#like ive been on tumblr for a little over 4 years now

[dashuisofanubis]

I found an aftermath fic for HoA s2 I started writing waay back in 2017 and I actually still enjoy it so I thought I'd share some of it, and I might revisit it when i rewatch s2

The gist of it was the mystery and the exhibition are wrapped up and done, Rufus and Senkhara have been banished never to be seen again, but there's still seven weeks left of term! Featuring exams, coming to terms with your kidnapping/sort of death/sort of murder, washing up and summer plans!

Some highlights from it include:

Eddie trying to convince Patricia to dance with him

The woes of washing up (there was an entire chapter plan consisting of fabian trying to get people to help him with chores)

Jerome having a funky good time

Joy having a funky good time

Vera's farewell

Then this was the last sentence written and I'm dying to know what I was going to write next 😅

So yeah, a look into the mind of someone who was doing their gsces and binging HoA to cope 😂

#i do remember this fic and writing little scenes from it is what got me through my gsces tbh #i was planning for it to be around 20 chapters to deal with exams and summer plans (and foreshadowing ninas exit) #i have a section i wrote on a postit that i was very proud of that went #'Eddie Miller; proclaimed bad boy and teen rebel; did not care one bit about exams; revision or results.' #'Edison Sweet on the other hand; son of the headteacher was desperate to at least attempt to make his father proud' #(but with commas instead of semicolons bc tumblr tags) #i would like to revisit this though bc i have a lot of thoughts about what they got up to after the s2 finale and how they healed #i cant believe its been 5 years #its reminded me of my ghost au that i started 4 years ago and i cant believe its been that long for that too #i might revisit that as well once ive finished seven sins #so that might be a while down the line! #house of anubis #ngl 16 year old me didnt have a great grasp on tenses though theyre all over the place #i say this like im better now XD #id like to think i am

[toyhouse-code-hell]

a bit of an appreciation post to everyone who asked for a code??? I'm yapping.

that is. a baffling(is it baffling? ive never seen triple digit codes but maybe this is normal) amount of toy house codes

Ok I'm going to do math here. I'm rounding up to an even 500 codes since the 500th code was given to a friend like within 3 days of me making the blog and inspired me to make it.

500 codes, with 2 new codes per week is 250 weeks. 250 weeks is 4.8 years for the codes I have not generated.

For total codes I have ever given, I have 5 pages of generated codes, with 100 codes per page, with the final page having 86. Taking my remaining 134 codes, I have had a total of 620 codes, totaling almost six years of premium to get that many codes.

Getting codes was my main reason to get premium since the site has been invite only since I joined in 2017. And now that I've gotten into web coding, having premium to attempt CSS and possibly make my own profile codes is incredibly exciting!!

And that's not to mention that people sell the codes, too. Codes for art means you're asking for people to undersell their art/you're underselling your own art. Codes for money is... Dubious as hell. Minimum premium is 1 month at 4.95 USD, which is 4 weeks, which is 8 codes. That makes 1 code worth 0.61 USD. NOBODY'S art is worth less than a dollar.

I've had "ask me for a toyhouse code" on my main tumblr, my artfight, and my toyhouse itself, but I've never had THIS LEVEL of interaction for any post I've made offering codes. It's made me super happy to finally give out these codes en masse and for people to be happy. I didn't think I would get even 30 asks. I have gotten over 360.

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So thanks to everyone for being so nice when asking, for giving me happy birthday messages, fun facts, little text creatures, song recommendations (if you read this THANK YOU the song was perfect to begin an oc playlist I've been struggling to start), and just being silly in my asks. It's made me very happy and I appreciate it.

So ya. Clay sappy yapping hour is over.

[suyacho]

hi lovelies, i know ive been in and out of here and im really sorry for that🫶🥹 just wanted to make a little post addressing some things going on, not on tumblr bc idk wtf is going on (if theres something going on) ive barely been on dash or didn’t scroll past more than 5 posts before closing it again because im busy. let me put it under readmore bc i’ll probably ramble🥹

anyways hi!! as i stated before i think, i started a new school and i started working, busy life!! now work has me exhausted, both mentally & physically, so i haven’t been on here much not have time nor motivation to write too much which i’m really sorry for, especially considering i promised. i love writing, i really do but i feel like the spark is gone, maybe it’s because i’ve been non stop writing smut (with occasionally fluff here n there) over the past few months? or scrap that maybe even since last kinktober because i didnt finish that on time either🥹 (this is probably why the sparks gone) don’t get me wrong, i love writing smut but when it’s so much it just makes me feel like eh not another smut fic and especially after work i can’t find the energy to write porn, like i’d love me itto all oiled up in bed but writing it?? (LMAO SORYRRHHR) it’s just idk🥹 i guess i feel guilty for posting a kinktober but never even finishing it or giving you guys shitty fics when i owe you guys nothing and this is just supposed to be a fun little thingie, but i wanna give back to you guys with the handful of people who have supported me all the way, from the start or even over a year, i appreciate it sm and want to give back to you guys🫶 i hope you all know i greatly appreciate it so thank you and i’m sorry.

on that note thank god i put a readmore bc i knew id ramble and this post isnt even about writing mainly LAMSOAOSOS

but anyways work yes!! i work 4 days a week which might not seem like much bc i know there are people who work way more but hey, im exhausted and that is valid regardless. i dont like my job which is ok, i picked it myself and know the consequences but the environment also drains me mentally, won’t get into that though!!

and onto school <3 i fucking love my school, my class, everything, i wish it was more than one day a week. but with school and the holidays coming around, it also means something. it means that i slowly gotta make a big choice that will impact my student life after this and will decide if ill be let into the bachelors im going for or not. which means that i really gotta start taking it seriously and work more on my portfolio, which now obviously will be my main focus, leading back to the writing but ill say that in the end!!

mentally i’m not ok, which is ok. we all have our ups and downs but lately it’s been feeling like a lots of downs, a lot of things play a role in that but i won’t be going into detail about that. i’ll be okay one day, i’m still alive and have a roof above my head Alhamdulillah.

all those things together mean one thing, i’ll be uploading less!! (which i’ve barely been doing anyways LMAO) to the two people that expected stuff, sorry </3, to the others i disappointed, i’m sorry </3

i’ll also be less active, or maybe just not at all for a bit but just know that i’ll definitely come back when things have settled down, hopefully with more motivation and more fics <3 life’s moving forward and so am i bit by bit.

i guess this is quite the dramatic way to announce a hiatus but hey it’s 6am and i barely slept and just rambled to my little space <3 but once again, thank you guys for the support and understanding. i just wanted to make a post so you guys know what to expect and all :)

thank you and have a good day/night!

#snow; sighs

[graceschasity]

i wanna get sentimental for a sec because ive been thinking lately about the upcoming 4th anniversary to this account, idk 4 years kinda punched me in the face last week cause 4 years ago i was deep in my tgwdlm fixation (had been for several months before specifically joining the tumblr fandom). take a short trip through the past 4 years with me. black friday hadnt even premiered on stage yet, i wanted to go, but knew i couldnt. it wasnt logical, surely there was no way i could ever go to LA to see a hatchetfield show, right?

i remember black friday premiering on the digital ticket, i remember finding other people to connect with hatchetfield over and making this account, i remember knowing about nerdy prudes must die, knowing it was likely to hit in 2020. i remember the pandemic hitting right around the time they probably would have announced the kickstarter for it. and i especially remember making a dumb little group chat cause i was bored one night, and not even to get into everything else that spawned into, i specifically remember talking about nerdy prudes. everything was shut down, we hadnt heard from starkid in months, nerdy prudes was a pipe dream at that time, it was a fantasy we talked about together, about making trips and meeting up and going to the show, it was all just a dream... until it wasnt.

nerdy prudes means more to me than i can even state. a show that was simply a fantasy, a coping mechanism to get me through the loneliness of the pandemic, is a reality. not only does the show exist, i saw it, in person, with the same people i dreamed i would, and theres even the chance that ill be a part of it in the audience for everyone to see. and now a few months later im going to be hit with the reality of this once again, the upcoming release is a reminder that this all really did happen. it all feels so unreal to me, i cant believe im actually here, this show, and everything leading up to it, are memories i will treasure forever. i am so grateful for everything that has happened to get me to this point. i love this show, i love this community, i love my friends. it would have been so easy for none of this to ever happen to me, im so happy it did. nerdy prudes must die is real and exists and will be public on october 13th. i truly hope this shows means as much to you as it does to me

#sorry i know this is long and a little sappy im usually not like this asdfrewgwe #i am Feeling things about npmd on this monday night

[iwantdatcookie]

Answer all the even numbers of that ask meme >:3

Oh shit fuck ok hold on gimme a sec gonna have to pull up a second screen for this. Puttin it all under a readmore to not clog anyones dash haha

2: i dont really like either of them, but ive had tea and i prefer it more sweet

4: im a side sleeper through and through, full fetal pose sometimes even

6: i havent done either in a long time, but i think i liked drawing more since i could see what i made immediately in my eyes.

8: dont have one currently, but ive been thinking a lot about linkin park lately

10: uhhh shit ive forgotten. Maybe around 1 meter 80 by now so 5’ 9”?

12: my baby niece, all of my tumblr mutuals, my online friends that ive fallen out of contact with because i have difficulty talking to people myself. Really a lot of people…

14: green! Followed by brown because chocolate

16: not really want a tattoo, cant handle the pain haha

18: in terms of dms its a friend i sent a photo of among us chicken nuggets

20: the aforementioned online friends ive talked about before which are too many to all say now.

22: actually might have been a good 8 hours though i csnt recall what hour exactly i fell aslepp

24: i think last time was because i messed up in something at work

26: videogames are still kinda childish in my society, also chocolate milk

28: currently im a little happier because family came over and i got to see my niece but otherwise ive been feeling a little sad and isolated

30: for the school year to end and to go on a trip with my coworkers and then be able to stream again now that i have good internet

32: i would go to super nintendo world just cause i wanna see it. I feel like if i said i wanted to visit friends would be a boring answer to give

34: i like sunflowers

36: yeah its alright, nothing to say about it except that i makes my initials spell out a word and i like that

38: not very strong phobias but i cant handle dogs approaching me at high speed or darkness. I guess heights too?

40: i like the beach, though i prefer when its cloudy because i also dont like extreme heat haha

42: oh shit uhhh @lotsadeer, @robboybot, @gothbaseball, @squintsquint, @bimbocatfood

44: my baby niece who’s visiting :)

46: honestly, just sleep, or a videogame, or honestly just you know haha

48: i honest to goodness dont know, i guess at this point my parents or sister

50: i guess i can pick whatever thing to say for this one so uh, if anyone wanted to know what ive been up to lately im doing the final bonus level in mario wonder and i dressed up with an evil clown mask for a halloween event recently!

#thanks to izze for this ask im sorry it took me a bit haha #i feel a lot of Yearning for Interaction lately so this made me very happy

[just-gotta-vent]

accidentally posted this on my main 💀

im hoping this doesn't reach anyone because it's a vent obviouslt. I need to get over this, it was nearly a year ago. silly little numbers I associate with a thing that made me develop concerning symptoms of a mental illness. now I just say "ohh well 4 has a triangle, 2 has 3 major parts, and 8 looks like it's a 3 with another three in it!!!!!!!!!!!!!1" like it's not just happening again. I've seen it before, every time I get manic over a *******************FICTIONAL********* CHARACTER I convince myself they're real. and even though I KNOW they're NOT REAL, IT KEEPS HAPPENING. I SEE NUMBERS I ASSOCIATE WITH THEM AND I JUST START PANICKING. now I have to put the radio volume on 33, or the FICTIONAL. CHARACTER. is going to come back. I can acknowledge they aren't real. is it even a delusion? I feel like i'm just faking it at this point. but if I were faking it for attention i'd go around telling everyone. I just keep it to myself, pretend nothing's happening. like I didn't get so down bad for a Tumblr sexyman that I developed concerning symptoms of whatever illness. if you read this and you do the damn homework to find out who it is, just stop. i've had plenty of mental breakdowns already. over A FICTIONAL CHTACTER. I find myself just completely avoiding anything that even references the franchise they're from. I had to unfollow a lot of people I loved the content of because that was the main thing they post about. I just wish things could be normal again. so much happened like 3 years ago (THERE IT IS!!!!!!!!!!!!) and I just ran to the nearest coping mechanism, which, in hindsight, was really really stupid. I shpuldn't have latched onto a FICTIONAL character and became dependent on my daydreams to keep me happy. because after 2 years of obsessing? that gets to you. I literally went from "ohh cool character!" -> "hot" -> "he's real and in my brain like a parasite"/ I just don't get how it got this bad. now it's happening again, 9 or so months ago I found a new character to daydream about to cope. and now, the number I associate them with, 3, Is the next big thing. before it was always 4, 2, 8. now EEEVERYTHING has to be 3. I'm writing this at 4:02 am and just seeing those numbers is getting to me. i'm just scared. because I know for now, 3 makes me feel protected. but so duid 428. I know it's going to take the same turn and become a thing I have to avoid. it's like a whole damn system with the numbers. like 428 are the negative, 369 is positive, other numbers are neutral. same amount of neutral cancels out negative, any amount of positive cancels out the negative. dude I just don't even know what's happening in my brain. I feel like it's a bigger problem than just manic obsession but I don't want to ju,p to conclusions. for the longest time I felt like they were real and in my brain, watching everything I do, etc... I thought I was getting past it but still to this day, a year after I started to view them in that bad way, I STILL see those numbers and start panicking. like I said, I hope this doesn't reach anyone. I feel stupid for even posting this. I just want things to be normal again. I can't even tell anyone about this. I know like before, my feelings are just goign to be invalidated. I don't want to be in a goddamn mental hospital either ,iv eheard all the stories. I never even told my therapists before they both resigned. I told my first one about my daaydreaming thing but I never went into detail. there's just been so much. stress of school and grades, the weight issues, the anxiety, the deaths in my family, the lack of motivation, the gender dysphoria, depression, feeling like i'm worthless. and on top of all of that? the near schizo shit i've been dealing with without telling anyone. I'm just scared.

#vent #tw vent #swearing tw #tw swearing #caps warning #cw caps #caps tw #swearing cw

[mrs--edge]

Hello from 2022! I have a couple questions! 1. By this point, how long has he been locked? 2. Ive read the other questions and answers so I think I know but I guess this question will verify. Will he ever be allowed to have a real orgasm again? Through masterbation at least? Or is he denied even that?

Isn't it still 2022? Are you time traveling? 🤣

I guess Tumblr doesn't show the dates so it's hard to know when something is posted. This is June 2022. Tom has been locked since the winter of 2018. Since we don't remember the date I have arbitrarily made the anniversary date April 1st. I mean if it's permanent then what does a few weeks matter? So it's well over 4 years now.l

The question about allowing him a "real" orgasm comes up a lot and always from men. You are not thinking about this correctly. Just like I consider his Vixskin Ranger to be his "real" cock, when I allow him to come in his cage I consider that to be a "real" orgasm for him.

Men are so focused on the denial part and what they are giving up. I don't think of our live life as one of denial. I think that we're just doing something a little different now... something that we both enjoy. Tom and I make love more than we ever did and it's always... and I mean always... really really good. I love that I make him so aroused that he has to stop himself from coming in his cage when we make love. And I love that it's always my decision to allow him (or not!). I think it's been maybe 2 months since I last allowed it and he thanks me every time for not allowing it. 🥰

He has often said that he shouldn't enjoy it as much as he does. He says that I'm allowing him to live a fantasy, but he allows me to live a fantasy too. Why would I give that up by unlocking him?

#chastity question

[onlyswan]

heyy!!

i have been a silent reader for quite a longtime now. i remember the first drabble i read was the amusement park one and i immediately fell in love. i only follow like 3 people on here because i don't use tumblr much nor do i read a lot of fanfics because im on my final year of high-school so that means loads and loads of studying hehe. i find your fics extremely comforting, after a long day of tirelessly studying reading your drabbles is kind of like a reward and you actually do an excellent job at portraying jungkook realistically.

i do have a question tho, im kind of confused about oc's and jungkook's relationship timeline? like i do remember vividly in the first kiss fanfic they've been together for 4 years? but is it current or- like i don't know how to imagine. did oc and jungkook start dating in 2018, 2019? if you could i don't know give a rough background? or i don't know if you want that to be the readers interpretation like that's okay too hahaha. just was a little curious.

anyways, because ive been obsessed with your work since a little over a year I NEEDED to say something. ahhhh!!! i love you and i hope you're okay and i hope you are taking care of yourself!!!!! i definitely want to be more interactive gotta make friends hereeee. yaey

they started dating in 2018! and the drabbles are told from different points of their relationship. kind of like we’re jumping on a time machine? the usual indicator is there are times when they live together and they don’t. and it’s not always but i try my best to match the visual aid when i can <3 they were already planning on living together before the pandemic hit, then it hit (hard lmao), and the plans just naturally fell into place. i hope that helps! <3 i didn’t originally plan for the series to become what it is today, so i had to figure it out myself along the way too hehe

and oh my god hello first time anonie 🥹 you made my day! my week! i was extremely unsure of myself especially when i started the in which drabbles, because i just kinda gave up on interactions and wrote whatever i want for the hell of it ㅠㅠ so it makes me feel all warm inside to learn that’s when you followed me :") 🫂 “you actually do an excellent job at portraying jungkook realistically” and thank you for saying this it’s so comforting bc i really do try my best 🥺 thank you thank you and i love you too!!! best of luck with studying and you’re always free to come by when you need a break <333 hugs and kisses mwamwa

#art’s mailbox #<love3 #in which drabbles

[armedjoy]

a long and (later on) personal post about my engagement and future on this site beneath the cut

to start, some observations about my time here:

disco elysium holds the record for the first fandom im truly engaging with. i check the tags, read the 'spinoff' fiction, its fun. one could say our ideological milieus here are themselves a fandom, but in terms of something thats strictly media, this is it. going on 11 years here and thats what broke the streak, its that fucking good.

i regret deleting my sideblog 'information-nexus' back in '15. it was an organized and well-tagged news, theory, "how-to", and resource blog, but it was taking way too much of my time. i was attempting to make a whole ass virtual library on tumblr, which is far too ambitious for one person, especially considering that it would never pay bills. i shouldve opened it up to some friends to co-mod it and dialed back my involvement. oh well

i regret less the deletion of 'film-space' in '14. posts were just the movie poster with a brief summary of the plot and then a quick review. i came up with my own system that reworked the 4 star ratings into how id recommend based on genre preferences. film reviews in print seem to belabor the point and online reviews seem to lean too heavily on arbitrarily defined scoring. the point should be to either encourage or dissuade readers from seeing it, not remind them you're the wittiest person in the room or that you've atomized the medium into an exploded diagram, and i held to that. it forced me to watch movies more critically wrt to both the art form and the politics it portrayed. but i took an extended break from the site and lost momentum. it just seemed... pointless

ive been pretty bad with managing every inbox/ chat ive ever had - except this one, the personal blog. i tell myself "i'll get around to answering that" and thats been a lie most of the time. the vast majority of my time here is spent reading things that cross my dash, so getting a question on a completely different subject seems to exceed my bandwidth. i genuinely enjoy most of my interactions here but im simply not in the correct mindset most days. that said, most of the mail 'left-reminders' has gotten just feels like im being asked to do an undergrads homework.

i havent posted my face in, what, 8 years? which i might change. i mean im already fucked - ive posted some wild shit before [REDACTED] was a meme, and my face is already linked to this blog & backed up somewhere at fort meade. whats another hole in an already sunk ship, yeah?

funnily enough, i originally joined to post my photography & short stories. look how that turned out lmao

why am i posting this? ive been seriously evaluating my continued presence here. for some time ive had a desire to leave, which up to this point has been greatly outweighed by the reasons to stay. there are other platforms that are bigger, faster, algorithmically supercharged to provide every niche interest you allow it to know... but im still not as invested as i am here. tumblr's appeal is equal parts utilitarian and sentimental - no other platform has been this educational, informing, and entertaining. this place really is the internets bleeding edge for both humor and anarchist/ communist discourse. and for more personal reasons, i have greatly valued sharing this little corner of the internet with you all. i have enjoyed sharing each of your interests and discussions, witnessing your personal developments. know that this random guy on the internet is & always has been rooting for you.

ive had some serious rough patches over the last decade, and ive used this site as a grounding rod as much as a resource and social outlet. but my friend group is vast now, im living healthier, and im making positive changes. for the first in a very long time, i am truly feeling better, finally moving beyond 'managing' into 'growing.' and more than anything, i need to grow creatively.

simply put, writing fiction is the calling of my heart. and if im to commit to it, i cannot divide my attention. beyond being my sole committed creative outlet, it helps me manage daily life. writing feels like gardening: in the structure it builds to do it right, the determination it requires to continue when i fail, and the joy it inspires when i create. when an idea settles in and i can piece it together while going about my day, only sitting down to write when i know most of it. the emotion i experience after unwinding something that has rooted itself around my mind is tremendous and complicated - it feels like an exorcism, of sorts. the feverishness that seizes me to get it all down before it slips away, the relief when i know i can finally move on, the pride of creation, and the dreadful anticipation of being read - all of it is a bittersweet cup that i will gladly return to.

i need to make space for that, with whatever little amount of bandwidth i have to work with. i refuse to wake up one day knowing that i have postponed the only thing thats ever meant a damn to me, only to realize ive run out of time. i will not squander whats left.

at some point, i know i need to put this behind me. this, and several other self-imposed obligations, must greatly diminish or disappear entirely. it might be in a few weeks or a year, but it has to happen. i might keep this one up, sporadically popping in for occasional exchanges, and pass off the sideblogs to someone else. i've already scrubbed the archive. or maybe i'll just delete entirely; perhaps virtual presences are best if they resembled a sand mandala, something designed to be swept away to make space for something - or someone - new.

i had to write this down, get this all out, if only for myself. i cannot begin to estimate the amount of time ive spent here, so it had to be said for my own reconciliation of that time... and to keep myself to it.

when im ready to leave, i'll let you all know.

[fatesundress]

hi lov

i’m on here after devouring the entirety of ur tom riddle masterlist because i just can’t encapsulate my love or admiration for ur writing in a simple comment. you’re incredible – i haven’t been invested in his character for ages but you’ve managed to bring new life to an old hyperfixation, now with the added obsession for your prose and characterisation specifically. observations was beautiful and so so endearing, and patience please […] was the first of ur works i came across that managed to captivate me entirely.

and shit, i’m gonna start another paragraph for the love that used to be there because it deserves it. wow. holy shit - bravo. i woke up this morning with plans to read it in segments and work on my own writing in between, but i sat down and ate through it like a starving beast. it’s 4 hours later now - every minute of which taken up by reading - and i will never stop thinking about that oneshot; that heart-wrenching, gorgeous, detailed piece of work that triggered something in me i don’t think can ever be mended. something about how subtlety soft tom is throughout - how readers friendship with him is chronicled throughout the years. how you re-contextualised his motives by attributing them, in part, to her. love creeps up on them so masterfully that i felt as though ive lived through every second described, like the angst and pain of losing a person who’s become so integral to your personhood was a real thing i was going through. and the mentions of the war, of blood prejudice and the wizarding world’s ignorance to what’s going on with the muggles - they all make for the best little touches. i appreciate every thought u put into that fic, seriously

i can go on and on but i don’t wanna bore you. im just so hdjjdjwjdjejjd, fucking fawning over ur writing and will never get enough. 🤍🤍

oh wow wowow wowowow. okay let me compose myself and be normal

thank you so SO much 😭 i've been in a really self-critical, demotivated place with my writing and checking in on tumblr to see this is ??????>?? indescribably reassuring and incredibly kind

i should preface that i basically do one skim-over of my fics before i post them, have no beta-readers, and for shame i cannot reread them so it's always so helpful to get some positive insight (and from someone with several miguel and joel fics i will Definitely Absolutely Not be binging later) and be reminded that people are enjoying them!! so thank you thank you thank you!!!!!

your feelings on for the love that used to be here are exactly what i hoped to elicit :') i'm so honoured and grateful to play any part in rekindling passion for an old interest, and to do it for one i myself am so inconsolably passionate about means hopefully i'm doing something right. ty for being here! ty for your sweet words! so much love to you <3

#♡ #ask #moondirti

[awesomehoggirl]

Hi ! Embroidery anon here !!! Ive chosen the poem I wanna sew onto my overalls (by showing my friends all of your poems I could find (missed a few since tumblrs search engine is Just Like That) and forcing them to pick their favorite/s and then made the favorites go against eachother in a poll. This was obviously the easiest option and I definatly didn't over-complicate it. Nope.) and whiskeyclone hotel city 1997 was the winner. Im probably gonna sew it in a swamp green thread I just got but if I dont like it I have a lavander and some greys as backup. My new debate with friends is my overwhelming temptation to add lace to the bottom of a pinafor Im also reworking while all my friends are treating me like a cat that's eyeing a glass of water a little too intensly. Should I do it? Should I give into the lace temptation ? Because that pinafor is way shorter than I want (it's been sitting in my wardrobe gathering dust for 4 years now) and I need to lenghten it anyways. Least agregious (and actually kinda cute option) is lace. So should I just bite the bullet and make my friends souls die a little or should I listen to their oh so desperate pleas? (it's all in good fun, no worries about actually upsetting people with clothes, my friends and I just like to argue a lot about useless stuff kinda like a game)

OMG!!! that poem is kinda untitled tbh i just titled it with a lyric from a beck song if you want i can come up with a title for it. definitely add lace lace improves everything i love lace

#thank u for updating meee excited to see how it turns out!!! ^_^

[deathclassic]

i was tagged by @you-are-so-much-better-than-that​​ and @mikhailoisbaby​​ to do this fic writer/artist tag! ive never seen an artist version of this so this is exciting :D

1. Do you post on Ao3? If so, how many works do you have on AO3? If not, where do you post?

i dont post art on ao3 but i post fics there,,,,not gonna say my username though

2. What is your total art count?

we gotta be like 500+ by now

3. What are your top 5 pieces by likes/kudos?

they’re all dan and phil surprise surprise i was surprised that the first one has 12k notes for some reason. im just going to link them

spooky week sketches  amazingphil shop spon PHIL QUIFF DEBUT!!! black ‘n’ white dan phil is not on fire collection

4. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i try to but sometimes i forget and i also dont have notifcations on any social media turned on so i miss a lot of things

5. What is your current fandom, and what was the first fandom you drew for?

currently drawing for umbrella academy, shameless and stranger things. first fandom i properly drew for was one direction but i was drawing stuff for like panic at the disco and powerpuff girls and my little pony and my chemical romance when i was like 7

6. Have you ever received hate on any art?

tonnes lol, i’d say every 2-3 pieces i draw gets some kind of negative attention. recently there’s been an asshole in my asks accusing me of fetishising ian and mickey so thats something to look forward to every time i pose 

7. What’s a fandom/ship you haven’t drawn for yet but want to?

i want to go back to shows i watched as a kid like total drama island and draw the characters in my art style, i did it with the winx club earlier this year and it was fun. i want to draw harringrove but im not mentally prepared to be like,,,sent death threats atm

8. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

i dont know tbh ian and mickey are up there i guess

9. Do you draw outside of fandom?

yeah im a graphic designer so i draw a lot of shit 

10. What’s the an art piece you’ve drawn that came out completely differently than you expected?

this one actually

11. Do you draw smut?

sometimes

12. Have you ever had any of your art stolen or copied?

yeah of course, someone sells my shit on redbubble and i have to keep reporting them

13. Have you ever collaborated on a piece?

yes! @mishervellous​ and i did that amazing comic together for gallacrafts and im so proud of that! also collaborated with a lot of dan and phil artists to make a calendar, a phil is not on fire poster and some general collabs for fun (if anyone wants to collab hmu bc im down)

14. What’s an idea you have that you have yet to draw?

i really want to draw drummer mickey for some reason

15. What are your drawing strengths?

people i guess, maybe like details on clothes and stuff?

16. What are your drawing weaknesses?

hands and feet lol

17. What’s your favorite art piece you’ve drawn?

im so proud of this drawing even though no one really liked it, like looking at it makes me so happy

18. What is one thing you’d like to tell people about your art that they might not know?

like harvey said haha i also use the same colour palette especially skin tones and hair colours also i sketch a lot of the drawings traditionally and then trace over it on photoshop

19. What inspires or motivates you to create for fandom?

myself. i would still be drawing even if no one notices it. heck i draw so much stranger things stuff only for a top of 10 people across instagram, twitter and tumblr to interact with it. 

20. And finally, can you describe your process a little? Do you have a favourite place to draw? Do you play something in the background? Do you do research or just go for it? Give us a little insight

i sit at my desk and use a wacom tablet and my laptop. I have my other laptop open and im normally listening to a tv show that ive seen so i dont have to pay attention or a play through of a game or some creepy stories. sometimes i listen to music on my record player. i always spend ages looking at pose references and rage quitting when i dont draw it right the first time before coming back to it a few hours later. i draw mostly in the evenings, after dinner. sometimes i drink a hot chocolate if its late enough lol. 

im gonna tag @mishervellous​ @doodlevich​ @heymrspatel​ @adakechi​ 

#mutuals #tag game #m does art

[concordefliesinmyroom]

introduction !!!

hii !!!! my name is Violet. i am a really big fan of art & whatnot (basic). i have been taking on a little bit of a personal challenge 2 listen 2 at least one new album every day & ive been working on that challenge for about 1.5 years now !!! i looove talking about art and sharing my thoughts and 4 the past year or so i have been posting all my thoughts and media analysis and whatnot onto my Instagram story, but i have always wanted 2 start posting my thoughts somewhere that is more.... permanent, i guess? bc Instagram stories expire after 24 hours yk. anyways. i finally made a Tumblr blog !!!!! i am COMPLETELY new 2 Tumblr. so i apologize in advance if my blog is like informal or not very "good" quality by Tumblr standards or whatever else i will get better !!!

here is what u can expect from this page:

i am going to post music reviews/recommendations most likely, as well as film & literature & all of that stuff. whenever i see a piece of media that interests me enough 2 want 2 talk abt it im gonna use this blog 2 share my thoughts !!!!

i also am really interested in philosophy, i am only just now formally getting into it, but i have been thinking about that sort of stuff and asking questions like that 4ever. erm. i wouldnt call myself a philosopher bc that feels pretentious but i aspire 2 be a philosopher eventually. ill probably post abt that sort of stuff as well. i am also VERY interested in sociology, psychology, anthropology, political science... pretty much anything like that. i just love learning about things in general EVERYTHING is so fascinating 2 me but especially humanity.

i am a bit interested in politics as well !!!! i dont like to use any labels 4 my political ideas bc i feel like those can be limiting & contribute 2 close-mindedness but if i had 2 describe my alignment in any way i am probably pretty far-left. although i am completely open 2 hearing everyone's ideas!

i might also post about other things as well, im not sure yet !!!

some info abt me:

i am a girl, so, she/her pronouns ig !

i am 16 years old (well im 15 but i turn 16 in two weeks)

i am a member of the LGBTQ community

my handle on most social media sites is yourdadcosplay if u want 2 follow me anywhere else !!! (i dont do cosplay or anything~ when i was 13 i heard some guy on tiktok say the phrase "your dad cosplay" and i thought that combination of words was super funny so i made it into my username on instagram and then it just kind of stuck. and i use that on everything now. only reason i didnt use it 4 my tumblr is bc i didnt want ppl 2 think my blog was a cosplay blog or something idk)

my favorite music artists r: Black Country New Road, Kimya Dawson, Death Grips, Xiu Xiu, and Car Seat Headrest !!!!

my favorite album of all time is Ants From Up There and my favorite movie of all time is Everything Everywhere All at Once, both of those pieces came out in the year 2022.

my favorite book is the manga Goodnight Punpun by Inio Asano, and its actually the book that made me fall in love with literature.

im currently working on creating my own website!!! i dont know anything about HTML though, so it will be a long process.

i dont believe in astrology rlly but i am a Gemini.

my iq is 122 or something around that i dont remember the number i just remember im in the 93rd percentile

i am an INFP

boundaries:

i do try my absolute best to be open-minded and tolerant towards everyone's ideas and beliefs; even those which i disagree with. i actually encourage ppl who disagree with anything i say 2 challenge me or discuss/debate with me. that being said, if u r not willing 2 have a civil and open-minded discussion with me, and if ur only interest is arguing, then i will ask u 2 pls leave me alone. i love talking 2 ppl who have ideas different than my own, but i do not wish 2 engage in any immature internet beefs or anything of that sort.

pls, 4 the love of god, if u r the type of person who gets offended over every little thing; if u r more concerned with petty discourse & things that have no significance 2 any real-life problems; if u lack media literacy; or if u r otherwise just unintelligent, then PLEASE dont interact with my page.

i try my absolute best 2 be a good person. if i ever do anything that u find 2 be morally offensive (this is not just if i say something that makes u feel a bit of angst, but if i say something that u feel is actually problematic.) or if we r interacting directly & i make u uncomfortable, PLEASE TELL ME! i hate it when ppl have problems with me that could easily be resolved but they just dont tell me. it makes me anxious.

also, pls note:

just because i talk about a certain piece of media or art or literature on this blog does not necessarily mean that i agree with the ideas expressed in that blog or even that i like that piece. i try my best to think 4 myself and i do not take all of the ideas that r expressed 2 me as the absolute truth. just because i read any given book does not mean that i necessarily agree with its ideas; the same goes 4 all of the topics i discuss here.

as a large part of this blog is abt media discussion & whatnot, i want 2 say that i am absolutely open 2 any art. and i will not avoid any piece of media just because it is allegedly problematic.

most of this page is dedicated 2 sharing and discussing my ideas on various topics like art, philosophy, politics, and such. i dont think that im going 2 be posting or saying anything that is incredibly morally offensive or anything, and 2 be honest i dont even think my ideas r particularly radical or controversial, but, if there ever does come a time when i might have a potentially controversial idea, i wont hesitate 2 share it. im not going 2 censor myself or sugarcoat my beliefs on this blog just 2 avoid discourse.

all of that being said, this blog is not 2 be taken 100% seriously either. i will talk abt serious topics on here, but i like 2 laugh as well! u should not assume that anything i say is 100% serious or 100% satirical. that SHOULD be a given, but on my Instagram account, i have had a worrying amount of interactions with ppl who got mad at me 4 things bc they assumed i was serious when i wasnt or vice versa.

ok, that is all !!! thx 4 reading !!!

#introductory post #first post #death grips #xiu xiu #kimya dawson #musicposting #girlblogging

[fandom-trauma]

Hello hello! Ive been gone a while. Lots of things have happened, and I'm still in the thick of my final year project, but it's (mostly) coming to an end mid-Feb! Thought Id do a little post (mainly for me and the 4 followers I have) on my current WIPs Ive picked up, and what I plan to be doing. Personal update under the Read More.

First of all, I have like a million art and fic WIPs related to Immortal Desires and Perfect Match 2. No biggie, I just have... lots and lots of thoughts about Poly!PM MC and Poly!ID MC. Yes, this means I do have a fix-it fic about how that end of book confession goes... maybe even a rewrite of the entire last chapter... but hold that thought!

Now that I'm a little bit more versed in Twinery (see second point below for why), I'm a little bit tempted to make my rewrite interactive as well. Just text tho lol, but either way, an ending rewrite is a ways away, and also I kinda wanna wait till Bk2 is released to really start working on it. (I didn't realise ID was GOC so you bet I binged it within three fuckin days when I did. It's a bloody amazing book. I also finally finished my playthrough of PM2, so that explains why these books are giving me immense brainrot.)

SECONDLY, 'A Date with Bryce Lahela' is about halfway done! I'm not exactly sure if I've ever shared the idea publicly to the fandom, but this is the basic gist of it: Date is an attempt on my end of trying to recreate those TF Date Specials, but with the one and only Bryce Lahela. Cool, right? Unfortunately, it's only in text format, bc I'm learning Twinery Harlowe.

What's left of Date? When can I play it/a demo? Pronoun choices, smut scenes and equipment variations, a whole activity is uncoded, trackable achievements, load/save functionality, and after that it's just making sure the whole damn thing works. As for a demo... ;) .. ... Joking. The entire predicted gameplay is short enough to not really need a demo, so there won't be a public one. I aim to have this done by, god, hopefully end of the year? This damn thing's been sitting in my WIPs for two whole years, so I would really like it done and over with, haha, but it's a lot of work for one person.

THIRD, I have a 1.2k word rewrite of Foreign Affairs Ch12 Tatum diamond scene that has been in the making, and rotting away in my WIPs, since 2 April 2021. Honest to god, it's a little bit of a vent fic, and I've been slowly chipping away at it whenever I've been stressed. The rewrite isn't because I see the scene as bad, but I do wish there was a liiiiiittle more hurt/comfort in it lol.

FOURTH, well... I have a few Bryce x M!MC smut fics that, uh, really should be finished and see the light of day. Or, at least escape the WIP folder and experience the cool damp corner of my tumblr blog.

So, that's my WIPs so far! Personal stuff under the read more.

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My 3D animation final year project wraps up a couple of weeks before my graduation. I knew the workload was going to be larger than what I've had with my previous 2D animation projects, but boy it really hits different when you're actually working on it. I won't go into it too detailed, but if you're curious, feel free to ask about it!

My 2023 started off as a... mixed bag. Low lows and high highs, I guess. Won't go into it, but yeah, not great.

Me having Date in semi-working condition is purely because of a NYE group gift exchange and my hubris at making a working product within 2 weeks. It was... yeah, no, I've been humbled, but man was the result such an endorphin rush.

I've also got really into making custom content for The Sims 4, so that's where the bulk of my free time went, really. I'm active in a few TS4 discord servers, so if you see mothy-simmie, say hi :P

#aaron speaks #my ask box is open #if you wna. yknow. send something #tbh it's perpetually open lol #anon is on if youre curious

[gwaaaaar]

I posted 5,713 times in 2022

102 posts created (2%)

5,611 posts reblogged (98%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@choco-myth

@beth-bethar00

@boronal

@willowfoxthefox

sean-gaffney

I tagged 441 of my posts in 2022

#mazm - 31 posts

#vatican miracle examiner - 20 posts

#vatican kiseki chousakan - 16 posts

#mazm thy creature - 12 posts

#identity v - 11 posts

#mazm hyde and seek - 9 posts

#mazm phantom of the opera - 7 posts

#baccano! - 7 posts

#baccano - 7 posts

#ganji gupta - 6 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#reminds me of that one meme you made where its like this edible aint shit and its a pic of light music club cater saying i always wanted to

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Ok hear me out, Ganji and Mike accidentally crash into each other during a match or something and they drop their Red balls. They scramble to pick what they assume are their own items but we cut to Mike trying to flip over a rail and the ball bounces back and hits him square in the face, he's out like a light. Now zooming over to ganji he's taking aim then BOOM! his bats on fire, Ganji is now chasing the hunter with a flaming glorified stick,ganji is now banned from Duos

Holy shit yes oh my god 😭😭😭😭. Clusmy anime girls with toast in their mouth except, threats to the hunter that dropped their balls.

30 notes - Posted February 15, 2022

#4

Raoul de Chagny (Mazm one maybe idk) is such a sigma male but also an L bozo. Mans literally cannot get manipulated by erik bc hes too stupid but at the same time he goes into eriks box to assert dominance only to pass out like an idiot. And the scene in the forest where he HAD A CELAR SHOT AT ERIK AND MISSED. L bozo.

32 notes - Posted April 24, 2022

#3

Having finished Hyde and Seek like 3 days after release here are some of my thoughts. There's gonna be some stuff implied so read with caution, i wont say outright but ill talk abt the implications. Sorry most of this is Alan rambling I have brainworms and I'm ill.

-Alan is literally my malewife. Love at first sight, if Noah is my little meanwhore Alan is my malewife. I love their big boobs.

-Pollie>Sally. My heart dropped when Alan tried to ask Sally out like out of all people, Sally? Good news though hes single by the end.

-Pollie is literally that one tumblr post where its like let women be pathetic little meow meows too. She is the definition of a pathetic meow meow and i love her for that.

See the full post

45 notes - Posted March 13, 2022

#2

LOLIROCK IS OUT FOR MY BLOOD WHY DID THEY GIVE HIM M SHAPED LIPS WHY WOULD THEY DO THIS THEY DID THIS ON PURPOSE HWGWJAGEJAHEHNSGEJSJSGZ

93 notes - Posted May 22, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

Alright so ive been seeing this going around, the lack of paint on Sam in ENG . I dont want to start shit though, im saying this as a disclaimer. And i want to say this as controversial as it may be: it was for the best probably.

Voodoo has a history of being portrayed as dark magic which is horrible. Voodoo is a religion not satanic not dark magic. It is as much of a religon as Islam, Christianity, Hinduism, Judaism, etc. Respect it. I like the bone paint too, it looked cool, but clearly its more cultural appropriation rather than appreciation on Sam (voodoo practicers if you can please tell me if ive said something wrong).

"Cancel culture" isnt just an "sjw" thing, its used to talk about problems. Saying "twst shouldve just stayed in jp" bc of the problematic aspect isnt good. We have to address problematic issues with culture and racism. Twst has racist aspects you cannot deny that. It doesnt mean you cant enjoy twst at all, but stay openminded and listen to minorities when they speak. Cultures arent "aesthetics" :/

284 notes - Posted January 20, 2022

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welp, isnt that a doozy

#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review

[jugheadthejones]

I posted 106 times in 2022

That's 86 more posts than 2021!

22 posts created (21%)

84 posts reblogged (79%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@grumpytrans

@jugheadthejones

@autisticandroids

@sneez

@messmonte

I tagged 87 of my posts in 2022

Only 18% of my posts had no tags

#words - 22 posts

#dreamling - 18 posts

#gay shit - 7 posts

#photography - 7 posts

#sandman - 4 posts

#art - 3 posts

#fic rec - 3 posts

#dream/shakespeare - 3 posts

#romo - 3 posts

#steddie - 3 posts

Longest Tag: 139 characters

#(i see him just getting over the smaaaaaaall moral issue just as dustin and mike roll up starting the issues anew but massively tented now)

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

i NEED messy jealousy screw dream/shakespeare!!!! i cannot believe!!! dream dips on his date after hearing about his happy marriage to go “””make a deal””” with some lively little dreamy twink PLEASE!! and hob def knowing. def making dream make up for it

25 notes - Posted September 6, 2022

#4

i go back in forth on my headcanons about whether hobs not dying status is enough to clear him of the ‘no mortalsxEndless’ rules but ive starting reading the dreaming (2018) and yknow if dream can fuck his great-great-grandniece he can fuck hob.

38 notes - Posted October 13, 2022

#3

not to perpetuate eddie munsons reputation as a satanist BUT what if one day he accidentally summoned a sex demon. and for some reason it took the form of steve harrington.

+for some reason dustin (&mike?) show up at his trailer (dnd stuff?) and hes gotta try and explain why theres a horned up steve harrington double in his bedroom when theh swear they just left him at family video not an hour ago?

47 notes - Posted July 12, 2022

#2

i want. dream and hob to have an actual conversation about nada. but i dont. bc i feel like hob, even with his own sour history, would see that as just too fucking much man

but also i DO bc hob would punch him, as he deserves

51 notes - Posted September 8, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

anyways. hob having sex w dream in the dreaming while lying in bed with his current girlfriend in the waking. shes hearin him moanin abt dream, which is weird but whatever wet dreams be wet dreams. shell wake him up for another round or just let it be cos shes wiped out this isnt about that tho

hob maybe still doesnt know/understand that dream Dream is real Dream while Dream thinks theyre in a fully understood relationship (theyve been doing this for awhile now, after meeting back up in the waking after his imprisonment)(hes still Very Bad at openly explaining things to his mortal lovers), hob just also has relationships in waking since theyre Casual TM (dreams a little afraid of commitment rn) (and Dream can’t physically fuck Be With a mortal in the waking)

Edit: no actually this is a bout weird somno and hob being just totally wrecked by the dueling sensations of his girlfriend in the waking trying to wake him up by feeling him up to go for another round, and Dream using all hos might actually a considerably small amount of his might (but yknow, emotionally all of his might) to keep hob fucking him in the dreaming. the weird relationship status is a secondary concern

59 notes - Posted October 2, 2022

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#tumblr2022 #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #looooove that thats my #nimber 1 post bc it doesnt grt rb a lot but she gets consistent likes #dreamling baby