#like every time i see him i get upset

[iamnmbr3]

harry definitely not heterosexual potter is the funniest thing to me because i literally cannot remember a single time in the book where he thinks “i should probably be nervous about draco trying to kill me because i am literally convinced that he is willingly working with voldemort.” no. he was like “oh draco? yeah he is definitely working for voldemort and he is so evil because did you see the way he is combing his hair now? probably switched shampoo. he would never change conditioner, that thing works wonders. what do you mean, this is common knowledge. anyway, he is so evil and definitely working for voldy. but of course he won’t kill me, are you crazy? who would he talk to across the great hall? like literally you don’t even understand.” and everyone just WENT WITH IT.

Hahahahaha I KNOW! Would he feel this safe around literally any other person who he suspected of being in league with Voldemort? I think tf not!

Even once Draco has Harry incapacitated and totally at his mercy on the train Harry at no point thinks that he's in danger. Even after Draco breaks his nose he doesn't think it. After that incident Harry still is all 'can't wait to break into the Room of Requirement BY MYSELF while Draco is in there so I can see what secret evil mission he's working on for Voldemort' and at no point does he worry that going in without backup could end badly. And HE'S RIGHT. When Draco has Harry at his mercy he never seriously harms him and risks everything multiple times in book 7 to protect him. This is NOT Harry seeing Draco with rose tinted glasses. This is Harry deeply and intimately understanding that Draco will not hurt him and feeling comfortable around him on an instinctual level despite every reason he has not to.

And let's not forget why Harry finally stops investigating Draco in 6th year. It's not because he decides he's wrong about his whole "Draco is a Death Eater on a mission from Voldemort" theory nor is it because he gets worried that since Draco is a Death Eater on a mission from Voldemort looking into this could get Harry or his friends hurt. No. He stops because his investigation leads to Draco getting hurt. And Harry is so horrified by this that he completely backs off and gives up trying to stop the super secret evil mission from Voldemort that Harry is sure Draco is on. Harry is like 'foiling an evil plot masterminded by Voldemort himself isn't worth it if it could lead to me hurting Draco.' He really said 'I can excuse putting myself in mortal danger on a regular basis to stop Voldemort's plots but I draw the line at Draco being upset.' In canon.

And yeah Harry cares about people in general but not to this extent. When Umbridge gets carried off by centaurs Harry doesn't even think of going after her. He's just like 'lmao bye bitch.' He straight up KILLS Quirrell in first year and when he finds out he's like 'well that sucks for him.' Tons of Death Eaters get hurt and maimed at the Department of Mysteries and Harry never even stops to check if they're ok. In second year he forces Lockhart to enter the Chamber of Secrets first in case there's a Basilisk waiting at the bottom of the chute.

But anytime he sees Draco in danger he does whatever he can to help without even thinking about it. From the time in first year in the Forbidden Forest when he immediately throws his arm out to stop Draco walking towards Voldemort to 7th year when he risks his own life and that of his friends to pull him out of the fiendfyre and reveals his presence while running through the battle so he can stun a Death Eater threatening Draco. And he does it automatically, without a second thought because Harry can't fathom a world where he wouldn't protect Draco.

#this ask made me lol so much. it's so. SO true. #(I'm now imagining Harry being like Doug from Up going “Squirrel!” but about Draco every time he sees him. Oh wait. That's canon.) #Shoutout to the time Harry sees Draco forced to torture Rowle and is horrified because of how upset and scared Draco is #and doesn't even think about Rowle at all. #Can you imagine him telling Rona and Hermione about it like 'it was horrible'. #'Yeah I guess even though Rowle is a Death Eater he didn't deserve-' #Rowle? Who cares about him? He was just getting tortured. The point is Draco felt bad about it.' #Also. Nose breaking is pretty minor given that 1) in the magical world mundane injuries can be easily fixed and #2) Draco is a literal Death Eater. #And later Draco risks everything to save Harry's life at the Manor. #He also alerts Harry to his presence in the Room of Requirement #tries to stop Crabbe & Goyle from killing or hurting him #and doesn't call Voldemort or tell anyone he's seen Harry. #asks #Draco Malfoy #Harry Potter #drarry #drarry in canon #hpdm #h/d #harco #harry x draco #harry/draco #drarry meta #drarry g

[lunarharp]

"Found out" set in kind of a made-up chapter where the girls are in trouble, or something.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #i hate having a strong cinematic image in your mind for months..working hours on it..& at the end looking you have to be like “Sure. :/" #i'm especially unsatisfied with the beginning and the end and how i can't get eyebrows to work as i want #but i dont care any more... this is probably the comic that has given me the most trouble ever i just dont care #i barely even care whatsoever if anyone even sees this..Ugh..but at least i can move on to the next era now #i'm just annoyed i cant get out good enough my image of qifrey flinching bc he thinks oru will hit him but then he is not hit #i feel like sensei will do something along these lines. i want to see what she will do. #there are also other variations i have in my mind. i just want to know #i just don't want it to happen with qifrey on his deathbed or something. but it possibly will. I DONT EVEN KNOW. #i have another very cinematic image in my mind for something sort of along those lines which i will do soon. it never ends... #btw after this is probably my fics. yeah.... i think it has to be my fics. jasmine sort of goes along these lines #i need that space for dialogue. look - i'm a writer. this is HARD for me. so i am really glad i had the space and freedom of words #to process all the feelings. but i tried to get something out in a quick visual space too. <- me defending myself to myself at cai court #anyway going along the lines of 'Jasmine' - they talk this out and argue and cry and oru pushes the hat at him and tells him #why not just erase every memory i have of you then. That would be easier for us all wouldn't it? #they kiss and sob and kiss and lie outside in the flowers for many hours in that one. and then there's 'Deep End' where it turns out #way way way way more time and words is needed for this actually and that's upsetting for everyone. #the destruction of the hat is certainly another path to take. Can you make this work without that hat going up in flames? #something you have always had and have been clinging to will have to be destroyed. You have to lose something now. This is the crux qifrey #I CANT GET IT OUT IN ONE COMIC!!! I CANT DRAW IT OUT!!!! I NEEDED THOSE FICS!!!! PRAISE WORDS!!!! whatever im going to have dinner now

[nikikikiko]

part of me is so so tempted to make like.

an afk arena fanfic thats short and sweet and like some stories about eugavus & their kids, mainly during the time where they are still looking for a new living space after the prison break

mainly bc i have two little ideas i wanna do ,,,,

#afk arena #afk eugene #afk gavus #afk liberta #afk lucilla #eugavus #i think #that they deserve to have a fanfic dedicated to that little portion of their life #like the ups the downs and what have you #imagine gavus and eugene learning their funny silly little baby girl uses unnecessary violence now #and she doesnt see the issue with it bc to her its justified usage #imagine they see their little darling sleepy boy whos so willing to put himself in the grip of death #because his magic is built for healing and he sees it as the most logical thing to do #but also imagine eugene showing lucilla how to channel that unnecessary violence into something more clever #hes not saying get rid of it hes saying turn it into necessary violence #‘’​so you wont get told off by your papa’’ kinda deal #imagine gavus sitting liberta down after a particularly bad day full of disagreements on how liberta uses his magic #and admitting to liberta that yes he can heal himself but its scary every time for gavus and eugene and lucilla #that the reason they keep getting upset isnt bc theyre mad at liberta but terrified that he’ll take a hit for them #for his PARENTS (the people who are supposed to be protecting him) #and he won’t get up #yeah i have thougthts anyways

[reel-fear]

MIKE BLOCKED ME ON TWITTER FOR ROASTING HIS DUMBASS RESPONSE TO THE GRAPHIC NOVEL STUFF!!

grown ass man scared of the 19-year-old queer being mean to him over his public meltdown more at 8.

#ramblez #little white boy sad? U sad bc nobody likes you? Bc u constantly make a fool of urself and show off ur distaste for ur fans? lmao #this is one of the greatest things to ever happen to me imagine how mad he'll be when he finds out the fangame Im making has queers in it #hes gonna have a whole other white boy meltdown on main KJSNFDGKJHFGKJHGKJHSDFGSD #hes so fucking sensitive maybe just get off of social media Mike this never ends well for you #batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #and look Im joking around about this but it really is sad that the bendy devs cant handle this kind of critique towards their decisions #it seems despite the backlash once again they are choosing to ignore their fans which is yknow upsetting #But hey ig if the devs being awful was a dealbreaker for this fandom I wouldve left a long time ago and I havent #dw Im not going anywhere <3 #also if anyone else here was also criticizing Mike maybe check his acct to make sure ur not blocked now since apparently #old habits die hard and this is certainly a pattern with him KJHDSFKGJHSDKFGJHDFGSD #also look before anyone asks yes I was kinda mean to him over this but to put bluntly if hes gonna be this dismissive to his fans concerns #he deserves it. Theres this persistent attitude esp in bendy fanspaces of being defensive of the devs #and I dont know why they have been extremely horrible people every single chance they get #and its very hurtful to see how many people would rather tell me to be kinder to the people who broke the heart of a child me when they #dismissed any ideas of putting queers like me in their stories than to realize Mike n Meatly bring this bad attention to themselves #to put bluntly I dont owe them kindness not until they at least apologize for the shit they did which they still havent #mike hasnt even addressed his vent poem in the code of BATDR let alone the other shit he said n did #so no I will not be kind to him ever hope this helps!

[ziracona]

I’m going to be thinking about this

One panel of comic for the next 8 years of my life

#Batman #Two-Face #batman gotham adventures #TwoBats #kind of???? Batman/Bruce loves him so much I can’t get over the innate tragedy and love of this relationship like you know what??? #you know what’s ungodly good and fucked up???? that tragedy permeates every inch of Bruce and Harvey’s relationship more deeply than any #other element possibly could but one and the one thread thicker in the relationship’s entire being is love #it’s a tragedy it’s tragic but it is never /quite/ as fucked up and tragic and it is deeply deeply kind and sweet and full of love and the #kind of hope that only exists at all because of it. the way Bruce in BtAS immediately starts reading books on the disorder before he even #sees him again? the letting himself almsot get shot to get through? Telltale finishing his bloody fight in the ruined front hall of his own #home by telling him ‘I still believe in Harvey Dent’. ?? The way movie The Long Halloween Bats doesn’t even know Harvey /super/ well by most #human standards but Bruce has literally no friends and never had except Alfred and Gordon so to him this is one of his closest friends and #that’s not a joke it’s real? when he spends the entire last third of part 2 desperately trying to help and telling everyone Harvey’s his #friend and needs help?? it’s real. when he tells Gilda ‘he was my friend and I failed him’? when he compromises his code in a massive way #for the first time and let’s someone get away with murders so Harvey can retain the one little piece of anything he still has which is #having protected the perosn he loves? it’s real. he means it. that’s his best friend. #they’re so *makes incomprehensible upset hand gestures*

[mastersoftheair]

Sorry but am I the only one that thought that episode…sucked? Like it was straight up bad. Horrible pacing, no wrap up of all the random characters and plot lines they’ve thrown around all season (the tuskegee airmen, Westgates spying, literally all the guys beside like the main 4). (Seriously it makes me so mad that the three redtails got all of 5 seconds of screen time, almost no lines. Literally what was the point of introducing them other than to pretend the show was iNcLuSiVe) Even at the end of BoB and the Pacific you get a much better idea of what happened to all the remaining guys. In this they’re like what happened to DeMarco or Hambone or Brady or (insert character here) we don’t know! ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ The concentration camp scene felt shoehorned in compared to how it was done in BoB. Unless that actually happened to Rosie (which i haven’t heard anything about) but it was just like.. ok? It all felt so rushed and emotionless to me. Maybe I’ve just fallen out of love with MoTA but it’s been downhill for me since episode 6 or so.

i already made a little (read: long) post-finale write-up here, where i talk about the use of the tuskegee airmen, l'sandra, and overall editing/pacing issues i felt the show had. but i don't agree with the notion that adding the redtails was in any way insincere or trying to halfass being "iNcLuSiVe", i just think they suffer from this show's obvious time constraints. and to summarize what i wrote in my linked post, there's a limit to what white writers/directors/producers can do when creating a story about black people. there are some stories i'd feel uncomfortable with them telling on their own, truth be told. dee rees wasn't the sole nonwhite director, but she Was the only black one. i think she did her job well given the limitations and i appreciate that they let her direct those episodes, rather than leaving it up to a team of white people trying their best to tell a black story.

the worst i can say about the finale is that it didn't feel like That strong of finale, tho i wouldn't go as far to say it "sucked" or call it "straight up bad". i liked it plenty, it's just the weakest of the hbo war finales imo.

as for the concentration camp scene, artistic license was taken with both shows. unlike what's seen in the BoB, easy company wasn't the first to arrive at kaufering, and there's 0 mention of the all-japanese american 552nd who helped them liberate it). similarly, rosie rosenthal did assist in liberating those camps, though it would've been after the events shown this episode. idk if he saw one in that up-close way seen in this episode, but he could've (i should research this when i have time). plus, it would've felt weird Not having him acknowledge them at all. "shoe-horned" is an odd term to use here imo, as both scenes more-or-less center a jewish character (BoB's liebgott and MotA's rosie). the former show has survivors the characters can help, the latter shows no one left to help. the former has all of easy company there, the latter has rosie there all alone. rosie's scene felt deeply personal in that way. at the end of the day, both scenes are communicating different things. that doesn't make one better than the other when they aren't trying to be identical. (disclaimer, i'm not jewish, so i'd be interesting hearing from the perspective of someone who wrt whether or not they felt it was "shoe-horned")

i can understand if you've disliked the show post-episode 6 (and episode 6 was a very strong episode i'm ngl). eps 7 and 8 were weaker in many ways, even to me, so i get it. everyone's entitled to their own opinion (i'd be a hypocrite saying otherwise). just understand that this blog is run by someone who overall enjoys this show despite its flaws! basically, i encourage you to take this energy and make your own posts.

#masters of the air #hbo war #e9 #asks #long post #masters of the air spoilers #mota spoilers #all the hbo war finales are different. i don't think MotA's is as strong but like #my fav hbo war show is still BoB and even Then i don't think it has a better finale than TP. and i dislike a lot of TP! like A Lot! #and Even Then we don't get a good idea about what happens to a lot of the minor-er characters in TP once they leave #anyone who isn't sledge or leckie (rip basilone) is hand-waved-'they went home'-away #not every show needs a sandlot ending w/ a voiceover going: #'[NAME] got really into the [INSERT DECADE] and no one ever saw him again' like they did to webster (rip webster) #and again! i'm mixed about the redtails. but i can Very Clearly See this show getting released without including them #which wouldve left many people (justifiably!) upset that they weren't shown when they were Literally there in the same pow camp #i'll give the hbo war team a lot of shit about a lot of things (despite the enduringly positive energy i try to keep up here) #but i Have to give MotA props for Trying. i don't see faux inclusion i just see it as not quite hitting the mark but an attempt was made #and i think that's worth Something given neither BoB or TP bothered trying #(like i think there was a missed opportunity in TP not mentioning what's happening to japanese americans on the home front) #this got away from me (i'm also opinionated) but while i can agree with you about how the show feels rushed #i do take issue with the idea that they were pretending to be inclusive. i'll blame money time and covid19 before i blame bad intention #maybe that's controversial here but it Is my blog. so.

[mister13eyond]

honestly i love this stupid kirby meme for the dumbest reason:

which is that "i want to dead" has lodged itself as permanent echolalia in my brain, so when i'm Spiraling it becomes the despair mantra my mind is chanting, which like

WOULD be harrowing, but i keep picturing this sad little low poly kirby saying it and i'm just patting his angular little head like "i know kirby, i know, but the horrors persist and so must my juicy ass"

#externalizing my impulsive spiral thoughts as a separate entity was only step one #step two was making that entity a charmingly pathetic little guy who must be treated with compassion #broke: yelling at the imaginary personification of your suicidal thoughts for being a loud dick #woke: seeing this sad little kirby and sagely comforting him #tw sui ideation #mental health #also it's worth noting that like #i've come far enough that these days 'i want to dead' doesnt carry nearly the weight it used to #like yeah it's bouncing around my brain like a frantic echolalia every time i'm upset and overwhelmed #but i know low poly kirby doesnt ACTUALLY want to dead #he want to turn down the volume of everything happening and it's the only way he knows to express it #the kneejerk impulse will probably never go away #i spent too long with my immediate reaction to every struggle being 'i wanna die' for the habit to ever fully vanish #but i can't get mad at my brain for saying it #it's just a sad little low poly kirby ok #be nice to him. he's so low poly

[weird-unlimited-ramblings]

I love all of you dearly, but Terry is definitely getting multiple messages a day from Ron. Like it’s been 25 years since Lark summoned the doodler. So to Ron it’s been daily and he hasn’t seen Terry in 27 years. For Terry it’s probably been like 12ish, and every couple hours he gets a message from Ron. Also Ron is canonically alive when Terry is like in his late teens (?) at the throne of the doodler. Idk time lines are confusing.

#dungeons and daddies #dndads #dndaddies #genuinely sorry if this makes you more or less upset #every time I see someone be like Terry has been getting messages from Ron for twenty seven years I just #also sorry if this post annoys you #Ive been holding back for two weeks #it could also totally be a continuity error #that’s 100% true #terry stampler #Ron stampler #I’ve relistened to season 2 episode 1 too many times for this to be ignored #also technically means that every couple hours Terry was reminded of how much Ron loved him #it’s sweet #if they go to heaven I imagine it will be ignored #hells time worked differently too

[good-beans]

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#not really a vent - just a quick thought before i sleep but like. #i keep thinking about that post #theres no way ill find it now but the gist was that 'joy is a warning bell to neurodivergent brains' #and how when we feel joy it means we've loosened up and that always leads to a problem -- #whether its getting to be Too Much or saying the wrong thing or even just getting physically loose and clumsy #but it conditions the brain to see joy as something to fear #because relaxing means we're about to fuck something up #and ive been doing so well this year keeping up with and calling people #ive felt more social lately #literally everyone has been so incredibly kind to me and i want to express how grateful i am and how much i love you all #but every time i try to i get so choked up with fear #with each wave of happiness comes one of chest-squeezing fear #im not super upset or anything (its nice to know why its happening) i just wish i knew how to unlearn it ya know 🤷‍♀️ #thats all - time to sleep #its so late -_- #awww its my pals birthday now!! earth day birthday :') too late rn but ill text him when i get up #rose rambles

[ectoplasmer]

y'all ever feel so much love for your f/o that you just get moved to literal tears or am i just a mess

#art is making me feel things once again #marigoldshipping #<---- mima brainrot hours which is terrible timing because i need to be awake in like six hours #but i am over here. kicking my legs in bed every five seconds #i love him so much he's a literal safety hazard akjjhdsh :( #he's also just a huge nerd and literally just a big loser but/lh #aaaa stopp making me FEEL THINGS it's horrible #i need to be sleeping and not generating tears because my heart goes crazy over fictional characters #literally smiling like an idiot just thinking about him while typing this #he's just. >_< #oh terrible another moment where i can't convey what i'm thinking #he's just... he's such a nerddd aaaaa #his snarkiness his obvious need to dramaticize things even though he *claims* that's a thing that only marik does now (he's lying) #his attempts at seeming much more stoic than he actually is his poorly hidden attempts at trying not to seem like he cares too much #how he can be so arrogant and sharp one second and try so hard to be responsible and gentle the next #how he tries to act like he isn't as much as a wreck as the rest of us but he definitely is #i don't. even know what i'm trying to say. i don't think i ever really do when it comes to any of them #they make me so stupidly incoherent i can't even think correctly right now #i just... i love how i've managed to get past his walls. that i get to see more of him now #not just the scary and daunting part that he used to be. not just the level headed and intimidating part. not just the upset and angry part #i get to see the sides of him where he makes dumb and ignorant mistakes. i get to see him when he's calm. i get to see him when he's happy #i get to see him when he's sad and i get to see him when he's completely vulnerable #i get to see him in every mood and in every emotion. i get to see every part. #and i love all the parts of him. all the mess and fuss and the wrongs and the rights and the good and the bad #all of it is completely lovable to me. he's completely lovable to me. #i just. aaaa sobbing crying sniffling into my hands HE'S SOOOO #god damnit melvin you're making your girlfriend cry STOP BEING SO YOU PLEASE #he's. so pretty and handsome and bbdbfhfbjdffjdfd #i've been talking about my f/os so much recently i'm so sorry >< #gonna. try and fall asleep but my heart is literally beating so hard right now skjfkjds

[ihatebnha]

I feel like bakugo LOVES messing with his eldest daughter because she reminds him of you when she gets worked up. Like maybe he's cleaning his car and she comes out to give him some cold lemonade bc it's hot outside and as she returns to the house he sprays her with the hose 😒 their antics together are very adorable

GODDDD i'm gonna eat my fist over this. My Entire Fist. In my mouth. I can barely type.

I just........... he's probably been doing it since she was little too, cuz she's always reminded him of you. No matter how much people talk about her being his carbon copy, the way she pouts, stares, and yells at him is alllllll you.

And he never does or has ever done anything big or torturous, just like... poke at her and then pretend it wasn't him, or steal carrots off her plate when she's distracted at dinner... but the way she'll glare makes him sooooo soft inside (in his own bakugo way, ofc).

When she was smaller, joking with her was kinda fun because he’d always get to hold her and make things all better again… but now that she’s a teenager it’s probably not as easy to make her laugh or smile again after getting her favorite PJ pants all dirty with muddy, hose water.

Still, for every little fight they get in (that’s mostly just her snapping at him while he admires how strong she’s gotten and how much she’s grown to look like you)… he still always makes it up to her with bowls of fruit in warm afternoons or big scoops of ice cream delivered straight to her room after dinner.

Adorable is so right!!! They just love each other so much, is all😭😭😭

#bakugo #I m not crying I just got sand in my eyes #20 lbs of sand #so much sand #people always talk about mean daughter shy son bakugo #but what about quiet snippy daughter #inherited his awkwardness but also his attitude #she’s so quiet but is constantly walking around with the face of a cat that just smelled something bad #you’re like ‘go bring ur dad his lunch in the garage ‘ and she’s not even upset but she’s giving it to him w this face 😐 #ITS SO FUNNY #bakugo is kinda 😢 bc when she was little she was so giggly and cute #and she still is but all grown up now and he’s misses the younger years #u have to comfort him about it every night LOOOL #it always gets made up for when he sees her spar like a beast tho #her little sisters and brother so in aw and bakugo just YELLING pride #and yeah they bicker #he sprays water at him and she puts a chili in his #lemonade next time #he steals a brocolli and she drinks half his special protein shake #goes back and forth #like inside jokes #wow I think more sand got in my eye #fave #fave fave fave tbh #ask #anon #caitie things #kids tw #dadkugo

[lesbiansanemi]

Oh god. I have to see my family in three days

#if you guys start to see a spiraling mental breakdown starting on Christmas Eve #mind ya business #every time I see my siblings I just get more and more upset #and feel more and more bitter over my mother #it’s been 6 months since I last saw them #wonder how much has changed since then. wonder how much worse they are #also I’m worried my sister will bring her boyfriend to Christmas dinner #he’s like. fine I guess. the same kind of shitty as her but whatever #it was easier to ignore that I won’t ever be able to bring a partner when none of my siblings were old enough to do so #now that they ARE doing it. it makes it…. yeah #seeing my grandma interact with him and being happy and chatty #but knowing if I ever brought MY gf it would be a fucking disaster #unless I lied and said she was just a friend. which is shitty enough anyways #but wouldn’t even work my mom and aunt and sister would still make shitty snide comments when my grandparents weren’t around #ugh #I should stop thinking about this #I’m just making myself mad #kaz rambles

[kyouka-supremacy]

I hate shipping sskk because when you do this page inevitably starts implying that Dazai is willingly manipulating Akutagawa into throwing himself in a suicide mission because he knows he loves Atsushi and he knows he's going to die to save Atsushi and it all hurts so much

#Pages that make me want to strangle Dazai #Idk my opinion towards Dazai has its high and lows but I really can't stand seeing his interactions with Akutagawa– #because every. single word he says. every single word he says is him manipulating Akutagawa and it's honestly so upsetting to see #ryūnosuke akutagawa #At the same time seeing this page when you ship sskk is hilarious because it officially labels Akutagawa as tsundere #osamu dazai #sskk #bsd #bungou stray dogs #mine #15/06/22 #When this get animated. Idk there's an high chance I won't be in the fandom anymore by then but when this gets animated. #Like when the Dazai va will deliver the line “you know the reason yourself don't you”. You will hear me SCREAM #bsd ch 84-88

[periipheral]

lord if you love me give me one car ride where murph doesnt shit himself

#every single time #i know its just anxiety but like dude it doesnt help being covered in shit #then i have to wash him which makes him even more upset #im gonna try and take him to the vet and see if he can get like a sedative or something #dl #nonsims

[yuridovewing]

Feel like one of the best ways you can convince someone that no, villains with compelling motives that have sad backstories are not terrible writing compared to straight up born evil villains who just want to kill everyone and be done with it, is to tell them that Warrior Cats writes born evil villains constantly while literally preaching “That’s how evil works, you can’t CHANGE, you’re either touched by demons at birth or you aren’t!” and it blows chunks

#brokenstar tigerstar hawkfrost darktail one eye etc etc would all be so much more interesting if they werent so one note #and just had ‘’born evil’’ slapped on as their explanation for being evil #‘’ew why are you woobifying tigerstar’’ because i think a villain who feels emotion besides ‘’evil’’ and ‘’angry’’ and actually does care #about his clanmates but is also a bigot that deserves to be beaten down is more interesting than canon #to get like real world political here… abusive people and bigots like. are not one note born evil demons #they have loved ones and reasons for turning out the way they did. and im not saying that to go ‘’so you need to give them grace!’’ #im saying that because the line of thinking that every bad person is a super obvious mustache twirling villain with no soul #makes it so that people justify abuse and crimes from REAL people. like ‘’oh my friend says some racist things but he isnt BAD! he loves me! #would an abusive person be nice to his wife in public? of course not!’’ #and its rhetoric like that that lets abuse and bigotry thrive. if you put the world in categories of born evil and born good #then you will dismiss all the ‘’good’’ people in your life who have done horrible things with ‘’but she donated to charity once’’ #i mean. hell this LITERALLY happens in wc where the ‘’born good’’ characters are abusive and murderously xenophobic #where characters like clear sky and blackstar just get a sticker like ‘’oh you cant be TOO mad at them! theyre good at heart!’’ #‘’ignore all the times they killed vulnerable people for the crime of being born somewhere they didnt like! they were nice to a kid once!’’ #the message there is literally ‘’bad people cant REALLY be bad if theyre nice to people sometimes’’ #like. im not even mad at clear sky being motivated by witnessing his loved ones starve to death for why hes such an abusive control freak #thats an interesting reason to become a villain especially since the change happened when he was put in a position of power #the problem is not him having a sad backstory. the problem is the erins think his sad backstory means he was never that bad #and anyone who’s upset at him can go eat shit and die cause he looked sad #like. i get this line of thinking often comes from writers doing this for abuse apologism and just wanting to see abusers be held accountabl #accountable #but how exactly does it help victims of abuse to portray abusers and bigots in a christian ‘’touched by the devil’’ light

[0bsc3ne]

bitching abt my partner again so i can get it out of my system and not let it fester

had a Discussion yesterday and i said how i didn't like that i, someone who naturally wakes up early and has to go to bed around 11-midnight to get decent sleep, have been spending the last few months either sleep deprived or forced to use sleeping pills to sleep, when he sleeps in til fucking noon, even on the two days we both have off and can, yk, spend time doing things in the morning together, and then he complains that we never do anything outside (bc we live in florida. anything after noon is just a fucking sauna.)

anyways. i ask if he can start waking up earlier. he says he'll wake up at 10 today. i go, ok, thank you, but what does that prove? that you can do it once? i've been changing my schedule for months. i want to hear that you'll try to do it consistently. (And 10 isn't early anyways, but i didn't say that). he insists he's going to do it. makes sure i see him set an alarm in front of me and everything. so anyways. 10:01 i get a text that he's going to sleep a little more.

man.

#i also asked him to wash his hair more often bc he has REALLY nice long hair but its always fuckin greasy #unless he has some formal performance or i ask him to wash it #and he said hed wash it tonight and like. thanks. but like. can you maybe stsrt doing it without reason or me having to ask you #like a fucking toddler #anyways my hopes arent high #and its so fuckign pathetic that ill be thrilled if i come over to see him and its washed #honestly. #every day im closer and closer to just. breaking up #i love him. i reqlly do #but i think i love what he could be more than what hes actually willing to be #and its so upsetting #bc its judt. #if he says he wants me to do something #i fucking do it #i got a fucking minimum wage soulsucking job bc he said he thought having more steady income and a routine would help me #and it does. but he also complains now when i have to sleep at 9pm so i can get up for morning shifts #but he also complains when i work during the times he has off #and its not like. a controlling way at all. for the record. trust me on that #its just the like. Frustrating way. like suck it up and cope buttercup i am the one who is dealing with more right now. #in that situation at least #this got long but #you see my point #its just. so upsetting. #and again. i love him #i do #hes great in so many aspects and he has the same goals and its all so Good #but. god. fuck. #is this really what i want to deal with for the rest of my life when i know i can be perfectly happy and fulfilled in life without a partne