#like myself 🙃

[verynonyideas]

#I was actually about to update one of my fanfics when a Destiel Meme notified me of the outage. 🙃 #archive of our own #ao3 #ao3 outage #fanfiction problems #fanfiction writer problems #fanfiction reader problems #this mostly calls myself out #if I didn’t post then I was gunna read…now I gotta go to bed like a responsible adult #and yes…I spent way too much time on this instead of just going to bed #okay I spent an hour on it but still #supernatural memes giving me the news again #destiel news #news via Destiel meme

[batri-jopa]

I love myself looking sexy for the sheer pleasure of it

#me myself and I #my art #aromantic asexual #aromantic #asexual #aro #ace #aro/ace #aroace #this time the 'rough cut paper' effect was on purpose #my cap is a little darker. I'm already too fat for my only grey trousers. and the old turtleneck have its colours reversed #only the sunset flag is true🙃 #sunset flag #just me #aroace positivity #aroace artist #oh and it was like dicussing the idea of 'looking pretty to be liked by someone' that I guess I almost believed for some time in my life #so maybe it's beyond aspec actually #all the guys look good for yourself always!✊️

[sugarcoatedrattrap]

berg

#I’ve got loads of work to do but it’s also 3am and so here’s some portraits 🙃 #I swear I’ve not drawn bob the same way in any drawing #I can’t settle on his design #I ask myself ‘what degree of pathetic and babygirl do I feel like drawing him today’ and yknow what it’s worked this far #calvin fischoeder #bobs burgers #belchoeder

[napping-sapphic]

No but listen if we were dating i could inspire you to do your daily mental health walk when you don’t want to which would also force me to do MY daily mental health walk when i don’t want to it’s a win/win situation absolutely no downsides

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #i am slacking on my daily mental health walks😔 #by like two months at this point🙃 #i think part if why relationships are so appealing to me is that i do so much better when ive got a buddy #like taking care of someone else always makes me take better care of myself #and if they were also TRYING to take care of me?? #bestie we could take over the world #or at least improve our overall health while also having a support system for bad days #that we recognize will always be a thing and are healthy to have #like bestie lets be mental support buddies who also get to kiss and hold hands #idk #im gay and i like sleeping

[twistedappletree]

Made myself sad thinking about how fast Jin Ling runs to Jiang Cheng’s side if he even suspects he’s been hurt because he’s lost everyone in his family, everyone who cared about him and was supposed to watch him grow up and all he has left is his jiujiu and he can’t lose anyone else, he just can’t

#going to throw myself in the trash rn don’t worry #aHAHAHA #🙂🙃🙂🙃 #mdzs #the untamed #mo dao zu shi #jin ling #jiang cheng #jin ling and his jiujiu #sad baby boy hours OOPS #i actually would’ve obliterated the earth if he lost JC in canon #or if JC lost him #it’s bad enough JL was originally supposed to die and become a fierce corpse liKE #LEAVE THEM ALONE #GSAHGDYJHFJLH #apple babble 🍎 #the only consolation is that jin ling has the other juniors now #it makes me so happy he has friends and that they love him and he loves THEM #even if he won’t admit it lmao #also im aware he still has uncles everywhere in the damn world lmFAO #I mean the family he was around the most and had the biggest roles in his childhood/life

[tokruta]

I can’t explain why, but this is my favorite hilson edit ever and I can/will watch it on loop for an uncountable amount of times

#hilson #house md #gregory house #james wilson #im very bummed about my laptop dying on me and possibly having to replace the motherboard #or put money aside to buy a new one in…who knows how long 🙃 #so i was looking through my tiktok playlists since i can’t do my usual late night genealogy #and i saw my house folder and got hit with a burst of nostalgia #i had already saved this edit to my phone bc i loved it so much and would be devastated if it was deleted #idk maybe it’s the lake scene in the middle that pushes the brain buttons just right #but the whole vibe i get from it is immaculate and i wanted to share in an attempt to cheer myself up lol #maybe i’ll make a mega post of my fave fics too bc why not #it’s not like i can do my genealogy work 😞 #hasan't #personal #video #not my video #tiktok #not my tiktok

[lovelyheartclover]

My lesbian ass FINALLY drew Vuzi and Juzi (as madohomu/Madoka x Homura) 💜💛 I hope the Vuzi/Juzi cult accepts me smh 😔😔/J

References I used:

Tagging 💌: @m0n1q @ringo-ro @absolute-solver @spinnydraws @notkoshka @zombytommy @lilywily143 @uzibrainrot @mozzyspurt @idunaflo @electronix-arts @bigpinkbaguette @jazzyblusnowflake

#🎨 Clover's art 🎨 #I drew both of these last night and im kinda proud of how they came out??? #like...especially the Juzi drawing im kinda ehhh?? about #theres so many errors and mistakes I made when doing the lineart on these two drawings that it honestly bothers me alot 💔💔💔 #I love the concept of the drawings but I dont really like how I executed them....🙃🙃 #idk what do you guys think? #reminder that im a beginner artist so please...please be nice 😭😭 #I notice and see the mistakes and errors already 😭💔 #idk maybe im being too hard on myself?? #whatever im still glad I finally drew the lesbians 😁😁😁😁✨✨ #vuzi #juzi #madohomu #madoka x homura #murder drones #uzi doorman #serial designation v #serial designation j #lesbian #sapphic #bisexual #artist on tumblr #tumblr artists #traditional art #jesus christ this has alot of tags !!!!

[leslutdepointedulac]

Okay. I think enough time has passed. I'm ready to confront this.

I finished re-reading IWTV a few days ago now, and this paragraph fucked me up then, and continues to fuck me up now 🙃

Armand obviously knew what was going to happen. He knew that the theatre vampires were going to be coming for Claudia that very same night. He essentially warns Louis about what's to come.

"Louis, come with me tonight," he whispered suddenly, with an urgent inflection.

Armand is desperate to get Louis to go with him there and then, so that he doesn't get caught up in the theatre vampire's 'business', so to speak. It's got nothing to do with Louis, he doesn't need to be punished, as far as Armand's concerned.

When Louis rejects this, and says he can't go with him tonight, there's not really anything Armand can do, but to just accept that that's how it's going to be. He doesn't want Louis getting caught up in the situation, but he can't say anything more, unless he gives himself and his involvement away.

I watched him turn away and look at the dark night sky. He appeared to sigh, but I didn't hear it.

For only a moment I hesitated, mocked by the pounding of my heart.

It's as if, deep, deep down, Louis knows there's something wrong. He knows something's coming, and that whatever it is, it can't be any good. And I think he knows Armand has something to do with it.

But Louis' blinded by his love for Armand, and Armand's love for him. He's blinded by the possibilities Armand could give him, and any further knowledge he may have to share.

Louis doesn't want to face the truth. He's had one not so great experience in love before, and he's not willing to let that happen again, even if that just means being in denial about it. He so desperately wants to believe Armand has his best interests at heart, and that there's no possible chance that he could ever have any malicious intentions, let alone follow through with them.

He's clinging onto hope.

But ultimately, that delusional hope ends with Claudia dead, when Louis should've just listened to her warnings.

Of course, Louis isn't entirely responsible. Armand already had Louis, he didn't need to worry about Claudia anymore. Louis literally even says so himself. He tells Armand he already has him. And I know that's not the only reason for Claudia's death, there's so much more to it than that, but it was apart of it.

I think either way, Claudia was probably going to end up dead, but more could've been done to prevent it. But the blatently obvious warning signs were ignored, along with Armand's desperate need to have Louis.

#i talked about this on the gc when i was reading it #but i need to let it out here too #i was too sad about it at the time (i still am lbr) #but like i said i'm ready to traumatise myself with it again now 🙃 #i love louis/armand but goddamn #does this section fuck me up #louis de pointe du lac #armand #claudia #loumand #interview with the vampire #iwtv #vampire chronicles #tvc #vc meta #my vampire chronicles

[argumentativeantitheticaldrmgirl]

🙄

#oh hey it's me #validate my existence #cutie w a bootie #byeee <3 #thirsty thursday #its me #i'm thirsty #lmao im sorry #i'll see myself out #like 🙃🙃🙃

[neverevan]

Wip Wednesday 🎄

I was tagged by the ever so lovely @daffi-990 @thewolvesof1998 @jamespearce9-1-1 @hippolotamus @exhuastedpigeon and @rainbow-nerdss mwuah 💛

Welp a little later than usual but here I am! And uh apparently I added another Christmas fic to the pile because why not lmao but it's just a real short one and I'm aiming for it to be posted this week. 🫡

He was just about to decide what kind of disgustingly greasy takeout food to order, when the door clicked open behind his back.

He turned to see— Eddie. Because of course it was Eddie.

“Hey,” he said gently, shutting the door behind himself and Buck knew it was a little irrational right now, but it still warmed his heart that Eddie came and went like this; that he knew no matter what, he was always welcome here.

“Hi.” Buck gave him a weak smile over the brim of his beer bottle, unsure of what to expect.

“I just wanted to see if you were okay.”

“Why, did uh did I not seem okay?” Buck scoffed, just falling short of casual.

Eddie averted his gaze almost guiltily before pinning Buck with a knowing look. “No.”

“Yeah, I guess that’s fair.” Buck took a long swig of his beer with a grimace.

“You know it doesn’t change anything, right?”

“Uh no, Eddie, I really don’t know that.” Buck drawled and put the bottle down on the counter top with a loud clink.

“Bu—”

“Eddie, you’re leaving the 118. That- that literally changes everything!” He spread his arms widely, as if he could indicate just how much of that everything covered.

✨no pressure tagging: @malewifediaz @spagheddiediaz @jeeyuns @ladydorian05 @disasterbuckdiaz @jesuisici33 @steadfastsaturnsrings @eowon @heartshapedvows @nmcggg @watchyourbuck @eddiebabygirldiaz @theotherbuckley @fortheloveofbuddie

#most of this is just a flashback to post 5x10 and the whole thing is barely 1.5k #I spent so much time screwing around today but at least I've got this done ugh #also I'm not 100% sure yet but the current lineup is: 510 - puppy - hospital - ski fic #so like a fic a week #but we'll see how things go #also also fun fact: I initially screwed myself over with this #because I wanted it to be short so I started writing it in present tense #which I can only hold up for like twitter threads and tumblr ficlets #but then it got longer and I had to go back and change it 🙃 #it wasn't all that long but still ugh #anyway I shut up now #buddie #911 #wip #the 510 fic

[fuckyeah-bears]

I feel like trash sooo hard right now so here’s a bear

#I’m Definitely sick #Dunno if it’s Covid #Gotta wait til I get off work to go home and take a Covid test tho #And before anyone says anything #I’m alone in the office I ain’t endangering anyone by spreading germs #Ain’t nobody but me fucking here #And fuck do I not want to be here right now I feel so awful #Don’t mind me just whining and feeling sorry for myself hardcore #🙃 #But I feel like garbage so I’m bear posting

[autisticlee]

is it an autistic experience to ALWAYS be the one in a friend group who gets left out, alienated, secretly disliked, then kicked out of the group?

#autistic #autism #actually autistic #autism things #asking autistics #i want/need a friend group but it ALWAYS GOES BAD!!!!!!!! AND ITS SOMEHOW ALWAYS MY FAULT?! idk what im doing wrong. people suck. #but i need people and i hate that about me. why cant i split myself in half a few times #or learn how to do group activities alone....like playing tennis. going to the amusement park ive wanred to go to since i was a kid. #drive alone on long trips where i will fall asleep but talk to myself so i dont or something. walk on the park trails alone where people #get kidnapped and stuff when alone. go to a convention and cosplay a group of characters alone. one for each finger.... #if you cant tell im being sarcastic. and doing a bad job. sighs. i hate that i have to do everything i need/want a group for alone because #i cant make friends or make groups keep me in them. assuming because im autistic and they hate me 🙃 #eother that or im a piece of shit and dont realize it!!!!! how am i supposed to know when no one tells me!!!! 😭😭😭😭 #so is it actually me and my fault or is it because im autistic and people just do this to us for some reason #autism stuff

[napping-sapphic]

I have a trash memory so i love making little notes of things i don’t want to forget and it’s just like god i can’t wait to fall in love i want to fill pages with little notes on your interests on the little things that might bother you i want to go home and open up a notebook to see tangible pages filled with random scribbles that all add up to remind me that i get to LOVE someone

#wlw #wlw mood #sapphic #sapphism #lesbian #i GET that it’s nice when someone naturally remembers you i REALLY do #but also ugh the love and care of making notes of it #especially when it’s hand written #that GETS me #also it is me🙃 #i like Objects™️ #and physical things #and it’s like i could USE the objects to make sure i don’t forget you #to love you even BETTER #to remind MYSELF how much i love you?? #now THATS romance to me #im gay and i like sleeping

[naneki-maid]

just finished reading the Age of Innocence and the last line that Archer speaks to himself, sitting on the bench outside Madame Olenska’s Paris balcony after not seeing her in almost 30 years has left me unwell.

“It’s more real to me here than if I went up.”

Cancel all my calls. I will be bedridden for several days. thanks.

#the age of innocence #edith wharton #Edith you monster. read those last few pages through TEARS. would not stop #american literature #classic literature #1920 #1921 Pulitzer Prize winner #quotes #writing #newland archer you rat bastard!!! I hate you so much! #Madame Ellen Olenska has never done anything wrong ever #💗💗💖 #I played myself. #I thought it wouldn’t end like this… #I wanna know more about her…was my lady happy after all those years? did she ever think about him? sobbing at her feet? #faaaack 🙃😭😭💗 #words

[simgerale]

me after attempting to get back into sims and realizing i had a lot more to do than play the game

#hi everyone #I’m going around hugging you all #okay now that we are gathered here today #i will simply acknowledge that i have been gone for a very long time and then also acknowledge that maybe it was for the best #i relied on sims to be my only creative activity even if i tried to write a book at the same time #and also. i prioritized sims over real life responsibilities. that’s just a deadly combination lol #but I recently noticed I just replaced sims with Netflix. with YouTube. with anything that gave me quick dopamine #literally became addicted in a sense. still am but I’ve been cut cold turkey from most everything #I get off work and go. okay I’ve done the dishes and the laundry……..I could read or write or bake…. #I try to write and sometimes i get a good hour #then I read for a few hours and then get tired of it #and I made cookies Tuesday so I’m waiting for those to be gone before baking again #I’m just so pitiful that I feel BORED and don’t know what to do #so I said….. okay what if I do sims for an hour. #I downloaded some new cc Tuesday and tried to play yesterday #y’all ……………….. I can’t find the energy anymore to set up elaborate scenes and pose my sims and plan posts #I said wow… this is boring without my intervention and fake story #I said wow…….. all this for what? for tumblr? yes I created cool things and provided joy. but is that inherintly important compared to my #own joy? my own everyday activities I should be doing? #y’all I do not leave the house unless we got out to eat or shop or travel to our parents #.. I have little desire to. I’m trying to find that desire #but my husband is busy with grad school and work and I don’t want to do anything by myself #I’ve found myself in one heck of a slump #I didn’t want to be human for awhile. just had no desires no interests no ambitions #I was slacking off SO HARD at work. I just had no drive to do well #I’m still working on it. I’m still trying to get caught up. I’m still trying to force myself to move every day. #but I am struggling y’all. and I can tell you that sims… sims isn’t helping rn but I want it to so bad. I want to get back into it #I didn’t mean to disappear on everyone. I got married and then life got busy and then I fell into this hole of nothing #I didn’t even WANT to crawl my way out. but my husband has helped a lot. I feel like such a child!!!! #I reached max tags. 🙃 bye love you all. till next time

[butchshevik]

not to generalize but there's a very specific type of really loud and aggressive middle aged usually-white woman who collects funko pops and is married to an ex-military guy & never shuts up about his duty tours and is an Adult Disney Enjoyer who likes the live action remakes and who obviously votes deep red that i did not think I would have to encounter, much less share a coffee pot with, so often in nonprofit social service work and yet.

#the political spectrum at my work is shocking considering what we do but the variance between departments is itself staggering #im luckily in a department unto myself for the most part and have a lil office so i get to not interact most of the time #but to get to my boss or the keurig i have to go through the finance department and whoo boy #every time they really are always saying some shit #like at every job ive ever worked ive known someone like this its very concerning as a sample size of the population #but here in finance there are not one but two of them #and theyre slowly but surely making each other worse & pulling the rest of the epartment into their orbit bc one is the director #🙃