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mythicalmyles · 4 months

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step brother Toby 🧍👀 (also i hope tomorrow gets better💗 )

After this ask im gonna have too much in my mind lmfaoo

Stepcest/dubcon/manipulation/tobys gross n toxic/bottom male reader

You huffed out, turning to look at the man that was now your brother. You hated the fact your dad had remarried but there was little you could do, he had made his mind up and moved her and her hell spawn into your home.

Toby stared a lot. Especially when you wire nothing but a towel after a hot shower, you tried to push back any thoughts that tried to weasel into your mind. You couldn’t deny his lifeless brown eyes would easily pin you in place, he always had a smirk on his face, like he knew something else no one else knew.

You were stuck alone with him, he sat on his bed, hair messy and unkempt. He’d likely ran his hands through his locks, deciding that was enough. He wore grey sweat pants decorated with stains that showed off his boxers, he was well defined which had initially surprised you. His glasses sat crooked on his nose, his dark bags hanging down his eyes as he stared at the screen infront of him. He had his shirt off, leaving his mouth watering chest on display. He was toxic as hell, always shouting obscenities down the mic. Even if he had done something stupid he’d still blow his top on those around him.

You were usually quick to make yourself scarce during the times he was gaming, instead you lay on your stomach and watched him lazily as anger seared over his features. “Yo-you fuh-fucking bitch!” He suddenly screamed out, throwing the control off the wall and nearly causing you to leap out of bed. It was too late once you’d realised your mistake.

Something evil took over Toby’s face when his eyes landed on you, his lips pulled into a snarl and a horrifying look in his eyes. You felt like a little fawn that had been dropped into the line of sight of a starved wolf. He moved to strike, jumping up just before your brain finally clicked. He was pissed and you must’ve looked like a target.

Fear flooded through you as you scrambled up, desperately praying for escape. Toby literally slammed the thoughts out of your head, sending you fly into the wall. You let out a cry as your body hit the wall, head slamming against the plaster and leaving your head spinning.

He had always scared you, he disappeared for days on end and always came back just that little bit extra terrifying. It was almost like every time he came back he left a little more humanity behind. You had tried so hard to stay out of his way despite sharing a room, you knew he was a ticking time bomb and yet you had stayed any way. You’d long given up on having your room look nice, he always tore it up anyway.

He grabbed your wrists, slamming them against the wall so hard you yelped. “T-Toby, ple-please.” The look on his face let you know just how big of a mistake you had made, he held your arms above your head with one hand while the other wrapped around your throat. His grip was tight and unforgiving, you were positive his nails would leave scars along your neck. You choked out a whimper, tears dripping from your eyes as he choked you to the point of blackout. He stopped just before you fell over the edge and into darkness, pulling away watching as you fell to your knees grasping your neck and choking.

Toby didn’t have any interest in you at first, intent on keeping the worst parts of himself until he was ready to leave. But when he caught sight of that dumb little look on your face it went straight to his cock, he knew you feared him and he relished in it. He was enraged from his game, the idiots in his team sucked. When he caught sight of you after his rage he felt something stir in him, the fear on your face, the way you bit down onto your lip eyeing him like you were about to bolt. He couldn’t have that.

That was how you’d ended up biting onto your sheets, Toby’s cock smashing deep inside of you. You felt your tears rush down your cheeks and soak into your sheets. “You like tha-a-that? Getting fuh-fucked by your big bro-brother?” Toby was insane, his words were lewd and disgusting. Yet your cock leaked between your legs, body shaking as he nailed into you. He left deep scratches in your hips, slamming you back onto his cock.

You couldn’t breathe, he loved the way you struggled underneath him. “S-stop To-toby-y.” You choked out one last time, he knew you didn’t mean it. He knew by the way your back arched, letting his cock slide deeper into you. Your choked moans filled the room along with the sound of him slamming into you, his cock abusing your prostate.

He ripped himself out and flipped you over, baring down at you with a shark toothed grin. He looked terrifying, drool dripping from his mouth as he stared down at you. The sight of his cock slamming into your tight hole was almost enough to spur him over the edge. “Ye-yeah that-thats it baby, ta-ah-take my cock.” He slammed your lips together, tongue forcing its way into your mouth and wasting no time in exploring. You whined into the kiss, feeling both of your saliva dripping down your face and neck.

“Do-dont wor-ry ill take go-good care of you, li-lit-little bro.” Toby’s words left you whining, hands grabbing desperately against his shoulders. You barely had a moment before an orgasm ripped through you, tearing you apart at the seams and leaving you clenching around Toby’s cock.

You clenched hard around him, sobbing and whining as you felt his cum flood your stomach. He flopped down onto you, his weight keeping you pinned down as he lazily ground into you. He ignored your overstimulated cries, content to keep his cock buried in your tight ass. “Suh-such a good b-boy.” Toby muttered, petting your hair as you came down from your high.

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lesbianpepsi · 9 months

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my love, my life

pairing: jenna ortega x autistic!fem!reader

summary: Jenna was the rock you never knew you needed in your life

link to request

words: 4.007k (im sorry)

warnings: verbally abusive parents, ableism, ableist remarks, r parents are dicks, r has a meltdown, swearing, bad writing

authors note: if i got anything wrong please correct me in a respectful and kind way please, other than that i hope you enjoy this:)

You were the one who begged your parents to allow you to start acting at such a young age, being utterly fixated on the world of acting after seeing Spider-Man for the first time.

In the beginning your parents didn't like the idea of you becoming a child actor, especially after what they heard from a myriad of news sources of how troubled child actors became when they reached their teens.

But after a lot of pleading they reluctantly allowed you to audition for anything that came up.

You were the young age of six when you got your first real role, it was for a random soup company commercial, it was nothing major but it was something.

Acting brought you a large sense of comfort, already knowing what was going to happen as you memorised your lines in a blink of an eye.

You always had a struggle with portraying emotions but eventually you got the hang of it and became much better.

At eight years old you got your first big break; the role of a little sister's killer. The role of Jill Roberts' little sister in Scream Four.

You blew up.

At first you weren't a fan of all the attention and even got quite upset over it, the large change of attention by strangers on the street scaring you.

Your parents on the other hand were absolutely thrilled and began auditioning you for many other movies and tv shows.

You weren't properly diagnosed with autism till the age of fourteen; long after you had become a child actor. You were shocked but found comfort in that information, it was as if you finally found out the answer to longing question.

Your parents on the other hand did not believe the doctors when they diagnosed you with autism, refusing to believe the fact and that you were just simply dramatic.

As your fame grew, your stress and anxiety only did too. It got to the point where you could barely get through an interview before going completely non-verbal for a few days.

Your parents called you dramatic since you could act in front of cameras but couldn't answer simple questions in front of a few people with flashing cameras.

You defended yourself that it wasn't the same, it never was. You didn't know what was going to happen in those interviews, while you knew everything when acting.

As the years passed you became even quieter and couldn't attend almost any interview or premier. You stopped auditioning for movies and shows when you were sixteen, deciding to take a two year break of acting.

Your parents were enraged by that fact and barely interacted with you, leaving you alone in one small house as they bought another large one for themselves with your money.

You didn't care, as long as you were alone you were happy.

A few days after your eighteenth birthday you received a call, asking if you were willing to come back to play an old role.

Maxine "Max" Roberts, the younger sister of Jill Roberts.

In the beginning you were reluctant but after a few days of thinking you accepted the role.

Without a doubt, that was the best decision of your entire life, career wise aside.

In the set of Scream Five you reconnected with old friends such as Neve Campbell, Courtney Cox and even David Arquette officially as grown adult and no longer a child.

You also managed to make long life friends such as Mikey Madison, Mason Gooding, Dylan Minnette, Jack Quaid and you even meet your favourite youtuber James A. Janisse who made a small cameo in the movie.

But the person you met on the Scream Five set that changed your life was the actress who played Tara Carpenter; the first Scream character to survive an opening kill.

Jenna Ortega.

You and Jenna instantly connected, a feeling you had never felt in your entire lifetime. Jenna understood you better than your own parents, even treating you better than them.

Before Scream Five was even wrapped you and Jenna began dating; both of you absolutely head over heels for each other.

Jenna helped you tremendously throughout the process after Scream Five was released, helping you in interviews if you got nervous and felt your throat tightening up. Helping you in any premier by always holding your hand if you wanted to squeeze hers if you got too angsty.

She did so much more than your parents ever did. It wasn't a wonder why you hadn't had a proper conversation with them since you were sixteen.

You were fine with that fact; you didn't need them anymore. You had Jenna.

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"So, I was thinking of some mac 'n cheese for dinner?" Jenna suggested once the credits of 'The Amazing Spider-Man' began playing throughout yours and Jenna's small living room.

You grinned happily at her as you tapped your finger along with the music that played with the credits. "Well if you're offering of course."

Jenna scrunched her nose adorably as she smiled at you, leaning closer to give you a quick peck on the forehead as she stood up. "I'm presuming you watch the end credit scene?" She asked you as she leaned against the doorway of the kitchen.

You nodded your head as your eyes remained fixated on the screen. "You presume correctly, my love."

"As always, my life." Jenna replied, finishing off your nickname with a small laugh as she entered the kitchen.

It was a silly joke that started when Jenna found out your all time favourite band was Abba. She had made it her life goal to memorise each of your favourite songs; one of those songs being 'My love, My life'.

You smiled to yourself as you unconsciously played with the bottom of the graphic Spiderman shirt Jenna gave you for your birthday months ago. The material of the shirt was your favourite and didn't irritate you like many other fabrics did.

After a few minutes passed the end credit scene began playing as the smell of mac 'n cheese started to infiltrate your nose, your smile softened.

Mumbling the lines along with the characters you were interrupted when three knocks were at the door.

You ignored the fact it was an awkward number as you headed towards the door, confused as to who it could be.

Maybe it was one of Jenna's siblings you guessed, but as you unlocked the door your jaw dropped as you saw who was standing behind the door with crooked smiles.

"Mother? Father?" You asked bewildered as you stared at them with wide eyes, you hadn't seen them in years.

Your mother smiled sweetly, the corners of her eyes crinkling as she took a step closer to you with open arms, to which you took a step back at.

"Y/n, honey, it's been so long." Your mother cooed as she lowered her arms, a small look of hurt in her eyes at your rejection at touch.

"Four years. It's been four years." You confirm with a deadpan look as you looked at them, they still looked pretty much the same since you last saw them. "Why're you two here?" You asked them rather bluntly, your eyes narrowing questioningly on your father who didn't have the sweet smile your mother had on her face.

"Is it so wrong for parents to come visit their only daughter? We've missed you so much after all these years." She said as she wrapped an arm around your fathers bicep, leaning into him. Your fathers jaw clenched momentarily as he nodded his head stiffly. "We've missed you so much, rabbit." Your father mumbled out in a gruff tone of voice.

A smile grazed your lips at the nickname your father used to call you when growing up, there was no backstory to it, it was a simple name he had called you for years.

At the nostalgic name you couldn't help to lower your guard as you gave them a genuine smile, to which your parents actually smiled back at you.

"Y/n?" Jenna's voice broke you off your trance as you snapped your head to the side, Jenna rounding the corner with her hair now in a messy bun.

Before you could get a word out you heard your mother gasp as she freed your father from her grip, a look of admiration in her eyes as she looked at your girlfriend.

"And you're our Y/n's girlfriend, we've heard so much about you. It's nice to finally meet you." She interrupted, extending her hand out to shake Jenna's.

Jenna glanced at you with a questioning look, you shrugged your shoulders weakly at her look. She sighed as her movie star smile appeared on her face, turning back to face your mother.

"Likewise." She says as she connects her hand with your mothers.

As your mother chatted Jenna's ears off you turned your attention back to your father who was still standing awkwardly in the doorway.

Your father must've felt eyes on him as he slowly flickered his eyes away from your mothers figure to your eyes, his eyes still as cold as you remembered.

He coughed dryly as he took a singular step towards you, a tight lipped smile on her face as he looked down at you.

"It's nice to see you again, peanut." He whispered to you, your heart melted at his words. Has your father actually changed? It sure sounded like it.

"It's nice to see you too, father." You replied back with a whisper, a small smile toyed on your lips. He grinned as he nodded curtly at you before he focused back on your mother.

"Is it alright if we stayed for dinner? It's just we haven't seen our Y/n in such a long time." You heard your mother plead to Jenna, her voice bordering into desperation.

Jenna's beautiful brown eyes flickered over to you, silently asking you if you were okay with you, you nodded your head.

She let out a small breath as she nodded her own head, returning to meet your mothers eyes.

"Of course, I hope you don't mind mac 'n cheese." Jenna joked as she took a few steps back, your mother following hot on her trail.

You and your father follow them as you close the front door. Your father turned to look at you as he walked over to the dining table. "You're still obsessed with that?" He asked with what sounded like curiosity to you, meanwhile Jenna's head had snapped back to where you and your father stood at his tone of words which did not sound like it was full of curiosity.

You nodded your head oblivious as you pulled out a chair for him. "Yes I do, it's been my comfort meal for years. I'm surprised you even remembered that."

He scoffed as he glanced back at you, sitting down in the seat. "I wish I didn't." He grumbled under his breath, thankfully you didn't hear his words as you headed over to the kitchen where your mother and Jenna were at.

Jenna was slowly stirring the pot full of mac 'n cheese as your mother chatted her ear off, a look of fake interest on Jenna's face.

"Do you need help with anything, Jen?" You asked her, interrupting your mother as you moved to stand next to her. She smiled softly at you as she nodded her head. "Could you get the cutlery and bowls out for me please?" You nodded your head as you immediately went to do what she asked for.

Thankfully, your mother left the kitchen as she went to sit down next to your father, whispering to him as their eyes glanced over the apartment.

You grabbed four bowls off of the top shelf with ease as you heard Jenna's hushed voice.

"Hey," She began, you turned to look at her as you neatly placed the bowls on the counter. "you sure you're okay with them being here?" She finished off in a whisper as she gazed into your eyes.

You nodded your head as you glanced back at your parents whispering to each other, smiling before you turned to look back at your girlfriend.

"I'm okay with them being here, really unexpected which annoys me but I haven't seen them in so long." Your tone became even more hushed as you leaned closer to Jenna. "Dad even remembered my nickname and the food I like, that must mean something, right?"

Jenna sighed as she nodded her head weakly, smiling as weakly as she placed a comforting hand on top of yours. "Okay, if you want them here then they can stay. But the moment you feel like you don't want them here just tell me okay?"

You nod your head understanding. "Okay, I will, thank you." Jenna gave your hand a reassuring squeeze before she turned back to her pot of mac 'n cheese.

After a few minutes passed you, Jenna and your parents were seated at your dining table as you all ate your food.

You were sitting in your favourite seat as Jenna sat next to you, your father across from you as your mother sat across from Jenna.

You were eagerly eating your food with a smile on your face, a sense of warmth and comfort hitting you as you ate your food.

"This is really good, Jen, thank you." Jenna's smile managed to make you feel even more at peace.

"So, Y/n, you got any new movies or shows coming up?" Your mother asked you with intrigue as she slowly ate her food.

You shook your head as you took another spoonful. "No but I was in the latest Spider-Man movie. It was so cool! I thought I would never be given a chance to be in a Spider-Man movie but I was offered a small role. I even got to design my own Spider-Man character and how she was and -oh my god I even-"

"Lower your voice, Y/n." Your father snapped as he played with his food. "We're not in another room, we're right next to you."

You frowned as you stopped talking immediately, looking down at your half empty bowl embarrassed. "Sorry, father." You said in a voice that you made sure it was quieter than before.

"And what, baby?" Jenna asked with an encouraging smile on her face, her eyes focused on you and only you.

You picked up your head as you smiled sheepishly at her. "And I got to meet Daniel Kaluuya who's one of my favourite actors."

Your father sighed dramatically as he shook his head as he pushed his food around the bowl, he hadn't taken a singular bite of the food.

"How much longer do we have to stay here?" He whispered to your mother in a tone what he thought was low enough, but you and Jenna heard him clearly.

Your eyebrows furrowed together as you loosened your grip on your spoon. "Oh, do you have somewhere else to be?" You asked him sincerely.

He scoffed as he shook his head in disbelief. "Your attitude is still as horrible as I see."

What?

"I don't understand. I was asking you a question. How was that giving you attitude?" You asked him again, straightening your posture as you desperately searched for Jenna's hand from under the table.

She quickly interlocked your fingers together, her thumb expertly rubbing softly at your skin in an attempt to soothe you.

Your father dismissed you as he turned to look at his wife, a look of annoyance clear on his face. "Ask her. I'm not staying here much longer with that here." He demanded in a hushed whisper.

A deep frown slowly appeared on your face as you stared between your parents, an uneasy feeling started to grow in your stomach.

"What's he talking about, mother?" She sighed at your words, dropping her spoon into the bowl as she leaned against her hands.

"We need to ask a favour from you, honey." Your throat felt tighter as you swallowed dryly, your grip on Jenna's hand tightened.

"What favour?" You asked her, your eyes flickered back to your father who wasn't even looking at you. Your heart clenched uncomfortably in your chest at the sight.

"Well your father and I have been going through some things lately, and it hasn't been fun. It's been especially hard on your dad." The older woman sighed as she closed her eyes momentarily before she reopened them, her eyes teary as she looked into your eyes. "As your parents, we only ask you one favour, Y/n. We raised you and no parent wants to come grovelling to their own flesh and blood for help."

You stayed silent as you listened to her words, your anxiety was starting to increase at a speed that you hadn't felt in years.

"We need to borrow some money." She finally confessed with a pleading gleam in her eyes. "It's the only thing we've ever asked of you, my sweet child. Please, for your mom and dad."

You should've known they hadn't changed, you should've known.

As you stared into your parents eyes you swallowed dryly as you slowly opened your mouth.

"No." You whispered out.

"No?" He repeated in a mocking tone. "No? Are you serious? After all we've done for you?"

Your frown deepened as you averted his piercing gaze, looking down in your lap as you unconsciously started to rub your feet against each other.

"We could've given your spastic ass up for adoption but we didn't. And this is how you repay us? What a wonderful fucking daughter we have."

You shook your head weakly as your movement with your feet started to become more erratic.

"Get out of our house, right now." Jenna said coldly, trying to keep her temper under control as she didn't want to yell like your father was doing.

A sniffle was heard from your mother as she wiped the tears from her eyes with a tissue. "My own daughter is betraying her only parents." She mumbled to herself.

It was if your heart was in your throat, the feeling as if it was tightening making you shake your head more violently.

"You see what you're doing, you freak, making your own mother cry." Your father pushed as he stood up, banging his fist against the table loudly.

You flinched at the noise as you shut your eyes tightly, letting go of Jenna's hand as you wrapped your arms around yourself.

Jenna stood up as you let go of her hand, glaring heavily at your father. "I'm going to ask you again, leave our home and never return or I'll call the cops." She spat out slowly, her voice full of venom.

"You know what, Miss America, we'll do exactly that. Who would even want that as a child?" He laughed as if it was a joke as he held his wife's sobbing hand. "You're not my child, Y/n. Nobody would even want a reta-"

"Don't you fucking dare finish that sentence." Jenna interrupted the man's words, fury in her eyes as she rounded the table. "You should be ashamed of yourselves, you two are a joke. Get out of our house right now."

Your father scoffed as he helped pull up his wife from her chair, tightening his hand in hers.

You weren't looking at them as you kept shaking your head, your eyes shut tightly as you mumbled incoherent words to yourself. The tightening in your throat becoming unbearable.

You heard your father and Jenna argue lowly but you couldn't hear anything they said as your fathers previous words plagued your thoughts loudly.

A wave of unshed tears were piling up behind your shut eyes as you slid off the wooden chair to sit down against the wall, shaking uncontrollably as you shook your head violently.

Maybe he was right, maybe you were just an unloveable creature.

Behind closed eyes you could notice the room darken, with a shaky gasp you opened your eyes, a flood of tears escaping immediately.

Through the thick tears you could see Jenna crouched down a few feet in front of you, the room itself was darkened as the main light was switched off. The only light remaining in the room was the corner lamp.

"Y/n, can I hold you?" Jenna's disoriented voice asked you, you opened your mouth to say something but nothing came out.

Your fathers cruel words voiced themselves in your mind at your body's rejection of speaking. A sob racked through your body as you desperately nodded your head. Instantaneously the moment you nodded your head Jenna moved to wrap her arms around you, allowing you to lean all your weight into her.

Silent sobs erupted from your body as you clung to Jenna for dear life, hiding your face in the crook of her neck as your arms were wrapped around her tightly.

"It's okay, it's just you and me, nobody else." She cooed into your ear as she gently rocked you back and forth. You could feel one of her hands rubbing affectionately against your back as she shushed you.

You don't know how long you stayed like that for; In Jenna's protective hold as she rocked you back and forth as you sobbed.

Eventually as your breathing calmed down and your sobs dying down, Jenna slowed down her rocking but she kept rubbing at your back with her soft palm.

"You feel a bit better?" She whispered into the dark room, not wanting to startle you with a loud voice.

You nodded your head mutely as you sniffled, your face still hidden in the crook of her neck.

"You know what they said wasn't true, right?" Jenna softly asked as her hand soothed you. You didn't move as you struggled to swallow, knowing if you nodded your head you would be lying.

Weakly, you shrugged your shoulders at her words, your fathers words still plagued your mind.

"What they said was absolute nonsense, Y/n, you're none of the things they called you." She reassured you, her voice so soft that if someone was in the kitchen they wouldn't have heard her. "I promise you I'll never let anyone say anything like that to you again, because what they said was lies."

You nodded your head as Jenna rocked you carefully, your breathing calming down.

"I love you, Y/n, never forget that. I love everything about you, everything." Jenna whispered again as she pressed a feather light kiss to the top of your head. "I wouldn't want you any other way, you're perfect just the way you are, and I love you so much."

Once again you attempted to speak but nothing except a strangled gasp of air came out, you shut your eyes back immediately as embarrassment coursed through your veins.

"Hey, hey, take your time, you don't have to force yourself to talk, okay? Going non-verbal is perfectly okay." Jenna cooed instantly as she rubbed at your back with a stronger force, you relished in the feeling as you nodded your head.

"Do you want me to reheat your dinner so we can watch the second Amazing Spider-Man movie while we eat it?" Jenna offered you in a gentle voice, she had slowed down on the rocking as you calmed down.

Mutely, you nodded your head with more eagerness than before. Jenna smiled in relief as she nodded her own head.

"Okay, I'll go reheat it and you can put the movie on for us. How does that sound?" She said, you pulled away from her as you smiled weakly, nodding your head. Jenna's own smile grew as she nodded her head along with you.

You were still weren’t sure whether your fathers words were true or not, but one thing you were positive of was that Jenna was the best girlfriend.

Jenna will always be your rock as she will always be the love of your life.

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mydearsteven · 1 year

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Sick days

prompt: you got caught in a flu because of your lack of sleep, luckily your short tampered lovable husband is here to help you.

featuring: Diamond!Steven x Reader

your bed has been lonely without your lovely husband sleeping beside you, you knew that his work has been piled up alot lately but it still hurts. Especially after you got caught up in a flu for the past 2 days.

even though he was usually short tampered you still love him to death because he’s well, your husband. Pearl has been taking care of you ever since, though whenever she’s trying to insist you to tell your sickness to her diamond, you always try to keep her mouth shut from telling it to Steven.

you don’t want to interrupt his work and made him even more stressed than he already was, and decided if he wanted to know he would know it by himself. Pearl could only sighs at this but still obligated to it.

after a few hours of laying down on your shared bed, you were unable to sleep due to your freezing body. You have turned right and left and still can’t find yourself to be asleep. That is until you heard a voice from the door of your shared room.

“(n/n)? oh dear stars.” Steven was shocked to see your current state and immediately rushed to you and see if you’re alright.

“little star… why didn’t you tell me that you’re sick?” he pouts, his hands starts to find its way on your hair. You smile weakly at him. “i don’t want to worry you, you look like you were going to explode if i tell you.” you chuckled at your own remarks.

he’s still not very pleased by this and starts to call out his pearl. He got off from the bed once Pearl came in, his steps towards her was so full of rage that you start to worry.

“Pearl.. why didn’t you tell me about my WIFE’s getting caught by a heavy flu?” his voice as harsh as rocks, he’s very enraged by the lack of information about his wife’s condition.

Pearl only stutters trying to find an answer to her diamond’s question. “m-my diamond! you see.. w-well…” she trailed off her sentence, not knowing what to say. Steven was so fed up and was about to shatter her gem until you began coughing rapidly.

that stops Steven on his track, giving Pearl one last glance and start rushing towards your sleeping form. “love.. please don’t hurt Pearl. Its my request to not tell it to you, i don’t want to burden you..” you put your hand on his cheek and rubs it so that he calms down.

Steven sighs at you and put his hand on top of yours, staring at your shining eyes. He furrowed his brows and blushes from your affection towards him.

he turned his head to Pearl who was thanking to the stars for saving her life, Steven then asked her to come to where the two couple was. “Pearl, im sorry for assuming things. If it weren’t for you im pretty sure (name) would’ve been worse by now.”

Pearl was very relieved and starts to smile towards her diamond. “its quite alright, My Diamond.” Pearl did her little diamond salute and starts walking towards the exit of the room, leaving the two of you.

Steven turned his head towards you once more, he gave you a kiss on your forehead and that instantly made you feel a little better than before. You drift off to sleep, knowing that you’ll feel a lot better tomorrow because Steven is here.

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deathbxnny · 10 months

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well since we are requesting angst.. i will request one too >:]

aihoshino!teenreader dying in the same way as ai hoshino

so for more context; a fan/admirer comes to them one day, they bring them white lilies and then stab them in the stomach, as [insert character] goes to check up on them, they see the reader bleeding from the stomach and the fan holding a bloody knife throwing insults at them, despite being brutally stabbed, the reader still goes on a monologeu to explain themself to their admirer, the fan gets into panic after this and runs away, the reader had abdominal aortic tear so it would be impossible to save them without proper treatment, as their stomach bleeds, they tell [insert character] that they love and appreciate them (platonically) as they die in their arms, dying with a smile on their face

the characters are stelleron hunters, yeah im sorry (for blade especially)T-T

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A/N: What better way to come back from a small break, than with heart-wrenching angst? But in all seriousness, thank you for the great request Anon!

Content: Reader dies, teen reader, hurt/no comfort, angst, mentions of severe injury, mentions of blood, platonic relationships, just pain really

Reader has no set pronouns!

((Not fully proofread))

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》Kafka

Kafka wasn't home when it happened. She left you alone for a couple hours to run some errands and told you to never open the door to anyone. But you were still so young and naive, that you didn't think twice when opening the door anyways to the man, who told you he was an assistant of the Stellaron hunters.

Kafka should've known better, than to leave you alone and now that she held you bleeding out in her arms, she realised that it was useless to think about anymore anyways. You were about to die. Your breaths were shallow and no amount of pressure to your injury seemed to make it better. The medic team would take an eternity to arrive and by then it would be too late. It was hopeless and you both knew it.

And so you decided to comfort her, gently apologising for being so foolish and not listening to her. She tried to shush you, but it was a weak attempt, as tears of agony brimmed in her eyes. You continued to speak, words becoming softer and softer by the second, as your life ran out of your eyes. You smiled, thanking her for everything and telling her that you'll see her again in another life, before finally letting go. Your smile was etched eternally onto your face, as the silence was filled with Kafka's soft cries for you to come back.

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》Blade

Blade left the home out of anger. He was sick of you being a brat and not listening to his warnings, which made him overwhelmed and just leave for a moment to cool off. He never wants to get angry to the point of yelling or insulting you, as he did understand that you were just a kid, who hasn't experienced as much as he did. But with leaving you so enraged, he left you feeling guilty and lonely. So guilty and lonely, that you opened the door expecting it to be Blade, only to be stabbed brutally by a man you didn't know.

And Blade came home to you at the brink of death, an excited, weak smile gracing your lips like it always did when you saw him. You tried reaching out to him, wanting to at least apologise, but he was frozen at the door, his eyes wide in terror. He didn't know what to do, his mind for once empty at the sight of the kid he took care of for so long, just dying. But then he just fell to his knees and slowly engulfed you in his embrace. He couldn't say anything.

And it was alright, because you were glad to at least die in his arms now. You apologised to him, told him he was right, told him that you loved and appreciated him. You felt something warm drop onto your cheek and you noticed he was crying. He's never done that before. Him crying over you made you smile wider, happy to know that he did care for you even now. He finally eventually opened his mouth to speak, apologising for leaving you. But by then it was too late. Your eyes were empty.

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》Silver Wolf

Silver Wolf was in her room finishing up some work, when you told her that the doorbell rang. She indifferently told you to open it, not looking away from her screen, to which you obliged and left again. After a while, she noticed that it was too quiet. Pulling off her headphones, she sat there for a moment, before hearing you call her name weakly. Her body moved faster than her brain could process, as she practically ran downstairs to see you lying in a pool of your blood, clutching onto a lethal injury.

She immideatly scrambled to your side, couple screens opening up before her, as she tried typing and applying pressure onto your injury at the same time. If she could get a medic team to arrive, maybe there is still a chance to save you. But your bloodied hand stopped her, knowing it was too late. Tears welled up in her eyes as she just hugged you in defeat, the screens disappearing.

She pathetically listened to you gently comfort her, telling her that it was alright and that you were thankful for having her in your life. She didn't understand what you were thanking her for, especially when she couldn't even save you from dying like this. Hearing you take your last breath must've been the worst part to her. She hugged you for a moment longer, before slowly raising her head, seeing your cold smile and empty eyes. The silence was deafening, as she just dropped her head again and cried in shame.

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A/N: Alright, I hope this was okay and angsty enough! Thank you again for the request!<33

#honkai star rail #honkai star rail fanfic #honkai star rail x reader #honkai star rail x you #hsr x reader #hsr blade #hsr blade x reader #hsr kafka #hsr kafka x reader #hsr silver wolf #hsr silver wolf x reader #hsr

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infoglitch · 4 months

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A dear Pain in the ass sister

(so uh.. I like blackguard.. that's all)

Enjoy

To say Weiss' family was inherently fucked up... Would be a understatement. Constantly at each others throats and either arguing or in the case of their mother, drowning in wine to wash away the pain.

So you can imagine weiss' horror when she received news her twin sister was on a bullhead to beacon to... Catch up apparently.

Weiss, was not all to pleased to receive this info, infact she was quite the opposite. She was INFURIATED to beyond belief.

She was pacing in her teams dorm as she was basically wanting to rip out her own hair at this point because of the rising fury she held in her as one ruby rose looked at her confused as she was gaming.

Ruby: Weiss I fail to see how "evil" sister is going to ruin you.

Weiss: because you dolt, my sister is everything wrong with the world! She's loud, obnoxious, her mouth has spewed so much vulgarity that it would make my father look like a saint. She is TERRIBLE-

Suddenly a knock on the door was heard as Weiss grumbled before going up to the door only to scowl as she saw one jaune arc.

Weiss: arc. What stupid plan do you have to court me now.

Jaune: wait.. how are you- i just- hold on im confused i just saw you at the gate also.. when did you have time to change and wash your hair?

Weiss looked at him before going pale as she immediately grabbing him by his collar.

Weiss: arc I will give as much lien as you want just please tell me you were hallucinating!

Jaune: hold on I'm still confused-

Weiss: ARC, please just say you were hallucinating. Please don't tell me you saw-

???: AH THERE YOU ARE DEAR BITCH OF A SISTER!

Weiss felt her heart plummet into her stomach as she looked to her right and saw her. This woman was a near replica of Weiss down to her cheekbones. Everything except her black hair, her biker attire and her vivid magenta eyes.

Belamere "bleiss" noir givrése. Weiss Schnee's twin sister and the only daughter to bear their father's last name.

Weiss: bleiss.. good to see you too.. dear.. sister

Bleiss walked up to her sister as she bear hugged her which seemed to catch off surprise.

Bleiss: how long has it been since we seen each other? Days, months. I lost count after the man-whore decided to send me to vacuo.

Bleiss let go as Weiss looked at her as she was beaming with a smile on her face as Ruby appeared next to Weiss.

Ruby: i don't see how she's bad.. nor the fact she's apparently your evil twin.

Bleiss looked at Ruby curiously as she leaned in REAL close to observe every aspect.

Bleiss: hmm I wanna say your going for a goth aesthetic but the red pops out which I wanna say is intended but-

Ruby: well hello to you too I guess-

Bleiss: oh right shit apologies.

Bleiss stepped back and stuck out her hand as Ruby looked at her curiously.

Bleiss: i am belamere givrése but my enemies call me bleiss

Jaune: oh that's interesting.. what do your friends call you.

It went dead quiet as bleiss turned around and looked at jaune.

Bleiss: ok.. who the hell are you?

Jaune: im-

Weiss: -less of a pain than you that's who he is!

The twins glared at each other as bleiss narrowed her eyes at her "proper" reflection.

Bleiss: interrupting someone is rather rude dear sister, especially when their introducing themselves. I thought you knew this since father was so focused on making you his doll.

Weiss said nothing but her hand hovered over myrtenaster as she glared daggers at her counterpart.

Weiss: you... take.. that. Back.

Bleiss: oh struck a nerve did I dear sister?~ you always were easier to enrage than winter and bitchley.

Weiss growled at her as she took out myrtenaster as she thrusted her weapon towards her twin as bleiss caught it with her twin axes, Berta and Marta.

Bleiss: hmm seems your fuse is getting shorter by the day-

Suddenly Weiss and bleiss found themselves picked up as Ruby was hold up Weiss with jaune holding bleiss.

Jaune: l-lets calm down everyone!

Bleiss: hey- let me go jackass, no one is allowed to touch me!

Jaune: really sorry but I don't feel like watching a bloodbath, especially when this is the first time Weiss has gotten like THAT!

We see Weiss was basically foaming at the mouth as Ruby carried her into the dorm as bleiss felt jaune let go as she landed before pointing berta at his throat as jaune raised his hands.

Bleiss: ok. One. NO ONE. Gets involved in matters with my family, two. next time you touch me I am chopping off your hands and then you probably tiny DICK.

Jaune and bleiss stared at each other as jaune put his hands on berta as he spoke calmly and softly.

Jaune: look I think I get your frustration, but Weiss is my friend, you two may be family but family don't act like that. So pardon me for making sure my friend is ok.

Bleiss looked at him as something clicked in her head.

Bleiss: your an arc aren't you?

Jaune nodded.

Jaune: what's it to you?

Bleiss: nothing just... Makes sense an arc of all people would act like they know about family.

Bleiss put away her axes as she walked passed him.

Bleiss: I'll be around the campus to check in on my sister. Don't get in my way again, jaune.

Jaune looked at her slightly confused on why she knows his name but he shrugged it off as we end our story here....

For now.

#rwby #rwby blackguard #bleiss schnee #jaune arc #jaune x bleiss #blackguard #bleiss schnee x jaune arc

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fixfoxnox · 1 year

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Also let me scream into the creative writing Void

THE GHOST’S DEAD FIANCE???

Chef kisses, left no crumbs

I love how you are defying the past! GhostRoach and dead fiance! Roach rule by twisting it up making them establish and alive all while soap is like “i need to have them both carnally” FUCK YOUR PAST! GHOSTROACH

(Not a request btw) Although I also wanna read a dead fiance! Soap because I think that’ll be hilarious in a “how does that make you feel GhostSoap shipper with Past! GhostRoach hmmm? How you like them apples??” But like i need them to have a good communication and instead of roach being hurt that he cant have ghost its more of Roach helping Ghost to heal in a healthy way that makes them have a good relationship from the start and then them establishing a healthy relationship later too

I was also laughing so hard when Roach asked Ghost if he’s been telling everyone he died, bro was about to break off the wedding (I also love how u made them fiances here my roachghost heart healed a little) its giving “i can still hear his voice” “quit telling everybody I’m dead”

I do have a question though, is roach also military in this? Or is he retired or have a different job?

MONSTER AU

When your boyfriends are fast food ❤️

ASDSFHDKDLFL I AM in love with Monsterfucker, I will eat it up everytime especially if its love between different monsters?? Slurping that bitch up like its soup

Also i need to yell about the fact that Ghost is a Vamp-Demon hybrid here?!!! And that he scares people but then Roach meets him for the first time and he fully wants Ghost and Soap goes along with him💀💀💀 me too roach, me too, its giving, you should be more scared of the person holding the leash than the dog itself (im sorry I had to) like imagine living out your whole life and people are scared of u even tall behemoth of men, but then this small funky mousy haired guy just looks at you with so much lust?? Ghost I would fold ngl

STREAMER/CAMBOY

I know u haven’t written this yet but Im going to yell about this anyways because this has got to be my fav AU, i really just love streamer love stories despite the whole reborn not being canon that was still a hilarious take, Ghost would make so many “in my days” joke every time someone tries too hard in a game

And I absolutely am stealing this from real people’s experience; but what if Ghost is a faceless streamer and when he just started getting to know Roach, trying to flirt with him, he face reveals in front of Roach while roach is streaming and roach is just speechless and going redder by the second all while his chat is going insane

Im gonna go to my corner now and buzz around while i brain rot

Ahhhhh!!!

On Ghosts Dead Fiance:

I just love when Soap see's Ghost and Roach and is just immediately in love (especially with Roach) its my favorite dynamic ever and I think he's just enough of a himbo for that to happen sjdjdjdj

I would still like to eventually do a flipping it on its head in the method of killing off Soap version, but we probably won't get that until I get enraged by dead Roach content again ahsh

And I'm 100% going to make them more healthy than any of the SoapGhost fics but I'm also gonna throw in a line like "because of you I forget that I was ever even in love with Soap" just to pass people off because I'm evil like that

Then in the comments I'll hit 'em with "wow guys, Soap sent Roach for Ghost guys 🥺 he knew that he was better for him"

Also Roach is meant to be retired in the story, hence why Ghost has one of his dog tags. Since Roach wasn't going to be out in the field anymore (personal choice he made because he was tired, and he works CIA now with aunt Laswell) he decided to give Ghost one of his tags so he would "always have a piece of me with you"

On Monster AU:

*scary powerful monster walks in the room*

Roach, immediately: I'll just take that, thank you very much *seduces him*

Roach and Soap and even Ghost in this Au are definitely the be more scared of the person holding the leash than the dog itself thing. Roach has these two men wrapped around his finger dude and he's so good at playing innocent here

I think I mentioned but his whole thing is like seducing people while making them think that they're seducing him. He just chooses his partners though and gets Soap to growl at any unwanted people (most people) while he enjoys his two hot fellow monster boyfriends 😌

Also love making Ghost panic and run out of the room like a bat outta hell because he knows if he stays he will absolutely end up sleeping with these two members of his team who he's not even properly met yet. Poor guy is in for it though cause Roach isn't going to let him get away that easily

On Camboy/Streamer AU:

LISTEN I THINK ME AND YOU MAY BE THE ONLY TWO EXCITED FOR THIS AU BUT IM SO GLAD SOMEINE ELSE LIKES IT AS MUCH AS ME

IM GENUINELY SO EXCITED TO WRITE IT SKSKKDJDJ

If I didn't have to write part of an essay today I would be drafting up part of it right now because ACK

JUST THESE BOYS BEING IN LOVE AND SLOWLY GETTING PUSHED TOGETHER AND AHHH I LOVE THE IDEA OF GHOST BEING A FACELESS STREAMER WHO DOES A FACE REVEAL FOR ROACH WHILE ROACH IS ON SCREEN

I just know they'd have a shit ton of fanfics written about them

Also on the line of if this Ghost was reborn Ghost I've been thinking about that more and like...streamer AU's Gaz and Soap being his gaming buddies (Price is Gaz's controversially older boyfriend who hangs out with them on stream occasionally)

And I can just see people shipping Ghost and Soap from the streams and someone is like "Are you two dating" and Soap just playfully drops "No, Ghost is whipped for another streamer, take your bets on who"

And it starts a whole big thing and when, eventually, Ghost and the squad start streaming with Roach everyone just knows that this is the guy that he's whipped for

LISTEN I MAY HAVE TO DO AN AU OF THE AU FOR THIS SJDJJDJD YOUR MIND DUDE, YOUR MIND

#thoughts with luke #you asked luke #gary roach sanderson #simon ghost riley #john soap mactavish

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speckled-and-spattered · 8 months

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@idolsummons cont. from (X)

People could say what they wanted about Fuyuhiko; that he was a criminal, a murderer, that he deserved nothing but the worst in life and some days he might agree, but no one could deny that he would defend those he cared about to the death no matter the situation at hand. Luckily, it didn't seem like this time anything more than some minor blood would be spilt, something that there was no avoiding in Fuyu's mind when it came to something like this. Some guy wanted to be a fucking creep? He was going to at the very best be punched, and at the worst? Well, bullets could be rather persuasive in their own way, should it come to that...

Beyond that? It was a job for his sister, and that wasn't a fate he would wish on anyone. That was a lie, he's wished her bloodthirsty wrath upon many of people over the year, and Natsumi is always more than happy to oblige...

Going from annoyed to enraged in just a matter of seconds, the yakuza's teeth grit together as the idol clarified her wishes, his freckles popping out across his cheeks as his face grew red with anger. "What a fucking lowlife." Said with almost palpable disgust, it seemed even a known gang member had standards when it came to how people conducted themselves. "Yeah, I'll take care of 'im. What's this creep look like? And how bad do you want me to hurt 'im? Or...am I just scaring the prick off?" He figured it didn't need to be said that if prompted he would be hurting the guy no matter what she said. It depended on him and how fucking weird he wanted to be about what he was doing to Hana. He may not know her personally, but Kazuichi, Sonia, and Gundham talked about her enough for him to gather that she was special to them. He had no idea what she knew of him though, if anything. Would she even be talking to him if she knew he was a yakuza? Either way, Gundham must be busy if she's not asking him, or she doesn't trust him not to kill the guy, which...yeah, that was fair, all things considered.

"You uh...you do know who I am, right? 'Cause I gotta say, kinda surprised you'd risk being seen with me, with your idol bullshit 'n all..." Being around him could only lead to trouble in the end, no matter who it was... "Besides, don't you have a literal fucking demon for a boyfriend? And a guard dog of a werewolf that follows you around like a fucking puppy? Or are you taking the easy way out and asking me, banking on the hope the guy will know I'm with the yakuza and fuck off so I don't kill him." It...would make sense, Gundham and Kaz were threatening in their own ways, hell even Sonia could get the job done in her own princessy way, but they weren't Fuyuhiko.

Sonia was a princess, she couldn't afford to get into trouble over something like this should things go wrong, and Gundham and Kaz? They were scary, sure, but in a manageable way; a big ass dog wasn't really all that hard to handle especially a scardy cat like Kaz and Gundham was only a goth chuunibyou on the surface who may flash a bit of his powers to get his point across if he needed to, but unless he wanted to out himself as an actual fucking demon on the off chance someone else sees him, his hands were tied.

Fuyu though? People knew who he was, what he had done, what he could do. If this guy was smart, all the yakuza had to do was show his face, say his name, and he'd know just what and who he was messing with. And if he tried to tell anyone about Hana hiring the yakuza to scare him off? That was easily hushed with all his connections, and that was even if anyone believed the guy. He'd have to admit why she would have had to hire the yakuza in the first place. Nothing about it would end well for him no matter how he went about it when it came to the heir.

"If you don't want someone like me to handle this shit, I could always get someone else on it. It'd be discreet, no way to tie it back to me or my clan, no danger for you or your job."

#muse: fuyuhiko kuzuryu #idolsummons

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sinistershepherd · 8 months

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HEEEYYYY WHAT'S UPPP ITS MEEE IM BACK IN UR INBOXXXX BACK FOR LOVELY ANGSTTT

sssoooo imagine,

Normal day pre-fire har har, Daycare things everyone's probably doing arts n craft time or something, and then this child, teen, you pick just BARGES in the daycare in an absolute panic and full of fear that they cannot say

probs running from someone or some weird dancing rabbit lady har har

it'd be rlly interesting if they were registered into the daycare and then unregistered soon after unannounced

and it's incredibly jarring and dcas REMEMBER this child from being registered so hmm curious

-STORY FORMAT-

The day had started just as all the others did. Though overlooking certain names that no longer showed up in the database was always a sad thing, the brothers tried to keep their spirits up by taking care of the kids they still had around. Moon was especially upset by the loss of kids, no matter how or why they didn’t show up the next day. Sun tried his best to console Moon between their duties.

Children rarely came back when their files were removed from the system. That was the most upsetting part.

However, today was inherently different.

The doors flew open with a loud BANG, disrupting all activities, bringing a profound silence onto the daycare. A child, no older than the age of 8, stands in the doorway- tears stream freely down from their wide, petrified eyes.

And the brothers recognize them immediately. A larger caped figure stands behind them, towering above their shaking figure with a calm, yet enraged gleam blazing in its eyes. As soon as the child moves forwards, screaming and crying out incomprehensible words as they scramble towards Sun and Moon, the figure vanishes from sight.

Without much time to prepare, Sun is almost brought off his feet by the sheer force of the child’s fear-induced stupor. Moon watches with wide eyes, glancing around wildly in search of whatever could’ve frightened this child so much.

When he finds nothing, he glances back down to the child, listening to their babbling, struggling to understand.

It finally clicks again. He knows this child. He remembers them. He missed them.

“[Child’s name]?”

The child looks up, tears still streaming down their face, another wail breaking through their lips as they break away from Sun in favor of latching onto Moon, crying loudly into his star-patterned pants.

Instantly, warnings crowd his vision.

“Sun, put the daycare into lockdown.”

Sun looks up at Moon, then nods firmly, confident in his brother and trusting his urgency. He immediately clambers to his feet and runs over to the security desk, beginning to do the typical lockdown protocols.

Moon picks the kid up and holds them tightly in his arms, mentally beginning to contact parents and inform them of what’s going on.

He goes out of his way to contact the kid’s parents specifically, most likely first.

From there, they contact the authorities and demand them to take a sweep of the building, despite the fact that they don’t really have the authority to do such a thing.

Thanks for the ask, it’s a pleasure to have this back :))

#fnaf security breach #fnaf moondrop #fnaf moon animatronic #fnaf sb #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf fandom #fnaf moony #fnaf sun animatronic #fnaf sunny #fnaf sunrise #fnaf #fnaf scenario #fnaf moon #fnaf sun and moon are separated #fnaf drabbles #angsty tuesday #HAHAHAHA #I’M BACK BABY

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beconsumed · 2 years

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i know i said i wasn’t coming back until next week but i need to spit this all out then go again a big huge reason why i haven’t been online is the fact that my family is still very very covid safe. and i mean like ACTUALLY covid safe as in we barely leave the house we don’t see family we only go get groceries or once in a while when we get too stir crazy we will run to a fun store or 2 like joanns which is always empty or some yard sales. we haven’t seen some close family since before this started (and they now think we’re insane) and the family we have seen is like quick driveway exchanges of gifts and some quick chats and thats it! and its so incredibly enraging and disappointing to log on and see people going to the movies and concerts and going on dates or going to bars or going out to eat and hanging out with friends every day like . do you get it. do you get how much this sucks . it is so goddamn depressing and awful .a family member of mine is immunocompromised BUT even if they weren’t we would still be doing this because

A) covid isn’t a fucking cold its so scary? how are you not all scared? long covid is the scariest thing ive seen how are people not more scared! we don’t even know everything its going to do to us but we know plenty enough to be terrified!!!! and B) WE CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE! we don’t want to possibly be spreading covid without knowing to anyone! especially people who have to risk their lives to work or to get groceries or pick up meds or go to the doctor and are already at risk, why would i want to put them at further risk so i can like “have fun” for a night?

when i say my family goes somewhere/does something we are all double masked with KF 94′s and we are vax’d obviously but like that doesn’t mean as much when no one wears a fucking mask or they do but they went to a concert the night before or a family dinner or whatever the fuck!

it kills me how much all of this stuff im saying is similar to what everyone was saying at the beginning but now those same people have thrown it out the window because they decided staying in the house was too boring which, IT IS BORING! WE DON’T WANT TO BE DOING THIS!!!! i can’t get over people’s willful ignorance in how much this sucks for people actually being safe like, we AREN’T HAVING FUN! but does that mean we just give up and stop caring?!?!? and willful ignorance in the harm being caused every time someone goes to a gathering or hangs out with friends or whatever like . is the domino effect of spreading lost on everyone or what?? and btw i am so sick of people just saying they’re “being safe” when its a situation where its literally not true? like at LEAST be honest with it that’s better than lying about it!

its really the entitlement i can’t stomach it makes me SICK how people think that its fine if they’re not safe because they “want to make memories” they “want to live life to the fullest” they “don’t want to miss out” they’re “lonely” whatever idiotic excuse they make for being an ass AS IF WE DON’T HAVE THOSE SAME FEELINGS?!?!? of COURSE we want to go places, OF COURSE we want to see our friends and family, OF COURSE we want to have some fun, so what makes you so fucking special?!?!? why are you the priority over everyone else?!?! what happened to thinking about others?!?! you’re willing to put other’s at risk, to sacrifice others, to see a fucking concert or eat dinner in a restaurant?!?!

like watching my sibling go through his senior year online while everyone he knows is getting to make their happy graduation memories while he’s stuck at home actually worrying about our health and the health of others has been the most heartbreaking experience, he’s finishing high school so lonely because he can’t find others who feel the same way as him, and everyone thinks we’re “overly dramatic” or whatever for being SAFE!!! what makes it so that you deserve to get those happy memories but those who are at risk or caring for those at risk undeserving??

i know its been said but it has not been said enough that these years have reeeaaally shown people’s true colors in regards to how much they actually care about disabled people and any other high risk groups.

#do i need to do the ''this isn't directed at one person'' song and dance i feel like it doesn't matter #long post #im so mad! im so mad!

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prettypinkdiamond · 2 years

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september 4th, 2022 - 510 cals

its too close to midnight and i am too enraged to edit up a pink mfp log, so heres my summary (purposely leaving out details bcs i’d die if the friend mentioned somehow found this).

i ate literally TWO things today:

around 3 pm-ish i wanted to try something new, so i ate this on-the-go snack pack thing (220 cals). didn’t like it and didn’t finish it but i always log full calories regardless.

THEN a friend unexpectedly invites themselves over. and this friend has a bad habit of:

1. staying WAY too long (especially bcs i didnt invite them over in the first place). idk how they dont feel rude sticking around from the afternoon until LITERALLY JUST RIGHT NOW AT 11 PM WHEN ITS PITCH BLACK OUT EVEN IN SUMMER.

2. continuing to talk VERY loudly even when its late and they KNOW there are ppl trying to sleep in the house.

3. complaining about being hungry but also being too embarrassed to eat alone and wanting me to eat with them.

so when they said they were hungry i had to eat the same food as them (omitted for vagueness) which was 290 calories.

bringing my total up to 510 calories, WHEN MY GOAL WAS TO BE UNDER 500 NET CALS EVERY DAY UNTIL NEXT YEAR.

this wouldnt be so bad if i could just work them off at the gym, BUT OH WAIT they stayed so late I CANT go to the gym now without bothering my parents even more than they’re already bothered by this person being loud in the house at night!!! AAAAAAAAA

and yes, its only 10 calories. yes my Pacer app tells me i walked enough steps today to burn 30 calories and i didnt finish the whole snack pack so im almost certainly under 500 anyways. BUT ED BRAIN DOESN’T CARE. ED BRAIN IS FUMING. ED BRAIN SAYS STARVE TOMORROW AS PUNISHMENT.

so i’m doing another 36 hour fast even tho i JUST finished one today 🙃

(i love my friend dearly and i wish my brain wasn’t like this. and i also wish they knew how to tell when ppl want u to leave their house)

#pr0anna #4na diary #pr0 ana diary #not pr0 just tags

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sunpotent · 2 years

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Full moon and im thinkin bout you.

I can’t lie, these feelings are detrimental over you.

i look to the sky and remember when you’re taste filled mine. Filled me with so much synergy that night i couldn’t tell if i was hallucinating or not. remember that girl asked us for a 4 sum outside my dorm? just you, me, her and her best friend. After that i always said weird shit happens when you’re around but thought lightly of it cause i was addicted to you being here. i have an addictive personality but i thought i would’ve left you by now. but you leave me young, numb n dumb and i like how that abyss feels. Its better than the crowded mind fields i have to wonder through just to even get to you. you make that all seem worth it, like the world we live in maybe isn’t all that bad so whatever i’m doing is actually working.

Remember during lockdown when you n i would run off into the moonlight and dance our nights away? Remember how my dad caught us dancing that one time and didn’t like that i was prancing? The nigga greeted me with a punch because of you but i still had to see this through. New levels of my traumas unveiled; enraged and seeing red, i thought about how weird shit always happens when you’re in my bed.

like that valentine’s day, i was going out sad. i had a long day. thought to come by you first cause you was the one that was here first. Took me to higher heights, felt i was swinging from yo tree above the clouds. i thought, “this must be how a hill hurts- ‘i mean am i the ground i see or am i something else? we’re both green so how come i’m over here and they’re over there?” It was confirmed in 45mins, im delusional and overly zealous…so that night i had to apologize for you. although i wasn’t in your presence, yours was still felt on mine. My girl told me get out and go be with that bitch that she felt. I lied n said nothing was happening, you would just feed me sometimes whenever i was low. and its weird, cause we was all cool just before. she was telling me how much she loved you but saw how much more different our interactions were because of you. i should’ve seen this coming but didn’t till you were coming. my breath reeked of your scent and i had a glow about me. she saw right through and told me she was through along with a couple other things about me n my crew. I was silent, shot by the truth. I recognized her words as the look of love but couldn’t see past my egos lusts… I thought again how weird shit happens whenever you’re around, but thought lightly of it cause i was addicted to you being here. So with no where left to go, i ended up back at your door. told you she was done with me and how i feel so ugly and how things won’t go back to how they used to be. you told me i could let this shit empower me or flip n fold me like those cowards i see. So i left you and ran for her cause she was the one for me. told her im done with you especially if she takes me from you…. Well i saw you again this morning. i saw you last night and the night before too. If i was still with my dream girl, man i think i’d still be away from you too. but we ended a min ago so that did too. and now im getting high with no signs of ending. Tell me what that look like to you?

Today i think i finally learned my lesson. nothing happened. I’m just tired of this lesson.

#some thoughts #i be rhyming when i’m passionate about the subject #don’t judge me

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#Blacklivesmatter

America has, and likely will forever be, completely divided despite all of its people seeking to take advantage of the promises it makes. The freedoms, the peace, the unity (which is in our name), the never ending opportunity and so on and so forth. And yet, headlines and articles are riddled day in and day out with news of our black citizens being murdered, mishandled, mistreated and silenced.

Many of these stories bring about horrifying arguments when we find out the hand that deals such torture belongs to our police officers. In 1963, the Los Angeles Police Academy adopted the motto “To Protect and Serve.” That is their duty and what they instill into their trainees. Now, that has become the mantra for American Police in general (I would venture to guess the reason that motto has made it through the grapevine is likely because throughout time, police officers in America have had to defend their questionable behavior, it’s easier to do so when it sounds like you’re doing your job, but I’ll save the analysis of the nuances of a 4 word sentence for another post).

Now, this begs the question, what do police protect and serve?

The words “policy” and “police” both come from the medieval Latin word “politia” which means citizenship or government. As language has evolved and developed, globalization takes place and modernity rears its head- Policy becomes another word for rules or laws and police becomes the term for a person whose job it is to protect us. But they are, originally, the same word.

Here is my point: The police do not protect and serve the American people. The police protect and serve the policies they are employed to enforce. The policies put in place by old, racist, white American leaders of yesterday. How could ANY person enforcing laws in a country that was not created for people of color to succeed possibly be morally just?

By what moral code do we employ these people? There is no argument to be made that a cop is ever justified for shooting and killing a person without reason. Period. But, whether inadvertently or purposefully they’re fulfilling their duties of enforcing policies and laws that are meant to oppress populations of our American people. At the end of the day police answer to people the same way a cashier answers to their manager. Police are not autonomous, they do not govern themselves. They may not be told to go out and shoot a person at the start of every day, but they do report back to higher ups and they are employees of their states.

I’m not urging anyone to stop protesting or to change their feelings about police in any capacity, that is everyone’s right and I am with you. But, their is a bigger picture here and there are many, many more people responsible who should also be protested against and the political system in general will need to be upended and changed in order for EVERYONE to flourish in the freedoms of America, as promised.

#PSA #blacklivesmatter #blacklivesalwaysmatter #POC #serious post #just a light read for my fellow enlightened crowd #america #goverment #politics #police #im enraged #like im always enraged but these days especially #ally

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Hi! Is it okay to ask for a Levi smutxfluff where he's benched from injuring his leg but it's getting a lot better. His fem! S/o is part of his squad and he gets the report that she was in a life threatening situation but she made it safe and he's waiting for the scouts to return. He waits for them and doesn't know what to feel fjejfjs im sorry this is hella long!!! Also no manga spoilers/references please

- hello !! thank you so much for requesting ! that’s totally okay and don’t apologize for the length, it helped me out having details :) there aren’t any manga spoilers or references, but there are season 2 spoilers in case anyone hasn’t finished it yet. i hope you enjoy and thank you again for requesting <3

relief

- levi ackerman x reader

- warnings: season two spoilers, nsfw contains smut; hand job, oral (giving), fingering, cream pie, slight overstimulation but not much, AFAB!reader

once again, levi injured his damn leg.

after being temporarily handicapped from his leg injury when he initially fought the female titan, he made a personal vow to never let an injury like that happen to him again. it was a major setback and seriously hindered his abilities. but unfortunately, titans makes no promises.

it was during an expedition, of course, and things were taking a turn for the worst. levi was unaware that his squad would be needed on an expedition the next day, so he kept them up late the night before to polish their skills as much as possible. during the mission, it was clear they could barely keep their eyes open.

levi was extremely stressed out, worrying about his team as well as what he was going to say to erwin later when he yelled at the commander for such a late notice on the mission. for now, the captain had to make up for much of his team's slack. as much as the kids wanted to put up an argument when he flew in and stole their prey, they kept their mouths shut. there was no way they could’ve finished the job on their own and knew their protests weren't worth it, as it felt kind of wrong to argue with someone who was saving their lives.

it was brutal work since he too was bordering onto exhaustion, but levi pushed through and helped his team clean up the last hoard of titans. just when he thought he was in the clear, a titan came up on sasha and tried to grab her. if he had gone any slower to finding her, he wouldn’t have been able to save her. but thankfully, levi was able to use the last bit of his gas all at once to throw himself forward and push her out of the way.

he seriously couldn’t catch a break as this resulted in him getting himself caught in the titan's grip. his blades weren't drawn prior to being grabbed so cutting himself out was impossible. the giant had levi's entire lower half engulfed in its hand. if his second in command hadn’t been there he would have for sure been a goner.

it was y/n’s turn to play hero, as she flew in and swiftly sliced the titan's nape, freeing not only her captain but also her partner from definite doom.

levi wished he could say it was a clean save, but he couldn't deny the bone crunching he heard below him. they arrived back home in one piece with only levi's broken leg to report.

so not only had he injured his leg again, but it was worse than his sprained ankle from the forest. the captain was even more upset when the medics informed him that he had to be benched for six weeks. that meant no physical activity for six weeks. yes, that includes sex.

over the course of his healing, there were many times when he claimed to be okay so he could accompany his team on expeditions, only to be rushed back to bed by his colleagues. many people even urged y/n to nail down the door to her and levi’s shared room in order to keep him trapped in there. y/n laughed off the idea, not even considering it because she knew levi would only feel more tempted to break out. a few nails wouldn’t stop him. the only thing he could say he enjoyed about his time off was having y/n as his "personal nurse," when she wasn’t off with the rest of the team. she still had to stop things from getting too heated every now and then.

“doctor’s orders !” she’d always say as she stopped a heated make out session or after he had tried to pull her into his lap.

when it came to more domestic care, levi hated having her watch after him. he definitely appreciated it, but the last thing he wanted was to be a burden to her. he wasn’t just burdening her with his personal care, but also the burden of the entire team since she would be his replacement for the time being. many times he tried to wave off his partner and tell her he could manage on his own before he finally told her he didn’t want to have to rely on her. he was surprised when she brushed back the hair in front of his forehead to kiss his forehead, whispering that she wanted to take care of him and help him.

finally, he had reached the sixth week and was ready to hit the sky again. the morning of the latest mission, y/n noticed levi had a bit of a pep in his step as he prepared to venture outside the walls for the first time in a few weeks. she giggled at his poor attempts to get excited since he wasn't the best at expressing his emotions, but she felt a little guilty since she didn't have the heart to tell him that he was once again sitting this one out.

hanji had pulled y/n aside the night before and broken the news to her. she explained that although his road to recovery had been going well, he needed to take one more week to ensure that he was completely healed. it hurt y/n’s heart a little bit to hear this. over the last few weeks she watched her partner practically counting down the days until his return, so she made sure to tell hanji that she wouldn't be the one breaking the news to him.

hanji also knew how restless her friend was and wasn't sure if she would comeback alive after telling him the news, so she waited until the last possible second to tell him. literally, word got around that it was time to make the final preparations before heading off when she pulled him aside and told him.

he was enraged to say the least. he grabbed the front of hanji's shirt and pulled her down to his level as he began to chew her out in front of everyone. the soldiers awkwardly shuffled past the two, definitely not wanting to get involved. it wasn't until y/n came and informed the two of them that it was time to go when he finally let go of her. hanji laughed nervously and decided to give the couple one last minute of alone time as she headed back to her squad.

there was a lot they wanted to say to each other, levi wanting to tell y/n to be careful and y/n wanting to apologize for not telling him sooner, but they both knew this wasn't the time for a conversation. y/n put on a determined face and told him that she would do her best to lead the team in his place, offering him a salute, then headed over to join the others.

levi was super bummed. he waited behind and watched as the horses left to make their way towards the outer walls before he sulked to himself and retreated back to his quarters to finish the less exciting side of his job; paperwork.

it had been a few hours since the cadets had left that morning, so the golden sunlight that was now pouring through levi's windows notified him that they should be back any minute now. he stood up from his small desk and stretched his back that had started to stiffen up from sitting in his chair for the last few hours. many nights had been spent sleeping in the same chair, but he swore it was more comfortable sleeping in it than doing paperwork it in.

he took a look around the room and saw the rays of sun illuminated the dust particles floating through the air. it annoyed him to say the least, as he had yet to find a way to clean the air. for now, he would settle for sweeping the room one last time. just as he was pulling a broom out of the closet, a hard knock came from his door.

"captain levi ?" a young soldier called from the other side. levi was slightly annoyed that he was being interrupted, but he managed to keep the ‘this better be important,’ thoughts to himself.

he placed the broom back in the closet and made his way to the door. upon opening it, he saw the distressed look on the soldier's face.

"what is it ?" levi pryed, not really sure what to expect at this point.

the soldier straightened up and cleared his throat. "the first group from today's expedition has arrived with a report. the rest of the scouts are on their way back now, but i was told to hand you the part of the report that regards the condition of your team." the boy held out the paper in his hand for his superior to take.

levi practically ripped the paper out of the soldier’s hand, causing him to flinch a little, but it was understandable. a million scenarios were playing through levi’s mind about what could have happened. he feared that once again he had lost his entire squad and had to start all over again. it was a pain he never wanted to live through again, especially since his lover was apart of his team this time.

his eyes quickly scanned the clearly hastily scribbled words, searching for words like death, killed, and eaten. the was almost at the end of the page when he realized he hadn’t heard anything terrible yet. eren ended up not needing the use his titan form, mikasa had another impressive kill streak, armin and connie were in a bit of a predicament but got out fine, and jean and sasha were safe too. the only one that had been yet to mentioned was y/n.

in an attempt to distract a group of titans from one of her fellow soldiers whose ODM gear was malfunctioning, y/n l/n used herself as bait. she was successful in saving the soldiers life, but one of the titans caught ahold of one of her gear’s cables and she was thrown to the ground. l/n was found unconscious by armin arlert and she is currently being watched until the group arrives and she can be transported to the infirmary for a full check up.

levi’s heart sank deeper and deeper into his stomach with every word he read. y/n was always putting others first regardless of how dangerous a situation was. she was selfless to a fault. he warned her many times that something like this would happen, but she never listened. her heart would never let her not help someone in need. it was one of the things he loved about her the most.

the awkward shuffling of the messenger soldier’s feet brought levi back to reality. before waving him off, levi asked if there was any more information than what was shared in the report, but he shook his head.

the soldier finally left, leaving levi frozen in the middle of his room. the report was too vague for him to know what to think or do.

how high was she from the ground when she fell ? did she just get knocked out ? or did she hit her head hard enough to cause internal bleeding ?

the thought that her current condition could be much different from the report also crossed his mind. y/n was stated to only be unconscious, but she could have gotten worse since.

there’s no point in pondering the what-ifs, he reminded himself, but it was easier said than done. he moved over to his neatly tucked bed and sat down on the edge of it, resting his elbows on his knees and holding his head in his hands.

he didn’t know what he would do if he lost her. what the team would do if they lost her. before he could fall back into his dark thoughts about his partner’s condition, a large commotion came from outside alerting him that the cadets were back.

with a small stumble as he jumped up from his bed, levi sprinted out of his room to go outside. there were already a lot of people crowding around the carts and horses, so he did his best to slip past them all. the people in the way that had managed to see his face instantly moved aside, not wanting to anger the captain after seeing the intense look on his face.

after making his way to the front of the crowd, levi scanned the area in search of y/n, having no luck until he heard a familiar voice yelling ‘captain.’

his eyes met with eren’s who was waving frantically in order to flag down his captain who was now quickly making his way over to the group.

“she’s alright,” the titan shifter called out over the other voices in the crowd. levi didn’t want to get his hopes up as he wasn’t sure how accurate eren’s words were, but regardless, a wave of relief came over him.

as he pulled up next to the cart they were sitting in, levi also met armin, who nodded in agreement with what eren was saying. the blond opened his mouth to add onto what his friend had said, when he was interrupted.

“where’s levi ?”

hearing his partner’s voice almost brought levi to his knees. the weight of not knowing her condition finally fell off his shoulders. he peered over the side of the cart to see y/n laying on the ground on her back with a white bandage wrapped around her entire head. her face instantly lit up when she saw him.

the girl jumped up and threw herself onto the captain, wrapping her arms around his neck in a tight hug. if this were any other situation he would’ve told her to get off of him, but right now he allowed himself to wrap one arm around her back and placed his free hand on the back of her head, pulling her closer to him.

levi couldnt bring himself to scold her for being too rough while she was injured. instead, he sighed and hugged her tighter.

“thank god you’re okay,” he breathed out against her hair. he felt her smile widen as she nuzzled her head deeper into the crook of his neck.

after the two finally pulled apart from each other, levi immediately took y/n to the infirmary where they confirmed she only had a minor concussion.

the moment they entered their shared room for the night, levi pulled y/n in for another hug. she graciously accepted, wrapping her tired arms around his middle.

he pulled back and brought up a hand to brush her hair away from her face so he could place a soft kiss on her forehead where her bandages previously were.

y/n placed her hands on levi’s cheeks and gently pulled his face down so she could plant a kiss on his lips. levi eagerly kissed back and began taking careful steps backwards to lead her onto the bed.

they now sat on the edge of the bed and kiss turned more passionate, with y/n opening her mouth to swipe her tongue across levi's lower lip asking for entrance into his mouth. he eagerly accepted, greeting her tongue with his own as they made out.

without breaking the kiss, y/n carefully straddled herself onto levi's lap taking extra care to not put too much pressure on his healing leg. however, her plans became a lost cause when he grabbed her hips to meet his. her eyes widened as she felt his bulge between her legs. tension built up in her core as she instinctively rolled her hips forward to grind herself against his clothed crotch.

it was levi's turn for his eyes to widen as a wave of pleasure swept across his body. he broke the kiss to meet his partner's lustful eyes as she recoiled her hips back once again to bring herself more pleasure. he sharply inhaled before kissing her deeply one last time before throwing her off his lap.

y/n flopped down on the bed next to him, laughing, but she took the hint and started undressing herself like he did. once their clothes were in a messy heap on the floor, levi took a moment to pull her head close to him so he could kiss the side of it, worried he had only made her concussion worse when he threw her off of him moments ago.

“are you okay ?” he pressed, lips still against her head.

y/n laughed and placed her hand on top of his that was on the side of her head. “i told you a million times that im okay, my love.”

“and i’ll ask you a million more times just to be sure,” he replied, pulling back.

as he moved away, y/n grabbed the sides of his face and pulled him in for another deep kiss. one of the captain's hands placed itself on the small of her back to pull her closer while the other felt around behind her looking for the bed. once he gripped the sheets, he brought the hand up to the other side of her back and took a step to turn his own back towards the bed, then fell onto it, pulling y/n down with him so she would land on top of him.

he cringed as he remembered her concussion and quickly asked if she was okay, only for her to laugh once again and reassure him she was fine. before levi could ask anymore questions or make anymore quips, she returned her lips to his. their tongues explored each other’s mouths, searching every inch of each other’s caverns.

she pulled her lips away from his to smile at him while she slowed her breathing. the sight alone was enough to make levi fall in love all over again. her messy h/c hair fell perfectly, combined with her eyes filled with pure adoration from looking at him and the goofy smile that was on her lips. no one had ever looked at him the way she had. his eyes tore apart from hers and trailed down to see the rest of her body.

"you're absolutely perfect," he whispered, just loud enough for y/n to hear as he took in every curve on her body. levi thanked the stars that the moon was bright enough tonight to let him see the soft pink hue that spread across her cheeks as he complimented her.

she leaned in close to his ear and whispered "as are you," back to him. each movement of her lips tickled against his earlobe. it sent a shiver down his spine. y/n shifted her body weight so that she was now sitting up and straddling his lap once again. her right hand met his strong chest, then dragging down to his toned abdomen followed by his lower stomach.

y/n scooted back so she could get a full view of his hardened cock. her index finger traced a straight line from the base of his member to the tip. it took a lot of self control for levi keep himself from shuddering as her nail softly grazed the side of his cock.

levi propped himself up with his elbows. to get a good look at what she was doing. he watched as her hand went back to the base of his shaft and her fingers wrapped around it. she started slowly pumping him, resulting in his breaths becoming deeper. he closed his eyes for a mere second when a new wave of pleasure swept across him that made his eyes roll back in his head.

y/n had lowered her face and began sucking on just the head of his cock while her hand's pace quickened. her cheeks hollowed out from the pressure of sucking his tip and he fisted one of his hands into her hair. he didn't push her head down, rather, he gripped it to stimulate pleasure for her as well as to let her know he was enjoying what she was doing.

she hummed against him and started to incorporate her tongue as she swirled it around his head, which sent yet another wave of pleasure throughout his body. when y/n added her free hand to the mix, using it to fondle his balls, the stimulation almost became too much for levi to stand. he used the fist in her hair to pull her off him and up to his face.

a small dribble of spit leaked out of the corner of her mouth. before y/n had a chance to wipe it, levi was pulling her forward and swiping his tongue against her mouth to lick it off, then planted open mouth kisses down her face and up her jawline until he reached her neck where began to suck her skin and create a few hickeys. she slowly leaned her head back to give him better access to her neck.

she said a silent thank you when she realized the marks were placed just low enough to be hidden by the collar of her white shirt so no one would know a thing the next day. everyone already freaked out enough when they found out y/n and levi were a couple.

without removing his lips from her neck, levi lifted y/n from her hips then moved one of his hands to feel the folds of her pussy. she was soaking wet, so all her had to do was cover his index and middle fingers with his slick before he slowly slid them both inside of her. a low moan came from y/n’s parted lips as levi’s fingers went deeper inside of her.

he pumped them slowly, reaching deeper each time until he was knuckles deep into her core. when he curled his fingers to hit her g-spot, she had had enough.

“inside of me...i need you inside of me levi,” y/n moaned, digging her nails into his back. levi laughed to himself at how desperate his lover had become from just his fingers. it was clear to him that he needed to avoid any injuries that could put a halt to his sex life at all costs from now on.

he pulled his wet fingers out of her and gripped his cock, making sure to cover it with her juices that were still on his fingers so it would be easier to push inside of her, then positioned himself with her entrance. y/n moaned once again as his tip rubbed against her folds before sliding into her. she sharply inhaled as his head entered her. levi gave her a moment to signal that she was ready before thrusting deeper inside of her. after a few weeks of abstinence, y/n needed a bit longer to get adjusted.

after about a minute, levi was able to thrust his hips up and push his full length inside of her as she dug her nails deeper into his back. he knew it was payback for him marking up her neck when she broke her hazy gaze to give him a smirk. just for that, he pulled himself almost completely out of her, then thrusted balls deep back into her, hard.

y/n’s hand flew off her partner’s back and onto her mouth to stifle the loud moan that almost escaped. she shot him a fake glare and he returned the smirk she had given him earlier. levi wanted nothing more than to hear her call out his name loudly, but it wasn’t worth the harassment he’d face from his colleagues the next day.

after she had composed herself, y/n removed her hand from her mouth and placed it on her partner’s bicep. he stopped thrusting into her, knowing she wanted to take over. just like he had thought, y/n started to rock her hips so she was grinding on him much like she had done whilst they were still clothed.

the pleasure was much more enjoyable now that he was inside her. each time she rolled her hips forward, his cock hit her cervix. now it was levi’s turn to stifle a moan, as y/n road him into ecstasy. his grip on her hips increased which most definitely left yet another mark on her skin.

the fact that y/n was biting her lower lip also didn’t go unnoticed by the captain. whenever she did this it was a sure fire way of telling him she was close to her release. he wrapped one arm around her back and in a swift motion flippped both of them over so that y/n was on her back and he was hovering over her.

she let out a small squeal at his sudden shift and wanted to scold him for not being careful with his leg, but her words were lost as he snapped his hips against hers. she once again went to cover her mouth to avoid her moans escaping, but levi’s hands interlocking with her own prevented her from doing so. he gave both her hands a quick squeeze before going back to thrusting himself into her. her eyes stayed trained on his, while his watched the way she engulfed his cock. it drove him so crazy she could feel him twitch inside of her. he high was near, but there was no way he was going to let himself finish before his partner.

he focused more on his thrusts, moving his hips better so he would hit her g-spot harder with each thrust. the way he rolled his hips to meet her core finally sent her over the edge. he kissed her deeply as she moaned against his lips while he continued to ride out her climax. even after she had come down from her high, levi kept thrusting into her, chasing his own release.

the overstimulation was enough to send her over the edge again, this time being joined by his own release. he let out a low grunt as he finished inside of her painting her inner walls with his cum.

levi pumped into y/n three more times before he stopped and fell onto her chest, not even bothering to pull out. after six weeks of no sex, their orgasms were both super intense.

“maybe we should wait another six weeks before our next round if it’s gonna be that good again,” y/n teased.

levi’s head shot up so he could see her face. y/n bust out laughing when he finally realized she was kidding. levi rolled his eyes and pushed himself off her so he could slide out of her.

the mix of their juices that escaped her as he unsheathed his cock from her made his member twitch back to life, becoming hard again.

“or i guess we could go again right now,” y/n added after sitting up herself and seeing his hard on.

levi smiled and pushed her back down gently then hovered over top of her once again.

“that’s more like it.”

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Hello! Im extremely grateful for your writing, I love it 😍. Could I please request yandere hc's for Tendou, Goshiki, Kenma, Akaashi, Bokuto, Oikawa, Kageyama, Nishinoya reaction to when they discover that their f!darling/crush has a secret admirer? What would happen if the secret admirer gave them better gifts? Thanks!!! 😀

Hey, hey, hey! Nice to hear that my writing gives you so much joy, that’s what I write for after all. Also, thank you honey for requesting so many of my favs😊.

Tw: Yandere themes, unhealthy mindset, unhealthy relationship, possessiveness, obsessiveness, delusions, threatening, manipulating, bullying

Secret admirer who gives better gifts

Yū Nishinoya

🗯Nishinoya is someone who smothers and praises you several times in only a few minutes and he finds every day something else that is worth being worshipped and praised in his eyes. He would be that way even if he wouldn't be at that time in a relationship with you. Whilst he definitely spoils you majorly with physical and verbal praises, he also isn't above wasting a bit or a lot money onto you either. He is obsessive and for that knows what you like and you will find him often inviting you to ice cream or whatever you are in the mood for. He tends to be a bit reckless so Asahi and his friends have to sometimes stop him or else he'll go broke.

🗯If you would be at that time only his crush, this can and will end pretty badly. Because Nishinoya is in either case very possessive over his s/o and won't tolerate anyone else trying to do as much as even thinking to court her. It's in the first place a bit surprising that someone can give you better gifts since Nishinoya knows the even smaller things about you. They might be more expensive though since Nishinoya isn't the most rich.

🗯In either case, Nishinoya will feel threatened as well as really enraged about this. He hates to admit that there is someone who can spoil you better than he can and this leads him of course also to this fear that you might prefer this person over him. But it's also very frustrating to see that someone has the guts to try this in the first place since the whole school already sees him and his sweetie as an unofficial couple since he is too obvious. Not many persons try to woo you since he has the reputation of a troublemaker and doesn't let many people near you, he acts like an agressive guardian dog. Definitely gets rid of all the presents you get from that guy.

🗯But he will totally lose it if he is already together with you because this is just ridiculous. He makes it fairly clear to the whole school that you're his, boosts about you to everybody and is all over you, in public as well as in private. This person who tries it must be either blind or dumb to think that Nishinoya will just let this slide. He won't, not even in the slightest bit. Nishinoya's possessiveness increases a lot if he is already together with her. As I mentioned in my Hc's for him, he feels like he hit the goddamn lotto with you and would be damned if he would lose to some idiot. Expect him to tear everything you get from this guy apart, he will not allow you to keep it.

🗯In both cases he is determined to find whoever was dumb enough to pull a stunt like this. He is actually more sly than people give him credit. He will also feel challenged and start trying to spoil you even more so that not even his friends can stop him anymore so please get a hold of your jealous boyfriend/admirer before he really wastes all his money on you. If you think he was clingy and territorial before you'll discover that there is always a next level with him.

🗯He will try to find the culprit alone, even though he would definitely ask for help if he can't find them immediately. I feel like especially if he is already your boyfriend, his friends would be very willing to help him since it's indeed very rude to court someone who' already in a relationship. He won't let you fall for this guy, never and for that has to make all of this quickly stop. He's really driven by jealousy plus the fact that he is a bit more sadistic with his rivals. That guy is a little demon and all of this is even worse since he feels agitated due to the fact that this guy gave you better presents, it's about his pride here as well. And the final cherry on the top would be definitely if he is already your boyfriend. How dare this guy?

Tobio Kageyama

🌧Kageyama isn't very good with words, he couldn't say for a long time "I love you." without stuttering and being embarrassed about it. But his s/o can definitely not say that that she doesn't feel loved either, he makes up for it in other categories. He is physically very affectionate and is a spoiling Yandere. He does it most of the time with a lot of affection and cuddles since he tries to make up for his lack of verbal affection due to his embarrassment. But he also often buys you stuff, be that snacks, drinks or whatever other stuff he knows you like. He used to be a stalker so getting to know the one or another thing about you was unavoidable. I can imagine him being at first somewhat of a secret admirer as well because he was a bit bashful at first and still is.

🌧Totally panics when he finds out about this sudden rival of his. He himself watches from a distance too, but he had his eyes set on you first. He does know that technically he isn't together with you, doesn't show himself and that due to that other persons have the right to woo you as well. But...but...just but! He feels terrified for more than one reason in here.

🌧Presents are already one thing, it pains him to see that there is someone who gives better presents than him. Furthermore he doesn't know anything about the other person either. What if they confess first to you? What if you agree? He is horrified of the thought that you might leave him due to the other person, his trauma from the past fighting it's way in his heart and mind once again. It might trigger him enough so that he sees himself forced to confess before the other jerk makes their move.

🌧But he is left speechless if he should be already together with you. He just imtimidates everyone who comes to close to him and due to him being all of the time with you and having some sort of physical affection with you, everyone knows that you're taken by him. I mean, he always had the fear, but never expected it to actually happen. And it scratches on his insecurities due to that person giving you better presents. He just starts feeling like he isn't good enough yet and whenever you seem to like this presents, he feels a painful pang in his chest. Please don't keep them and don't let him catch you eating or using the present. Not only does it lead him to violently rip it out of your hand and throw it far away with a tearfilled expression on his face, it might really lead him to crying and clinging onto you afterwards. Please...please don't ever think about leaving him.

🌧He is desperate and afraid of you just leaving him like everyone else did and due to that feels rushed to get rid of that student, even more if he keeps witnessing you using those things and liking them. Hard to say if he's more eager to do so if he isn't together with you or is. I would say it's pretty equal even though it's of course more painful to watch for him if he is your boyfriend and the person still tries. They must have a lot of confidence to do that and that makes him see them even more as danger than they are already. He will find out through either two different ways.

🌧The first would be that he starts attending the school super early just to catch the person red-handed doing their crime which will lead to an instant confrontation where he will grab the other person by the collar and start shouting and threatening, warning them to stay away or else he will use more unpleasant methods. The other would be that his friends will help him since they will notice how much this thing seems to bother Kageyama. He still feels like he has to do something to show that he is the better guy since he doesn't like losing and I think Yachi and Hinata might be friendly enough to help him organizing a cute date for you and him.

Tōru Oikawa

👑It is a bit hard for someone to give his darling better gifts than Oikawa does considering the fact that he knows exactly what presents to buy and to gift next to the fact that he scares competion away really easily. Oikawa sees himself as the best present anyways so it's no wonder he tends to underestimate other people. He has no shame about pampering his darling, be that with material objects, a lot of compliments and affection even before entering a relationship and just his undivined attention and adoration in general. Iwaizumi seriously has to drag him away or else he will really spend all his money on you. It isn't like Oikawa cares.

👑Oikawa started making it clear that you're untouchable the moment he started pinning after you. People know that he doesn't let anyone near his object of interest, but it will come to a surprise to many just how possessive he is when it comes to you, the way he glares at anyone with those dark and sinister eyes and how he constantly monopolizes your time. He is in all honesty at first a bit dumbfounded to find out that there is still another idiot who doesn't get it. That's before he somewhat snaps on the inside, swearing to find them. In general he wouldn't be triggered that much since he feels like he is the real deal and no one can compete with him since he can treat you the best. But if someone really does manage to give you better presents, it's a direct blow to his ego and clashes with his all so pretty delusions. It's a matter of course that it leads him to try even harder with his wooing since now he does feel a bit threatened.

👑So expect how he will feel if he is already officially together with his darling. Is someone trying to kid him or what is this supposed to be?! The first time he saw that present in your spint or wherever you found it and knew it wasn't from him, he just took it and threw it in the trashcan, having gone weirdly silent after realizing just how expensive this shit was. Now he is officially ready to do something which isn't pretty and it all becomes worse and worse the more he has to throw gifts away, every time noticing how expensive it is.

👑He just can't and won't realize that there is someone who spoils you better than he can. He's in denial and out of desperation he will suddenly become clingy in a more insecure way since Oikawa is either on top of the world or somewhere deep down buried. For probably the first time he starts sensing a real rival which makes him anxious and he definitely will guilt-trip you, especially if you become mad at him for throwing the presents of the other student away.

👑He has his ways of finding out and believe me, he's mad right now. He's even more irked due to the fact that they really did manage to give you better presents than him. And he has his ways of getting informations, don't forget that he is skilled when it comes to wrapping people around his fingers. He will start socializing more, maybe even using his fangirls to his advantage, just about everything to find the culprit who did all of this. And then there will hell wait for the person who did this, you can bet on that.

👑He will totally start bullying them, blackmail them and make sure that they either stop courting you or, which sounds more likely since they did piss him off greatly, somehow make up rumors about them and humiliate them indirectly in public without getting caught whilst also letting everyone know that they were the one who sent you all the gifts which will lead you to losing that feeling of admiration due to all the disgust and uncertainty due to the rumors. It will escalate to the student leaving the school thanks to Oikawa terrorizing them. He will never admit that there might be someone who's better than him.

Kōtarō Bokuto

🦉He is spoiling due to the amount affection and love he gives you, it is nearly on the same level as with Oikawa. That does not mean he won’t waste a lot of money on you either, Akashi has to step in and talk him out of emptying his whole wallet. But he also thinks that his love and ways of showing his love are also a present. And he is pretty shameless with it as well, even before he even was in a relationship with his darling he was already all over her since in his mind the two of them were already dating.

🦉Delusional Yanderes like him are already difficult to deal with in such situations. Bokuto believes that his darling already loves him as well so he wouldn’t at first get jealous for the reason that he is starting to feel insecure. He just feels jealous because someone tries to get in the way of your and his happy love story. This doesn’t sit well with him and it will lead him to becoming mad. It’s rather odd in the first place for someone to try this because despite not being really together with you yet, Bokuto already acts like your boyfriend by constantly being with you and calling you his baby and sweetie. His feelings are presented on a silver plate like this and since his totally bombastic personality when jealous is difficult and tiring to deal with, people do not try to get anywhere near his darling since they know that he’s needy.

🦉So due to his delusions his reactions would be pretty much the same, the only difference would be that in one scenario you know he’s your boyfriend and in the other one you don’t know yet. He does not fear you leaving him, you two are madly in love after all. But the thing that annoys him here so much is that not only someone tries to court you whilst it’s at least clear to him that you two are somewhat like soulmates, but also that they go with such extreme methods.

🦉It ticks him off and it will lead him to becoming more moody, especially if you even seem to fall for this cheap tricks. Then you will have the owl boy clinging onto you more than usual and whining for every bit of attention and affection you might give him. Will seriously go into emo mood when seeing you being actually happy with those presents. That person is manipulating you!!

🦉What a great friend Akaashi is to help him in here, isn’t he? Maybe the whole team will start helping to find the person at one point since Bokuto will start being in emo mood more than usual which can have in a long shot affect the play style of them greatly. Especially if you two are together with your awareness they might step in faster to lend him a helping hand. It isn’t like Bokuto doesn’t rely on only their help, he suddenly starts seriously asking every person he he suspects might like you or even do as much as shortly glancing your way questions, trying to find the culprit.

🦉If he does find out, most likely due to the help of his team, he wouldn’t go violent. He would just totally blabber and ramble to the person until their ears are about to bleed, afterwards getting a few nice advices from the team that with Bokuto being after you or being already together with you, hope is lost. It’s also disrespectful to court someone who has already a boyfriend. Bokuto wants afterwards definitely to show you his love even more, leading him to buying you more stuff than usual and also getting some tips from Akaashi on how to gift you something more thoughtful and going on great dates with you.

Keiji Akaashi

🍁Akaashi is a gentleman for his darling. He is quite the dream boy to have and there are definitely people jealous knowing that he is in love with you or already your boyfriend. He is thoughtful with his presents and I feel like he would be more into homemade stuff. Be that your favorite food he made himself, small love letters and encouraging notes or anything like this, he will give it to you. Feels also like someone who would often buy you flowers. Quality time and acts of service are another way how he shows his love, always scheduling dates and planning something where the two of you can enjoy yourselves. On special events he would be spoiling with a lot of money as well, birthdays, anniversaries or Christmas.

🍁In general he knows that, if you should be only a crush, he can’t really expect others who might like you to stay back just because he started making his move on you. He would feel the jealousy and rivalry everyone will feel when finding out something like this. But here is the thing. I think he wouldn’t take it that badly like many others in here would. Sure, he does feel a bit threatened when seeing the presents. But here it depends a bit on whether they’re just really expensive or also a bit thoughtful. He does definitely show his love for you through material stuff, but he appreciates much more making stuff himself or just spending time with you. Buying love with expensive stuff is a bit low in his opinion next to the fact that the admirer stays in the shadows whilst Akaashi expresses his liking more openly. A man gotta express his feelings openly and not disguise himself, at least that’s what counts for him.

🍁However, if he should be already your boyfriend this definitely is very inappropriate as well as disrespectful to witness. He might not be clingy, at least not to that extreme extent, like Bokuto is, but still, everyone knows about you two since he often accompanies you to your classes or is often seen staring lovingly at you. So witnessing despite all of this still someone trying to go after you is a bit...disappointing to say the least. It of course also depends on what the person is thinking whilst doing this.

🍁If they know that you’re taken and just want to express their adoration somehow, he might be a bit more understanding. But if they intend to court you like this despite seeing that you’re already taken by your man Akaashi, he would be more strict. But in general I feel like Akaashi has confidence in that you won’t leave him for something like this since he, as mentioned above, thinks someone should openly show their liking and not only rely on trying to win someone through only diamonds and gold. That’s such a cheap and pathetic thing to do.

🍁If he is your boyfriend I honestly believe that other students might tell him who the guy is who keeps gifting you stuff. Whilst there are definitely people who are jealous of his darling, I also think you two are seen as a dream couple that many people look up to and for that don’t really want something disturbing this relationship. If he should still be in the process of courting, it might actually be a bit similar to the previous scenario. Someone telling him.

🍁In that case maybe not some stranger, but your good friends since they would, like every good friend, definitely want you to hit a jackpot like Akaashi. Bokuto is definitely up for helping his friend as well and it isn’t like Akaashi will just sit still either. Akaashi is luckily not that intense and violent, he’ll just talk it out. I do feel like if you’re already his girl at that time, he would be a lot more cruel since the fact that someone tried to court you whilst clearly knowing that he is together with you still really shameful. He just sees it as a bit under someone’s honor to do this.

Kenma Kozume

🐱With Kenma the chance of getting courted is really likely, especially during the time where you were his crush with whom he was obsessed. It’s common knowledge that Kenma hates being in the center of attention or being under too many people which is why he prefers to watch somewhere from the distance where he doesn’t have to endure your curious friends checking him out or being caught staring at you. So it’s a bit hard for him to properly show at first his love. However, after he did manage to confess he started expressing his love mainly through a lot of cuddling and spending a lot of time with you even though in school he’s still a bit more reversed.

🐱People might think that secret admirer of yours is the only person liking you which is why your friends might start shipping you with them. In reality that is not true, but the only persons knowing that are Kenma and Kuroo. Problem is that despite following all possible social media accounts you might have or following you around and staring at you, Kenma doesn’t really signal others that he has his eyes set on you and since he’s antisocial all of this is even more complicated.

🐱It definitely pokes at his insecurities a lot, especially when he sees that the person buys you really expensive and nice presents. How are you supposed to like him with someone like this after you? I see Kuroo being highly supportive of his liking towards you and that guy will help him, even if Kenma doesn’t want his help. So it might happen that you two get introduced per ‘accident’ to each other through Kuroo who will have to assist a bit because Kenma might just die out of embarrassment. He has no idea what to say.

🐱The person admiring you can not be really blamed because you and Kenma aren’t exactly often seen. He does trail behind you more closely more and people do notice his intense stare whenever someone talks to you next to the fact that you and Kuroo often emphasize that you and him are together. But not many people know if this is true or not and if they try to talk to Kenma he flees since he hates being in the spotlight forcefully like this.

🐱And Kenma is aware that this is also his fault for not making more clear that he is your boyfriend. You know he’s watching so please just don’t take the present with you home and use it. He knows it’s expensive, but just don’t. It is guaranteed anyways that he will be later on in private extremely clingy due to this. And at one point he will become bold enough and throw away the stuff himself because it now annoys and bothers him a lot. You wouldn’t leave him for that, do you?

🐱His limits aren’t that easily to push which doesn’t mean he won’t be above using bullying if the threat becomes too huge. But I do think that thanks to his black-haired friend this won’t be necessary. Kuroo is just so protective over Kenma and happy that that guy found finally love that he for sure won’t let some other jerk take Kenma’s darling away from him. He will find that guy himself if he has too and have a talk with them. In the case of you being his girlfriend there is also the chance that you might be protective over him as well, meaning you won’t leave him for that which Kenma will use via guilt-tripping to his advantage.

Satori Tendou

❤️He’s pretty doting and sweet to his darling after entering a relationship with them since he was before entering an official relationship with them too nervous to approach them, afraid that they might not like him since he’s the certified weirdo for everyone. There were just weird rumors about him and he was frightened his darling might believe them. His main way of showing love is through a lot of physical affection and smothering his s/o in general a lot. Similar to Akaashi I feel like he would be into homemade stuff and if I remember right after growing up he became a chocolatier so you can definitely expect him wanting to make a lot of this sweet stuff later on, also with you together.

❤️If we’re talking about the time where he wasn’t together with his darling yet, he would honestly feel a bit anxious about all of this. I do see him as someone who would occasionally leave you small presents as well, but he knows from all the turbulence your friends make about all of this and from actually seeing the gifts that whoever did this really is keen on impressing you. He’s really insecure about himself when it comes to his darling and witnessing something like this is really all reason to panic since he is possessive over you. He will become visibly more depressed, not his usual sardonic being around his teammates what will have them worry. Who knows, he might tell Ushijima his problem even though I doubt that guy would be a big help given his social stiffness.

❤️Whilst he would definitely be still a bit insecure if this should happen if he is already in a happy love story with you, he will be more mad about this than insecure. Reason is because he feels since you’ve already chosen him, you wouldn’t leave him that easily for someone else. He gained confidence after you accepted him and for that will focus more on thinking about how to put a stop to this currently unpleasant problem that keeps appearing weekly on your table or in your locker.

❤️He surely won’t let his paradise leave him for a moron who didn’t get that you’re his. His way of before and after you accepted him are fairly different. Whilst he was never really seen with you before after news spread out that you two are dating he was suddenly everywhere you are and people tend to feel uncomfortable from the way he keeps interrupting conversations his darling has with others, staring intensely at the other person and starting to indirectly tease them. Please give him all the presents so he can either throw them off the next mountain or burn them, he wants that stuff to be gone.

❤️Tendou would be a lot more mad in the scenario where he is already together with you since he worries now a bit less about you liking the other guy better than him since you already chose him. He would be somewhat more rushing in the other case where he isn’t together with you yet since he is driven in here by fear of the other student successfully courting you which would break his rather fragile heart and he would like to avoid that if possible.

❤️Feel like he might be able to find the culprit himself by his infamous guessing ability plus the fact that I believe as a girlfriend you would be loyal to him due to knowing from his past which Tendou sometimes used to his advantage. So it’s either that his darling will reject the person or Tendou will teach them a lesson, in the best worst scenario both. Tendou does not intend to let someone else take his darling away from him.

Tsutomu Goshiki

🌟Omo, I’m glad he gets so much love, more than I expected. Goshiki shows his love in various ways. First of all as a worshipper he keeps complimenting his darling and tell them daily what he thinks is great and beautiful on them. He’s also really protective in the sense that he keeps nagging someone until they either apologize if they should have said something bad or admit to Goshiki’s opinion that you’re great. Next to that he is affectionate, highly as well. The biggest way of showing his love is still that he does anything to impress you and get acknowledged by you, he’s overzealous.

🌟Did I say he’s incredibly ambitious? With a crush he’s too obviously if I’m being honest. Even the most oblivious person will notice from the way he keeps staring at you with pink hearts in his eyes and how he constantly trails behind you, next to many other facts. Be that being really defensive of you or, the most common thing to witness by students and teachers, him trying to get your attention and being acknowledged for his skills. He wants to impress his darling. So what exactly do you expect him to do after being a witness of such a thing? He feels threatened in his position as future boyfriend as well as jealous. And jealousy leads him to suddenly being all too motivated at beating the other person.

🌟Him being already your boyfriend is straightforward ridiculous to everyone who sees the presents which are obviously not from him. He isn’t threatening or scary like others, but his jealousy is painful in another way. Because he keeps challenging persons who made him jealous until they’re about to collapse and he still wants to go further just to show you that whatever might have caught your attention on them before, he can do it better now. He’s feared in another way.

🌟Not only this, but now Goshiki sees this as an official war because doing something like this when everyone in Shiratorizawa is aware of you two is like saying to him: “I can treat her better.” It will definitely make him a bit angry, but he is also not someone to back down from this bold challenge. He feels provoked and in his pride a bit wounded. Especially if you would actually show liking to the presents, he will feel challenged as well as being pouty about it afterwards to you. He won’t take the presents away from you, but it definitely irks him if he should see you eating them if it is something to eat or using them somehow.

🌟He is so incredibly needy for praises and adoration from his darling and the moment an obstacle stops him from getting it, he tends to push himself. If he doesn’t have enough money fine then, he’ll start working to earn more. If the other person bought you really expensive cake or any other sort of food fine then, he’ll spend the next few weeks practicing until he’s sure that he became decent enough to let you try it.

🌟It’s that way in either case and his poor teammates will have to endure all his complaints and speeches about what he will do better and try to impress you. But the worst part will definitely fall to your secret admirer who will realize that a certain bowl head won’t stop or give up. Because as soon as Goshiki knows the identity of them, he’ll challenge them to whatever there might be to do, meaning a physical exercise which will exhaust everyone, but Goshiki will still want to go. Next to that he will talk so much that the other person’s ears might fall off. The final point is definitely that once Goshiki starts seeing someone as a potential rival, he never fully stops letting it go. He holds surprisingly long grudges.

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Hey! I never thought this blog would be active again. I really like your old alastor works <3 do you think you can do headcanons of Dad!Alastor and Kid!Reader? thanks a bunch love your work :)

((Hahahaha u didn't ask for angst but im here to give it anyways. UwU Enjoy~))

You were too young. Too small. You know it really irked him in all the wrong ways that he cared so much. You weren't even his kid. You were just the kid that he took in... right? You were just the kid he saw himself in, nothing else? He was just being nice. So why the hell did he care so much. Why the hell was it so damn sad to see you in that casket. It didn't make sense in his mind at all.

When he first met you, you were just a little kid, probably no older than 10. He wouldn't know, not that he asked. You were causing him quite the trouble for Alastor. You see, you were a spunky troublesome child who loved getting into places where you didn't belong. He first found you hiding in the backyard of his radio studio. It was an old brick building squished in between many others that looked just the same.

You were homeless and orphaned like kids your age. You kept stealing his trash, causing him to first mistaken you for some kind of raccoon. He wouldn't call it pity but decided to introduce himself. He was nice, friendly and formal, he gave you food which you didn't trust at first. You weren't shy and you spoke your mind. But since you made yourself at him in the tiny little plot of a backyard this building had, Alastor decided to let you stay on the second floor of his radio studio. He owned the whole building and only used the basement and first floor. So there wasn't much of a reason for him to not let you stay there.

Anytime you swore, he reminded you that it was unbecoming of a child to have such bad manners. When he caught you stealing some of his liquor, he wasn't afraid to give you a firm lecture on not stealing from him. But he didn't seem to care that you somehow always managed to get your hands on some type of booze every now and again.

You grew to love his cooking. Every day he'd come to the radio studio (Except Sundays, you were on your own then) He'd bring some type of breakfast he made at home. He was very good at it, and he learned to cook your favorite meals. Even if he didn't like that meal at all, he'd still make it for you. And at night, he'd always leave you ten dollars on a table before heading home himself.

After a while Alastor bought you several new pairs of clothes, "You look dreadfully awful in those rags." He told you while throwing a bag full of new and clean clothes at you.

You started calling him, "Al," as much as he disliked it. He said it was rude, seeing as he was your elder and that you should show them as much respect as possible, especially if they were so well known and "famous" by his standards.

He'd even let you sit down and listen in on his radio show. You sat on the other side of the glass and watched with a smile and laughed at his silly little jokes. If you were lucky, every once in a while you could pick out the songs he'd play between shows.

Perhaps Alastor started to care when you got sick. You had been staying in his radio studio for almost six months now. That's when you came down with a cold. Neither you nor Alastor thought anything of it at first. However it progressed quickly, and Alastor found himself helpless. It enraged him along with the weight of the unwanted responsibility of caring for a sick child. But at some point, he knew he couldn't keep you in the old brick building anymore. But he couldn't bring himself to take you to his home either.

With the heavy gravity of his station and the undesired guilty that came along with it, Alastor couldn't find it in him to live with his actions. That's why you were in the casket now, or maybe he did do the best he could. Regardless, even the doctors at the hospital where he dropped you off in the night couldn't stop your illness either. Surely, if a doctor couldn't save you, what made him think that he could.

He was the only one to show up to the undertaker and tell your story. For all the undertaker knew, you were just another dead kid with no family of your own. So it was a surprise when Alastor showed up to pay for your casket and pay for your tomb. He couldn't bear to do more than that. Alastor left after looking over your casket for what felt like hours.

That night he went home, and for the first time in a while, he felt a deep sadness followed by remorse. These feelings would haunt him for the rest of his life. It'd always be a nagging little voice, reminding him of the child he dared to take in if only for half a year, only for them to end up and die. He spent the rest of his life pretending it didn't happen, moving on the best he could while always remembering the tragedy he couldn't have ever stopped. He spent the rest of his life well, in his eyes, to the point that he did not fear death.

But it was so unrealistically sad when he did die. Because he remembered you. He remembered the spunky little kid that would beat him at checkers. Who'd swear up and down and scold him for being late. Who genuinely seemed to look up and respect him. How stupid of him, to remember those moments so vividly and to forget everything else. When the light went out, and the darkness filled in, he somewhat expected that would be it. How could anything else happen after death besides light out? He kept hearing a voice in the distance. How annoying, couldn't he just spend these moments in silent darkness. But he heard it again, and again. As it grew louder, it was more clear as he began to open his eyes into a dark and dreary new world. He heard the voice again and spun around. "Al, is that you?"

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