#like.. i cant even properly from sentences in german

[wjehfshs]

Some head-canons for cod characters while I work on a request and I’m at a family birthday party

Kinda suggestive on Keegans part, mentions of alcohol and smoking

Gaz

Held his mums hand in public until he was 17

Mamas boy

Had the type of father son relationship where they would play catch outside

Hot chocolate >> coffee

Absolutely terrified of kids but kids are all over him when he’s out in public or anywhere with kids

Whenever he got face paint as a kid at birthday party’s or something he always either got a tiger or Spider-Man

Gaming nerd

Constantly worried for Price because Price smokes

Most in tune with pop culture and social media

Has a tik tok account with 40K followers

He just posts training videos and self defence and people eat it up (people meaning me)

Pretty average childhood

First job was at a hotdog stand when he was 16

Ghost

Goes mute on rare occasions

Complete opposite of Gaz, loves kids but they’re terrified of him

Was a hot wheels kids but considering his childhood he would always just play with his friends hot wheels

Autistic

Secretly really attached to Price in a father son way but would rather die than admit it

Body is a HEATER. Literally never cold always complaining about how it’s hot

Insomniac (probably a trauma response but we don’t talk about that)

Joined the military to feel stronger than his father but stayed because he actually enjoyed it and made friends

On the rare occasion he does sleep he’s out like a light for at least 10+ hours

Type of kid in high-school to have no friends but didn’t care

Price

Favourite food is a scone

Scotch drinker

Trying to quit smoking for Gaz but struggles, needs a stress reliever from time to time

Body is also a heater but not as bad as Ghost

Was a sports kid in high-school

Kids are all over him and constantly think he’s like 97, he doesn’t mind tho he’s like a father

Typa dad to play catch with his kid

Recovering alcoholic

Very much popular nice kid in high-school. Everyone loved him and he got good grades

Sneezes like an explosion went off

Probably needs glasses to read

Soap

Basically deaf, “Huh? Huh? Huh?”

Kids hate him and he hates kids he likes it that way

Ate straight up mud and worms as a kid

Eats cereal RELIGIOUSLY

Body feels cold but he’s always saying how hot it is

Typa guy to walk an old woman across the street

Has a god awful amount of hair gel that he doesn’t even use because his hair defies gravity

Plays the bagpipes but not very well

Wakes up first. Without fail.

Ate dog food as a kid

No one touches the Mohawk (except Ghost)

Has a tik tok but like 72 followers and he gets so excited when he gets over 10 likes, he shows Gaz and Gaz doesn’t wanna break his heart by telling him that’s really not a lot

Loses his train of thought mid sentence

König

Also goes mute sometimes

When he gets too anxious and someone tries to talk to him and he’s not mute he’s speaking German and German only

Cold, all the time

Bounces his leg when he sits

Cant sleep properly for shit

Cuts his own hair because he hates having to communicate to people

His first birthday present was a fake crown from his parents

Kind of kid to hide behind his parents legs when he was little

Doesn’t drink or smoke or anything because it makes him sick

Likes soup idk why he just likes soup

Animal person but he’s so scared of hurting them especially really small animals like kittens

Gets sunburnt really easy

Sleeps with 5 thick blankets + 1 weighted blanket

Like soft fluffy things

Has to sometimes make his own clothes or blankets considering his size

Had a childhood cat that he considered his best friend

Keegan

Calls everyone who’s younger than him “kid” even if they’re just an hour younger or smth

Swears he’s a good driver (he’s canonically not)

Bit of a perv honestly (by bit I mean very much). He’s not creepy or anything just dirty minded

Was a Lego kid

Avoids children like the plague

Drinks beer but ever rarely

Also chronically cold

Was always the cooler older cousin

Like his steak burnt to a crisp

Spicy food enjoyer

Also good with pop culture and social media

Has a Twitter with 60K followers

Posts stuff in tactical gear

Knows what he’s doing if you know what I mean

Listens to metal

Also likes playing games

Really really nice hands

Ok that’s it for now. Can you tell I like Gaz and Keegan the most? Yeah. I want them

It’s so cold outside rn wtf

#cod x reader #cod #cod mw2 x reader #cod mw2 #cod mw x reader

[selfcareparker]

(lovely anon) ok so this may sound so dramatic but; let me paint you a picture: i’m responding to your latest message, sitting on the edge of the sofa. i type in “lovely anon” into the search and see this longgg post come up and i’m like uhhh... i scroll down and see the people you tagged and literally. when i saw @ lovely anon. i . cried . like full on tears. my brother goes “what are you doing” “she tagged meeeee” and he continued what he was doing and didn’t care LMAOO but i was so emotional? i love and appreciate you too and aAH IM CRYING!! you’re just really sweet and i didn’t expect it at all and it was really lovely to be a part of something :’)

the kermit pic sent meee but yes yes yes!! when you start uni let me know, lol i’m so excited for you!! let me know how it goes cuz i’m literally hype hahah & yes we will be in our sad corners of the world, missing england but you’re right it’ll be sooooo worth it in the end!!! and oH i’m glad you talk to them lol i truly thought you like haven’t seen them/haven’t spoken to them this whole time😭 that would’ve been awful!

also i totallyyy get what your saying about the english speaking thing. and idk why you’re insecure (well i *knowww* bc it’s not your first language and you’re studying it in college so yuh) but your english is great :)))

lol yeah that makes sense.. my mom took french in college and she remembers NOTHING HDJSHSJ (the fact that you wanna learn MORE languages i- ahh i so admire you.. you literally know so many languages🥺) yea i mean you know a bunch of languages bc you know the base of words lol, but i wonder if because you know latin it’ll be easier for you to learn french? oh- oh wait you said it’ll be easier HAHHAHA

THERES SO MUCH EXCITING STUFF TO TALK ABOUT HDGSJSJSL it’s so wild to me that you can’t watch chaos walking :( i’m a professional hacker tho so i’ll try and find a way for you LMAO (by professional hacker i mean i literally have gotten multiple free trials and i’m pretty sure the hulu police are after me bUT ITS THEIR FAULT BC WHY IS IT SO EXPENSIVE???) i mean the movie was good? and cute? and funny? but yea don’t think it’s gonna be the most fantastic thing haha AND THE DOGGO AWWW (i saw it again today- or my today lol, saturday, aND THESE OLD PEOPLE CAME AND SAT IN FRONT OF ME AND MY FRIEND LIKE ITS A LONG STORY LMK IF YOU WANNA HEAR IT)

SHARK FILMS?!?!! PLEASE READING THIS I HAD NO IDEA YOU WOULD LIKE SHARK MOVIES TOO FHSKSHSHDJDJGAJAYSJS ok so i haven’t seen any of the classics (i’m working on it) but i would probably watch jaws to laugh at it? not like that lmao but like comparing it. OKAY BUT HONESTLY I BARELY KNOW ANYONE WHO LIKES SHARK FILMS AHHH OKAY im adding “the shallows” to my watchlist bc it sounds super good AND SAME AHSJD ANY BODY OF WATER IN A MOVIE I JUST KNOW ITS COMING LMAO watch me not go in the water anymore after seeing that picture HHDJSJ

WHEN I READ THIS I JUST GOT DONE TALKING TO MY MOM ABOUT THE MEG AND THAT SCENE WHERE THE SHARKKK JUMPEDDDD AND ATE THE OTHER ONEEEE AND THEN JONAS HAD TO DO- bro i cannot (i think that one is my favorite because i love me a bit of romance and the subtle romance hAD ME) 47 meters down PHEW could you imagine?? i try not to think too hard about it i’m like “don’t be dumb catherine, don’t put yourself in a dumb situation” (not autocorrect having “dumb bitch” ready i am not lying) and i literally understand... there is no other way to explain 47 meters down

i CANNOT watch horror movies, can’t can’t can’t, i literally hate them i cannot do it!!! the thrill is tempting and it’s cool in the moment but i cant lmao. i don’t have nightmares about scary things (for the majority of the time) but going to sleep i’m like oooohhhhhh shit 🥲 literally what you explained

music !!!! music !!!! music !!!! (u ever write a word and now it looks weird lmao) MY BROTHER DOESNT LIKE MUSIC AND ITS SHIT IM LIKE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU- anyway, my music taste is all over the place i mean......... it’s crazy. earlier today i was listening to meghan trainor’s album “title” oUT OF NOWHERE, but just a few minutes ago i was listening to fall in love with me by earth wind and fire soooo lol .. megan is *chefs kiss*, i’m not familiar with stormzy🙈, harry styles.... IM SORRY IM THAT PERSON but i don’t listen to his solo music EEK i only listen to adore you... and not that frequently... the music video freaked me out... i like niall’s solo music a lot more, which i listen to a lot more. now. one direction. favorite. please & thank you. i have a playlist called “boy bands” and it consists of one direction and the vamps (obsessed with cherry blossom btw) but as you can see my taste is all over the place!! fr fr if i sent you what apple music has as my “favorites” it went from ariana grande to carrie underwood to glee (OBSESSED DONT LET ME TALK ABOUT IT) i mean please if you let me i will nonstop (hamilton HDJSH) talk about music all day😩 & NOOO UR MUSIC IS GREAT HAHSK IM NOT A BIG RAP PERSON BUT DOJA CAT IS MY FAVORITE!!

okay good, i’m glad :) i was just nervous that you did feel that way <3 and GOT IT HAHAJ healthy pressure is always good :’) my friend got me these pens cuz i love stationary and school supplies lol and was like “now you have to write something” soooo yea i feel that! and i saw you posted the ficcccccc literally so proud of you 🥺🥺 i’m trying to decide if i read it tomorrow or tonight..... sleep or a literal beautiful creation made by the sweetest person and is v v nice smut and college!peter and 4.7k...... sleep aint really calling no more.

GIRL ALL OF MY SENTENCES ARE TOO LONG HAHAHAH IN FACT THIS IS TOO LONG SOOO (also why am i 3 days late..😑) anywho it’s 1 in the morning so <33 lovely anon

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oh my god the fact that you cried nearly made me cry too😭😭🥺🥺 (also, your brother LMAO), i wasn‘t even sure if you‘d see it but i immediately thought of you so of COURSE i included you <333

the hulu police lsjsjaiaik, girl i was ready to get a hulu membership when i wanted to watch big time adolescence and i couldn‘t find it anywhereee, and when i got to the payment it said i need a bank account that‘s based in the US or whatever. like bro i was about to pay you!! but i was forced to find it somewhere (and i did, on levidia,— not that i‘ve ever used it because it‘s illegal 😤 i would never!!! i‘d rather support billion dollar companies and spend my money on watching films that i can find for free 🥰🥰🥰 not

i‘ve found chaos walking online so i‘ll watch it som time this week!! also YES TELL ME THE STORY

okay so idk if you watched/are planning on watching falcon and winter soldier but i watched the first episode the other day and they were speaking french (just a few seconds) and I UNDERSTOOD SOME WORDS DLDJDJ and i was so proud of myself. i‘ve only ever learned french with duolingo lol (i only do like 5 mins a day and that‘s why i was so surprised that i understood some of it!!). and yeah apart from latin i feel like italian, german, french and english are all similar in a sense.. i mean obviously they‘re completely different languages but for example there are some grammatical constructions in french that i think i wouldn‘t understand if i only spoke english? so when i translate those things into english you can‘t directly translate them bc you say things differently, but when i translate them into german then it makes more sense to me. idk that‘s something i noticed so i feel like if you already know multiple languages it‘s easier to learn another language compared to if you only know one language and are trying to learn a second one. even if the languages aren‘t similar then i think you get the hang of it easier.

ikd slsjsjs also i don‘t want you to think that i‘m a linguistic genius or anything lmfao, like i‘m only fluent in english and german and i‘m just a wannabe (ew that word) polyglot sksj (yes i had to google polyglot— i do think learning ancient greek would be super cool tho? like imagine studying latin AND ancient greek, whew). and honestly i don‘t think i‘ll ever be fluent in another language bc i don‘t plan on living anywhere other than germany or possibly england and i‘m not dedicated enough to properly learn any other languages esp if i don‘t have anyone to speak the language with. but i still try my best and i just love language/languages as a whole so yeah i‘m happy & just learning as much as i can dkdjh🥰

(I guess language/linguistics are/is my passion (which sounds sooo lame lmaoooo) and the word passion comes from the latin word pati (i think💀) which means to suffer, and in german passion is called Leidenschaft which basically means suffering too, idk why i‘m telling you this maybe you know it already. but ok dumb fun fact, in german you can make compound words with as many words as you like, and the longest official german word is Rindfleischetikettierungsüberwachungsaufgabenübertragungsgesetz which is a law for the monitoring of labels on beef... this is such a dumb fact but i think about that word like once a day idk why dodjsjsj so... 👁👄👁)

but i‘ll stop boring you with my linguistics talk because truly i don‘t know much about languages but i am interested omg i‘m gonna shut up now.

now water + sharks. (so in non-covid times i always go to croatia with my dad during the summer, and even before ever watching a shark film i was always kind of scared in water.. but after watching so many shark films wldjdj HELP Like you know when you go deeper into the ocean and you can‘t see or feel the ground/floor? anymore.. then i just start imagining sharks. like i can‘t help it i just imagine a shark sneaking up on me or feeling something graze my foot ABD I JUST START FREAKING OUT SSKJSHSJ. idk. anyway kdkdh i do love the ocean/swimming though but the older i get the more i realise how fucking scary the ocean is ( even if we’re gonna disregard sharks)

your brother... what‘s wrong with him? HOw CAN YOU NOT LIKE MUSIC LIKE WHAT THE FAWK

OKAY BUT SAME ABOUT THE ADORE YOU MUSIC VIDEO DLDKDJSJSKSLSLKSKSJSHSH and yeah i have to say harry’s style (styles lol) as a solo artist isn‘t reaaally my cup of tea, and i only like the popular songs from his second album and the first album is only good when i‘m in the right mood (haven‘t actually listened to it in a while though, but kiwi is one of my all time favourites along with only angel but i hate the start, like it takes 40 seconds to actually begin properly). i like mgk and because of him i watched the dirt which is a film about motley crue, and now one of my favourite songs ever is same ol situation and i‘m into rock now lol. +++ justin bieber. I had a justin bieber cardboard cutout thingy😭 i was the biggest Belieber on earth when i was 13-16, but i didn‘t like his last album and tbh he‘s become a bit weird lately, BUT OH MY GOD. i Listened to his new album yesterday and i‘m in LOVE with the song hold on

i really like niall‘s music toooo!!!! And doja cat 😌😌😌😌 And THE VAMPS OG MY GOD. i got to see them live bc they were the opening/support act for little mix and ajdsjskslslsjsjsj. (Also i love concerts, some of the best memories of my life are concerts, i‘ve seen nicki minaj live 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and justin twice and my heart fills every time i think about how excited i was, it was my first concert ever (16th of September 2016 😌) and i was the happiest person alive seeing justin drew fucking bieber (even if i‘m not tooo sure about justin nowadays)

i have a confession? Idk what hamilton is. I mean I‘ve heard about it and i keep googling it but i‘ve never watched it (is it even a film???? or like a proper musical? also pls tell me you grew up with high school musical. i have a few friends who didn‘t and it makes me so sad 😭😭😭 hsm is the best thing to happen to my childhood , the sooooongs— i still listen to some of them every week or month lool they make me so happy)

(Okay wait i was about to recommend some stormzy songs but you said you‘re not that into rap so i won‘t dksksjl)

What you said about my fic AHSLSLSJB (i wasn‘t sure if you sent an ask about it earlier? idk that might have been someone else, so if it was (and you‘ve read it already) i hope you liked it sksjsj i was...... unsure about it. and i have this reeaaallly long peter fic that i started writing in december and that‘s the only peter thing i currently want to write but also i can‘t because idk how to continue kddjj.) but I’m definitely getting back into writing i have a few blurbs that i want to write so 🥰🥰🥰

Oh and pls as soon as you read this let me know: violet or yellow? (it‘s just a tiny thing for my new theme slsksj)

#lovely anon #BY THE WAY: do not feel bad or apologise for not answering straight away #you can take your time i know it can be exhausting (not bc its anything bad but just because its so much and so long) to answer to my shit #all at once* #so really i don‘t mind if you take a few days or a week or whatever to respond #or if you want to you can respond bit by bit/topic by topic whenever you feel like it #so you don‘t have to concentrate on an ask and my post for like AN HOUR DLSKJ but rather do it in smaller chunks #if you want <3 #btw i‘m always so scared that i‘ll type lonely anon instead of lovely dldjdjsksk so if i ever do that i‘m just being #(cue your autocorrect dldkdj) a dumb bitch #its 1 am now sorry if there are any mistakes (i‘ll stop apologing from now now lol but i still am sorry you have to read my word vomit lmao) #*apologis #*from now on #omg

[iceice-baeby]

(Reply on it’s own because I got blocked randomly, I guess, post by mediocre-hetalia about how writers or artists should always listen to people from those countries when they wanna dictate what others should do with their stories)

I can't... completely agree.

I mean, it is fiction. If someone want's to be more silly and, for writing something as example, doesn't want a 12 Hour deepdive into Wikipedia and search out ten language sites to properly translate a sentence...

I am fine with it.

Sure, I may cringe a bit.

But... It's fiction. As long as you don't deny my actual culture, I do not care what you do xD If you want to base it more on canon, I can't forbid you that.

You do you.

Even if portrait Germany as a Nazi (which he wasn't even in canon, for that matter)...

Sure, I do not like it.

But... fiction. Fuck it.

As long as you don't stereotype every German as a Nazi too, I do not care. I could not give any less fucks.

The canon characters already have quite a bit of depth and personality to them, if you wanna stick with that and not google every possible culture detail, you stick to what you know.

And when someone from that culture tells you something to add on, you can still love it and be interested in it...

And still not include it if you don’t want to.

Then again, personally, I am also not a history snob and won't get on your throat if you cant get the exact day right the Iron Cross was produced for the first time.

If you want to focus more on the comedy...

Go ahead.

You can still be happy to learn about history without applying it to anything you do.

What matters to you in reality and what matters to you in your own work can be massively different.

You can still get info from someone else about a country, reply with a nice “Okay, that is really cool to know! Is it okay if I let it stay like that in my coffee shop AU slowburn 90k fanfiction though?”

And that should be all that is needed.

You do you. Just be nice about it and there shouldn’t be a single problem.

And frankly, I am kinda sick of history snobs who think that their works are better and their characters are more “deep” and “real” just because they write about the plague and let everyone die a dozen times Game of Thrones style, give everyone depression because their lives where shit and as we all know, happiness did not exist up until 20 years ago (Like seriously I still need to find a single historical fanfic where someone is happy just once and with that I mean actually happy, not faking it even tho they hurt deep inside because of their nationwide misery and suffering and because Russia sucks yet again), and mention how many lovers Bismark had because after all, this is the secret reason why people are reading Hetalia fanfictions when they search up their favourite gay ship.

If you want to stick with comedy.

Don’t let others tell you what to do.

As long as you are not being ignorant and dismissive of the culture in reality, you can do whatever you want in fiction.

I cannot repeat this often enough.

[korracrat]

Story under the cut, I am pissed. If you are on mobile, apologies. There’s talk of a lot of breakdowns and possible triggering content.

So, y’all remember when my head got between a 135 lb German sherpard puppo and a fence? You know the one that resulted in me having a concussion? Yeah I’m still dealing with shit from that time.

As you know, or might not, I am an arts major. That means that most of my finals that deal with my major are actually months long projects unless I take a course out of my discipline. I took a criminal justice course through the IU system, meaning I was taking it at another IU campus while still being on my home campus. I got put in my hometown campus class and I had a feeling it would bite me in the butt cause I moved 4 hours away to another IU campus to avoid going there. 

Basically the teacher, if I can even call her that didnt know what the fuck she was doing. She gave us shitty assignments, assignments for a 100 level course and decided to grade them at a masters level becasue “tahts what she was going through so shed hold us to the same expectation” Basically an essay that shouldve gotten me at least a 50% at the 100 level got me a 20%. When I asked for clarification as to how to fix it she called me where 25 minutes of it was her bitching about how it was her first time teaching and ASKED ME FOR TIPS ON HOW TO TEACH BETTER and about 5 minutes on how to fix my paper. Becasue I was still having issues, I worked with my academic counselor to ask for a better rubric written out and break down of what i need to do. What did I get? I GOT A FUCKING TWO SENTENCE PARAGRAPH ON A TEN PAGE PAPER IN THAT WAS WRITTEN IN 11 POINT TIMES NEW ROMAN FONT WITH ONE INCH MARGINS(basically gave you that to understand how unacceptable it was what she sent me). Also did I mention it took her two weeks to send that to me? Originally I had a month to do the original assignment and a month to redo it, but GUESS WHAT HAPPENED? THEDOG THOUGHT I WAS A GIANT PUNCHING BAG AND GAVE ME A CONCUSSION. I was not able to do that assignment because the concussion hapepened two weeks before it was ue and I dont know if youve had a concussion before but it often lasts for a couple of weeks till a month . I informed her that i needed to an emergency drop of her class. SHE SAW THE EMAIL AND LEFT IT INTHEIR UNTIL IT WAS TOO LATE TO SUBMIT IT THUS RESULTING IN ME FAILING THE COURSE. I KNOW SHE SAW IT BECAUSE SHE WAS SENDING EMAILS AND MENTIONED IT TO ME WHEN SHE FINALLY FORWARDED IT ON.

Fst forward c ouple of weeks, my computer is broken thanks to a windows update that fucked my software up so bad it crashed the hardware. I have since put ina grade grievance and basically just giving people who dont like to work something to work on. I get an email from an adimistrator from the teachers campus saying THAT I HAD TO TURN IN THE PAPER IN TWO WEEKS despite the fact I didnt have working compute,which he did not believe, despite the fact that in the original email that he said the teacher and i could work it out and in the meantime I have had several breakdowns this week not only over this issue but the fact that I do not have a working computer, that I am using my computer rom high school that takes 2 hours to load a 15 minute video for my actual summer course and i am currently renting out my boyfriends moms computer to do some assignments and thats how im posting this, and mostly it is from this goddamn administrator whos like look youre gonna do it here and now even though i said i would give you options I dont care right now because i literally do not want to do the work it takes to properly clear this out. My boyfriend is very close to putting me in the hospital because it has gotten so out of hand, which is why you guys have seen me posting more about him. Now I have a paper that’s due on june 6th that i cant do, that honestly this all could have been solved if she had given me that option to turn it in later, likemy other classes did (i have one due at august 1) but no i had to get admin involved and now they are trying everything they can not to do their job. Heres the admins reply:

Ms. Printup(now my iu campus respects peoples gender preferences but again the iu campus that this one is from is a community that celebrates the kkk and several other nhomophobic groups so of course they would use this)

Prof.  forwarded me your recent correspondence regarding your make-up assignments and grade. Concentrate on the final project. Prof.will weigh that assignment more heavily when calculating the final grade. It is inappropriate to “participate” in Discussions after they have closed.(Funny not all of the assignements that I missed due to my concussion were quizes and iother smaller sassignments but no i cant make them up because theyre disussions) Also, you must submit your final project by June 6, as indicated by Prof. (this is very misleading because he said we could work it out, she said we could work it out but then i mention i need to work it out due to extenuating circumstances it becomes nonnegotiable despite earlier communications). That is more than enough time. As far as your “computer issues” go, you can surely access a reliable computer within that timeframe. We look forward to the resolution of this matter and your successful completion of the course. Take care and good luck.

And this is my response that dont worry i didnt send it to him, I sent it to my academic counselor who is fucking amazing and has saved me from several breakdowns over this class and at this point is kind of used to my rants and is a very good mediator (also I sent her several but this is the major general one combined with some):

(1)

Again, as I've stated in things forwarded to you, this is not an option for me in this time frame. Not only A) do I have work B) don't have a working computer and C) have another class going on with more assignments that trumps this. I garnered no response with her when I tried to explain that my computer is literally in the shop and I have had to send it back it twice. I'm working on borrowed computers that I only have for 2 hours a day. This is basically just not possible for me in this time frame without me having a mental breakdown. I have almost been hospitalized three more times since my head injury thanks to pressures like these and the complete lack of understanding I have. They are not trying to work with me but bully and I've about had it.

(2)

You cannot hand someone a major assignment that normally took a month for others to complete on a shorter time crunch and expect them to turn it in. I will literally have a breakdown and need to be hospitalized, my relatives and roommates have threatened it multiple times this week because of this issue and sheer bullying the administration is doing here and will being seeking damages if they continue to push this, you know how many times I have had a breakdown over this stupid class and how they are relentless here. I have explained as nicely as I can that what they have suggested does not work, as the original comment and suggestion was WORDED as a suggestion for something Ellen and I to work out, which did not happen. The time frame does not work for me, WHICH IT SAID IN THE ORIGINAL THAT THEY COULD WORK AROUND. I am literally sitting here having a breakdown over this shit that I cannot control while my future weighs in on it ALL BECAUSE SOMEONE DOES NOT WANT TO DO THEIR JOB AND FIX IT (not you of course, but the people who just shrugged it off and are sending me down the line). I still do not have the necessary items to fix it, such as that rubric I never received from Ellen. How can I redo an assignment from just a two sentence email on a project that is over 10 pages? Also some of the assignments I had were take home quizzes, something that can be redone and does include group discussion, but apparently someone doesn't want to do her job oh well if only she was paid to do so and that payment wasn;t coming out of my tuition! And for those computer "issues" would the "worker" like a copy of my receipts from Geek Squad that literally show that I do not have a computer to work on right now? I know there are library computers but would that "worker" also like the schedule I have at the library that shows me working a majority of the library hours? No this does not work. I see it as a desperate attempt from administration trying to hide the fact that they do not have competent workers and are taking it out on the student. They can shove it right back up their asses cause they are not getting that assignment in under two weeks. Sorry you had to hear that but I felt it had to be said,A very pissed off Printup

(3) 

Like I honestly would love to work this out, but given the circumstances I don't think that is an option. I'm not trying to make up all these excuses I would love for this to disappear as much as you but goddamn it. Just I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Like I want to do the assignment, but given that I still don't have the rubric and it's on this time crunch, it's not possible. It's not. I don't care if this makes me ineligible to take it to our counsel, but it's a reality of the situation. I have other commitments (like my current course that I have a 91% in) that come before this, just because it is summer does not mean I can bend over backwards for them. I'm sorry that you have to hear my frustrations like this but it's the truth. 

So if you don’t hear from me for a while and just see my queue and not my work queue there is a very good chance I have been hospitalized for my breakdowns and I wanted yall to know why. I’ve started self harming again over this shit and Im just done and reached my limit and its not cool. I havent self hared since aroudn seniro year of high school and im entering my junior year of college

#korracrat talks #please like if you read #and if you do and kept up with that then i might follow you because that is real friendship there #please do not reblog #kkk mention #Tw: kkk mention #please respond if you can I just need some reassurance right now as I try so hard to keep my mind #and not go off again #tw: self harm mention #self harm mention