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Teach Me

Ch. 5

Positions of Power

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She'd spent the last six days going over this moment. Memorizing and choreographing what she'd say and exactly how she'd say it. Because while she'd made an absolute idiot out of herself in every imaginable way the week prior, there was little that ever stopped her when she felt this specific kind of steeled determination. 

Because Clarke was sweet. 

And she was funny. 

And she was, pathetically, the first friend Lexa had made in longer than she was proud of. 

At least… Lexa hoped she could call her that. 

If she hadn't ruined it already. 

But even if she had, through her awkward bumbling and constant missteps, Lexa was still determined to at least try to fix the entire mess she had made. 

The fact was, she couldn't keep going like this. Walking around with this nagging weight hanging around her neck. Spending day in and day out replaying every interaction in her head.

And she got it. She honestly did. She understood why Clarke had taken the step back that she had. She understood why Clarke barely asked questions anymore and why she hadn't dropped by her office in days. 

Two lonely lunches alone had been more than enough to drive the point home.

Lexa had fucked up. 

She could own that. How she'd let her own personal idiocy get in the way of the first person she'd felt drawn to in ages. How her inappropriateness and subsequent flailing would've confused any person with a functioning brain. 

But she could handle this. She could salvage this friendship without making an even bigger disaster out of this mess. 

So she'd determined to do the only reasonable, logical thing a one could do in such a situation. 

Lie through her teeth.

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#clexa #clexa fic #lexa x clarke #I'll probably keep editing this for days but I just wanted to put something good out in the world with all the ugliness recently #hope you're all having a lovely day💕 #prof/stu au #teach me #another terrible moodboard🥰 #life would be so much easier if there were better pics available of E istg it's like finding holy grails to get ones that work