#like nothing is permanent.....

[ionomycin]

Mother of Pearl

#artists on tumblr #seahorses are cute aren't they #how are we coping with the heat wave everyone? #i'm too busy having like three different kind of existential crises #to worry about it being too hot #hot girl summer more like nonstop anxiety summer #pondering the fact that nothing is permanent #can't rely on anything to last #life is just #drifting in a sea of uncertainty #but anyway #happy pride month #be gay #eat ice cream #don't think about your mortality

[crimeschild]

the barbie (2023) experience as an afab non binary person is just [reconnecting with your femininity and love for pink bc you couldnt when u were younger bc being too girly will get u made fun of] [feeling guilt bc u dont identify with being a girl but girlhood is so inherently beautiful and magical and no experience is truly like it] [healing the inner child in you by allowing yourself to enjoy dolls and pink and maximalism] [unapologetically letting yourself wear pink and be stereotypically girly in a society where being non binary means you have to be presenting androgynous 24/7] [getting your grown-up heart shattered and then put back together again by your inner child using sparkly glue over and over in the span of two hours] [realizing that no matter what you do you have somewhat experienced girlhood and it shaped you to be the person you are today and you will never get to erase that experience or truly disconnect yourself from it] [appreciating and understanding your mother in a way that you thought wasnt possible without experiecing motherhood]

#my brain has permanently been altered by the barbie movie #ALSO THE MOMMY ISSUES IN THE MOVIE GOD FUCKING DAMN #when barbie said that the old woman is beautiful it makes me not fear getting old anymore #it's just all this time i feel so guilty like nothing but guilt when i present myself as femme and act all feminine but then identify with #being enby #and when i vocally advocate for feminism and all that but theres a little voice in my head going #but youre not a part of that club anymore you left them #BUT I KNOW ITS NOT WITHIN MY CONTROL BC I DONT HAVE CONTROL OF MY GENDER AND HOW I FEEL ABOUT IT #barbie #barbie movie #barbie 2023 #ken #margot robbie #ryan gosling #mine #queer #woah 1k????? #1k #2k

[spielzeugkaiser]

The ages in this show!! I have made some jokes about this before, but it gets me - with aging Ciri up and bringing her closer to Jaskiers age when they meet I can not help but draw parallels. Like Geralt bonded way differently with both of them (which makes sense because Ciri has been his Child surprise since birth and Jaskier just randomly turned up one day and followed him like a puppy) but it's so funny to me. also I'm 100% sure Jaskier was horny as fuck from the beginning so there was a whole different vibe from the get go

#the witcher #the witcher netflix #jaskier #geraskier #geralt of rivia #yennefer of vengerberg #I wanted to draw Geralt being maximum tired by remembering that #and also #ALSO #one thing I still don't forgive them from S2! (or like one of many many things #it wasn't just Yennefer who changed Geralt #it was 100% Jaskier first #if Geralt had been in the 'butcher' mindset of 'I need nobody' when meeting Ciri #if he hadn't met Jaskier before and had been friends with him for TWENTY FUCKIN YEARS #if Jaskier hadn't worn him down a bit - make him less guarded and more open #Geralt meeting Ciri would not have gone as well as it did #It's my firm believe that Jaskier is Geralts first deep relationship outside of his brothers were he truly bonds and learns to trust again #you can take that from my cold dead hands #and not because Geralt is a loner who doesn't talk to people - we see he has a lot acquaintances #but nothing is ever permanent there #no one who stays #I want to draw something funny but in my mind!! #I want a fic were Ciri and Jaskier talk about this and Geralt acknowledges that too #also a fun version #ciri and jaskier shenanigans

[harbingersecho]

grif's surgery but just a little more... obvious?

I actually rly rly ADORE frankengrif but I don't have an in-show reason why he'd have extensive long-term allogeneic skingrafts on his face 😔

#rvb #red vs blue #dexter grif #grif #*24 #mine #art #cw wounds #Look I love biology stuff like this so I like researching what would be at least semi-plausible even if it's just for a dumb halo show that #makes 0 sense where CPR cures a headshot but i cant help it!!! and like the 'lazy' reason for it would be sarge is just crazy like that but #its not a good reason imo. and like the things he lists needing replacement are mostly internal and body parts which makes sense #considering how grif got injured by sheila like I could 100% see that rupturing organs and crushing his hand and there being burns etc #but like nothing points to grif needing any surgery above the neck and i dont think anyone mentions his face being different? i could #make up injuries for him but nothing in the show actually supports that he'd need grafts for anything but his body.. #I'm SOO ready to be convinced otherwise btw like I said I want an obvious frankengrif to be true so bad !! #AGH would it be too insane of me to make like a surgery/injury overview thing for grif just so i can convince myself abt this idea... #i can bend to some fun stuff tho im not a total joykill u know! thats why i give his body the mismatched donor skin look despite allogeneic #grafts not being permanent w/ current tech. like it really doesn't matter if it's realistic or whatever but also Yes It Does. #and like during/after chorus would grey offer to 'fix' it? i imagine the feds could mesh a skin so they could use grif's own skin.. #or like during rats nest when they got reassigned?

[everysongineverykey]

do you think lesley dhmis effectively utilized girl power when she trapped red guy yellow guy and duck in a repeating cycle of torment and terror with no hope of escape or a better life for her own amusement/weird sense of fun. the correct answer is yes btw

#don't hug me i'm scared #dhmis #lesley dhmis #she is So Cool. she's a narrative-controlling villain TO YOU. i get her though💙 #she likes the traffic light trio! she's fond of them! she never lets any permanent harm come to them! #sure she traps them in a story that does nothing but torture them but she's my friend! #and she has fun makeup and she booped yellow guy's nose. what's not to love #i support womens wrongs. like genuinely diversity win! the strange human controlling the twisted puppet world #is a woman!

[saltpepperbeard]

so this video is currently sitting on my YouTube homepage, and i cannot help but be like

#OFMD #SaveOFMD #Renew as a crew #Like gee I wonder why lmao #I WONDER why #Could it be— #1. That original programming is never allowed to breathe anymore and is cancelled within 1-2 seasons? #2. That streaming was supposed to be a solution to cable and is now Worse? #3. That it’s so FREAKING annoying to have to bounce between services when you just want a particular property? #4. That there’s so much emphasis on milkable franchises that people ARE indeed getting tired of? #5. That fees/ads/the general user experience is worsening? #For the record I’m looking at the comments on that video too #And the general consensus is basically all of those points LMAO #Predominantly that nothing is ‘permanent’ on the platforms #And that the stuff you want to watch is ALWAYS in danger #Which hhhmnhmhmhhnhmhmm ☕️☕️☕️

[the-habitat-sysblog]

kinda funny when people expect the host to be the alter who's been around the longest..? like, i showed up two years ago, maximum. glad you think i run this ship like i own it though xx

#love sillyposting on here #but fr #people act like the host isn't Also An Alter #i can go dormant at any moment #like the hosts that came before me #nothing is permanent in this system #:-P #finn🍄.txt #; #💬 #[ #system memes #did memes #did system #traumagenic system #actually traumagenic #cdd #cdd community #system stuff #]

[sanshofox]

Ever had the effect when you‘re totally stressed out that it’s reducing your imagination level while reading? I always get this effect with too much stress going on. Usually I can clearly imagine a scene with a clear grasp on the characters faces and voices, but at the moment it‘s blurry and shifting. Takes the fun out of it. I actually read to relax and now not being able to concentrate on the story is additional stress.

#currently trying to concentrate on a buffy fanfic and the faces elude me #it‘s so annoying #Usually I can make it work like a movie in my head but now it‘s all soup #because of that I feel nothing while reading I just hope that it’s not permanent

[transsextual]

had a really incredible moment this evening. went to my campus art market where one of my friends was selling the tank top i'm wearing - another friend bought it for me and i'm so overjoyed to have it. usually a fit that leans more Traditionally Masculine feels like a costume but tonight it just felt deeply correct and honest and warm. took the opportunity to take some indulgent little pictures because i do not think i have Ever looked more like myself. so happy.

#im like. slowly gently exploring butchness & ... what it means to me & ... trying to release the idea that it requires Masculinity.... #ive always felt pretty disconnected from masculinity as a whole but i'm starting to find points of entry that resonate really deeply #& along with that is like... esp when it comes 2 kink & leather & butchness - which r not intrinsically related but to me they r connected #theres this idea that like. i'm taking myself too seriously. and that nobody's gonna take me seriously. and that i'm too little too young #that im like #obviously inexperienced and a joke and failing and looking stupid . #but ... realized recently that . that's really just the trauma talking #and that i can just like. try shit out. and notice how it feels + what comes up #and then try it again if i so wish #and nothing i try has to be permanent or defining ... and that like . my desires and comforts and joys and needs Should Be Taken Seriously #soooo much of my like. impostor syndrome . has to do with worrying that im not doing it right when compared to other men #but like.... most of the kinky men / leathermen i see are 35+ and cis . #of course im not doing it like them . #so . looking to the queers i know. especially my fellow transmascs as well as lesbians . for like. reassurance and inspiration #has been very healing . & good for my heart & my soul. #:) #yeah . #i think i gotta go read butch is a noun. ... yeah #goodnight :) #speak #materialization #ok2rb

[uncanny-tranny]

Honestly, going into your WIP pile to actually go through it and see what you actually want to finish can be really helpful, especially when you don't judge yourself and try to learn why that piece became a hibernater in your WIP pile

Some questions I ponder when I look at a WIP is:

Is this project turning out how I want? If not, what about it don't I like?

Do I or did I have fun when I was starting it?

Will I actually use it or enjoy it when I'm done?

Do I like the material now?

Do I see myself enjoying the product after it's done?

Were there, or are there, time restraints preventing me from finishing?

Is this out of my current skill set, and am I okay with that?

If I could change one thing about the WIP, what would it be?

I know plenty of people won't incorporate this into their own WIP and crafting journey, and that's okay. But I know so many people who hibernate their projects for many reasons and feel guilty about it. I hope this might give people ideas about why they hibernate projects to prevent that type of guilt from eating away at their conscious. This (creating) should be fun, and if you're spending a lot of time feeling guilty or ashamed, it can be hard to continue doing the things you like.

#art #fiber art #knit #crochet #(but this applies to a Lot of crafts and skills and whatnot. i direct it towards knit and crochet because that's what i had in mind) #honestly i think i'm going to frog one of my WIPs because i just don't want it anymore #i don't like the pattern or the method it calls for and i don't like the acrylic material it recommended either #freeing yourself in the way you keep and permanently retire a WIP can be really healing i think #because then you can accept that you have the *right* to refuse to complete something which doesn't spark joy #i think many times people hibernate projects which spark anxiety or frustration for whatever reason #so sometimes you hibernate a project because you are anxious about not having the 'right' level of skill to complete it for instance #that's a generalization but i found personally that exploring *why* i hibernate things can lead me where i want to be... #...and lead me to explore what it is that fulfills my creativity in the way it needs to be honed #there is NOTHING wrong with never finishing or frogging a piece. in fact i implore you to do it if you want

[froginninjago]

Day 108: They aren't happy anymore

@ninja-knox-ur-sox-off

I told you I'd make you something detailed. I know this doesn't follow the fic exactly with the scenes, but let me have a bit of creative liberty please? (I already took some with the house because I don't remember it)

#lego ninjago #frogs 365 day challenge #ninjago kai #ninjago zane #ninjago cole #that first panel is supposed to be the light #i put Kai staring directly into it #it would be the best thing thats happened to him lately #temporary vision damage #better than the permanent mental damage #also please use imagination to give Zane and Cole game controllers. they didn't fit in frame #but they are supposed to be in the void! #Kai isn't in a headspace to process everything #and all but the second panel is supposed to be his POV #also Kai's hair looking nothing like its supposed to is intentional #when I don't take care of my hair it loses volume #so i gave him that #and theres no gel because he runs his hands through it

[perelka-l]

Kittie and doggie violence :3c

#It makes no sense have mercy I'm going through autumn mood dip sobbbbbb #Rocket executive archer #Executive archer #Island kahuna Nanu #Background Giovanni for great justice #It absolutely is shippy if they are just permanently annoying each other on every single level #If you put them on any spectrum at all they are the opposites #Watch me and my fail art #Kinda disasters lol #Gio is here for popcorn and sights #I am only mildly insane about them these days pls don't mind #Weapons make no sense nothing makes sense it's all just vibes #I just was like OH NO EMPTY SPACE and I panicked pls mercy wwww

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

ohhhhmygod im gonna be sick. actually nauseous and i did it to myself - there was a spider on the countertop and i Panicked, grabbing the first distance-killer i could grab. it was a grease cleaner spray. i buried it in the stuff, walked away to recover mentally, came back

it fucking fell apart and dissolved into the cleaner. i both feel horrible and im disgusted beyond words. how the fuck do i get rid of it

#slamming my face into a wall repeatedly #i cant leave it there to deal with after Sleep #bc my cats like to go onto the countertops when no one is looking #and i dont want either of them to get poisoned #but i cant rinse it into the sink with the faucet hose bc there's stuff in the sink #but idk if i can bring myself to do dishes with That next to me #and my fear of spiders is so intense that i Cannot get close enough to take care of it with a towel or somethin #im very good at fucking myself over in various ways! #if i had an appetite id lose it. permanently #what if! instead of dealing with it! i curl up in a corner and cry #except im not gonna do that ive filled my tears quota for the year & doing nothing wont help anything #sorry for venting again i just. ohhhhh this is horrible this is Terrible #if i still had my whacking stick id tape a big wad of paper towels to the end and clean the mess up that way #from a Distance! #absolutely unprompted #i wish i wasnt so terrified of spiders #they scare me So much.... #the point of feeling physically ill! and like sobbing! or panicking! and this spider was Big! #i wish they'd stop coming into the house.... i hate killing them but i cant function knowing theyre there #but i can't force myself close enough to put them in a cup and bring them outside #so now i have THAT on my counter. disintegrated spider. #life is too fucking much lately... jesus.... i should really just bite the bullet and get this shit over with #no use waiting a month in perpetual terror unease and guilt. do it scared yk yk #im tired of my chest hurting and not being able to eat! i dont like it! i need change! terrifying horrible change!

[elisedonut]

just had the dumb thought of a time traveling Percy looking Penny dead in the eye and saying

Penny you are a lesbian. Thats why this feels so strange to you.

#percy weasley #penelope clearwater #Alot of time travel fics have characters waking up like in bed in the morning but my brain was like #What if it was legit just in the middle of a make out session just boom now young Percy is gone forever #He panicked #he didn't think he'd wake up like this #He's just like I'm 28 please don't kiss me again #and says the first reason in his head why she shouldn't since he cant just say that #I normally hc her as bi but like most hcs i have nothing is permanent and the idea of this is funny to me #and thats more important to me than consistency #She's just like oh for real? #She just needed someone else to say it

[formulatrash]

Alex will win a gp before lando too

gdfjhkgdfjhkdghjfkgdfjhk AMAZING hater ask to send a lifelong Williams fan

#girl you have no idea how badly i want to see a Williams W #i would absolutely go apeshit bananatown #i would rip my shirt off at work if it appeared on the news channel even if i didn't get to watch the race #i would make gorilla noises #this event would turn me into daniel ricciardo #i would be permanently altered by a Williams win #it's been thirty one years of mostly hurt and i would absolutely lose any decorum i could ever have been credited of having #which is like nothing anyway #but i would enter negative numbers #to a degree that mathematicians would call frustrating and annoying #also for many reasons i think mclaren can eat shit as an organisation so #this is the opposite of hating actually

[lloydfrontera]

if i think too long about the ending making lloyd leave the home he worked so hard to save behind along with the new found family he sacrificed his life for so he can move to a place he has no emotional connection to where he only knows two people (one of which is actually following him from the aforementioned home) in order to make him get a standard "have a wife and children" 'happy' ending i start wanting to bite people not gonna lie

#i talk a lot <3 #the greatest estate developer #lloyd frontera #it is. such a sucky ending i hate it i'm sorry i cannot stand it #i love charlotte with all my heart and i truly do like alicia #but jesus fuck that ending #the one thing lloyd wants is to have an easy relaxed life surrounded by the people he loves #and then the ending has him become the royal consort to someone we know likes to use people to their best potential #and living permanently away from his parents and all the people he came to care about #except for javier and alicia. and javier is only there because of lloyd anyway. #i just. i hate heteronormative endings so much man. #he didn't need to marry! he could've found his happy ending without having to be romantically involved with anyone!! #there's this whole thing about lloyd thinking to himself that his happy ending will be settling down with a wife and have kids #and then there is this one moment. where he talks about what he really wants. his one true wish. #and he talks about how he just wants a family. a normal family. a family that welcomes him after a day's work. a family that lives a normal #life without worrying about nothing much. he doesn't want big territories or power or an army. he just wants to have a family that loves hi #and enough to keep them safe. #AND FUCKING GUESS WHAT HE GAINS THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE NOVEL #GUESS WHAT THE EMOTIONAL CORE OF THE ENTIRE THING WAS #A FAMILY. PARENTS AND A BROTHER AND A BEST FRIEND THAT CARE FOR HIM AND WANT HIM TO BE HAPPY AND HIM DOING EVERYTHING IN HIS POWER TO KEEP #THEM SAFE. AND HE DOES. EVERYTHING HE DOES WAS TOO KEEP THEM SAFE AND SOUND AND HE GETS HIS WISH. #DO YOU GET IT. DO YOU GET WHAT I MEAN!! #HE DIDN'T NEED TO MARRY BECAUSE HE ALREADY HAD HIS WISH. HE ALREADY HAD HIS HAPPY ENDING. I'M SO MAD KASHDKA #tged