#life with adhd

[adhd-soul]

For real 😭

#adhd memes #adhd feels #adhd mood #adhd culture #adhdawareness #adhdlife #adult adhd #adhd #life with adhd #adhd stuff #neurodivergent #living with adhd #neurodivergence #actually adhd

[bacchicly]

The ADHD urge to solve all your problems by buying a new pretty perfect notebook.

#life with adhd #adhd

[adhdgirl-d96]

Aren't you afraid of how destabilizing it is to a person with ADHD to know that someone has your heart in their hands and can do whatever they please with it?

》 They can love it

》 They can destroy it

》 They can deceive it

》 They can confuse you so much that it causes you inexplicable pain.

Normally when people with ADHD fall in love, our joy and excitement may be more intense. We may feel a deep sense of intimacy and acceptance, perhaps for the first time. We may also increase our self-confidence, something many people with ADHD lack. The combination of feelings can be overwhelming for those of us with ADHD.

#adhd #adhd problems #the struggle of my life #adhd things #adhd brain #anxiety struggles #adhdwomen #living with adhd #adhd love #adult adhd #neurodivergent love #actually adhd #life with adhd

[completeandrandomshit]

Life with ADHD

Interviewer: What's your greatest stregnth? Me: ADHD. Interviewer: What's your greatest weakness? Me: ADHD.

#adhd #attention deficit hyperactivity disorder #attention defecit hyperactive disorder #add #attention defecit disorder #life with adhd #mental health #mental health issues #cognitive issues

[adhd-and-life]

Will I ever feel okay

#going through it rn lmao #adhd #life with adhd

[empressgreyofphoenix]

*scrolling through Tumblr*

Wait a second...

Where's my birth certificate?!?

#adhd jokes #adult adhd #adhd #life with adhd

[gillianthecat]

There are so many shows out right now that I've been anticipating for a long time, for a year now, or even almost two, and I simply cannot allow myself to want to watch them.

I will have to save them all for when I have the time to get distracted.

#the 3 that I'm thinking of now are Only Friends‚ Dangerous Romance‚ and Wheel of Time S2 #plus all the others that I didn't even know to anticipate but look good #not watching #theoretically a person should be able to switch back and forth between watching shows and doing schoolwork #but alas i have found i cannot #and i am not efficient enough with studying to have the free time :-( #hopefully I will get more efficient as the semester goes on. but chances are I'll get less efficient instead. #gillianthecat's life #gillianthecat goes back to school #life with adhd

[cherieye]

Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria Be Like:

Have a mental break down everytime you post something on the internet that is very personal or means a lot to you and fighting the urge to delete it...and often losing the battle.

PS: This post will most likely be deleted

#rejection sensitive disorder #rejection sensitivity #rejection sensitive dysphoria #Rejection Sensitivity Dysphoria #adhd problems #trauma #ptsd #hyper sensitive #life with adhd #actually adhd #adhd tumblr #adhd post

[mamabear937]

When you have an ADHD scientist who also likes art for a son...you end up with him building a contraption to literally draw for him automatically while he spins in circles through the house. Never a dull moment. 😂

#art #science #children #adhd #life with adhd #life with a mad scientist #parenting #parenthood #amusing #impressive #loves art but cant focus on it

[1334frogsinatrenchcoat]

me trying to start a 350 minimum words discussion post: idk if I can do it man…

One mania induced 700< word mini-essay later: how did we get here

#college #college life #life with adhd

[adhd-soul]

Felt this in my soul

#adhd #adhd culture #adhd feels #adhd mood #adhd stuff #adhdawareness #adhdlife #adult adhd #living with adhd #life with adhd #neurodivergent #actually adhd #adhd memes #neurodivergence #adhd blog

[k0nv4l10]

RSD (rejection sensitive dysphoria) is literally one of THE WORST ADHD symptoms for me.

Like literally, you CONSTANTLY feel like you're and asshole, and nobody likes you, that no matter how much you try, EVERYBODY IS GOING TO HATE YOU. It's feels really shitty when you can't handle any rejection, because rejection means — you're not good enough, you're never going to succeed, you shouldn't even try.

It's also feels shitty because you understand that you think badly about your friends and family, and you can't stop it, and you feer that if they find out that you think that they hate you, they gonna feel bad, or actually gonna start hating you, or feel bad because you think about them like they gonna hurt your feelings, and you don't want it, right? So what do we do? That's right, pile it up until we burst into tears on the floor because nobody likes you....

It's sucks....

#adhd #rsd #rejection sensitive dysphoria #attention deficit hyperactivity disorder #adhd symptoms #life with adhd #anxiety #i feel awful

[bacchicly]

List day + a bit of journaling

I am feeling sorry for myself today - amid a mix of other emotions and I know that when I start to get resentful of the universe it can lead to bad things...especially if I push it down or try to pretend that everything is fine. The challenge is I feel guilty about feeling cheated. I compare my pain to those around me and know that I actually have it pretty good...VERY good. But feelings...they don't understand scale and feelings are not there for anyone but me. If I am to talk to myself the way I would talk to a friend (isn't it annoying that hackenied advice like that is actually good? Gah.) I have to tell myself I am allowed to feel what I feel and not worry about it...not feel guilty...but yes make a choice to express it in a way that will not hurt those I care about and love. Express it in a way so that it doesn't poison future moments. I need to lean into my decision to live like I matter and that I deserve care and that I may not be able to choose how I feel but I can take steps to choose how I express them. (Oh god...it's like I am turning into an after-school special...a televangelist or pop psychologist...blech).

Context - I took this week off partly because my kid was supposed to be at school this week and had an overnight school trip planned for tonight...but...and I 100% know it is worse for them...they are coughing too much to go. So they are going to be home today and tomorrow and then into the weekend. And my time I planned to spend mostly alone doing chores or hanging out with my husband is now not going to happen.

Ok so what am I feeling?

Afraid- I had things to do this week and frankly I have done none of them yet. And I know I can still do them but having my kid here makes it more complicated and there is no way I am going to get as much as I hoped done...and I know people always tell you that there are more things in life than a clean house...but guys? Mine is not untidy. It is filthy. It is covered in pile and piles of stuff - not all of it mine of course - but that just makes it more complicated to tackle. If it was all mine - yes it would be easier - but then I would also be alone and not have the good things. Easy is not always good. Simple is not always the more beautiful choice...But if I am choosing a life that is complex....then I need to bring more complex skills to the table. I need to give myself the gifts of time and kindness and space to practice them.

Gah. I need that meme...the one that is about taking my stupid body for a walk...or the grumpy penguin making valentines...

You know what I hate? I hate that manslowe's hierarchy of needs makes it seem like it's a linear process that if you are self actualized you have clearly mastered the lower stuff. That is fucking hooyie. I am great at self actualizing. I am terrible at some of the lower stuff and so are many maybe most of us. Fuck you manslowe. (No don't come at me I know that wasn't exactly what the pyramid was trying to say...but the long term impact has not been good...well except the legacy of those memes that alter it. I fucking could eat those.

Ok. So what else do I feel?

Angry? Disappointed? Why me? Frustrated?

Yeppers. Life is sometimes not fair and it is no one's fault. And I am allowed to feel that shit. I deserve to. It's part of life's tapestry. But...I can choose how I process it. I can learn new skills. I can vent to strangers and friends on the internet and not be a jerk (knock wood) to my family. I can sit and let the feelings take me on their glorious rollercoaster. I can enjoy thinking about why anger is so much more comfy for me than fear or sadness or helplessness. I can think about how lucky we are to have petty disappointments and tragedy (for now at least) and use this time to practice my skills for when it is harder. When I don't have time or space to process right away. When it is something harder and less clear cut - with far fewer upsides. Using tragedy to practice for tragedy feels gross and grizzly in some ways... but at least it is doing. At least it makes me stronger and less likely to hurt people I love. At least it makes it easier to ask for what I need to keep going.

I downloaded a new app... Designed to help manage ADHD...it costs a fair amount for the year - but about the same as one massage or therapy appointment - and I have a 7 day trial. So I am trying to decide if it's something I should commit to. It's confusing though because I know my first while with anything new is a honeymoon...and eventually I will disengage. But I am working on taking that into account but also not not taking opportunities because of it. I think this could be good for me. Therapy has fallen by the wayside for now... And my other apps aren't working. This is working right now...but...while I have no plans on changing...change will come. Friends or myself will have life things that may prompt us to either change apps or the app itself may cease to exist or even if I use tumblr ...or the list day thing may just stop working...I mean it morphs regularly already and works sometimes and not others. So I just need to keep swimming. Fortunately I love swimming.

I think though...this new app and tumblr could work well together for awhile. And me going through the structured learning and activities wouldn't hurt. And not actually having to talk to a therapist means...well it's a bit like writing fan fiction...I can jump right in...I don't have to paint the picture and go through the usual rigamarole of having to explain the nuances of my character and life to give the therapist context....which tends to just make me feel defensive and kind of bored. My life is so far from anyone's textbook...it's hard to catch people up quickly (and then they want to keep telling me "everyone" feels that way about everything and I just feel like shouting ...keep up! I know that! I am not stupid! Besides if I want to take an hour out of my schedule to talk to someone...I'd rather spend time with someone I am allowed to love and care about or at least produce things with...therapists can only be therapists. You aren't allowed to be friends or write a play together or draft new policy. And it's unfair because they are always such interesting and dynamic people. No. I will talk here. I will paint the walls of my blog and write fan fic and then have coffee with my husband and go camping with my kid. I will carve out time to finish the plays I am writing and email the director I was talking to last week and arrange to do a reading of one of my WIP.

Yes I have mental stuff. Yes I have physical stuff. Yes I have a difficult but rewarding job. Yes I have a difficult but wonderful home life. But that's what life is. Plot. Improv. Contribution.

Ok I feel better. I can and will do this life thing. One step.... One blog post... One list at a time. There is too much beautiful and terrible not to. I will kiss the damn whole thing open mouthed. I will fucking make a meal of it. I will go big and be home!

Ta da! Tra la! Ok now for my list. It is 11:43... And I have the whole damn day to make the world a bit of a better place...

Ok

Journal - ta done!

Make list - started!

Go downstairs and make lunch for me and my gang.

Eat and watch Golden girls with my kid. Tell them how proud I am of them for making the decision to stay home (I was ready to make a decision if pressed but instead I did a good job of setting it up so my kid could make the decision on their own. I am proud of that.)

Do the dreaded dishes but revel in how brave and awesome I am at it - even the yucky parts. Take that stupid dishes! I will set a damn timer for an hour (audio book) and race to finish. Stay on task!

Clean out the fridge drawer of death. Light sabers optional.

Find the library book that is tragically overdue. See if I can still return it or if I have to pay the replacement fee. Get my library card reinstated. (If you guys ever think ADHD is not a thing or that I am not the poster child...we'll give your head a shake.

Sit at the library for an hour or so and do whatever the fuck I want. Delicious.

See where I am at.

If you read this far...or even just skipped to the end. Thank you for being here. Whether you comment or like or just lurk and leave nothing...please know just by being a witness to this tiny side show you are making a difference. Me being able to use this space ...to feel like someone out there is watching... It helps a lot. It makes me much stronger and more likely to behave in a way I can be proud of. It means I do less harm. So thank you.

#bacchic dances #list day #adhd #life with adhd

[heresiae]

so, I have gastritis, which means:

no tea, coffee, chocolate, guarana, or any other simulating molecule (I tried yesterday after a week o meds, IT DIDN'T GO WELL).

except, that I'm an autistic ADHD and I have very low challenging tasks at work.

send the occasional positive thought for me, because my deadlines are accumulating and the anxiety is not helping fighting the gastritis.

#life with adhd #and anxiety #I so need a therapist specialized in those

[completeandrandomshit]

Cooking with ADHD:

Step 1: Put food on stove to cook.

Step 2: Go do something else while waiting for it to cook.

Step 3: Forget that you have it cooking.

Step 4: Smell it burning or starting to burn.

Step 5: Head back to the kitchen to finish what you've started, or to assess whatever damage you may or may not have caused.

#life with adhd #attention deficit hyperactive disorder #life with add #attention deficit disorder #add #adhd #mental health #neurodiversity #neurodivergent #life #cooking #food

[opeking]

I stood on tippy toes,

and let darkness kiss me on the forehead.

Affection so chilling cold;

I burn with the fires of despair.

~ Ope K. King

#poetryporn #depression #darkness #poetry #quotes by me #writeblr #life with adhd #poetry community #writers of tumblr #spilled words