#like i'm literally crying what the fuck

[introspectivememories]

#AUUUGH WAILING SCREAMING CRYING SLIDING DOWN THE WALL SOBBING #BROCEDES PLEASE WHY COULDN'T YOU TWO HAVE BEEN NON-FAMOUS #WHY DID YOU DRAG ALL OF US INTO YOUR SITUATIONSHIP #my mom is sick of me wailing about them. nearly collapsed at work when i remembered 'yes... and team-mate' #sliver springs is going platinum in my house rn #how can you be childhood friends and just fall apart like that? i think about falling out with tas like that and i go nearly catatonic #yeah you're a 7x wdc winner and you got the one wdc that you wanted but was it worth it? was this loss worth it? would you do it again? #going by the interviews they probably would and that's why they fell out in the first place. i literally cannot imagine caring about some #trophy over my childhood best friend but like i guess that's why they're pro level athletes and i'm in my room posting about them #anyway what the fuck was up during f1 photographers during their fallout? why is every photo of them cinematic? did you know we'd be using #them? did you know we'd go crazy? or were you also like 'oh this is cinema in the making. i gotta capture this.'? #anyway for all of that want to know where the quote is from‚ it's jacob black from twilight when bella is getting turned into a vamp #stephanie meyer had one (1) banger line and it was this #brocedes #brocedes edit #f1 edit #f1 web weaving #nico rosberg #lewis hamilton #nr6 #lh44 #formula 1 #web weaving #please ignore my absolutely atrocious photo editing skills. thank you imgflip!!

[covenofthearticulate]

Got a very special Vampire Wall Update for y'all!! I'm so excited to have @killer-laurent's brilliant art, based on my fic Out, Damned Spot

My heart is so full of love for all my fandom friends that made this happen— my fellow Louis stan @wicked-felina, who commissioned Laurent, and my love @monstersinthecosmos who gifted me this super shiny metal print that literally pops off the wall.

I feel so honored to have 3 different fan arts from 3 incredible artists on my wall, but this one especially makes me happy dance every time I look at it because I've never had anything made based on my writing so it just feels like such an act of love from all of my favorite people.

ahjsdgbksdahcf okay that's enough sap for now but anyway happy new year and thank you so so so so much to Kacy for this glorious addition to my Vampire Wall :)

#it's literally shinier than my fucking glass-paned portraits LOL do you have any idea how hard it was to get these pics #the gold is just so so gorgeous in person and ties in so well with the gold iwtv movie art #actually back to being a sap for one more minute: i was just thinking about how around this time last year #was when i first moved into this place #and before unpacking any of my boxes the first thing i did was hung up my art #and during a meeting with our bipoc affinity space (which is just a chill space at work) one of the ice breaker questions was like #what makes you feel safe? #and i lowkey teared up because i was like. curating my environment is what makes me safe like no matter where i am in the world #if i can look up and be reminded of the things that i love i don't feel so overwhelmed #having a wall with my favorite things gifted from my favorite people is so so so special i cannot overstate that enough #anyway i'm out here crying in the club thank you and goodnight #fan art #killer-laurent #fave #absolute fave

[incorrect-ikevamp-quotes]

I hope MC knows how iconic she is in this event for being like "No I want him to be a little bit fucked up actually" in Comte's story because GIRL SAME. S A M E

#ikevamp #ikemen vampire #ikevamp comte #ikevamp saint germain #ikevamp mc #the way i deadass resurrect every time comte walks into the room #laughing crying yelling #i just can't stop wheezing at the latest collection story #im here like yes. YES GIVE ME THE MANS OF MY DREAMS #and the game is like 'literally why are you like this. actual freak.' #comte i SWEAR to god #'are you looking for someone more...StImUlAtInG' #oh fk this im gonna jump him #every single event story im like 'that come hither look won't work on me. i'm stronger than this. endure.' #comte: **come hither look** #me: FUCK #literally what is it about this man that just makes me invariably act up #im so like 'MAKES NO DAMN S E N S E. compels me tho.' #ive had a sudden insurgency of spoons because of hozier's NFWMB #literally can't unsee the association now #hozier walked so that comte could run no i wont take constructive criticism #dont even get me started on his 6th year anniversary stories because literally this man #THIS M A N #wildly oscillates between 'actually????? the most adorable romantic?????' #and 'If My Wife Doesn't Want Me Carnally Every Five Hours I'm Going To Scream' #and apparently that's my type (so sorry everyone im the bearer of the curse)

[tbcanary]

one thing that did stand out to me while i was going back through cry for blood is how often we don't get to see helena's face.

it's a little thing, but there are so many panels -- especially when she's just received news of something, or is in emotional turmoil -- where she hides herself. she turns away, she bows her head. it's interesting, particularly because comics do so often show us those big dramatic facial expressions. but helena curls inward when upset. i think about these two panels a lot:

there's a note from stephanie hans in the backmatter of an issue of die that i think of -- about how in comics, how much space something takes up indicates how important it is -- and yet, somehow, whenever some new information comes up, helena makes herself small, minimizes her own emotional displays.

now, given, she does hold herself in a very particular way as a default state. head tilted down, no eye contact, etc:

but that's exaggerated when she's upset. often, she even takes the pose of a prayer. like the specific thing i'm referring to is either sitting with her head bent toward her clasped hands as if she's praying, or turned away toward a window or mirror that frames her like an altar. like so:

there is, in fact, an entire page where we don't see her face. while she's recuperating after all of the drama of the first half of the arc, she won't look anyone in the eye at all. instead, the framing moves around her and shows her, bent forward and hidden, from different angles:

i just think it's a nice little touch. a good display of who she is and how she responds to troubling situations, which makes perfect sense given what we learn about her during this arc. like, you know, if you're always at least somewhat at someone else's mercy -- be it batman, the other families, the people training her -- you'll want to minimize the outbursts and hide vulnerabilities, and she has a specific way of doing that. it often resembles prayer, because of course it does. she doesn't compare herself to a nun for nothing.

also, for a fun (?) bonus. this doesn't happen as often in the huntress costume… unless she's confronted with family. and then it creeps right back in:

anyway. helena bertinelli i care you.

#helena bertinelli #huntress #batfam #birds of prey #dc #cry for blood #metaposting #text.tb #this one got away from me but it's because there are literally upwards of fifteen panels where helena takes these EXACT POSES #GIRL. LOOK UP !!! #dc comics #i'm not a religious person so doing any more than the bare basic amount of 'huh! helena girl what are you doing!' is beyond me #but it's just like. yknow. she prays. in the hard times she enters into the comfortable position of prayer and that is a nice touch. #it's not something other characters do often. esp women bc they're supposed to be fully on display #hence why thEY NEVER WEAR FUCKING MASKS #conversation for another time #helena helena i'm obsessed with youuuuu #also compare this to how she is around tim #she looks confident she has her hands on her hips she smirks and smiles and jokes #she trusts him so completely. agh. siblings.

[coccinelle-et-chaton]

what if the part that is ineffable about the Ineffable Plan is that God was messing with the angels and demons all this time and the real answer to the quiz was 'stop fighting and smooch each other'.

#i mean that sounds like a thing she would do #and it's ineffable because both angels and demons are so fucking thick in the head that they'd NEVER think of that #and it literally takes god's two silliest gooses for everyone to realize #like gabriel and beelzebub wouldn't end up together if it weren't for crowley and aziraphale #i'm crying what if this is the ineffable part. god really bet all her chips on the two most incompetent metaphysical creatures. afjkgladfgj #good omens #good omens 2 #good omens theory #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #aziraphale #crowley #good omens predictions

[imminent-danger-came]

Lady Bone Demon: "I sent you a task—you were to retrieve the Monkie King and his protege, yet you refused the path of destiny and so there will be pain."

(3x08 Benched)

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Lady Bone Demon: “Know this, monkey, you and I are not so different. We both fight for what we think is right—that pursuit only leads to one thing." MK: "Hmmhm. To destiny, right?" Lady Bone Demon: "No. To pain."  

(3x14 Destiny Fulfilled)

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#screaming crying throwing up #She's literally iconic #lmk #lego monkie kid #lmk LBD #to pain #lmk parallels #Okay so #Like #After Macaque mentions the Samadhi fire. LBD goes from saying 'I will erase the very memory of you' to 'I will leave nothing left of you' #Like. THIS is the moment where her plans change #Going from using MK (with his memory boy status) and Wukong as a power source to using the Samadhi fire #This is my conspiracy and I am sticking TO IT #I AM #Like. LBD knew what MK was is all I'm saying okay #Like she did I fucking swear #And she was like. ''Oh he got fucking wiped? Hell yeah I can use him.''

[tenitchyfingers]

ok i found this on the beatles subreddit and i really hate men atm (because you know this is straight white men saying this shit)

BITCH MCLENNON HAS A LONG AND ANCIENT HISTORY AND MCLENNON SHIPPERS ARE THE WHOLE BACKBONE OF THE BEATLES' WORLDWIDE SUCCESS FUCK YOUUUU

#btw i'm a millennial and PROUD MCLENNON TRUTHER GO GET FUCKED YOU PUNY BITCHES #besides IT'S PAUL DOING THE ENTIRE HEAVY LIFTING LIKE WE'RE JUST PAYING ATTENTION #like he literally said they slept together #that he dreams of John like all the time #he says corny and extremely romantic shit about John all the time #if you saw Get Back you know #like what else should happen for people to get off of us #it's not my fault that paul literally defined himself as John's ex wife and he had to cut all contacts with John because of Yoko #as if that's a 'just mates' thing #is it my fault that he keeps writing songs explicitly about john where he says 'i love you' #is it my fault that he spent 43 years constantly not getting over it #is it my fault that every time he performs Here Today he can't help but cry #is it my fault that he explicitly said he and John had such a deep understanding that they could communicate without speaking #LOOK AT HIM NOT US #the beatles #mclennon #and btw zoomers who are beatles fans are 100% welcome fuck you #the Beatles are for EVERYBODY

[mattodore]

lovesick

#hi 👋 i have a hospital appointment in two hours that i'm nervous about so here i am in my screenshots folder staring at mattodore #i really shouldn't be typing rn but i'm. a ball of nerves. like actually keep me in your thoughts... like please. jsfdhnkj #also i think i'm gonna start reblogging things untagged here for a little while........... bc like. #i really shouldn't be typing it fucks with my arms so bad..... i say as i'm typing #but ykwim like that's why i've just been avoiding tumblr lmao #um so if you for some reason care abt ppl not tagging reblogs of other people's sims content uh idk what to say bc i'm gonna do it anyway #so expect that from me until i (hopefully) get meds again #also............ i have not started editing theo's bday edit and it's literally tomorrow. Scream . #i finished the poses tho <3 but yeah... we laugh and cry #i want to say i'll just start editing after i get back from the hospital but. well. #it's okay tho bc if i'm late for theo's bday edit that's understandable bc of the Illness but also #matthias's bday edit was like a week late anyway so lmao #also no caption bc idk i can't think #wait nvm listen to this song #river dipping #ts4 #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #a burning house to live in #echthroi

[chiarrara]

HI I JUST LOOKED UP THE LYRICS TO THE HIDDEN INVENTORY OP FOR THE FIRST TIME PLEASE HELP IM WAILING

#I'M NOT OKAY #satosugu #stsg #hi/pd #hidden inventory arc #I was literally singing along like it was a fun little song #now I'm actually crying into the night #what the fuck #that's so painful #god

[beanghostprincess]

oda did not need to make sanji so relatable but here we are. and by "here we are" i mean i want to die.

#i'm sitting on the floor crying #like literally sobbing #what the fuck was that flashback #this is literally the worst night of my life #remembering all my trauma in one night #i can't do this anymore you guys i need a break!!! #one piece #sanji #whole cake island

[thedreadvampy]

The thing is I am definitely not happy or chill in the Immediate Sense lately but I am, big picture, so fucking happy with the person I am.

It's like. My brain was made by and for consistent trauma and since that trauma stopped about 5-7 years ago, it is incredible what the amount of resilience and cleverness and flexibility and thoughtfulness I developed to survive can do when it's not being all spent on surviving. like I had a hundred ton weight on me so I had to get REALLY STRONG to stay in the same place and not get 100% crushed, and when that weight came off I found I can use the strength it used to take to stand up and I can leap tall buildings in a single bound.

I was talking to my mum the other day and she said, "you've got the 'fuck it' energy at 30 that most women don't find until their fifties at least" and I'm like yeah man. Imagine how unstoppable I'll be in 20 years.

#red said #i don't know that i can express this clearly but it's the most encouraging thing in my life #my mum's always been proud of me but just lately she seems to actually really admire me #like she's genuinely impressed. she thinks I've surpassed her. i don't necessarily agree but it's a really nice quiet joy. #anyway like this sounds super up myself and it kind of is. #but also it's part of realising just how heavy the weight I've been carrying around with me for 25 years was #like not to be ridiculous but i have realised again this week. that it isn't that everyone's been raped that much and doesn't talk about it #i just have been raped an Unusually Consistent Amount. i have spoken to a lot of people who have had much more horrifying things happen. #I'm not sure I've talked to more than a couple of people who've had a similar level of total consistency of abuse from all angles #and the one is not heavier or harder to bear that the other. but. i think i spent most of my life listening to people's awful experiences #and going ok well nothing i went through looked that bad so it's microtrauma #obviously microtraumas build up but still. #then the older i get and the more i have these conversations the more I notice that stuff which to me is a microtrauma #is a lot of people's defining trauma. and they're reacting appropriately which means i am SO SEVERELY UNDERREACTING #told my friend the other day about a time someone who i still like and respect was having sex with me when i paralocated my hip #and then just kept getting really annoyed with me for not being ready to have sex again while i was literally crying with pain #until i caved and just tried to find the last painful position #and my friend was like pal what the fuck that's horrific #and i was like i mean no that's normal I've had sex with like maybe 3 or 4 people in my life who i haven't had similar stuff with #like i am genuinely thrown when i am allowed to say no to sex and have it be the end of the conversation. and not end up having sex #out of guilt or out of physical coercion or through physical rape. and i have had sex with probably like 40 people at this stage? #and I'm not sure it's as many as 4 i haven't had that experience with tbh #so like. I'm slowly coming to terms with the idea #that i may have actually been doing a hell of a lot of heavy lifting. #like i developed a sense of self that can survive being constantly crushed and at this stage is fucking diamond.

[karineverse]

#it hurts to much to think people can be even triggered by them... #oh ye forgot to say for who doesn't know: it's about Errorink #I'm so tired of shippers that sexualize Ink or make him extremely feminine JUST FOR ERROR'S PLEASURE #“gay ship” #Error could be into to girls. yep. but making Ink a sexy girl it's just a weird kink if you think that's the only way Error would love him. #and making Ink suffer like it's healthy that Error makes him suffer and that it's love... I'm concerned about y'all #it makes everyone hates the ship and it hurts me so bad #I'm not like them i just want to see them being a normal gay couple that really loves each other #it literally makes me want to cry. #what the fuck is wrong with them... #now I'm not even comfortable to talk about them as much as I wish #karine vents #vent art #kv art #errorink #the worse its that some of my mutuals also hate/don't like/are done with the ship (I'm not mad I'm just sad) #... it fucking hurts

[jotaroslooseeyebrowhair]

Girl help I’ve been staring at my (nonexistent) next chapter of my fanfic for over a week I don’t know how to write fluff

#please help i'm so confused #it’s literally just this one chapter that I’ve been struggling with #crying? pain? torture? hell yeha got that in the bag but how in the FUCK do you write a cuddle pile #he’s a dragon it’s practically wired into his biology but by god it isn’t wired in my brain #what if I write angst for someone and they write fluff for me 🥺 #danny phantom #dc x dp #dp au #eldrich horror #ghost king danny phantom #dragon #big dragon #like huge #he’s a big fucking guy #he mlem

[dazais-guardian-angel]

Y'all, I think I've figured it out. Operating on the assumption that the finale is indeed an alternate timeline from the manga, then someone could have written on a page of the Book to rewrite reality to lead to the events of the finale sometime during season 5's events. In other words, this would explain the INCONSISTENCIES with things that were established or at least heavily implied/assumed prior and in the manga: Chuuya being a real vampire and not in control, nothing being planned, Dazai giving sincere speeches, Dazai really being shot and saying his "last words", Fyodor's hand not being injured, soukoku not killing Fyodor while in Meursault because they literally couldn't and Dazai needing Sigma to discover Fyodor's secrets because of that, Fukuchi's goal not being one that relied on Fukuzawa being alive since he clearly intended to kill him, etc etc too many more to count

Events and explanations in the finale feeling so contradictory and out of place, and characters feeling so ooc and not acknowledging any discrepancies, makes perfect sense if you consider that, up until a certain point, this was our canon timeline — until someone rewrote the ending of the arc with the Book, starting with Fyodor injuring his hand...! We only have one example of the Book being used to majorly rewrite reality in the manga, and when that happened, the main players — the ADA members — were aware that reality was changed, even though they did have memories of the new rewritten reality. BUT, Nikolai was unaware of this during that scene, and so also were all law enforcement because of the clause written on the page accounting for that, so what if the same thing could happen in this instance, to prevent all our characters in the finale from being aware that things had changed? We literally saw someone writing Nikolai's dialogue for him; imagine someone doing that during Dazai's final speech in the episode, and during all the rest of it! I don't know who this would be, but possibly a mysterious third party who got a hold of a different page from the Book somewhere and wrote things to turn out this way, because they wanted the ADA to win against Fukuchi and Fyodor? Maybe even because... this is the only way they can win?

Remember Atsushi asserting this plan, and how silly and too simple it sounded? What if someone else ended up doing just that, writing their own simple outcome for the ADA to win (as a narrative of course, which is probably why it had to start with the major catalyst of, again, Fyodor injuring his hand)? Additionally, if that's what happened, maybe the ending of the finale is a sort of side effect to the Book being used improperly in this way, leading to a destabilization of the timeline or a mishmash of other timelines into the anime one, leading to the alternate Fukuchi and Akutagawa we see there?

#bungou stray dogs #meta #THIS MAKES SO MUCH FUCKING SENSE AND EXPLAINS SO MUCH I'M GOING TO SCREAM #i guess this is sort of a foregone conclusion that the Book is the result of this timeline #since we ALREADY KNOW the different timelines are a result of the Book s;dlkfkgfkdlsl #but it only just occurred to me of the Book being used like. MID-PLOT #THE FINALE REALLY IS JUST BAD FANFICTION LITERALLY LMAOOOOOOOO #A BONES EMPLOYEE GOT ISEKAI'D INTO THE BSD UNIVERSE AND REALLY FUCKING WANTED THAT HAPPY ENDING FOR S5 IN 24 MINUTES COME HELL OR HIGH WATE #AND GOT ONE OF THE PAGES AND JUST WROTE IT THEMSELVES!!!!!! 😂😂😂😭😭😭🤣🤣🤣 #they'd had enough of the people slandering their anime adaptation. they said oh we'll REALLY give you something to cry about #BUT THAT WOULD EXPLAIN WHY CHARACTERS FEEL OOC!! IF THEIR DIALOGUE WAS WRITTEN FOR THEM VIA THE BOOK!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHH #....what if it's Dazai. What if Dazai wrote this ending just like he wrote the Beast timeline. What then— #I guess Beast in and of itself is one massive example of things being rewritten and no one but the writer (Dazai) remembering/being aware #that they were ever different #so.......... it's not impossible despite what we saw with Sunday Tragedy #i'm telling you though i've connected the dots #if things go differently in the upcoming chapters #and we see that other Fukuchi and we find out about someone using the Book i'm going to LOSE MY MINDDDDDD

[kris-mage-fics]

So we have a mouse in our apartment, which scared the living daylights out of me! Not because I'm scared of mice, but I just assumed we'd never see one in here. (We are on the third floor, and we've lived here for close to 13 years and have never seen one.) The landlord is going to bring over some poison but I'd really rather not use it. I don't know, maybe that's dumb, but it's just a little guy trying to live it's life and not be cold. I really don't like killing critters. Of course if we want to catch it that means we have to get something ourselves. Which is a pain when you live quite a few km from any stores that sell live traps and don't have a car. I'll have to talk to my partner and see what if he's up for a trip to the store or not, but he's at work right now.

#at least now I know what the weird noise we've been hearing the last few days in the kitchen by the radiators is #and why Jade keeps staring at the radiator with great intensity #which is funny because she's a terrible hunter -- good thing she isn't a farm cat #she's caught all of two bugs in 12 years I really don't think she's going to get the mouse #I've literally never had to deal with a mouse where I lived so I'm at a bit of a loss here #like I know if I see a scorpion to just catch it in a jar and put it outside #but there aren't scorpions here #I know if we end up using the poison I'm going to cry because my heart is a stupid fucking marshmallow #I wish there was like a little mouse sign you could make that said “don't come in here or you will die” so it would just leave #or I could talk to it and tell it that #but alas I can't actually talk to animals

[bylertruther]

the crazy thing abt will and mike is that we mostly learn will is gay because other people tell us he is, but we learn that mike is gay (despite him telling us he's not, begging us to pls see tht he's not gay) because literally everything that he does is so fucking gay. because in him trying to not be gay he is just being so unbelievably extra fucking gay without realizing. like. el is literally his red herring idc i'll say it stone me if u must but the truth must be said !!!!

#why is he always so crazy to save and protect will and even just to figure out if he's okay #but if el is missing he's like damn... tht sucks... but stays his ass at home. calls on his radio but thts it. #he doesn't Go Insane and put himself n everyone he loves in danger jus to find her. he knows she's out there. he SAW her. and yet!! #and when he fucks up with her he needs someone (lucas and will) to hold his hand n guide him through it (which NEVER fucking works #bc they don't know her how mike SHOULD know her as her bf but i digress) but when he fucks up with will HE LITERALLY DOES EXACTLY WHAT #OTHER CHARACTERS ARE TELLING HIM HE NEEDS TO DO FOR EL (LUCAS) OR EXACTLY WHAT OTHER CHARACTERS ARE TELLING EL THAT HE'LL DO FOR HER (MAX) #EL IS LITERALLY CRYING BEGGING PLEADING SAYING YOU DON'T EVEN LOVE ME WHY CAN'T YOU SAY IT YOU THINK I'M A MONSTER #AND HE'S LIKE 😰🤐😶🫥 BUT WILL CONFESSES UNDER HER NAME AND THEN /PROMPTS HIM/ TO SAY WHATEVER HE NEEDED TO SAY #AND SUDDENLY /THATS/ WHEN HE CAN SAY I LOVE YOU?!!? FOR THE FIRST FUCKING TIME????? #AND THEN AFTERWARD WHEN THEY'RE NOT TALKING HE JUST BRUSHES IT OFF???????????? #YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT'S NOT A GAY MAN? YOU'RE TELLING ME THAT'S NOT A HOMOSEXUAL? #meanwhile will has always just been will. the Biggest hint we got was s4 him moving his foot away. but other than that it was always subtle #ppl calling him slurs. bc everything else they PURPOSELY made it so tht it could be either he's just Not There Yet or Could Be gay #but mike is just so. he's fucking gay bro how else can i say it like 😭 #mine #mike