#like im responsible for so much bulled shit

[orkbutch]

my b if this comes off weird but you’re a cool butch so i thought maybe you’d have some insightful thoughts about what to say to a baby butch who isn’t confident they’ll ever look like anything more than a baby faced twink.

You're gonna get a kind of delirious ramble for this one sorry bud. idk if you're talking about yourself or someone else you want to support, but ... the idea of a "baby faced twink" butch isn't really rooted in what butches look like imo! Older butches tend to be everyone's icons, and age weathers your face; a lot of the handsome older butches we look up to were "baby faced". They were still cool butches when they were young. When I shave my beard I look babyfaced. If you want a beard, get on the T and see what happens I guess, but that isn't what makes a butch at all. Lots of butches have soft/round faces, small or delicate features, ect. I'm gonna be talking very much from my own view and experience here, but for me my butchness is about attitude. That has to do with how you dress, how you treat people and your own confidence. Dress cool, feel cool. Clothing and presentation is a big part of butch identity because it gives a powerful kick of confidence that underlies a lot of butch attitude. The confidence to wear whatever you want, regardless of how that makes you look in wider society. The confidence to take masculinity and make it your own, and disregard the hang ups men have about their height or strength or how chiseled their features are. Thats man shit. Don't let yourself buy into it too much. I know it feels like everyone else is so you kinda have to, but there's gonna be plenty of people that recognize your butchness without that shit. I think, truly, confidence and trusting yourself are huge parts of being butch. FEELING yourself. Every butch I've seen that people find particularly sexy/admireable are kinda smug. That's butch swagger, an underlying self-assurance, leaning into your own coolness and masculinity. Not to an off putting level, just a little. There are lots of ways to build your confidence! Focus on the responsibilities you have that you handle. Do shit that makes you feel good. Admire parts of your body that you enjoy. I like weight lifting for that - its helpful that it happens to give you muscles eventually, but even just the act of doing it fills me with a cocky confidence that feeds my butch masculinity. It makes me feel masc and hot. Same with cooking a beautiful meal for a date, or putting together a great outfit.

When I'm on my leathers, I feel peak butch. I feel hot, I feel strong, its like armour. I put it on and I become a certain version of myself. I look cool, I feel cool. It genuinely changes how I think. For me, butchness is both my identity and a form of gender play. Its something I can suit up for it, and when I take the suit off im still A Butch, but I'm not Doing Butchness. Doing Butchness is vital for feeling grounded and connected to being butch, though. Even though they're different, they're interconnected and important.

anyway. thats my butch ramble (i had a red bull and am on 0 meds so its very chaotic)

#ask

[lestappenforever]

Hello my lovely, your social-psychological anon haunting your inbox once more- can you tell I have such awful lestappen and f1 brain rot? 🤭

I have some thoughts on rbr lestappen but I first want to comment on the wonderful ask from anon who referenced the Max reacting to Charles’ comment on him video. That’s exactly right- every small comment from Charles is most likely obsessively internalised and dissected to the extreme- and what Mona speaks about in response of how max and Charles have been tied together from childhood with even Jos verstappen saying they will fight forever - it makes me wonder, and this is pure speculation- but there is a method to my madness - if there was an element of Jos setting Charles on a pedestal (you know im that annoying way that parents go “look at this [insert achieved acquaintance] they are such a good example you ought to learn from them” which breeds resentment but once again I speak from experience in an athletically competitive environment, it also breeds admiration because here is this other person who is amazing at this sport). We know that Jos has a specific way of disciplining max in racing (saying he will never achieve anything , that he will be a truck or taxi driver) which makes me wonder if Jos used Charles as a marker of success (“Charles is so good/ you won’t be like Charles he will go onto f1 and you won’t”) to encourage and cultivate Max’s competitive spirit. And that’s why max hated charles but also admired him and because charles had Jos’ approval, by extension charles is automatically in a position to give that approval to max. I’ve never really thought of it this way but it really would make sense why max is so eager to please Charles and cares so much about what he thinks of him because throughout maxs childhood Charles was the benchmark, he was the golden boy (still is), he was what max sought to reach.

This theory would support and give greater contextual depth to what I said previously about max ignoring interviews because he is just so happy to have Charles’ attention and is afraid of losing it; he just values it so highly. Also pay attention to when Charles is talking, max almost always demonstrates active listening by nodding but he does so much more to show he is involved with adding hand signs and affirmatives of “yeah me too, I had the same thing, on turn 1 right?” To really show how engaged he is and also to keep Charles’ attention too by engaging him in literally every way possible during a conversation.

So thank you so much for such interesting thoughts I value them so highly and am so happy that people actually like these takes and understand/ see what I see not just from a shipping perspective because I find their interactions and relationship just so fascinating and full of nuance.

Anyway, back on track; some brain thoughts on rbr Charles and Lestappen teammates. There are a series of concerns and complaints I will go over like the whole 1-2 driver strategy and how they’re both WC contenders and it would be unfair for Charles to be a second driver/ how Charles polished personality does not fit the red bull vibe/ and how he would be entering a team that literally orbits max plus the infamous second red bull seat curse.

Well my two cents on this is that all of these concerns are wrong because:

- red bull have stated, very dramatically, during the initial rumours of talks held with Lando and Charles that they are abandoning the traditional 1-2 driver format and they want two championship contenders. This has been said I am sure but I have to reiterate the point that F1 is not just a sport in the way that Olympic events are about the sport. F1 is a show, you’re there for the races but also for the drama for the content for the interactions and the entertainment. And red bull pride themselves in being “shit stirrers” and just an out of pocket team (which I think is beautiful 😂🫡) and if any team would take risks like that in abandoning the traditional format it will be red bull and they will absolutely throw themselves into providing this. It is also likely that they decided on this very early in the season (before they started talks w either Charles or Lando) because that is also when Max changed the tune of his horn by saying he would like to have Charles as a teammate whereas last year he was like absolutely not because Charles doesn’t deserve to be second driver. So technically max revealed their departure from 1-2 strategy before red bull made it clear (around mid season). I feel like someone literally switched a mental gear in max’s head where he was like “Charles is my rival he could never be a second driver” and someone went “what about we let you be teammates and rivals at the same time” and max’s brain just short circuited

- As for Charles coming into this equation - into a team so heavily focused on max- I don’t think that’s an issue. We have seen -especially in recent weeks- that Charles seems to really get on with the rb team and has a good relationship with them so he isn’t like a complete outsider coming into a team that is resistant to having him on board. I think the most incriminating thing from lestappen gate so far (there is so much omg) is the interactions with the red bull team. Not the drivers but the rb representative in Mexico and Brad this weekend. We have been speculating on the rb Charles rumours since the start of the season and not once have we seen this happen that other teams mechanics are congratulating and interacting with another teams drivers (it’s even more incriminating because it’s red bull, like the most aggressively competitive team on the grid). Plus it just doesn’t happen, I really don’t remember ever seeing this except when an ex driver was congratulated by their previous team (checo w racing point after move to rbr and Seb w red bull after move to Ferrari). Huge bonus is that very fascinating interaction w Christian and Christian’s general tendency toward defending Charles and praising him. He really does act at times as if Charles is an rbr golden boy, I have noticed this year more than ever Christian and even GP saying “Charles” rather than “Leclerc” on the radio and it just conveys a degree of familiarity that we haven’t really seen before. It is extremely obvious to me that they want him there and have de facto adopted him.

- the rbr second seat curse literally stems from the fact that rbr, up to now, have had a 1-2 strategy where the second driver simply cannot keep up the max. They are nowhere near maxs level nor do their driving styles compliment maxs. Though checo’s defending is a really good compliment to maxs “attacking” though he just cannot keep up and with the capabilities of the rb19 and Maxs ability to absolutely send it, there is no real use in defending, also check just can’t keep up like he can’t even defend himself in midfield let alone max. He will pull one or two absolute bangers out of the bag but he cannot keep up with the pace, the intensity and the pressure especially when it comes with actually extracting everything that absolute rocket ship has to offer. I think rbr recognised this and this is another reason for them wanting two contenders 1) for showmanship and entertainment and living up to their brand as unorthodox risk takers and 2) 1-2 strategy has thus far led to a string of inadequate second drivers. Obviously Charles is a great option for a second contender driver but more so than just being able to keep up with max, he has almost the same exact driving style and car preference. Every time they talk about racing each other they always say they especially enjoy their fights because it’s always on the limit they’re always pushing each other always attacking and we know that max is aggressive in his driving style but I don’t think people really pay attention to how aggressive Charles is, he is just a bit more calculated about it (like overtaking Lewis then braking into him so tsunoda can catch up to Lewis and pick at him before speeding off whereas max would have just done a clean overtake and sped away) when there is a chance of overtake he always goes for it and does so aggressively (he just has a tendency to get bogged down when he qualifies in the mid field because he does not have the right car that is suited to his preferences enough for extraordinary overtakes). The way he drives the car also is so fascinating because it’s the same as max (look at Baku qualifying lap and look at their racing lines), they both literally throw their cars and push them to the absolute limit which is why Charles is such a quali beast because he knows how to wrench every ounce of pace out of an uncooperative tractor. Both he and max have a preference for borderline un-drivable cars that heavily lean into oversteer with a light back making the car extremely sensitive. If they were both teammates I actually believe that they would be grid terrorists- if their car would look anything like the rb19 they would take off with a 10sec gap to p3 and be battling each other for p1. If they find themselves more tightly squeezed by others (or somehow end up in midfield) they would almost intuitively work together because they know how the other drives and they most likely can predict the others moves

- About tensions on the team between two competitors, I think that is an inevitability but I really don’t think it would ever reach the type of explosiveness we have seen previously because of everything else that these analysis type of asks have said- the respect is there, tiptoeing around each other is there- wanting to please the other is there- if anything, there would be a greater inclination toward cooperation and fighting together against the others because of that special relationship between max and Charles, the performative aspect of the relationship- to prove that max and Charles are the same and that they (as a duo) are different than the rest of the grid and that it is them against the others except it would be much intensified if they were teammates by proximity and having so many opportunities to interact. It would strengthen their bond but as I have previously said, it will not remove that special aspect of their relationship.

- Also just a side note: you cannot convince me that Christian Horner, red bull and max wouldn’t be bending over backwards to ensure Charles wins in Monaco. Max wouldn’t give it to him because that wouldn’t be a win but he absolutely would punt anyone trying to challenge Charles into the bay and I just know that Christian Horner would treat his golden boys right, it would genuinely be a dream come true for him and helmut and just amazing for red bull and their image of “literally unstoppable team that snagged Ferraris star driver and have bagged the inevitable and the predestined, F1’s literal future, in one team and gave them an intercontinental ballistic missile to drive, one that would cause any other driver to bottle it into the wall because it is an otherwise un-drivable oversteery piece of work.”

In conclusion, I think teammate lestappen would be absolutely extraordinary. They would fight each other and push each other up to the edge and when one of them is about to fall the other pulls him back. Absolutely unstoppable duo and I hope that Charles has come to his sense even slightly about Ferrari that, like most dreams, it does not live up to expectations. There are clearly very ugly team politics involved and a healthy does of nepotism, complacency and riding the historical prestige wave and the unfailing loyalty of their fans.

Fingers crossed for lestappen podium today 🫶✨

Social-psychological anon coming into my inbox claiming they are haunting my inbox, and then proceeding to provide yet another excellent take on Lestappen, including the potential Lestappen RBR teammates.

Babe, love, darling, if this is you haunting my inbox, then I would like to be haunted for the rest of my life, please and thank you.

Social-psychological anon, I adore you more than words can say. Crossing everything I have for a Lestappen podium today. 🤞🫶

#Asks #Lestappen asks #Social-psychological anon #Lestappen dynamics anons #Lestappen gate 2023

[outivv]

— “I’m not sick…” “you just sneezed on your laptop.” —

Synopsis: they’re all in denial about being sick!!

Warnings: being sick I suppose?, minor swearing, mentions of medicine in azul’s part, and ofc not proofread

Characters: octavinelle

Pronouns for reader: gender neutral/ not mentioned

A/n: hello!! Of course my first post after being back would be for octavinelle. I mean c’mon. I they’re just so <3. Anyways!! Hope you enjoy, and take care of yourself so you don’t get sick like these fools!!

— Jade —

“You’re sick jade.” You Said flatly, to which the eel only responded with a sniffle and a glare. “You need to go back to your dorm and rest, else you won’t get any better y’know.” You were right, he knew you were. It was the perfect time to slip away too, in between periods would typically be when people would head to their dorms yo cut class. But, even if you were right, you swear you saw jades fake smile twitch at your comment, “well, I’m not even sick, so no reason to rest.” His composure is rather calm, considering he is very much sick. You let out a small hum in response, not believing anything he told you. Then you had an idea as you approached your class.

“Alright, if you make it through this next class, without season all over your notes, then sure, I’ll believe you.” His brows furrowed at your sly smile. You knew he couldn’t do it, he knew he couldn’t do it, and while he isn’t competitive, he has a constant need to be right. With that, he fixed his glare to a calm, yet menacing smile, “alright [name].“ he said as you entered your class. To which he immediately sneezed while barely even stepping foot through the doorframe. “Alright lets get you back to your dorm…“

— Floyd —

“Nooooo don’t leave me here” Floyd whined, grabbing into your uniform with his clammy… sick hands. “Floyd you are sick, you need to stay in the infirmary! And, I need to get to my class!” Your argument was futile though because well… its Floyd, and Floyd, does not care. “What do ya mean I’m sick?! I’m-“ he gets cut off by his own cough, “I’m fine!” You look at him unimpressed, and tilt your head, “uh huh, I’m sure you are, and thats why you have a temperature of 100 degrees” (in Fahrenheit, don’t worry metric users)

Floyd thought for a moment, thinking of a way to bull Shit his way out of this, which is funny cause he never really wanted to do school work, which is what he’d have to do if he wasn’t in the infirmary. Instead, he just wanted to hang out with you. “But… I’m an eel! Yeah yeah!! I’m different from humans!!” He said, his other hand grabbing onto your uniform. You quirked up an eyebrow, and sighed. “If I stay here will you actually rest and get better.” You rubbed your temples as Floyd nodded excitedly. Next week you got sick.

— Azul —

“Azul.” You sternly said, staring at the man who was working instead of resting in bed like he should be. “Hello darling, what can I do for you?” You crossed your arms, a glare on your face. ‘Shit shit, they are pissed’ Azul thought, but kept his composure on the outside. “I want you to go back to bed, and rest, I will take care of the lounge for the day, hell even the whole week if I have to!” His face softened at your words, how kind of you to do that for him… no! Snap out of it azul! “Whatever do you mean? I don’t need to rest im not even sick” he said, trying to ignore his nasally voice, and mass amounts of tissues in his garbage can.

You sighed, “uh huh, what’s that then.” You said pointing at the cough medicine next to him. His stomach dropped to the floor as he realized he was caught red handed. “Well… uh…” he said trying to literally hold back a sneeze right in front of you. “Azul, if you’re sick then you’re sick and thats fine, now c’mon lets get you back to bed.” You kindly said, and just as he was going to protest he sneezed all over his laptop.

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[uninformedartist]

I don't know if you have ever talked about this situation yet but I wanted to know your thoughts about this because it's gotten worse and I've seen fans still try and compare both Lackadaisy and Helluva..now, let me just say that I do agree that the Lackadaisy Team should discuss this situation and see what's going on, especially when it's a member of the team and they should be held accountable. But it's VERY hypocritical for the HB/HH attacks the Lackadaisy fandom and say they're not gonna support it because of ONE bad apple and say it's a toxic fanbase, but they'll continue to support Viv and the Spindlehorse team even though they have been called out, especially Viv, for acting unprofessional and whining and complaining and just acting like man children whenever HB gets criticism (even when it's out of love and respect and wanting to see it improve) and there's also so much proof of Viv being a horrible person, and yet fans continue to brush it off and see it as nothing and attack the ones who were hurt and mistreated behind the scenes and the fans just see Viv as this "Perfect Angel Who Could Do No Wrong 😇" but when it comes to others, especially with this Lackadaisy Vs HB drama that's been going on, some fans have admitted they just not support it. It's just hypocritical to me especially since as I said, Viv has been called out for being horrible and yet fans continue to kiss her feet and harass and bully anybody who dares to criticize and call her out and have even went as far as Doxxing just because not everyone likes their little demon show. I honestly feel like the fans don't actually care if anyone's been mistreated and hurt by Viv, as long as they get their demon show that's all that matters to them..they don't care or give shit about people being abused and it's just so damn sad, especially when a lot of these fans are grown adults who should know better and be the better people. :(

I haven't talked about this situation specifically but mentioned it other posts briefly. Zebirdbrain was found to be Transphobic from the tweets they liked/ inteacted with.

Its good they were called and the lackadaisy team should address this issue it is very serious. Its also true what you say very true it is hypothetical that the helluva fanbase is so heavy on calling out Birdbrain but ignore Viv's discord conversations and Ken's call out post with a passion all that show blatant Transphobia, missgendering and ace-phobia.

Evidence:

Excerpts from Ken's call out post:

The fans Don't care and Don't want to care. They remain in this blissful ignorant mindset and have this self righteous attitude towards anyone that speaks out against Viv. They just want their demon show even if its at the cost of others. They also don't care about the problematic spindlehorse staff members but care so much about the lackadaisy problematic staff. Again good for calling birdbrain out just don't be a hypocrite and pick and choose who you call out, if they problematic they problematic call that shit out. Im referring to Raphielle and nicolebsicrete on the spindlehorse staff. Raphielle has a drawn numerous r*pe artworks of Angel dust, Vox and Val and has a r*pe ship between the.

And nicolebsicrete likes problematic fictional ships and stories they are an active rick and morty shipper (this is their old bio description, if you look now it has changed but still stands)

And Viv interactions A LOT with them so there is no way Viv doesn't know they're problematic, Raphielle is very explicit on his shipping and posts aswell well as nicolebsicrete.

At the end of they day the hypocrisy is strong even if they're grown adults (supposedly) in Viv's fanbase, there is a level of expected responsibility on them to call out Viv and staff on their bull. But the fanbase is not that and are quick to call out (justifiably so) a problematic lackadaisy staff and other people but ignores all evidence of Viv and staff doing exactly the same this and worse but its all praise, dismissal on any evidence and give so much support for Viv and problematic spindlehorse staff.

Link to Ken's post:

https://www.docdroid.net/zyvFyCb/kens-experience-pdf

#vivziepop critical #spindlehorse critical #my post #tw proship #tw rap3 mentioned #helluva boss critical #asked and answered

[tomholland1996simp]

Tessa and Rocco || Tom holland

Summary: Could you make a funny imagine where the reader has a dog that’s a boy and maybe they catch Tessa and that dog doing things?

Short but cute and funny

Me and Tom have been dating for 2 years onow, and today we decided to go out to the shopping centre. Tom lives in his own apartment with his dog Tessa and his brother Harry. Tessa is a Staffordshire Bull Terrier and is a amazing cute dog.

She's a sweetheart.

I also have a dog that's a staff Bull Terrier called Rocco. And he's not as much of a sweetheart as Tessa, he is cute and nice but the dog is a very horny dog. Tessa and Rocco love each other, there kinda like me and Tom. We both have lots of pictures of them laying together or kissing it's so cute!!!! 

"We're gonna leave in 10 minutes"

"Tommy are you sure there gonna be okay?" I ask my boyfriend.

"Yes babe. Harry is here to watch them both" he looks at Tessa and Rocco.

"I know. But he looks as if he's gonna fall asleep" I whisper to him.

"I heard that! I am watching them. All they need is food, water and to be played with its not that hard y/n" Harry snapped.

"Okay fine. Harry look after my favourite boy properly" I pat Rocco on the head.

"Hey! I thought I was your favourite boy?!" Tom fake pouted, crossing his arms.

"I thought you was a man" I smirk and move his arms so I can hug him.

"He really isn't a man. He's a 22 year old who still looks like a little boy" Harry chuckles.

"Very funny Harry. Let's go shall we" Tom pecked my lips and I nod.

Before I pulled away, I felt something clinging to my leg, claws taring my skin. I look down to see Rocco humping my leg and trying to pull on my leg more.

"Ouch Rocco. No" I try push him off but he jumps back on my leg.

"Rocco. No! She's mine. I can only do that with her, not you" Tom pushes Rocco off me and places me on the counter behind him.

"Y/N you need to sort out your horny dog and your soon to be horny boyfriend, that is apparently my brother" Harry rolls his eyes.

"I can help your brother with that problem just not my dog" I smirk at Tom.

"Ewwww! Can you both just go already" Harry whines.

"yeah we're going. Bye Harry, Tessa and Rocco, have fun!" I smile.

Me and Tom went to the shopping centre, to get some new things. I brought some clothes and makeup, whereas Tom brought new pair of shoes and I made him get these matching pjs with me. After we finished shopping we got some food and then ran into the pet store.

"Awww I'm gonna buy this for Tessa!" I showed him this cute outfit.

"That would be so cute, but I don't think she would wear that for so long" He chuckles.

"We'll just for pictures then it's too cute!" I smile.

We brought them some treats and a new big bed for them to share, when they stay at Toms apartment together.

Finally we arrived at Toms apartment, he opens the door and I walk in, taking my shoes off.

"Harry? We brought some food for you" I call out for the boy.

No response.

"HARRY!" Tom shouts.

No response.

We then both walk into the front room to see Harry sleeping on the sofa.

"I told you he would fall asleep" I walk over to Harry and shake his body.

"No stop. Im tired" Harry groans.

"Where's Rocco and Tessa?" Tom asks his sleepy brother.

"I don't know they were laying on the sofa" Harry sits up.

"Tessa. Come here girl" I shout, both me and Tom run up the stairs.

"Rocco" Tom calls.

Then we heard panting coming from Toms bedroom, well basically mine as well. I open the door slowly and saw something I didn't think I would ever see.

Rocco and Tessa were having sex on the bed😂 (This sounded funnier in my head)

"Tessa! Rocco!" I open the door wide.

"Shit! No. Rocco off" Tom pulls Rocco off Tessa.

"Omg. I can't believe this. Tom you do know anytime that Rocco and Tessa were left alone or weren't in our sight they could be....Tessa could get pregnant with puppies! Awwww" I say kinda excited.

"Noo. My princess just lost her virginity" Tom hugs Tessa.

"She's a dog Tom" Harry laughs whilst walking into the room.

"This is your fault Harry! And on the bed ewww"

"You do it on this bed. I'm surprised it's not broken. Maybe I need to try it on your bed" Harry smirks.

"Rocco your so horny! First my girl and now my Tessa" Tom chuckles.

"Yes Rocco my boy! Getting some action in his life-"

"Unlike you" I laugh.

"Wow. Just wow." Harry walks out the room.

"They would have cute puppies though" Tom smiles sitting next to me.

"But we would have cuter babies" I smirk.

"We would. I love you"

"I love you too Tommy" We both kiss and then I rest my head on his shoulder.

Harry screams, "AHHH Y/N YOUR DOG IS TRYING TO HUMP ME! I KNOW I HAVEN'T HAD ACTION IN AGES BUT I DONT WANT TO LIKE THIS! NO ROCCO NO!" You and Tom start to laugh.

#tom holland #tom holland x reader #fluff #tessa #tom #thomas holland #tom holland fic #follow me #imagine #hollandaccount #Viral

[capnkerfufflez]

I contain multitudes, so i made a uquiz for some of my quintessential sonas for fun

i dont really expect people to take it, but man i love an excuse to draw some of my boys i don't give much love to brief descriptions and the result descriptions under the cut

here's the link outside of just embed btw : https://uquiz.com/hkfS0R

in image order and i marked the number and color of the background above we have :

1 [red] E : non-fandom sona I use to vent mostly - "Conceptual Chaos Junkyard" / "CC Junkyard" so he's mostly negative traits of myself turned up to 11. He's the overly emotional and sentimental and over-reactive side of the duo between him and G.

"[[ oh baby girl, I'm so sorry for you, get some help ]] Everything you've ever done blows back up into your face, you don't know what you're doing wrong?! Or well, you've figured out a few things wrong with you, but you can't figure out how to fix those things about yourself…"

2 [red/orange] Knox S. Consumer : kinda a minecraft sona? - "What's Minecraft is Yourcraft" / "Yourcraft" He's in general a minesona, at least when I first made him. In Yourcraft he is the sona/character version of an oc that's a minecraft youtuber/streamer and who is very distinctly not me, so Knox falls into an odd character category where's he's both my sona and an oc's sona. He's an old grouchy wizard type, but breaks character often to help friends

"[[ you may think im stretching on this one, but i assure there's more obscure ]] You know so much yet so little. The type of guy that can recite so many video game lore details and fun facts across all subjects, but will fail to realize that they really did mean it calling it "cream cheese," it is actually a cheese. You are very smart though, with your intelligence only rivaled by your stubbornness."

3 [red/pink] Dong : pokemon not a big surprise, but he's a pokesona of sorts. He's a Mareep that's specifically paired with my friend's Wooloo "Ding," he's somewhere between a pokemon in the anime and pokemon mystery dungeon in terms of personification, he's very bitey.

[[ haha dong ]] Lil gremlin guy. You're the typa bitch to fucking taunt people bigger than you and when they get pissy you go 'oh im just a lil guy a lil birthday boy.' All talk no bite. well, maybe a lil bite, like consensually or deserved.. BUT the point is you take no responsibly of the misdeeds you may or may not do !

4 [orange] Bibbly : double life / life series Bibbly is the character I made soulmate's with my friend cause we were watching other people make sona's and pairs with their friends too. Bibbly is based off of a drawing I did based on a more literal interpretation of one of my minecraft skins (specifically my 453 skin), "Bibbly" coming from "Biblically accurate." Personality wise he varies a lot cause in conception and most practice he is an utter coward, very reliant on my friend's character, though in other interpretations I make him a lot more jaded and no-bull shit but also those are usually what is supposed to be later in his development and/or away from my friend's character

[[ telephone game of sonas ]] You are a recursion of self analyzation. You try to map out your intricacies only to have your theories on yourself become rules. And once you've realized its a set habit of thinking. You know trouble and you avoid it the best you can.

5 [muddy yellow] Clart : minecraft sona ? - "What's Minecraft is Yourcraft" / "Yourcraft" Similar case as Knox, where Clart is my sona and the sona of one of my oc's who isn't me, but for Clart he and the oc, they align closer with who I am so it's not quite as weird a case. Clart is very easy going and cares a lot, he isn't particularly notably in Yourcraft as he's not really someone who develops more a character that help's the other characters develop

[[ straight up gooping ]] You just want a break, things to be nice and easy and do menial tasks and be with your friends. You give all you can, not because you feel you need to, you just want to and you can. You know pain and cruelty, you choose to be kind.

6 [yellow] [453>- / 453 / The cooler Casey : a general sona He's a more stylized, exaggerated version of myself and usually a lot more malicious for the fun of it. In his "lore" he is a shapeshifting sand.. thing, it depends on the specific backstory I'm going with. He is generally very energetic and bitey and evil for the sake of it cause man villains are fun when they are having fun and he is having a blast

[[ creature !! ]] You are the coolest sexiest mother fucker out here! or you sure pretend to think so. A whole fucking jaw breaker flipping between god-complex and inferiority-complex, who knows what's at it's core (probably inferiority). You love to be an edge case, probably the type of guy to make a fan character concept that's over done but do it with a twist. No fear of ocs coming off like a mary sues just cause YOU know how cool and really clever they are really even if they give a bad first impression.

7 [lime/green] Casey : general sona / how i draw myself This is just me, like, just how I draw myself, it's as general and genuine as I can manage which my not really be all that accurate maybe but oh well

[[ oh fuck u are just like me frfr ! or like at least closest approximation ]] You are only human. You love your friends more than the world and you try to be worth all you're given. You have some self esteem and self image issues, but maybe if you shove your ocs full of enough of your issues you'll solve some.

8 [green?] Caddle : general sona / fursona / the one i use for sexual stuff Caddle is a cow-adject shapeshifter. He is the sona I use the most when it's anything sexual, usually paired with my partner's fursona, but he's supposed to have other buddies too that I never really draw. I've got complicated feeling on sexual stuff and myself in relation to it, so he gets those feelings dumped into his character too. But aside from that he is a fun character especially to draw cause inconsistency is baked in and I love him dearly, he is very lazily chill with a big heart, he's also a rodeo clown even though i dont draw a full on clown get up for him much

[[ honka honka we got certified clown ova here ]] You are silly, a goofball even, one may even argue a jokester. You may present all goofs, gafs and dick jokes, -and by all means you do genuinely loving goofing gaffing and dicking- but you are a person with complicated wants and thoughts and feelings. Wants and thoughts and feelings you hold close to yourself, you do not know how to voice, so more often than not, you don't.

9 [bluish green] Gilon Kurt : lesser sona Gilon is a sona that I made just on a whim off of a twist on my name with "fluffle" being a the name for a group of rabbits, he's "Capn Kerfluffle." And then I made him a rival to my main fursona in their story and he gained a personality outside of me as they so often do

[[ rage rage murder rage !!!! ]] You have worked so hard for what you have and yet it is never enough. There is always something else to achieve more to earn, people clawing for what you have. You can have no peace nor solace, relax? chilling? never heard of her!! There are experiences to be had!! People to meet!! Friends to continuing loving!!! And you'll fight for it all, fight until you die!!

10 [cyan] Yeode : minecraft sona [real] Yeode my beloved, she is my darling rock-based robot made to search villagers that learns to live for herself kinda. A lot of her kindness and softness and story comes from backstory for just me playing minecraft ig who is a lot less kind in practice.

[[ yippee !!! ^.^ ]] You are a people pleaser to your core! You are born and molded by your attachments and use to others. Even in their absence you still live on for them in part.

11 [saturated blue] G : non-fandom sona I use to vent mostly - "Conceptual Chaos Junkyard" / "CC Junkyard" similar situation to E of mostly negative traits, but the other side of it for the most part. she is full of anger and malice at being stuck with little control over her situation and takes it out on E

[[ oh sweetheart, no ]] You think yourself a "bad bitch" a "girl boss" even. Emotions are not your strong suit. You have a hard time managing your own feelings, let alone dealing with other people's. You may not always be right, but you work hard to try to be.

12 [less saturated dark blue] D. Base : minecraft sona, specifically in magic mods / heavily modded minecraft he came about from when i was testing a modded server with my friends there was something that would crash my game if i entered specific chunks, and in those 'dead' chunks was my silk worms so i made dBase as a character for the friend server and he is supposed to be that glitched silkworm i got in testing, uuh end then that server slowly broke too, so i like to think it was somehow also his fault; while i did get to play on the server i got really into a few magic mods, mainly mana and artifice so he is not only gitchy but a magic man

[[ grub ]] You think of yourself highly, not perfect, but damn good. You've worked your ass off for the skills you've obtained and are happy to show off when they are even slightly relevant. Your "fuck it we ball" attitude somehow works out for you most of the time, though some collateral damage to others.

13 [light blue] Clerk James : fursona / used to be mascot character to note if you see other art of him there is a stark difference between the silly goofy Clerk that's my sona and the asshole angsty backstory version of him before he got so very concussed; current Clerk is very sweet and very dumb, he's the "capn" of a pirate themed ferry though also goes on some genuine treasure seeking adventures pg pirate style

[[ consider it the post-drownings one, don't worry ]] A mix of poor memory, self-doubt, and self-hatred that results in a potent blend of guilt for things you aren't really sure you deserve to hate yourself over, being it maybe not or fault or maybe never really happened. Aside from that you're upbeat and a bit stupid in a silly lil guy way. You're just a lil guy!

14 [purple] Cassio Inerta : homestuck / trollsona - "retroll" he is baby, very sweet and well meaning but oh so very problem avoidant and low empathy mostly from being sheltered; in retroll he is canonically in-universe a self insert of myself watching the plot go down and has a made up boyfriend given to him who loves Cassio by virtue that is what the boyfriend was made for, but kinda just puts up with Cassio, a projection of how i felt and feared in some previous relationships

[[ explicitly cannon self insert huh ]] You are a suckerrr for romance. You want and want and want so badly and you feel and in every instance you are given a taste it feels unreal. it feels unearned. It feels disingenuous. But you need it so bad. You don't know shit about anything, so terrified to fail you're terrified to try. But little by little you keep trying.

15 [magenta] Carcumber : a sona based off of my friend's previously-main sona's species so my friend's main sona and mascot character was a "lavamander" though the species had other character with other elements such as ice and sound waves and species had name trope of two favorite foods combined; Carcumber's name was Carrot + Cucumber but my friend changed main sonas and has since renamed most to just a single food name hence the opening statement for the quiz, i dont remember if he had an element associated, if he did i think it was "cart" or "car" or "money" or something stupid like that, and his is a used car salesman, similar energy and pathetic-ness of spamton

[[ oh man do i gotta change his name now that's that not the naming scheme? ]] You are passionate about everything you do! Cause if you aren't you don't do them! You exaggerate yourself to the point the mask becometh you.

god ya that's a lot of em and i have more sona's than just that, but most fall similar to others or i dont use enough to care

if you read it all thanks so much i love u :D

#uquiz #uquiz link #personality quiz #sona #my sona #sona art #art #oc #oc art #original character #digital art #fursona #trollsona #whats minecraft is yourcraft #cc junkyard #GvE #yourcraft #clerks crew #furry oc #retroll

[slow-button-off]

I really don't understand what Ferrari's doing. I don't mean necessarily this year, but in general. This new car had to be the great comeback after 2020... 🙈🙈🙈

Last year's car was unreliable but fast as hell and Leclerc loved it. But they changed the car throughout all of last season to make it more suitable for Sainz who kept crashing. Now the car is miles slower, Leclerc hates it, Sainz likes it, and Red Bull is still dominating (we were lucky in Singapore but just because RB did badly, just like last year).

I know you keep saying that the team would never change the car for one driver if it meant it would get slower, but evidence says otherwise. Binotto, the rest of the team, Sainz himself said they worked hard to suit the car to him, and here's the result: the car is OBJECTIVELY slower than last year, and it doesn't suit Leclerc at all.

In Singapore, 2nd and 3rd were faster, we only kept them behind using DRS tricks. Leclerc said from the first moment that it was all planned and his role was to protect Sainz as best as he could. It didn't seem like he was protecting Ferrari, he seemed totally honest (unlike last year, where you could tell he was disappointed and just trying to keep peace).

It seems like Ferrari has chosen its first driver years ago (they even had Leclerc go receive his 2nd place in the championship trophy ALONE) but lack the decency of being honest with us (and possibly with Leclerc as well...).

Sainz's first victory came after 10 years in F1 and Leclerc had to sacrifice his own race to cover him. His second victory, same thing (though less of a shit show since Leclerc isn't running for the title this time). He gets the best strategies, can fight orders (Silverstone'22: "Hamilton and Perez will eat me alive if I try to defend!", so they had Leclerc do it and sacrifice his own race), can badmouth Leclerc and the team without repercussions.

I don't know if it's because Ferrari knows that Leclerc would literally die for them, so they take him for granted, or if sponsors are involved (we all know F1 is a political game and Santander got Kimi sacked for Alonso, it isn't even a conspiracy but a fact, especially in Italy everyone knows:

https://www.tumblr.com/sugar-and-spice-cl/729117320204648448/im-new-to-f1-but-santander-got-kimi-booted-from

(iirc OP is Italian).

I'm not saying I prefer Binotto to Vasseur, because Binotto was completely allergic to taking responsibility for his mistakes... but at least with him the car was the fastest on the grid.

Wtf is Ferrari doing?

The car isn't objectively slower overall. It was slower in qualifying in both Monaco and Suzuka (and maybe somewhere else but I don't remember). The car did get better in certain things compared to 2022 but they also made a lot of mistakes.

The thing is more that in their quest to I guess make Carlos more comfortable while also making the car faster they went wrong and it looks extra bad because the rest didn't get it wrong so they caught up or in RBs case extended their advantage.

Waché RBs TD said that with these cars it's easier to find speed at the front than in the rear. And RB who started with a more rearwards balance in 2022 shifted their balance forwards and their car got significantly faster. Ferrari wanted to shift the balance backwards but doing that and finding speed is much harder according to him. And so I think they thought they could do it but irl couldn't and got it massively wrong.

On Singapore looking at pace as such in Singapore doesn't mean much tbh. Half the race Carlos was going as slow as possible and that only works in Singapore because overtaking is super hard unless you are significantly faster or you do it via the pits and an undercut. Lando definitely wasn't faster overall and the Mercs were faster but they also were on a different strategy and were properly pushing. And with how well Lando did defending the DRS thing wasn't that needed tbh.

The win in Singapore was really important for Fred and his standing in the team etc. RB had messed up and it was THE chance to win and throwing that away would get in the way of Fred getting to properly establish himself in the team. That's why Charles cooperated. Because Fred needed it. Because Ferrari needed it. And the fact that is was Carlos who won doesn't change much.

We're in a throwaway season, there is no need for a proper driver hierarchy atm. But also the way that Fred talks about the drivers paints a different picture. We also know that Charles contract negotiations started early and he has most likely already signed a long term-ish deal. Meanwhile we don't hear anything like that about Carlos and they either actually haven't started negotiations yet or (and) he is definitely not getting what he wasn't which is the same thing that Charles is getting because otherwise there would be no need to be complaining so much and so loud.

I know this is an old ask, but read Charles interview with the race that came out today. He very clearly believe in the project and to me that means he is definitely at the centre of that.

Fred famously left Renault super quickly because he wasn't a fan of the politics. he doesn't like that stuff.

The current car is shit but that it's not shit because of Fred. This season we can only more recently start to judge Fred when it comes to the general operations. This car was designed under Binotto and all Fred has been able to is still push the development which he has done. Ferrari have brought more in general and more effective upgrades this season than last, but this car has some fundamental issues (chassis, suspension etc) that you can't just fix mid season with the cost cap.

The first car to judge Fred with is the 2024 car. And even then because they are starting with a new concept it probably won't start 100% flawless. But this current car is not on Fred at all.

not to mention the race interview again but Charles pretty much says he was ready to leave Ferrari last year and that he believes in the project now more than ever.

I get not wanting to trust Fred but do trust Charles he isn't an idiot.

#asks asks asks #I hope this makes sense

[pesterloglog]

Gamzee Makara, John Egbert, Roxy Lalonde, Dave Strider, Karkat Vantas, Jake English, Jade Harley

Candy, page 15

GAMZEE: OoOpS mOtHeRfUcKeRs.

JOHN: oops???

ROXY: its fine gamz

ROXY: accidents happen

ROXY: um

ROXY: hey thx everyone for joining me today

ROXY: wow now that im up here its like

ROXY: idk

ROXY: i have no idea what to say

ROXY: and i guess thats cuz there IS nothing to say

ROXY: theres no words to describe how i felt about dirk strider

ROXY: and even tho he left a note that had hella words in it

ROXY: they might as well have been sayin nothing

ROXY: which is just like dirk i guess

ROXY: to leave us with a load of bullshit and no idea why he did what he did

ROXY: so im just gonna say that

ROXY: im glad that he was in my life

ROXY: and give it over to someone whos way more eloquent than me

DAVE: hey guys

DAVE: wanna apologize in advance cuz this is about to get a lil real

DAVE: realer than that three quarters of a corpse im standing about two feet from right now

DAVE: i mean i totally hate to ruin everyones mood on a day where weve gathered to think deep thoughts about how one of us just went and fucking offed themselves

DAVE: not like were gonna be stumbling through our lives constantly experiencing intrusive thoughts about this specific event or anything

DAVE: hey remember what our good pal dirk looked like with no head

DAVE: p hard to forget since getting decapitated was like his third favorite hobby

DAVE: so its not so much the body thats the problem but the sorta

DAVE: existential realization of finality i guess

DAVE: though i aint gonna lie the bodys starting to stink

DAVE: sorry all that shit i just said was a load of absolute bull meant to deflect from the fact that im pretty shook about this

DAVE: i used to do that a lot

DAVE: like basically every time i opened my mouth

DAVE: most of you know this but i had a kinda shitty childhood

DAVE: not gonna go into details but

DAVE: long story short it was technically my good ol bro-dad heres fault

DAVE: not this specific version of him

DAVE: the one i grew up with was a

DAVE: a

DAVE: he was

DAVE: he was just an absolute bastard no offense to the dead

DAVE: yeah ok sure he taught me a ton of shit that if were being generous was in theory useful

DAVE: but he didnt give a single solitary shit about raising a well adjusted kid

DAVE: or

DAVE: raising a kid in general

DAVE: i was more like his disciple

DAVE: and all that mattered was his grand design or wtf ever

DAVE: and i know dirk struggled with

DAVE: you know

DAVE: the idea that he could eventually become that kind of person

DAVE: or even worse that he was somehow cosmically fated to become that person no matter what he wanted or did to prevent it

DAVE: thats prolly how he managed to off himself in the first place considering how the mechanics of god tier works

DAVE: maybe hed been struggling with that the whole time weve been here on earth c

DAVE: who knows with him

DAVE: he was always so inside his own head i cant even imagine what insane train of thought led him to decide that this was his only option

DAVE: but i dont think hed want us beating ourselves up about it

DAVE: or torturing ourselves trying to figure out what it fucking meant

DAVE: esp jake jane and roxy

DAVE: he loved you guys and wouldnt do anything to hurt you

DAVE: well not intentionally i mean

DAVE: anyway all that shit about my bro

DAVE: im over that

DAVE: like as much as you can get over it

DAVE: theres a subconscious response to certain stimuli you cant exactly rewire

DAVE: but the conscious part of my brain is all like

DAVE: shit dude

DAVE: i feel great

DAVE: wtf is hypervigilance??

DAVE: i love being alive and having all these friends who care about me and dont beat the shit out of me every day of my life

DAVE: etc

DAVE: and part of thats cause i got to be friends with dirk

DAVE: it was great getting to know this rad version of my childhood guardian who wasnt completely batshit insane

DAVE: and like just chill with him

DAVE: shoot the shit and freestyle or debate dumb crap without it being a federal fucking issue

DAVE: and more than that he treated me like i was on the level with him

DAVE: he let me give him shit for being a pretentious blowhard every day of his life

DAVE: which i did

DAVE: but despite that i

DAVE: i looked up to him

DAVE: the way i always felt like i should have been looking up to my bro

DAVE: the way i WANTED to look up to my bro but couldnt

DAVE: dirk taught me so much shit i didnt know i needed from him

DAVE: i mean picking up dirks opinions was unavoidable if you ever hung out with him considering he never shut his fucking mouth

DAVE: but im glad he didnt

DAVE: he taught me about combat

DAVE: philosophy

DAVE: life

DAVE: and im sure had he not killed himself the literal day i was finally gonna ask him romantic advice

DAVE: he wouldve taught me about love too

DAVE: so in the end

DAVE: i really got no idea how the fuck im supposed to feel right now

DAVE: but thats probably ok right

DAVE: like its ok

DAVE: to not know how to feel when someone dies

DAVE: its ok to not have all the answers

DAVE: i wish dirk were still alive so i could tell him that

DAVE: but hes not

DAVE: so

DAVE: i guess thats all i got to say about that

ROXY: anyone else have a eulogy theyd like to give

ROXY: i think the best way we can honor dirks memory at this point

ROXY: is to spew an untold number of words into the void

ROXY: as many as we fuckin can

GAMZEE: WhAt’S uP oN tHiS mOsT rIgHtEoUs AnD fRoWnY Of DaYs My BiTcHeS. :’o(

KARKAT: OH MY GOD

KARKAT: NO ONE WANTS TO HEAR ANYTHING YOU HAVE TO SAY, GAMZEE.

GAMZEE: HaHaHaHa YoU sTiLl GoT iT bRoThEr.

GAMZEE: mY mOtHeRfUcKeR oF cOmEdY’s In ThA pRaYbLoCk! ThAt MiRtHfUl NoIsE yOu HoLlEr StIlL sLaPs My MaNg.

KARKAT: IT’S NOT A FUCKING JOKE.

GAMZEE: NiNjAs AnD gEnTlEhOeS!

GAMZEE: We GaThEr Up At ThIs ShRiNe Of WoRsHiP tO wHaTeVeR fAlSe IdOlS oR mEsSiAhS tHeSe HoMiEs GeT tHeIr DeVoTiOn On FoR.

GAMZEE: BuT tHaT’s Ok, BeCaUsE wE’rE mOtHeRfUcKiN uNiFiEd ToDaY, nO mAtTeR wHaT oUr BaD aNd DiFfErEnT bElIeFs SaY aT uS tO oUr PiEtY pAnS.

GAMZEE: We CoMe In CeLeBrAtIoN oF tHe LiFe! :o)

GAMZEE: aNd DeAtH. :o(

GAMZEE: Of ThE oNe AnD oNlY, a TrUlY cHoIcE pIeCe Of MaN-bItCh WhAt WhOm I hArDlY eVeR kNeW:

GAMZEE: tHe DiRkStEr.

KARKAT: BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

GAMZEE: ThEn, YoU mIgHt Be Up AnD wOnDeRiNg, WhAt PlAcE hAvE i GoT aLl OrAtInG oN tHe SuBjEcT oF tHe LeGeNd Of ThIs FiNe FeLlOw?

GAMZEE: tHaT’s A gOoD qUeStIoN mY mIrThFuL bRoThErS.

GAMZEE: i MaY nOt Be AlL uP aNd LeArNeD aBoUt HiS lIfE, bUt I’vE gOt DeEp SpIrItAl CoNnEcTiOnS tO hIs DeAtH.

GAMZEE: It JuSt So HaPpEnEd ThAt FaTe BrOuGhT mE tO hIs DoOrStEp On ThE vErY dAy ThAt He WeNt AnD mOtHeRfUcKiNg ChOkEd It OfF aT tHe NeCk.

GAMZEE: oNe Of ThE mOsT sPiRiTuAlLy AwAkEnInG mOmEnTs In My LiFe...

GAMZEE: In SuCh A sHoRt TiMe He TaUgHt Me So MuCh.

GAMZEE: ThIs WaS nO cOiNcIdEnCe. It WaS a HiGhEr PoWeR gUiDiNg My PaTh.

GAMZEE: tHeSe PoWeRs MaDe SuRe ThAt I wOuLd Be ThErE, tO rEcEiVe A gReAt WaRrIoR’s FiNaL mEsSaGe, AnD rElAy It To YoU oN tHiS dArK aNd DrEaRy DaY oF dEaTh.

GAMZEE: HoNk!

GAMZEE: AwWw, ShIzZ. i GuEsS i’Ve GoT tO uP aNd WiNg It!

GAMZEE: YoU eVeR wAkE uP aNd SiT dOwN tO dRoP a FaT oNe In ThE lOaD gApEr, BuT yOuR fLeSh BoDy JuSt AiN’t ReAdY tO gO aNd DoOk It OuT yEt?

GAMZEE: tHaT’s WhAt LiFe WaS lIkE fOr ThE d-MaN.

GAMZEE: A mAn BoRn WiTh A pUrPoSe. A pLaN.

GAMZEE: bUt ThE wIcKeD wAyS oF tHiS wOrLd StOlE tHaT aWaY fRoM hIm...

ROXY: WOW WASNT THAT GREAT FOLKS!

ROXY: WOW JUST WOW I KNEW THIS GUY WOULDNT LET US DOWN

ROXY: BRAVO!!! DAMN I FEEL LIKE IF I NEVER HEARD ANOTHER WORD THIS GUY EVER SAID THATD BE FINE BECAUSE THAT WAS ALL JUST SO *PERFECT*

ROXY: ANYTHING MORE WOULD ONLY DAMPEN THIS PERFECT MEMORY HE GAVE US!

ROXY: TAKE A BOW GAMZEE AND THEN OH YEAH THE EXITS THAT WAY!

GAMZEE: hOoOoOoOoOnK.

ROXY: (hey dude can u get up there and say somethin as like...)

ROXY: (a palate cleanser?)

JAKE: Gulp! Uh...

ROXY: (he was your best bro! come on man surely u got somethin in ur heart to say)

JAKE: Oh... Okay.

ROXY: hay everybody its jakes turn!

ROXY: hes got a few words hed like to say about our dear departed buddy

JOHN: (oh for fuck’s sake.)

JOHN: uhh, hi guys!

DAVE: hey

KARKAT: I SEE THAT EVEN YOU COULDN’T BEAR GAMZEE’S ASININE, BRUTAL AND 100% NONCONSENSUAL ASSAULT ON YOUR LISTEN CRATERS, AND ALSO THE BASIC DECENCY WHICH SAPIENT BEINGS APPARENTLY OWE TO ONE ANOTHER ON THIS PLANET.

JOHN: no, um, actually i listened to the entire thing.

JOHN: i have no idea why i did that. now i have this whole memory in my head that i could have definitely lived without.

JOHN: i was just worried... because you didn’t come back.

JOHN: dave, are you ok?

DAVE: yeah

DAVE: well no

DAVE: but its ok to not be ok about this specific thing i think

DAVE: so for once i think im having like

DAVE: a totally unironically normal emotional reaction to a thing

DAVE: which loops around back to being ok

DAVE: in fact im probs the okayest ive ever been objectively

JOHN: are you SURE?

KARKAT: THAT WAS HALF A HUNDRED WORDS TO EXPRESS A THREE LETTER SENTIMENT.

KARKAT: I’D SAY HE’S DOING FINE.

JOHN: hmm.

JOHN: because i was thinking...

JOHN: do you... want me to go back?

DAVE: go

DAVE: back??

JOHN: with my retcon powers.

JOHN: i could go back and stop him.

DAVE: dude

KARKAT: JOHN!

JOHN: what!

KARKAT: DO YOU NOT HAVE AN INCH OF GODDAMN SENSE IN THAT THICK FUCKING SKULL OF YOURS?

JOHN: what!!!

DAVE: john

DAVE: come on what are my powers

JOHN: ummm... time travel?

DAVE: so you dont think i wouldve already done that if i thought it was a good idea

JOHN: well ok yeah, obviously.

JOHN: but if you DID do it we wouldn’t even know right now because it would’ve just made a new timeline where dirk didn’t kill himself. that’s how time travel works, right?

DAVE: ehhh well actually

JOHN: but!

JOHN: if i retcon it...

JOHN: then it’s like it never even happened!

JOHN: we wouldn’t have had this horrible funeral at all.

DAVE: i dunno dude thats

DAVE: a little fucked up actually

JOHN: you think so?

DAVE: yeah

DAVE: dirk was a complicated guy

DAVE: dude obviously had reasons for doing what he did

DAVE: if you go back and just rewrite his decision

DAVE: thats like denying him his personal autonomy

JOHN: huh. i... didn’t think about it that way.

JADE: dave!!! roxys wondering where you are

DAVE: oh yeah be right there

JADE: what about you karkat? you coming??

KARKAT: YES! GOD!

KARKAT: CAN’T A MAN STAND ON A MOIST AND DREARY PIECE OF RELIGIOUS PROPERTY TO HELP CONSOLE HIS MAIN BRO?!

KARKAT: JESUS FUCK, GOD FORBID WE UPSET THE CAREFULLY ORCHESTRATED FUNERAL PROGRAMMING WHICH JUST FEATURED A SEGMENT WHEREIN A DEEPLY UNPOPULAR CLOWN PISSED HIMSELF IN FRONT OF THE CLAMORING PAPARAZZI!

JADE: oh lord... you dumb baby

JADE: karkat it looks to ME like youre the one third wheeling dave and johns poignant brotimes

JADE: so why dont you get your butt on over here???

KARKAT: ARGH... FINE!

DAVE: john

DAVE: i get what you were trying to do

DAVE: but

DAVE: its ok dude

DAVE: im ok

JOHN: that’s weird...

JOHN: it was working just the other day.

ROXY: lmao john its just me

ROXY: doin ok up there b?

JOHN: i’m fine!!!

JOHN: wait. b?

ROXY: yea like short for babe

ROXY: cuz ur my babe b

JOHN: oh, haha. right.

ROXY: is dave ok?

JOHN: yeah, i guess.

JOHN: ...

JOHN: are YOU okay?

ROXY: yea

ROXY: yea

ROXY: actually

ROXY: im more than ok

ROXY: cause ive been thinking

JOHN: oh?

ROXY: about you n me

ROXY: and this

ROXY: hey john

ROXY: we should get hitched

JOHN: ummmmmm...

JOHN: um...

JOHN: ...what???

ROXY: um what WHAT?

ROXY: john cmon

ROXY: marry me

JOHN: like...

JOHN: right NOW?

ROXY: lmao totes

ROXY: were already at the church n everything

JOHN: o-oh my god.

JOHN: oh my god!

ROXY: john

JOHN: oh my god, are you serious??

ROXY: no LOL

ROXY: john u take everything so literally

ROXY: its fuckin adorbs

JOHN: is that... why you want to marry me?

ROXY: yea

ROXY: im off the charts with all my jokes n shit

ROXY: and i gotta even all that out

ROXY: with this like HUGE helping of clueless nerd :)

JOHN: roxy...

ROXY: ok but lets be serious here moment

ROXY: i actually do love that youre so earnest

ROXY: its cute as fuck and also

ROXY: i always know where i stand with you

JOHN: roxy...

ROXY: sides this whole

ROXY: THING with dirk

ROXY: its made me realize that even though were immortal

ROXY: were not necessarily gonna live forever

ROXY: lifes too short not to spend every moment with the one u love

JOHN: you...

JOHN: LOVE me??

ROXY: yea john i love you

ROXY: wanna marry u and spend the rest of my life with u and pop out a bunch of cute lil buck toothed babies with you

JOHN: oh, uh. haha, wow. roxy that’s um.

JOHN: that’s a LOT.

ROXY: well you dont gotta answer rn

ROXY: just know its on the table

JOHN: i...

JOHN: i...

JOHN: ok.

JOHN: ok, let’s... let’s do it!

ROXY: ooo u want to do it??

JOHN: yeah!

JOHN: er... i mean...

JOHN: um, yeah. that too.

JOHN: but i meant...

JOHN: about the getting married thing.

JOHN: let’s... do that!

JOHN: let’s totally get married!!

ROXY: omg

ROXY: were gonna be SO freakin happy!

#homestuck #homestuck epilogues #gamzee makara #john egbert #roxy lalonde #dave strider #karkat vantas #jake english #jade harley #candy epilogue #page 15

[autumsstuff]

Philophobia

This story is about how y/n is afraid to fall in love, and along the way funds into an old friend

Y/n? Is that you? I've been looking for you for an eternity..

*he says getting closer and hiding his hands inside his pockets, looking a little down*

my siblings are annoying the fuck out of me, im glad you're there.

*he doesn't look kind, but he tries his best not to be too rude*

Looking for me? It’s not how I remember it.*she says not believing his bull shit*

*he looks at you with a slightly worried look, trying to remember something*

you don't remember that day?

*he says trying to act surprised, although he knows damn what you're talking about*

You tried to kill me *she laughs sarcastically*

*he rolls his eyes because he heard that a lot of times already*

well, yes that happened, but the past it's the past..

*he says as he looks away from you, it's like he's trying to forget that ever happened*

What do you want? *she sounds impatient*

*his face turns more serious*

...a favor

*she nodes her head back* there it is…. What do you need?

*he pulls a pocket watch from his coat, and gives it to her*

you see... I'm looking for someone, and I'm running out of time. This watch will take you to the person I'm looking for, you just need to wind it.

*he gets closer, and looks at her waiting for her answer*

What’s in it for me?

*he stays close to you, not willing to take a step back*

You will get what you want the most, you'll get what you deserve. I'd say that's a good deal.

*he smiles*

Oh..and what is it that **i** want hargreeves

*he looks at you, still smiling*

if I knew exactly what YOU wanted the most right now, I would tell you.

*he pauses, thinking for a second*

but I believe it could be... Love. love is what you deserve, y/n.

*she rolls her eyes and looks back* I gave that up along time ago…

*he still smiles, trying not to look upset from what you just said*

not according to my calculations...

What **are** your calculations

*he doesn't hesitate*

that you still long for that feeling... the feeling of being wanted and appreciated by someone.

but you gave up on it? that's just so sad y/n. not for me, though.

*he says without taking a step back*

How so

*he steps closer*

...because you look lonely. and I'm alone too. you know... we're not so different, are we?

We are nothing alike

*he leans to one side, giving you a cocky grin*

or are you trying to suppress something you want deep down?

I don’t follow?

*he looks you in the eyes, still smiling*

you're so good at looking unbothered, at looking like you don't care about anything...

*he stays silent for a second, watching carefully your reaction*

but i know better.

I’m sure I don’t know what you mean, you forget yourself (Hamilton reference)

*he raises an eyebrow, but gets even closer*

you'd be surprised at what i know... Y/n.

You are?

*he looks at you*

I can see it on your face... just be real with me... why can't you just enjoy a little company?

*he places his hand on your shoulder, waiting for your response.*

*she moves his hand away and backs up* I’ll help you… but you have to promise me one thing

*he stares at you, wondering what you could possibly need, and still smiles*

...what is the one thing you want?

Stop acting like you care about me…. Because no one does…deal

*his smile turns a little sad, but he doesn't show much of a reaction*

...deal.

*he hands you the watch*

 *she takes it* now who am I looking for?

*he clears his throat in order to stop himself from saying anything rude*

you're looking for our sibling, Klaus. he's at an hospital in New York, he was... attacked by someone.

Is he alright…*Sounding worried about her friend*

 *his smile comes back, as he speaks in a way more kind voice than before*

...you seem worried...

yes, Klaus is okay, he just needs someone to be near him.

*she shakes her worried expression speak and telling her eyes she still cares* you got it

*he smiles and places both of his hands inside his pockets*

thank you Y/n... you've been very helpful indeed.

*he nods, still smiling*

 I’ll let you know when I’ve collected him

*he leans in a bit more, still smiling*

...y/n? there's something else...

What *she turns to face him*

*he looks at your eyes, and his smile fades a little*

you said that no one cares, right?

Yea what about it

*he keeps looking at your eyes, trying to see any sign of hesitation*

...I care about you, y/n.

Don’t…don’t do that

*he watches your reaction, trying to understand what you mean*

...don't...don't what?

Don’t act like you understand…don’t act like you care..

*his smile fades away as he watches your attitude*

...there it is.

there's pain beneath those sad eyes.

*he looks down, thinking for a second before speaking in a more quiet voice*

...Y/n, what happened to you?

*she raises her hand in a grading way closeting her eyes* just…don’t

*he places his hand on yours, grabbing your wrist*

don't what? don't give you the company you long for?

*he stares you in the eyes once again, and raises an eyebrow*

...y/n, you don't have to be alone.

Don’t give me…hope

*his hand is still holding yours, as he looks deeply into your eyes*

...don't you want to have a little bit of hope?

Hope leads to heartbreak and I don’t need that again

*he smiles, leaning in once again*

...y/n...

hope can lead to love.

and if you need proof of that.... look at me, I'm here for you.

That’s what you don’t understand five **love** does not exist…. I grew up learning about these fairytales and true love, but it doesn’t exist. At least not for me it doesn’t….it it never ends well when I let my guard down…I can’t go through that not **again**

*he looks at you, his smile slowly returning*

Y/n...

*he pauses for a second, not willing to interrupt your sentences, but it's obvious that he's eager to speak*

...I grew up hoping for love too. but as I grew older and older... I realized that people let me down...

*he lets go of your wrist, and then stares you in the eyes again*

...but that doesn't mean it won't happen. don't be afraid of love. be afraid of not trying.

I can’t…

*he grabs your wrist again, and looks at you with a warm smile*

...I'm not going to force you to do anything, y/n.

but i will say that... i care about you.

*he pauses for a moment*

...that's why I'm not going to stop trying to convince you...

There is nothing that you can show me

*a small frown comes to his face*

are you sure about that, y/n?

*he pauses*

...i could give you everything you want...

*her eyes open in surprise as she is caught off guard, but the surprise quickly fades away as she kisses him back*

*she wraps her arms around his neck, pulling him a little closer as if she’s afraid of letting him go again*

*she deepens the kiss for a few seconds and then rests she forehead against his*

...y/n...

THANK YOU SOOO MUCH FOR READING LET ME KNOW IF YOU LOVE IT!

#fanfic #reader insert #lovers #five hargreeves

[duskodair]

semi final two song meanings

finland: we did some kinky shit last night. you're incredible. i'm nothing to you. i don't even know your name but i'd let you step on me

israel: 'move bitch, im gay' the song. is not going to your fucking baby shower

serbia: the media objectify me and focus on my body. they police our appearance in the name of health but fail to advocate for services that would protect the health they value. i keep washing my hands but i will never be clean enough for you. i will never be perfect. how does megan markle get her hair so shiny? the media polices us in the name of health, but they don't really care if we live or die

azerbaijan: music for dramatically wading around a lake to. everything is in the past and it hurts so much. we break up and we're miserable and then we die

georgia: we're just funky little clowns in space! lock me in all the directions, i'll enjoy it :))

malta: i am what i am, and what i am is uhhhhhhh not addressed in the song. clap along! i am what i am

san marino: don't you want to be slutty? don't you want you ride a rodeo bull in your underwear? hey! i'm a stripper!

australia: i am coming to accept that i don't have to be the person that i was taught to be as a six year old. i am allowed to have different interests and work differently, and we are all fine. i don't have to have neurotypical interests, i don't have to make eye contact. i am fine like me

cyprus: lets fall in love and remake the world together in our dreams. take my pain away. let's be wonderful

ireland: i have realised that you're a bag of shite and i will now no longer give a shit about the nonsense you do bc i am better than that

north macedonia: let chat. come on, get to the point. if we communicate we could fix this, but you won't talk to me and im gonna snap in a bit

estonia: i am simply a hopeful cowboy :))

romania: love love funky latin music, love love dance dance, yeah i love you, let's wiggle

poland: here's my five step plan for sinking into the river to decompose. let me rot. i don't want responsibilities. i am floating out to sea, goodbye

montenegro: we need to love each other because alone we are suffocating and will die. talk to me, fight for your life, please (also covid)

belgium: im trying to get over you and forget you, but i will miss you, and it will hurt

sweden: we're breaking up. i wish i could stop loving you. hold me one last time, for me, please. make it better, this is going to hurt

czech republic: fuck. i turned the lights off and now i've lost you. send help im lost in the dark in this club. no wait i am strong

#chill to reblog #eurovision

[violentdelightsandviolentends]

f1 anon here! yall are so so sweet omg, ill cry rn. my current opinions on it are: i love mclaren and ferrari (what can i say, i love the color red). other than that i really dont even know what im talking abt, i really do just think its so fun to watch. at the end of the day i am a simple create, i like to see fast cars go fast. but please share and ramble abt your favs and your opinions, i would love to hear them!!

hi my love!! i’ve tagged you as 🏁 anon, so you can find all of your posts and responses in one place <3

oh you’re a girly with taste 😌 and that’s what it’s all about!! we like to see fast cars go fast <3

i’m about to ramble your fuckin socks off so be warned mwahahaha

mclaren are my favourite team!! it’s a funny one, because they’re so good to lando and oscar, were so good to carlos, but they treated danny so terribly. they’re definitely my number one team, 100%, but sometimes i do get a little angry when i think about what danny went through in a year there

I like the ferrari drivers - I don’t like ferrari as a team. or at least, I didn’t. fred vasseur (their new team principle) has come in and changed the game, which gives me hope. fuck mattia!! I just think… how are you the most successful team in the history of f1 but right now you have no strategy and no communication and a mess of a car etc etc. like how did we end up here

not huge on red bull as a team, but that’s probably because i’m not massive on checo or horner. but i adore maxie. i feel like we’d get along really well if we ever met. he’s such a complex personality but in the best way, and the most talented driver of his generation.

if I had to make a fave drivers list, it would probably look something like -

lando, maxie, daniel, carlos, charles, alex, oscar

alex mf albon!! he’s so underrated and we do not talk about him enough. he outperforms the car week after week. king shit <3

and lando is my number one, of course. we have a lot in common, and I think we’re pretty similar people. I do think I’d be able to make him laugh until he cried (not that it’s hard). he’s a ridiculously talented driver, which he’s proven again and again. he gets discredited because he’s never won, but it’s just an unfortunate coincidence that his best season coincided with maxies best season too. he’s always learning and experimenting, and other drivers have said that they watch his onboards to look at the lines he’s choosing etc etc, because he’s always pushing the limits. I cannot even describe to you how much I would love to watch him win this season.

and daniel, sweet daniel. he’s so bittersweet to watch, because he really did leave red bull thinking he’d find something better and then never found it. genuinely wouldn’t be surprised if he took checos seat next year. he’s so talented, and he’s been racing for such a long time, so it’d be nice to see him on the podium again soon. he just needs a rocketship of a car!! glad to see him back in a team that cares about him, though. he’s a ray of sunshine <3

I shall not ramble anymore… unless… 😌

anon, tell me your thoughts and faves and opinions, don’t let me talk your ear off anymore!!

#murphanswers #murph talks f1 #🏁 anon

[box-of-chaooos]

Excuse me but I saw a post where you used the term "aspergers". This is a harmful term. Nazis created the term "aspergers" to identify which autistic people they would kill, and which autistic people they would convert to neurotypical standards. The name aspergers comes from a nazi soldier who created the whole "kill or convert" system with autistic people. It also enforces the belief that autism is levelled, and not a spectrum, and by making people believe that people are capable of being "less autistic" instead of simply being less support needs. The autism community has widely rejected the use of this word, and the word itself has been taken out of use by medical evaluators. Any person previously diagnosed with "aspergers" is now labelled as having ASD by doctors due to the outdatedness and harmful nature of this term.

I thought I'd explain it for you since I saw you tell another anon that you wouldn't be changing your terminology because you've, "never heard it being used as a nazi term/linked to nazism" and because your dad was previously diagnosed with it.

PS: I am diagnosed as autistic. I know people who were originally diagnosed as "aspergers" that reject the term (as many people argue that most people originally diagnosed with it wouldn't want to change their terminology). I have heavily researched this topic and the sources. I know what I speak, and everything I said can be backed up with sources. Thank you for reading. I hope you change your terminology as to not cause harm to our community.

Not my dad but my uncle.

I’ve since learned that it’s very bad and I’m sorry for using said term. I just saw it as almost a completely different thing? Like adhd or add being different. But yeah no that’s not a good term and I’m sorry for using it.

The other anon was right i was just uneducated at the time. Since getting my own diagnosis however I learnt about that shit. I can find the post and change it up so it’s friendlier much more accepting to. I forgot all about that. Again I’m sorry.

Sometimes I need things thoroughly explained or explored cause the internet can make up a lot of bull crap. So to the other anon im sorry, I deleted that response cause ew gross of me to say shit that way the homestuck post doesn’t have that term no mores and I have learnt from my mistakes!

#chaos personal

[sewagesorcerer]

my god i did my first subq t injection this wednesday after committing to the switch from intramuscular and holy shit it was so easy

like. i understand why my dr at planned parenthood prescribed im (the hormones absorb faster and assumedly bring changes quicker) but now that im like. almost 4 years into my medical transition (8/29 is my t-versary btw 😏) subq is such a better method for me.

had tried changing my dose/schedule (prev .45 mL weekly, moved to .9 mL every 2 weeks) and that just kind of. made me skip more doses and the peaks and troughs were way more intense which fucked with me mentally, but going back to .45 mL and doing subq instead will make this so much better for me in the long run.

at first the im injections were easy cuz it was new and exciting and i got such good results but i had a vasovagal response and fainted once doing im (my fault entirely i hadnt eaten and had only had a red bull, got the needle out of my leg before i passed out thank god) so after that i was just. not enthused. plus after that i had trouble finding good injection spots for im but now ive got the tops of my thighs AND my abdomen so the breadth of injection sites alongside the ease of insertion im finally jazzed about my hrt again :') that sparks so much joy for me

#tw injections #im talking about hrt though #ftm hrt #hrt #trans stuff #tw needles #tw fainting

[cleetus42]

chamomile tea has no effect on me except making me need to pee. like staring at my computer screen to develop eye strain is the only way i can get to sleep. i sleep at like 2-3am get up at 11am. and i only feel a drive to do things after the sun sets :(

like i really dont care about establishing a harsh routine . i just. aah i hate how at school they say shit like treat school like a 9-5 job and work 5 hrs after school too. load of bull. i dont see the point in depriving urself of momentary joys just bc ur working towards a goal - both can happen at the same time. but its not like schools care about learning, or nurturing young minds. its about conditioning you into working hard and obeying authority, waking up at ridiculous hours to do the same thing over and over again. break times are loud and there are too many people and too much noise. hallways are filled with people with no spatial awareness of others, the common room has been taken over by a bunch of nitwits, people think its funny to take my seat in the computer room.

and now that im gone people are extending their condolences like ive died. only in my absence do people stop and reflect. my empty seat in class. my name thats called out with no response. my so called friend whos eating alone, she convinces herself its out of choice, but she knows the only girl who gave her the time of day is gone. no text. no messages. no calls. not like there were any. i have disappeared, albeit only for a week and people are already mourning me.

i mean, im better and alhamdulillah i am. but its so funny to just think about. and i appreciate people. i appreciate the kind people, and i dont really want them to worry, but i dont really think i need to do anything. ill go back. but ill go back without relapsing. in minecraft you dont go into a cave without torches. i mean you can but you can run into danger pretty easily. sometimes you can go in with just torches and a pickaxe, granted u dont run into too many mobs and u dont go too far into the cave. but if ur searching below that specific coordinate for diamonds, or you hope to find a mineshaft or a dungeon - you go with armour and a good sword. to protect yourself from the hostile mobs so you can appreciate the treasures you find in the chests, in the nooks and crannys . in the twists and turns of the cave.

prozac. cbt . eating well. sleeping earlier. they will be my armour. ive already recovered somewhat from my sadness, and i dont feel tempted to throw myself off something tall to relieve myself of my suffering. so. its working.

alhamdulillah.

ya Allah forgive me for my sins, maintain my happiness and grant me rizq in all aspects of my life. guide me, and continue to guide me, protect me from the grievances of this world and let me find solace in your remembrance. ameen

#clee's log ♡

[theshitpostcalligrapher]

fun fact i suffer from 18 art styles in a trenchcoat on my main so i may have drawn some of yalls favourite art and you’d have no idea at all which is fun and funky 

#like im responsible for so much bulled shit #the dave with cursed shirts comic #long merle and merle devito #michael spiral as a sexy bishounen art nouveau man #geralt goes dumbass mode bc his pupils expand like a cat #its all there but i dont like to advertise my main so yall have no idea its hilarious

[myownprivatcidaho]

.

#i used to not filter tags of things that could be triggering for me bc i kept feeling like i had some Responsibility to other people to #help them when theyre feeling bad. like. there would be Triggering Ass Stuff on my dash and i wouldnt blacklist the tags bc for some odd #reason i thought that was the. Kind Thing. to do? #god theres so much Bull Shit around mental illness. not just stigma #but also the bullshit idea that you went through what you did to help people. it Bullshit #i saw smth triggering the other day and ive still kinda been. yknow. but yeah. #but im proud of myself for doing this ! #blacklist triggering subjects folks #! #other #sia vents #ask to tag