#like it's not even just school work it's like every aspect of my life hskfhskfhsk

[its-captain-sir]

hi this is a personal rant but it's in the tags cause I don't want to clog up people's dashes with whatever I say ✌️

#I'm just super stressed and way behind in school and when stuff starts getting like this my first reaction is to *.✧self isolate*.✧ #which I've kinda done for the past week or so though there were times where i was just legitimately busy and wasn't online cause of that #but yeah I've been doing that and normally once i see that I'm doing that i metaphorically bonk myself on the head like no stop doing that #cause that is not a healthy coping mechanism! #but this time it actually seems to be helping me? #like i muted a bunch of fairly active servers I'm in on discord today and i felt like i had a lot less stress #cause i wasn't trying to keep up with those messages and check all the notifs in between trying to do work or pay attention in class #and i focused a lot better and got a lot of work done #so maybe my unhealthy coping mechanism isn't so unhealthy after all! #(that's a joke it totally is it just so happens it's working for me this time) #but anyways i think I'm gonna keep doing that for the foreseeable future cause i really do need to stop being behind in things #like it's not even just school work it's like every aspect of my life hskfhskfhsk #but like. doing this means i cut off like 80% of my socialization with people that aren't related to me #which probably isn't great! but idk what else to do #y'all should just interact with me on here more so i get that little bit of socialization smh #←that's a joke but also not really cause i manage my tumblr usage way better than anything else #so theoretically i Could get enough socialization to not go insane just from here #you know i had a point i was gonna make where was i going with all this hajdhakfjskdj #OH YEAH so i am gonna mute all my relatively active servers on discord for a while but for any friends/mutuals who want to talk #my dms are still open and if you @ me in any server i should still see it so feel free to do both of those! #and depending on how things go i might unmute everything on the weekends idk #we'll just see how this goes i guess #also whoops this got WAY longer than i wanted it to be #i don't even know half of what i said at this point HSJDHDKFUSOFU #y'all can just ignore everything except for that last bit about if you want to contact me on discord #megan.txt