#like oh haha my parents lowkey had me raise my younger sister since i was a kid and all i got was mental illness and a bad relationship<3

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#when u finally go to the person in authority who is supposed to make hings right when ur being mistreated but actually #did u kno its U who's in trouble and got the short straw and aren't doing things right #bc oh you didn't tell them when u should have #and oh you must not be willing to communicate in a way the other person needs #and it's totally not bc they refuse to listen or care but bc you're not trying or doing it right #''just look her in the eyes'' like i haven't been looking her in the eyes the past few nights when i'm begging her to let me have some peace #and she doesn't bat an eye when i'm on the edge of a breakdown trying not to cry at o' dark-thirty bc she wont fucking leave me alone #i guess it's perfectly fine to be a child-parent when ur taking responsibility and doing all the work and meeting needs #but as soon as you expect them to listen or obey it's fuck-all and why do you think you're the parent you don't deserve that respect #or obedience #like it's not me who's been trying to fucking raise her partially since i was fucking nine #like oh haha my parents lowkey had me raise my younger sister since i was a kid and all i got was mental illness and a bad relationship<3 #i'm trying so fucking hard and i thought she would try too. i thought we were gonna make it better #but it's only gotten worse #livin' the ideal life besties <333 #i almost would rather that i was going through last-years school year instead bc yeahmy mental health was crap but at least it was just me #and i have to fucking work tomorrow and then probably go to church on sunday and i don't have the energy but how do i explain that to my mom #?? #how? #it's all fine i'm just falling apart inside again <3 i made it through last-years school though so i can make it through this #tw vent #tw rant #tw bad relationship #tw parents #tw mom #tw swearing