#lets be real we all know its him

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

honestly wally is stronger than atlas. if i had to constantly calibrate to the nature of my reality w/ full consciousness i would simply lose my fucking mind

#like babies dont Think while they learn how to exist #imagine straight up spawning fully aware and then everyone else is up to speed but youre standing there like #🧍‍♂️uh. hello. what is everything. what is this. huh???? #LIKE???? i feel so bad for him. dude got dropped right into the middle of the ocean and was told 'learn to swim' #and hes trying. but he doesnt know what drowning is so he cant sink either #i mean i get it at least a little bit! its the Autism Experience but w/ him the dial is cranked up to a thousand #you dont know what you dont know but life goes on like you should. fuck #wally i am mentally beaming you a thousand apples grown in the shape of hearts #i believe in you dude you'll figure it out #well. im probably beaming apples into the past if the time discrepancy is real but yk yk #cause if it is then Current Wally probably has a solid handle on things. from a basic standpoint #in a wider lens i am led to believe that he is Scrabbling #is this speculation??? #i think it counts. #wh speculation #homebogging #whenever i think about the tidbits we know - ex: wally learning about differences in size #internally i start howling. wally is just constantly dealing with things that would drive a person insane if they had to live it #how is he not Exhausted... it's all so much for someone who knows whats going on let alone someone scrambling to catch up #at least the other neighbors dont have to deal with memorizing physics and skills and behavior #and just Literally Everything That Comes With Being Alive #wally is a blank slate left to write itself. #ough. damn. fuck. i think i need to go stare into the woods for a bit...

[chuckyray]

jelix gets so much hate and people act like it's truly problematic. It's so funny to me. you can hate its fans and not have to justify it with acting as if the ship itself is somehow offensive.

sorry y'all can't see the beauty in 70s repressed homosexual adultery and the consequences of it being tragedy. i forgot the kids these days haven't even seen brokeback mountain.

#also its just fiction guys this isnt real life men cheating on their wives lmfao these are some fictional dudes in an analog yt series #theyre like wahhhhhh he killed his kids and jack hates him now !!! yeah. now. are we disregarding the 20 years of friendship #where they built their dream company together? no ones saying that jack would fuck him post accident lmfao yall are just reaching #blah blah jack would NEVER do that to rose!!! first of all you dont actually know anything about him. #second of all people do shit you'd never expect all the time. even if they do love someone and are happy #also that one take where someone says the concept of jelix is inherently racist because jack is latino and felix is white so #that means jack is giving in to a white mans desires is insaneeee do yall hear yalls selves. like seriously listen to yourself. just once. #and its weird for you to tack actual racial issues onto a fictional ship that has NOTHING to do with that. #literally saw someone say that its perpetuating the white man desires and exotic latino stereotype and im sitting here like what. #what does that have to do with twf. yall just reaching. just say you dont like jelix and go. simple. #the walten files fandom is a joke atp. none of you should be watching this series yall arent mature enough yall cant even handle a ship #let alone a story centering around actual serious topics like childhood trauma and addiction and morally grey characters #rant over #twf #the walten files

[hybrix-hidings]

Seriously when did nureyev have time to get that suit tailored in s1 though. He didn't know Juno would be helping him until Vicky reached out. Did. Did he just. Have the suit. For however long in advance like "Yeah one day I'll give it to him idk if I'll see him again tho though". Nureyev. Nureyev I need answers

#hes smitten ur honor #tpp #peter nureyev #juno steel #jupeter #the penumbra podcast #i am absolutely willing to believe he planned on asking juno for help without vickys passing him along #bc lets be real theres no way in hell that heist wasnt set up to woo juno and we all know how he is abt meticulous planning #but i just think its funny

[peppermintpegis]

netflix one piece live action feels a little like fanfic in that it makes sure it hits all the important notes but doesnt do all the work to make them hit which works in fic where the reader is supposed to bring all the emotional story investment from the original but doesnt work in a multi million adaptation that is supposed to be able to stand on its own or even serve as an intro to the series. it even does this in service to have more koby and helmeppo gay moments in this essay i w

#one piece #opla #the fleshing out of koby and helmeppo is like honestly good its a beacon of light its truly really fun #and all the actors are great it is just what they are given . #they didnt let nami do any real betraying. they didnt even have her steal the merry!! she just stole the map that they added in!!!! #ddont get me started on the gutting of sanjis intro. i dont give a shit about if don krieg appears or not i need to see this guy fuckin #feed the hand thats about to kill him im going to start shaking like a dog. #im almost madder krieg appeared for just a little id rather have that time be used for. anything else really. #like have one of arlongs guys starved half to death when they get to arlong park!or idk anything! no gin appears look its gin! you know him #sanji doesnt even get to beat the shit out of a shitty guest. like i guess he does a little but it feels so blink and you miss it #+the first like two eps were good!! buggys great hes scary and weird and fun. i dont mind that he sticks around longer in theory #but the way he is comedic relief instead of basically every character having funny bits is like. ahghhhgggg. its a symptom of this really #mean and edgy feeling the whole thing has. like the removal of people missing usopps pirate calling :( and how cocoyashi didnt know #nami was working to help them. like p. please. can we have caring and bonds in this world?? trust and love??? #anyway. sorry for having expectations of a netflix show im so close to putting this into a more proper form rather than tags. just to get i #all out of my system cause fuck man. #anyway solid 7/10 not as bad as it couldve been

[todayisafridaynight]

imagine saying allat abt a woman who was proposed to in a FIRST DATE like let’s be so real rn saeko was being way kinder than i woulda been 💀💀💀

saeko handled that like a champion like a queen like a legend like an icon i'm number three saeko stan in the world

#snap chats #i know im not the first or second saeko stan its ok ill cope .. wait i dont like three #can i be the fifth ..... #BUT IN ALL REALNESS SOOO TRUE #like removing ichiban from the situation if it was any other guy we all would be like What The FUck #cause thats true mental illness behavior Much Love To Ichiban jAKVJLEKJV #ghosting him for a year was wack but also. cannot blame her fjALKEJLKJ LIKE HOW DO YOU BOUNCE BACK FRO MTHAT #she was so polite to him too she really let him down as easy as she could the following day #leaving without acknowledging the proposal a lil wack but I Repeat what the fuck do you even do in that situation #I Too wolud have just left and been like 'ok ill see you :) uh :) sometime :)' 💀💀💀

[autism-corner]

mephistoteles is so underrated. his little gay ass has so much potential

#i know & understand why hes like the lowest point of interest but... #let the disabled man be appreciated okay #anti-lucifer potentials... #hes such an evil guy(tm) #i just see him and i only recognize a man that needs to be objectified #i have actually read all of the main story so i know im right #hes the only real look we have at mid-tier demons and its so interesting... #+ this guy doesnt care (yet) about mc so were getting even more unfiltered shit #we had the same stuff in the early lessons with everyone but the brothers have changed so much... #mephisto is still a pure unsoftened-for-humans demon and theres so much to say about him #omg #im talking nonsense again but you understand me right #obey me mephistopheles #obey me #i need to stop saying so much shit in the tags... use the actual post dumbass (talking to myself) #im losing it so much #god ive started being intersted in mephi ive really lost it #help /j #sillyposting

[bangcakes]

.

#uh.... LOL so yada yada yada u know what im gonna talk about JDJDJD GOD HELP ME #i just realized........... that u know. usually on the 15th (bc timezones) im like super hype bc sjs birthday #but LMAO........ i so happen to be seeing.... my .... crusheroo on that day so Zjxjdjkdkdkd HOW LIFE CHANGES WOW #i didnt realize til i saw a bday (old) set of sj n i was like WAIT FUCK DID I MISS HIS BDAY. ONLY TO REALIZE. IT WAS THE SAME DAY.... #hhhh but god. ya i did it. i survived a whole month without seeing him. but like bc we message or whatever occasionally (and my #frequent daydreaming lets be real) it didnt feel that long !!! wow !! proud !!@ #like realistically i knew i could do it bc i went like. 4 months without seeing him JDJJDJDJDJD #god imagine. i spent the whole summer trying to get over him. only to see him 1 time n have everything come back #but WORSE. BC. RECIPROCATION????????? #god lmao. feel like im never gonna be over this. feel like i could even be married to him everyday n id be like WOW HOW DID THIS HAPPEN???? #shits so weird idk. idk. im just NDJJDJDJDJD HOW DO WE GET TO THE NEXT STEP #BUT AT THE SAME TIME. I SHOULD GET TO KNOW HIM BETTER. GOD ITS SO DJFJFKKFKDKDKDKKD #like this is what its like to really like someone huh. all those other crushes i had were like.... a 0 in comparison #like wtf is this. when everyone else had crushes and liked ppl is This what they meant. jfc #idk if i could go thru this again JDJDJJDJDJD. hope hes it. ya #id promise to save everyone n never talk about this again but we both know thats not gonna happen ANDNDNDNDND #personal

[bylertruther]

when will said it was "strange knowing who it was this whole time" and "he's hurt, he's hurting, but he's still alive" was he not talking about henry? am i insane? did i misinterpret that scene? why are we acting like will is connected to anyone other than henry bro what is Happening 😭

that was henry that shaped the mind flayer into that spider-like form and it was henry that used it to possess will and it was henry's thoughts that will was experiencing against his will and it's henry that he's still feeling because the connection/"vecna's curse" hasn't been broken. they physically extracted the mind flayer from will's body, yes, but his connection to henry was never broken. henry can't exercise complete and total control over people without the mind flayer's power, which is why will has free will over his body but his mind remains connected to henry.

the characters, and by extension the viewers, thought it was the mind flayer behind everything, because they didn't know what season four revealed to us.

henry wanted to control will's mind and body—a complete and entire violation of everything will is. that was Not the mind flayer, and they tell us that more than once. with all love and respect what are some of you on about because you're starting to make me feel like my memory is genuinely broken or something lmao like i thought.... the big reveal was that it's always been henry? they literally say that? eleven, henry, and will all confirm it? the mind flayer was not a separate entity acting alone... thus will has beef with henry most of all because henry's violation of his mind and body is still ongoing... Where Are You Guys Getting Your Information From 😭 hELP

will's rape—because that's what possession is, he never consented to having his mind and body controlled by anyone else—is an important part of stranger things; both to the general plot and will's character. to say that will only has beef with the mind flayer and not henry is reducing what henry did to him and reassigning blame that very much falls on henry's shoulders. henry was controlling the mind flayer and henry is the one still in will's mind. henry used the mind flayer to have control over will. henry and will are connected. the show literally tells us that over and over again. when you decide to needlessly reassign blame, not only are you misunderstanding and misconstruing the plot, but you're also... not understanding what happened to will at all. like, what really happened to him and how that's used in the show.

henry very likely was the one that kidnapped will. henry is the one that will has a psychic connection to. henry is the one that raped will / possessed him if you prefer that term instead and used the mind flayer to do it. henry is the one that will still knows like the back of his hand, because henry is the one that's still in his head. it's not the mind flayer. it's henry. please stop saying that will doesn't have more than enough reason to want to kill his ass. please!!!

#rape tw #rape mention #triggering myself on main like a fucking dumbass but the worms in my brain are holding on to this one n gnawing at it #am i insane am i genuinely having memory problems am i the weird one #eleven and will can both kill his ass but don't act like henry isn't the one that ruined his life i'm— #i feel very strongly abt this bc i just feel like you Can't reassign blame in rape cases u have to see it for what it is #they're literally fake but. please don't try to absolve bad people like that #they're characters not people i know but. please don't do that lol. henry is a bad guy for many reasons and eleven and will BOTH have #reasons to merc his ass. we can say that it's okay we're not taking anything away from eleven by acknowledging the plot and the #actions that the characters have made like i promise u no one is forgetting eleven who is literally the biggest character on the show #it doesn't matter but also it Does matter to me bc we don't always see rape victims on tv shows or movies that are treated like will #and it just makes me sad when like. stuff that happens in real life (abusers getting off scot free) happens in fiction. bc its like ok cool #not even in the fictional world can there be justice huh lmao cool cool cool very cool and awesome and great love it #actually no im gonna say it bro yes henry tried to kill eleven twice but like. he literally raped will. so yeah i think will deserves the #final blow bro idc. idc idc idc will has to live with that for the rest of his life he has to remember what it felt like and what all he #did under henry's control like. he deserves it. let him maul his ass let him fireball him to the pits of hell idc idc everyone else go home

[darubyprincx]

#ray's tag #keys mianite s1 rewatch #synhd #'i'm gonna regret everything. everything is gonna end from now on.' #'everything i know right now is gone' #'i should really really think through what i'm doing right now and realize its a bad idea and that i shouldnt do it' #HERE WE GO HERES WHERE THIS SHIT GETS GOOD #HERES WHERE IT GETS REAL #THE ONLY THING THAT COULD MAKE ME GO EVEN MORE INSANE IS IF DIANITE USED THIS TO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF HIM. BECAUSE IF THAT HAPPENS. OHHHH BOY #let me tell you if that happens then you will all be turned into potted plants and forced to hear me ramble about it for the rest of foreve

[mainfaggot]

omg so many thoughts on paradox killer

#last 10 mins of ep 8 rn #i dont exactly approve of lee tangs actions but in the end I've found myself rooting for him #he was pathetic to begin with and pathetic in the end but i think he grew in his own way #it's obvious by the second murder that he killed for the sake of avoiding jail time but. #its also mad convenient that he goes around killing awful people on instinct #but then again. the show constantly alludes to Dostoevskys crime and punishment and we all know how that goes #BUT THEN AGAIN. the justice system is broken who gaf #lee tang clearly has supernatural instincts or some shit so like. lets goooo divine retribution #see if this was real life i actually wouldn't mind if someone like him existed. #but the main condition being: the supernatural instinct has a 100% accuracy rate #otherwise it's so morally questionable #so i guess as far as the show is concerned. in fiction i think it's a highly unrealistic but stilk fascinating concept #idk i cant exactly stand by the 'all murder is bad' but i am also fully aware that in the real world. where people are easily swayed and #influenced by money power etc murder is not carried out when necessary #and when unnecessary it is carried out due to violent racism misogyny etc #z.post

[bloodbot-brian]

When my brain actually comes up with a good idea for my mechsona FUCKK

#okay so I’m still not sure about the mech #I want to to be all sans something #because guys I’m so autistic about Brian my mechsona needs to be like him I’m sorry #then we can be girlfriends with understanding each others mechs and shit #anyways #thinking all sans blood because it would be cool and I could do some horror shit with that #not too sure #anyways I got the backstory and name down hehe #vamps name is chefbot Jeremiah I KNOW ITS LIKE DRUMBOT BRIAN LET ME BE AUTISTIC THIS IS FOR ME AND ONLY ME #it’s so my daydreams can be more concrete I don’t actually think I’ll ever do anything with her but idk #anywayssss #so basically rot was shot in the head because my main mech was brain before Carmilla decided to get a little silly with it #oh also this is while there’s only nastya and jonny #and yknow shit goes wrong because she didn’t account for my disabilities and with the changes i have like the Uhm what’s it called #autistic regression #and pain gets worse #so basically what happened to me in real life after covid but I just got mechanised instead #but yeah I am with them for a bit #not the most stable mech in the world but none of them are #I struggle a lot with my disabilities and never dying and travelling so much #and then we visit a planet #the first one I go and explore and I get stuck somewhere like in a forest #I’m in water oh shit wait I started using third person pronouns and went to first uhmmm #anyways DECAYS in like a little pond in a forest stuck by like branches or something #and Carmilla nastya and jonny just leave because they assume bat just went off because they couldn’t find bat #and then thousands of years go by blah blah blah #and then the mechs (now without Carmilla and with the full crew) find me again somehow #and jonny and nastya recognise me and have like an oh shit moment #and then I join them and they help me get back to normal #bear growls

[paintingformike]

watching byler and mleven scenes back to back actually puts things more in perspective and it’s making me laugh because...most byler scenes have always been treated way more seriously and with more emotional depth than mleven scenes. theres just so much more tension and intimacy evident between them and it gets 10x doubled in their heart to hearts in season 4 while mleven remains either being played for laughs or having pretty surface level conversations until they actually have a realer fight? like...byler really isnt that much of a secret at all, its being developed right in front of our eyes 😭

no cause imagine mike and el talking to each other with the same level of tension in the desert heart to heart or even just having a single conversation that is as deep and serious as that, or even mike opening up to el the way he does with will...you can’t, can you? because mleven scenes are never handled or treated with as much care as byler scenes 😴

#ik we all know this but byler feels even more of a built up relationship than mlvn #i realized this specifically after seeing a twt thread of ranking byler moments #and it made me think...how come we have such a wide variety of byler scenes even more so than mlvn scenes #like we have the hospital scene the arcade scene with mike breaking will out of his trance #the scene where mike sleeps over at will’s the double date in the movies #the s3 ending with hopper’s words matching up with mike’s feelings about his relationship with will #mike looking longingly at his desk mike hugging his mom as he cries over will with heroes playing in the bg #mike taking will to his basement while sheilding him from everyone #not to mention an entire storyline of will gifting mike a painting that comes with his romantic feelings for him? #they have all these really classic and trope-y moments that actually feels like a build up to an inevitable couple #while mlvn gets the bare minimum or little to nothing each season? 😭 #like lets be real here they barely have anything to work from aside from pivotal moments like the snow ball #thats why they like to complain about the duffers oweing them more cute moments...because they barely have any LMFAO #like constant make out scenes and a “date” where both of them are putting up an act arent exactly that much... #or a scene where neither of them can come to a mutual understanding and mike dances around the word “love” #while el cluelessly tries to figure out what hes talking about and its overall just a very comedic conversation #anyways. sorry but how do people not see this. mlvn is so bones... #byler #byler proof

[todayisafridaynight]

GOD. Epilogue of "A Dream a Kirin Dreamed" pisses me off. This is not to say it's bad by any stretch. It just pisses me off because WHY DIDN'T KIRYU BOTHER TO TELL DAIGO ANYTHING. Why did he just say "He didn't betray you" without backing up his point at all and then fuck off entirely without checking back in.

The man just woke up and he's awake for a week before he's discharged from the hospital??? Maybe catch him up to speed on something that's clearly weighing on him??? Or on anything else that's happened in the time he was unconscious ??? Hello???????

Like. Dude. Is it not enough that you're just dead weight for the entire fucking ending. Knowing this is your son's best friend. And no way he doesn't know because even aside from Mine's monologue which (obviously) focused on his perspective, Kiryu says himself when he encounters a journalist who can't find any friends or family to interview about Mine that Daigo would know him best.

KNOWING this is your son's best friend. You LET him kill himself in front of you both because for you, sitting on your ass and going "Mine!" was good enough. You didn't think to reason with him. You didn't think to grab onto his leg or something when he was three feet away. You weren't injured. You weren't THAT exhausted. You just didn't think to do it. Even though A SUBSTORY IN Y3 ENDS THE WAY THE MAIN STORY SHOULD HAVE AND IT'S ONE OF THE LAST THINGS YOU CAN DO BEFORE HEADING TO THE HOSPITAL.

Y3 ending is literally my Y7 ending in terms of how much anger rises up within me whenever I think about it because it just Somehow, To This Day, piles more and more on top that makes it worse than it already was. Like its ONLY saving grace is that Mine didn't actually die. Allegedly. At least you can argue Ichiban and Aoki didn't have time to react, but Kiryu had all the time in the world and did nothing.

Ok I need to stop I need to stop I know I should be mad at Yokoyama and Takeuchi and not Kiryu and I literally had to run this post through an all-caps -> sentence caps converter But Anyway Point Is If Ichi Had Been The Protagonist Of Y3 Mine Would Be Alive

i cant even really blame something like kiryu's emotional ineptitude to explain why he couldnt just be open about What Mine's Business Was because the guy can CLEARLY speak from the heart and say good and honest things. like he knows how to communicate For The Most Part so its truly just. The Fuck Happened Here you dont think it wouldve been a good idea to get daigo up to speed on the past week or 👁️👁️ just saying Mine Didn't Betray You is like. a FAIR start i GUESS but ELABORATE a bit ??

not at all a 'rare' L moment just a typical kiryu L honestly （；´д｀）

#long post #snap chats #mizuki goated fr fr. highkey those two's substories are my fave theyre so fuckin bizarre..... #BUT REAL LIKE KIRYU. ILY I DO IM SORRY but i KNOW your ass can get up #mine DID just beat your ass but youre not THAT banged up and its not like you have any reason to relax after knowin richardsons alive #like there was PLENTY of time to react this some yakuza 'let him finish speaking its honorable' bullshit i PROMISE (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) #dont look down here im ranting about y7 related stuff #OK BUT NO THIS JUST REMINDED ME OF ONE OF THE MOST INFURIATING TAKES I READ ONCE #AND IT WAS BASICALLY PEOPLE BLAMING ICHI FOR AOKI DYING LIKE EXCUSE ME #how on gods green earth was ichi supposed to react in time- when its KUME of all people #what the fuck was he supposed to assume was going to happen its KUME he's a wet rag of a bitch boy #especially when all he did was praise aoki like how the fuck was he supposed to think he would stab him oh my godddd #like its not just kume showing up either ichi and aoki JUST had an intense emotional moment and they finally got a chance to breathe #like they thought they were good and in the clear and they were in a steadily-getting-better mood why would they be on guard (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) #FORGIVE ME thats been bothering me for months. i needed it off my chest #anyway im going for a walk. we got ice cream today and idk why i eat ice cream when it always makes me sad/lethargic #so heres to hoping a lil nature walk and heavy metal improves my mood a bit

[hecksupremechips]

Constantly torn between writing a character to be just a nice guy and writing that character to be the most fucked up creature in existence

#the klock keeps ticking #like theres a line at some point where you cant make this all one guy but you just. really want to #like yeah lets say we got some fucked up guy who tries really hard to be nice and sweet despite the horrors #but you know what if i want him to get kinda bitchy too cuz how can i expect him not to be? hes been through some shit and hes only human #but how bitchy can i make him before he just kinda becomes an asshole #i guess though people are pretty complicated so sometimes its just kinda like that #i must once again hail rebecca gales as the character ever like girl shes sooooo #shes so genuinely sweet and caring and attentive and shes so bitter selfish and jealous #shes gotta make like the biggest effort to be nice and simultaneously the biggest effort to be mean #its just so refreshing to see idk someone who is generally a good person but shes really fucked up about it #like this doesnt come easy to her! everything in her wants to act like a petty child! #and she does! shes really fucking immature and she thinks shes above it all when shes the worst out of everyone! #and thats just such a nice thing to see just a very human character #and shes just like me for real aaaaaa god like guys this freaking character has helped me cope so bad #like shes not a monster shes just. a person having a bad day and not coping very good #yeah this post wasnt even about her but I made it about her now ive just been thinking about rebecca a lot lately OKAY #we cant all be perfect sometimes we just gotta be rebecca at least im brave enough to admit it #anyways i have pretty similar tangents about ryuki shin marianne shinjiro and junpei

[gauntghoul]

everyone being like oooo aaauughhh kaeyas a khaenri'ah spy woooaahhhh. but like everytime we learn more indeptg lore abt him its lit just yeah i lit have no knowledge abt that place at all. shrugs. and now ive lived in mond for so long idrc

#esp when him nd dainsleif met and dain was lit like ya i dont fuckin know who this fool is #like hes been hunting.the abyss order for how long... HES LIT DIRECTLY FRM KHAENRI'AH? #u wld think he wld know SMTHN abt kaeya if he was rly that big a deal #idk i just think the whole ooohhh evil khaenri'ah shit is dummm. lit same vibrs as everytime thevfatui get brought up #nd the travelers lkke KYS NOW. #its like ok. these r just ppl tho. nd what happened in khaenri'ah was a tragedy even ingame they aknowledge it #also lets just be real ofc u guys r hung up on the only playable brown man being labelled as a sneaky spy nd secretly evil #LIKE COME ON #also not counting cyno bc ik we have all tricked ourselves bc everyone fixes it in their art but #hes so pale. lit paler than kaeya who is alrdy fairly oale to begin w #anywya genshin rant ovar. im gna go continje my job

[bangcakes]

.

#personal #keep being like. if Only i had talked to him sooner. if Only i had been Friendlier sooner. but its like #Realistically.... probably wasnt ready. and also like. itd have to happen after school was over anyway bc 1. um i need to focus on school #and 2. how Awkward if i asked him out n he said no. or say we broke up or soemthing #like there were weeks i saw him every day. aint no way... i could handle the awkwardness of that #so ok ok ok. everything is fine JFJFJKFKFKFMFMFMFMFMF #i just have to remember not to get in my own head about it #like if i wanna message him i just should..... #its just..... hhhhHHhhhhh whyd this have to happen to me at 29. i could have been a happy spinster thank u NFJFJFJFJJFJFJFJF #but now ik what having an actual crush is like and oh wow is it painful. but also beautiful n fun. i just...... and lets face it this is #more than a crush. like its definitely Like like but i dont wanna say the Real L Word bc it seems..... idk JDJDJJDJD #but ive definitely um.... fallen. ya. ew JDJDKDJKDKDKDKDKS #but im just gonna follow my gut or whatever the fuck has been guiding me bc things have worked out so far #and like it wouldnt have without his participation. like ya.... #im just like... what if he Forgets about me or like everything fizzles out #but then its like i Know if i see him again itll all come back. #bc in the summer i tried so hard to get over him (and kinda succeeded)... only to see him again in class and be like oh fuck oh no and the #n That Dinner. that was the final blow. i was so overwhelmed i got lost on the way home #which... the restaurant we were at is less than 10 mins from my house so you can imagine the uh Overwhelmingness #i cant even remember the original point of this but. i think we'll find a way ....... i say we but i should say 'i' bc until he tells me #that he likes me im gonna have to like Not Assume. hhhh #it doesnt help either that ppl were bringing up 'hes just not that into you' on twt bc Now im like #oh God. am i in that kind of situation???? i doubt it tho. i think hes just reserved. GAH. whatever happens happens