#like you can coun't the actual positive encounters Arthur had with magic on one hand

[queerofthedagger]

No but it's about how Arthur not only grew up with the indoctrination of magic being evil, of it corrupting its users, but how that notion seemingly got confirmed again and again - not only in the manner of attacks against him, his family, and his friends, but when he gave it a chance, too.

It's about how a sorceress seemingly used the memory of his mother against him, after she had, to his knowledge, already died by magic's hand. It's about how his sister, who he has known to be always kind and just, seemingly turned against everyone she loved once she started using magic, confirming the belief that magic corrupted even the kindest of people.

It's about how a sorcerer who was promised freedom for his whole kind in exchange for saving his father's life, seemingly killed him anyway.

It's about how he saved a druid child and an old sorceress and stopped the persecution of magic user's once he was king, how these things weren't enough, of course, but a step in the right direction, despite experience seemingly teaching him the opposite, again and again.

It's about how, every time he came to a point where he questioned those beliefs further, something happened to seemingly prove them right again. How, when he finally had proof that they weren't, couldn't be right, it took him all of two days to accept it.

It's about how, if he had the chances and the time to actually learn, things would've been different. It's about how the whole tragedy of it all is that this time and these chances were cut short.

#arthur pendragon #merlin meta #i watched fanvids and now i'm emotional again no one touch me #i especially feel like the whole thing with morgana tends to get brushed over a lot #because how was it supposed to look from Arthur's perspective? From a perspective where magic is a choice? From a perspective that didn't - #- know about all that led up to it? #like idk man it's just so easy as the viewer with Merlin's perspective to brush all this aside but how are you supposed to learn if there- #- are no reliable sources available to you?? #like you can coun't the actual positive encounters Arthur had with magic on one hand #drowned out by like 10 negative ones #it's not like he could've googled it or whatever #okay i'm starting to talk nonsense anyway #mona's rambling