#like i can't fully process this

[lunarharp]

into the deep end - 30k T orufrey fic, focusing on memory trauma, disability, and romance.

the sweet oblivion of the victim, the poisoned freedom of the other.

for one moment - it had felt like two parts returned - the needed reunion of two disparate halves. no more secrets, no more pain.

the moment you get to give back what you never wanted to take. that moment, under the night-blooming flowers, when they had both let out the same single broken sigh of relief.

but they were never whole to begin with, were they?

qifrey swore he wouldn't say 'sorry' to this man any more if he could help it - sorry is cheap now. he didn't want to be in a position ever again where you only have 'sorry' left. so he just looks down into the threads of his blanket, strains his eye until it hurts, feeling his insides - his throat, heart and head - burn with pain. he expects more, but olly says nothing.

olly says nothing.

#witch hat tag #orufrey #sorry i wanted to make a new post for my fic since the first illustration is new. #*stands in the middle of a desolate field in the pouring rain* Please Read My Tale...Blease..Oh god please..*collapses to the ground* #someone asked if there's spoilers in it. Um...yes. Sorry...it's about everything #maybe i should describe it more? it's about qifrey becoming more and more disabled - as i feel is his canon trajectory #and both of them processing the choices that have been made. it was necessary for me to explore this in order to fully understand orufrey #and for them to have the cathartic conclusion-that's why this is important to me for my witch hat fanwork making life. this connects it all #and having dived into qifrey's mind and lived through oru's feelings i was able to get to a place that is possible for them. #the hit/kudos ratio is so pathetic idek what happened. ppl opening it realising its long and saving it for later or just bailing lmfao #idek any more i hate advertising my writing i hate trying to get more ppl to read my long fics it's so hard 🥲 #i'm so much prouder of this than my art...i was able to sink deeply into the orufrey feelings i had always wanted to fully explore #so. it's there lol.........i reread the date/kiss segment today after trying to forget about it thinking maybe the fic is just BAD lol #and like.....nope! i like it very much and this is what i was trying to get across. and it's always there to be read by anyone who wants to #and i will always remember the bliss i felt while writing when i was just lost in their world and living as them. dear GOD i love them. #i'm grateful to myself that i put in the work and love to make this so that i can always come back to it. i wanna illustrate scenes properly #but i'm never satisfied with drawing things i've written because i just can't capture the vivid experience in my mind. maybe one day.

[genericpuff]

I saw the tags in one of your posts hinting at Hermes and Thanatos having a romantic relationship in Rekindled. Are they dating?

no they're not dating, i'm just being a bitch LOL (i would hope they're not dating when thanatos is straight up complaining about hades hiring hermes) i def don't mind people shipping them together tho, who knows, might have a lil' something something by the end of the comic depending on where it goes (*/ω＼)

#the reality is that writing a story like this is an ongoing process #there are certain things i have fleshed out nearly fully and other things that could change between now and when they become relevant #i def wanna give the story back its OG queer roots but i don't want to pile in too many sideplots at the same time either #so yeah i can't make any promises but wait and seeee! <3 #lore rekindled #lore rekindled comic #lore rekindled ama #ask me anything #anon ama #anon ask me anything

[torchickentacos]

thanksgiving is over and it is now time to indulge in my favorite post-holiday pastime: sink hours into something mindless (art) for hours in peace and quiet and solitude after everyone goes home <3. I don't remember being this happy with art in a long time tbh

#rbs off bc i'll share the whole thing later EDIT LMAO they're on bc I can't reblog it either apparently and i want to #when? idk. later. whenever it gets done #taylor's tag #i am fully just done socially right now but i will be yelling into the void some #but i always crash after holidays and need to live as a hermit for 48 hours afterwards #on one hand. love being autistic /genuine. like i really do #but also. surprised pikachu face: #me when my autism actually gives me autism and therefore sensory/social burnout :o #how dare the sensory processing and social overwhemling disorder give me sensory proccessing issues and overwhelm me socially????

[iaf]

Something I like about The Hollow is that when a character gets mad or upset they're just like "Yup, I'm feeling things. Time to make it everyone's problem."

#and yes! that is sooo teenage behavior #they get angry and yell at eachother but not for malicious reasons #but because they're confused and frustrated with the situations they're put through #and still don't know how to fully process and deal with their emotions #so it results in these outbursts #and i know that's not exclusive to the hollow #but- idk man i just really like how its done here #it resonates with my teenage experience #i can't really explain it #the hollow #the hollow netflix #iaf.text

[kkujo]

something i don't see people talking about is the way hyperfixations come in like stages and cycles like it's not just "i'm obsessed with this thing" it's like. euphoria from finding something new and it brings you so much joy and then as that initial dopamine rush wears off you start to get more and more down and feel isolated as you start to realise that no one else cares about it as much as you do and you feel silly for being so into it and the thoughts become repetitive and boring so you get more and more depressed and lonely and then you inevitably lose the hyperfix which leaves you drifting feeling miserable and hopeless until you start the cycle again. idk if i explained this well or if other people will understand but it brings genuine phases of euphoria and straight up depression and this is why i get annoyed when neurotypicals use words like hyperfixation to describe like, an interest. bc it's not. just an interest it becomes who you are and when you lose it it's like losing yourself and you spend so much energy thinking about it that it interrupts your daily life and it's so fucking draining 👍

#like if i see one more nt being like hyperfixation this hyperfixation that SHUT UP!! YOU HAVE AN INTEREST #talk to me when you stay up until 6am every night bc you can't fucking sleep bc ur thinking about it. #talk to me when you can't process emotions in a normal healthy way because you can only relate it back to your hyperfix #paired w madd especially it's IMPOSSIBLE to be normal about shit i swear 2 god because the second i'm upset or lonely it's straight back to #immersing myself in another world and being someone else and not facing my emotions instead letting 'someone else' deal with them #not just negative emotions yk it's anything it's fully immersive to the point i end up not knowing exactly who i am myself bc i'm rarely #myself in my head yk #and it's so isolating #and this is why i get mad when people use these terms lightly bc they don't fucking get it #oh you're hyperfixated? oh you're delusional? you're delulu? watch this #< guy who has delusions that all of his friends secretly hate him bc he's too insane abt xyz media and who feels alone bc no one else is as #into it even though it wouldn't be reasonable to expect them to be #like i'm constantly questioning whether all my friends are secretly against me & finding me annoying anytime i talk about it but it's fine #it's so fucking isolating #i'm not losing my hyperfix yet thank god but i am in the stage of like realisation where the initial euphoria has worn off and i'm like #fuck no one else gets it. no one else is thinking about it like i am. and it's so lonely #< like not to sound like 'i'm 14 and no one gets me' or i'm not like other girls or whatever 😭 #it's not me being dramatic i genuinely. know that no one else is spending every waking moment thinking about the things i am the way i do #and it's so incredibly depressing i can't even explain it in a way that will make sense #because i want to talk about it so fucking bad and i can't. even to my friends and gf who always listen i end up feeling annoying #and then i get genuinely delusional not like tiktok girl voice delulu like i genuinely start questioning my entire reality #just if i talk about something a little too much #bc i'm convinced i'm fucking annoying and no one gets it and they're thinking bad things about me #but i know they wouldn't. but it feels like they are #idk #anyways !

[dnangelic]

tbh it's kind of interesting to me that dark always wanted a merge and completely rejected krad's idea of keeping daisuke's body for himself. there's the obvious reasons as to why like dark simply Not Wanting to be Krad and loathing operating at all as an 'infection' forcefully taking over their bodies and completely erasing the hikari's selves--- hiwatari's 'if a shadow is behind the circle, then you have a hole' (if the shadow is within the circle, you have a full sphere,) line comes to mind, throw in the whole dark is love / krad is sorrow thing, and you get the idea that 'grief and intense unregulated sorrow doesn't just take something away from you, but also makes you lose parts (or sometimes the whole) of yourself,' but then what does that say for dark? love and desire can change you into something you are, but aren't? (in both a healthy, and also very ominous and unhealthy way, of course.) had dark and any of his hosts actually 'become one' wouldn't you end up with a brand new third entity, a literal composite? my intrigue comes the most from the way that dark at least superficially behaves in such an intensely independent way, but then between stealing for half-selfless reasons, his miserable history, the way he outright desperately doesn't want to be forgotten even if he thinks poorly of himself as a bad person and yet also avoids/excises himself from so many intimacies --- was he really willing and interested in becoming one with his hosts even if it meant getting rid his old, individual self?? for all his bravado and natural arrogant personality, all the signs pretty much point to dark and dark alone wanting to merge so that he'd either be 'better' as a person, more suitable as a real, proper human being, and/or so that he wouldn't have to be, (or rather, keep being,) alone???

#*･ﾟ⊰ 𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐒. ⊱ ✦ › OUT. #this is definitely how im writing him at least. dnangel is too friendship don't leave me alonecore #dark has. the range #he loves himself he hates himself he's the greatest ever he's lower than the low ✨ #dark was born perfect and also his existence is a massive mistake in MistaKE #he wants what he can never ever obtain for as long as he's only himself for so long he's been trapped in stagnancy #it's only daisuke that gets him to change!!! #this got longer than i expected #when rlly its just 'ud think dark would act more like krad almost.' #ud think hed be the more belligerent one. the one who wants to violently take over his host's bodies rather than just #combine with them at all and potentially dilute/lose himself in the process 🧍‍♂️ #either dark thought it was completely worth it bc he'd have everything he wanted even if he wasn't necessarily fully 'there' for it #or he thinks so lowly of himself that in his eyes. in his truest opinion. his hosts are always better than him #poto erikcore #'i can't go on living like this like a mole in a cellar i'm sick of it i'm sick of it' #either way. hes been suffering bigtime til daisuke

[jays-therapist]

I'm gonna be soooo fucking insane when I finally get to see Izumo's arc animated. Literally never gonna shut up about it. Dicing up every frame like they're nice tasty meals for my eyes to feast on. THE MOMENT i get THIS SCENE in motion--

--I will ascend past this mortal body, into a higher plane of existence. Gonna post ten rants about it each day and none of them will be coherent. God. Fuck.

#she's my everything #truly madly deeply #her arc was the first time I actually shed tears reading the manga I just can’t wait to see it animated #reading “I loved them” felt like such a punch in the gut I had to put the fucking manga down. I felt what she was feeling in that moment #The sudden realization that she had loved them even when she thought she had killed the part of herself that could do so. #even when she hated them too. She still loved them so much #but she can't even fully process that in this situation. She thinks she's going to die. #GOD. COME JANUARY I WILL BE THE MOST ANNOYING MF IN THE WORLD #izumo kamiki #blue exorcist

[thechosenanubis]

Guys i think i just had an eureka moment cause i just realised why Sarah, Rufus and Victor opened a school in the first place. Because it would make it so much easier to find the Chosen One. HELLOOO?!?!?! Why did it take me so long ( 10 years if you are wondering) to figure this one out?!?!?!?

Remember that neither one of those three knew that Sarah was a Chosen One ( i think...but don't take my word for it, if someone would fact check this info for me i would be so grateful 🙏 thx)

Probably the idea to open up the school would have been Rufus or Victor's ( my money is on Rufus tho) because they had Evil Cult Plans Shenanigans in mind, and Sarah went along with it because she probably thought the House looked too empty and full of bad memories that she wanted to forget. And she probably wanted to fill the house with joy and warmth as new memories replaced the bad ones y'know?

#house of anubis #victor rodenmaar jr #rufus zeno #sarah frobisher smythe #and i fully believe that the Chosen One and Osirian are connected to the House in some shape or form #so it would be like a meeting at the destiny crossroads type of thing... #in the sense that Nina and Eddie would have found their way to the House sooner or later #it's just that being a house for students sped up the process #holy shit i can't believe it took me so long to realise this... i'm so dumb 💀🤦‍♀️

[ask-ursa-tonypeter]

[fic: wicked love] Peter, have you thought about college yet? Like, where will you go and how it might affect your relationship with Tony? Have you talked about it with him at all?

Ugh, yeah, I already got my acceptance letter from MIT before we really knew what was going on with my coughing. Dad still wants me to go, and-- I get it, it's MIT, but it sucks that we're going to have to be long-distance? I'm kind of worried about it. …I'm really worried about it. I'll miss him a lot, and I just-- things are so complicated, it seems like we should take some time to get sort of settled before making a change like that, right?

I told him I could always do a year at Columbia and then transfer to MIT so we had more time before I leave, and he asked if I'd even be considering that if I was with anyone else, and… he's right that I really wouldn't? So he said he doesn't want to hold me back and-- it's just so messy!

I'm afraid… I'm afraid he's going to talk himself out of it while I'm gone, and if that's what he really wants then that's fine, but if it's just, y'know-- him being hard on himself and deciding he can't be good for me all on his own without talking to me, then that's-- ugh. I don't know. He said he wouldn't just spring something on me like that, and that helps, but-- it was just so awful when he was in California before and I don't want it to feel like that again.

We'll… we'll just have to talk about it, I guess. Um, I hope that answers your question.

#fic: wicked love #wicked love: peter #ursa interlude: #I'm sorry all the answers for these two are like #'they are not at all on the same page about anything sorry for the heartbreak rip' #even in my theoretical happy endings for them I def think they break up first for a BIT #bc they both need time and distance to reconcile with everything that happened #peter can't see it clearly and mature enough to take full ownership when he's got tony smoothing everything over for him #tony can't fully process his hurt in the context of a relationship or recognize/accept peter's growth from so up close #they could make it work but they'd both need to be on their own for a while to actually get there. #poor babies. I'm a monster #😊

[allbuthuman]

grabbing asagiri kafka by the shoulders shaking him pleading with him to not have dazai descend back into his mafia self even for the sake of saving others (aka for the sake of the deal with mori) even though it could make for very good heartbreaking tragedy if done correctly just because my poor heart won't be able to take it

#thinking about him going back to the mafia for the sake of the deal #so that no one else will have to do it or for another non-selfish reason #and really tries not to regress but he can't help but be reflective of what's around him #glimpses of which we see in the prison arc #and the darkness just fully claims him again #yes he would do it for the sake of good #but he would essentially rid himself of any goodness in the process I AM UNWELL #i imagine him at some point being like ''odasaku. i tried'' #''you were right; a former killer can become a good person; unfortunately not all of them'' #i am making myself so sad oh god #bsd mental illness hours #bungou stray dogs #bsd #dazai osamu

[wild-at-mind]

If you ever see me becoming one of those transmisandry people, please fucking call me out immediately.

#it shouldn't happen though i am too triggered by MRA-lite material #i can't see that changing any time soon even though i haven't had exposure to the content for like 10 years #the transmisandry discourse on this site melts my brain it's awful it's just online stuff being argued about more online stuff #this is not the same as me saying i will never be treated badly for being transmasc i am not stupid i know that happens #and i am fully committed to fighting the patriachy which has nothing whatsoever to do with my individual manhood or anyone else's #it's a system and yes gender and how we fit into the patriachy is made extremely complicated in trans circles and that's ok! #i promise it is you don't have to design a new system that cis women and trans women are using to do oppression on specifically trans mascs #we're all being fucked over by the patriachy and how the fuck does it help to be divided #but in reality let's face it i can say this all i want but the real reason i'm never going anywhere near being a transmisandry person #is because i was exposing myself to MRA-lite content at a formative age and harming myself in the process #even if i didn't know i was a trans man guess what it would have harmed me just as much if i did have that awareness #and honestly when i see transmisandry discourse all i see is that fucking triggering stuff again #all it does is nitpick whether patriachy is real with tiny examples it doesn't talk systemicly and it doesn't help men in the slightest #it pays lipservice to marginised men but it has no interest in talking about the fact that men are usually simultaenously #oppressed and oppressor at the same time- this is not accusatory it is just factual #it's true of the queer community too and basically every community #but we can't seem to talk about it without just harming each other and blaming and not seeing each other as human #the internet makes it all so much fucking worse this stuff can't exist without it #anyway i'm super rambling but these are genuinely very triggering topics for me i have unfollowed people i LOVE becuase of this #and i still love them! unfollowing on a social media isn't a referendum on that i just can't see that stuff and i need it gone from my dash

[littlecafe]

everyone, take care of yourselves, protect your energy 

if you are tired, take breaks whenever possible, while the world does not stop, i truly believe what is important to you will always wait for you so take your time and be gentle with yourself because you are precious and you are human

#everyone deals with sadness in different ways but remember your emotions are valid #i know many of us use social media as a distraction but if it's becoming overwhelming please take a break from it #or stay out of circles that are draining you #speak to your loved ones take care of one another and don't be afraid to ask for help #the feeling i had when i first read the news....i feel like i still can't process it fully #may he rest in peace #i don't think i will reblog or talk about this anymore for a few days at least i need some time

[heyitsphoenixx]

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#personal vent incoming to just get off my chest don't be weird about it #i've known since i was a kid that my dad was overtly abusive but #just in the last 3-5 months i've learned my mom was and currently is almost just as abusive #but she's just covert about it instead #all of my adolescence was about surviving my dad who was so obviously a monster that he was almost easier to deal w in a way by comparison #this is. what an utter mind fuck #there's also like. no member of my family that i can turn to for help #bc they're either just as bad or my mother has ruined any relationship i might have w them over time #and i also fear being a burden #so i'm making a plan to get out but god it's overwhelming thinking about doing it all alone #and the thought that it might take years to actually get out or get healthy #she's kept me isolated from any support for so long #and im afraid any family that could possibly help wouldn't fully understand or they would be just as bad as her #and it feels impossible to progress at all bc im living w her and literally filed as her dependent on taxes #like ik this is gonna be the hardest thing to escape in my life and i've already escaped a lot #but this time i have to largely on my own #is v scary #and she's conditioned me to believe that i can't make any right decisions on my own without her #and that anything i do is always 'backwards' #makes it that much harder to make a clear plan #her work schedule is so inconsistent that it makes getting therapy online (since i don't have a license or car yet) nearly impossible #to do it without her or my brother listening #that i've just felt trapped for years #but. i can Tell i'm getting better now and rapidly. more than i've been for a v long time #so the process is just beginning and i think even she can tell #which is also dangerous #but ik i can do this its just the amount of time and effort and organizing behind her back and doing it alone thats v overwhelming #but anyway #we stay silly

[confinesofmy]

btw you know that post that's like romanticisation is the key to happiness? or whatever? if you struggle with executing that for yourself you can go on tiktok and look up whatever you're going through and find endless videos of other people dressing it up and making it look #aesthetic and it's amazing how much it'll make you feel better.

#i looked up how to wash clothes by hand today and didn't actually learn any new strats but it did make me feel so much more like a person #thank you young black american woman living in a suburban home washing clothes in a sterilite tote in her bathtub #thank you mexican woman washing clothes on a rooftop with a bucket a washboard and some zote #thank you disabled woman living in an apartment who can't drive herself to the laundromat or rely on others all the time #and a big fuck you to big laundry for making it seem like $500 isn't a large investment in a machine that automates this process #that isn't even that hard to begin with #i hope to return to fully automated washing soon but there's nothing wrong with washing clothes the way millions of people do every day #adam talks too much

[revengesworn]

baji ideas brainstorming LET'S GO (under the cut, mostly talk of potential flaws but other stuff too!)

okay so first. i'm a filthy mikey lover through and through so of course my immediate thoughts are about his relationship with mikey... but also i'm focusing on this first because i find it very hard to believe that seeing mikey mutilate his friend as a kid WOULDN'T fuck with him in some kind of way, lol. whoops.

so like. unlike everyone else in toman (minus sanzu), i think baji is aware of mikey's dark impulses on some level. he's aware it's something that he like... seemingly can't control, that seemingly "takes over" him, but i think it'd be interesting if he wasn't fully aware of just how pervasive it is, even as mikey gets older?? like in his mind, it's something that came on briefly and suddenly and then mostly went away, only really re-appearing at times when mikey gets extremely angry or hurt by trauma... but in reality it's something mikey always struggles with, even when he's acting "normal." and there's a part of mikey that wants to give into it too, that "desires" to hurt other people sometimes, and i don't think mikey's confided in baji about that at all.

but still. as a result, baji takes a lot of responsibility on himself to protect his friends, including from their own darker natures, and i think he sees it as his fault when he can't stop them from doing the wrong thing. this got worse after what happened w/ kazutora - he blames himself rather than kazutora about what happened with shinichiro, specifically. it's a strength of his that he's a non-judgemental person (at least when it comes to those he likes, i don't think he applies this mindset to ALL people, haha) - but a flaw that he sees HIMSELF as responsible instead. theoretically, it's at least a flaw that should only hurt him rather than those around him, or so he thinks to himself - but that's not always how it works out in practice...

because people like mikey and kazutora see him blaming himself, and they then blame THEMselves for him having to take on that burden. on top off that, i'm experimenting with the idea that baji... doesn't really fully trust his friends?? but it's on an ENTIRELY subconscious level. like he sees them as better than him, sees all their strengths for what they are and values them greatly, but... while his primary motivation in taking everything on himself is to protect them from hurting too, there could be a part of him that remembers what mikey did to baji, what kazutora did to shinichiro - and expects things to go wrong if he relies on them fully/opens up about his true goals and plans (like in the valhalla arc.)

if this was the case, i'd think it'd be in part a result of him not acknowledging his own feelings to himself fully. he knows what happened with kazutora and mikey isn't their fault - but as result, he doesn't acknowledge how what happened with them still hurt him, that a part of him is still afraid and maybe even angry about what happened. because of that, those feelings manifest in his subconscious and aren't fully processed, resulting in his need to keep everything to himself being strengthened.

...or not. tbh it's been so long since i read the manga that i have no clue if any of this works or if it contradicts what we see of baji, otl... it's just ideas i'm interested in thinking about further, mostly?? but still! since most of this is on a conscious level, i also do wonder about what he told himself his reasons were for not like... telling kazutora and mikey what his actual goals were in the valhalla arc. i do think a lot of it was about protecting them, and knowing how much they were hurting (which is a good thing!!), but... when baji told mikey he didn't approve of kisaki, and mikey shut him down, he didn't like. try and push it any further or appeal to him as a friend. instead he became convinced that he had to take down kisaki on his own, and that interests me a lot. i don't know where to go with it though, yet.

unrelated to flaws, but i really do like how much baji cares for his friends and doesn't judge them for their darker sides and flaws in general. it's something i really admire about him, tbh. i uh.......... had more ideas and stuff i wanted to talk about but i've gone braindead...... so i'll do a part 2 later lol. but that aside. DOES ANYONE WANNA LET ME KNOW WHAT PARTS OF THIS YOU VIBE/DON'T VIBE WITH and what feels close to canon/like it could be accurate, and alternatively, what feels like it's missing the point/ignoring baji's character in canon?? i wouldn't be surprised if i'm doing some of that, because again, it's been a long time since i read the manga! so i won't be upset if you point it out, haha :P

#ooc #headcanons. #or more like. ideas that i might adopt as headcanons; but haven't decided yet. lol #as for why even kid!baji didn't blame; say; mikey for hurting sanzu; etc.............. and why he doesn't blame his friends in general - #it's clearly cause he's best boy FNSKDJFHNSDKFJ okay but seriously it's also like. #i think because he's seen their good sides; how much they care; etc. and as a result; he feels they can't be bad people at heart. #and recognizes there must be a reason why they did what they did; even if it's something he can't understand. #it would be interesting if part of his ''lack of trust'' was because he doesn't fully understand HOW hard it is for them #to fight off their darker sides; etc... almost subconsciously seeing them not as ''bad'' but as ''weak''... but i might scrap that concept. #i think it's mostly about him not acknowledging the ways he's been hurt; too; or processing his feelings in general. #also am i being too unfair to kazutora or mikey here........... i hope i'm not... #tbh i don't blame them at all for what they did even when i maybe should; but i do want to acknowledge how they hurt baji as well; even #without intending too... #THIS POST IS TOO LONG ANYWAY I'M PRESSING POST. RIGHT NOW

[bitchthefuck1]

I feel like everybody has at least one highly specific AU that just rotates in their brain 24/7 like a rotisserie chicken

#please tell me this is not a singular experience lol #funnily enough mine isnt actually for six of crows #its a shades of london au that I thought of randomly like six months ago that hasn't let me go where rory never goes to the boy's dorms on #the night of one of the murders and therefore never sees newman and never goes to the cops as a witness #so she never meets the shades #she still gets stabbed and survives but either Newman isnt terminated or its done after he leaves and she doesn't know about it so shes #left being able to see ghosts and knowing one tried to kill her and might still be out there but with nothing to do about it #anyway she drops out of school but stays living in london splitting an apartment with jazza and works as a barista and ends up running into #the shades after she gets pulled into other ghost shit but its like 3-4 years after the events of the books and she's just spent that time #basically completely unable to process what happened to her because she can see people no one else can and got stabbed by one of them #and she knows that she can't tell anyone or they'll think she's lost it and even though she knows the people are at least real enough #to stab her (and she can't do anything to stop them if they try to hurt her) she also can't fully dismiss the idea that she's hallucinating #idk it's just really compelling to me. #also she has a doberman pinscher as an emotional support dog. idk why that detail is so important to me but it is #aurora deveaux #rory deveaux #stephen dene #callum mitchell #boo chodhari #bhuvana chodhari