Tumgik
#letters-from-r
letters-from-r · 12 days
Text
And then there was hope
Hey... It's been a while.
Things have changed, a lot.
I have joy. I feel happy. I am happy.
Three months ago, I was able to get life-saving gender affirming surgery (which I have talked about a lot in the past, I think). It is the best thing I've spent my money on ever since I started earning my own money.
For the first time in forever, things don't look so glum.
I want to start living for myself now.
There are still a lot of things that I have to work on, stuff that needs improvement, issues that need to be addressed, but now I am more willing to work through them. I want to live the life that I want now.
If anybody out there is reading this, don't lose hope.
I never thought I would ever be in this position. I genuinely thought I wouldn't be able to push through that struggle, and that I would have to live the rest of my life unhappy. But here I am.
Don't lose hope.
0 notes
steelycunt · 2 months
Note
i would DIE for a snippet xx
hii okay i had a little search to try and find some snippetable bits from chapter one n. tucked them under the cut mwah : ^ )
i.
Tumblr media
ii.
Tumblr media
57 notes · View notes
tarmac-rat · 5 months
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media
The Man Who Killed Jason Foreman
118 notes · View notes
soulmvtes · 5 months
Text
walked home in the dark for the first time after daylight savings + it was raining in little drops and i put my face up to the sky to feel it and i felt so free <3
74 notes · View notes
homochadensistm · 21 days
Note
gurl, i struggle with depressive disorder :-ccccc, how do you find value in your everyday life?
You can't, cause it dont exist! Value is something you create, not find! I create value through a job and career I love, the lil family I made along the way and my silly hobbies. Imma say something that's not very popular or PC but, from my observation of my own struggles with depression et al, and from observing those close to me, imo a lot of us don't suffer from feelings as much as we suffer from a lack of discipline. We find it difficult to wake up at a set time every day, to eat our meals at a set time, to go to sleep at a normal hour, to resist things that actively harm us (drugs, alcohol, procrastination, scrolling endlessly, binging etc), to do things we don't find fun or engaging (like showering, taking care of our looks, what are we, show dogs?), but that are good for us/our future. We give in quite easily to our emotions when it comes to things like that, and that imo is a problem with discipline and not necessarily the emotion we're giving in it, because that emotion is actually very logical ("it no fun I do not Want That"). I think the more we develop our discipline muscles, the easier it gets to do things that are good for us, and that over time improves our mental capacity to seek out more difficult things and deal with more difficult things. I think a good first step is to listen to research and start working out! It was already proven not once that working out helps with depressive/anxiety disorders, and it helps ur body regulate ur sleep and appetite better. And, this is my own 2 cents cause I'm a sports junkie - for ppl who struggle with looking towards the future and seeing results, working out is a great metric of progress because u can actually see and feel said progress - suddenly you can lift heavier, maybe you can do more reps or sets, suddenly your back is well built, maybe you start seeing your arms differently. It changes both body and mind. What if you start going on an hour long walk every day/other day? Get some sun on your vampire skin? See pretty colors outside u usually don't pay attention to? What if after 2 weeks of doing that u find that walking is actually really easy and u start, allah forgive me, jogging or running instead? What if after a month of doing that you suddenly have a killer ass the ladies can't ignore? What if the mental conditioning you developed from being disciplined through the discomfort of physical activity suddenly helps you with being more assertive at work/with your family? What if it puts other things in perspective for you, emotionally?
Dealing with disillusioned feelings and mental states is difficult, but it is best achieved through small incremental steps you can realistically take, that build on top of each other. So, my ultimate advice is - pick up some weights, let ur monke brain do the rest, and don't look for value, create it yourself <3
25 notes · View notes
Text
Missing my podcast guys o'clock!
22 notes · View notes
nero-neptune · 4 months
Text
Tumblr media
shout out to this movie for teaching me how to spell words that i've never found the opportunity to use in real life lol
42 notes · View notes
wosemi-sama · 3 days
Text
i dont feel like putting this on main but do u know that thing people did where they would assign the brothers names they thought they would name their kid or wtv.... i would like to dump here that i think levi would name his daughter either lorelai or hannah HERE ME OUT PLEASE THIS TOOK A LOT OF MENTAL GYMNASTICS,,,,
hannah - derived from ruris last name, hana.
ruri = rori = rory = lorelai
bam. thanks for coming to my ted talk.
16 notes · View notes
jasontoddssuper · 1 year
Text
Jason Todd was a poor kid and raised by a jewish man,has a lesbian aunt and almost all his adoptive siblings are poc he does NOT like Harry Potter
127 notes · View notes
enchantedbook · 1 year
Photo
Tumblr media
Letters from Father Christmas, a collection of letters written and illustrated by J. R. R. Tolkien between 1920 and 1943 for his children, from Father Christmas To see more illustrations visit our Blog :  https://enchantedbooklet.com/letters-from-father-christmas/
176 notes · View notes
letters-from-r · 2 years
Text
Losing motivation
I've been so unmotivated to work lately--not that I love work, just that I don't usually hate it as much as I do in the past month or so.
And I think I kind of know now why I feel so... bleh.
I love to work when I know what I'm doing, when doing tasks are as easy as reading what needs to be done and then actually doing it. But recent development at work has put me in a situation where I have to work extra hard just to understand what is even happening. It's weird to not know the context of what I'm working on. It feels like I'm chasing and chasing but they just keep running and running and I can't catch up, you know what I mean?
Add to that the fact that I've been so distracted lately, and I sort of don't want to be un-distracted from this thing that is keeping me distracted. I don't know how to explain it. This thing is something that doesn't help me in any way whatsoever, but I am spending time and effort (and money) on it because I just want to and it makes me happy. At this point, the only thing keeping me from quitting work is money, I need it to finance this thing that is keeping me distracted.
I don't know, things are messy. I wish things weren't so difficult all the time. I wish I didn't have to work so hard to receive so little money that there's nothing left over once the next paycheck comes. I hate how things work in this world.
R.
0 notes
dathen · 5 months
Text
If Gold King Gibson doesn’t win the Worst Client bracket I’m doing I’m going to disown this webbed site. Holy shit.
29 notes · View notes
blinkpen · 11 months
Text
Tumblr media
it was a real zinger, too, i can FEEL it in my bones, what WAS it,
68 notes · View notes
petricharme · 7 months
Text
real men stay up late sobbing over stupid fictional gay people from 200 years ago (it is 3 AM and my eyes are red and hurting)
44 notes · View notes
koko-heads · 8 months
Text
yuma: i want to kiss him.
shinigami: desuhiko?
yuma: uh, no. kurumi. wasn't that clear?
shinigami: you said "him"?
33 notes · View notes
0bliv1xus · 1 year
Text
╰ ─┉─¡! • !¡─┉─ ╯
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
» The outfit, the slightly purple hair, the worker drone features.. could this be a new encounter? Or are we going to find a old face..
I'm actually praying this isn't Uzi, and here's WHY |ˎˊ-🤺🤺
₍^ >ヮ<^₎🔪
─────═━┈━═─────
|| I feel it's too early on in the series for Uzi to be a DD. ||
|| Maybe it's just me but I would like the series to slowly (if she was going to yk..) drone on and then BOOM !! ||
|| Uzi just suddenly being a DD just doesn't sound right to me. ||
|| So, I'm either hoping it's the unnamed maid in EP: 2, some new DD, Nori/Doll or some kooky crazy worker drone. (highly unlikely.) ||
|| Though it CAN be a new DD.. a very odd looking one at that due to the fact they have very WD features ||
|| `` But the eyes! The headband! The tail! Why are they not glowing? `` in EP: 3 at 15:06-15:10, N's and V's headband lights and tail lights are off, except for their eyes. This could be a "stealth" mode DD have. Or maybe in that particular scene it's a lighting choice. ||
|| Or maybe they can choose stealth mode >:) ||
|| On the strange drone, all lights are OFF, including the eyes. Which oh nooaao we can't figure anything out. ||
|| I will probably be devastated if it is actually Uzi, yes I see you are excited and giggling for the fact that it might be Uzi and her whole "DD transformation phase ooo spoopy" and to that I say, ME TOO! I did want this sorts thing to happen, but I feel like it's too early.. like.. REALLY EARLY ||
|| still excited for what they do for EP: 4 :33 ||
─────═━┈━═─────
97 notes · View notes