #i hate the passage of time #anyawy erm wrong my guitar is in my mind (stupid ass guitar riff) #walks over to my bed and trips on the way falling asleep on the floor #ramble #hit post

[running-in-the-dark]

today was exhausting - my friend was here for about 7 hours and I just. oh man I love her and all but it's just a lot sometimes. it's probably for the best that we only meet up like 2-4 times a year now (gives me enough time to forget how draining it is so I look forward to it, and recover afterwards)

I don't talk to anyone but my husband most days, and he doesn't really talk. so that's maybe 15 minutes total of talking. and today it was literally. 7 hours. no breaks except when we were eating (but no even then someone was always talking).

first of all ouch, it hurts (my voice is very hoarse now). and also. it's so so so draining. like. we really have nothing in common at this point. but she's my oldest friend and I do love her so it's tolerable... but just barely. these days there's way too much diet/food/weight loss talk, and also she seems to be getting into alternative medicine which I cannot fucking stand (it's one topic where I can't pretend or be nice about it either). lots and lots of very preachy vegan stuff too (I don't have any problems with it, I admire people who can do it, but fuck dude you know I eat meat and that I've said many times that I *can't* go vegan (I would starve. there's not enough foods that would be left. seriously.) and it feels pretty shitty to keep going on about it every damn time. I'm not sitting there trying to convince her that she should really be an atheist or something, because I know what her thoughts are about that and I respect it.

when she hangs out with her other friends a lot it's mostly just talking about all the issues that come from that (they fucking suck). I don't know, it kind of feels like I'm her therapist. when I talk about something I'm interested in she doesn't ask many questions and it kind of sucks. like, dude I don't care about your plants either, but I'm interested because you care, so. maybe try that too. would be nice!

#like I know alllll about her other friends and their shitty behaviour #and just. it's exhausting #it's also exhausting telling her over and over again that she is too nice. yes being nice is good and all but she lets people walk all over #her and afterwards she goes 'oh well I guess it was probably just because [they had a bad day/other thing that happened/I said the wrong #thing]'. I do that too! but it's just EVERYTHING. always. even when someone is CLEARLY being shitty to her. like her shitty friends. she #will still excuse their behaviour #it just makes me sad man. #buuut #like come on maybe let me talk about my stupid tv show for 5 minutes and try to seem a little interested? I know it's irrelevant I know no #one cares but damn you really can't pretend?? I've mentioned it before a couple times on the phone and she's always just vaguely like 'ah #that sounds interesting' WHEN I HAVEN'T EVEN SAID ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT IT'S ABOUT. but she doesn't ask what it's about so. I just stop #talking about it and we change topics. #like. yeah I know it's a bit weird that I'm in my 30s and that is one of the most important things in my life rn but. that's how I am. it's #always been that way. and my other friends care (or at least pretend to because they care about *me*) #so it feels pretty shitty! #like if I can look at 15 pictures of how big her fucking plants and herbs are getting. idk maybe ask one question about my show. #or like. even things like our new apartment and stuff. she listened and everything. but it's just. there's no interest there really. just #live 'oh that's nice :)' and we move on to the next topic again #idk man it makes me a bit sad (and I know it's ironic because I say she needs to acknowledge that people don't treat her well but. I mean I #do know this isn't great. and I limit my communication with her to a level that doesn't feel too exhausting. so. idk I feel like it's #different or whatever. buut really I just don't have many friends and I get lonely and it's better to listen to someone talk about #themselves all the time than not talking at all) #okay I'm gonna shut up now #and anyway I'm just exhausted and it's all very fresh rn and I'm incredibly tired so I'm very grumpy. usually it's really not that bad. #I just needed to vent I guess #okay bye and goodnight and I will stop talking now I swear #personal

[ladysophiebeckett]

me when the fic has armando trying to be selfless and pulls the ‘I’m not good enough for you 😔you should be with someone else’ card so betty will leave him:

me when the fic has armando be extremely selfish and say ‘she can’t leave me—I won’t let her leave me 😩’ and then basically foils her getaway plans and she's tricked into staying.

#i read 'el balance' which was rec'ed by armando-triplepapito #i need to shout out bc that was a RIDE #very quick read too #let me rant for as second---there's at least two fics ive come across where they have him do that--he like pushes her away?? and into miche #which is not something he would ever do #fics that ignore his selfishness dont get him. that's a pretty important characteristic. #and yeah everything in fics is exaggerated but at fanfics core its supposed to be fun #but its not fun when they have him pretend to be selfless--thats lame #but this is the umpteenth time where a fic doesn't let them have any time apart so at the end u still get a co-dependent vibe #but i literally do not care bc its fic and at least his selfishness is intact

[hypermania]

Crimes against Black women are underreported, under-investigated, and under-solved. So maybe if Dolores had been white, more people would have been asking about her. Maybe they could have found her. Maybe even saved her.

#ndcw #ndcwedit #nancydrewedit #nancy drew cw #ned nickerson #abe tamura #detective tamura #nd214 #myedit #alt text #nick is like first of all she’s a teenager and your obsession with her is weird #second of all can you at least pretend to care about a black person jsut this once #i do appreciate that they let him have the emotional weight in this episode #and not nancy

[robertsbarbie]

me offloading my work email app for the weekend all cause my boss is mad at me and i’m mad at him

#self care #i’ll still send emails on my laptop #but i refuse to let the anxiety of receiving emails and being ON and available when i’m mad at my boss #and i think the whole situation is upsetting because it was just handled unprofessionally and in such an embarrassing way and was just a #shitty feeling and then he tried to pretend it was a okay and normal when it’s not and i know he’s just gonna double down in an e-mail tomo #*tomorrow #like this man has literally at least temporarily lost my trust and drive at least for the weekend and we will see how next week goes #eris: text

[toastsnaffler]

i keep getting irrationally miffed at ppl 😐😐

#'impressed by how much u can talk abt this considering youve not played either game' #fuck off. as if im not just trying to show interest bc u + another friend are both into them + constantly talk abt them in our gc!! #i mean since u guys talk abt them all the time + theyre huge on tumblr like. it would be hard for me to not know anything abt them at all #literally what else can i talk to u guys abt anyway. i dont think there are any interests i personally have that they both gaf abt #if anything they actively dislike most of the things im hyperfixated on. or at least she does so like i cant bring that up can i. #all i did was share a post i saw on tumblr that i thought was funny. its not like i had some negative/controversial opinion #i just saw it and thought hey that makes me think of my friends bc they like those things maybe theyll find it funny too!! #dog sitting outside the door with rly big sad eyes offering them a stick i found in a puddle #i like listening to them talk and i will eventually play some of the games theyre into myself cuz they make them sound rly cool #and even if theyre not my kind of thing i like sharing interests with other ppl and sometimes thats enough for me to be able to enjoy it #i literally own some of them already but im just not in the mental space to start smth new right now. which i have SAID!!!! #why do u even care girl. as if u dont already have a ton of friends playing it that ur talking to abt it???? i wont have anything to add #and thats not gonna stop u from being able to talk to me abt it anyway????? like 2/3 of our conversations atm are abt bg3 #man. i know its not that deep but it makes me kinda sad for some reason. im just trying. i guess next time ill just let u guys talk- #to each other or at me and not comment or say anything so u can pretend im not here or whatever it is u want #ughh. she probably didnt even mean it like that and ill feel stupid for getting annoyed and delete this later but whatever. #might work out early today and then i can like draw or play a game or smth the rest of the day. alright lets go #.vent #listening to my silly little jfunk/jazz/soul playlist and i already feel over it. healing

[sunshinereddie]

rr

#this is late night overthinking delete later thoughts but #thinking about the fact that i’ll probably never be able to be in like a real actual queer relationship #like every time i remember that and then think a lil too hard about it #it makes me so sad to the point where my stomach hurts #like im lying in bed rn thinking about it and im getting actual real pains #and it just hurts so bad both physically and emotionally #because i know that i won’t be able to come out to my parents #like i try to tell myself that one day i’ll be able to tell them but as time goes on it just doesn’t seem realistic #and i just don’t know how i could be in a queer relationship under those circumstances #and ppl will say ‘just cut them off if theyre not supportive!!!!’ but for me and my situation that’s just not possible #‘do whatever you want to do who cares what they think!!!’ you don’t know anything ab my situation stop saying this #being in a queer relationship is something that for the longest time i tried to pretend that i didn’t want #and now that i’ve finally accepted who i am and what i want #i just feel like im back in that little hole of secrecy and shame bc i know that (at least for now) i still have to pretend #that im not queer #ahhhh #sigh idek if anything of this makes sense and is coherent #thinking about this makes me cry and makes my head hurt and my stomach hurt #but i just felt like i needed to let it out #because im not out to anyone irl so i have no one to talk to about this #anyways i should probably try and sleep before i fall too far down the rabbit hole #sigh

[carbonateddelusion]

sibling looked at my discord profile pic (which, for refence, is this)

and said "who is that. is that a black chick" as if I haven't already specifically told bun who it is like twice before now. I WONDER if it's the CHARACTER EXPLICITLY NAMED IN MY TAG

you know. "#2 Isaac enjoyer". I wonder if the character that is my profile picture is the character specifically named in my user.

#'yeah i care about your stories :) btw who is that again they look like a woman' #girlie pop at least do me the kindness of NOT pretending to give a shit about what i make and don't get my hopes up #i try to explain story things to fae and faer like 'i already know that you told me' bc I'm so used to people not giving enough of a crap #to listen. so i was surprised!!! in a good way!!! #turns around and does this kinda shit #the only thing fae remembers is 'the tall twink one' and 'donkey kong arms jack' and let's not even start on jack #bc the only reason fae remembers anything about him is bc he looks very similar to faer bastard man physically. #do not PRETEND to care!!! just fucking tell me you don't care it's not that hard!!! #i listen to YOU talk about the things you make all the time!!! i stop MY calls with friends to comfort you!!! you do not do the same!!! #ugh. sorry i've been really unhappy here lately and that's not even mentioning faer partner's very obvious anger issues #delete later

[nintendont2502]

Aghhhggvgv

#i know the only reason were going away for australia day is because its like a four day weekend or smth but GOD #i hate the idea of doing literally anything special on australia day #let me just sleep until 2pm and forget what day it is #thats what i do every other day already like come on man #agh #at least were also away on the 28th so i can just pretend were celebrating the hottest 100 ig #also were going with three british ppl so youd think they wouldnt care too much about it #even if we do it wont be that bad i just like complaining about aus day lmao #me.txt #aussieposting

[lovecolibri]

"It's gutwrenching"

#roswell nm #roswell spoilers #roswell nm my behated #vlammy i'm so sorry #i know you just wanted to scream michael's love for alex from the rooftops but the writers did y'all so dirty #thanks for giving us The Most with the crumbs you've been allowed #this is an rnm writers hate space #specifically right now directed at DT and his 'this is for the malex fans' half-assed attempt at 'fan service' #proving once again the show either does not know or does not care what the fans actually want #and will to the literal least and pretend they have done something so gracious for the malex/alex fans #maybe if we had seen michael being upset the second alex didn't send a goodnight text #maybe if we had seen michael getting more and more frantic as the days went by #and hearing from alex was a punch in the gut of relief AND fear #then this episode might have made me feel something #but dropping this on us after refusing to let michael show any worry or concern just falls flat