#like people look at me and settle for me

[lieutenant-sarcastic]

#this will settle it! this will settle the private conversation between two people who barely cook !!!! #weve said stove so many times that it ceases to look and sound like a word #i grew up with electric stoves like #yeah they WORK differently but cooking on the stove is cooking on the stove #ur not special or better than me bc u have a gas stove 😌 #i hope ur gas leaks and morgan freeman has to shooy u thru a pint of milk 😌 /jk #up to something #polls #edit: *Mickey mouse voice* ha ha! I’ve made a mistake! #This post was not supposed to escape !!!!!! Fuck !! #my brother: lol is this about the political shit that happened a few months ago? me: THE WHAT??????

[idkaguyorsomething]

a support group for people with “unconventional” daemons. jeff with his flounder he has to carry everywhere in a huge tank. lois with her poison dart frog everyone is afraid to touch. sam with their elephant that’s the reason they can never go higher than two stories in most buildings.

#and then they all start dating #it’s a metaphor for people with traits society considers undesirable or some shit #his dark materials #daemons #dæmon #me and my bullshit #i think way too much about the societal implications of daemons #dæmon au #look but the servants of oxford all having dog daemons implies that hiring bias does exist based on the form people’s daemons settle into #so naturally i think that different societies would form biases against people with certain kinds of daemons #and we all know how inaccessibility is deeply baked into a lot of government structures #regardless of the fact that lots of people out there need those accommodations to survive #idk it just seemed like a neat idea

[riessene]

making ocs to kiss canon characters is out

making ocs to have a strained family relationship with canon characters is in

#not really out of course<3 #ethelya #my art #elden ring #cant settle on an artstyle but they have been occupying my mind all week....... #like tell me those dont look like they have all been drawn by different people

[theswedishpajas]

The man truly can’t take a genuine compliment 🙄

#my art stuff #digital art #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #astarion #astarion ancunin #this is part of a series I like to call “I’m never settling on a singular detailed artstyle” #I have no consistency in drawing realistic people/characters other than my shapy cartoon style #but I truly don’t get enough opportunity to properly shade anything with art in that style-!!! it always looks weird to me-!!!!! #I think some rude lil worm in my brain is wriggling around telling me it’s a futile attempt at still doing realism #cus I’m one of those “gifted” artists that grew up promising his parents he’ll end up among the big names or whatever #constantly training to become better at art but with realism oil paintings as the goal #you know how it is 😔 #I wanna shade my lil funky designs but they never feel good enough to really put energy into or whatever so I compromise with stuff - #- like this where I try to draw characters more accurately while still stylizing them and shading them however I feel like it #which is great and all but I should really learn to give my more relaxed and less perfectionist art a chance #I deserve to enjoy the process and the result without working myself dead #it’s so much easier and rewarding to copy cartoon styles - stylizing realism makes me too anxious of doing it “wrong” #at least cartoon styles give me a goal to reach or a reference to strive towards #man I really should just cut myself some slack altogether #either way - this man is a flustered mess and he’s embarrassed about being called adorable in public or something #being teased in an affectionate way about his sweeter side and stuff #don’t ask why he’s shirtless - anatomy is just a lot more fun for me to draw sometimes #tasteful nudity and all that is extremely gorgeous to me #i need to practice anatomy more cus I just kinda did some shit and went with it this time with a BIT of consideration for muscle structure

[stuckinapril]

u are literally so strong for being pre med. im also 21 and ive just about given up on taking the mcat and doing extracurriculars after army crawling through all the prereqs 😭 much luck to you!!!!!! praying john hopkins takes u 🙏🙏 we need more lovely, kind and genuine doctors like you and u deserve the best of the best 💖💖

Thank you my dove <3 no it’s literally the most ruthless thing ever. People don’t understand the mental stamina it takes to fulfill all facets of the application med schools expect. It’s more than a full time job—sometimes it doesn’t feel like there are enough hours in the day tbh, between doing research and volunteering and shadowing and gaining hands on experience. And don’t get me started on the mcat lmao, preparing for it feels like I’m training for the Olympics. I’m into it most days, it’s fun to be consumed by something you’re truly passionate about, but I also completely get how it predisposes all of us to frequent burnouts. Add to that the stress of meeting the still more extraordinary, still more impossible standards of elite med schools…

#And usually I wouldn’t give a fuck for prestigious names but I want to become a surgeon #And surgery specialties DO care about the school you went to. They care ab the prestige #So I’m trying to score the highest I possibly can and just go above and beyond #To clarify a big part of it (the biggest part) is bc I’m passionate about everything I do #But I also know it’s what they’d want to see #I get the most shocked looks when I tell people I want to become a neurosurgeon LMAOOO #And even for someone like me who loves school it’s such an overwhelming thought at times #But it is unfortunately what I want to do w my life… I don’t think I’d be happy settling for anything else #And ik id want to be doing this even if i were the richest person alive #So im doing it for the right reasons & that’s why im sure of my trajectory

[carcarrot]

so incredibly captivated by this german tv performance of the calm before the storm it deserved its own post

#why are they outside on this windows xp ass hill im in tears #i love the people sitting around like they were having a picnic and sparks just interrupted it #also tammy hi for the love of god hello #and russ looking hardly any older in that football jersey than his actual football days #speaking of he just wont settle down enough to get a good freezeframe so we're lucky we got these #and god the yt comment is taking me out. literally the experience of watching this pixels quality video i love it #spars #sparks #sparks band

[vurelly]

being gender queer is really just a constant battle of “do i look queer enough today for others within the community to respect me” and “i do not have to perform to be worthy of feeling comfortable in my own skin”

#vu talks shit #idk i just ran through three outfits because i wanted one that wasnt too feminine today #even tho i love dressing femininely #i love looking feminine i love the clothing i love the styles i love it and i feel so good when i dress that way #but i don't like being called maam or having people use she/her pronouns towards me #i ended up settling on a crop top and no binder and i still feel good so fuck it we ball

[bluepallilworld]

Smthn that I noticed alot on ur art is having a dark background with a very bright accent color (which look amazing btw) dunno if this will be helpful or not lol

@dragon-tamer-1

Thanks for the sweet words and reviews! ❤️❤️❤️

Now after many thoughts, here's the result:

#ask #art challenge #evil art style #lil moon #drag' #!¡ anon #...LJ I can't change my nationality silly #me doing artz #I love people telling me what they noticed I usually do artstyle-wise because there's always at least one thing I just never noticed myself #:D #well there are several things this time that are so very interesting #like the body proportions comment #I do always end up squishing a bit the proportions because yes cuter and it feels weird to do more realistic ones #like the background choice and bright accent color part #I always have such a hard time choosing a background color XD #I try so many colors before settling on one I might choose more often darkish backgrounds because it looks better with light colored bones #mmm I do draw often skelies or just pretty light themed ocs #I should add some darks to my team XD #the bright accent color? I didn't notice I just like colors ✨ And I'm absolutely enamored with glowing sparkling etc stuff so bright #the shading comment is fascinating to me prime good info I dunno how I want to shade Cell shading? It's so easy to mess it??? Rendering? Ho #does one do that properly??? Now I kinda stopped worrying and just shade like whatever pffft XDc so I like hearing how it translates from #your side ;D #I'm saving all the compliments in my special file btw #I'm very proud my drawings get percieved as soft and joyful that is absolutly a vibe I can bear with ;3 #also #a tear's soul #is the name of a project I'm still in the brainstorm phase #I did not intend to name drop that soon but I thought it fitted well the challenge #(‾◡◝)

[unexpectedbrickattack]

👀🍕..

#chattin #i am AWAKE from my nap. and i have thoughts #thinking of that damn 🍕head bc i keep seeing him in my dash…and people draw him w others so well…. #i want him to be like just a silly guy #but a silly guy thats got something a little fucked up wrong w him #mentions of stalking and obsessive behavior -> #like i think i am going to settle w 🍕head being a bit (ALOT…AWFULLY ALOT) obsessed w peppino #like summing it up wo writing an essay; #he wanted peppinos shop and got rejected TWICE. he tried hiring peppino and got chased out of the shop #and it went from ‘i want the shop’ to ‘i want peppino’ to ‘if i cant have the shop neither can he’ #to ‘if i cant have him…well actually thats not an issue at all’ #imitation is the sincerest form of flattery yknow #the peppibots came first bc its like ‘okay i cant have the damn shop but i can just Make a shop w bots that work like him. that cant be too- #-hard RIGHT??’ but the bots are so volatile and unresponsive and they explode everything they touch #and pizzahead is like ‘no… :(‘ peppino looks so angry but makes his food w LOVE…he does NOT explode his food!!! #he doesnt want to scrap the idea but it Is a bit disheartening #and hes like OKAY. WHATEVER! WE ALWAYS HAVE OTHER PLANS….! #theres gotta be cloning labs right? no i dont care about the morality of that shit u sillywilly. FIND ME A LAB. #so now theres little peppino clones everywhere. and they look SO close to the real thing #and pizzahead is like. hol up. i think something is happening that i dont want to happen right now. but im going to put that away for now :) #by this point peppino has already relocated to his Current Spot bc theres literally NOTHING available 😭 #‘enough. to the Woods with you’ #and pizzahead is like there is no fucking way that chump that IDIOT that extremely handsome IDIOT took the damn plot next to the tower #and immediately is like ‘well if im already making the bots AND the clones then i really REALLY dont need u! at all! not even a little!- #-I dont care! i really dont! who needs a strong and smart and handsome man like u around???!!!!!!’ #and pizzahead is like that fucking dumbass😏 watch that shit explode in 6 hours. only um. peppino is storming the tower #and hes like WAIT OH SHIT. KEYS. KEYS WHERW ARE THEY??? THE CLONES! WE AINT GOT NO TIME THE FAT MAN IS COMIN #YOU. ECCENTRIC ARTIST. FIGHT THAT MAN. ‘okay’ YOU WEIRD CHEESE MAN. SHOOT. ‘mkay’ #like hes panicking and throwing shit in the air and running in circles in his little camera room #NOOO im at tag limit…pizzahead hates this man he loves this man he is obsessed and maybe wants him a little carnally. its all good okay bye

[nyan-koii]

People dont actually get michael/sebastian like the way i get them and im actually frustrated. There are lots you can do with their dynamics, lots that you can manipulate and make it into your own stories. You guys need to remember that Sebastian first "love" isnt mark but its MICHAEL and he was 10 years old. Its insane that theres not much fics about them. They literally covers up a wholeee spectrum of dynamics. Seb making michael as his idol, the person he aspires to be, and then he joins f1 and worked in the same field as his hero. They turned from colleagues to friends in a short amount of time given how much seb looks up to him and michael, who only wants the best for seb, was there supporting and driving alongside him especial during ROC. Michael also admits that the relationship him and seb has is something so special that in his world of ego can never be possibly achieved so easily and he never took it for granted, never took sebastian for granted even though he knew how much seb looks up to him all the time. And seb winning ROC 6 times consecutively alongside michael mustve mean a lot to him like genuinely i feel like thats the peak of his life. Whats more is that during michaels last race, he helped seb, doesnt try to fight him during the race and if that doesnt evoke something in you, something that makes you go "oh they've turn into something more than mentor/mentee," then you're missing out with one of the best pairing for seb.

#seb/michael #michael schumacher #sebastian vettel #seb my beloved #seb #michael missing hours #its the way that everytime seb looks at michael #its just pure adoration and respect #and the way michael treats seb #it means a lot to me #i need people to understand that michael is one of the reason if not the reason that seb becomes who he is today #a big part of seb life revolves around michael #and fraction of it is just seb being a mentee to michael #people can say that its the father and son dynamics and i respect that i like it either #but im just saying that they have so much more in them to settle for that dynamic #and seb would love to be fcked by michael btw i can feel it in my guts

[echoes-lighthouse]

Previous Selfships Through The Years

I got some hatemail so I'm taking that as an invitation to be even more self-indulgent than usual ^-^ As I've mentioned on this blog, I've been a selfshipper for basically as long as I've been a reader/writer, so this is a look backwards at some of my strongest early selfships! Because I just started drawing a few years ago, none of these made their way into art until this very moment.

Age 6: Sparr, from the Droon books. He's a villain who's very dangerous and his little fins behind his ears flash different colours when he feels strong emotions and he was trying to kidnap the princess and I was simply head over heels. Many of my early journals are fictional entries about running away with Sparr and living with him in his silly eight-wheeled yellow car. I wrote this story over and over again, page after page. I wrote about how happy we were together and that I would never go home again. My parents drew me birthday cards with Sparr on them.

Age 8: A fiery redhead from a mystery book series! My journal entries about her were some of the things that later clued me in that I was gay. I wrote several journals about how much I wanted to kiss her and live in her world. I even told people in my class that I wanted to date her, which made them tease me a lot. But I didn't give up on her!

Age 12: The absolute turning point for me, the age where I really started to feel 'wrong' compared to my peers, and I fell in love with the Joker as my saviour from the social norms I didn't feel capable of upholding. I had just found out about fanfiction at age 11 and I started writing all kinds of self-insert fics with The Joker where I was a daughter of a Gotham businessman. I never published any of them, or read anyone else's fics at the time because The Joker felt too personal for me, but it was a defining experience for me: finding comfort in fandom and specifically selfshipping during the first wave of mental health struggles that would carry me through my teenage years.

Age 15: Demon!Dean Winchester, Supernatural. By this point I was fully into online fandom spaces and had fallen out of selfshipping because it wasn't very popular: but I went through a phase where I would write all my favourite characters as demons because all I really wanted was more of demon!dean and I didn't feel able to acknowledge how much I really wanted to write about him because, again, it felt too personal to really share. Looking back, it was definitely a selfship that I was just too nervous to explore at the time.

#enjoy my changing hair #i started as a redhead then i was blonde and then settled into my current light brown hair #makes me look like different people in my art but oh well #i started a version of this (me and my characters) five years ago pre-selfship community involvement! #thank you for the excuse to finish it <3 #my art #my selfships #misc selfships #others f/os: the joker #others f/os: dean winchester #(if anyone needs the blacklist for those) #tw age gap #previous selfships #proselfship #ask to tag

[itspileofgoodthings]

every year I look forward to my birthday so much and every year I suffer a tremendous amount on that day for at least an hour straight.

#the crushing disappointment of unmet unrealistic expectations almost chokes me #it just brings so much to the surface. all the wounds of my self-obsession. all the reality of my loneliness #the cold reality that nothing is going to fill the void inside of me if I look for it from other people #I always cry. and then I calm down and eat cake #but it’s amazing what a rollercoaster it is #like. I just have to wrestle …. sort of ALL DAY #and because it’s only once a year I learn the lessons about it slowly #I am not good at having a birthday (something normal to want and possible to achieve) #it’s just that eternal paradox that I LOVE it just …. because #I love that it IS and EXISTS #and then also like the disappointment (never to be laid at anyone’s door???? because literally people are always so nice to me????) #settles in in SOME WAY OR ANOTHER #And it’s so stupid and I HATE IT but I have to like take the disappointment. try to love it. make it a prayer #and then I can be reasonable but not a SECOND BEFORE I’ve HAD THE CRASH #it is so insane and ridiculous I am turning TWENTY-EIGHT YEARS OLD #I should NOT BE THIS WAY #but like. The secret sadness and restlessness and bitterness and tiredness and jealousy just all comes out #and I have to write a letter to Jesus before I can be okay #literally i have now done that on at least 4 separate birthdays #because I just get so distressed. and then distressed that I am distressed #But tbh maybe that is a good custom and I should think of it as a chance to talk to God more #Just—-about it all. and just say thank you and I’m sorry and I know I’m a baby #There’s a viggo mortensen quote where he talks about how he never tells anyone it’s his birthday and he just reflects on the previous year #with gratitude. and I’m just like INSANELY cool of him I wish that were me #but unfortunately I talk about it all the time to every single person that I know #and at least twice on tumblr #and then it all just gets so overwhelming that it spirals #anyway I’m kind of spiraling now but that’s just because I’m sad and lonely! #it is NOT my birthday I am just reflecting #I guess what I’m trying to say is I wish there was a way to head off the disappointment. and there isn’t