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#like are we really going Think Of The Children abt this in 2021..
papenathys · 4 months
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i also wanna say one of my favorite things abt Amy is that she's a character whose role in a misogynistic society is acknowledged and she's not demonized for leaning into it. when laurie calls her shallow and silly for caring about her marriage prospects, she points out that this is the sort of thing women have to do in their society, and unlike laurie, she doesn't really get a choice to do whatever she wants. i feel like so many period characters are demonized for leaning into the feminine gender roles of the time, but it was weirdly refreshing to see Amy depicted as a sensible character with agency and interests but still playing within her defined roles? and we also had Jo for the "screw the rules" character, so it's not like Amy's depicted as "the only way", too. idk. i just like Amy. I like all the characters. Little Women was my grandma's favorite book so I grew up reading it a lot.
Exactly. Both Jo and Amy are trying to survive in the patriarchy one way or another: rebellion, conformity. They occasionally mock each other for their respective views, but they are literally children in Book 1. In fact, if you notice, Amy is always held equally culpable in the mishaps as Jo is, and they are foils.
During the book burning, Amy is given the silent treatment and not indulged or petted by Meg and Marmee, rather all of them comfort Jo and tell off Amy bluntly. However, Marmee points out Jo's anger and ability to nurse a grudge can be detrimental to her own emotional health, and after Jo almost lets her sister drown, Marmee helps her manage her uncontrollable emotions. According to fandom, that's Marmee letting Amy off the hook and blaming it all on Jo. Well.
The similarities continue. In their personal newsletter, Jo and Amy are the two sisters who are marked with the report of "Bad/Middling" to contrast with Meg and Beth. Both of them get similar reprimands from their father but also commended for working on themselves in the Christmas reunion.
Both of their arcs are very similar: to be economically independent but also artistically accomplished. (But somehow, Jo's dreams are considered worthier than Amy because???? I don't like to say it, but just because she dedicates a novel to Beth doesn't mean all her craft had a higher purpose than Amy's paintings ever did. That is a very mean, selfish and low way of characterising two sisters, which unfortunately fandom culture has a habit of doing ref Sansa Arya etc.)
Often when Amy attempts to establish herself in society, Jo mocks her, refuses to help her or makes her a laughing stock (ref: lobster party fete in Book 2, the social calls chapter in the same). I point this out because the 21st century Little Women fans seem to think Amy was this evil conservative woman clamping a corset and primping her hair (she was 17) while Jo was marching with the suffragettes. The truth is they were both very young and doing their best, while messing up or being cruel in the way siblings can.
Besides, when Amy gets to visit Europe instead of Jo, Jo is the one who actively sabotages her own changes by being ridiculously rude and frankly insulting in her speech towards the whole idea of going to France (she makes derogatory remarks about their language and culture and expresses 0 interest in participating in any of it). If anybody feels those were her girlboss feminist non-conforming moments, I sincerely sympathize with them and hope they feel better soon. As it was, Marmee shows sympathy at Jo being left out of the trip but also takes none of her shit when she says Amy had it easy, and tells her firmly "Girl, you kind of deserved it. Now get up and be happy for your sister". And she is!! Unlike Saoirse Ronan's grumbling, bad tempered, condescending act in the 2021 film. But according to fandom it's Amy getting whatever she likes while Jo is paid dust.
If one argues that Jo was punished and had to 'settle' by marrying the man she loved, writing a successful novel and opening an unconventional academy, becoming an educationist etc, then I can also argue that Amy was punished and had to 'settle' by making her forfeit her passion for paintings, simply because she wasn't good enough (even though canon suggests otherwise) and ended up married to a rich man, living on his inheritance and becoming a patroness of arts instead of an active, independent artist.
Then remind me again, how did Louisa May Alcott show favoritism towards Amy? Because she married the rich, handsome guy and not the plainer, older emotionally mature and kind professor? So the readers agree it's all about money and looks at the end eh? So much for non confirming feminist mindset!
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audio commentary of potd pt 1:
the bullet train bit at the start initially was the idea for a new years episode but they couldnt get like the sets in time so they had to rethink. the scene we see in potd was basically like the climax of that would-have-been episode
jodie: the really handy thing about these is that the masks steamed up within seconds of putting them on. fgkjhgkjgh
it's the first time mandip is seeing the episode this is like a month before they aired it? chris asks if it's like she imagined and shes like no it's way quicker (thatd be because they cut out hALF THE LINES no im kidding im kidding fghkjhh)
this episode wasnt even gonna exist? they were gonna do six episodes of flux and two specials and then when they'd just started filming flux (start of 2021?) they got asked to do another one for the centennary/to give the next team a bit more time
calling up sophie and janet to ask them to come back they both said like "i think tegan would be big friends with ace" "i think ace would be massive friends with tegan" like separately <3
about ace's costume: mandip: we both had doc martens on! so, yaz is cool, as well jodie: (just making it about you.) (youre not in this scene this isnt about you)
jodie stole the little ashad from timeless children
jodie asks if chris had ever any ideas to kill of any of the companions and he says no but both john bishop and bradley walsh asked if they could be killed off?? and he was like no guys this is about yaz and the doctor
"this lovely street in wales that is not liverpool" <3
during that reunion scene with ace and tegan, chris talks about how in 70s 80s doctor who and unit and how he hadnt really realised while doing it that what theyve ended up with here is that like every leading character in unit is a woman now? he talks about how like the doctor becomes a woman and you can then sort of see the full effect of that in the reunion scene here where it's just like all women
jodie about the reunion scene: i always wanted to react as 13, but then only in this episode i was met with people who had interacted with other doctors. so do you try and react in a way appropriate for them and their doctor? but i always wanted to do 13. it was always a bit complicated especially later on with the ai.
chris asked who were their favourite guest stars to work with and the entire conversation derails into just listing everyone and saying how much fun they had
jodie obviously has seen the full episode before this and she keeps teasing mandip abt it like going "oh we talked over half that scene now you have no any idea of whats going on" and then at the scene where the master talks to ace and tegan from the unit jail she slaps her like "watch this watch this watch this this is a good bit watch this!" and they watch a bit in silence and then chris goes "you just shushed her in a commentary to go 'watch this this is a really good bit'" it's specifically the bit where ashad grows and all the cybermen come out and mandip goes "oh that is good" and then she goes "you know like those russian dolls you get where they all fit inside each other" and jodie goes "thats what it is" and chris goes "thats the plot" im looosing it
jodie slapping mandip again about the rasputin scene "watch this" they watch a bit of the scene and then chris giggles and mandip goes "whens his bit coming on" chris: youre just pointing at the screen, jodie. it's at the end of the scene jodie: oh. chris: hes explaining the plot jodie: oh hes explaining the plot chris: and then hes gonna play the music thats how it works
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numbknee · 1 year
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Enough of the suffering thru the asks abt all the other cartman ships, what abt your brain rot? 🥺 what *are* your thoughts on kyman?? Go ham dude
ooooh dear... where to begin with the kyman brainrot....... I guess I’ll start at the beginning. VERY LONG POST under the cut. this is basically my kyman meta magnum opus lmao
I’ve talked about this ad nauseam before, but I really, REALLY didn’t want to get into south park. I had only ever watched like 2 full episodes before 2021 and I simply did not understand the appeal. I just thought the draw to the show was the shock factors: gross-out humor, children swearing and committing violence, and blatant bigotry played for laughs. I didn’t understand how it could be so popular other than “well I guess there are lots of horrible people out there who like this horrible show.” 
I grew up in a very WASP-y town and had peers in elementary/middle school who learned about the existence of antisemitism and other bigotries through south park. because kids are stupid and don’t understand satire, many of them took it at face value and were able to have shittons of words added to their vocabulary to put people down and insult them. it was horrible tbh. and I hated the show for that, even as a young kid. I personally wasn’t perfect by any means but even as a snot-nosed, extremely sheltered little white girl I knew that you just shouldn’t do that shit. our school system in particular lauded the “golden rule” constantly (we had to do a school-specific pledge after the pledge of allegiance every day... yeah I know, very american) and I was like “cmon, you guys can’t even follow that ONE RULE to be a semi-decent human being?? really??”
anyway at the end of 2021, my younger brother asked me to watch the post-covid specials with him and he was very excited about it. I was immediately hesitant, especially because in recent years he has become alarmingly incel-y and took a hard turn to the right while I became a leftist. I reluctantly agreed to sit through it to try to understand him more because, even though his political ideology sucks ass, he’s still my brother and I do love him. 
so I watched the specials, and I came out the other side of it shell-shocked with how surprisingly good the writing was. THIS stupid show, the show that all this time I thought was bottom-of-the-barrel comedy, was... GOOD??? particularly regarding CARTMAN?? 
the only things I knew about cartman going into it were the following: he’s fat, he says the name “kyle” weird, and he’s a horrible antisemite. and they made him grow up to be a freaking RABBI. it completely caught me off guard and *gasp* actually made me laugh???? what???? 
there were plenty of other things I loved about the post-covid specials, like my depressed ass relating WAAAY too hard with stan, the extremely on-the-nose satire of the state of advertisement/capitalism with the stupid “denny’s applebee’s max” restaurant chain gag and all the old people being shoved into a giant prison retirement home once they aren’t productive anymore, kenny getting sick of the gang’s bullshit and writing “FUCK THESE HOES” on a beloved childhood photo, butters become a snake-oil salesman for NFTs, kyle being told to “think like a kid” and like 2 seconds later realizing they need to look up kenny’s ass. I could go on but you get the point. 
I liked it way more than I thought I ever would. and obviously, I often find south park funny for different reasons than my brother does because matt & trey are very good at toeing the line of appealing to both sides of the american political spectrum, but it’s become a point of bonding between us in the year since I started watching the show and I’m grateful for that. 
of course, since i’m terminally on tumblr and ao3, I also started to dive into the fandom of south park. I had heard about the whole creek thing years ago and waved it off as a stupid gag but then I realized wait, holy shit, there’s actually a GIGANTIC shipping culture around south park??? at first I got into style because of the interesting concept of post-covid kyle and stan reconnecting after decades apart and not being the same people they used to be but trying to make it work anyway (I even wrote a fic about it ahahaa...) 
but after a while I got tired of the ship because as I watched the rest of the show, I realized their relationship just wasn’t as interesting as I thought it would be. like they’re best friends but... why? because they’ve known each other forever? they both like video games? they make fun of cartman together? the fact they’re “super-best-friends” is kind of taken for granted by the show and the audience, but imo matt and trey never really explore the intricacies of their relationship very much. y’all can disagree with me on this but idk, all I know is that I got bored with style as a ship after like 2 months.
while scrolling through ao3 and tumblr, I ran across kyman fics/fanart for the first time back in february or so. at first I was appalled because... why the everloving fuck would you ship the blatant antisemite with the jewish kid??? really???? isn’t style a much better choice??? but sheer curiosity got the better of me, so I did what I always do when I’m curious about a ship: select for fics with kyle broflovski/eric cartman, sort by kudos, and read the first result (or in this case the second because the first had creek as the main ship). y’all know which fic that is if you’ve even slightly gotten into kyman. it was interesting, but I personally didn’t see them as the actual characters from the show in that fic. they were fandom versions of kyle and cartman, with their personalities changed enough to fit the standard mlm shipping dynamic that’s popular in fandom spaces (particularly regarding dom/sub aspects). I’ve seen it happen in plenty of other fandoms so I wasn’t surprised, but I still couldn’t see how it could possibly work if one were to use their canon character depictions. 
all the while I was making my way through episodes of the show cuz it’s long af, and over time I became more and more intrigued with kyle and cartman’s relationship. cartman quickly became my favorite character in the show because of how fucking complex and layered his personality is (see my tags on this post), and though kyle despises cartman in countless ways, he still is the only one who consistently tries to find goodness in him, tries to make him change for the better, saves him when no one else will, and remains his friend despite everything. it’s a remarkably complex dynamic.
little hints of kyman started creeping up on me: cartman being frequently queer-coded as a closeted gay kid. kyle getting extremely jealous of cartman and heidi’s relationship. both of them on separate occasions saving the other from death or injury without wanting any credit for it or lording it over each other. “we've been through a lot together, and... maybe that alone doesn't make us friends, but it makes us something” 
needless to say, I started to get it. and then I encountered the straw that broke the camel’s back: “know your enemy” by elsen on ao3. I’m not exaggerating when I say I’ve read that fic probably over a dozen times. it was shockingly well-written and so in-tune with the style and tone of the show that I was like “is this person spirit-channelling trey parker or something wtf???” and all of a sudden, I could see how, in a different universe, kyman could actually be an endgame ship. 
what sold me on it the most was how in-character it seemed for cartman to be a repressed, denial-ridden sub, especially regarding his desired relationship with kyle. there’s plenty of canon evidence that cartman has a secret crush on kyle (see this vid by johnny 2 cellos), but there’s no way that kyle could reciprocate those feelings, right?? imo kyle would probably rather die than enter a romantic relationship with cartman where he had to submit to him all the time, but if cartman would want kyle to be dominant over him??? where kyle has control and is able to curb cartman’s problematic behavior as he sees fit??? that opens up a whole other door of possibilities.
I think what kyle wants more than anything else in the world regarding cartman is for the goodness he sees deep down inside him to come to the surface, and for kyle to be the one to guide him (or force him when necessary) to becoming a better person through love and patience and inherent understanding of his fucked up little head??? I can definitely see kyle wanting that (especially since I see kyle as a repressed, denial-ridden sadist/dom lmao; see this post for my thoughts on that). 
it was all downhill from there. I found tons of other cool kyman shippers on tumblr and twitter whose writing and fanart helped suck me in even more and I’ve been stuck in kyman hell ever since. special shoutout to the asker for her kyman analysis posts that inspired this fic I wrote! love u boo <3
ANYWAY that’s how I became a whore for kyman lolololol ∠( ᐛ 」∠)_ have a nice day everybody
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supermaks · 1 year
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i send you asks abt this all the time but i feel like you Really Get why lewis and max in 2021 was just sooooooo good like literally they are so different and yet the exact same at their cores. lewis entering f1 at an age people said was too young and then he turned around and repeated the same narratives about max. them both being children of divorced parents. the way they imbue their loyalty in those around them. if i think abt it soo much i go CRAZY
omfg baddie ik ik ik ... in 2011, at the age of 26, lewis told reporters 'I drive the way I drive, if people have an issue with that, that’s their problem' during back to back seasons of crashes, recurrent visits to the stewards, drive thru penalties and insulting comments to the media. Yk I've watched those mclaren seasons ((shout out fullraces.com if ur f1 subscription randomly decides to fucking d1e which mine has multiple times i literally paid 80 US dollars!!!anwywya...............)) and its like. a whole different driver. Lewis was a Cunt in that car. He had to be because the car wasnt fast enough. Lewis was a karting champion too. Just like Max, he absolutely dominated the competition, u couldnt touch him. And what everybody says about those kinds of karting geniuses is that they will inevitably go back to their roots in times of need. They'll try overtakes nobody in their right mind would go for. They're fearless and theyll turn aggressive if that’s what it takes to make the pass. It’s so interesting to me how Lewis was handed a neat lil rocket to breeze past bitches with around the same time teenage Max and his one year of experience in open wheel racing had like a 20% DNF percentage and beef with half the grid. It gives the idea that these are totally different drivers with completely different philosophies when they’re. not. at all. This season we saw something a lil different. We saw a Lewis that was a lot more desperate and caused some damage for it. Whenever he got on the hunt u felt that shit in ur stomach because you know he’ll keep you at the edge of ur seat until the last second. He’ll push the limit even in a car that won’t let him he doesn’t give a fuck who’s in his way. And there’s only one other mf on the grid who got a nickname for that.
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dulcegal · 5 months
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Hi guys! I usually don’t speak abt important stuff on my blog because I honestly just don’t talk on here that much in general but I really need you guys to read through this please!! If you haven’t heard , Gaza and most likely the rest of Palestine are being attacked by Israel. This has been going on for two weeks I think. And by that I mean it’s been getting traction AGAIN for two weeks at this point . This has been going on for years and years. I remember rting a bunch of posts and contributing to the cause in 2021 so yea. I genuinely can’t fathom how people can see innocent people be murdered and just ignore or think that they “brought it upon themselves “ . Like even CHILDREN are being murdered and still most make excuses. I just am shocked by the ultimate lack of humanity . Now all electricity and internet has been turned off in Gaza which means we need to go hard for them since we’re their only voice and their only resource left. If you support Israel or are neutral or anything that goes against Palestine, block me, unfollow me, whatever you do just get the FUCK off my page. You are a coward with no moral and you don’t stand for anything as much as you think you do. And to the people who support Palestine , PLEASE KEEP SPREADING THE WORD OF THIS NEVER STAY SILENT ABOUT THIS. Yo the Palestinians who are seeing this, I cannot put into words how sad I am for you and how I hope you find happiness and peace and how I hope your people will be free.
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aaghht · 1 year
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Usagi Chronicles and reviews
I'm watching Usagi Chronicles reviews and there seems to be this general misconception around the internet that netflix somehow took the idea of a usagi TV show and muddled up the possibility of a direct adaptation? Or are people just mad that it's not their idea of a Usagi series? Like of course youtube reviews are going to be full of strange outrage and misplaced cricicisms over cartoons so I can't take those seriously, but even just fandom chatter sometimes has this idea going around that it's somehow a bad series for not adhering to the comic 100%. Or sometimes I’ll see other viewers’ comments like “it had so much potential but it could have been better”. I thought I’d collect my thoughts on this using references I’ve seen around before, such as interviews and articles with Stan Sakai and others. I don’t really agree with this view that the show has to be bad for not getting a “perfect” vision or adaptation and I don’t really believe that it squandered any “potential” either.
Like I think this show is super interesting to look at from a “how it was made” kind of perspective. The story and art are actually pretty good imo and the music really feels like it ties it all together by adding to the mood and setting + for carrying a lot of the series from an emotional POV. Yeah, it falls a bit short on some aspects but overall it’s a pretty fun series. Whatever you might personally know about animation or tv series making, it looks like a lot of care was put into this Samurai Rabbit cartoon.
EDIT(10.02.2023+27.03.2023): under a readmore bc this got way too long, but u should definitely check out these interviews if u still think the show didn’t respect Sakai’s original world and vision, or if u wanna write your own review one day but don’t know anything abt how the show was made.
Interviews/articles:
Filmschool Rejects (article), April 2022 The Popverse (interview), May 2022 Stan Sakai and the Usagi Chronicles | Comic-Con@Home 2021 Comic Book Couples Counseling (podcast interview), May 2022 Traversing the Stars (video interview), Jul 2022
Stan Sakai has said in at least 2 interviews that what got him on board was the view of Neo Edo painted by Khang Le (art director on series, check his work out on his website) - when no other idea suggested so far appealed to him. So this means he was on board with the show and approved of it. even if the concept is essentially a spinoff/alternate universe to older fans (it started off as based on or taking ideas from Sakai's Senso miniseries). What I like most about the series is that it seems to be respectful about both old and new japanese culture albeit being set in a semi-futuristic Edo-style re-imagining of the feudal japan that Sakai writes in Usagi Yojimbo. Stan Sakai was involved in the making of it so it cannot be in any other way. I've seen some american animated shows in the past which have approached this "culture inspiration" differently, sometimes even in ways where it feels weird or disrespectful. This show even has an all-asian english main cast, and japanese-american composer Aiko Fukushima has made the soundtrack for it, which I feel is a little rare to see. But hey, I'm european asian, not US asian so maybe I'm seeing all that in a different way here.
Like it kinda feels like ppl got stuck on previous animated versions and their own idea of what an adaptation/series should be. I know many were probably looking forward to a faithful animated adaptation but things are what they are and feels a bit unfair to say that what we got somehow took away from that chance. Like it is just one show.
yeah ok, it's aimed at children and it sorta pulls its punches on the tone and seriousness. but that doesn't have to be a bad thing? Having a "media tent" for younger viewers can mean that there'll be new readers introduced to the original comic series through this cartoon. It's also obvious to see that the people working on this are also fans of Sakai's work and wanted to make something fun, despite any tv animation limits, so I sorta wish people saw that more.
Or even more down the line is people saying it mucks up Sakai's vision about the comic series. Like. He is listed as "executive producer" and every design, script and decision went through him first. From interviews it sounds like he had a lot of trust in the team, to make something he would also like. It's ok to dislike the show for various reasons, as we do with all shows but at least respect that the comic author himself has approved of the series.
like im not saying people are saying all this directly, just various sentiments I've seen in reviews, boards and social media etc, but I feel like this misunderstaning is behing the reason why ppl dunk on the show and characters so easily? Of course, as someone who is still reading the comic series (have read a few comics, but not enough to know everything about it), maybe I just have a very limited view on this as someone who happens to like the tv show itself too. I love the art and storytelling in the comic but I also really like the animated series just for what it is.
Maybe it's also that we as internet-goers have become even moreso accustomed to seeing, reviewing and thinking about our media in such a superficial critical way that we can't really share honest opinions without feeling the need to add "real criticisms" to what we say. I feel like that's a bit connected to the "outrage culture" mentioned at the beginning too but honestly this has been a problem abt cartoon/media reviews for a longer time already. Like it's valid to not like stuff but at least don't make stuff up about them
man... I should try writing my own review faster but I really want to see other reviews first (they are a slog to get thru bc I have trouble watching video reviews)
anyway.... lol just some semi-collected thoughts.
at the end of the day, for me personally, I just genuinely like this series and it brings me joy to see that the crew and cast and Sakai himself seemed to really enjoy making it too. It’s nice to see both from interviews and the show itself. maybe it just makes me a bit sad that I keep finding shows where I see that there’s goodness in it and then the majority of viewers I come across online find it different.... like yeah, it had potential for “more” but also what we got was good. I’m happy the show got made.
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Hey beasties
Sooo this is my brand new vampire blog,, I'll still post abt vamps on main (@helpimstuckinthewashingmachine) but this blog is like, dedicated to vampires!
I decided to make this after realising that vampires and vampire media bring me a lot of joy! It's an interest I am passionate about and would like to post and write more frequently about :)
I want to clarify that I've never watched Twilight 😶 but I have absorbed it through pop culture for a long time so I know the plot lol, I'm going to watch it soon :)
Vampire series and media I have watched include:
What we do in the shadows (2021 + 2014)
BBC Dracula
Kissable Lips
Vampire watchlist/readlist:
Twilight
Nosferatu
Dracula Daily
Fave vampires:
The whole wwdits 2021 gang including the baron
Viago + Deacon (wwdits 2014)
Marceline <3 (adventure time)
Ok even tho I've never watched twilight Robert Pattinson is a wonderfully weird man and I love him so Edward Cullen is on this list.
Other, non vampiric, interests:
Kpop (svt, skz, exo, txt etc)
Ace attorney
Some anime and manga series, mostly Saiki K and The Way Of The Househusband
Lolita fashion (Japanese fashion subculture)
Hatoful boyfriend
Linguistics and languages
Be warned! This is a pun-friendly blog, especially cheesy vampire puns. If you are someone who sighs dramatically at any pun then like, just block me idk. If u don't like me block me that's all I gotta say.
Dni under the cut <3
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Dni:
Terfs, radfems, aphobes, homophones, transphobes, any kind of xenophobes, pedos and any gross ppl/bigots. I will block you without hesitation.
I am not a minor. Minors can interact I guess but keep that in mind, I'm not a creep dw I really do not care how old u are but if you were born in/after 2010 absolutely do not interact wtf. I'm gonna swear, I'm gonna thirst over vampires without hesitation. Like.... essentially its not a strict dni just know what ur getting into ok.
Fandoms I'd rather would not interact
Miraculous, or any fan of a show aimed at small children (esp paw patrol)
Dsmp
Agere (even sfw) or any kind of ddlg/kink/nfsw blogs
People who think the book Lolita is good
Marvel fans ur on thin fucking ice u can interact but not really
I really do not care for buffy, sorry. Or supernatural for that matter. In general superwholocks u guys are also on thin ice
Hetalia and aot/snk fans plsss dni 🤢
And if you think you're superior to other ppl bc of your interests and hold it over their heads to boost your ego, fuck you gtfo
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jewfrogs · 3 years
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genuinely the way ppl treat nudity is insane its literally just bodies
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nerdygaymormon · 3 years
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(1/2) hi david! ok i have a quick thing abt women and the priesthood: its so frustrating to me, and it used to be 1/12 months we would study the priesthood and honestly they don't teach us anything really other than what kind of stuff they do (vaguely). i always try to bring up the talks about womens priesthood power (only if endowed lol) but they always get brushed off. when i said how unfair it was when i turned 12 that i couldn't get the priesthood my mom took me aside and talked to me about
(2/2) she said to think of it like a wheelchair for men, to help them to be able to do good and help others and give them motivation because if women had the priesthood they would want to help everyone (i cant even with that metaphor its so wrong) and honestly, why can't women hold the priesthood? has that ever been said? why? because we live in a man/father led society? im just really tired of all the barely hidden sexism in lessons + calling the guys 'the priesthood' i hate it so much. thanks!
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Yes, I remember those lessons. I thought for the young women and Relief Society the focus should be on how they can access the priesthood, why it matters there is priesthood and so on, not learning the young men can pass the sacrament (which btw, preparing or passing the sacrament doesn’t require the priesthood and we used to allow females to do this). 
And how come the people in priesthood quorums didn’t need to spend a month learning about women’s contributions, or motherhood, or a way to provide some equity for women having to put up with learning of the men’s roles for a month
Yes, I’ve heard the excuse that men need priesthood in order to train them to be as good as the women naturally are. I don’t buy it. If priesthood service boosts a person’s goodness, why would we not want women to participate?
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I feel like our Church doesn’t do a good job explaining it’s priesthood restrictions. That’s probably because there isn’t a good justification for them.
We had the disastrous ban of people of African descent not being eligible to hold the priesthood and also not allowed to receive temple blessings. Fortunately, in 1978 the temple blessings and allowing men of African descent to be part of the priesthood was restored. Now no one is banned based on race, ethnicity or national origin. 
In early church history, the revelations mention men and the priesthood. I think that’s the basis for the current ban on women. 
Was this absence of women intentional? 
Could this be a case of the word “man” being used to mean “mankind” and wasn’t supposed to exclude women? 
Maybe “men” is all the culture was able to accept at the time. Women didn’t have constitutional rights and weren’t allowed to vote, and were thought of as people who remain in the house while their husbands dealt with things in the broader world.
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For a long time, our church taught that women can “receive all the blessings of the priesthood” even if they don’t hold it themselves.
Today, President Nelson has indicated that something unique happens in the LDS temple ceremony — something that imparts priesthood power to women. In the temple, there are certain ordinances that women perform for other women, which indicates they have the priesthood even though they haven’t been formally ordained to the priesthood. 
Unfortunately, this isn’t very well defined. 
Do women who’ve been through the endowment ceremony hold priesthood power, even though they aren’t ordained, and are only authorized to use this priesthood in the temple? 
Could they be authorized to use this priesthood outside of the temple? 
Why are they only authorized to use their priesthood for other women and not men? 
Is this the Aaronic or Melchizedek priesthood, or is it some other branch of the priesthood? 
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I think it’s clear women can hold priesthood and wield its authority. There’s many examples from the Bible and early Church history. 
Judges 4-5 - Deborah was a judge of Israel, acting as a prophet and military leader at a time when women were treated like property and valued by the number of children they could bear.​ She didn’t follow the gender role expected of her, and showed God is willing to have women as leaders, women as prophetesses. Perhaps patriarchy isn’t God’s will but a cultural trait of the ancient Israelites which we now read in the Bible and think is of God.
Acts 2:17 - “And it shall come to pass in the last days, saith God, I will pour out my spirit upon all flesh: and your sons and your daughters shall prophesy, and your young men shall see visions, and your old men shall dream dreams”
Is priesthood required to prophesy?
Romans 16 - powerful scripture for equality and inclusion--so many names of women in positions of authority and influence listed. There’s not enough details to know the exact roles of the women. Is a “fellow servant” an apostle? Is a woman who travels & teaches as Paul does, an apostle? What about the women who are leaders together with their husband? Some women sound like heads of the congregation, are they equivalent to bishops and pastors?
There’s an address from Joseph Smith to the Relief Society on March 30, 1842 that many believe indicates he intended for women to hold the priesthood. “the Society should move according to the ancient Priesthood, hence there should be a select Society separate from all the evils of the world, choice, virtuou[s] and holy— Said he was going to make of this Society a kingdom of priests an in Enoch’s day— as in Paul’s day”
Healing by the laying on of hands was a practice that was common for Mormon women in the 19th century, although it was said to be done by faith, not priesthood. There’s even a famous example of Mary Fielding Smith blessing an ox to health on the trek west to Utah. This practice was stopped because it was too similar to the priesthood.
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What our church has allowed women to do has varied, and needing priesthood authority was often the excuse for why women couldn’t do these things.
Women were barred from praying in Sacrament meeting from 1967 until 1978. 
In 1984, a woman spoke in general conference for the first time since 1930. Since then, women have spoken in every general conference.
Women were once permitted to join in or stand as an observer at the blessing of her baby, but today it’s priesthood only
In 2013, the first time a woman prays at General Conference.
In 2013, the "sister training leader" position is created, a leadership position for women who are missionaries. 
In 2015, the church appointed women to its executive councils for the first time.
2021, positions for women were created at the Area level of leadership in Europe, they’ll participate in leadership councils, and train Relief Society, Young Women and Primary Leaders.
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Can women hold the priesthood? I think the evidence points to yes. I believe we’re in the same situation as the priesthood ban of Black men where it’s now our tradition and belief and will take a revelation to undo. The question is, are the apostles and prophet seeking such a revelation?
If we extended the priesthood to all worthy members regardless of gender, that would solve several issues. For example, we have areas with many more women as active members, and the men in those congregations must shoulder several callings that require the priesthood. Their burden would be much lighter if women could share in the responsibilities
The disparity that women see in their everyday lives would be eliminated. They may be in a position of authority at work, but then on Sundays, for the most part they’re limited to working with women & children, and excluded from top leadership positions. I wrote a thing where I switched gender roles at church and I think it makes clear the messages we are sending to our members, particularly our impressionable children and teensagers. 
Then there’s the case of trans & intersex people. Is priesthood for men given according to their spirit or to their body? How do we know what gender is the spirit of an intersex person? If everyone were eligible for the priesthood, it would save us from having to answer what is perhaps an unanswerable question about whether the body & spirit of trans people got mismatched.
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We currently are not accessing the talents and capabilities of 1/2 the population. You’d think a church that has Heavenly Mother as part of its theology would be anxious to recognize the contributions that women can make and let them have leadership roles at all levels of the Church. 
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Wait they fucked the SPN ending for Walker? How? And now the show is more conservative than the original, which was headlined by known conservative dumbass Chuck Norris? Ugh
tldr (I can attest in the sense that I did watch the very last episode and with everything I've seen until now...... it holds up)
basically from what it seems like they pushed so that the finale ep was sam focused so it would make ppl idk stick with jared and they didn't give dean time to shine or a basic excuse of a storyline at all before the dumbest death he could have had and jensen's obviously pissed
like... can imagine why he would be
also like nothing happened in that ep is2g I watched it live while it was happening and it was all..... filler? like I swear even the fillerest filler episode for any show I've watched had more stuff happening in it than the spn series finale which... was... bad
and like I remember walker promos airing every ten seconds when the ep was airing sssoooo
anyway apparently the cw got heavy on walker promoting and shit and got both jensen & misha shafted which like... I mean misha was def in vancouver for the finale but he wasn't in the ep and jensen spends 15 years playing dean for that?
and like now idk if the background rumors re jared not opposing any of that and basically screwing them over because it was convenient for his new show are true or not but if he is like... ofc jensen is pissed off
anyway like as stated I'm catching up on the whole thing now and with that in mind the finale looked like 'okay we wanted to do a thing but you execs told us that we couldn't and we had to do this this and that so we're going to do it in a way that sucks ass on purpose but that delivers what you wanted' even moreso than it did in the beginning like... it's not bad in the way any other bad finale I watched is bc AT LEAST SOMETHING HAPPENED IN THE OTHERS LITERALLY NOTHING HAPPENED IN THIS ONE I'm still trying to wrap my head around it tbh
NOW with this in mind I'mma gonna say what I told @emilysnora when the first walker casting stuff came out but basically
the remake has jared being walker blah blah and honestly I'm not even pronouncing myself on the whole 'I got the idea when reading the interview with the ICE policeman who felt conflicted abt putting kids in cages' because it's not my place to but honestly as your resident white european person it's... really... I mean the nicest I can say it's that it's a very privileged way of looking at it and he probably didn't mean it to be a racist thing buuuuuttt thaaat kind of iiiiisssss so there's that and on top of that we have that it's him plus: - hispanic partner in the force - gay brother who's like AN ATTORNEY FOR THE STATE so like... right wing gay dude? okay - his wife was dead before the entire shebang began so hello fridging before the plot even starts - I gave a quick look at the main cast and like there's one biracial dude plus lindsey morgan and they're the only two nonwhite ppl in the entire main cast (idk about the recurring but I'm talking about the MAINS) add to that the... background premise it's really not as progressive as it looks like honestly
now not to be like your resident person who's like BUT THE REP but like if y'all gonna do a show in 2021 about ppl in texas doing that job having to deal with keeping children in cages or latin american immigrants having all white ppl in the main cast except two of them is like.... kind of... not exactly what I'd do in this time and age
now with the premise that as stated I hate chuck norris's politics and I don't thing great of him as a person or anything else so like pls don't take this as chuck norris endorsement or anything
my grandfather used to be obsessed with it same as like apparently 90% of italian grandfathers bc everyone I know had at least one who loved that show so like I've seen my fair share of it back in the day and to my best recollection - basically no one was presuming it was like.... there to make a political statement it was basically chuck norris roundhouse kicking bad dudes coming from whichever background and saving the day the end but - walker himself had native american ancestry bc he was raised after his parents' death by his uncle who was played by floyd westerman who was like a prominent NA actor so like technically you had the lead who had NA ancestry himself plus there was like actual NA actors having a relevant role which like... bros not to be that asshole but last time I saw that in pseudo mainstream tv in the last ten years it was on a netflix show that lasted one season so make of that what you will, also there were at least two other NA supportive chars from the reservation they all came from like one was the sheriff and the other was a spiritual leader or smth but anyway it had three NA chars played by NA actors - walker's police partner/bff was black - he had the ongoing willtheywon'tthey romance with the district attorney or smth but she didn't get fridged actually she lasted the entire show but anyway like... there was no 'ah he had a wife who DIED BEFORE THE SHOW EVEN STARTED' plotline - in the last two seasons they had rookie rangers showing up and like I went to check on wikipedia to be sure but the girl is half filipina which again not a category that gets exactly much rep on american tv - there was a recurring dude who helped them out in cases but was from another police branch who was def latino (don't remember the background sorry but he def was) also like walker was a vietnam vet which imvho would be an improvement over 'I was undercover for eleven months and my wife died :((((' when it comes to give your main like.... a srs background but anyway the point was that new walker in between the mains has like two nonwhite ppl and if I look at the recurrings it looks like there's four ppl who are latin* but three of them are undocumented immigrants so like... bro there's some typecasting going on I see, old walker had NA/black/hispanic/filipino people in the main/supporting cast and none of them was like... typecast in the sense that they were all cops except two of the NA ones so it's not like they went out of their way to typecast and like obv og walker wasn't making the whole thing a political statement but looking at it...... it's still way more progressive than whatever the new one wants to be
yes even if chuck norris was headlining it
and I mean... again when you manage to reboot a show starring chuck norris of all ppl and you manage to make it less progressive than the og while thinking you're being progressive while rebooting it I mean as we say here ask yourself a few questions and give yourself a few answers, also like the entire point of og walker was crack where he kicks ppl and says doing drugs is bad, I honestly don't get why the fuck they had to reboot it instead of like having the guts to say we wanna do an original thing, bc like in order to say hey I wanna do a show about a conflicted cop on the texas border you really can just make it an original thing and own it not go like I'M REBOOTING WALKER TEXAS RANGER ROUNDHOUSE KICK CENTRAL EXTRAORDINAIRE but that's my two cents make of that what you will
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i heard something about a lesbian undead cleric 👀
YOU HEARD RIGHT OKAY
uhh if you're a player in the direlight campaign do not read under the read more unless you're the dm in which case. ya know. hi josh
warning it accidentally got long and rambly Whoops
SOOOO okay my girl my undead lesbian where do weee begin
here's a picture I've just finished of her because I wanted to test out a solid line style and i went too far AND I JUST REALIZED I FORGOT TO SHADE THE GOLD ON HERRRRRR
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so her name is! Adr Irithyl! She's a Shadar-Kai (bodied) twilight cleric who worships the Raven Queen (who in the world is called Selyn). Before dying and her subsequent revival, Adr was one of many nuns who served to help souls pass on to Selyn, so that the Raven Queen could collect them and sort them. Adr specialized in children (which ALWAYS sounds weird), helping them with a soothing darkness that followed her wherever she walked. She would sit beside them, listening to children tell stories, letting them talk and talk until their lives would end, and she'd usher the spirits back. Specifically twilight, she used the dark as a blanket, blinding the children to what was to happen.
But, one of the children she was around ended up getting her ill. She was only ~150-200 when she passed, refusing to let the others heal her at risk of getting them sick. The only one she allowed was her closest "friend" among those in her specific order, telling her "I do not want my life to go to waste. Use my body as a sign that death is to be welcomed, and not feared, and that reversing it isn't the answer."
And then she died, peacefully, after an agonizing couple weeks of struggling with an illness foreign to her body. She's from the Shadowfell, she's not used to the Material Plane. She passed, and so too did 500 years. Empires rose and empires fell. People lived and she was remembered by her Sisters.
Until she wakes up, 500 years in the future, her body a stitched up, mangled mess, surrounded by corpses of other clerics like her, with no recollection of who she even was. She lays there for over a week, just... Noticing. "I should be starving by now. I should be dehydrated by now. Breathing hurts. I can't sleep."
When she finally moves, she just... Keeps seeing the bodies. Pieces of the bodies, sometimes just skin, sometimes their entire limbs. One of her arms was too long. One had a hand with only three fingers. The stitches on her body hurt, and she was covered with arcane markings she couldn't wash off. Memories would... Sometimes hit her, the strongest being this one woman flashing a smile and offering her...
She could never remember the word. it was warmed bread with some spread on it, but the specifics, she couldn't remember. It frustrated her. It frustrated her so much she went to destroy the entire ruins and kill herself.
When she found a note, on the altar where she had been. It was in a language she couldn't read. And... It called to her. As if it would be an answer to who did this. So, rather than kill herself and return to Selyn, she lead the nunnery, left her sisters, with the strange feeling that she wasn't entirely alone, that no matter where she went, bits of those ripped apart to form her would follow, everywhere she went.
Eventually, she found a town, where a person named Henris eventually befriended her, and she stopped her quest for revenge to work as a researcher in a school of Clerichood, which is where the party will meet her!
The Lesbianism:tm: will be something she realizes throughout the story, as she recalls memories of her "dear friend." They were very much in love, but their devotion and dedication (and Adr being... Scared of that aspect of her) meant that they never grew closer than friends. But without those obligations, without that... Goal? Adr doesn't feel that same "moral" obligation to remain celibate and pure and focused on her prayers. In fact, she can barely even remember the prayers she used to say, relying on an old prayer book found on a body of her sisters.
Originally, Adr had been a soft and kind woman who would give up everything to help others, but now? With the knowledge that, surely, in the eyes of her goddess she's an abomination (a theme among my elf clerics actually, undead clerics who think their gods see them as a monster that sends them hardships to get them killed), she doesn't care. She doesn't care about being soft and nice. She doesn't care about pacifism. She doesn't want to hurt people, but if she saw the man that brought her back and to get him, she'd have to kill one of her party members?
At the moment, I don't think I can say she'd wait.
She's not meant to be some overly grimdark, "oh boo-hoo" character, she literally talks like Miette the cat, regularly tries to eat food that she physically can't since she lacks a stomach, is going to be calling one of the characters "Sea salt" because they're a sea elf (granted they deserve it SMH Cancel Sea salt the Bloodhunter 2021 /j), but... She has that part of her. The fact that she never asked to be alive. The fact that she views death as a mercy. The fact that once her goal is complete, she will kill herself without any hesitation for fear of growing too attached to life.
and yeah im going to give her the comphet I struggled with for years because IT'S MY CHARACTER AND I CAN PROJECT THE STRUGGLES
but all the negative aside she does still adore kids and wears a raven mask (see above) to hide her face so that kids don't think she's scary, she'll give kids rides on her shoulders because she's over 7 feet tall, she'll sit with you all night if you have a bad dream (UNLESS YOU'RE SRIGRALT FUCK YOU SRIGRALT /J), she'll even grant you dark vision if you need it because even if the dark is peaceful to her, it isn't that way for everybody.
But, I haven't even played her yet! I'm switching out my genasi monk for her, and I'm. really excited. Adr is so much more interesting to me because while I made my genasi a really femme woman, I can do! So Much more with Adr! AND I just love playing cleric, like. Hitting inflict wounds on the final boss? MWAH that was a magical moment with my other cleric, and since we don't have dedicated support... I'm not complaining about pulling her out ;)
ANYWAYS thank you for asking me abt her Morgan i have thunked about her a lot, expect an ask abt your githzerai cleric soon because dnd characters are <3
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#10 Passage to Dawn
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Start: August 28, 2021
End: October 22, 2021
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WIZARDS N PIRATES N DEMONS ;; oh hi cadderly ;; entreri rly isn’t coming back is he
Oh shit crenshinibon is back ;; stumpet rakingclaw my beloved <3
worlds too big - let’s go home
Take a shot every time Zak’s back - oh shit nvm
CB’s new gal frens
We went in a fucking circle
Card: 5 of diamonds ;; feeling left out, getting through slow trudge, alienation, illness ;; wuh oh that doesn't sound good :sweat:
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Favorite d&d monster ended with drider; my new favorite d&d monster is the Marilith
I loved a lot of parts but,, it feels like we’re back where we started. Actually that’s not all correct, can we just applaud regis’ character growth since the crystal shard? He was a coward who ran away from consequences, will only Do things when he really and I mean really needs to. He was a lousy guy that when things didn’t work out or just to get what he wants would ruby pendant. But throughout the legacy he had to lead when bruenor was broken, he gifted his precious pendant to drizzt in starless night with little of at all hesitancy, he captured crenshinibon by himself ! (Well almost by himself :P but he did the bulk of the leg work!)
With Wulfgar back,, Catti Brie after 6 years and a mission felt it’s finally time to go back, that she could stand to be back. That place, in the corners of the tundra, everything reminded her of her dead fiancé, and after half a decade she felt she could finally face it again. I don’t really think you ever get over someone, you’re heart just changes shape, like a tree outgrowing an infestation. Now that Wulfgar is back, Catti Brie was the only thing that kept him going, and Catti Brie had been if not had already grown forward. They’re at different places, they can’t just meet in the middle the same way they did back then, it was far too long ago and they are very different people today.
When Wulfgar confronts Drizzt about his relationship with Catti Brie, it’s very different from when he did it in the legacy. I think he’s given up, but he’s alright with it. CB probably filled him in for all those years and Wulfgar comes to terms with, well, maybe it’s the best choice for all three of their happinesses. Also have you checked out that beard lol
We get back to all that we’ve left behind. To Bruenor and Regis, the pair left with no word. Bruenor was overwhelmed with joy, after basically losing both of his children in what like a year ? And to surprise see them back. They’ve been gone for so long and to see them together, you’d assume too they’d come for a blessing considering how close Bruenor is with Catti-Brie
Btw let’s check in on what the pair were doing in that time they were gone. Being pirate hunters w Deudormont!! So cool, love me the idea of CB and her spyglass, they’ve become famed legends for combat.
I enjoyed when they went to carradoon. This whole time we’d been on adventure to adventure, from port to port, braving through everything. We finally get to relax a little while still progressing. I like when Danica confides in Catti Brie about her pregnancy; nice to see that gals care for gals is a universal rule even in fantasy
Speaking of Carradoon, let’s talk abt how we got here. HARKLE HARPELL BITCH THATS HOW. He’s someone incompetently competent, he doesn’t know the rules but he sure does break them! I enjoy when he and Robillard are over doing it just to show off, reminds me of the way to reinvigorate an old dog is to get a puppy
He even made his own spell!! And he knew that interfering may ruin it so he held back, but darn when you see people so confident in the wrong choice you seriously need to help and that seriously pushed it like
IVE BEEN CAREFULLY HERDING YOU CATS BUT I SERIOUSLY JUST GIVE IN WE’RE HEADING THE WRONG WAY
He can be serious and understands the weight of situations, he’s not a child, he’s just uh, wired differently; runs in the family
The gangs all back, different than ever, they got what they wanted, but where to now? Wherever it is, it’s together.
Oh now where do I go from here? I can start on paths of darkness, maybe read through the sellswords before? Perhaps in the middle of paths of darkness? Maybe I’ll finally get through the starlight and shadows trilogy. Or perhaps the war of the spider Queen? Perhaps I’ll move away from the forgotten realms and start the dragon lance chronicles
Ofc I’ll share my journey here too!
P.S. I haven’t said this but I love to read to my friends, usually me and my friends will hang out on fridays on a discord call and I’ll just read whatever I’m on to them and explain stuff to them. I think I have more fun that way :P I try to put life into it and give each chaarcter distinct voices and accents - and it means a lot to me that my dearest fwends notice like when I lose an accent they’ll say smth like ‘wait is this *X character*? When did they get there I thought they were at *X place*’
It really does mean a lot you know! Wraith, CC if you ever see this know ily guys <3 long love Bo’s 1# fan club
P.P.S. I give a lot of props 2 voice actors and audio book narrators, and my poor dm’s that get super duper into everything (love u guys). I read for like 3 hours (don’t worry I had water and took breaks) but that’s like probably a normal day for a VA and it was really tough ;; we only do it once a week so I’m not in much danger of damaging my chords.
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grvntld · 3 years
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05 august 2021 • excited and happy aina on the loose
i know it's the sixth tahday, i just really wanna talk abt yesterday first so okie.
the 5th of august was an enjoyable day for me, even though i had no sleep the night before, because my live-selling-sucker of an ass decided to watch tita's live that was supposed to end at 5am, but instead ended at 7:30am. lmao. it was just really fun. i got blazers, trousers, a few tops, and skirts!!! ive been loving wearing skirts lately — you know the long ones, the midi ones, and the ones with slits specially!!! aside from all that, izzo fun to interact with the other buyers because we're honestly like a community already, we're all like tita's children, if that makes sense. also, tita makes everyone comfortable and happy. she shared to me though that lately, a lot are joy reserving which makes her sad and i get that. they do so much for their business — imagine going on live for 9 or more hours and then people will just joy reserve your items. that's honestly disheartening and frankly some next level bullshit. tita even told me that she'd rather give her items for free than hv someone joy reserve them — and believe it or not, she does give out freebies!!! she gives a lot of freebies. one of the most fun part of her live is when she starts giving out freebies because she gives long codes to type and it's so fun to watch how the buyers type those shit out. besides the freebies while she's on live, tita also puts some surprise freebies on our package every time we check out our items. that's how generous she is!!!
after the live selling, i really tried my best to sleep, but i was only able to do that for maybe two hours; so then i decided to just go down in the living room and start my day. i had cake and fresh milk with milo for breakfast so dazz a yay. i was also able to finish some werq tasks. the items i got from tita's lives last week came in so i opened that, folded them, and put them in an ecobag because i might send them to a laundry shop in the coming days — most of 'em are lightweight oversized polos like button downs and button ups so i think i wont be priced a lot for it which is sulit.
when ive cleaned up the mess i made after opening up my parcel and checking out my items, i started packing my stuff which i would be bringing here at boyfie's. yay! it's been a long time since we were able to spend some quality time together. on top of that, ive been missing our bb doggo soooooo much. once i was done packing and fixing my things, i then tried to take a nap which i was able to for perhaps two hours too.
once i was awake, i started prepping such as taking a shower, dressing up, putting my things down in the living room, and waiting for boyfie to pick me up. it's just my second time riding his motorcycle (((but it's definitely not my second time riding ~his motorcycle~ iykyk wink w0nk))).
anyhoooooOOOoOOoOoOoot, our bb doggo really missed me even moreso than i missed him, i think. he wasnt able to contain himself and just wait for me to reach our floor because he already went down the stairs to meet me, jumped on me, and kissed me (((licked mah face))) 🥺 i miss mah bois for realsxz!!!!
there. finally a documentation of how my 5th of august went.
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pinkbunnyplushie · 3 years
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Hi! Once you get this you have to say five things you like about yourself, publicly, then feel free to send this to a few of your favorite followers.
hehe ALSO!!! ur new theme??? immaculate omg!! it looks amazing but also... I have a feeling you're abt ready to fight uhm, anyways–
this is so sweet!! 🥺💗 & thank you!! 🥰 you're right btw, i'm a l w a y s ready to fight tho 💅🏻
now, this should be harder?? but for me it's a really easy thing to do bc i'm f u l l of myself 😷👑
so, here we go:
i'm so funny. i'm hilarious. part of that is that my gif/meme/sticker game is really strong. don't @/ me, it's the truth. 🤚🏻🙄
i like to think that i'm really creative. i have a lot of ideas. i can't write but the ideas are there 😌
i'm actually really good at problem solving and i'm probably a damn good liar [i just don't like to do it]. my mind works really quick in that kind of situation. 💅🏻💗
i'm somebody people trust. idk why? but they do and i like that about me. 👉🏻👈🏻
i'm still trying to become the person i want to be, i still care about the world and want to save it, i cry at children's movies. what i'm trying to say is this: i don't let the world turn me bitter, my heart doesn't wither & i love that about myself. 🌱🌺🐛
i will be sending this to some of my followers now, but i think this is a really sweet challenge and a healthy thing to do, so i actually dare every.single.one. of you guys to do this!! follower or not!! so if you're reading this right now:
reblog/answer/make a post with 5 (or more) things you like about yourself, *casting a spell with my fairy magic* now it’s good luck!! so go ahead and do it!! Xx🍀💗
it's 2021, can you really pass on that?
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wodnes--coyotl · 3 years
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There’s so many things............I wanted to achieve in 2020, which is I’m sure what everyone has said. Somehow I still think 2017 was worse, but .... I don’t know. I was really alone then. I almost lost both my parents, this year I was safe with a better job, good partner, and only lost one (at least I got to see her once in a decade to say goodbye)....ultimately this brought me to heathenism in a weird and roundabout way. It’s hard to know she was really walking around with this poorly depicted Viking nonsense ‘false odin’ with cerberus (why?) going on, lord, she would’ve hated left heathens BUT ALSO wasn’t even a pagan to begin with (so she says, but being a pentecostal and having psychosis, while this does not a pagan make, made for a quite magickal and brutal experience). my mother was a trickster entity in living flesh. at first, i learned into having guides for the first time. i wondered if it was a coping mechanism, but i shrugged, because it was not my intention to see the numbers repeating, or the ‘loki’ every..single..day..for a week... in the weirdest fucking places... it was not my intention to lose my best friends in this city (which is not my final destination, ha) because they were too busy having poly drama, to, idk, support their friend, and then ghosted me, or came up with some weird passive aggressive bullshit. it totally dominated my 2020 - the pandemic, then mom dying, then the deities, then the loss. my card of the year was the hermit, i thought that was such a joke considering the pandemic. how could that then apply to me more personally? I haven’t had time or space mentally to recount the beautiful parts of the year because we’ve been stuck inside, inside during riots, inside during west coast smoke hell, inside where the spiders are. astoria was beautiful. it was god given. i knew what was real was real that day. it’s been seven months since mom passed, and i know her spirit has contacted me. it has brought me closer to my own spirituality which was accidentally rampant chaos magick that i was unaware of - introduced to me by ten years of tricksters who I never quite recognized. at the altar, id pull cards, i began to learn runes, and id ask, “were you always there? was that the presence that was always there?” I don’t know, much of the paranoid presence I felt my whole life ended when mom died. so much ended. i still want to write about it. again and again. because i forget that it happened, i compressed it so far back. everyone walked away and all that remained was my partner and the unseen. i would get straight answers on the altar, but never for that question. i never understood, and still hardly do, why loki came - was it to console me after the passing of my mother? somehow a veil had been lifted and my already wack ass intuition became 25% greater, somehow i felt seen and heard by others. at first, i was scared... i had always gravitated unknowingly towards tricksters and mercurial beings, loki came during the week of L*ghnasadh, after I’d been reading abt the ACTUAL “mercury”/hermes.... it was as if to be like, oh, you’re looking to NAME US FINALLY? THIS ENERGY, HERE _______. I was a little sheepish of Odin because of the association..... and I never quite got an answer. Sometimes still, I am struggling to understand this deity, however many a time loud and clear he and Loki have responded within the half-hour, be it some really weird ultra-specific shit to crop up, flickering shit, popping, knocking over. I turn to him frequently as, the more I read, the more I trust... this understanding of inarticulatable parts of myself - when I read about odr I was thinking of what this could mean for me, especially as a trans person, and it moved me. when I think about knowledge, and loss... when I think of the underdog vying that Odin (and of course Loki) represent, it is always with grace and honor that I am glad to be In It. I struggle tho, cos no matter how viscerally real my experiences have been, and no matter how little I would ever wish to disrespect them by denying faith, as a human who has run far from christianity and is skeptical of everything, every day, I’m like, ‘how much can I lean into this? is this ‘weird’ or delusional? am i acting like a child?” but, ..... I have learned from many smart and creative folks of the same ilk that we are not alone and the passage of time cannot destroy old gods so easily, and I am honored to be called to that. 2020.....that is.....to me, the year of death and rebirth. it was the only parting gift mom could give me. as she died, I told her I knew the lord had brought me there. I knew we had made it JUST in time, by many many strokes of good ‘luck’, to see her off. the last day we saw her was the last day she’d ever seen both her children together in her life. of course, she probably hardly recognized me. and she loved my brother more. had spent less time with him. oh lord, she did look at me with burning eyes of distrust and hatred, but that was not her fault. she was so ill. god she was so ill. dad joked, after she died, ‘maybe she’ll finally be in valhalla’, he didnt know what that meant. mom was a ‘devout’ christian woman of “god”. she was no pagan. she did not serve odin. but 2 months later when I discovered them, I heard his words ringing in my head, and I had to laugh. It’s been so hard...losing the queer comrades I had with me because of ? what ? exactly ? I still dn’t know, watching someone I spent 3 years being ‘close’ to basically patronize me that she always had reservations about us, never let me in, or get closer, like real friends, .... id cry and cry thinking, why, did i lose the one figure who brought me into this world, who i never had, for ten years, who abandoned me and hated every ounce of my being, and to confront this NOW in the middle of a pandemic, where i have zero way to the outside world to cope, and then to be left behind AGAIN by SO MANY PEOPLE, i felt Loki’s comforting presence. I’m trying to focus on the future again, that’s what 2021 is giving me. the “year” label, “when mom died” is over. even if that event forever changed my life far beyond that of a normal passing (?) I mean, it’s never normal when a mom dies, much less a woman like her, have mercy, it’s over. 2021 is the “year when we move to los angeles” its the “year when i start a REAL band again instead of be a side piece for a woman who cant get real with herself and her drum machine”, the “year when maybe ill take my adhd meds and hrt” we’re suspended in a stasis, there are big ups and downs. in two weeks i quit my med of 2 years, because it’s causing harm and i actually dont technically need to be on it anymore. im scared and excited. i need the change. i need the CHOICE. 
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transrightsjimin · 3 years
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urgh im less upset abt grandma dying nd more upset abt my family being so fucking STUPID for acting like they cant do anything anymore during the pandemic nd inviting me for a christmas dinner nd my cousin saying they ‘should just do w/e we want instead of look at rules, because this loss is more important now’ nd the rest agreed O_O
like u fucking DUMBASSES, THE VIRUS IS THE FUCKING REASON GRANDMA DIED ND U WANT TO HAVE CHRISTMAS DINNERS ND MEET UP W THE WHOLE FAMILY IN 2021???? 
THE CONCEPT OF FORCED 'GEZELLIGHEID' ('cozy togetherness'?) IS LITERALLY WHAT IS HAVING PEOPLE KILLED IN THIS FUCKING COUNTRY 
also i feel fucking disgusted for letting my brother pull me in a hug (nd my mom hugged me too which i hate bc shes literally a risk group) bc hes a fucking fascist nd i saw him in a whatsapp group w antisemitic meme today nd i want to puke !!!!!!!
i dont want to fucking see my family during this pandemic but they always force me to be together w them bc thats considered 'GEZELLIG!!!' and normal and fun nd im too bad at saying no when im peerpressured, i fucking hate it nd don;t want my mom or other grandma to die bc of their dumbass behaviour by continuing to visit ppl inside their homes. they really talked about how different it was this cremation vs. decades ago at the same place bc “now we couldn’t enter at the same time nd people could touch each other and sit closely” LIKE U??? LITERALLY SAT NEXT TO PPL WHO DONT LIVE W U W 0 TO 30 CM DISTANCE BETWEEN EACH OTHER?? U LITERALLY HUGGED PEOPLE TODAY?? THERE WERE LIKE 40 GUESTS IN A WAY TOO TINY ROOM FOR THAT AMOUNT LIKE R U KIDDING ME??? I DONT WANT TO FUCKING SEE THIS EVER AGAIN. ALSO i wish death upon my brother but not rly bc it would hurt my mom nd his daughter but jfc i fucking hate him. also my cousin nd his dad are just like him. fascism is so normalized in dutch society nowadays idek where to draw the line between a person who is slightly bigoted nd the ‘never talk to a fascist‘ scenario jfc.
i always feel so fucking mixed abt my family urghfhgh like i truly do care abt my parents nd i guess one aunt nd uncle maybe but i dont want to fucking see them during this pandemic nd i preferrably dont see my brother either. but fuck i REALLY dont know how ppl cut family out of their lives bc i would have to pick and choose who i would stay in touch w but they all communicate to each other so u rly cant keep a secret. if i were to try to close off family i would need to delete my fb + ig bc i do have an aunt who keeps finding me there, nd i would need to never tell any of them my new address if i ever move. but also we never had a huge fallout so i dont think theyd get it?? nd my family on my mother’s side, aside from my american uncle nd aunt, all live rly close in either this city or one nearby so idek how you could avoid them. like im conditioned to care abt them but i honestly really dont care
i got invited by my parents to this christmas dinner over at their house and they didnt see the issue in inviting me, my friend, my brother and his daughter, “bc it’s legal to invite 3 people and children under 13 years don’t count [according to the legislation]” nd said ‘oh your friend will feel lonely on christmas if he’s just home alone‘ NO HE WON’T?? HOW DO U KNOW?? WILL IT LITERALLY KILL U TO TRY TO NOT KILL OTHER PEOPLE??
the only reason i cried at the cremation today was bc i thought of my mom dying nd having no idea what i would say in a speech then. like i dont remember my mom’s speech well but i was impressed how she said positive things abt her mom considering she was rly physically nd mentally abusive of her kids in the past nd left my mom scarred for life. it made me think when people deserved to actually be remembered for the ‘good’ stuff, just because fucking family is supposedly important. nd i just couldnt remember positive stuff abt my mom other than ‘i would miss her‘ but i couldnt think of what exactly i would miss abt her bc our personalities rly clash.
she rly stressed me out today, like she kept honking for the whole neighbourhood to hear bc i wasnt immediately outside when the car arrived in my street, nd at a certain moment said i should take a flower from the bouquet (tht was paid by the nephews nd nieces (minus me bc my parents paid it bc im broke)) nd so i did but then my aunt complained right beside me that she thought it was wrong that people just pulled out flowers ffrom the bouquet so i was like :( oh ok, but my mom kept yelling ‘NO TAKE MORE FLOWERS!! COME ON TAKE ANOTHER ONE!! PUT IT IN YOUR HOME!!‘ nd my aunt kept complaining nd i felt so guilty suddenly for having those flowers as i got more pushed into my hands by others. like my best friend has a rly chill family who srsly didnt pay visits at home or vice versa once nd im so jealous bc when your whole family understands how the fucking virus / social distancing works nd doesn’t look egocentrically only at the lax legislation or treat forced gezelligheid as the ultimate goal, it would prob be a lot easier to actually just not meet up. bc the question of meeting up or having to see each other all the fucking time isnt even a thing. but to him my family is rly weird nd strict while before him i only knew ppl w stricter parents nd i had the easy ones bc i was allowed to drink nd go out nd date even though i didnt want that. urgh im just in conflict nd feeling a bit desperate abt the ppl in this country. nd i worry abt my mom getting sick
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