#like ive said it so many times ..havent i

[turtletoria]

my favorite wordgirl character, jerma

#turtlearts #wordgirl #wg #jerma #dr two brains #steven boxleitner #ok funny story. my lockscreen is fanart of jerma right #and my mama saw it and said is this the guy you like? and i was like :D YAS ITS JERMA 985 MY FAVORITE GUY #and my mama was like oh is that the guy you draw all the time? and i was like draw all the time?? i havent really drawn jerma all that much- #WAIT. OH. OHHHH..... #my mama confused steven with jerma. i exploded #but also yeah i see the similarity so much #ive come to the conclusion that i like 1 (one) kind of white guy and theyre weird and funny guys that have a rodent motif #jerma and steven and will wood are all the same to me. sorry #jerma is the rats rats we are the rats guy. 2 brains is self explanatory. will wood has lovely pet rats. #and he sings about them. his new album even has the rat motif and i love love tomcat disposables argggghhh #oogh. i want a pet rat. lovely creatures #also why do i keep putting so much effort into what should otherwise be low effort memes???????? its driving me insane #it makes the joke unfunny and the payoff doesnt equal the amt of work that went into it!!!!!!!!! arrrrgggghhh #i literally spent so many hours on the burger one and i hate it so much. cries

[sonknuxadow]

hey guys look what i found in my drafts. from a few days ago .

#sorry i think its my fault that this happened #still unsure if The News is actually real or not tbh since no official sources have said anything about it as far as i know #and i hear the hollywood reporter is usually right about this stuff but idk #the fact that there are no actual sources or evidence for any of this other than ''just trust me bro'' is a bit suspicious to me #+ the fact that theyve been keeping the development of sonic 3 very quiet and secret #yet shadows voice actor. which is one of the biggest topics of discussion surrounding the movie. just. happened to leak somehow ? #but . the timing on this is kinda funny . and very tragic. if it is real #i said it already but i dont get why so many people are celebrating this. from what ive heard he doesnt fit .... #and it feels like another case of casting a random celebrity over an actual voice actor just to have a big name attached to the project #regardless of if theyre really the best choice. #which i thought everyone agreed was a shitty and annoying practice especially if its some iconic video game/comic/whatever character ? #but maybe i just havent heard the right specific voice clips that make people think its a good choice i dont know .

[corvidaeus]

everyone point and laugh at my comically low vitamin d levels

#he said it was low and i was like haha yeah i have some supplements but i havent been very good about taking them this winter #and i said i'd make sure to take them but he was like no im prescribing you the high strength stuff #this may explain why im always so tired #and why ive gotten sick like 3 times in as many months #other than that i mostly got a good grade in blood

[lazaruspiss]

not sure how i manage to be bad at making a self insert lmao, i always end up developing them into an entire OC in the end

#ramble tag #smth smth all art is self insert to a degree bc u cant help but leave pieces of urself in it #and also i have no proper self image. idk if thats bc of the identity related dissociation or what #unrelated but ive been trying to get more comfortable w the whole. roomies in the brain thing #which is hard bc reading related resources and support makes us shut down a bit so we never get more than a few sentences in lmao #thats like so dumb. i already know guys. we can read about it i promise it wont hurt! #forever thinking about the time a therapist said DID and immediately walked it back bc it was way too soon to call that lol #i still dont call it that bc its hashtag complicated #me looking at that one section of our notes app: have i met literally any of you people #i explained it to my coworkers at my first job like #''ok u know they 'there r 2 wolves inside u' thing? imagine that but many wolves. here let me draw a chart real quick-'' #we took turns more back then for some reason #i miss vie. p sure theyre fine i just havent seen them in a bit.

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

*don't go to grad school out of spite, don't go to grad school out of spite, do NOT go to GRAD SCHOOL out of SPITE!!!*

#text #personal #grad school #char don't look #anyway not me being a spite and caffeine fueled being #anyway i mentioned i was trying to bully a friend into finishing his dissertation revisions to one of the PhD's i work with #said phd was like 'oh i can tell youve never been to grad school' #and im over here like i havent but i COULD #and i know i COULD i just dont know what i WANT #AAAND it bothers me when people bring up finishing dissertation vs how long its taken me to finish this gotdamn book revision #which #hnngh #BUT ALSO DO YOU HAVE ANY FUCKING IDEA HOW MANY BOOKS I HAVE WRITTEN IN THE PAST 8 YEARS!!!!!! #i always blank on that when people give me shit about it #i gotta quit blanking :( #plus its not like being a writer has been my only job for those eight years #(like my friend was A Grad Student for all that time) #ive written books WHILE participating in capitalism full time #this one in particular is so slow because of my fucking god awful living situation #im Upset lmao

[bangcakes]

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#the more it sinks in... the more surreal it feels. like HDJDJDJDJDJDJ #the Way i doubted whether he wanted to keep in touch with me when literally..... said he would... how he always answers me... #messages me when he has news kr something to say..... hangs out with people he doesnt like just to have like.. moments with me.... #i really cant handle it OYXKYDKYTKDDO #its so fuckin weird. like even if we end up just friends... the experience has been so wild..... #like lmao this time last year we had had like. 1 conversation JDJDJDJXJZJZ #literally sat a seat away from each other an entire semester and dint talk til the last day. oh its so funny #god i cant believe we're friends.... #i havent talked to him since i saw him last week at that dinner.. i cant really think of anything to say BDDNDDNNDND #been focusing on job applications #i handed a second one in yesterday and started a third today. hoping to have it done tomorrow but... its not due until feb so... i have som #time to perfect it :)))) #i really hate this stuff. like god it takes so much out of me..... #i'll probs update him on how many ive applied to idk. trying not to overthink HDJDJDJDJDJJ #im not really the type to message unnecessarily and neither is he so hhhhhh lmao #itll be fine.... #personal #have i mentioned hes my favourite :p

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

Could I ask 9 and/or 4?

got two people asking for 4 so i'll get to it lol but first:

9. What are your file name conventions

well it depends, usually now they're p straightforward (often for organizational purposes)

sometimes tho they're kinda funny

4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw

oh there's probably a LOT honestly that i'm just forgetting abt but for one i'll say a certain bitch: FUKASE

ohhhhh my god. love that bastard but also wtf dude. aside from wildly inconsistent characterization in my stuff (b/c honestly he's a really interesting character who has a lot of potential for different interpretations, imo) I KEEP FUCKING UP HOW I DRAW HIM 😭😭 i'll forget some detail or another (like on his outfit or the fucking x thing near his mouth or the little flag on his head), colors aren't always consistent cause i keep changing them (sorry my guy your current red is kinda too high contrast and i got color theory shit going on in my things), I CAN NEVER FUCKING DRAW HIS HAIR RIGHT EVEN THO ITS NOT EVEN THEORETICALLY THAT HARD OF A HAIRSTYLE, not even his height's fucking consistent either he's a goddamn mess. award goes to him for sure in being THE most inconsistent variable vocaloid bitch in my shit, not just hc/portrayal-wise but also drawing wise because FUCK even if i draw him somewhat often HE LITERALLY LOOKS DIFFERENT EVERY FUCKING TIME

len's hair is also a bitch sometimes but for some reason i (usually) have less trouble w/ his hairstyle compared to fukase's WHICH IS SOME FUCKING BACKWARDS ASS LOGIC BRUH THE HELL

weirdly specific artist asks

#ask #anonymous #ask meme #SORRY THE RESPONSE WAS DELAYED i was in class and in general i take forever to type this shit up and i wanted the file name pics #those are all from images ive already posted im pretty sure; have fun guessing which are which if youre up for that challenge lol #my file names used to be more exciting when i was younger but now theyre kinda usually just the title or smthn related to the subject etc #that isnt to say i dont still have funny file names but some of the funnier ones are like inside jokes nobody would get or sm shit like tha #just in general theres QUITE A LOT of vocaloid design choices that are fucking hell on earth for me to draw sometimes #took me a while to figure out piko's hairstyle. and the details on his dress/boots/headphone things are fucking hell still rip so i simplif #i havent drawn maika a lot but like the one time i did i realized her design is actually kinda fuckin weird. same can b said for many other #i love them dont get me wrong but AUGHGHH dies sometimes. idk why some shit is easier for me to draw and some not ??? logic #i can say i can pretty much draw oliver from memory tho so clearly theres a bias here #ollie the star anon

[mejomonster]

Trying to date makes me so sad...

#rant #is it the advice love comes when ur not looking that makes me sad? hell yeah ToT i havent looked in years #and lo and behold i am still single! love didnt show up when i wasnt looking as they said dudjfjf #is it how a lot of ppl on apps are poly and partnered #and i am not personally. but id like to ask them HOW ON EARTH they found someone they love so i can learn from their advixe #(but rhats a lie. i probably cant learn from their advice ;-; cayse ive been trying to learn from advixe for over a decade now #and well none of it worked did it) #is it perhaps that lots of young 20 #year olds like me on dayint apps. and im looking for a serious relationship with someone else whos working and stuff and #generally a 20-22 year old is gonna be more likely foguring out stuff and having fun and not planning long term #is it that im simply demiromantic and demisexual and in a Swipe Right world the months long pace #that takes to develop attraction is just boringly time wastingly slow for pwople who Know immediately if they wanna bang or fall in love #and i get it. if theyre trying to xut their loses and date casually to find a compatible partner. i probably taje too long compared to #other options. #am i gonna just be alone. i wish i wasnt but i really dont know what to do #i havent had a crush in years :c not even a date. . im talking i havent evrn felt simple attraction in many years #:c :c oh im so sad i could cry #i got onto the dating apps today and was recommended 20 21 year olds. 10 poly people. and 10 people who want children #:c then i felt so sad i didnt wanna look at the apps any more

[haechanhour]

i just saw haechan today 💌

#i know that im barely here anymore #actually im not here anymore #its been hard to keep putting out gifsets and live the live i am barely living #but today i saw haechan for the second time within 12 months #and when i say he is one of the very few things that's keeping me tethered to the earth i mean it #at some points i just . stared and watched him i couldnt even cheer for most of it #its like i was in a trance #i just love him so much it hurts #it hurts because it pains me to see him work so hard because i work so hard and he hasnt had a break since 2016 #and i havent had a break in 2016 #and ive said this many many posts ago in an ask where someone asked me why i love him #and i said its because i see myself him #he's living the life i wanted to live at some point #the stage the applause the glory to be able to sing and have people love you #and i'm living the life he wants when he's empty after performing for years and years and years where i went to school went to university #had relationships had experiences that normal people go through #but he's him and i'm me and he's on that stage and i've graduated university #what was my point even #that i love him i truly do #aside from the projection i just think #i think that he's such a performer. a perfect performer a stage genius a magnificent artist #the way he sings fills the entire space #the way he dances makes it look like the spotlight is just on him #he's so insane #anyway that's it for the word vomit lol #i hope you are all living good healthy lives where you get to do things you like to do and are paid a good amount of money

[hella1975]

i miss my flatmates :/

#like having so many flatmates means i havent built a super close relationship with them #but we ARE funny #like it's just nine of us sharing this one space #particularly the flatmate on my corridor #bc the way it's laid out is that there's four rooms on one side of the kitchen and six on the other #and not only did i luck out with the less crowded corridor #but of the three with me on my side #one moved out and another is genuinely a recluse like ive seen him FOUR times total since being at uni im not joking #which just leaves me and this one lad that im friends with #and like it's not a close friendship by any means but we have the exact same sense of humour and he's so fucking funny #and he's now my neighbour bc he moved rooms when aforementioned flatmate moved out #like we kinda just do our own thing on our corridor while the rest of the flat stabs each other #like someone will message the gc at 3am like 'whoever's shagging really loud please shut the fuck up' #and me and him are there on our lovely QUIET side like 🫢 #also i just miss having my flatmates in general #like being offered a lift to the supermarket or going on a late night maccies run #or always seeing them at the end of a night out bc we might not all go out together but we always wind up back in the same space #and something funny was always happening #like one time my neighbour flatmate STOLE THE SOFA FROM THE KITCHEN and put it in our corridor #and mind you need a fob to get onto our corridor which only THREE OF US (really two bc like i said the one lad is a recluse) #have so we just stole the fucking sofa and wouldnt put it back sjkhgskdh #and we'd just hang out there with one of my other flatmates a lot of the time it was chill #or the whole binbags-on-kitchen-lights-vs-maintenance battle we had going #idk the vibes were nice i like that there's always something going on in my flat #i do NOT miss people being in my kitchen when im nitm to socialise though omg #hella goes to uni

[brizie-doodles]

Hey this hasn't been a super huge issue for me but I just wanna say please don't interact with my art/follow me if you're gonna be ugly or weird abt my black character art! Block me and go away please!

#just saying bc last time i let it slide and it was super old art but still. its happening again and im at negative patience capacity 🙃 #i havent drawn as many characters black as i want to bc of time + the thought dealing w negative comments #ive been just deleting them and building confidence #if i get another passive aggressive or just straight up hateful remark I'm going to start killing i think <3 i deserve it <3 #also please for the love of GOD if youre not black dont make chocolate comments/tags!!! #its. so uncomfy to hear from nb people ESPECIALLY if we aint close like that!!! #like i said it hasn't been super huge bc i dont have a lot of it but im tired. i am TIRED!!! i want to make more and Will get the energy #but yeah. just something that was irking me #ik despite this ill still see and encounter shit but for the people here listening. yeah #brizie rambles #FOUND MY FUCKING TAG. WINNING!!!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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#god. im so sorry. ive apparently dragged myself up enough that i can now be v annoying abt my problems on the internet #anyway. the thing abt me is that ppl just cant say things to me. like the casual way ppl do #like oh we should do X thing or u should do X thing. bc i just go. ok r u... r u actually saying this is a thing that has to heppen? #like??? is this someone i have to be wary of now? and if its u should do X thing i cant just let it go #like Thursday my boss was like: u should watch a movie or something this weekend bc she was telling me to chill for a sec #bc i can only imagine how fucking miserable i looked last week #and now im laying here like. i didnt watch a movie. i didnt watch a movie. i said i would and its the end of the weekend and i havent #watched a movie. but like i dont even want to watch one? #and like if u tell me to chill its like. ok so i have to not work this weekend. ok but i have all these things i have to do. but i cant do #them bc i have to chill. so i get stuck in this agony loop where im just laying here paralyzed #which ive basically been doing for the past 2hrs. like i have so much to do. but i have to relax but also i have personal projects that #need to get done. and if i just lay here it counts as relaxing right? despite the fact im spiralling #i just cant focus. i vascilate too much between too many tasks and therefore accomplish nothing #so did i relax this weekend? well i didnt get much done so fml #ugh. its so annoying. im just so bored. maybe i should just sleep #i dont think ive been sleeping well. ugh. i dont understand how ppl can just like shut off the part of their brain that goes #ding! u have a task to do. ding! u have a task to do. ding! ur wasting time. ding! just imagine everything u could be getting done! #and i have to work thru Thanksgiving and i might not get that much time off at Christmas bc theres a project that keeps getting pushed back #my boss is moving schools January 1 but she really wants to b there for this project thats gonna kill me so like maybe we could squeeze it #in before Christmas? maybe? if i dont take a fucking break. which is stupid bc its my choice i literally dont have to but i cant just #forget that she wants to see it so whatever. ive been such a fuck up recently that i feel like i should make it up somehow #but thats stupid bc i should just take a long break bc im v obviously not doing well. but at this point idk if that would fix anything #i just need to leave. but rationally i should stay until next August bc money. but god at what cost #ugh y have i dont this to myself? last year around this time i was doing 10hr days 6 days a week on part time pay. and now im like hm y am #i all used up now? why am i so bitter? bc actions have consequences mate #sigh... so annoying #unrelated

[seethinglikeme]

missed my art and maths lessons bc i’m so tired 😐

#i missed art bc i got an email from my teafher saying that shell be absent for abt two weeks and they’re sorting the relief teacher #so i didn’t show up to today’s lesson because i wasn’t sure if it was even still on and i figured that if i was wrong i coukd just say that #i thought she’d said it wasnt on bc of the lack of a teacher #and then i missed maths bc i took a nap immediately after my history lesson which was directly after my art lesson and slept for longer than #an hour which is the time btwn my history and maths lessons :/ #it’s not my intention to skip class but i’ve been pulling late nights to try and study which i barely do bc it’s hard to force myself to do #it. w my adhd meds i can concentrate better but its still hard for me to actally start studying #at least ive been drawing more so i could probably put those in the gallery for art #sighhhhh and i have like 4 assessments this week i havent started + i still need to do other work b4 those assessments… good thing theyre #not worth many marks since theyre the first in the year and i can have a little bit of an excuse w the week i lost when i was accidentally #enrolled into yr 11 classes instead of 12 #mecore

[tklpilled]

i think i like dazai. slightly less after today!

#/j because He Wasnt Serious He Cant Be Right #wait okay spoilers im gonna talk about this as someone who has never read the manga except for that scene today #my knowledge is limited! #but #dazai is genuinely nice to chuuya?? #yes he left chuuya alone after the lovecraft fight but tbf he folded up his clothes for him /lh #‘ive thought of many ways to kill chuuya’ as if you havent saved his life? multiple times? willingly? #dazai could literally just leave him if he wanted him dead. there would be nothing else keeping him alive #and being dazai i dont think he’d have a problem with killing someone he hates or leaving them to die #so clearly he doesn’t hate chuuya. and chuuya canonically doesnt hate him either but thats beside the point #when chuuya is using corruption are the most obvious times #but also in dead apple where he says something like ‘i’d rather not help you fight your ability’ while protecting him from the fog #no one said you had to help him! you could just get up and leave! #so i doubt he’s actually leaving chuuya to die this time when he had the chance many other times #not only that but he was totally lying when he said they never had any connection #because immediately before that it showed the moments where they clearly Did #and i dont think dazai is oblivious enough to not realise that #or maybe he is. i dont know #but i don’t think so. how could he go through whatever tf happened in dead apple and not realise they have Something /lh #theyre literally willing to put their lives in the others hands without hesitation #kaz speaks

[macjaket]

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#guess this is my venting hours now #like. okay. i get it. u dont ussually share a room. but we are sharing it now. so u cant just exist like the room is just yours #like. keep the window open cuz if u close it when i come in the room smells like shit #like. if u know i need my tine alone and i can only play music loud with the speaker in the room #dont be an aswhole and hog the room all day #like i know u leave it sometimes. but why is it that u are there all day but only leave it at like 10pm #a time when i would be and ashole for playing music with the speaker peiple are already asleep #and when im in the room u dont care and just go in like i havent said multiole times thst i need it for myself sometime #and that i cant exist in the room if ur also there. like u know it is my safeplace in the house and still u tske it from me #and then u go back i to the room at like 1 am and stsy there on ur phone #i cant fukin sleep if i know ur awake inside the room. and ive told him many times #but the piece of shit still stays in the room just on his phone till like 2 am. and everyday he tskes longer to go to skeep #so my sleep is even more fucked that usual cuz i gotta stay out of the room cuz i cant be in there untim he is asleep #also. its not a ‘he will get mad if i go in’ no. its a ‘my brain doesnt let me exist in the room if someone else is there’