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#life gets better
positivelypositive · 1 month
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if it seems like...
...life is a lot for you to handle right now, then please know that it WILL get better.
life has no option but to ride the sine wave of good and bad times. it may take a while sometimes but the flip side always shows up.
keep holding on. you got this ✨
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lo-vena · 3 months
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I want to check if you've finally notice my absence. And if you do, do you wonder what happened?
Are you worried of my state?
I want to know if you also think about me the same way I always do. And if you do, do you also miss me?
Are you longing for me?
So I badly want to go back— to look back at the very least, and just accept this reality.
But I also know that the only way to never feel this down again is to never let you make me feel down for the countless time again.
-vena
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befemininenow · 1 year
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saintchaser · 7 months
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so idk if you knew this about me but i was never exactly a confident person. i used to be really insecure about my appearance and personality (hell, sometimes i still am (call that having great friends that make you feel like shit sometimes)) but i’ve been working on it and recently i’ve felt more like myself than ever. i am doing things i like doing and i interact with people wherever i go. i surround myself with (mostly) people that appreciate me and i’ve been making new friends. falling in love. life feels like it’s worth living again.
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111-12-22 · 4 months
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💗💕🌸🎀
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ddlc3177 · 3 months
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the-anxious-artiste · 3 months
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Little rant about a negative experience coming out to one of my friends...
So I was recently speaking to a friend about finally pursuing transitioning, and the only thing she could say about it was a warning to "maybe give your new name/pronouns a few years of a test run first before doing something permanent" (said in reference to me wanting to start taking hormones).
Now, I am very lucky to have a few amazing people in my life. Most of them took the news without any shock and a couple were actually more impressed that I finally admitted it (they knew before I did).
But this person, she basically told me that I need to suffer even longer before my experience is considered valid in her eyes. The good old "I didn't notice you struggling so it must not be true" mentality. First of all, listen... gravity still works even if we can't see it!!! I've always been trans, I just wasn't ready to accept it until now. Secondly, do you think this is easy for me? Did you think I wanted this? Do you think I'd ever choose to sign up for a life of misunderstandings and hate and bigotry and transphobia and general shit "just because?" To potentially lose my friends or family over this decision I've made for myself?
I guess I'm just tired of being expected to justify my decision as if I haven't suffered enough. I denied myself for so long hoping to just "be normal" and "get over it" so that life would be easier and simpler. News flash... Life's easier and simpler when you aren't miserable from being misgendered and deadnamed, and when you can actually be excited for the future in where you will one day look into the mirror and not hate what you see.
Anyway, what I'm getting at is don't be an asshole. Support your people. Ditch anyone who tries to stop you from living your truth.
I need another nap.
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flyingfar · 10 months
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You’ll love again.
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I had a long hard day, but my girlfriend picked me up from work with a thermos of raspberry tea and took me to get some food. Things get so much better.
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artsyriv · 1 year
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It’s taken a long time to get where I am.
But, as is often the case, all of the hardship and pain has led to this moment. And yeah, it’s really different than I thought it would be.
I’m not skinny, which my ED would hate and does still hate from the back of my mind. I’m disabled, which would be a shock to every iteration of myself prior to 2021. But most of all, I’m stable.
I get up in the morning, exhausted as I’m going through a med change on top of the regular fatigue, and I put on clothes. They weren’t the clothes I wore two years ago, when I entered treatment. They aren’t smaller. But I’m ok with that.
I put on long compression socks and then my braces, trying to keep my joints in line. This ritual is so normal to me now, but it’s also new. A part of me grieves my health. But I keep moving forward.
I eat breakfast, take my pile of pills, sit in front of a sunlamp, hoping that today will be a better day than most.
When I get to the place I’ve been visiting since August 2021, I banter with the receptionist. I don’t mention how I took the stairs for the first time in months, how I was able to speak after doing so. These reminders of improvement, reminders of recovery, give me something to strive for as I continue.
And I’m done. Yesterday I had my last IOP day, today it was the last of my screening, but I’m done.
I’m having a small party to celebrate.
I buy myself a coffee, the kind I used to like before my ED took control of my life. It’s as good as I remember it.
I go grocery shopping with some friends, and I buy things that look good. I don’t look at the calories, because I don’t need to. I am fueled by nutrients regardless.
I wear headphones most of the time. My room is dark, and I take salt pills and use a cane sometimes. I have learned that these aids are here for a reason, and I use them.
I talk to friends. I hold conversations, and I seek community. My disorder thrives in secrecy, so I talk about the book I’m reading and special effects. I laugh and nobody needs me to make eye contact.
I don’t spiral. Not like I used to. I’m cutting off my family, and I don’t spiral about it. I don’t spiral when a conservative account sends hate my way, I don’t spiral with a new diagnosis, I don’t spiral when I get a haircut I don’t immediately love. I’m stable (thanks DBT) and it’s so much nicer here.
It’s been a long journey, but my kitchen is an embarrassment of riches and my room is a haven. I’m going to play board games and it’s going to be fun.
My recovery was, and will always be, worth it. I promise there’s a light on the other side.
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meguwumibear · 26 days
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it's honestly comical at this point how much gege hates gojo im crying
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lo-vena · 4 months
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And sometimes, you're living too much in your head that you don't even know what you feel.
You don't even recognize your own thoughts. You don't have any idea on your feelings.
All you know is your heart is heavy and your mind is breaking. The heavier the heart feels, the more your mind break— as if there was a chain linking the two.
So how do we break that chain? How do we get out? How can we be better? Motivation? Time? Comfort? Love? Acceptance?
Truth is, I've got no idea how to get out.
Truth is, I don't want to get out. I don't want to break the chain. Because if I do, then it remains— waiting for the right thoughts to trap me again.
All I know is I will own it. I will feel it. I will be it— without losing the vision of who I want to be.
Truth is, we are both our good and bad thoughts and emotions. We are built in the shades of blue, red, yellow and everything in between.
Truth is, it's okay feel stuck in the rapid changes of the world. It's okay to be alone and be lonely about it. We all go through changes.
And all I know is for as long as we persevere, that blinding or dark road will soon be clear.
-vena
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roses-red-and-pink · 5 months
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My Period started today at work and I had no tampons and there were none in the bathrooms. And then I had to go to the lawyers for divorce proceedings so not super fun. but the good thing is I’m at home now with my kitty and a cup of peppermint tea and a subpar romance book so life is not all bad
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justjohn4now · 7 months
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Not a bad night. Can't wait till birthday weekend. Whiskey Creek here we come!!
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touchmahbiscuits · 7 months
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Hello everyone, been gone for a very long time. Won't lie, life got the better of me and I was in a bad place, but things have finally turned around for the better. Hoping to pick up my stories back up and hopefully open up for requests soon!
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