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straawberries · 2 months

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ahahaha. really scared right now this is serious 👍👍👍

I HAVE LESS THAN 3 MONTHS LEFT UNTIL IM KICKED OUT AND DONATIONS ARE AT THEIR ALL TIME LOW WHEN I NEED THEM THE MOST

i am less than halfway towards my goal of 2000 dollars to survive moving out, and at the moment, if current trends hold up, im.. probably not gonna make that amount. i dont know what will happen to me if im not able to safely move out, im a visibly trans autistic person living in texas.

for the love of god, please, if you can, donate anything, and if you can send this to like.. rich friends, or friends with nice jobs, or friends with money they dont need, because i could seriously use some help

im appreciating all the encouraging words ive been getting but.. while kind, words will only get me so far. i dont exactly have options for places to live, so the only place i can go if i dont manage to get enough to move out is on the streets.

i get seeing these posts a lot is annoying, i get doing something about it is annoying, i get clicking on a link and sending money is more than you wanted to do while scrolling tumblr, but if everyone who saw this post and had the ability sent me money, i might make it. things are looking bleak, and im looking everywhere i can for sources of income, but at my current pace.. im donezo without a miracle, i think.

C*SH*PP - @delilahswagga

P*YP*L - @delilahkill

i guess ill do the whole thing again

hi! im delilah, im a plural autistic trans girl in an abusive household in a shitty town in texas. ive been incapable of getting a job because no businesses are trans-friendly and i cant exactly pass as cis, i rarely have enough food in the house, and to top it all off, on june 1 2024 (my birthday, in less than 3 months) i am going to be kicked out onto the streets regardless of what i do. i have no options for places to live, i have no options for actual income, so i have to resort to begging on the internet. i know its annoying but.. i really dont know what else i can do that i havent already tried.

i promise to you, if your money goes to me and helps me survive, it wont be a waste. i have so many dreams that i am desperate to fulfill, im in a large polycule (the above banner is my polycule's "logo"/"flag") with people i love and people that love me dearly, and one day i want to live with as many of my partners as i can, and open a bakery with my boyfriend finn. i try to be the best person i can be, i try to help my friends when they need it (and plenty of my friends have told me ive saved their lives or made their lives much better) and. i just want to live. i dont know how to continue this without just sounding like im guilt tripping, so ill sign off here.

please dont scroll past this. share it if you can, copy the link and post it among you friends just to see if they can help, anything, for the love of god.

#plural #autistic #trans #transgender #trans woman #t4t #polyamorous #polyam #actually autistic

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ilovedazaiosamu · 1 year

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Why not me?

author’s note: hi☺️ i had a bad and horrible week and why not some dazai angst? also please forgive me if this fanfic isn’t satisfying enough for you.

characters : dazai, reader(you), another woman

genre: angst, hurt/no comfort, you died,|| by suicide, lmao

summary : Osamu Dazai, your husband, gets bored of you and decides to get into a relationship with another person, you find out. What happens next?

I recommend you to listen to Mitski while reading this, especially the song “why didn’t you stop me?” or “washing machine heart”

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You were waiting for Dazai to come home from work, he usually came home earlier than you but ever since last week, he started to come home late.

You then decided to make dinner for yourself and him while waiting. The door creeked open, and behind the door was Dazai. “Dazai!! where were you? why were you taking so long to get out of work?” you asked him in a curious tone. ‘Dammit, when can she shut the fuck up?’ Dazai thought to himself, wondering when can you stop trying to meddle into his problems, “Oh, something just came up at work. Now can you please get off of me? I want to change.” Dazai responded to you. You wondered why he was suddenly so distant from the last week, then you saw something you didn’t want to see.

‘A fucking hickey? on his fucking neck? is he cheating on me? Am I not good enough for him? Should I ask him about it?’ You thought to yourself. “Is there something wrong, Belladonna?” Dazai asked you, in a worried tone, you shook your head and brushed your thoughts away. “Did you have your dinner yet, Dazai?” “Oh yeah, I did, no need to make me dinner, I’m full” ‘Yeah full eating out someone else’s pussy’ you thought to yourself.

“Oh okay. I’ll go to bed now.” You responded to him. Walking to your shared bed, knowing that your husband doesn’t love you anymore, and that your nightmare came true. “Why not me?” You whispered to yourself, closing your eyes to go to sleep and wish for a great dream.

The next morning😦😦(im wishing i wont have a next morning)

You woke up, not feeling Dazai’s presence in your bed. Frowning, you got up to shower and went to the pharmacy, planning to buy medicine because it felt like you had a headache . As you were walking home, you saw Dazai, at a restaurant, sitting with another woman. You decided to let him be because, why would you interrupt him from being happy? You saw him smiling at the woman, holding her hand, wishing that it was you instead. You were about 35ft. away from your house, and near your house was an alleyway. “SOMEONE!! PLEASE HELP ME!” a voice screamed, you wondered who it was and being worried and curious, you ran to the alleyway to help the person who was screaming for help.

You saw a girl, who looked like she was only 14, holding another girl in her arms, which you assumed that it’s someone probably important for her, both being held hostage. “Hey, are you okay?” You asked running towards them in a worried tone. “Hey! Get away from the children or I’ll shoot.” The kidnapper said, threatening and holding unto the gun. Little did they know, a policeman is running to the commotion because of the little girl’s scream for help. You suddenly jumped in front of the gun, and out of luck, only your shoulder was shot at and not anywhere at your chest. “Run, please, I can handle it, and please, get some help.” You said to the little girl who was shocked. She ran into the policeman who was on his way to see what happened in the scene. “Sir! please! Help the woman there! She got shot!!” She cried at the policeman as he went and saw your body, on the floor, unconscious due to loss of too much blood. As for the kidnapper there, he tried to run but he couldn’t. He ended up getting arrested, and for the girl she went back to her family safely with her sister. Oh… but for you? You ended up in the hospital. Once you woke up, you got questioned if you had anyone close to you to visit you by the nurse. “Oh.. yes, I do, his name is Dazai Osamu, he is my husband. Now where is my phone? I’ll call him.” “Ma’am, I’m sorry but calls are not allowed in the hospital unless the staff is the one calling.” “What about you call him? I’m sure you won’t mind, right?” “Of course. I’ll give him a call that you’re injured and that you’re in the hospital, anything extra you want to say to him?” “No, thank you” You responded to the offer. The nurse went outside to call Dazai by using your phone. She then went back inside after 2-4 minutes and gave your phone back. “Please call for me if you have any complications with moving or if anything hurts. I’ll get the doctors, okay?” the nurse said. “Alright.” You responded.

Soon after Dazai ran to the hospital, leaving his mistress alone for the date.

“Belladonna! Are you okay? the nurse told me you got shot and lost alot of blood!! Oh please, tell me you are!” Dazai barged into your room, the nurse telling him to be quiet politely and left the two of you alone. “Belladonna? is there something wrong? Do you feel unwell?” “Of course I do, Dazai, you think seeing your own husband going out with other woman doesn’t make you sick?” Dazai’s eyes widened to your response, wondering how you found out. “Suprised? Oh don’t even think your that good at hiding things away from me. I know you better than I know myself. You are just like a part of me, Dazai. We’ve been together for years and you think you can still hide stuff away from me?” “Belladonna- I’m sorry, okay? Please forgive me, I really am. When I heard from the nurse that you got shot, it made me feel an uneasy feeling in my stomach too. I’m so sorry, belladonna, I didn’t mean to hurt you.” “Am I not good enough for you, Osamu?” you said with teary eyes, not daring to look right at him. “Belladonna, you are, I am just such a selfish man and I thought, I didn’t deserve you because you were beyond the meaning of the word kindness. Please, my love, don’t leave me.” “I won’t leave you, but you deserve someone much more better than me, Osamu. I kind of need some space right now, honey, so please leave me alone.” “As you wish, my beloved.” Dazai said as he left a room, with a sad look on his face. He felt bad for you and decided to prepare some gifts for you once he will go back to visit you tomorrow.

The next day, he went into the hospital and then to your room, but when he was just near the door, he heard a shriek from your room. He went to your room and then saw the nurse shocked, and your body, unconscious, on the floor. He rushed to your body, feeling this nostalgic feeling that he felt with his dearest friend, Oda. “Belladonna! You must be joking! open your eyes!! please… don’t die on me..” he cried, checking your pulse and heartbeat. And he didn’t feel or hear anything. He tried again and again trying to hear your heartbeat, he tried finding the warmth of your body, but it wasn’t there. “What happened to her…?” He asked the nurse, and she said she doesn’t know because she also just went in to check up on you because she heard a sound from your room. “Well??? WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR GET SOME FUCKING HELP!” Dazai screamed at the nurse, his voice was cracking. The nurse rushed to get some help and once she did, he had to wait outside for you. And when the doctor told him, “I’m sorry, she couldn’t make it. We tried our best.” “No. no. no. no. no NO!! You have to be joking. My wife is a strong woman. She cannot just die easily! She can’t just leave me!!” Was Dazai’s response. He ran into your room and looked at your body. It looked like it was so cold, and it was. There was no signs of warmth in your body. “Belladonna? Sweetheart?? Darling?? My love…? just wake up… please.. don’t leave me..” Dazai said and then held your hand. “I love you so much, [name]. I hope you’re in peace right now, so please forgive for what I have done to you. You deserve better.” He said as he was trying to accept the fact that you’re dead. That you killed yourself because of him. That you died because of him. That you got your heartbroken, by him. He doesn’t ever want to let you go, but he has to because you have to go. You were the light of his world, and now, his world darkened once again.

• • That was so cheesy wtf || any req?? i only do bsd, genshin

#dazai osamu x reader #dazai x reader #bsd dazai #bsd dazai osamu #dazai angst #dazai osamu x you #dazai x you #dazai x reader angst #dazai osamu x reader angst #bsd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs angst #bungou stray dogs angst

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orgasming-caterpillar · 7 months

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Dancing On Your Heartstrings

Chapter 17 (prev chapters)

Raghav POV

Raghav cried for a long time after Ranveer had left.

Crying would be an understatement. He choked on his sobs and hated the tears streaming down his face. Considering what a shithole he was in earlier, it was a bitter surprise that he had somehow managed to fuck everything up even more.

Firstly, he hated himself for disappointing Ranveer. The least he could've done for the guy was take care of his body so that they could win the competition like he dreamed to. But no, he tried －and failed, miserably－ to punch someone and got his fucking wrist hurt. He spent all that time getting Ranveer back to the studio only to hurt himself and sabotage their best move.

He also hated himself for not being able to keep his mouth in control. If they still had any chance of somehow making it to the competition, he ruined it by running his mouth and outing himself to Ranveer. He couldn't believe the words that had come out of his mouth. He couldn't believe he had told Ranveer that he was gay.

It wasn't that he was homophobic, but Raghav doubted any straight guy would want to dance with a gay guy, especially one who acted like a wife who just got cheated on when he saw you catching up with your ex. Let alone one with an injury. It was too goddamn complicated. Raghav made it complicated.

Would Ranveer smile at him like he used to, now that he knew Raghav was gay? Would he lend him a helping hand and help him up by his waist whenever he fell, knowing Raghav probably liked it? Would he still take sneaky candids of Raghav when they sat down to relax after an exhausting rehearsal? That is, if they still continued dancing.

Out of all things, he hated that godforsaken hope the most.

Why was he still hoping? He just made sure everything goes straight to shit. He just fucked up everything and fucked it up again for good measure.

But the way Ranveer sounded when he said, 'You're not straight?'...

Raghav had pretended to sleep. Gods knew what could happen if he hadn't. He didn't even trust himself to do so much as breathe until Ranveer left the room.

His phone chimed in his pocket. There were four texts from Karan, which he didn't give a damn about; two from an unknown number, which he didn't give half a damn about; and twelve from Madhuri, which he guiltily ignored because his heart was already picking up speed at the single text from Ranveer.

His Royal Thighness

Are you alright now?

A bitter feeling was clogging Raghav's throat. He wished this was all a dream and he would wake up to find that today had just been a long nightmare, that he's actually still just as close to Ranveer as he used to be, even if it hurt. That they were still 'friends' and the feelings in his chest were cheap enough for him to save Ranveer's number as silly nicknames.

He swallowed the lump in his throat and began typing out a reply.

Message has been deleted

Do you expect me to be?

Message has been deleted

Raghav wiped a few more tears in vain, more just kept coming, and typed out a furious passage, 'No I'm not fucking alright and nor will I be as long as you're here. Do you think I can be alright?? When you're right here talking to pretty girls all day??? Do you t hi ink i can be fucking ALRIGHT whrn you wont stop looking at me like I'm worth something to you even when im not? Im not alright Ranveer why can't you fucking see that i…'

His fingers froze where they were.

His Royal Thighness

Typing…

Raghav's hands were shaking now. He tried to read the passage he had written but couldn't bring himself to look at his own words. Gods, what if Ranveer had seen that??? He was being too reckless. He hated that Ranveer made him behave that fucking recklessly.

Raghav began deleting his rant. His heart was in his throat, because Ranveer was still typing.

His Royal Thighness

What the hell have you been typing for three whole minutes?

Raghav sobbed.

If only.

If only he could just say what the hell he had been typing. If only Ranveer wasn't straight. If only they were more than just an impossibility.

His heart was rampant in his chest, temples throbbing with how hard he had been crying. Another 'Typing…' bubble appeared on Ranveer's side. Raghav threw his phone against the wall.

The crack of his phone breaking wasn't enough to pull his thoughts away from Ranveer. He was regretting it, but not because his phone was broken. It was because he didn't get to see what Ranveer wanted to say to him. Raghav sobbed again, cringing at his own patheticness.

He managed to get out of bed to pick his phone up. Out of the corner of his eye, he saw tear stains the size of his own face on the pillow. Pathetic.

The phone was completely wrecked. Screen shattered to bits and pieces, a dent in the side that crashed against the wall, it wouldn't even turn on. Raghav cursed at himself and threw it across the room. What the fuck is even happening anymore? Why was he doing this? What was he thinking? Why did he still want to see what Ranveer had texted him?

Raghav didn't care if anyone heard anymore. He didn't want his mother to come in, didn't want her invasive questions, but he didn't have the capacity to press it down anymore.

And he couldn't even blame Ranveer. It wasn't his fault that he was straight. How could Raghav blame anyone when he broke his own heart?

The door burst open and startled him out of his misery for a moment.

"Abhi nahi na, mumm-" he begged before he realised who actually was at the door.

"What the fuck happened, Raghu?"

He stared at Madhuri, open mouthed, watching her expression turn from angry to surprised to concerned. She quickly crossed the distance between them, her caring persona taking over.

More tears welled up in Raghav's eyes. He wasn't sure how he would explain this, any of this, to Madhuri.

She started to kneel beside him on the floor, confusion and care overflowing in her eyes. "M-Madhuri, I-"

"Chup kar," she snapped, bringing him in for a rib-crushing embrace.

Gods knew he needed that.

She held him tight as his body shook with violent sobs; tried to hold together the boy shattering in her arms. Raghav was clinging to her like she was the only object of warmth in a sea of ice. It was then that he realised how stupid he was to think he would ever have to explain himself to her.

Madhuri was smaller than him, shorter, leaner, despite being older. But she definitely didn't lack any of the elder-sisterly love. She was so full of love, so unashamed of expressing it, that it was hard to believe she had been absent for years from his life. She didn't try to get him to talk, didn't even try to stop him from crying. She just let him shed his tears while she patted his back.

"Raghu?" she said once he stopped shaking, and there was such a softness in her voice that for a moment all of Raghav's worries didn't feel so daunting anymore.

"Hmm."

"You know I'd rather have you cry to me for hours instead of shedding a single tear alone."

Raghav hugged her tighter, his chest already feeling lighter.

When people think of love, they think about romance. That's the biggest tragedy of life. They think of love and how lucky they would be to have someone love them, want them, desire them. That isn't what love is at all.

Love is when you show someone the cracks in your armour, where the sheathing ends and skin begins. Love is when you give someone a knife and trust them not to stab.

Raghav hadn't cried like this in ages, especially not in front of anyone. Not that he felt embarrassed. 'Embarrassed' was a word that never existed between him and Madhuri.

He wiped his eyes, letting her pat his rumpled hair down. "Tu yaha pe kaise?" he asked, voice hoarse. "I thought you were staying with Manorama."

Madhuri looked at him as if he had truly gone insane. "Pagal, tune hi to mujhe aaj aunty aur uncle ke sath dinner ke liye bulaya tha."

Oh. He completely forgot about that.

"Sorry, I forgo-"

"I can see that, idiot. Ro kyu raha tha?"

This was why he was so god damn miserable. Hiding things from Madhuri always made him miserable. And if there was one thing that could bring him out of this wreck, even to a little extent, it was her.

"Uh, you know Ranveer?"

The furrow in her brow flattened and she narrowed her eyes in judgement. Not the 'What did he do?' judgement, but the 'I knew it' judgement. It was worse, somehow, because now he felt guilty about hiding this from her knowing that she knew he was hiding something from her. Of fucking course she knew.

So Raghav told her more.

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Ranveer was late. Again.

It was unusual for him to be late two days in a row.

Even the simple thought brought back memories of the previous day. Maybe he was busy talking to his girlfriend again. Not a girlfriend, he remembered. And then scolded himself for whatever came to his mind next. Mujhe kya.

He opened his messages app－in the phone Madhuri had lent him until he got another of his own－ and saw four new messages since last night. He recognized one of the numbers: Eric, one of his high school friends he still talked to after coming back until a while ago.

Eager for a distraction, he called back.

"Hello?" came from the other side on the third ring.

"Yeah?"

"Raghav? Remember me?"

"Yeah, dude. What's-" The door opened at that accursed time, revealing Ranveer. With his t-shirt and long hair both wet from the drizzle outside, he managed to bring Raghav's vocal abilities to verbally express his thoughts down to that of a stuttering toddler. "Uhhh."

"You okay?" asked Eric.

Ranveer's eyes met his, and something sparked like the beginning of a forest fire in his chest. "Hello?" Eric asked again. Bhaad mein ja, yaar.

Raghav cleared his throat. "Yeah, what were you saying?"

Ranveer tore his gaze away, approaching the bench on the other side of the room. Eric started to ramble about something of which Raghav understood only snippets. (High school reunion, a party of about fifty people, all his old crushes will be there)

Because his eyes were focused on, despite his best efforts, him. He took off his t-shirt, with his back to Raghav, and searched for something in his bag.

"You up for it?" Eric concluded. "Are you sure you don't have any other plans on the weekend?"

Ranveer took out a spare flannel and put it on, tying his hair back into a half-bun. He glanced back at Raghav, who fumbled for something to say to make himself seem busy. "Yeah, dude, for sure."

"Nice. I'll text you the details later. When are you coming?"

Ranveer made his way to him with his phone and speaker. "I have a big event tomorrow. I'll take a flight the day after that, hmm?"

"Nice," Eric whooped. Like, literally whooped. What the fuck was he excited about? Raghav felt like throwing up.

"Kaisi flight?" inquired Ranveer.

Would crying be a bad idea right now? It sure seemed like a tempting option.

Raghav faked nonchalance. "I'm going back to the UK."

#dancing on your heartstrings #madhav ke lekh

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thesimulacrasimp · 3 months

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So yeah, here we go again! I just watched 3rd n 4th eps of hazbin hotel so, again, my thoghts abt it. Idk if i really need to put spoilers warning anymore, but ig ill do it just in case. As with previous post there will be some screenshots.

HAZBIN HOTEL EP 3-4 SPOILERS WARNING!

So tbh i dont have much to say about 3rd ep. Overall it was a really cute ep where everyone kinda got along. Also we met alot of new overlords (that one giant wolf girl was cool as hell) n got a few bop songs. I really like all new voices we got here. Also Velvette was killin in this ep, like slay queen!! Also i didnt know this girl (idk her name srry) was Carmillas (idk if spelled the name correctly--) daughter, that really suprised me.

Ok 4th ep... I have alot to say about it. First of all when that Angels moive started i was like: WTH S GOIN ON WHAT????? Then i thoght that its Angels dream (or nightmare-) n that wolf guy was representation of Valentino. N then when its all started i was like: Oh. I get it.

Speaking about Val, when all that fire started n he opened his wings, that was FUCKING BEAUTIFUL N I REALLY DIDNT EXPECT HIM TO HAVE ACTUAL WINGS, I WAS LIKE: :O I FOR REAL ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT WAS JUST A FUR COAT--- ok n thats literally the only good i can say about Val by now.

That one awful scene with Val n Angel was literally so scary... Ive never been in SA, ive never had such "experience" (and thank GOD for that), but i know that feeling of fear when you just in trap and you cant do anything, i know how that feels to be abused, when you just hiding in corner feeling so fucking scared that you gonna get beated up n yelled again, you KNOW that will happen and you just wait for it in terrify, you literally feel yourself like a little child who cant do anything, you want to share your problems to someone, just wanna cry to someone, but you cant and you need to pretend that everything is okay. I was so scared for Angel in that scene and i really felt it. And the way Angel tried to make Charlie leave before that all happened.. Yes, he definetly knew whats gonna happen n thats so scary...

Anyway OMG VOX HIIII!!!!!! :DDDD

BTW THE FACT THAT HES HOLDING VALS HAND LIKE HE WAS ABOUT TO KISS IT----- THIS SHIP IS TAKING OVER MY BRAIN PLS SEND HELP

Yeah, yknow what really strange thing about all that? Is the fact that Val s obviously a horrible person consindering all the things he done to Angel, but he is still an ENJOYABLE CHARACTER. Like- ofc that awful abusive scene was not enjoyable at all, but for some reason i just cant hate him!! I TRY BUT I JUST CANT N THATS SO WEIRD. probably its because i know its not a real person, its just a character but still-

Also (someone pls count how many times i used this word-) i really didnt expect to see an ACTUAL SEX SCENES IN THE SONG. Ig i shouldve expect it n i kinda did, but i still didnt-

Also this little scene made me fucking cry, for real. But not the fact that Angel crying made me cry, but his line: "If i end up broken, I wont be his favourite toy anymore. And maybe he'll let me go.."

I dont know why this exact line made me cry, but it did and i think this is awesome, because they really made me care for Angel, even tho, again, ive never experienced such feelings so i cant relate to that, but i still feel so bad for him.

Ok can we talk about that Husk was AN OVERLORD??? I WAS LIKE: WHAAAAATT????

And OF COURSE that one Husk n Angels song. You already know how i feel about it so im not even gonna talk bout it! SIKE‼️I WILL!!!!! THIS SONG IS SO FRICKIN CUTE, THE FACT THAT HUSK STARTED TO JOKINGLY (or maybe not jokingly-) SAYING THAT ANGEL IS A LOSER TO BRIGHT HIM UP IS ACTUALLY SO SMART! THEYRE BOTH SO CUTE TOGETHER SINGING AND HOLDING HANDS FOR A LITTLE TOO MUCH!!! AND THIS SONG IS MUSICALLY ALSO SO AMAZING, ITS LITERALLY MY STYLE OF SONGS, MAYBE MY NEW FAV SONG I CANT REALLY TELL RN! And the meaning of this song is really good too. Whatever is happening to you, unless youre not alone, everything is better!

Andddd everything is ended quite good and wholesome! They came to the hotel, Charlie apoligized and everything is good!!

soooo yeah! Thats it i guess! Im pretty sure im gonna edit it if i remember something else i wanted to say, but thats it by now!

My review/thoughts on eps 1-2

My review/thoughts on eps 5-6

My review/thoughts on eps 7-8

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel spoilers #hazbin angel dust #hazbin husk #hazbin charlie #hazbin alastor #Spoilers warning #my post #tw sex abuse

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charmanderxerneas · 9 months

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gahhh i love sonic so much. what are yalls hopes and dreams for the third sonic movie? some of mine are unrealistic but here goes (from most to least realistic in my mind lol)

-i don’t want them to shy away from shadow’s backstory with maria, i hope they tackle it well and show that like. “hey the government fuckin murdered this little girl who was basically like a sister to him” because its so important to the themes of his story. I don’t want them to sugarcoat it or water it down. in fact: itd be cool to look at those themes with gun in the next movie: pointing out how the military can be evil at times!

-AMY! Wtf I can’t believe we haven’t gotten her yet considering she is the main girl character. I hope that they write her well too instead of just making her entire personality “girl who likes sonic” id prefer it if they didnt lean into that please it can be uncomfortable 😭

-Since we’re getting shadow i’d LOVE to see the rest of team dark: rouge and omega!

-remember those weird bird guys who had conflict with robotnik at the beginning of the second movie? I’d like to know what their dealio is. In my wildest dreams its some bizarre reference to the babylon rouges since they were three bird guys but i know im kidding myself with that: but regardless i wanna know what theyre about! who they are, motives, ect. I know they kinda showed a little in the comics but yeah.

-Idk if he would fit into the probably shadow central story in the next movie but um. I think metal sonic would be sick af but probably wont happen

-silver or blaze would be cool for a 4th movie or something but I don’t see them being shown at all in the next movie

and if you know me you saw this coming even tho it will likely never happen:

-They’re making a tv show specifically about movie knuckles. and. i was thinking: you know which team is associated with knuckles since in the classic 1995 game they were introduced alongside him and i would fuckfing kill to see th- yeah the chaotix. you probably expected that reading a post from the guy who made a 40 minute essay about them and concluded it with “i am starving for content of them i want them to be in more things”. but: for real they could be so funny interacting with knuckles imagine the contrast with how serious he is in the movie im not gonna fucking kid myself by mentioning mighty

#sonic #sth #sonic movie #sonic the hedgehog

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ambreiiigns · 19 days

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Ok wait. Yes tell me what episodes are good and everything else you said in the tags, but does rick and morty have lore? I thought it was episodic?

ok first Yes there's lore. there's like. the backdrop premise of rick having just came back into his daughter's life after being absent since she was a child for undisclosed reasons but it is a big part of beth's characterization and why he gets away w all the shit he gets away with. but there's also Lore that ties w rick's crybaby backstory™ and like the universe in general is probably more. Complicated? Expanded? than you'd think? bc yea it SHOULD be episodic and self contained but the team is at war w that concept since s2 if not s1 already. it's why i'm annoyed at people complaining abt the random filler episodes in s7 like girl that's the Normal Episodes. the Lore Heavy Episodes are the little special treat for you not the standard?? it's a sitcom unfort.

so. maybe still my favorite episode is STILL from s1 ep8. rixty minutes aka interdimensional cable ONE!!! let me set the scene. a few episodes earlier morty's school was doing prom and he asked rick to make him a love potion to get the girl he has a crush on to go to prom w him. rick fucks up SEVERELY bc his nihilistic scientist brain didn't understand love (??? i mean we know he Does. but it was s1) and he accidentally turns everyone first into morty stans who wont him desperately and then into straight up Monsters. he can't figure out how to fix it so what he does instead is move morty and himself into a new dimension where the incident had also happened but that dimension's rick had fixed the problem And gotten himself and morty killed accidentally. so they swoop in and dig a grave for Themselves and take those rick and morty's place. for rick it's Nothing it's Normal he's been doing this a while he's closely aware of the many dimensions and many versions of himself etc in fact it becomes a Huge plotpoint soon. but morty's still new to this and having to? handle his dead body? and put it in the ground? and take its place like nothing happened? that's tough for him! baby's traumatized. rip

but everything's been self contained enough so far that you sort of dismiss it right. then two episodes later interdimensional cable happens. aka rick fucks around w their tv to hook it up to. interdimensional. cable. so they can watch stuff from every other reality out there (whoa!) and as they binge they bump into jerry being interviewed on some late night show and they're like HUH???? THERE'S A VERSION OF REALITY OUT THERE WHERE JERRY'S RICH AND FAMOUS???? so now beth and summer are also wondering what They're up to in other realities and rick gives them some goggles that let you see what different versions of you are doing. rick himself and morty are the only ones who don't care and just keep watching silly tv having a laff. in the meanwhile summer complains that every version of her is doing nothing cool while her parents are hitting the jackpot and beth offhandedly mentions that "if we accomplished our dreams it probably means you were never born" which is obviously HORRIBLE TO HEAR so summer being an angsty dramatic teen wants to Run Away From Home and beth and jerry start fighting abt how you ruined my life and all. morty smells blood in the water so he goes upstairs to cheer up summer and she's like. they had you on purpose as a symptom of their problems you're not the Cause of their problems you can't make me feel better. so morty points out his and rick's graves in the yard outside the window and tells her he's not even her real brother he's as much of an incident as she is rn and now that he eats breakfast a few feet away from his corpse he knows better than most how meaningless all of this is anyway. and he tells her. something that still brings tears to my eyes. he goes "nobody exists on purpose, nobody belongs anywhere, everybody's gonna die. come watch tv?"

ARGH! HE'S JUST A 14 YEAR OLD BOY WITH AN INSANE MAD SCIENTIST GRANDPA WHO'S BEEN DRAGGING HIM ON FUCKED UP ELDRITCH SPACE ADVENTURES THAT HAVE BEEN SHATTERING HIS INNOCENCE AND UNDERSTANDING OF LIFE! AND NOW HE JUST WANTS TO WATCH TV WITH HIS SISTER! it kills me it's so humane and childish and it was REALLY gutting to me. cause i didn't expect a callback at that point. i didn't expect the trauma to impact the characters. it was completely out of left field and it made me say oh. so this is good. so this is actually worth watching.

#other good episodes.... anytime birdperson or evil morty show up it's GOOD. rick backstory episodes are also good #the simulation episode is good. the citadel introduction episode is good and Formative. s2 e1 good. the parasites episode is good #tiny rick is GREAT the vindicators is GREAT the jerry adventure is GREAT the goopy episode is GREAT the beth clone stuff is ALWAYS GOOD #the toilet episode.... THE DRAGON EPISODE the decoy family episodes omg. the pissmaster episode makes you cry. nah i'm going insane #YES i was looking at a list of episodes and reminiscing. it's GOOD RICK AND MORTY IS GOOD GUYS #somebody ask me abt other episodes or abt rick crybaby backstory GO #ask

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I Loved him first(Will Poulter)

Summary- your sister has stolen everything from you but she wont have him for long

warnings- angst with a happy ending, cheating(i guess)

request by anonymous

wc- 1.5k(THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A SHORT THING)

You liked him first. Loved him first. His bestfriend.

Your sister knew that but as always she took everything. She took the man you love, asked him out right in front of you and he said yes. Now for the past 3 years you've seen them act so in love. Kissing and cuddling at all the family reunions or just when they visited.

It broke your heart so much, it hurt so bad that you couldn't eat, sleep. It went as far as you going to therapy. So when Will told the families he planned to propose you fell into an even harder depression. The though of harming yourself came into mind, but it didn't no matter how bad it got, you fought it. You cut contact with him and your sister after his announcement, the only person who got you to come was your mother. Saying that ‘you needed to be there to support your sister.’

You cried hard when he got down on one knee and told her how much he loved her. You even found yourself dreaming that you were in your sisters place.

Little did you know that Will was dreading the relationship. He was such a fucking idiot for agreeing to a date that day. Now look at him. Proposing to the sister of the girl he really loved. When he probably and should have been proposing to you

He remembered how hard it was coming up with what he was going to say when the time came. Trying to figure out good things to say but there was nothing.

She was snobby, rude, petty, complained over everything, and he had nothing in common with her. So what he said was a lie.

It was a week before the wedding and your parents invited you, your little brother, and… the future newlyweds. You were dreading it while Will was quite happy that be was finally going to see you. Ever since he has been with your sister you drew away and it pained him. Everytime he tried to talk to you like old times you were so quite, uninterested really. It was all the way until he found out you had blocked him and your sister. And since then he’s never gotten a chance to talk to you, your sister always has something for him to do.

“So Y/n how’s school?” Your sister asked and you caught her eyes and saw she was glaring at you.

“Its fine.” You looked back down at your plate. Will kept trying to get your attention, trying catch your eyes or soft taps of his shoes under the table against yours. But you ignored them all. After the dinner and everyone hung around Will approached you.

“Hi.” He said and say next you.

“Hi.”

“We haven’t talked in a awhile.” He said and leaned back against the couch still looking at you.

“Been busy.”

“Oh okay.” Will furrowed his eyebrows. “But I have to ask, was it something I did? That you off connection with me?” You shot your eyes towards him and shook your head.

“No Will it wasn’t you, its just I’ve been going through some things.”

“What things? Y/n you know you can talk to me.”

“I’ve got it under control Will.” You felt tears well up in your eyes. Will sat up and set his drink down on the coffee table.

“Hey, hey whats wrong, look at me.” He says and places two thumbs under your chin.

“Im sorry.” You croak out and tears start going down your face. You at Wills face and took im his features. He looked so beautiful. The next thing you did was something you didn’t expect to do. You pushed your lips onto his, it was gentle at first but you then felt Will kiss you back. You’ve dreamed of kissing him and now it was finally happening. Every feeling of sadness left your body, but it was short lived.

You were ripped away harshly and then slammed onto the floor.

“YOU BITCH!” You look up to see your sister holding a fist up that immediately came down on your face. Everyone gasped and you saw Will come up behind your sister and pull her off roughly.

“I-Im sorry it was an accident.” You say and your mother grabs your arms and hoists you up and checks you over.

“An accident! It a fucking accident that you kiss the guy you so very much love.” Your heart froze at her words. Everyone stared at you, waiting for a reaction but you couldn’t give one. You caught Wills eyes and he look shocked, he met go of your sister and took a step forward but you shook your head furiously. “I-Im sorry.” You ran out of the house to your car where you screamed in it loudly. You looked at the entrance to the house and saw Will stepping out and holding his hand out.

“Y/n wait!” You didn’t, you turned the car on and sped off.

It was the day of the wedding and Will was still thinking about that night. He was shocked your sister didn’t leave him for kidding you when he clearly kissed back. He was also thinking about how happy he was that you returned his feelings but sad at the same time he never realized. This could have been your wedding day, where he was waiting at the alter to watch you walk down the aisle, so he can tell everyone there how much he loves you.

Now your sister did un invite you from the wedding and told everyone what happened. So you did receive some messages from friends and family.

Will still hasn’t gotten dressed and the ceremony starts in 20 minutes. Wills best friend Connor walking in to see his friend sulking, taking a drink.

“Mate, come on you need to get dressed.” He said and grabbed the tux.

“Im not marrying her.” Said Will and grabbed a bottle of booze and a glass. “Shes not the one I should be marrying.” Will took a sip and Connor set the suit down.

“You know I never liked s/n anyways.” Will looked up at Connor and laughed. “Go get her.”

“What about-.”

“Ill handle everything.” Will smiled at him and stood up.

“Thanks man, I owe you.” Will took one last sip of his drink and raced out the door. He called an uber and when it arrived he hopped in and gave the uber driver your address. 5 minutes passed by and he was already getting calls and texts from s/n.

What the fuck Will?

What happened?

Is this because of y/n?

Are you seriously in love with her?

CALL ME RIGHT FUCKING NOW ASSHOLE

Will rolled his eyes and typed a message.

We’re done

Will silenced his phone and wiped his hands on his sweatpants. When the Uber driver arrived at the apartment where you lived, Will shot out. He found your apartment and knocked on the door.

You wiped your eyes and blew your nose. The sound of the door knocking made you sit up. You walked up to it with a sniffle and looked through the hole to see Will. You opened the door with puffy eyes.

“What are you doing here?”

“I cant marry her.” He said and you couldn’t help but feel overjoyed. “I can’t marry her knowing that I love you.”

“What?”

“Y/n L/n I love you more than life itself. I’ve loved you since I met you. I love how passionate you are about things, how kind you are and defend people when they need it, I love how you sit and watch an arsenal game with me, even though you know nothing of it.” You laughed and stepped out of the way and gestured for Will to come in. He took your hands in his and held them up to his mouth and placed a gentle kiss on them. “Love, im so sorry for accepting that date, if I wouldn’t maybe you and I would have been together.”

“Will there’s no need to apologize.”

“But I feel like I do. When you told me you were going through stuff I can’t help but think it’s because of me.” You stayed quite, confirming what he thought. “So yes I need to apologize, I should have paid attention to you and helped you.”

“Will you were with my sister all the time shes your girlfriend, your fiancé, if you even still are.”

“Hell no love.” You stood there in silence before you broke the silence.

“Can I hug you, I really miss your hugs.” Will didn’t even answer before he pulled you into his arms. You dug your face into his chest and sighed. “I love you too.”

“Can I kiss you?” You looked up at him, resting your chin slightly on his chest.

“Yes.” Will bent his neck down farther and captured your lips. The kiss got more heated so Will hoisted you up and held you up by your ass. You pulled back and rested your head against his. “Take me to bed.”

“Anything for you.”

A/n- this was not my best work honestly but anyways im starting a taglist for Will so if anybody wants to be added let me know

#will poulter x reader #will poulter

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nibblelinephym · 1 year

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Ok. first off, that sounds amazing and I’ll watch it soon. Second, what do the choirs songs sound like? They all break into song and dance, so what’s the vibe and theme of their songs :)

oceans is kind of similar to sugar cloud !! very bubbly and upbeat, high energy, mostly talking about how meaningful constance is to her. how happy she is to have her in her life and the choir. it gets mildly dark at the end but im not sure what those lyrics would entail. probably something about not feeling as if either of them are truly happy at all. ocean kisses constance, infecting her in the process. definitely not the worst way to go but she still ends up in the hivemind so, not the best either (the intent of the kiss was to infect but ocean just wanted to kiss her i think)

noels would be very somber. not very similar to noels lament but kind of the same genre yk?? he would sing of his tragedy and how he never felt as if he fit in here in uranium. but now he does! now that he's one with the others, he feels so welcome and loved, wouldnt you want to be one with them too? he sings of heartbreak, and longing, and how maybe the real tragedy of his life was living in uranium, not becoming infected

i think constance would get a song with ocean and noel as vocal backup (what gets the remaining three to figure out something is deeply wrong if they hadnt already encountered infected before finding these three). its also a bit similar to noels lament in genre, talking about how shes so much more than the nicest girl in town, theres so much more to her than that shallow image everyone else has given her. its about her wants, her desires, her dreams, just.... herself. ofc, there is a bit at the end where she acknowledges that theres nothing wrong with being the nicest girl in town. she deserves to figure that out

ricky gets to sing about zolar i cant take that away from him. however, he also sings about how he felt kind of... discarded maybe? because of his disabilities and the ableist way hes been treated throughout his life (ocean infantilizing him, etc etc etc). he wont be treated as something other than normal anymore, the hivemind will make sure of that, wont you please join us?

its a few hours before mischa is infected. he and penny think theyre safe, locked away somewhere secure, somewhere theyre sure the infection cant reach them. they dont know how it happened, the door is blocked, they can hear the people they once knew as neighbors behind it, clamoring to be let in, shouting and screaming and banging on the one barrier keeping them apart. but... somehow, a few got in. a woman dressed in a wedding gown, flanked by ocean and constance. she sings of a love he can still have. she sings of his yearning for talia, and how the hivemind can bring them together. how he can hold the love of his life in his arms. hes so tired. he gives in, allowing them to infect him, much to pennys horror, and takes lead of the song. he sings so desperately for his beloved, he sings of his longing, the pain in his chest when he thinks of the distance between them. he sings of the anger he feels at that separation. he sings of how he wishes, with all of his heart, to be united with her for eternity.

penny doesnt get a song of her own. shes backed into a corner by mischa and the others. she can see the pain in his eyes as he infects her without showing any mercy. finally, all of uranium is one. finally.

#the whole goal of the hivemind is to get everyone into it whether they like it or not #even with their personalities intact their main goal is still just to get people infected fjsjdj #at the beginning the infected are more. trying to convince normal people that theyre harmless and normal #as opposed to the horror aspects in later tgwdlm that cause the minor gore #so. at least in the beginning the songs are a lot calmer. im not sure if they would get more violent as time went on #or like. not sure if the choirs songs would get more violent i guess #other uranium residents would be getting steadily more violent for sure though #tgwdlrtc au #rtc #ride the cyclone #ocean o'connell rosenberg #noel gruber #constance blackwood #ricky potts #mischa bachinski #rtc penny lamb #rtc jane doe #god i had so so so much fun thinking abt this fkshdk #fiction<3

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the80srewinders · 4 months

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Dissociation does not always have to look like "Oh wow, I forgot my name and family! I forgot most of my past! I don't know if the world is real! I am literally watching myself from the other corner of this room!" Same for switches. They don't always have to look like "I'm getting sleepy!" Then staring off until the alter fronts but it looks like you suddenly wake up and act like you're hungover, then say "I don't know where I am or how I got here! I dont know anyone here! I don't look like myself! *dramatically wears wig host wasn't wearing*" then thinking you woke up in a place you have no idea how you got there and dont remember how you wore the wig. Instead, dissociation, including switches, more commonly includes:

For depersonalization- feeling like youre watching your body as if you were right next to it, coming out of it, or stuck inside like your body is a car whether or not you're in control, a feeling of "I'm doing these things but why? " which is vast and can mean anything from passive influence making you do things you have little to no control over to "going through the motions"

For derealization- feeling like certain people or objects aren't real, feeling like the world in general or people or objects might not be real (not feeling like they aren't, but being unsure if they are or not) feeling like the world is a dream or your awareness feeling dreamlike

Identity confusion- having two vastly different opinions on the same thing (bonus if one of those opinions don't feel like they're really yours) having a specific set of "phases" that can be randomly brought out and suddenly thats who you are until another one of those phases is brought out (for example, having three phases you cycle through, the other two feeling distant, out of your comfort zone and unlike you until youre in one of them again, one phase being a emo, the other a basic vsco girl, and the other a masc goth, and while youre in the masc goth phase it might not feel like you, this is what i as host experienced years before i knew about DID) the phases making you unsure about your identity especially when youre torn between most or all of them at the same time, and when you dont know what you like because you remotely like so much and you dont know when something clicks with "the real you"

For Identity alteration- hearing the alters voices as random noise, intrusive thoughts or hearing them tell you what to do, feeling like you look like different people at different times, feeling like your memories or some of them belong to someone else

And last, for switching- because someone needs to say this. Its the most glamorized part of DID and misrepresented in that glorification. Here's what switches really are like- feeling tired and having a headache, then feeling like your awareness never stopped, but realizing you don't remember what happened in a period of time right before that, or remembering part of what happened but not clearly, this is called greyout amnesia and this is more common than blackout amnesia, your memories of a greyout will be fuzzy, probably feel dreamlike or like it happened to someone else. when there is blackout amnesia you probably wont notice for days, weeks, months to years and that's normal, most people with amnesia of childhood trauma even singlets dont notice or think the amnesia is typical childhood memory loss.

Dissociation does not have to be dramatic to be valid. And dissociation can be episodic in people with DID, it doesn't have to be an everyday thing of mixed dissociation to the max. You can go a day without depersonalization, derealization, and amnesic switches and still have DID. The stereotypes made by The Three Faces of Eve and systemscringe are not based in reality. Don't make yourself live up to that or invalidate yourself over a stereotype different from the diagnostic criteria.

#dissociative identity disorder #other specified dissociative disorder #actually dissociative

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why is that so big lol

THANK YOU BEAFT

23. Are there any side quest storylines that you're particularly fond of or think as being canon to your WoL's experiences?

ok this is insane but pretty much all of them are mostly canon he's the sidequestman the only sidequest he hasn't done to this day is that lady in ul'dah who's like Pick up my coins you gross ass peon. I could probably go on about them but a few are: the dead goobbue one (The Circle of Life afaik?) is weirdly definitive for the way he views adventuring and death. and the one in ishgard where the lady wants you to distribute soup around town; he did that like immediately after the vault AND after finding fray and it gunched him for sure & kept him from going crazy on ishgard silly style.

And lasttttlyyy Untended Dreams from Little Ladies Day 2018 where you hang out with the little ghost girl and be her seneschal? that was so pivotal to his character it's like 70% of why I made him so nice. in canon it happened before he met the scions and he was a young dude of nearly 17 or so summers who'd just left the Spires' winter base up in Dravania and sought out one of the Spire's alchemist wife and child who lived in the Silver Bazaar. lalafellian family, he played with their wee daughter as a kid and the alchemist lady was like "you can stay with us anytime" a long time ago and he sort of made his way over there cause he didn't really know where else to go. long story short he didn't even say hi because he saw them from afar mourning the death of the lalafather spire and was hit with 900000 turbo guilt beam and and essentially left them ALL the gil he had and booked it out of there, eventually wandering into ul'dah proper. that's when the little ladies day celebration was going on and he helped that young girl "find" her lost jewelry and celebrated the festival with her and was like Ok (feels a sense of relief and joy for the first time in a long time being able to do something for her) I can do this. he finds out she's actually dead of course and decides it mattered anyway and that kind of set him on the course to be sidequestman and the wol forever.

I do mean it whennnn I say he is legit shaped by all of it and it is the reason for his adventuring. sidequests. he wants to see the world and more secretly he wants to feel like he belongs among the people who live in it. he legit adventures just to hear stories about people's lives in exchange for his involvement in them/doing some task because that way he feels like he has a place in the world. to him the msq is a big series of sidequests i wont lie.

#I SHOULDVE PROBABLY USED THIS OPPORTUNITY TO TALK ABOUT THE ONES I DONT ALWAYS TALK ABOUT #FAIL but win I love these quests #thank you again....

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parfaitfever · 8 months

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idk if im ever gonna finish this so i'll js post it right now lmk if u want me 2 continue :3

what if project sekai x aikatsu collaboration is real??????

okay so ujm my head keeps thinking what if a pjsk x aikatsu collab happen like what songs they would cover and possible cards, sooo i decided to make this little kinda "what if" post! I will imagine what songs units will cover, possible duets and more!!! (also note im just doing ogkatsu ichigo-akari gen cuz i havent rly watched much of the others, plus im most familiar with ogkatsu)

Lets start with imagining this collab is a big collab, and it has cards featuring aikatsu characters and all (i will explain this at the end of the music discussion!) its such a big collab that it lasts two weeks or perhaps two events (one for ichigo gen, and the other for akari gen maybe) which means there should be 10 collab cards, three gacha cards and two event cards for each event (the usual pjsk 2* will be replaced with a 3*) as for the songs, lets say each unit release 1 unit cover, 1 unit duet and 5 cross duet with unique characters which means 15 songs!!! and there might be dupe songs where it appears in 2 units or more... thats just be struggling to decide who should cover it lols

music discussion!!

before i start doing the music let me tell you how it works! I will seperate the covers into 3 categories: Unit cover, a song sang by the unit (no vocaloids). Unit duet, 1-2 from the same unit sings together with the original singer of the song, ex: minori x akari with song A or minori, haruka x akari, sumire with song B. And lastly crossover duet/crossduets! Its a duet between 2 characters from a different unit with the original singer of the song, something like the cup noodle collab songs that was sung by the siblings from different units! ex: mafuyu, emu x yurika, kaede with song C. I will mostly pay attention to how the songs fits the characters/units aesthetic and how much their voice match the song! I wont be basing them off the lyrics much though. i will be listing 3 possible songs for unitcover and unitduet, while the crossduet will most likely be random thoughts. Now lets start :3

Leo/need

Unit Cover:

1. Hirari/Hitori/Kirari (originally by STAR✩ANIS)

ok i know it doesnt fit much of the band vibes but it still works so well because the song itself feels so sparkly and starry which feels so leoni

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2. Friend (originally by 2WingS)

its literally titled friend pkeas aeugh aehk chokes and dies

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3. Idol Activity! Rock ver. (Originally by Otoshiro Seira)

Idol activity rock ver is a MUST and its gonna be leonis best cover cuz i can hear ichikas voice echoing, singing this song

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Unit duets:

1. Sweet Sp!ce sang by Saki, Shiho x 2WingS (originally by 2WingS)

LISTEN. LISTEN. looking for possible covers for leoni is super hard but THIS. THIS. THIS!!!!

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2. Signalize! sang by Honami, Ichika x Soleil (originally by Soleil)

i am runnig oit of ideas for leoni....

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3. Kindan Hide & Seek sang by Shiho, Honami x Yurika, Seira, Sumire (originally by Yurika, Seira, Sumire)

photokatsu songs would probably the least likely ones

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More more jump!

i have so much ideas for this cuz this is the core inspo/reason for me to make this especially how minori is so much like akari

Unit cover:

1. Let's Aikatsu! (originally sang by Luminas)

ITS LITERALLY LETS AIKATSU. GUYS GUSYY I CAN IMAGINE THEM DANCING ON STAGE SINGING "kimi ni smile ashite ni yume... aikatsu shiyo ... ready go!"

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2. SHINING LINE* (originally by soleil)

imawatashi tachi no tsunaguu muneno naka ... kirameku lineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee dum durum dum durum dumdurururum i love this somuch it fits the idol theme so well

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3. Calendar girl (originallyy by soleil)

YOU DONT KNOW HOW HARD THE DECISION IS OKAY. I WAS ABOUT TO PUT FASHION CHECK IN AND WAS LIKE "WAIT. CALENDAR GIRL." i will make honorable mention for this sobs

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unit cover honorable mentions!

fashion check

shining sky on the g string

good morning my dream

Unit duets:

1. Prism spiral sang by Shizuku, Haruka x Aoi (originally by Aoi)

the blues all together !! cant wait to see them walk on the runway

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2. START DASH SENSATION Minori x akari (originally by akari)

what? do i need to elaborate????????? guys. guys ITS LITERALLY *sighs* please understand me its them .. theyre the same /pos bro bro imagine them talking about haruka/ichigo hoky shit!!!!!!!!!! theyre besties i say so

#aikatsu #project sekai #aikatsu!#proseka #pjsk #prsk #idol anime

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uniquezombiedestiny · 1 year

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🛏🥪🪤🕙 for the oc asks >:]

for vera since shes just on my mind rn 👍

🛏️ What does your OC’s bed look like? What would they like their bed to look like?

veras bed is quite simple, being provided by l corp, but she has gotten herself a few different blankets and plushies for herself :)

she cant have too many though. but in an ideal world shed have a limbillion. a girl can dream.....

🥪 On a scale from ‘burns water’ to ‘5 course menu’ how well can your OC cook?

she makes shit that looks like. from 'its alright..!' to 'its awful.' but then you eat it and somehow it tastes amazing every time. so she can cook well, it just doesnt look good... so if she and bella teamed up theyd be unstoppable

also i think shed follow those like. calm ass no voice cooking/baking vids where they make those pretty cakes and stuff. they always look so good

🪤 What is one thing that could be used to lure your OC into a trap?

cheese. a literal 🪤 would get her (she thinks she's faster than the trap. and for cheese? its worth it anyway). but otherwise most sweets would get her too, specifically bread/cake or chocolately ones. she probably Loves white chocolate

🕐 Was there ever a time your OC would have given everything to turn back the clock 5 minutes? What happened?

with the timeloop existing there isnt much permanence in many actions, so she loses a lot of... regret potential? you can just turn back the clock so... hm. but there are some that cant be turned back, like her distorting (broke the timeloop) or being shunned by her family (pre-lc).

when her family shunned her was definitely the one moment she'd give anything to go back. her life definitely fell quality-wise, so she turned to l corp, and came to spite her family and want to prove them all wrong, becoming better than they'd ever know. and also being liked by everyone so they wont leave her too <3

also discovered a new thing for her: hates strictness. based on her lc and dnd backstories, her family was pretty quick to judge and kicked her out for first mistakes (or perceived mistakes, as in lc she just wanted to join l corp lol. in dnd she stole from someone)

#vera #bella #<- mentioned #lc ocs #asks #ty for the ask!!!!!!#polyydeucess #took so long bc i got stuck on that last question #debating on whether shed actually regret it #then i realized it was 'regret in the moment' not 'regret forever' lmao #vera has like 0 regrets #she did everything right according to herself #also it was god doing it so /j (delusion that shes a vessel for the divine. it comes true in her distortion)#ngl from all of the stuff ive been making for her im considering if she has npd? idk #its in very early stages though i dont really know yet #but her story does revolve around being liked and being the one to save everyone #towards the end she thinks she herself is a lowlife mess and the true vera is the angel magical girl that saves everyone from the timeloop #and that seems to line up too

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dumbbitchfrommars · 5 months

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im tired... too tired to write but smart enough to know i need to write these thoughts down before i forget them.

so much has happened in the last few days. the last week, even. it feels like weeks have gone by.

i am so blessed, lucky and thankful for my friend. she is the most perfect taurus and completely aligned with me to bounce off my energy and listen and understand and hear me and be able to have fun with me ! look at us go. truly manifested the female friendship id been craving for years.

the naughty side of me has been awakened. the devil has been brought out by a dirty, nasty libra man. and im not angry at it and im not embarrassed by it one bit. i actually embraced it and had so much fun with it. and its so unlike me and its so unlike the others before him. he was crazy but focussed on me in exactly the ways i needed him to, too. even when the first time i didnt finish, i didnt top him, and he didnt really top me either. he didnt even finger me for long. but my god... the positions. the placements. the kissing my feet on his hands and knees. sucking on my toes, the strategic placement of my legs and knees and feet. and somehow knowing how to hit the right spots when he was twice my size. like standing his hips were at the top of my rib cage. INSANE. giant, giant beautiful man. the sheer size of his thighs. i cant handle it. i cant even believe it was real life!

i was calling him a slut but look at me gushing over him, when the sex wasnt even that amazing. its like he was edging me. didnt want me to come knowing he wouldnt too? he didnt make me give him head the second time either. i guess it was considerate since the first time he did and went as far as filming him face fucking me with my hands behind my back. and restraining my wrists with his legs will i was riding him?! i actually cannot.. i cannot handle it.

its all just fun and games for the both of us. thats what i liked. it was transactional for both of us. we both care just enough, we both connected just enough, but we were both completely hungry and horny enough to make it easy and playful. he threw me around! like my one dream, and as a tiny little girl its kind of insane it had taken this long to happen. he loved every part of my body. i dont appreciate the comments about my butt but he obviously liked it. im slim thick and tiny. he would be carrying me and fucking me in front of the mirror and i would misjudge the height i was at when hed put me on the ground to change positions. like i had literally climbed a tree of a man. i cant. I CANT!

he was just so perfectly playful, annoying and teasing in the way i like. like stupid on purpose, so i can be mean to him. i love bullying men. but in a playful, flirty way. SO FLIRTY! who knew it was so hard to come by guys like that, people like that. cause i know part of why he was so obsessed with me was because i matched his energy so well. at the end of the day its all about ENERGY! and we matched well. and combined with that, we were both sexy fucking humans. and he had tattoos! he had everything ive been wanting. bare minimum, i know. but those tattoos were so delicious. i will never see tattoos on light skin in the same way. they were borderline not there because his skin was so dark. and i love it. it was like a little extra something something. and the one on his rib was beautiful. they were all beautiful. im so thankful he was so doting and loving on me so i couldnt feel insecure about my own body. i feel like he was unintentionally roasting me too though, trying to be flirty. something about my toes??? im not sure. but he obviously liked them enough to suck on them. so.

anyway. i just cannot stop thinking about this experience. i probably wont stop thinking about it for weeks, months even. as much as i love to read my bridgerton, sometimes i just love the idea of some sexy nasty fucking. he came so much on my back. he gave me HICKEYS! he read my energy and did what i liked. its not even that hard for him. proof hes a fucking hoe. but hes also somewhat committed to me.. or just getting me back in his city to play with me again. i was like his little barbie doll to play with, literally. putting his clothes on me, gifting me his shirt and sunnies, asking me to say i love him? and sayin it himself? and the constant calling. this man... hes a red flag. hes got some kind of commitment issues for certain. but i read him for filth too. somehow he enjoyed me being genuinely pissed off with him. stupid drunk boy. completely different energies when hes sober vs drunk.

anyways. i was pmsing too and he dragged me away from my friends... or did he? did they encourage me to go? no point wondering about it, anyway. i wonder if he wanted her instead tho... i will always wonder. i understand if he did. i would too. tbh, i would want a threesome with her. it could happen...

anyway. he texted me... i want to call him. i cant though, of course. the type of conversation id want to have would need to be private. isnt it odd how a little while ago i was harrassed in my car down the street from my home? now i dont feel safe going back there. this city is so strange.

maybe my sister will move back home. everything will change if that happens. for some reason i get the feeling she will come back and the other will leave. it seems like that is in gods plan. or... me? plus i have my car. interrestingngngnggngn

so... what now? (please read in azealias voice). realistically, even though i do genuinely like him and he genuinely likes me, were from two different cities and wont see eachother again until im back in god knows how long. and its expensive to be flying or driving over there for visits a lot. this is a waste of energy i thnk. im just gonna roll with it. the most likely scenario is that one of us gets bored (probably me) or hurt (probably me, if hes secretly playing around with lots of girls) and things just fizzle out in a messy way that ruins the vibes we had together now. but tbh im okay with that. its the only way i learn my lesson about people. otherwise they keep wiggling their way back on half promises when i forget about their bad behaviour with time.

but honestly, i have a good feeling about him. he seems like an honest person. and whatever it is he's hiding, its nothing severe. its more something i can sense, like an insecurity. hes broke, hes immature, hes a bit of a mess. hes insecure about his appearance? i am too baby. youre good. i love feeling like this with a guy. like im in control but im not. i got the power, and hes obsessed with me and he wants me and hes open and honest with me just like i am. he sees my honestly and thinks - oh, she's safe, she's home, i can be myself with her. not - oh, she's good, i can lie to her and manipulate her easier cause she'll tell me exactly how she feels and what i need to tell her.

the main thing is if I want HIM. cause i do. but he does have weird eyes, and eyes are a big thing for me. wearing sunnies all the time wont cut it. and being broke is fine. but looking a mess in public with me wont do. hes a fashion boy tho. he a trendy ni$$a. but i digress.

UGH! i hope i can find someone that playful, flirty and doting here at home. i probably wont tho. thats okay. ive come to accept my worth being above the capacity of men here. theyre just a bit confused. their cute, confused puppies. the kind that only like their own kind too.. they can have them. i need me a POC. im officially closing for business with the pretty white boys. theyve done enough.

okay ive done enough talking shit. this has been fun!

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