#like right its not empowering its not get a blowout and girlboss kill ur abuser in heels. its. horrific

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thinking about. after sally beats that guy to death and shes like I did this. and barry’s like, You didnt do this i did this. I did this. say it, say You did this. but shes still like I did this, I did this. and theyre both right. feeling sick that this is literally the first time barry is actually truthful to her, ever, the first time he’s holding himself accountable for the violence of his presence in her life. the first time. he DID do this. he wants to take all the blame from her, the agency from her. but the contrast is stunning because for sally that truth isnt her last resort, it’s the very first thing she says, she doesnt dodge the blame or lie like barry has done for YEARS, she DID do this, she has to own that, when he never could. honestly, sally feels much worse than she SHOULD about killing a guy in self defense who was only there because of barry’s malignance. like how was any of that her fault. she was being fucking choked on the ground and was going to die otherwise. but no! she refuses! no more lying to herself, no more rewriting her own story, no more!!!!! i did this!!!!!!

#barry #barry hbo #SHES SO IMPORTANT TO ME!!!!!!!!!!! SHIT #the way the scripts are so pared down now but they say so so much more than they ever did. insanity #like she says both. barry did this. i did this. when the. when the #is she going to be okay? absolutely not. #but it is so different in circumstance and in reaction than anything barry’s ever done #killing a man who is actively choking you to death is not the same as war criming an innocent in ‘revenge’. AT ALL. #like right its not empowering its not get a blowout and girlboss kill ur abuser in heels. its. horrific #to the most fucked up extent literally possible. but to still have that strength? after that? #to have the strength to leave? not a perfect solution of course not but such a human one #like it’s fucked up that that seems so hopeful.