Though I used to wish we had never met, I have now realized that leaving eachother be is for the best. I'm glad we met at the time that we did. It wasn't the right time for us, it wasn't the right time for me, I wasn't ready to manage the emotions you made me feel. They were good feelings nonetheless, but I felt confused, I didn't know that I could be loved and cherished by someone like you. You made me feel the most loved I have ever felt in a romantic way. I am so thankful to you for showing me how I deserve to be loved. I regret not realizing sooner that you were perfect for me. whether you felt the same way about me or not will remain a mystery I'll long to uncover. All I know is that I truly hope you meant to make me feel every emotion I felt, good and bad. If i were to stop writing this letter I'm afraid I'd continue to long for your words. I'll move on the same way I'd like to believe you have. In every relationship I'll look for the same treatment you gave me, though I doubt I'll find someone remotely similar to you and I hope it remains that way. I'd like to remember you for how you treated me rather than being reminded of you through someone else, as I'd also remind myself of how I let you go. You've taught me so much about myself and I'll continue to thank you for it whether you know it or not. You deserve to find someone who loves you with the same capability that you love them. If that person is me I hope our hearts guide eachother together someday, if not then I hope you find your way to your person, the one who will love you and watch you complete and build dreams with.
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"I'd tell my twenty-year old self that there is more to life than trying to heal someone else. There is more than having to give up yourself in the process. There's more than building the world around them"
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Dear you...
It’s been four months since we parted from each other’s lives.
See the thing with people is, they have got to understand that they absolutely cannot keep hurting other people simply because they are hurt. That’s what I tried so hard to get you to understand - we needed to end the cycle of hurting each other, and to heal from what we were dealing with. I didn’t want to end things on a bad note; I wanted to end things with peace and understanding, hence why I agreed to talk to you.
But why did I end up doing all the talking and you basically said nothing, other than accusing me of not caring anymore and breaking your heart? I broke your heart, but what about mine? What about how I felt so low one night and you didn’t support me, you instead turned it around on yourself because you were “triggered as this reminded you of your ex”? What about when I asked time and time again for just simple communication, yet I was accused of doing too much and not caring enough, or not caring about you? I asked you time and time again for the bare fucking minimum, and got NOTHING? I even gave you an out and told you that I would understand if things were too much as I knew you had a lot on your plate, and you got mad at ME? BUT IT WAS OKAY WHEN YOU SUGGESTED IT? Okay.
I guess the gifts and the flowers that I never asked for were supposed to make up for the fact that emotionally, you were unavailable. (I threw everything out by the way, fuck that.)
I don’t understand you, I never understood you. I truly think you needed to heal from your past relationship before you started a new one. I think you latched onto me because I was different from her. I was cool, calm, collected; loyal and brutally honest. You latched on quick because I was different, but how I was I going to erase 10 years of behaviors in the span of 14 months?
You needed to heal before you got to me.
I truly wish you well. I think of you sometimes and hope that you are rethinking your life, getting help for the things that you needed to get help with. I’m doing me, healing from my past, and learning to thrive on my own.
I pray that the same is happening for you.
But please don’t come back. There’s too much water under the bridge, and I refuse to drown with you if you come back.
Signed, me.
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I spent so long worrying about how hard it would be to lose you that I never thought about how freeing it would be to let you go
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my bright yellow light
only one i made an effort to find in darkest nights
my epochal secret
all to the walls, to my missed calls, i had to whisper your existence
my shiniest sauf road that leads us right to our burrow
my stainless gold
no one should hear about you, no one should know
- ivy haze
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I regret telling you how much you mean to me,
I regret showing you the extent I can go for you,
I regret putting your needs before mine,
I regret letting you use me over time,
But I do not regret ever loving you.
-MysMiA
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"I’ve never been very good at leaving things behind. I tried, but I have always left fragments of myself there too, like seeds awaiting their chance to grow."
- Joanne Harris
- Embeccy 🥀
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But we were happy once, I remember, foolish smiles on our faces. But I cannot summon the feeling, It's been too many years covered in bitterness.
From the lonesome nights, with you there beside me. Hollow. Silence slept like a baby between us. And I was not really with you anymore. I was inside my head, in mind. Living a different life. And you, were no longer in it.
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sometimes late at night
i imagine you’re there next to me
my blanket holds me as your arms once did
the pillow, your chest where your heart played a rhythm to my ear
all these memories of a love that never was
i should just let it all go
but i lie here
tearing up as i hear “chasing cars”
- 3am thoughts
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watching you fall in love with someone else other than me was hard. watching my whole entire base of life crumble down was hard. watching you be someone else’s buddy,best friend, partner was hard. oh how I wanted to be that person. i was. once upon a time. we moved on in life. i still love you. even if it doesn’t count anymore. you don’t look at me anymore. i am not so deserving as a glance towards my direction. i let you go and you took the opportunity, ran with it and made something of yourself. the instant i let you go i regretted it. i tried to move on too. i got a new job, a new place in life, new people to experience but none matched up with you. the sunshine in my sunrise. the sun lighting up the surface. but you left like a sunset. slowly becoming darker and darker in my life until you lit up the moon. covered by something. just the presence of memories you were. so therefore. let’s be strangers again. thank you for the sunset and sunrise. find another solar system, for i cannot revolve around you anymore. im tired.
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