#like for one i’m very introverted i never had any friends and I barely go out even now with work

[sanyu-thewitch05]

I got this Yandere imagine that's based on The Heathers from the Heathers musical:

Honestly never told anyone about this before but this fandom does need more appreciation

So we got Darling who's meek and shy,but she's smart and overall a good student, though she can't say she hates the jocks,she would rather not associate with them. Until the main Jocks trio in the school took notice of her,specifically their leader,Hunter

Let's say Hunter is a dominant man,he just suddenly show up more in front of her after she helped him with a school project

Sure he thinks nerds are boring but Darling is an exception,like she's a introverted,unsociable girl but she takes no shit from others

Hunter thinks Darling is very cute and she needed a makeover~

After the makeover, Darling did like her new look,it got some guys to catcall her which is annoying but it wasn't that bad. She still didn't like the jocks much,she only hanged out with Hunter afterwards bcuz of the favour

However,Hunter started to get more touchy, putting his arm on her shoulder or her waist,she even heard the rumors of her being his girlfriend. She decided to avoid Hunter so as not to take it any further

Hunter didn't like it at all, why is she walking to another guy and talk to him when she should've gotten to him like the good girl she is?!!! She shouldn't talk to some stupid unimportant guys!!!

Hunter is rich and famous,his family owns a big company and he's the future CEO. As his future wife,she should get close to him instead of other guys

He couldn't bare the obvious intentional ignorance towards him so one day he just dragged her into a classroom and snapped at her

He said how she belongs to him and she shouldn't even think of leaving him,she won't escape even when they graduate and go to college, because he will attend as the same college as hers. Things got sexually heated there, I'll leave that part to you

Let's just say afterwards,Darling has to be the obedient girlfriend to Hunter. He even force her to sit on his laps right in the school cafeteria to show up his good little honey and no guys should lay hands on her cuz she's his

Sorry, this took so long to answer. I’m out of school for Labor Day weekend.

All characters in my works are 18+

TW: Noncon, stalking, dubcon, catcalling, sexual harassment

Oh God, not again. Here they come.

It was only the third month of school, and everything was going great so far. You were getting A's and even joined the local majorette team. That's when everything went downhill. For some reason, Heath and Henry were at the town's Halloween festival. The best friends of Hunter McClaire. The best football player in school. They were also the best quarterbacks in school. You were on the angel side of the team, and your white uniform glittered in the moonlight. Not only that, but the white boots helped add to your dance routine. You were squatting down, preparing to do a death drop, and then you saw Heath and Henry. Their smiles made you sick. You continued the routine as usual and quickly walked away once finished. You tried to avoid them, but they stopped you as you walked home.

"Hey, Angel! Where are you going?" Heath catcalled, following close behind you.

"Home," You hissed, walking faster.

"Oh, don't be like that. We enjoyed the performance. I wish you showed more of that ass around the school. I honestly didn't think you had any good qualities besides your brain," Henry commented, making you growl.

"Listen, jackass! Leave me alone before I rip your nutsacks out!" You yelled, finally facing them.

"Ok! Ok! Ok! We'll leave you, nerd girl," Heath says, stopping at the sidewalk to watch you walk away.

They focused on your butt and smirked.

"God, I wish I could tap that ass," Henry murmured, hiding his boner. 

It only got worse when you went to school after that. Hunter was there asking for your help on a history project. 

"Look, if this is something Heath and Henry told you, please don't tell anyone. I just want to stay out of the spotlight and graduate," You said, trying to walk away from Hunter.

"Uh, they haven't told me anything like that. Anyway, I came to ask for help on my 20th-century history project. I got assigned the topic of fashion, and Henry and Heath said you might be able to help," Hunter said, sitting next to you.

"Fine, I'll help you," You begrudgingly agreed, tying your hair up.

For two nights, the two of you worked on Hunter's project. When he turned it in, he got an A+ and even brought his grade in history class a couple of points. As a thank you, Hunter gave you a makeover. You thought you looked fine, but you'll accept the spa treatment and new clothes any day. Wearing the jeans that hugged your ass and the lace corset top to school earned you unwanted remarks from other students. But it wasn't that bad. 

You went about your school day and made friends with Hunter. Surprisingly, Hunter and you got along pretty well. You didn't like Hunter's friends. But you didn't hate them either. After a week, Hunter started to get more touchy. His hands roamed your back, his arm always around your shoulder. It even got to the point where rumors were swirling around that you were dating. You couldn't deal with it anymore, so you decided to avoid Hunter for a while, which is how you got into this current predicament.

"Hey," Hunter greets, sitting next to you at lunch. 

You ignore him and continue eating your food. 

"Why are you ignoring me? What did I do?" Hunter says, his arm around your waist. "Is it because you didn't like the panties I set you? They seemed like your style."

You didn't say anything, but Henry puts a hand on your thigh to make you pay attention to Hunter. His thigh moves towards your crotch, and you pack up your stuff. You get up, throw your tray away, and leave for your next class. You did the same routine of avoiding Hunter and his friends for the next two weeks. 

"Charles, are you ready for the next book club?" You ask your tall, freckle-faced, white, black-haired friend. 

"You bet! I'm so glad you joined! Are you sure you can handle it while being on the majorette team?" Charles asks, closing his locker. 

"I'll be fine. Besides, my practice starts at 6 pm. Book club should be over by then," You respond, smiling at Charles.

"Cool! I'll see you later!" Charles exclaims, hugging you.

You reciprocate the hug and wave goodbye to Charles. Unbeknownst to you, a furious Hunter is watching you.

"Damn, dude! You're practically breaking the wall," Henry laughs, looking at his friend.

"Why is she even talking to him?! Sure, she's a nerd, but she's not fucking boring like the rest of them! Not only that, but it's Charles! The dude who can't even throw a dodgeball straight! Why talk to him of all people!" Hunter rants, punching the wall and glaring at you.

"You need to do something, Hunter. Soon enough, she'll be spending all her time with him and none with you," Heath comments, looking at your smile.

"You're right. I'll show her I'm the right choice. She'll have no choice but to see it," Hunter replies, secretly following after you.

You walk by an empty classroom and get pushed inside. You fall to the floor and hear the door lock.

"Don't even try to scream for help. Heath and Henry gave me the keys and are currently erasing the security footage," Hunter says, twirling the keys around his index fingers.

"Hunter, what the hell?" You yell, rubbing your butt and standing up.

Hunter picks you up and places you on top of a desk. He strokes your cheek and puts a strand of hair behind your ear. Hunter suddenly roughly kisses you and holds your body still. You try to get away, but Hunter is too strong. He grabs your hair and forces you to bend over onto the desk.

"Hunter, what are you doing?" You scream, squirming in his hold.

"You need to understand. You're mine!" Hunter growls, fiercely spanking your ass. "Always mine! You! Belong! To! Me"

"Oh! Ouch! Aw!" You groan between each spanking. 

Hunter suddenly flips you over and lets go of your hair. 

"Strip. Now," Hunter commands, pulling out his dick.

"I-"

"NOW!"

You whimper and slowly strip your clothes. 

"Now then, you'll strip a piece of clothing for every sentence I say. You're lucky I'm taking it easy on you and speaking slowly. Got that?"

You nod your head, but this only irritates Hunter more.

"I need verbal confirmation," Hunter barks, grabbing a ruler and slamming it on the teacher's desk.

"Yes, Hunter!" You squeal, trying not to collapse to the floor.

"Good."

Hunter pulls up a chair and sits in while stroking his cock.

"Now, let's begin. You are my girlfriend, and you belong to me.”

You take off your shirt.

"Don't even think of leaving me because we'll always be together! Even during college when we go to the best Ivy League school! And don't even try to apply to some small liberal arts school because we both know we can do better!"

You quickly take off your bra and shorts.

"I'm rich. I'll inherit my father's company and become CEO. I'll take care of you as my future wife," Hunter finishes, watching you strip your panties, socks, and shoes. "Come closer. I need to teach you how to serve me."

You walk to him, and he pushes you down to his crotch.

"You know what to do," Hunter says, rubbing your head softly.

You put his cock into your mouth, intimately licking the body part. Hunter shivers, and soon, you're both high on pleasure. 

"Oh, yes~ Suck it more! Earn hubby's cum!" Hunter moans, pushing your head up and down on his dick.

You kiss the base of his cock, and he spills his seed all over you. Some of it ends up on your face, and most of it ends up in your mouth. You stand up and try to leave, but Hunter grabs your hand.

"I thought you only wanted me to suck you off?" You question forcibly straddling Hunter.

"If I only wanted a blow job, I would only want your shirt off. I want more," Hunter says, pulling his pants down. "Don't worry, I'll be gentle."

Hunter kisses your cheek and puts a condom on. You hold onto him for support. He sticks his dick into you and moans, throwing his head back.

"Oh, baby!" Hunter moans, making a slow but steady thrust pattern.

Your breath hitches as pleasure flows through your body. Hunter kisses your lips, and you start to melt into each other.

"Faster!" You moan, barely holding onto Hunter.

Hunter immediately follows your plea and starts thrusting faster. You both moan like crazy and eventually, you yell that your climax is coming.

"I'm cumming too!" Hunter yells, rapidly thrusting into you a couple more times. "Hah!"

Hunter cums into you, and you shiver. You relax onto Hunter's chest and let him rub your back.

"So, can I still go to book club?" You ask, looking into Hunter's green eyes.

"Nope. You're staying with me for a while," Hunter replies, smacking your ass in response to your question.

~~~~~~~~

"Yo! Dude, how's the relationship with your darling?" Henry asks, high-fiving Hunter as he sits next to him during lunch. 

"Pretty good. I taught her a lesson, and now we're the perfect couple," Hunter replies, sitting you on his lap. "Charles won't even go near her."

"Hunter, please," You say, feeling his boner.

"Oh, sorry, darling. You're going have to deal with this dick for a long time," Hunter replies, kissing your cheeks. "Keep complaining, and I'll have to make sure you'll know to appreciate it."

You are stuck with him. Forever, and ever, until the day you die.  

#asks #inspired by heathers #yandere jock #yandere smut #yandere noncon #yandere dubcon

[pianocat939]

Celina, I had the most random thought about a yandere rottmnt isekai au.

I was rewatching some rottmnt earlier and I noticed how I barely commented on anything, aside from a smile and a small chuckle here and there. It got me thinking…

What if m/c was like that? What if m/c never really commented at all aside from a few chuckles and small comments sprinkled throughout an episode? Maybe they are a bit of an introvert too? How would yandere rottmnt turtles react to this?

I think they would go insane trying to find any information at all about m/c, and at first it isn’t even because of their yandere-ness! They just want to know who the heck is watching them!

I think that they may try to do things to make m/c speak, but they wouldn’t outright reveal themselves as able to hear m/c (let’s be real here, if you found out an entity beyond your realm was watching you, would you instantly let them know you are aware of them or would you at least try to make sure they are safe first?).

Soon, m/c’s voice becomes… addicting. The boys constantly crave m/c’s voice and comments, doing anything to know more about them and just hear them again! This is amped up if m/c gives them small compliments here and there… especially with Donnie and Leo… (The turtles would probably develop the belief that the only reason they can hear m/c and no one else from m/c’s realm is because m/c belongs in their realm…)

Then they try to break into m/c’s realm…

Donnie would most likely be able to connect with the tech first with his nimpo, then he would hack into any device near m/c. Cameras, laptops, phones, everything! It isn’t long before the turtles learn more about m/c than they would’ve ever known beforehand, maybe even more than m/c themself…

It isn’t long before Donnie hacks into m/c’s phone and establishes a connection between the turtles and m/c’s devices…

Poor m/c would have no idea who these random people who sound-er, text?- a lot like their favorite characters from ROTTMNT. I doubt the turtles would give themselves away immediately, they would most likely bide their time and gain more information on m/c (This could also be translated into your sentient AI thing you have going on).

They would only reveal themselves in person, once the portal is ready and they can take what rightfully belongs in their world. M/c wouldn’t have the chance to run before they are dragged away, kicking, screaming, and crying, out of their own reality…

“Why are you fighting us, dear? Don’t you love us? Our reality is- No, stop fighting us- our reality is much better than this bitter and cold world, you won’t have to worry about anything ever again!”

(Bonus if Donnie hacks into m/c’s friends and families phones so Dr. Delicate Touch can have a few words with them…)

(I’m sorry, It’s almost midnight for me and I HAD to share this idea with someone :,/)

Me at 3 AM 3 hours later-

Someone send help I cried because of an angst story but now I'm dehydrated but I'm too scared to go get liquid bcs I'm pretty sure someone is on the couch and I'm far too paranoid for that shit-

Tw: Raph gets a little- too dependent on MC speaking, Mikey glorifies his position, mentions of manipulation + anxiety

First of all, delicious idea you got here- as always I'll just add a little tidbit.

Imagine occasionally they accidentally whisper or mumble when they hear you speak in the rare moments that you do. Like with me, I either talk to myself about somewhat off-topic things or just say the most basic compliments that are more or less for my self-indulgence in expressing my true feelings. (We'll go with compliment bcs that makes more sense in terms of yan development)

"Donnie is so skrunkly when he's feral I love it-"

*Donnie who was just having a typical "who's better" debate with Leo* "Oh won't you look at that...I'm loved even in times of undomesticated behaviours~" *he's very smug, and definitely is bouncing with joy internally*

I think for the most part Donnie, Leo, and Raph react pretty similarly. They kinda just have an odd pull to the weird ass voice they occasionally hear sometimes, wanting to find out more about it. So they can cling to it as emotional support.

But Mikey?

He is legit going to think he's some prophet of this mysterious voice which he believes is a superior being. Like even the smallest comment will literally make him whisper to himself- "Oh my divinity, I am a follower of your every word.." Wouldn't be surprised if he has heart eyes istg-

But if his bros say they can hear it too, he will literally be so pissed. He'll accuse they're lying and basically manipulating him into thinking he's not special. I wouldn't be surprised if he busts out Dr. Delicate Touch to start accusing them of any crime that fits with the situation. And in the end, he'll always conclude with "I'm the only one who gets to be the chosen one of my divinity~ so stop lying alright?"

Also there's one thing I want to point out with Raph, I feel he would get attached to the voice so bad over time that he either A. cannot make any rational decisions without it or B. he gets super anxious if he doesn't hear it in his head 24/7. I feel he would nickname it like, "my secret voice" or "my mind plushie".

Leo and Donnie definitely fight the most about the voice, but they also plan together the most when it comes to finding out more about the owner of the voice. But their intentions with each other are never mentioned.

(this was such a half-assed rant but surely it should be a little insight on my thoughts).

#yandere #yandere x reader #yandere rottmnt #yandere tmnt #rottmnt #tmnt #rottmnt x reader #tmnt x reader #tmnt 2018 #rise of teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #blurbs

[thebroccolination]

As a BounPrem devotee, I must share one of my favorite little theories called “BounPrem are liars (not really but it’s a catchy tagline so go with me on this)”.

One of BounPrem’s most famous marketing stories is that they didn’t like each other initially. While they didn’t officially meet until their UWMA audition, they first saw each other at a weeklong university culture fair during which they worked at “rival” booths. Prem’s sold pork skewers, Boun’s sold cold milk. They were opposite each other working with about 3-5 other people, so it’s deeply funny to me that Prem says he thought Boun was arrogant and Boun says he doesn’t remember Prem at all. I think we all assume this was a minor thing that they’ve embellished for marketing purposes.

It’s fun because it contrasts what they’re like now.

Y’know, this:

THAT’S YOUR BLOOD ENEMY, PREM, WHAT WOULD YOUR YOUNGER SELF SAY.

Now, please look at the photo below while remembering every iteration of the “we didn’t like each other at first” fable.

Please look, if you will, at famously good-natured OhmFluke who always liked each other, who have left respectable breathing space between them. And now look at “culture fair blood rivals who needed Sheep to push them to talk to each other” just contentedly leaning into each other.

This is devastating to your case, Mr. Prem “I was very unhappy when I heard I’d be paired with P’Boun” Warut Chawalitrujiwong.

This isn’t even a shipping thing, to be clear. I just enjoy that they were basically a mirror image of WinTeam from the start. I think they were both individually like “he seems neat!” in their own way, and then when neither of them communicated that in a way the other could understand, they pivoted hard to “WHAT NO I DON’T EVEN LIKE HIM HE’S TOO LOUD/QUIET”. And I find that enormously funny.

My theory is assisted by one of Prem’s versions that goes: “I was telling my friends at the booth, ‘Look at this handsome bastard, thinks he’s so cool,” while Boun’s version was, “I was hungry and one of the girls working at the booth with me said their pork skewers were good so I went to buy some but they all glared at me so I bought a skewer and ran away”. Introvert and Extrovert, classic case of miscommunication.

BECAUSE!!!

Just!!!

Look with me! Look at this adorable, fluffy-haired baby:

THIS IS THE MAN PREM VOWED VENGEANCE AGAINST.

His Blood Rival of the Milk Bottles.

I’m sorry, I’ll never stop finding their origin story funny as fuck. I love them both so much, and I think someone told them to play up the rivalry angle because it’s good marketing. It’s just so toothless because look at them.

I’m sorry, I’ll just never believe that their “rivalry” was at all even remotely serious at any point.

Not to mention!!! That shortly after casting was decided for UWMA, Prem who was already cast in Longkhong the Series asked his own agency to send Boun’s headshots to the director so he’d be cast as Kin. Prem also changed his own role so he and Boun would play NatKin, the vaguely BL side pair. Prem wasn’t cast as Nat originally!

I’m onto you, Warut.

Anyway, there’s no big point to this. I just think it’s cute that Prem’s always had Boun’s back in this industry even when they were barely acquainted. He couldn’t have known they were lightning in a bottle, that their chemistry was off-the-charts the way it is, that Boun would mean so much to him later. I think he’s just got a tremendously good heart, and once he was partnered with Boun, he threw all his energy into supporting him.

And Boun changed for the better because, in his words, he realized that his behavior reflected on Prem, and it helped him evolve into the sweetheart everyone knows him to be now.

They’re just so good and I’m in withdrawal and I wanted to talk about them because I love them the end.

#bounprem #premboun #prem warut #boun noppanut #between us the series

[bloomingforerza]

Mirajane, Cana and Erza with a Gn. Reader who's like Hitori from Bocchi the rock and is an Introvert with social anxiety but they feel safe when with them and have a habit of clinging onto them.

REQUEST: mira, cana and erza hc’s with a gn!anxious!reader

notes from bloom: hi!! this is my first request and i’m super excited to write this for you. i haven’t seen bocchi the rock but i did research on hitori so i hope it’s suitable to your liking. hope you guys enjoy 🥺

tags: social anxiety, gender neutral!reader, fluff fluff fluff!! ❤️

*･゜ﾟ･*:.｡..｡.:*･**･゜ﾟ･*:.｡. .｡.:*･゜ﾟ･**･*:.｡. .｡.:*･゜ﾟ･*

Mirajane Strauss

💫 Mirajane is such a sweet and supportive girlfriend.

💫 She knows you have social anxiety, so she’ll do everything she can to make sure you’re always comfortable in social situations.

💫 She always knows when you’re going to get worked up before it happens, and she’ll hold your hand the whole time.

💫 Lisanna tries really hard to be your friend, and you don’t mind her company at all. She’ll always stay calm around you and never wants to freak you out.

💫 Elfman on the other hand needs a scolding or two from time to time from his sisters. He’s a very loud and characteristic man, so sometimes his bursts of “REAL MAN” may set you off and you’ll hide behind Mira.

💫 Mira will reassure you though that her family is your family, they care for you just the same as they do for her, and she’ll never let any real threat hurt you.

💫 When you do get too anxious or scared though, her soothing techniques are everything. She’ll hold you and leave gentle kisses all over your head, from your forehead to your temples to your cheeks.

💫 She will remind you that she’ll never let any harm come to you. Nothing can hurt you if Mira is there.

💫 Mira can be kind of scary too, but you know she’d never hurt you.

Cana Alberona

💫 Cana is more of the lone-wolf type herself as well, as we can see in the guildhall. She’d rather sit with her barrel-babe in a corner.

💫 But after Cana and you started dating, it was almost a shock to most at the guildhall. Cana never really cared about anyone but her booze before

💫 But Cana loved the way you loved her, she loved the way you needed her. She never had that before with anyone, and having someone of her own to protect was an even bigger bonus to her.

💫 She loved how introverted and anxious you were, it meant more time spent alone together. She’d offer to take you on easy jobs with her too

💫 If you ever got too overwhelmed with everything, she’d take you somewhere to be alone with her, just to help you ground yourself back to her.

💫 She’ll scratch your head softly, play with your hair (if you have any!), and just remind you that she’s here with you, here for you.

💫 She’s a very understanding lover and partner. She knows how hard it can be to talk to people, she’ll support you any time you need her to.

💫Her favorite time spent with you is when you’re drinking in her room, playing your guitar for her.

💫 Cana is the chillest girlfriend you could have asked for.

Erza Scarlet

💫 Erza is a bit awkward at times herself, so you’ll have to bare with her sometimes, she’s trying. But Erza holds her loved ones at a high level in her life, and you jumped to the highest spot she has.

💫 She will do anything in her capacity to make sure you’re comfortable and safe.

💫 She’s an important part of the guild, so sometimes you may feel insecure about the way you cling to her side, but she’s always there to remind you that she doesn’t mind, and she understands your anxiety.

💫 No one is judging you, and even if they so much as look at you funny, Erza will scare them into not even looking at you.

💫 Erza loves being the one you feel the safest around. She loves knowing that you, her favorite person in the world, trust her more than anyone.

💫 Because making sure that you are safe and happy is Erza’s top priority 90% of the time. She just loves you so much

💫 When you get too anxious in the guildhall, she will take a walk outside with you, hold your hand and remind you that everything is okay.

💫 She takes your security very seriously and if her partner is in distress because of two knuckleheads, she will show no mercy.

💫 You’re very happy that Erza is scary enough for the both of you.

requests are open! see dni and characters i write for before requesting!

#erza scarlet x reader #mirajane strauss x reader #cana alberona x reader #fairy tail x reader #fairy tail headcanons #fairy tail fluff

[thebest-medicine]

Sorry in advance for the long question 😅

I’m not sure who to tell this to, but I figured that you (or this community, rather) are the only ones who would kind of understand and possibly give me some advice, so here we go:

So I recently went to a gathering at my friend’s house. There were 5 of us there (not including me). None of them know about my thing for tickling. However, I had told one of them that I was ticklish a while an ago (that was very hard to do lol), but nothing more than that had ever occurred that involved tickling up to this point.

When it comes to social gatherings (and just my personality in general lol), I can be a bit shy and introverted. This sometimes results in me secluding myself from the group for short amounts of time. Sometimes when I do this my friends like to come find me and drag me back in to their shenanigans. This time one of my friends (the one that I told that I was ticklish) managed to sneak up on me to get me to join the group again. While I was lying on the couch, flat on my back with my arms above my head, she rushes toward me and, to my surprise, says that she’ll tickle me if I don’t come back and join everyone.

So, naturally, I don’t comply so I can get tickles 😉

Since I was stretched out on the couch, my shirt had risen up a bit to reveal my lower stomach (I didn’t notice this until she started tickling though), creating a seemingly perfect opportunity for tickling. As I braced myself for the oncoming attack, I was very happy for a moment. I hadn’t been tickled in years!

But then that happiness quickly vanished as I realized that…

I wasn’t laughing.

The tickles didn’t tickle me 😞. I was as shocked as my friend.

“I thought you were ticklish” she said.

And I did too. I used to be. How could my ticklishness just have disappeared over a couple years?

My friend continued to try to get me to react for a little bit more time, but the most she got was a small smile and eventually became disinterested.

So yeah. I’m a bit depressed now. I was finally gonna get tickled for the first time in years, but it turns out I’m not ticklish at all anymore.

Have you (or anyone you have known) ever went through a time period where you were less ticklish or barely ticklish at all? Has anyone you know become permanently not ticklish even though they used to be ticklish?

Also, this might be a bit of a dumb question, but are there any ways to increase your own ticklishness? I’m just kinda sad that I might never experience it again 😖😭

Im sorry that it didn’t go as expected / wanted!

I think ticklishness can definitely depend on a lot of things in a situation, there’s lots of stuff lers tend to do to make lees feel more ticklish / sensitive / vulnerable in sessions and it can definitely vary person to person. It can also definitely change over time and depending on who is tickling you..

Thanks for sharing, I’m working now so I can’t go into too much depth but I’d love to open this up to what others have to say and their own experiences! Hope you get to feel much more tickly in the future!

#answered #anon #tickling #tickle community #ticklish

[spookyscarydemonbabe]

🖤Gareth Emerson NSFW Alphabet🖤

A/N- I’m sure a lot of people have already seen this but i promise i’m the same person 😅 my original blog was accidentally deleted so i’m essentially starting over from scratch, i don’t have absolutely everything but i was able to recover most of my old work through my friend @imagine-all-the-imagines (if you haven’t read their fics i HIGHLY recommend it), but i figured i’d try to get back into the swing of things and post my NSFW alphabets and some of my other older fics to have all my old followers (and hopefully some new ones) find me

Gareth has been aged up to 18 for these :)

This is NSFW content, minors do not interact

A- Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

He’s a big cuddler so expect to hold him immediately after. He always needs a few minutes just to recollect himself but afterwards he’ll help clean you up and get you anything you need before climbing right back into bed.

B- Body Part (their favorite body part of theirs and their partners)

His favorite part on himself is his hair, and to be completely honest he loves looking at it in the mirror right after you finish riding him. The way it’s all disheveled and messed up, some of it sticking to his forehead from sweating under you. He loves knowing you can make him look that way.

He loves your lips. The way they curl up when you smile, the way you press them together before a fit of giggles, the softness of them when you kiss him.

C- Cum (anything to do with cum)

For some reason, he always gets a little embarrassed when he cums. Even after the two of you have been together plenty of times, he gets a little embarrassed having you see him in such a vulnerable state, especially because he doesn’t want to disappoint you by cumming too early. You’ll clean him up and praise him, telling him it’s ok and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with it, and you’ll go back to whatever it was your were doing. I mean let’s be for real, there’s nothing hotter than when a guy cums too early.

D- Dirty Secret (a dirty secret of theirs)

He gets hard just from making out with you, which is why he’s not a huge fan of PDA. He’ll hold your hand and give you little kisses every now and then but he knows it’s difficult to control himself when it gets any further than that so he tries to keep it to a minimum.

E- Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Very little experience. He’s pretty introverted and has a difficult time starting conversations with people so it was hard enough for him to even talk to you, so he’s only really had experience with kissing. Just times where he was invited out to a few parties and the alcohol gave him a bit more confidence than normal.

F- Favorite position (pretty self explanatory)

Loves when you’re on top, riding him with your hands on his chest. He’s on the submissive side so he prefers it when you take control and he loves getting to see how you like to take charge and use him to your hearts content.

G- Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous?)

If he’s being goofy it’s usually not the intention, his filter goes completely out the window so he’ll sometimes say whatever comes to mind and it’ll get you into a fit of giggles. The first time he saw you naked he stood silent and stared, just muttering nonsense because he was trying to figure out if you standing there was a dream or not. Adorable.

H- Hair (how well groomed are they?)

He likes to stay pretty well kept and he likes to manscape every few weeks. He never shaves it completely bare though, he just likes to make sure he looks good for you, though you could really care less.

I- Intimacy (how romantic are they in the moment?)

The most romantic guy ever, i’m talking body worship, roses, chocolate. Expect it at least once or twice a month, he ADORES you and wants you to know it. Each time the two of you have sex he can’t help but fall more and more in love with you and he loves to show you how much he worships you.

J- Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Before he met you it wasn’t something he did often, but as soon as the two of you were together it was constant. Each time he closes his eyes all he sees is your body splayed out on his bed, one of his shirts draped over your frame with your panties showing just under the hem and he can’t control himself. He has to keep his duck tucked into his waistband because he knows he’s going to get hard wether he likes it or not.

K- Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Praise kink 100%. He loves being taken care of and told how good he’s doing when you show him how to pleasure you. The first time he heard you call him a good boy he came almost immediately. And he loves calling you mommy when he’s feeling a little more vulnerable.

L- Location (favorite places to do the do)

He’s not super comfortable with doing it in any places other than beds or couches, though he’s not opposed to trying it in the back seat of his car. It’ll just take a lot of convincing.

M- Motivation (what turns them on)

He likes getting to take you out and show you off, seeing other people stare and get jealous that he has you is a huge turn on. He loves knowing that everyone wants what he has.

N- No (something they wouldn’t do)

Hardcore BDSM. He’s not opposed to handcuffs or blindfolds but he doesn’t like the thought of causing any kind of harm to you so he draws the like after those two. He’s not opposed to pegging, but it’s something that’ll take a while for him to warm up to.

O- Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Prefers to receive rather than give. Since he doesn’t have a ton of experience in that department, he doesn’t want to do something that you won’t like so he prefers to have you suck him off. He does it if you ask him to, but you’ll have to guide him through the whole thing and tell him what to do.

P- Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

He likes to take things slow if he’s on top, but if you’re riding him he doesn’t care, he wants you to use him however you please. He wants to be able to savor you and hold onto you and just wants you to use him like a toy.

Q- Quickie (their opinions on quickies)

Not a fan but he’s not opposed to it. He really wants to be able to take his time with you and worship you and quickies just don’t have the time required for him to do so.

R- Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

He gets nervous around you still when you have sex so doing it in places other than on a bed in private is off the table. The farthest he’ll go is doing it in the basement while your parents are upstairs.

S- Stamina (how many rounds can they go? how long can they last?)

He can usually only last one round, he hates very overstimulated during sex and he needs a little while to rest and recollect himself. If you let him rest for longer periods of time you can usually manage to do it at least another time during the day but you’ll need to do most of the work.

T- Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or on themselves?)

No toys for himself, but he doesn’t mind you bringing yours into the bedroom. He likes to use your bullet vibrators on himself though, and he’ll ask you to hold it to his tip while you jerk him off.

U- Unfair (how much do they like to tease?)

He doesn’t like to tease you, he doesn’t think he’s very good at it, but he loves it when you tease him. Putting your hand on his thigh and squeezing it under the table, pressing up just a little too close to him when you lean up for a kiss, even just sitting too close to him on the couch will make him shudder from your touch.

V- Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

He keeps himself pretty quiet but if he’s really into it he’ll make himself a bit louder. He moans of course but he’s a huge whimperer, he’s such a needy boy.

W- Wild card (random HC)

He loves it when you wear his vest in bed, or even his clothes in general. Seeing you wearing one of his shirts in bed after you wake up is the hottest thing he’s ever seen in his life, and all he wants to do is give you his shirts and hoodies to ‘borrow’ just so he can see you in them.

X- X-Ray (what’s going on under the waistband 👀)

He’s pretty average, just slightly above and close to 6.5 inches. It’s pretty veiny and you can feel each one of them pulse when he gets close to finishing. And his head is so sensitive, it’s very difficult for him to last long inside you.

Y- Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Gareth has a surprisingly high sex drive. Although it only really happens when he’s around you. He just can’t help himself, he thinks that everything about you is so sexy all he wants is for you to stay locked in his bedroom for hours on end.

Z- Zzz (how quickly do they fall asleep afterwards?)

Very sleepy afterwards. You really tire him out so before he gets up again to help you clean up he always needs to take a quick cat nap and recollect himself. He’s usually very sore the morning after.

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[barris-ftw]

Character Analysis: Why Did Richard Ellis Get Married?

Firstly, please understand these are just my thoughts on the matter! If yours are different from mine I’m more than happy to see yours shared in replies or in a reblog, I love discussing Downton stuff :)

It’s true, that it’s surprising when we learn in the second movie that Richard’s gotten married, after first seeing him so besotted with Thomas. But what I think is important to remember is that Richard is a character like any other in Downton; he has many sides, many qualities, flaws etc., but of course due to his limited screen time we only get to see a very certain “Richard,” and not all of him.

The events of the movie are adrenaline fuelled and fast paced, enough for Richard to let himself feel he has a chance, with Thomas. But he is also a man who knows the dangers of being homosexual, as he advises Thomas to be more circumspect. After freeing Thomas from prison and then flirting with him in the night, he’s probably feeling more free than he has in a long time, so he lets himself hope.

In my imaginings, he leaves Downton and thinks… well that was stupid. He is besotted with Thomas, and he does want a chance with him - but after the whirlwind of meeting him, after returning to reality, he realises it’s impossible to hope. I can imagine Richard admonishing himself for letting Thomas hope, too.

I think a very important hint in the first movie is when Richard says, “We all have to do what we must to get by.” And yes, this could easily be interpreted as seeing men but being inconspicuous about it to stay hidden. But there are other ways to stay hidden - such as getting married. Considering we know so little about Richard’s character, I think it therefore could make sense for him to get married.

But I also enjoy thinking about and discussing the specifics - what exactly made him get married? Now, further considering Richard’s quickly decided attempt to continue what he’d started with Thomas, by promising they would meet again (when really, this is very difficult and I’m not sure he thought it all out much,) then he seems like the kind of man to make decisions on impulse. Perhaps there’s a rumour going around, perhaps he’s been careless if only for a moment, or perhaps he spent too much time enjoying a platonic relationship with a woman and now his friends are confused as to why they aren’t married. Any of this (and more), I think, is enough for him to make the decision to break things off with Thomas - not only to keep himself safe, but to keep Thomas safe too. After all we know he cares about Thomas’ safety, after taking risks to get him out of the police station, even when he barely knew the man… yes I also headcanon Richard as a bit of a hopeless romantic. Maybe not as much as Thomas, but he certainly has it in him. He’s just also a man who may have lived one too many experiences of close calls, danger, and perhaps heartbreak, that now he’s wary about relationships with men. As much as he wants them, he believes more in staying safe, now.

This is one of many reasons I love Barris; Thomas would be the one to give him confidence and courage to take the risks they would need to for love, and to stay together. In my mind it’s a lovely dynamic - even though Thomas is the more introverted of the two, more shy, Richard is the one who’s more afraid of what he is (Thomas has already lived through his own shameful experience of trying to change his sexuality, but we know that by now, he’s accepted it. “It isn’t what I want,” he said to Mrs Hughes about marriage, which she called him brave for. Thomas is brave, and I believe that’s a quality he has which he himself would never truly appreciate or believe, but he has it all the same.)

(Continuing from that, I just had to include this scene from S5 E6 because it’s one of my favourite Thomas and Baxter moments;)

Remember, this is more my own headcanon; my own way of explaining why Richard might make this decision. Please let me know your own thoughts, I’d love to read them.

Btw this is actually a comment I posted on a fanfiction which I’ve copied & pasted, and amended the bits that refer specifically to the fic. (The fic is Once_More_With_Feeling’s “Down Came The Rain”)

#downton abbey #thomas barrow #downton abbey ramble #richard ellis #phyllis baxter #thomas barrow x richard ellis #thomas barrow and phyllis baxter #downton abbey movie

[achilleanwizard]

I was tagged by @punkranger (Thank you!!! 😊) And I’m going to tag @gelvaan @sataari @mutantenfisch @deviant3lover @averagejermafan @demianwas and @aelyosos (Feel free to ignore this if you’ve already done it, or just don’t feel like filling it out for your OC(s)!! I’ve just noticed you guys talking about your ocs, and I’d love to hear more about them!)

BASICS

Full Name: Alexander Valente

Gender: Male?? Look, we’ve got more important things to worry about right now, okay?

Sexuality: Biromantic Bisexual

Pronouns: As of right now? Just he/him. He’s pretty comfy with she/her too though. It’s flattering that people think he might be a girl

OTHERS

Family: He never had anyone he considered family; Just very good friends. If asked about it, then he’d say something along the lines of “Do you think I would take the boost drug, with a notoriously very low survival rate, in order to get superhero powers if I had any family I wanted to talk about?”

Birthplace: ???, Nevada, USA

Job: A consultant. Who is he advising and what is he giving them advice about? Mind your business

Phobias: Spiders. Heights. Especially looking out of windows from a very tall height. Admitting he has feelings for a certain someone(s). Abandonment. Probably a whole bucketful more, but those are the main ones.

Guilty Pleasures: Sugar in all it’s various forms (even if he needs the energy to function/for his telepathy) Taking the time to read and appreciate art when not working. Painting his nails (but only when possessing the Puppet’s body) Taking time off work. Buying three entire floors of a luxury skyscraper to house his villain base/office, Renting the most luxurious top floor penthouse (That would make Mayor Osborn (from spider-man) weep tears of envy) he could afford for a home that he barely resides in, Pleasures of the flesh (it’s like a catholic priest up in here) Honestly, it would be easier to list things he isn’t guilty about. (Killing. He’s not guilty about those he’s killed, even if he should be.)

Hobbies: Playing piano. Scheming. Beating up Daniel behind a Wendy’s parking lot Training Daniel. Kissing Daniel too. Starting fights that he can’t possibly hope to win/finish

MORALS

Morality Alignment: Chaotic Neutral

Sins: Desire / Despair / Envy / Fear / Hunger / Pride / Rage / Sloth (so almost all of them…)

Virtues: Charity / Chastity / Diligence / Humility / Justice / Kindness / Patience

THIS OR THAT

introvert/extrovert organized/disorganized close minded/open-minded calm/anxious disagreeable/agreeable cautious/reckless patient/impatient outspoken/reserved leader/follower empathetic/unempathic optimistic/pessimistic traditional/modern hard-working/lazy

RELATIONSHIPS

Otp: It’s cruel that you’re making me choose between Herald and Ortega. But gun to my head…. Chargestep. There’s nothing quite like old lost loves.

Ot3: I forget the ‘official’ name for it but, Herald/Sidestep/Ortega (Flychargestep? Chargeflystep?)

Acceptable Ships: Alexander flirts with everyone possible, so. Argentstep. Steelstep. Mortumstep? <- Is that the right name? Anyway, he’ll smooch just about anyone.

Brotp: I have to admit, I’ve been thinking about different Sidestep interactions from time to time. I think he’d be good buddies with some, and have a, uh, very *interesting* dynamic with others. Not naming any specific Sidesteps to 1. Avoid any favoritism and 2. Not humiliate myself even further. He’s annoying though, and he revels in that, so it might only be a good time for him. Oh, also Anathema and Sidestep. Best bros for life (or death)

Notp: Oh, this one’s tough. Shroud/Sidestep if that’s even a thing. It’s on sight for him with her. He don’t trust random Regenes like that. (Unless it’s a multiple Sidesteps AU) HG/Sidestep too cause… yeah. If you know you know. Icky. Blaze/Sidestep, because I like teasing my friends(?) (acquaintances?) 😉

#Notice how Nocturne and Jake aren’t on the Notp list…. #anyway they can give Alexander a call if they want a good time 🤙 #he’s Mr. steal your [redacted]’s girlfriend and/or boyfriend #…actually now that I’m embarrassing myself anyway #I’ve also been thinking about some sidestep/sidestep interactions for him…. #which I will keep entirely to myself #and goodnight #tag games #oc: alexander valente #Anyway I’m so very sorry that this is probably incomprehensible to some of you guys #and to that I say… please play Fallen Hero: Rebirth cause it’s so very good #10/10 video game #and the sequel is coming out on February 2nd! #2023 #in case the year was in question

[in-my-feels-probably]

Hiii congrats on 1.5k! ♡♡♡

I'm requesting for an option one:

✨so to participate for this one, all you have to do is give me a character from a fandom and why you picked them, and any information about yourself you want to give me, and i’ll write you a blurb and tell you why i think your chosen character would like you.✨

And I'm choosing James Potter simply bc his characterization on both fanon and canon is interesting in general. I love his sunshine personality, the sheer arrogantconfident attitude and the love and adoration he has for his friends (the man became an animagus for his bsf and died for his wife and child ffs),, and honestly the description "it was james who had an ego the size of a lake but a heart to match it" that sold it to me. I also kinda have a thing for cute confident guys in glasses and messy curls maybe but let's ignore that

About me,, so I consider myself a stem girly (studied bio and I'm working in a lab atm), I'm sorta a black cat person, an introvert, and I have this tendency of keeping to myself most times, I'm consider the weird, chubby, quiet art kid bc i love arts (like doodling and sketching) and I also like singing along to songs when I'm working on things,,, I had like a phase where I kept changing hair colors monthly and my current style is a bit modernized vintage 70s outfits and casual corporate wear bc sometimes I like exuding the energy of a strong independent woman who can do great things bc I consider myself as one!!

I think that's all for me,, thanks so much and congrats again!! ♡

hi!

thanks for participating :)

(first of all, that’s one of my favorite quotes from atyd omg)

i think james would be drawn to you just because you’re a lot different than he is. he’d find you fascinating, and he’d make it a point to get to know you. he’s a very social and easygoing person, and i don’t think he does very well on his own. one of his main love languages is definitely quality time. but while i think he’s a social person, i do think he also gets a little burnt out. everyone relies on him to be the positive one, and it would be hard on him always being that person for everyone else when no one would be it for him. with you, he’d never feel like he had to put on a front. you’d be easy to calmly talk to and open up to, and he wouldn’t feel like he needed to entertain you or keep the conversation going. you’d be content to have a quiet day with him if he wanted one, and he would never say no to getting to spend time with you.

he would find your interest in art really endearing. whether that be in the way you expressed yourself through clothes, the songs he’d catch you singing to yourself, or your sketches you’d show him. james is a very talented person, but i don’t think he’s a very artistic person. so he’d think it was really cool that you were, and he’d always be up for hearing about it. he’d also think your interest in science is cool. he’s smart in a certain sense and gets passable grades, but being a top performing student isn’t really that high on his list of priorities. your education being important to you would show him that you’re really driven and hardworking, and he’d be really proud of all the effort you put into things.

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he’d also definitely pick you as his partner in potions because of your skill in the lab.

he’d watch over your shoulder as you mixed ingredients into the cauldron, slightly bewildered at how nonchalantly you were reading through your textbook and brewing the potion with ease. every once in a while you’d look up and ask him to help you, or you’d explain what you were doing as you worked.

sirius would gripe from the adjacent table where he was sitting on his stool, in a temporary timeout from remus because he’d somehow already managed to fuck up their potion.

“it’s no fair! how come you get the good partner and im stuck with moony? he won’t even let me touch the cauldron.”

you’d chuckle, continuing to read through the instructions. “i wouldn’t either. i’m barely letting james help.”

“hey!” james would say, feigning offense as he threw an arm around your shoulder. “i’ll have you know i’m very helpful. one of us has to carry the ingredients all the way over from the shelf and back. what would my mum say if i let you do all the heavy lifting?”

“yes, how very chivalrous of you,” you’d tease, leaning into his side.

he’s grin down at you, passing you another jar of ingredients as he read the textbook over your shoulder. “i know. that’s just the kind of guy i am. i’m all about teamwork, love. a joint effort and all that.”

“sure you are, potter.”

you’d playfully roll your eyes, taking the jar from his hand. he’d continue watching in silence as you worked, resting his chin on your shoulder.

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thanks again for participating! sorry this is a little short, i hope you enjoyed it :)

#harry potter #followers celebration #marauders #james potter #1.5k followers #1.5k followers celebration #1500 followers

[livebloggingmydescentintomadness]

Hi momdad! I hope you’re having a wonderful day so far.

So I kind of needed your advice on something. I’ve been attending university for a few years now and I’ve been friends with this girl for most of that time. And well, recently she kind of ditched me for this clique I suppose, that’s like a bunch of really cool and well known people and well, I’m really shocked. She’d been dropping hints for like 2 days I guess but still, I didn’t think she’d just ditch me for a shiny new friend group like that. The thing is, our friendship was very much due to circumstances, like when you befriend someone because you see them every day and tbh I don’t think we’d be friends if we weren’t classmates. But it was mostly a good friendship you know? We were respectful and we had our fun. So I’ve been feeling awful but on the other hand I know this is a good thing, she wasn’t the greatest friend, it felt like I was her therapist while I could barely talk about my problems with her. And I always spent so much time on getting her really well thought out gifts and the things she got me were so impersonal, like she didn’t know me at all. She would spill other people’s secrets to me even when I told her not to. And she would talk behind other people’s back in a really mean spirited way and I was just scared of standing up to her. She was also like really homophobic (very fun for a closeted bisexual like myself btw) and I don’t know, she had such a hot and cold personality, it always felt like I was walking on eggshells around her and like I could never really be myself around her and I know I’m not perfect obviously, I can be a bit blunt and blurt out things that are hurtful even though I don’t mean to upset people and I know I’m not the most affectionate person, even though I try. And I know the fact that I was willing to stick it out with her just so I wouldn’t be alone doesn’t reflect well on me at all and basically makes me look like a doormat. But I was so afraid of being lonely and not having friends. Which is what happened anyway I guess. But again, I’m so so scared of being alone. And the fact that I’m more upset about being alone than the fact that she won’t really be in my life anymore tells me all I need to know. I’ve been trying to have a positive outlook on this whole thing and I’m trying to be excited about having the chance to go out there and make new friends that match my personality better but the thing is I’m not the best at making friends, I’m really shy and introverted and it feels like everyone’s already made their friends and won’t be in need of more of them. I am friendly with a lot of people just no one that’s like a close friend like her. So I don’t know, I’ve been having a really bad time, I’ve lost my appetite and I can’t really concentrate while studying. I just feel so unlovable, like there’s something inherently wrong with me. So I’ll appreciate any words of advice that you might have for me💗 I’m really sorry this got so long.

hey there, sweetheart, i'm so sorry you're going through this hard time. i spent a long time struggling to make friends and feeling lonely, so i can definitely relate.

first off, i think you kinda dodged a bullet with losing this 'friend', and it sounds to me like deep down you know that too. i don't want to judge a young person too harshly, but at the very least, it sounds like she has a LOT of growing up she needs to do and right now she just isn't a very pleasant person to be around.

i understand being lonely and not having friends, i promise, but i've also learned that alone, as much as it sucks, is a lot better than being with the wrong people. and that ultimately, no matter how many friends you do gain, part of growing up is learning how to make peace with being alone. some people never learn how to just sit with themselves, and it causes them a lot of problems. if you can start facing that challenge early in life, you'll be ahead.

second of all, i'm just going to be blunt with this: i think there's a good chance you're autistic. don't just take my word for it, but my autism radar started beeping like crazy while i read your message, and i think it would explain a whole lot about what you're dealing with.

now, please understand that "autistic" isn't an insult or some kind of prison sentence. autism is just being a bit different, like having a brain that runs on a different operating system. sometimes that's cool, sometimes it causes problems when interacting with the world, but it's neither inherently good or bad, it just is.

i didn't realize i was autistic until i was in my 20s, and while kind of a shock, it actually turned out to be a huge relief, because it allowed me the chance to say "there's not something wrong with me, i'm just autistic. i'm not weird or crazy, other people like me feel the same way."

since i could go on for ages on this topic, i'd suggest you check out my autism traits tag and see what you think. if i'm wrong, no big deal, forget about it, but if you relate really hard to what you find there, then it might go a really long way to helping you understand yourself.

but, all that said, i'm not trying to pathologize you or 'explain away' your feelings. believe me, i totally get how you feel. i didn't have any real friends until i met my qpp when i was 17 (and we've been best friends for 17 years, go us), and high school was a humiliatingly lonely experience for me. i was always trying to be friends with other kids, and they'd say vaguely nice things about me, but never actually try to spend time with or talk to me. it made me feel just awful.

looking back, i have a lot of compassion for myself, because making friends IS hard when you're shy and introverted (and especially when you're autistic too), when people are generally nice to you but don't make any offers to become better friends. if i could give you a little advice, it'd be to speed up the process and go ahead and have some compassion for yourself now, because you're young and still figuring life out and this isn't easy and it's making you feel awful about yourself. that's a situation that deserves some compassion, don't you think?

remember that compassion isn't the same as pity. you're not "feeling sorry for yourself" if you just look at your situation and say, yeah, this is hard and i'm struggling. it makes sense for me to feel bad when i'm struggling with something hard.

but another piece of advice that i'd give is for you to always, always remember that no matter how they present themselves outwardly, everyone around you is wrestling with their own insecurities. the 'friend' who abandoned you? she really wants those cool people in the clique to like her. even those cool people in the clique are insecure.

everyone is insecure, especially the people who are trying the hardest to seem like they aren't. that's just how humans work. we're all scared deep down inside.

so while it's hard, and anxiety-inducing, i promise that there are tons of people around you who also want more friends, but are posturing and trying to seem cool, because who wants to LOOK like they need friends, right? the truth is, most people (who aren't jerks) are really happy to receive attention and to be asked to do something like go to lunch or go see a movie.

even more than that, people LOVE talking about themselves, so if you have an acquaintance that you'd like to get to know better, try asking a few friendly questions about their hobbies or style or pets or what they're studying. if you don't know what to ask about, you could say, "hey have you seen any good shows lately? i'm looking for something new to watch." that can easily start a fun chat, and once you've had a fun chat it's easier to have another one.

now, i don't want you to end up in another friendship where you're the one doing all the work all the time, so try to direct these efforts to someone who will ask you questions in return and seem interested in what you have to say. i'm not judging you for how you let your friend treat you, not at all, i just don't want you to let everyone treat you like that.

i know it's frightening and difficult, but socializing takes practice, like everything in life. it's okay to make flubs and embarrass yourself, i promise it's not the end of the world. just try talking to people, okay? especially if you relate to them and share similar interests. i have a social skills tag that might be helpful too.

if i could manage to find my best friend by commenting on her phantom of the opera fanfic on fanficion.net in 2005, you can find one too. <3

#advice #anonymous #ask

[bookofmirth]

ok i think it’s time to talk about the internalised misogyny that sjm has when it comes to writing acotar women but honestly i’m not even sure if internalised misogyny is the write term for it, maybe for like sarah janet’s internalised male supremacy or something

anyway in my opinion when sjm writes a series it’s super clear she gets attached to one character and then puts them on a pedestal. in tog, it was aelin. in cc, it’s bryce and you might think that in acotar it’s feyre but actually it’s rhys lol

anyway in acotar for some very odd reason sjm has the archeron sisters ALWAYS be inferior to their love interest. feyre is powerful but we literally BARELY see her power when she’s the mc. even throughout acosf rhysands power is always mentioned and sjm goes on for paragraphs about how powerful he is. ok we get it but i want to see feyre also. rhys is a high lord so obviously feyre is a high lady. but she isn’t as educated as rhys so she’s obviously not as good politically. but sjm has feyre paint on the side but it’s seen as a cute little hobby and she has her decorate houses and throw dinners while rhys in acosf is seen tending to court matters and it’s so annoying

nesta is supposed to be this uber powerful girl. but she’s never more powerful than rhys and in acosf she has her powers taken away and instead put on cassian’s level of being a warrior. but obviously she’s not as good as him and will probably never be so now she’s inferior to him. it’s hinted that she’s going to be a general when she’s literally never had any interest in fighting or being a general. she’s an introvert so it doesn’t even make sense to give her a job where she has to be around people and interact with them all the time. but she’s gonna be a general bec cassian is her mate and he’s a general the same way feyre is a high lady bec rhys is her mate and he’s a high lord

and even though we don’t know whether it’s going to be gwynriel or elriel we’re still getting headcanons from the fandom about gwyn and elain being spies because .. azriel is a spy. IT DRIVES ME CRAZY. like the archeron sisters and their careers being what their love interest career is so irritating to me

i think in general the archeron sisters are very much so stripped of their independence at this point in the series. feyre’s house, job, friends and entire life im velaris is given to her by rhys. obviously they’re never going to break up or anything but still. we see how easy rhys can control her life in acosf and how rhys controls what everyone can and can’t tell her in acosf. it’s low key concerning that rhys has this much power over such an important thing in feyre’s life.

same with nesta. she has no powers, no job or income, a house that’s given fo her by rhys that she can’t get out of by herself. she completely relies on rhys and cassian to provide for her. and honestly same with elain. she relies on rhys to provide for her. her house, her money, her clothes.

i know i could be reaching but seeing the archeron sisters so dependant on men just really irritates me. like can they have some independence? some money of their own. i’m crying in the club thinking of nesta having to ask cassian for money everytime she wants to go do something or go buy something and literally needing to ask someone to get her out of the house. obviously she’s been dependant on people for a long time but i really expected nesta to gain some independence and make a life for herself where she didn’t depend on anyone in acosf. but again i feel like this ties into sjm being very biased towards rhys and needing him to be in the center of everything. even though i don’t think she realises she’s doing it. a book where nesta or elain go out and find a court they love? never. i don’t think sjm could have another court even compare to velaris lol

anyway sorry about the rant but the sisters deserve so much better than their lives and futures being decided on because of who their love interests are

So regarding Feyre's power when she is still the MC, I'd argue that's not so much that Feyre doesn't have much power, so much as it's a result of SJM really half-assing that part of her worldbuilding. The magic doesn't make sense and has no logic, so of course we're only going to see Feyre use it when it's relevant to moving the plot forward (e.g., saving the Rainbow). The magic system isn't developed enough for us to really see or understand how "powerful" Feyre is (or Nesta for that matter, or Mor, etc.)

but obviously she’s not as good as him and will probably never be so now she’s inferior to him. it’s hinted that she’s going to be a general when she’s literally never had any interest in fighting or being a general. she’s an introvert so it doesn’t even make sense to give her a job where she has to be around people and interact with them all the time.

I'm not sure what you mean by Nesta not being as good as Cassian. She's not Carynthian only because she stayed behind to save Emerie and Gwyn, not because she wasn't capable.

IMO Nesta leading the Valkyries is very different from being general of a masculine-led army that already exists and has a history of misogyny and excluding women. That's what I like about how her story went in acosf - Nesta defined what her life would be (she doesn't value the same things fae do, despite being one) and what counts as success for her (not being Orestian), and created something else for herself. A lot of feminisms believe that overthrowing current systems is the only way to achieve equity, and that's how Nesta's story went in a miniaturized version. She rejected fae values to create her own. I think that's the definition of making a life for herself.

Does Nesta rely on Cassian or others for money? She could sell Windhaven - not that she would - but she is a property owner so it's not like she's destitute.

I think we need to rethink how power looks in the acotar world (and honestly in the real world) because money isn't the end-all-be-all, so I don't understand arguments that talk about the Archerons being financially dependent. Feyre kept that family alive and fed for years. She's got all those magic powers and a lot of social capital because her people love her. Nesta has her powers, the Valkyries, titles. Money isn't the only thing that gives people power or allows them autonomy.

I definitely think that sjm has a brand of feminism that's very much White Girlboss, so on a general level I agree that she has some issues with her feminism. I just don't see how we can argue that Feyre or Nesta are in any way weak or disadvantaged.

#acosf #acotar #ask #anon

[fathermarty]

Hello! I was wondering if I could marauders era ship request? My pronouns are she/her and I’m bisexual. I’m a Slytherin as well.

Personality: I originally come off as quiet, and aloof. It can seem standoffish but I don’t mean it too I just don’t trust very easily and am uncomfortable with strangers/new environments. I am my best when I am by myself or with my closest friends. With my closest friends I’m quite open, fun and talkative especially when talking abt things that interest me. Im quite the good listener as well when it comes to my more extroverted friends. Im also introverted, imaginative, creative, individualistic, reserved, structured and picky in my own way, all sprinkled with a little bit of sarcastic humor.

Hobbies: Digital Art is probably my biggest hobby. If I could I would spend all day at home with my trusty tablet and stylus drawing with an audiobook of my favorite novel/tv show running in the background. Apart from art I absolutely love working out. I kickbox and weight lift most days of the week. Lastly I love playing video games, spending time at comic book stores, the movies and coffee shops.

Interests: I work in the digital media arts and love creative coding, interaction design, and computer graphics. I think my favorite thing is that combination between the artistic and the technological.

Love language: this one is definitely acts of service.

Thank you!

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Hello, hello! May I just say that you sound like you could be one of my bffs, you sound like so much fun to be around!

I ship you with Remus Lupin!

Now bare with me, because while you are both shy I just know for a fact that Remus would feel the need to always talk to you to get to know you.

Remus knew of you because you two had classes, but not too much because you were a Slytherin and rather quiet. (Unlike his other mates though he didn't have bad blood with Slytherins).

You stood out to Remus when he started to notice you when you would be either outside working on art, or on rainy days held up in the library doodling away. This intrigued him because Remus himself was never one for art.

It took him a while to finally approach you, mostly because he couldn't think of a way to ask you about your art without sounding creepy.

After a week or so of observing you, he realized you are friends with Marlene, giving the two of you something in common.

Okay side note, I feel like the bi-best-friend energy between Marlene and you would be unmatched. Like a dynamic duo in a way, a very fun gay way.

You started to become Remus' main focus, he was dedicated to knowing more about you. He noticed the way you came off shy and reserved until you were with Marlene or any of your close housemates. He loved to watch you talk animatedly about something you were interested in -- even if he had no idea what it was.

Anyhoo, Remus approached you and Marlene one day when you both were sitting under a tree, attempting to finally strike up a conversation with you.

"Hello Marlene, y/n," The smile on his face was small and reserved like running into you both was a coincidence, but you knew better.

"About time you actually talked to me, I thought I was going to have to take you down by how much you stare at me."

Remus swears up and down you only made a sarcastic remark because Marlene was there but you say it's because you were instantly comfortable with him.

It is hard to not know who Remus Lupin is, he is one of the famous Marauders at Hogwarts, and everyone knows him.

However, to you, he is by far the most tolerable -- and dare you say attractive?

Marlene invited him to go to the room of requirement with you and her that evening.

"Make sure you are dressed to workout Lupin," You told him, he laughed it off and took it as a joke.

Only when he showed up to the room of requirement in jeans did he realize you were not joking -- not even a little bit.

Remus swooned over watching you kickbox, something about a woman who had all that power in her and released it in a healthy way hooked him.

It became a thing where he would join you and Marlene for kickboxing, you both trying to teach him the techniques.

"Lupin how do you function with these long limbs and not knowing how to move them?!" Marlene screeched one night at him. Okay -- so maybe kickboxing was not Remus' thing.

Lifting on the other hand? He was all game. You didn't expect him to be as strong as he was considering he was tall and lanky. BUT you were wrong, the boy knows how to lift weights.

You guys would inevitably be friends before he realizes he likes you more than a friend, your lives became so intertwined it was weird to see one of you without the other.

On Hogsmead weekends you both would go get some coffee and hangout together while Remus reads and you draw. Sometimes Remus would read his book out loud for you while you drew so you had something to listen to. (You never asked him to do this, but he knew you loved it.)

Little gestures like that started to make you realize how special and safe Remus made you feel.

I imagine Remus asking you out in a supermundane way, that makes your heart swoon. I can see you both sitting in the Gryffindor common room late at night as he is reading his favorite book aloud while you drew. You would know this book by heart because he has read it to you like four times, which is why when he goes off script you notice.

"This is when I decide to take advantage of my story..." You look up to meet his eyes already staring at you, "... it would mean the world to me if you would be mine, my girlfriend. There isn't a day since I met you that I haven't been happy. Being around you has helped me grow as a person and overall made my life that much more enjoyable. I love you y/n, and I think I always will."

DAWWWWH I COULD CRY, I feel like the simplicity in this is what would make it that more special for you. In a moment where you two are the only people in the world, surrounded with things you love.

I also feel like you would maybe draw Remus -- Ope did I go too far?

Remus is so comfortable with you that he had no issue telling you about his furry little problem. I feel like you would respond something like, "So it's kinda like your man period huh?" Cracking a joke would let Remus know you didn't mind and also would make him smile.

ALSO -- I can so see you taking your drawings of Remus and showing him them to illustrate what you love about him. We all know he will get down on himself about his furry problem, but you start to help Remus love himself.

In return Remus does small acts to show how much he loves you. Such as learning the different types of perspectives in your drawings, and he would also personify your artwork with poems.

REMUS IS A SUCKER FOR CLICHES AND YOU CAN'T CHANGE MY MIND!!

I really hope I did you justice and brought to life why I shipped you + Remus together. Here is a small collage I put together that I think brings to life everything I just talked about. I really hope you liked it!

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#remus x reader #remus lupin ship #remus lupin #remus being remus #hogwarts #slytherin #harry potter fan club #gryffindor

[siennahrobek]

My best friend lives over 800 miles away, been friends for over thirteen years and it was only January of this year did we meet in person. She came to me. It was rather sudden with barely a month (if that) of planning. And I find it really interesting on how well we connect, both when in the same place and not in the same place.

We can’t do the things that other people can do. We can’t go places together or bowl or ride horses or actually do much of anything. We talk. Sometimes Skype if I’m lucky enough to get through her schedule. She writes and I draw and it works. She’s busier than me, more out going, more able, she has more people in her life that she is around. And me? Well, I’m a serious introvert. I don’t go places and I don’t generally have the friends to do things with people. It can be very limiting, or at least, feel that way. It probably doesn’t help that I kind of live in the middle of nowhere.

But my introvertedness, the difficulty finding (making, keeping, whatever) friends, my living situation, it’s made me think about people like that. Those who have more, well, actual limitations. Be it physical, mental, what have you. And it can be really hard, I imagine, to find and keep friends. Keep attention. Sometimes I feel I’m not doing enough. Like I can’t. It’s hard, even with the people in my life, to go places when you don’t really want to or to be outgoing or do physical things or go places. Whether you want to go or not. And I can’t imagine how it feels for those who have more difficulties with such things. Being more limited in the things friends and friend groups often do. I imagine it ends up being very excluding sometimes. I know it’s hard for me (a little different considering it’s just distance) with those feelings of exclusion.

And then I thought of introverts. Like me, who doesn’t mind non-judgment company. Quiet or talkative it’s okay. When my friend was here, we did some traveling; museums and shops. I tried to take her places. But we also spent a lot of time at my home. I finally got her to watch a show I loved (and I got her hooked on it lol) and it was just this… fantastic company. I would draw and watch this show with her and she would talk sometimes. We never had to go anywhere at those times, and the company was great. I had a friend. She was there. And she was okay with being around me even in that scenario.

I’m not entirely sure what I’m trying to say exactly but I know this. Whatever limitations one may have, having an introvert friend can be great. Many times singular people, once they become comfortable with that person, they aren’t nearly as exhausting. I spent near an entire week with my friend non stop and I was okay. You don’t have to worry about any limitations with the kind of introvert like me because we can just be. Be there, listen, we don’t have to move and often times, if you need, we don’t even need to speak. We can, obviously, especially once comfortability comes in, but it’s not always necessary. Listening and watching others’ joy and talk can be literally just as good, entertaining and fulfilling for us. I guess I’m saying that having an introvert friend can be helpful because you don’t have to go to places or do the things that many friend groups would do. And they would still be just as close of a friend, and just as fulfilled.

#obviously not all introverts are like this #but I can say they exist #and it’s actually pretty easy with us #very low maintenance friends #but loyal and full of love #I’m not entirely sure what I was thinking #but I dunno #I saw something somewhere and it made me well write this #introverts #friendships

[facelesswrittes]

I’d like to ask for an Marvel character any gender

Im a tall female with half and half pink and green hair and brown eyes. I’m a extrovert and an introvert. I like singing, panting and gaming. My love language is physical touch and I like to go out on dates like going out in a walk or to the movies.

My type is: funny, tall guys and skinny and scrony guys .Freckles and females I like them to be tall funny and very cutesy

I got you!

Okay okay, hear me out. But… Peter Parker sounds like your guy!! Starks prodigy, the strong, smart and handsome dork. Who with no surprise is spider man. Sounds perfect, am I right?

as silly as it may sound, the masked hero struggles deeply in the love department. Countless of times he’s been grace with the unfortunate luck of falling in love with the wrong person. However, he feels that with you that might change.

It all started off normal, having a few mutual friends an being seat mates in chemistry made a small friendship bloom between you guys. Small jokes where shared and even mutual interest.

Peter was soon to realize you idolized his other self, ‘spider man’. Apart from you mentioning it to him, he came to his conclusion after seeing the spider man patches in your school backpack.

Let’s just say, he’s ego went to the top of the roof after that. He started bringing photos of his mask self to show you and even give you. (Nate wasn’t to happy about him stealing his pictures but seeing his best friend desperate to impress yet another girl left him no choice).

Although he was the one trying to move the friendship up the most, you where the one who took the initiative to ask him out. His dork self Would never allow him to make the first move. When I say this man question everything, I mean everything. Days where filled with him constantly over thinking the simple “hello” you gave him. His constant inner fight between asking you out and you not liking him ended up with you stepping in first.

At first both of you where awkward about it. And nothing really changed from your usual interactions. Other then now you would be seen holding hands in the schools hallways.

About him being spider man, he never really had the intention of telling you. Let’s reword that, he did want to tell you, But the thought of you being put in danger because of the secret drained his soul. So the idea was immediately thrown out of his head.

Dates, let’s get something straight. Peter is a total sucker for romance. He will definitely show up at your house as early as 8 in the morning to take you out, but is later force to wait around for you to get ready. (He was so excited he forgot to even tell you about the date).

Move dates is a daily occurrence in your relationship. Something about holding your hand in the dark while watching a movie made his toes curl in excitement. Peter is not afraid to display how much he loves you anywhere. He’ll take your hand on his and kiss your cheek whenever he has the opportunity. Now for real kisses he much rather have them on special occasions. In moments where the mood is perfect. When that does happen, he’ll lean over to you closing his eyes and without a warning steals a kiss from you. (Nate being his best friend is sometimes forced to bare being the third wheel for an entire day. Although secretly he doesn’t mind to much. As long as Peter is happy).

#spiderman #peter parker #marvel #spider man x y/n #spider man x reader #peter parker x reader

[soft-jihoonie]

Hello! It's your secret Santa again 💝 I hope you’ve had a nice week and weekend? Can I ask about what you've been up to? And wow, I saw on your about page that you do songs and circus videos? I’d love to hear more about that! 💗 Are those your main hobbies/interests?

Oh, I can definitely see why you love Chanyeol then! ❣️ He’s such a happy pill, and a daring one too (which is very apparent in their variety shows, yes!) and I agree - he’s ridiculously talented and handsome as well 😖💘 I also discovered Exo through Call me baby! That song + Overdose had me gaping in awe, they were like nothing I’d ever seen before! ✨ Was Call me baby your first era then? I became an Exo-L in 2016 so my first era was the Monster era~

Ahh Yixing is such a sweetie, I understand why you fell for him too 💕 I gave my heart to Junmyeon right away, and even if the others (especially Kyungsoo) have been fighting him for the bias spot I have to say that it doesn't look like they'll succeed any time soon haha 💜

I’m glad I got it right! ✨ Did you get into Seventeen before or after Exo? And what do you like about Jihoon in particular? I’ve gotten the impression that they’re pretty amazing as well, but since they’re so many it’s been hard to find the courage and energy to actually get to know them haha 😅 but I’ll see if I can give it a try someday soon! Any tips on where to start? And do you have any favourite songs by them? (And by Exo?)

Me too! 🎨 And I also love vibes like that, so hopefully I’ll get that down at least 💓 Oh, don't worry, I don’t have any problem with drawing ships, but thank you for giving me multiple options - I’ll see what I can come up with!!

💫 ~I wish you all the best for this upcoming week~ 💫

-🎅

Hey! So sorry for the late reply, I went on holiday for a week with my friends and the signal was so bad with barely any wifi, and then I came home and had to go back to work instantly!

I definitely need to update my page haha, I haven't done circus since i was like 21 (i'm 26 now) but it was a huge part of my life, I did it from the ages of like 12 - 21 and even moved to Tasmania at one point to work at a circus over there. Nowadays, I still sing a lot but haven't filmed any singing vids forever, I mostly just write fanfic as my main hobby at the moment haha, I have 3 jobs so it's kinda hard to find time for hobbies outside of consuming kpop content!

What about you? What are your hobbies?

I thought call me baby was my first era but I literally just realised yesterday that I also became an exo-l in 2016 so monster was my first era with them too! I was like obsessed with exo from the moment i saw them for the first time haha

I love Yixing so so much, I miss his interactions with exo so much all the time, he's the sweetest lil bean! Omg i love that you were able to stick with Junmyeon, he's the best! I pretty much never stick with the same bias that i have when i first discover a group, like i'll be bias wrecked and then the person who bias wrecked me will stay as my bias for good, like with seventeen i thought i was Joshua biased when i discovered seventeen and then Jihoon just whisked me away haha. OMG Kyungsoo at the moment needs to just stop, I can't handle it haha.

I got into seventeen after exo and was definitely more seventeen focused for a bit but I always came back to Exo! Jihoon is very introverted which I really relate to so I think that's what made me gravitate towards him, plus he's just really cute and soft whilst simultaneously being a huge grump and i just love those vibes haha. He's also super talented, like his singing voice is gorgeous and hes basically produced like all of seventeen's songs! I get that haha, I find that watching their reality showing going seventeen really helped with getting to know them! My favourite seventeen song is actually a song by just 3 of the members and ailee called Q&A, it's so good, i highly recommend checking it out! I love like so many exo songs but Unfair always seems to stick as my fave, i just love the vibe of it so much!

Amazing, i'm super excited to see what you come up with!

Hope you're well!

#Secret Santa

[n0resistance]

Complaining makes me sick 

     I’m a human sponge with other people’s emotions especially when they complain. I physically get sick when I lack sleep, don’t eat healthy, work too much, and have negative energy around me. I was told I’m psychosomatic. That my mind affects the way my body feels almost immediately. 

     I unconsciously take on the discomfort of others which has given me migraines. The most debilitating are migraines however it also comes in the form of stomach issues, colds and coughing. 

    My migraine is the absolute worst though because it’s nausea and a headache coming at you at the same time. I worked the night before late and experienced lack of sleep, had a long drive , and then without rest went to work in a very busy bar with too many people to count. So the following day it created the migraine. My diet could’ve been better, I could’ve drank water instead of coffee, and if I rested more I could’ve avoided burnout. 

    Light and sound are the most sensitive to me during migraines and makes my head throb. Unfortunately, it’s a thing where sleep doesn’t help you. You will find yourself going to bed with the migraine and waking up with the migraine 

    Vomiting and crying can relieve it. You make a contraction that produces something for relief. Spikes up the estrogen  levels. When I reached my late 20s my body started to fall apart. Was probably done with all the shit I put it through. The partying, over working, and eating whatever I wanted. Most importantly my surroundings. 

    It looks like I don’t age much and my weight doesn’t fluctuate. However, inside I battle lactose intolerance, acid reflux, gerd, and now these horrible migraines. So the only way to avoid all these issues is to avoid everything, everybody, eat really healthy, and sleep enough. 

     I was always working on a project plus 3 jobs for years. I can barely handle one job without crashing now. People always say that I never complain. They’re fond of my easy going-ness and I’m seen as a chill person. If I were to be the one who was complaining, as much as I wanted and were addicted to it as most people are. I would probably be dead.

    The negativity would exhaust my body of any life.Maybe not outside and not right away but for sure inside. I’ve been used to chaos growing up. There’s a need to let out the trauma of what’s happened. About whatever thing it was, so it doesn’t live in my body and I’ve been learning to regulate emotions. Anger creates cancer in most people’s bodies. 

   When I was growing up I wanted to make sure to be the opposite of angry. Telling myself nothing would bother me. I wouldn’t get angry or fight. I will not be a reactive person but I have just done a lot of absorbing instead of reacting. 

    Luckily I’m very aware that complaining would hurt me, but now that I’m older, even listening to complaining hurts me. Complaining and doing nothing about it, makes the problems grow into problems that are just so monumental.

   I’m finally learning ways to not be a sponge. Headphones to tune out the people. Creating boundaries when you know you can’t do things. Excusing yourself. Writing so you don’t carry it all on your shoulders. Finding things that make you happy. Mine is going out of the city. Eating mostly greens and drinking water. Resting as much as possible. Acting on your life struggles as soon as possible. Moving your body and yoga. 

    Focusing on an activity like drawing, reading, or watching a film. The most important thing I learned are boundaries. Which is an everyday practice. 

     Self awareness is key. I think it’s okay to make mistakes, but it’s not okay to keep making the same mistakes. When it comes to any aspect in life like money, health, friendships, work. Asking what are your goals, and what’s the life you want to lead. For me it’s a healthy life. I want to have a healthy life and pursue art. Love and spend time with my boyfriend and friends. Finally I believe having a more introverted lifestyle can be a good thing. Protecting your energy, time, money and spend it doing what you want to do. 

     If I was this really ambitious person I guess I could ignore any aches and pains and say yes I want to work and make the most money, have an entirely active social life where I’m constantly going out, be a yes person, work on every project thrown my way. But I’ve already done all that.

    I’ve grown out of being that ambitious. Now being healthy and peaceful is the biggest blessing. Being with loved ones once in a while and spending the rest of my time with my partner is well worth it. Even being patient with the art I’m making is a sign of maturity. In the end you want to be happy and that sometimes means being lame and saying no. I’ve learned saying no is a big energy saver. That energy is saved for things that are worth it.

   Every time I say no to going out to a bar I can buy a plane ticket. Saying no to a job can mean more rest. No to a friend is more time with myself. No to working more hours means working on my art. Most importantly saying no to hearing a traumatic story can save me from a lot of internal and external pain. I’m just too empathetic. Sometimes you mess up and let loose. By projecting into the future and putting feeling better first and making the proper choices. I hope to never have to get sick again. 

#howtolove