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rodolfoparras · 10 months
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Thinking about having the most mundane conversations with Price while being in rather compromising positions with him | 18+, MINORS DNI
Being captain meant having little to no free time for yourself and that was a sacrifice Price was willing to make since it didn’t affect anyone other than him.
Most of his time was spent in the gym, out on the field or locked away in his office dealing with the pile of paperwork that never seemed to stop growing. Free time for him was a rare thing and when he did have some time for himself he was always prepared that it would be cut short by someone or something.
As mentioned before it was a sacrifice he was willing to make but it all changed when you came into the picture. His constant absence had now started to affect someone else.
And you knew it was eating him alive, could see it in his eyes as you jokingly told him how cold his side of the bed was.
You’d see him nervously chewing his lips when he heard you say “long time no see” after he’d gotten back from yet another long mission that had kept you away from him.
You had countless conversations about it, argued even, well it was mostly Price arguing with himself about how you deserved someone else, someone who’d always be there, not the ghastly presence that was the captain himself.
You reassured him every time of course, told him you knew who he was, what the relationship would be like, knew what you were getting yourself into when you’d ask him out. You were in the military yourself and were no fool to what was bound to come out of this relationship. Besides he made it all worth your while when you actually got to see the man.
Especially in moments like these when he’s seated between your legs using either his hands or mouth to make you cum while he’s asking about your day.
Albeit seen as something mundane, he treasured the fact that he could ask about your day since he rarely got to spend his days with you.
So when he’d get the chance, usually early in the morning or late at night, he’d ask you about it; what you will do, what you have done or how it’s been. Tell him everything, he wants to know all about it.
“How was your day angel? ” he’d ask while kissing along the expanse of your thighs “tell me about it yeah?”
Will deliberately ask questions that will keep you talking long enough while his mouth is occupied. Despite not being able to talk much he’ll still hum and nod when you talk, will pull away from the spot between your legs to ask follow up questions or even make comments about what you had said.
If he’s just using his hands it’ll feel a lot more intimate of course since he’s much more present in the conversation, lots of eye contact, gentle smiles, calm and mellow voice as he asks his questions while his hands do all the work.
It makes an interesting sight really. You’re either pinned down to the bed or propped against a wall panting and body shaking while Price is between your legs, hair trapped between your merciless fingers, cheeks flushed but voice ever so composed as he asks about your day.
If you were to just go by his voice you'd never guess what he was doing.
But you can’t deny the fact that there’s something so exciting about having him ask about your day at work while putting his very own hand to work or having him ask about some movie or book you read before he buries his head between your legs, or hearing the word “close?” as he allows you to rant about whatever’s been on your mind lately.
And if you happen to answer a beat too late- too busy getting lost in whatever he’s doing with his mouth and hands, he’ll remind you to keep talking again.
One-two -three taps on your thigh in warning, before he’s pulling away from the spot between your legs with a stern look on his face.
“When I ask something, I expect a response”
You’d just furiously nod at that, biting down on your lip and hips bucking up at him, just wanting for him to get back to it.
“Good good” he’d say with a gentle smile on his face, no trace of that sharpness from earlier “ now how was..“ is what he says before he goes back to spot between your legs.
Even once you’ve reached your peak, and he’s holding you close as you’re coming down from it, his eyes will widen in realization as he says “wait you never finished telling me about..”
You’d just sigh and roll your eyes at the man you love so much.
It’s different - non traditional in every sense but it’s something you truly cherish in your relationship.
He’d even mention some of these things you talked about while in public, which would have you blushing while he’d play all innocent about it.
“What? I was just asking about..”
[Bonus: does not let anyone impose on these moments. Early mornings and late nights are reserved for you and you only, to hell with anyone who disagrees with it.]
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theocoeuur · 7 months
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i was a victim of magic
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itspileofgoodthings · 8 months
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so funny because my emotions are a strength of mine (also their strength in particular is a strength) but they’re also a huuuuge weakness and downside and pitfall as well, and not just because they make me suffer. they also just, like, get in the way of so many good things.
#they’re part of my eloquence/persuasive powers!#such as they are#and people respond to the passion! but I actually think they get in my way more often than not#and just make my points so much less valid and interesting#when I can look back at a thing from the vantage of emotional hindsight and talk about it quickly and simply and analytically#when I’m not actively WRESTLING with something I feel like I do my best work#but idk. maybe that’s just how it feels from the inside and isn’t actually so#nah it is so. at least with negative emotions. I am only off-putting and annoying and disagreeable when I’m speaking on a thing negatively#and even positively sometimes that first flush of emotion that’s carrying me along has to die before I can really speak honestly#like me speaking on Jonathan byers with SOOO much overflowing emotion and warmth and love#akksksjdjejejejejejjejeje#but there was stuff I was missing and wouldn’t look at!!!#it was all conviction and warmth but then I was wrong#TLDR: I think I’m most persuasive when the emotion has passed or at least is not immediately present and I’m speaking about things#more rationally#Because I like to think my rationality is still not cold! It’s very alive but it isn’t so weighed down by emotions#It’s why I need to restrain myself from speaking bitterly (at least publicly) when I’m mad about stuff#i just say all the ugliest and in many ways LEAST true things about whatever I’m talking about#even as I’m reaching for clarity#again. Teaching helps with this.#time mellows the first waves of emotion appropriately. still giving my takes life but not overpowering the vision (hopefully)#but then idk. sometimes I have a take and many very very smart people hate it so much#so it’s just like#shrug emoji#Maybe I AM wrong#I can’t be the judge of my own takes turns out. Not really#but I guess I’m learning to have them anyway#if it’s organic and hits me like a wave of revelation#it’s always those takes people hate the MOST though aksjsjejejeje#again except for my students. because they don’t know to hate them so they just follow where I lead (mostly)
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imperpetuallylost · 13 days
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kinda crazy but…
im gay for you
:o no way i’m also gay for u <3
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disastergoose · 10 months
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my aroace post got way more attention than I thought so I also just wanted to share that you don’t have to have sex. you don’t have to have romance. we have so much social coding around having The Same Major Experiences and Feelings but in truth, EVERYONE’S journey with love, intimacy, sex, romance, and care is different, and you can have deep, meaningful, beautiful connections with people without having sex or being in romantic love. you don’t have to have those experiences if you don’t want them or don’t feel ready for them. you also don’t have to have yourself Figured Out. If you aren’t sure you’re ace/aro/somewhere in between or outside, that’s cool. you’re on a journey. you’re at the right place in your journey, and the right people will support you and respect the boundaries around how you want to be loved and touched!
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babygirlgiles · 5 months
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Apparently the thing I’ve learned about Hunger Games fanfiction is that typically it’s less of a study of the universe and the characters that inhabit it and more a study in people’s reactions to the universe and/or people’s assumptions about like. Life in general. Idk I just have so many questions for these ppl. What do these people think living in poverty is like? Do they really think Katniss’s one room home on the outskirts of the country’s poorest region has a wall thermostat? How do they think that thermostat operates, in a region that regularly goes long stretches of time without electricity? How do they think glow in the dark stars are manufactured? What about plastic pee on a stick pregnancy tests, how do they think those are made? Why do siblings or family members never share beds, especially when it’s literally mentioned in the book? Why do they think that Katniss and Peeta, whose relationship has been subjected to endless government scrutiny and who live in a region known for it’s lack of government oversight, would ever want or need to get legally married? Why do they think that Katniss would ever change her last name, which is in many ways one of her last connections to her dead father and her dead sister? Where do they think lactose free milk comes from? Why does Katniss have a dishwasher? Why does Katniss. Have a dishwasher.
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margaetyrell · 9 months
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hi. just came to say i’m alive and well (mostly) if anyone cares. i simply broke down due to emotional stress so i had to delete the app and cut it all out. idk how long it will take, but i’ll be back and catch up on blogs/tags/messages by then! hope you’re doing great, i’m sending you all my love and a special shoutout to @itsniceto, @mycastlescrumblingdown, @jdschecter, @intomymelancholia and @mayangelsleadyouin for being such a ray of sunshine. miss you and love you all soooo so much 💜
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littleoblivions · 10 months
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me missing my tears ricochet through wildest dreams at my eras show because i felt like i was gonna puke …. villain origin story
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haven’t messaged him at all in 10 days!! :D!!!!!
also glad to announce that he sent me an Instagram reel last night and when I went to see like an hour later, he deleted it so I just keep winning.
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imflyinoveryou · 9 days
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living with em just has me in this irrational , constant oscillation of idealization and genuine resentment and it’s not fair to them nor myself.. i can’t wait to put space between us ! and i can’t wait to have clarity that brings far more love into my relationships with them.
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whumpy-wyrms · 3 months
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ITS BEEN A MONTH SINCE TLLR CHAPTER 11????? WHAT
#wyrms says stuff#SORRY ITS TAKING FOREVER TO WRITE HOLY SHIT???#i thought it had been like 2 weeks or something#dude i’m actually sorry it’s taking so long to get chapters out#BUT like the next three chapters are all around 2/3 of the way done#i miss those phases where writing becomes sooooo so so easy for me and i write like 3k words a day#i’ve never been able to like stick with a writing schedule#my energy for writing comes and goes as it pleases and it’s been like that all my life. drawing comes naturally#it never bothered me before that i’d just not write for a few months at a time and then suddenly get motivation#to write a shit ton of stuff at once in rapid succession#and it sucks because forcing myself to sit down and write is hard it just doesn’t come super naturally like drawing does.#like forcing myself to draw can be a lot of fun and it’s easy. but honestly i don’t chose when my brain tells me it’s writing time#but that’s probably not a good thing huh#and also i’m like?? SUPER SUPER excited about some of the chapters coming up?? like chapter 14 is THE chapter i’ve been most excited about#since i started this series. AND ITS BASICALLY ALREADY WRITTEN TOO#the parts in between are hard to figure out i’ve realized#and also hard to give myself motivation to write them. im basically just annoyed that writing doesn’t come as naturally as art does for me#and that ever since i started actually writing about my own ocs like 6 years ago#i’ve only been able to write in short bursts of a few months at a time#it’s annoying but it’s a good challenge for me to overcome. i just have to sit down and write and then i’ll get that motivation back#the next chapter should be done very very soon!!!
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theswedishpajas · 1 year
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Long time, no see, cowboy
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sugaftrm · 9 months
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maturing/healing truly is so painful and lonely
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kit-kee · 1 month
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Valentine’s Day Show ❤️ 14.02.24
spent my valentine’s with 21 thousand people. whore.
#missed the whole theatrical/consumption bit which I was really looking forward to coz I fuckin fainted in the pit#didn't eat or drink anything all day and felt so dehydrated and was fine during the#upbeat songs moving about but then on the slower songs where I'm just swaying and stuff i became so acutely aware of the pain from my boots#and having no water I just went#went down three times consecutively got up myself the first and bless this guy behind me who pulled me up properly the second as I was#standing - then security got me out don’t remember them coming just someone saying I have to hold onto them and stand and me doing it and#telling them I couldn’t see anything#my vision just went man#was literally fine as soon as I moved and then had water - wish I’d of just had water there so didn’t have to leave coz I’d of been fine#went back out to the side of the back half of GA and danced my heart away - still so fun obvs#wanna go again and catch the whole show though lol#I’m not the type of person to faint at a gig (whatever that means) annoying#like it wasn’t because I was in a crowd n hot n bothered or whatever - I've been eating one meal a day since before and after Xmas and not#drinking enough and then nothing day of - was stupid need to sort myself out#I’ve never been very good at looking after myself - sleep and eating & drinking and exercise#I wish I could’ve seen what I looked like - I have this thing where whenever I’m like not fully in control over myself like drunk or high I#wanna be able to remember what it appeared like for later - sometimes I’ll like video myself to be able to see when I’m sober#very embarrassing when people are around and I usually don’t wanna watch it back coz of that so pointless anyway#walking out the pit as I was getting my vision back was so weird coz everyone had turned around to watch B-stage and all I see is blurry#faces looking my way from one side and blurry faces looking my way the other as I parted through - was like a fever dream lol all confused#and out of focus looking like these stagnant people standing there staring at me on either side -not the case obviously but all I could see#like they were just starting to turn so the people in front of me turned around and the people in the row behind me (to my right as I was#walking out) hadn't turned yet and were making a gap for me n the security to get out so both sides were facing me and I was just getting#my vision back so it was so odd to me lol#anyway bye bye diary#there’s my little story of one part of my day#the1975#the 1975#the 1975 satvb#satvb
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tarantula-hawk-wasp · 2 months
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Taking the bus when ur someone who is incapable of leaving with more than a minimum amount of time to get somewhere is such a fun gamble
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starfall-isle · 2 years
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Really great news is that we’ve finally had an application accepted and I get to move next month! Bad news is that I’ve had to go to the ER four times in a week and I’ve been beyond exhausted so I apologize for the snails pace I’ve been working at
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