#like. jfc. its.... it gets fucking sickening

[v-arbellanaris]

so fuckin late i just found out abt the matt healy nonsense and im fuckin disassociating bro x

#decades of work by grassroots organisers just to get the extremists to look away and pay no mind to queer people #so they can just fucking live. when public canings and beatings and jail time STILL HAPPENS for being queer bc it's listed as a crime #imagine doing that shit in a country where the rec 'treatment' for being gay is conversion therapy #imagine doing that. putting that spotlight on the thousands of people who are just barely surviving by relying on living in the shadows #while they chip away at the social constraints impeding progress bit by bit. imagine doing that. saying that. and then fucking off home #and ignoring all the homophobia and transphobia in YOUR country because it doesn't matter presumably bc its Worse when its nasty brown ppl #going BACK to your own homophobic transphobic country. leaving the thousands of people left exposed by that limelight. #im not even going to touch on ''im taking your money'' and the inherently disgusting colonialist bullshit in that #expecting him to donate to local queer charities is too much when he's a piece of shit #but jfc. and all his fucking insane fans going queer malaysians who have to live w the consequences of matt's actions who complain abt that #are suffering from internalised homophobia & i have no sympathy for you #firstly. queer malaysians saying 'stop - this is not advocacy it's actively threatening us' is not internalised homophobia #secondly. explain why you have no sympathy for queer people with internalised homophobia. #like. explain. as if we weren't all questioning and struggling. as if we come out of the womb just lucky enough to Know without a doubt. #as if we dont exist in societies and families that shape us into something we're not until we can't recognise ourselves #like explain why you have no sympathy for your fellow queers and act like they're the enemy. explain why you're siding with some cishet #trash white man actively endangering brown qpoc in the THOUSANDS in a drunken fit on stage. over the qpoc actually affected by this. #explain it. go on. #fucking sickeningggg it's SICKENING #tbd

[cynical-things]

thinspo accounts on “x” are literally the worst like my heart breaks for any young person that will see these posts and get sucked in by them. also using regular healthy bodies as “fatspo” like jfc its absolutely sickening. even using anyone’s body as fatspo even if they are “overweight” is just so vile and evil. i don’t even follow any thinspo accounts on x and i get these posts recommended to me… that app has gone to shit now

also the same goes for thinspo and pr* ana blogs on here bc i bet they are probs similar but the algorithm on here is better so i dont see that shit but fuck me it’s heartbreaking

#I don’t use x really #but when I go on there and scroll my tl occasionally I will be recommended these posts #and just fuckin hell #these accounts are so dreadful #these posts are even worse than the ones I use to see on here and on twt when I was a teenager #and even I am still scarred from them posts bc I also have this ideal body in my head that I strive to have bc of yrs of consuming that shit

[teenytinycowboy]

i keep on hearing people talk about trends moving so quickly and things losing popularity overnight but ive not heard many people talk about why??? and i really think it all boils down to over exposure.  now -- especially with tiktok and its influence on literally everything -- once you like something, the algorithm immediately realizes and force feeds it to you in every possible form until you’re full and it’s sickening. 

its happening with everything: internet trends, clothing trends, movies, music, tv shows, fandoms, even viral recipes????? like yeah no dUH we move on so fast we’re made to see All Of The Thing All At Once and it’s fucking exhausting. its like songs being overplayed on the radio but amped up to a million. 

and its not just social media causing the problem either!!! they totally feed into each other, but I feel like the trend of streaming services releasing ALL episodes of show at once creates the exact same environment. shows burn out bc people feel forced to consume it all so quickly in order to keep away from spoilers, and then after spending 10 hours trying to catch up it’s endless exposure everywhere, fed to you often without your asking 

just like jfc no wonder we get bored and move on so fast??

back in the day people would tune in weekly to watch all 10 seasons of a show (THAT WOULD ACTUALLY GET??? 10 SEASONS? 22 EPS A SEASON?  ANOTHER THING WE DONT SEE ) and enjoy it for the next freakin decade. it’d be in the zeitgeist the WHOLE DAMN TIME too bc people had the space and capacity to search for the content they wanted as they wanted it 

IDK IDK IDK I COULD TALK ABOUT IT FOR HOURS FAST FASHION LITERALLY THE EXACT SAME THING IT JUST FASCINATES ME DKFJHGKDF

#care rants for no reason about ??? what? the state of the world???

[zanathan-aisling]

sees my alternate account for a certain webcomic that i’m hypercritical of but still simultaneously a “fan” of (in the loose, “this author is dogshit and the comic itself is 80% personally injurious why are all of my creatorly passions fixated on this fucking comic” way/in the the-years-i-spent-trying-to-ONLY-hate-it-made-me-fucking-miserable-because-my-fixation-ass-brain-refuses-to-move-on-from-it-(ALSO-IT-ATE-A-SOLID-DECADE-OF-MY-LIFE-AND-*ALL*-OF-MY-CREATIVE-PASSION-FOR-NOTHING-OTHERWISE) way) appear in my “people to follow” sidebar oh jesus christ the feds are onto me. 

homestuck (for filtering purposes i’m just writing that here. it feels like i’ve just rended my clothes asunder as an act of contrition.) (i infodumped how bad the comic is in the tags bc criticizing it is about as big a fixation for me as the actual failed potential of its worldbuilding itself. its chill. i’m a big cool and i feel a good. yes i’m writing this post-the-wrest-of-the-tags and thus am settling out of an adrenaline rush. i stg if tumblr eats tags if you leave too many i’ll combust)

#i'm sorry for still enjoying h*mstuck and for all of my long term creative projects involving it #yes i know its a ableist homophobic racist shithole noone knows that better than someone whose technically read it four times. #i KNOW and my own '''''fan'''''comic would FIX things it'd be a slap in hussies FACE i'd make it WORK i'm NOT DELUDED I ACK #i even hate it in ways most homestuck critical bitches don't think of!!!!!!!! #the way it fucking hates gay men rarely fucking comes up besides the superficial criticisms of dirk!!! #like ninety percent of the gender dynamics of the comic seem to be entirely based on men who love other men being pathetic!! its BIZZARE!!! #reverse hirohiko araki! it hates gay men so much that it winds up being accidentally (terrible eugenics terf) feminist!!! #and good fucking god the way transbians like myself latched onto vriska is fucking disgusting #i say 'like myself' because i tick all the boxes except i actually dont like ableist bullies who use their own trauma to excuse theiractions #like. jfc. its.... it gets fucking sickening #also i don't think belittling victims of abuse for being 'dweebs' is funny regaurdless of gender...???? #it fucking sucks here. #these tags are a literal goddamn discourse explosion because i've been holding myself back SO BAD on this account i just. jesus christ. #DONT *FUCKING* WORRY I HAVE A SEPARATE ACCOUNT FOR A REASON I DONT WANT *THAT* LIFE CLOGGING UP *THIS* ONE #THIS'LL BE MY ONLY MENTION OF *THE WEBCOMIC* AND ITLL BE BUISINESS AS NORMAL #I PROMISE THAT THERES PLEANTY OF 'FANS' OUT THERE WHO DO GENUINELY HATE IT IN A CRITICAL MANNER. THEYRE USUALLY JUST BIGOTED FREAKS ANYWAY. #BECAUSE HOMESTUCK WAS KINDA SORTA THE GENESIS OF A *LOT* OF EVIL THINGS IN FANDOM #SO THAT ROT IS LITERALLY EVERYWHERE. YOU KINDA GOTTA HAND-SELECT PEOPLE YOU RESPECT. TRUST NOONE. #anyways if you actually read this far i fucking love you #overstating my case to the *max* but its my own personal religious opiate of sorts and it just. won't wash off. #AND I'M KINDA TERRIFIED OF LOOSING PEOPLE OVER THIS LMAO #then again the sheer amount of people who reblog posts from someone literally named 'vriska' and who has a vriska icon and a username refere #referencing arachnids i think i might be good. have things cooled off that much? hm

[calcifermovesthecastle]

S/o that asks for affection unconsciously when they wake up without even noticing (nsfw?), how would the Bucci gang + josuke + young joseph+ giorno react? :>

So I don’t age up characters for NSFW, so I’ll just do fluff for Narancia, Josuke, Fugo, Giorno and Trish, but I will add some Adult Characters with NSFW for your troubles. :) I’ll add a cut for the NSFW as well so anyone can read before the cut, but only 18+ after please!

Warnings: Language

Bucciarati (Fluff):

-He’s surprised when you hug him from behind when just standing around, or when you slip your hand in his just sitting, or stand behind him while he’s sitting and scratch his back (BLEASE DO THIS FOR HIM he will on god love you forever) 

-So when you two decide to move in, he’s also surprised to find that this carries over into sleeping. 

-He’ll wake up with you literally splayed out on top of him, And he blushes so hard. He’ll try to gently push you off of him back onto the bed, because surely you can’t be comfortable like that.

-Will immediately stop when you tighten your grip and stir, instead allowing his hands to rest on your back.

-He’s honestly not used to it but he will indulge you because god you’re so warm, and so soft and so beautiful in his arms. 

-You’ll notice when you’re awake that he’ll start to return your touches, leaning into your back scratches, squeezing your hand when you slip yours into his, Place his hands over your arms when you hug him from behind. 

-Will never say why, though. It’s his secret. 

Abbacchio (Fluff):

-You may not notice, but god, does he.

-He Panic. You’re half awake, and you just reach out and pull yourself closer to him, nuzzling your face into his chest, Your breath evening out. 

-Oh god what does he do with his hands are you even comfortable there’s no way you’re comfortable jesus what the hell

-He opts to push you away, but you tighten your hold, babbling something out in your sleep about being warm. 

-(He do be warm tho ngl) 

-It takes everything, and I mean, E v e r y t h i n g in him to give in and rest his arms around you, but once he does, and you snuggle even closer? God he’s in love. You’re literally the most precious thing to him. 

-When you’re awake tho he will absolutely push you off the bed without remorse. (Expect a top of the head kiss from him though he’s soft.) 

Mista (Fluff):

-He’s laying awake, tracing his finger along the wall, making damn sure the sex pistols don’t wake you. 

-In his distraction, you reach out, grasping his arm and hugging it. 

-(Arcana reference but Julian laugh) Oh ho ho!

-He takes note that you’re still asleep, and pulls you on top of him, securing his arms around you so that you don’t slip off. 

-Instead of tracing the wall, he will now be trailing his fingers up and down your arms and back, and through your hair. 

-His heart is melting you’re so god damn cute. He’ll tighten his grip, just gazing down at you with nothing but adoration in his eyes. 

-He will tease the everloving shit out of you when you wake up. Like he will not stfu about it. 

-He will also be a million times more physically affectionate with you during the day lol it’s sickening

-He is NOT stinky JFC

Fugo: 

-Whaaaaat are you doing?

-Oh, you’re asleep.

-WHAAATTT ARE YOU DOIIINNNGGGGG

-He’ll stiffen up, but oh no you’re sleeping he cant just...push you away... he’s not heartless....

-He is confused to say the least, and a lil bit uncomfy, but he trusts you. 

-Watches as your features relax as your face presses into the crook of his neck and your arm tightens around his middle. Oh fuck you’re cute

-you’ve won him over. 

-He’ll wrap an arm around your waist, (So you don’t fall dsjdsjdsj) and let you be close to him. He enjoys it too, if he’s being honest. You’re so cute. 

-When you wake up, he’s much kinder and softer towards you. He’ll make any excuse to gently bump knees while you’re sitting or to brush his hand against yours while reaching for something. 

-Only because you asked for it tho

Narancia:

-Nani in tarnation is goin on?

-He’s completely taken by surprise. You’re asleep? And you want him? To hold you? ???? ?????? *Windows start up sounds* 

-He literally doesn’t know what to do He’s so soft and so confused with his negative brain cells (I do hate him but I will admit he does have a big heart he is a sweetie) 

-He will, a little too eagerly, hug you back. His tenacity may or may not wake you up. (It does. Sorry.) 

-You wake up to a surprise hug though so win win?

-The more you subconsciously ask, the more he gives, until you two are literally glued together. (Social distancing whomst? We don’t know her.) 

-Expect sloppy kisses everywhere. On the other hand, funnily enough, you will have to initiate the hugging. He’s so scared. What if he hugs you too tight? What if he wakes you up again? What if he suffocates you? What if you don’t like his hugs

-Hug him jfc he needs reassurance that you want to be held. 

-Sleepy morning hugs where you two are just breathing in sync and there’s not a care in the world are his favorite

Giorno-

-He is a light sleeper. I know I’ve said this before, but he is a very, very, very light sleeper. 

-So when you reach out and grasp at any piece of him you can reach, trying to close the gap between you (It’s a cold winter morning, come on) 

-He’ll startle awake and look over at you to check and see if you’re okay. 

-Oh, you are okay. Oh, you just want held? Alright. He’s up for that. Oh. You’re asleep? He’ll have to be especially careful to not wake you. 

-He will pull you close and rub circles into your back, pressing his cheek against the top of your head. He might even fall back asleep. If you stir, it’s not for long. His warmth and soothing movements lull you back to sleep in the safety of his arms. 

-When you’re awake, he’ll definitely be more affectionate, pressing tiny flowers into your hands, brushing your hair back, k i s s i n g y o u r k n u c k l e s (Im so fucking soft) 

-But seriously imagine Giorno getting down on one knee, taking your hand, and brushing his lips against your knuckles while looking up at you with literally nothing but love and affection in his eyes im going to cry

-Anything he does will have you a blushing mess

Trish:

-Who tf is waking her up? 

-oh, it’s you

-Oh, you’re hugging her

-OH, You’re still asleep.

-O H, you’re fucking cute!

-She’ll study you for a minute, before reaching up to lightly cup your cheek in her hand, careful not to wake you up. Her fingers will flutter over your face, tracing your features. She absolutely adores how precious you look snuggled up against her. 

-When you wake up, expect to have your hand held all day. Trish is the queen of hand holding. She will also take your face in her hands and kiss the corners of your lips, and rest her head on your shoulder when you two are sitting next to each other.  

-She’ll have this smug look on her face the whole time too dsjdsjdsjdsjds 

-Will absolutely do the disgusting feeding each other thing. “Babe, try this!” *Proceeds to hold forkful of food in front of your mouth. “Oh, that looks good, can I have some?” *Lets you do the same* 

-It’s revolting and I love it. 

Joseph (Fluff):

-He’s already awake. He’s got to get up early and train (Viva reverie reference: “With these tall hat guys for a looooong time!”)  But oops, you just so happened to burrow against him, and your arm seems to have found its way across his stomach. What a predicament, you’re still asleep! He can’t wake you!

-He decides that he just doesn’t have the heart to move you, and wraps his arms around you to pull you even closer. What if you get cold? He’s warm, you’ll be warm next to him!

-He will hold you against him until you wake up, no matter how late it makes him. Punishments be damned. You’re way too cute and this opportunity is way too good to pass up. 

-In all honesty though he’s elated that you want him to hold you. This carries over into you being awake. He’ll be hanging off of you. Hell, He’ll carry you around if you give the okay. He will absolutely kneel so he can carry you around on his shoulders. 

-He’s very handsy, so rip to your personal space. You asked for it, after all. You wanna sit in that chair over there? Aww, that’s too bad. He’s your chair now. 

-Are you complaining tho? He’s got some thicc thighs, you’ll be pretty comfy. 

-Psst his hands are gonna be like twice your size compare hand sizes he will love it

Josuke:

-He’s already cuddly bb

-But if on the rarest of rare occasions he either 1.) wakes up before you or 2.) Isnt already holding you, and you press closer to him in your sleep, just maybe ball his shirt up in your fists as you clutch at him, yearning for the affection you’re too scared to ask for when you’re awake

-Oh god he cry

-He cry so hard

-He is the (Parker James’ Steven Voice) CEO of bear hugs. Especially if someone as adorable as you is cuddling up against him.

-He will pull you up against him and bury his face in your hair, maybe even falling back asleep himself. (good luck getting out of his embrace when he’s asleep lol There’s no chance.) 

-it is always a nice surprise to wake up cocooned in his arms, his entire body wrapped around you. 

-When you’re both awake, He’ll do lots of little things for you. Absentmindedly rub your back and shoulders, sling an arm around your shoulders, link pinkies, hold hands, forehead kisses

-He will lift you up and spin you around and kiss you but shh don’t tell anyone

-He is

-so GOD damn soft I love him 

NSFW BELOW THE CUT

18+ ONLY

BUCCIARATI:

-He’s in the midst of registering being awake, getting prepared for the day, when he notices that you’re uh

-he can’t help his erection when he sees you bury your face in his neck and grind your hips against him. You’re still asleep, what could you possibly be dreaming about? 

-Oh god if he hears you whimper his name it’s all over for you. 

-Shakes your shoulder, peering into your sleep-gripped eyes and smiles nervously. 

-”Tesoro, would you mind if I made love to you before I left for work?” 

-Your lips on his are answer enough. He’ll thrust into you at a slow, sensual speed, showering you in praises, leaving soft kisses all over your body. Never marking, but always making sure the feeling of his mouth lingers on your skin. 

-He will speak only in italian during this time, so unless you know italian, don’t count on understanding anything he says. (You’ll have a pretty good Idea of what he means tho 👀)

-He will absolutely make sure you won’t be getting out of bed for the rest of the day. He definitely has a way of making your body melt under his touch. He’s never rough. He’s so, so gentle with you, and you’d be surprised how quickly he can have you cumming because of it. 

-If you ask nicely, he’ll stay in bed with you for a little longer afterwards, pressing kisses into your hair and telling you how much he cherishes you

-”You don’t have to be afraid, dolcezza. My arms are always open for you. You’ll find in them nothing but home.” 

ABBACCHIO: 

-Did you just grab his tiddies?

-He’s in the middle of telling you off when he sees that you’re asleep, mumbling about how you want him to take you, grinding against him. 

-Something feral awakens in him at the sight of you, unknowingly begging for him, and he grabs your wrists, flipping you fast, waking you, and leaning over you, his breath hot against your ear. 

-”Dolcezza, Is it okay if I fuck you?” 

-The answer is yesssssssss

-Oh bby he is R o u g h. He’ll use his stand to hold your arms above your head and push your legs up so far that your thighs will be pressed against your chest, and he will pound into you with a speed and force that’s almost inhuman

-He will kiss you hard, and long, so that when he pulls away, you’re gasping for air, your lips bruised, your eyes rolled into the back of your head. 

-Any qualms he has about being this close to you are out the door. You’ll have deep handprints in your legs from where he was holding them, and the darker the bruise he leaves with his mouth, the happier he is. He doesn’t care where he leaves them, either. Expect some on your chin, your neck, your chest, anywhere he can reach, honestly. But if your lips are bruised, that’s what satisfies him the most. 

-You’ll definitely cum more than once, and once he cums, it’s hard, and he’ll pull you flush against him, breathing heavily, burying his face in your shoulder. Tell him it’s okay, because once he’s come down from his high, his fear that he hurt you is overwhelming. He loves you, after all. Reassure him. Hold him close, and don’t let go. 

MISTA: 

-(Once again Julian laugh) Oh ho ho! 

-He’s gonna watch for a minute, but wake you up if the pressure becomes too much for him. He’ll give you a moment to wake up, and then ask you to fuck. 

-(Yes yes yes) 

-He’s like a mix of Abbacchio and Bucciarati. Rough and kinky, but will literally shower you in praise and affection. 

-He likes tugging your hair while taking you from behind (If you have hair. If not, his hands will grip your waist, or reach around to rub your clit/stroke your cock depending. 

-He will kiss down your back while leaning over you, making sure to leave little marks that’ll last, but not long 

-Definitely makes you cum before he does, but if he can, really enjoys cumming together. To him, it adds to the intimacy of the moment. 

-”Oh, Bombolone, do you need me so much that You want me even in your dreams? I’ll wake you each time, I need you more than you know. You are so perfect. You are so wonderful, and adorable, and I love you so much.” 

-He will literally not shut the fuck up during sex but it’s okay because it’s all sweet and loving. 

JOSEPH: 

-Oh jesus christ stroke his ego why dontcha

-if you’ve discussed it beforehand, and you’re into Somnophilia, he’ll fuck you right there. But if not, He’ll take the time to wake you, his ears burning red. 

-”Oi, babe, You were holding onto me kinda tight and grinding your hips against my leg. If you want me that bad, say something.”  

-He will destroy you. Something about seeing you want him when you’re not even aware of what you’re doing? OOF. 

-He also has a bad case of not shutting the fuck up during sex. 

-The best remedy to this is to just pull him down into a kiss while he’s snapping his hips against yours. Hold it for as long as possible. It’ll make his heart happy if you’re bold enough to initiate a kiss as well. 

-He cums before you but will help you cum as well, whether it be eating you out/blowjob or fingering you/handjob. (If you’re AMAB then he’ll let you return the favor tbh) 

-Will shamelessly ask you for a blowjob. If you indulge him, he’s on cloud nine, His hands weaved into your hair, watching your every move as your mouth closes around his cock and your tongue swirls around him. It takes all of his self control not to throat fuck you. 

-Once you’ve reached your limit, he’ll help you into the shower and massage wherever’s sore, washing you off with a gentleness that’s a stark contrast to his movements prior. 

BONUS GYRO

-When did you end up in his sleeping bag? 

-He’s awake before you or Johnny, and he notices you’ve burrowed yourself close to him. You’re also

-Nyo-ho. Oh are you also. 

-He’ll shake your shoulder, and once you’re awake, he’ll flash his grill and lean in, whispering in your ear

-”D’you wanna fuck me that bad that you’re doing it in your sleep, doll?” 

-Who cares if johnny’s sleeping right over there, with your consent, he’s inside of you faster than anything. He’ll give you a moment to adjust to him, and then start off slow, massaging your hips and thighs, whispering how amazing you are. 

-He goes slow, but makes sure he’s down to his full length with every thrust, pressing his lips into the corners of your mouth, then crashing them directly against your lips, not letting you come up for air until your legs are trembling around him. 

-He won’t change things up until he hears a “Please” 

-That’s his favorite word. If you groan out a “Please, Gyro,” And your voice cracks, oh, are you in for a t r e a t. 

-He’ll make you see stars, but shh, don’t get too loud, doll. Johnny’s asleep. If you’re being too loud, he’ll cover your mouth with his hand. 

-Please hold onto him. Wrap your arms and legs around him while he fucks you. He loves it so much. 

-Once you’ve cum, he tumbles not long after, blurting out something in italian that you can only hope to understand if you don’t speak it. (Hint: It’s praises for you and your body.) 

-Once he’s done, he falls back down next to you, pulling you close and pressing his lips to your forehead, deciding that It can be a later start than usual today. Besides, you look so cute curled up against him like that, doll. 

#jjba #jojo no kimyou na bouken #jojo's bizarre adventure #jjba headcanons #jjba x reader #Bucciarati x reader #buccellati x reader #abbacchio x reader #mista x reader #fugo x reader #narancia x reader #giorno x reader #trish x reader #joseph x reader #josuke x reader #gyro x reader

[literarydoodlekid]

13 rw aka how to ruin an ending

This is me mostly venting my still reeling emotions about that hot mess last episode that was relatively okay till someone got sodomized in a bathroom. there is showing the reality of bullying and rape, then theres just blatant unnecessary borderline exploitative show of (sexual) violence and that sexond season ending did just that. I had to turn it off for a while it was so horrifyingly unwatchable.  

Do these people have like a quota of traumatic shit they have to meet every season. there was absolutely no reason for what happened to tyler in the bathroom. it came out of nowhere and added nothing to the story. jfc we get it by now rape and severe bullying happens, people do nothing about it and it fucks up lives...you dont need to repeat it in increasingly sickening ways over and over and over again. At this point theres no msg anymore, its just lets subject characters to the worst  possible thing and slap a“ we should all do better and be more aware” speech behind it. At that last voice over about helping others at their lowest point i didnt even care anymore, let tyler shoot us all out of our misery.  

i actually liked most of the season despite some unneeded things and odd chracter developments but that ending was just...after everything that had already happened this was just so unneeded. i was already emotionally burnt out.  the writers should take their own advice and do better. disturbing graphic scenes, especially of a sexual nature, shouldnt be pointles. You could have taken this scene out of the series and it wouldnt be missed in the plot or character development. I was ready to forgive most of this seasons flaws until that scene. its like they want to prove all their critics right. 

#it came out of nowhere...wtf was the point #13 reasosns why spoilers..i guess #jfc #i feel like i kept repeating myself..my first tumblr rant i guess but wtf was that garbage #13 reasons why spoilers

[whiteboysbeatthedisco]

So I haven't really ranted or just spoke my mind on here in a long ass time. And I should probably just write all this in a journal or something, but it’s just a lot easier to type and it feels better to know that SOMEONE somewhere might read it. So if you are reading this, prepare for a super long whining rant...

A friend of mine, I’ll name her Sara for her own privacy, has been dating this guy for well over a year at this point. I’ve never really been too fond of him (he never really tried to get to know any of us and he wasn’t the best influence)...Basically she deserves someone so so so SO much better. Also Sara has told us that he spends his money on things she doesn’t know about (umm?? drugs?? shady af if you ask me) and therefore is having trouble paying for his summer class. He also got a job at a pizza place and didn’t even show up--he just quit without telling anybody. I think Sara is letting him live with her now? Not too sure why (maybe things aren’t good for him at home). Sara also just got into a car accident so she’s been anxious about driving. The last time I asked if she wanted to hang out, she said “I'm good”...like?? did I do something? am I annoying? cause if I don't get a reason for you not wanting to hang out, I WILL assume that you hate me...Other times she’s just opened my messages and not replied to them. And I understand that she’s still anxious about driving but 

1. I would drive us to wherever she would want to hang out

2. She’s willing to drive to work and to see her boyfriend

3. We don’t even have to go anywhere, we can chill at either of our houses

I guess I’m just sad/frustrated because it’s yet another case of a best friend putting her boyfriend first in her life. And I know that things are hard for her at home right now, but I just wish she would feel comfortable talking to me about it--not just her boyfriend. We used to be so close and now it just seems like she doesn’t have the time or energy to hang out with me.

And I've felt this way for awhile, but I also just feel like she didn't appreciate me. Y’know, I drove her around for 2 years to and from school (some days she would just go home with her boyfriend and make me drive her sister home) and never got a penny of gas money. Also anytime she didn’t have money for food, I would pay for her and she never really paid me back. And I know that her family is tight on money right now, but I can’t even imagine how much money I spent on her for gas and food. Even just her saying, “hey I really appreciate everything you did for me, and I should’ve thanked you more than I did” would make me so happy. I know I shouldn’t let people take advantage of me like that (and I'm NOT saying that was her intention) but I guess I learned my lesson.

I know that she has a job, but I also have a job and it wouldn’t be hard to coordinate something if she would just communicate with me. Anytime I see her posting on social media its with her boyfriend. 

Speaking of having a job...they just scheduled me to work Monday through Thursday 10:45-4 and Saturday 8-4 so honestly kill me cause that job makes me wanna cry. There’s a huge language barrier and its hard to work somewhere where you can’t understand anything anybody is saying. It’s also just not a fun job...

And on a totally unrelated note, Trump just said that transgender people can’t serve in the military and honestly?? like its fucking 2017, how are we still having to fight for basic human rights? there are so few people that I hate as much as I hate Trump. And the fact that my conservative, rich, white family thinks he's innocent and that he's gonna bring about good change in America sickens me to my core and makes me want to be out of the house as much as I can. Last night my mom literally said to me: “I’m so glad you're not gay.” Like jfc mom, even if I were, how would that affect your life in any way?? Why is there so much hatred in this fucking country for people who are different?? Every time I hear about something trump has said or done, my heart drops and I wonder why things are the way they are. And as much as I would like to make a change, it just feels like nothing I do will ever be enough. Im just one person and unfortunately, the majority of Americans share the same opinions and beliefs with a sexist, racist, rapist, pig of a human being and that disgusts me.

I also continue to have dreams about my ex even though we broke up 2 years ago and I still have to see him at church (which I'm forced to go to). And I know I deserve better but tbh I really just want someone to hold me and kiss me and wipe away my tears because I haven’t had someone like that in SO fucking long. 

Anyway, if you’ve made it this far, I'm so fucking sorry lmao. I know all I did was complain, but hey, we all have days like this. 

#personal #rant #sorry for the rant

[janiedean]

What do you think of the whole Dylan Roof being sentenced to death situation and Incblackbird getting hate for being against it?

haha I got two questions in one ;)

okay so premise: I have zero sympathy for the guy. I have in general zero sympathy for mass murderers even more so if they’re beyond rehabilitation (not that mass murderers are in general, so). as far as I’m concerned they should put him in jail, throw away the key and let him enjoy a very long life behind bars since the idiot is younger than I am and he definitely would have a long life expectance - too bad.

that said: I am also in any way, shape or form against death penalty. I don’t think it’s anything that should go on in a civil country, I entirely disagree on its value as *anything* since risking it doesn’t prevent anyone from committing crimes and I think that the chance someone innocent might die for it isn’t worth the chance of killing actual culprits. also I think the old testament is old fucking news, enlightenment has been a thing for ages and killing someone in retribution for whatever it is they did just feeds into a mindset that has to die. we can’t think that if someone kills someone then you kill them in return and you evened the slate - like it’s the same concept as ‘you stole some bread so I cut your hand’. like. it’s the 21st century. death penalty is sickening and unacceptable under any fucking pov and before someone asks me no, if someone I loved was murdered I would not want the murdered killed, I’d want them punished properly. as in: life sentences are a thing. (and before you tell me that it costs to keep someone in prison for all their life, don’t worry it also costs to kill them. I remember some newspaper article a while ago saying that in california they were considering doing away with the death penalty because it cost too much rather than for ethical reasons. haha.)

so: the dude should have been thrown in jail for life as far as I’m concerned but not put to death and not because he doesn’t **deserve** it but because killing people out of retribution doesn’t make you any better than them, because it’s just flat-out morally wrong and there’s a hell of a lot of different ways you can go about punishing someone. never mind that the US system works so well that… okay, story: once I signed an amnesty petition for a guy who spent twenty years in trials for a death sentence when evidence against him was either inconclusive or tampered with and they basically asked for signatures to send the state governor to give him a last appeal. the state governor also did not sign it and the guy died. since then I get links to similar petitions in my inbox and like every month or so I get something of the kind and it’s 90% black people convicted during the eighties in either questionable circumstances or without 100% foulproof evidence who get killed anyway. even if it’s not even sure they did it. like I’d be against it even if I was guaranteed that no innocents get axed but innocents have been axed in that way since ages (SACCO AND VANZETTI *COUGH*) and given that then there’s ppl like that former texas governor asshole who actually build their campaign on how many people were put to death under their administration and therefore don’t lift fingers to save the ones who might actually be innocent excuse me but lol I’m not ever agreeing with anything that comes out of it. and before anyone tells me that I’m empathizing with him rather than the families’ victims: no. I don’t give two fucks about this guy and I don’t think he deserves to walk out free or to not be punished, but you don’t kill people legally period. to me it’s just abhorrent as a general concept.

also: people on the tag going like OMG I’M SO HAPPY THAT HIS BRAIN IS GONNA FIZZLE are fucking sociopaths. like excuse me but if the concept of seeing someone die on an electric chair makes you burst in joy and cheer, I don’t wanna be near you ever. like it’s some of the most disgusting shit you could come up with - like idek if these people know what actually it implies that one person’s brain *fizzles* (I’ve seen enough movies/documentaries to have an idea) but it’s nothing exciting. and there’s nothing to be happy about because anyone who gets killed like that is a failure of a) the society that produced them/their family/their background if they’re guilty and b) a complete travesty if they’re not. like the bare idea that you’d rejoice at the prospect of seeing someone die in that way (at least if they shoot at you it’s over in a moment) is just… completely abhorrent to me? (also I personally have Issues TM with executions, like I can’t watch executions in general without feeling sick or crying my eyes out even if I don’t give a damn about who’s getting executed or whether they did anything wrong to end up there or not, so. again: it’s not even empathy. once I watched a movie where a fairly disgusting person who kidnapped/abused children was condemned to death and I hated the guy’s guts and I still cried when he got hanged because I can’t fucking literally watch people die slowly/executed. so.) wow idk my first thought would be ‘how do we avoid anything like that happening again’, not ‘HAHAHAHA THEY’RE GETTING THEIR DUE I HOPE THEY SUFFER’. like. wow. outstanding human being there. stay away from me thanks.

re incblackbird getting hate: I’m entirely not surprised that on a supposedly **progressive positions** website like tumblr aspires to be people are actually in favor of the death penalty even if like any left wing party deserving of that name is technically against it but like if people don’t get that not wanting death penalty in general doesn’t automatically mean approving of someone’s crimes then idek what to say but jfc people need to go to the nearest amnesty international building and do some volunteer work or something and stop being fucking sociopaths because seriously one thing is not being sad that the guy’s gonna die which I can more or less understand in theory but actually rejoicing in the fact doesn’t make you really much of a better human being than someone who, uh, most probably rejoiced in actually killing people. /two cents

#extra wank for ts #first person who tries to tell me I'm sympathizing with the guy can go fuck off #Anonymous #ask post #death tw #death penalty tw