#like. especially my earlier fics are. um. cringy

[camelotsheart]

hi!! sorry to bother, just wanted to ask what's your name on ao3?

you dare ask for my hall of shame

#asks #anon #its the same as my username but look i consider myself to be a better giffer than i am a writer #like. especially my earlier fics are. um. cringy #for the lack of a better word #and they all have major character death. do you really want to do that to yourself? really??? in your hearts of hearts #do you really want to put yourself into that hole of cheese and darkness anon #I think the best course of option for you right now is run off into the sunset and forget this conversation ever happened #believe me your life will be brighter for it #(softly) please

[thatwitchrevan]

get to know your author: 2, 3, 11?

2) what work of yours, if any, are you the most embarrassed about existing?

uhh as far as works I’ve posted? warrior’s birth .-. It’s not…that bad I hope but it’s such a First Draft and I just. Revan and Malak’s relationship and their individual characters are so important to me and WB is so very clumsy with them. It’s cringy and details are sparse and I need to edit and finish it so badly but because it’s so rough that makes it a bigger undertaking than I’m prepared for at this time. So there it sits on my ao3 mocking me. A Cautionary Tale is earlier than WB and so much better, so I’m like??? why. 

As far as stuff I’ve not published, it’s really hard to say what’s most embarrassing, lmao. Certainly my really early works count, as do my previous NaNo attempts (especially early drafts of Advent oh my god). Then there’s Leviathan, another part of my KotOR fic, which I haven’t looked at in. Ages. Don’t get me wrong I’m glad I have The Hardest Part of KotOR drafted and I’ll probably end up using a lot of it in the final draft it’s just. bad and overly dramatic and the torture scene is the cringiest thing i’ve ever seen oh my god. 

3) what order do you write in? front of book to back? chronological? favorite scenes first? something else?

I jump around according to what I have inspiration for, mostly. For Advent I keep revamping the first chapter and trying to continue from there and just See What Happens because I have no idea where it’s going, but I also throw in some random other scenes sometimes. With my KotOR fic I’ve written a little bit of everything, but never finished any of it except some oneshots. Longfics like burns and winter are kinda half and half, like I mostly try to write in order but when I have inspiration for a chapter or I know I want to go ahead and get it down I go ahead and write it, then fill in the middle. 

11) what aspect of your writing do you think has most improved since you started writing?

Um, I dearly hope all of it has significantly improved. 

I think my ability to write emotionally has improved, and is constantly improving. If I had gone ahead and published ‘Leviathan’ when I finished drafting it, for example, it would be. Very overwrought. I’ve learned that you don’t have to lead your reader to the emotion they’re supposed to be feeling. You usually don’t even have to tell them outright what the character is feeling, like there’s no need to say ‘and Merith was sad that Saul was being mean to Carth’ because like. We’ve spent months with these characters and if the audience doesn’t already know that I haven’t done my job.

Anyway I just started rambling so I’ll shut up now lmao

#asks #replies #griffin writes #i think only one person has read my leviathan fic and she is not a kotor fan #because im too embarrassed to show it to any of my kotor friends lmao