#like they're all... just different enough that every similarity is this horrible aching itch instead of a source of solidarity

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WAY too tired for meta and nowhere near S4 in my relisten but like. First time round I kind of hated the season 4 archives lineup because nobody liked each other, but after thinking about it? I love exploring that lineup because it's just a bunch of people going through the whole Self Recognition Through The Other and being VERY UNHAPPY with what they see

(read tags if you want my expanded thoughts. They're also very incoherent but slightly more thorough)

#the magnus archives #tma #idk?? idk if this is meta I'm very afraid to tag it as such #i don't know if this makes any sense??? or if it has any basis in canon I could just. be completely fucking wrong here #but i feel like theres so many overlapping traits between like #jon and melanie. jon and daisy. daisy and basira. basira and jon. jon and martin. martin and georgie. etc etc #and on some level they're all aware of that but they're all incredibly fucking mad about it and in denial #like #melanie Maybe knows she and jon are similar! she's Definitely not happy about it! martin maybe understands Georgie. doesn't like that fact! #like they're all... just different enough that every similarity is this horrible aching itch instead of a source of solidarity #Jon's like. I share stuff in common with daisy and basira. but daisy traumatized me and basira doesn't see me as human. don't like this #i don't think I'm making any sense but also i am???? #also even with like. the villains and avatars #iconic moment of jon being like 'damn i kinda get where jane prentiss was coming from. a troubling moment' #idk this is a little unhinged? and also I'm always scared to post meta because mortifying ordeal of being known and whatnot #but I've just been wondering why. so much of the time i find myself drawn to the post unknowing era of the archives?? #whether that be exploring the months where jon was in his coma or setting things during season 4 and like #i think this is it? #but also i don't think this makes tons of sense #but hey thats how it goes sometimes #c'est la vie #ramblings of a lunatic