#like.. inside the skin. god...

[puppyeared]

personal character design headcanons + brainrot

Note: the re-bound!au does NOT belong to me, it belongs to @chipper-smol I’m just not normal about it lol

#I SAY PERSONAL BC ITS MY OWN SPIN ON IT. NOT CHIPPERS CANON UNLESS THEY DECIDE TO OR NOT YOU HEAR ME /LH #I made a banner and everything this time. PLWEASE send them your questions not me JAJFHDSF #I thought it would be cool if macaque has two separate forms as a shadow and inside a mindscape. like I wanted his shadow form to reflect #him in his prime and then the mindscape form as what he looked like when he died. or a more vulnerable state at least #based on LBD appearing to MK as the ivory lady when she died in the S3 special. I don’t know exactly what it was but my first thought seein #the white void was she was appearing to MK in his mindscape to talk to him. so I built on that #I wanted to give him a more ‘Smokey’ look as a shadow just based on how he manipulates them in the show like in shadow play. I hope this #makes it look cool and immaterial. and then his mindscape form would be more battered up and tangible #the last couple images are chippers ideas though since they said the monkeys are drawn to MK when macaque is possessing him lol #and the fact that macaque doesn’t have any senses unless he’s possessing someone + literally sniffing out wukong in the scroll 🤨📸 #I also have a vivid image of macaque moving from the mindscape to physical form like umm. kind of like when he passes the boundary between #physical and spirit/mind(?) it’s like the shadow covers him like ink. or pulling Saran Wrap over your face and it clings to your skin #so it kind of makes the shadow seem like a sort of shell or covering.. and I love the idea of MK meeting macaque in the mindscape for the #first time too. like the moment mac rescues him from LBD and MK sees him all battered and tired looking brooooooo #I’m not even sure if that would count as a mindscape but it rattles around in my brain like loose marbles #god I fucking love this au. gives me imagination fuel swear to god #my art #doodles #lmk #Lego Monkie kid #Monkie kid #lmk au #re-bound!au #rebound au #lmk sun wukong #lmk swk #lmk macaque #lmk six eared macaque #lmk mk #lmk xiaotian

[blueskittlesart]

cold fruit in a hot kitchen (so i had this great watermelon last weekend)

#so I had this great watermelon last weekend. and the thing is it probably wasn't even that great of a watermelon #but I was four hours into an eight hour shift and we had thrown out all the watermelon salad because no one was eating it #and then our manager ran in and yelled that the client really fucking wanted watermelon salad. #so like six of us servers started frantically chopping watermelon. and the kitchen got really hot #in the way it does when everyone inside it is really stressed because there's no fucking watermelon salad #and after we chopped all the watermelon and the client got their fucking watermelon we all had a moment #where we looked at the remaining watermelon and we were so hot and cocktail hour was almost over anyway and the salads were all plated #and we all went for the watermelon and we ate it with the kind of rabid intensity you only get while eating cold watermelon in a hot kitche #and it was the best watermelon I have ever tasted and several days later i am still chasing the high of that fucking watermelon #and the thing is i know it isn't even the watermelon i'm actually missing #it's the feeling of cool liquid on hot skin and the feeling of a crisis averted and the feeling of camaraderie #that comes with devouring a watermelon in a hot kitchen with six other people who you have nothing in common with except that watermelon. #i don't dream of labor but i am dreaming now of being 4 hours into an eight hour shift eating watermelon in a hot kitchen. #i dream of laughing around the cold fruit in my mouth. I crave that watermelon like i'll die without it. #< honest to god this is real and that watermelon left such an impact on me that i had to draw it and write this. having a normal one #maybe this is insane but working in a team of people you truly like to do something you actually enjoy is so underrated #if only they fucking paid me i could work as a server for the rest of my life. unironically #skribbles

[jules-and-company]

one thing about me is that i’m an orestes-electra-pylades defender. if you don’t hear them being defended anymore that means i am deceased

#something something about them being linked forever #none of them being redeemable all of them being innocent #about this sister who was refused love all her life and who kept it all inside her to give it to her little brother #who loves him so much that the lines blur and we don't know if she's sister ; mother ; father ; or lover even #because who could love him more than she does ? #about this brother who grew up with nothing but rage #rage towards this man he was given to ; that man ready to sell him into slavery #rage towards his mother who got rid of him #rage even towards this father that he has to kill for despite never having known him #rage towards the gods who set up his own curse and let him suffer for a good long while #and apollo did not tell him that no holy ritual will ever truly wash all the blood from his hands #but despite all this rage has chosen to love #to love this sister that he only knew the name of #and who welcomed him with more warmth than three suns combined #who had more fight in her than him and who urged him to do them justice #that's why he did not really hesitate when he killed clytemnestra #because he had seen his sister - a princess - reduced to rags and is skin on bone #and about this friend who became the definition of devotion #who voluntarily chose to follow his friend whom he knew was damned #chose to share the burden of killing with him #and who followed him on every corner of the earth they went to #and i know those three took such gentle care of each other #i know that electra and pylades both refused to go to sleep while the other tends to orestes having his fits of delirium caused by erinyes #yes their hands are bloody #but it's the same blood that's running through their three hearts attached by a red string #and the red of blood looks a lot like the red of love #electre/oreste #classics

[cherrysnax]

Chevys sim looks just like them fr and like just looking at them confuses my brain in a good way!!

#I think my sim self is too hot but Chevy says it’s accurate so I’ll believe them #im happy with my sim thought because I even got the hyperpigmentation on my cheeks and my dark circles n my acne spots #im ehh on my skin tone because im inside all the time and im starting to get really pale but I think it’s accurate?? #I think I have cool undertones irl but idk abt in the sims #and Chevy has this beautiful brown skin tone that seems like it should have cool undertones but they actually have very warm undertones #and the way her nostrils poke up a bit was the part I wanted to do the most #I see a lot of ours ocs in us and well duh #but also our ocs have impacted the way we dress n shit #because of retro I have a buzzed head and lean towards more spikes chokers and bracelets even though I tend to prefer lacier accessories #Chevys locs have grown so much and I see a lot of Leo in the way they wanna style them #also the fingerless gloves #sorry thinking about our webcomic #when we first started dating I forgot how to draw because I was so happy #so to learn how to draw again I drew Chevy a lot #and even now when im bored I doodle a little chevy #i started drawing myself more when we started dating because we were long distance at first #so I wanted to draw us together. and now I can draw self portraits that actually look like me!! it’s crazy #and now we’re immortalized in the sims :’) #which is where so many of our show your spine characters were first made… crazy how things come full circle #im manifesting a show your spine game in the next 10 years on god

[kaiserkisser]

ouch haha i might have gotten my first fracture today

#🔮rambles~ #vent beneath pls ignore i need to get it out #everytime someone asked me i always replied with a dont worry im fine ill be better soon #like ouch. i have been. smiling through the pain the entire day. #acting as if im not in agony inside lol #i mean im probably making like a huge deal out of it im kinda embarassed lmao #but it hurts. #its in my foot too so like i cant even walk. literally. #ugh i cried a bit too wtf #and a tear or two slipped out IN FRONT OF THE TEACHER gosh i hate myself for that #thank god the lights were off so i dont think she noticed #but still #ugh. #i hate thissss the last time i experienced acute physical pain was around 3 years ago when i fell from the cycle haha #dhdhdgdhhdtdhsjsjshd #ik my mom thinks its probably a fracture bc the skin around has like swelled up. but shes trying to make me feel better #tysm for that mom #we'll be going to the doctors in the evening probably #sigh lets see how this works out bye #delete later

[louisetaylor]

I am not ugly inside. I am not ugly outside.

today I will be beautiful on the outside, as I am on the inside.

today I wear a pretty dress, and sweet perfume, and pretty makeup.

to show myself the beauty I deserve to feel, instead of the ugliness I don't.

(you are altogether beautiful, my love; there is no flaw in you)

(song of songs 4:7)

#i am gods greatest creation #i am not ugly inside or out #ocd #intrusive thoughts #moral ocd #tears are healing and good for your skin #self defense #self love #self care #religious trauma #not giving up on God #for the christians #for the agnostics #good omens fandom you might like this idk

[alisaint]

listening to the national is so dangerous because you'll be enjoying it right. because it's good music. and then . and then...... the Sadness gets u....... whadda hell how could this have happened ot Me...... why would they do that to me personally.

#what do you MEAN i keep coming back here where everything slipped but i will not spill my guts out #what do you fucking MEANNNNNN i'm having trouble inside my skin i'll try to keep my skeletons in i'll be a friend and a #fuck up and everything but i'll never be anything you ever want me to be!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT MR THE NATIONAL !!!!!!! #''i won't need any help to be lonely when you leave me'' <- you wretched beast whyy would u write that. and croon so sweetly #in my ear too. awful awful awful i love it i understand those religious zealots that say music is the work of the devil #and that's just one song. that i played on repeat for thirty minutes straight bc i like it a normal amount. they have more songs to torture #me with if u can believe it like.... wow . such evil in the world. packs up my soapbox and then goes and listens to them while #staring at the wall #trouble will find me is one of those albums that just like . it's just. How Did They Do That.... grinding my teeth to nubs while listening #as god intended. or whatever

[lilgynt]

israel being so cartoonishly evil would be funny if they weren’t so horrifyingly cartoonishly evil like just asking how do you come up with this shit but terrified

#personal #if this was in a book for idk. a evil nation or some shit id be like the author needs to tone it down it’s taking me out of the story #how insanely evil and uncoordinated and incompetent propaganda wise #definitely not incompetent with their weapons #this is but instead it’s an actual ‘country’ and killing real people #i saw a fetus scorched from how badly the woman crying them was burned from the inside out #then stealing the dead’s organs skin or even just their visage for propaganda about how THEYRE dying not those evil palestinians #they saw jamie lee used scared palestinian children in a photo saying god the poor israeli children and took notes #getting lured into attacks by the sound of children talking. luring soldiers by entricing them. with the idea of children to kill #literally banning people from expressing joy at the ceasefire or their loved ones being returned

[queerestqueertoeverqueer]

do you ever just. realise something your parents do is Not Normal and have to sit and process it for a minute because What The Fuck

#robin rants >:( #i just. what the fuck????? #so backstory. im south asian. i have brown skin. i live in the uk and my parents are immigrants #this does not stop them from being racist and anti-immigration don't you worry :DDDDDD/s #anyway to the point. #if i go in the sun for an extended period like most other people i tan somewhat which means that my skin becomes a slightly darker shade #my parents. my FUCKING parents #were (are??) so fucking racist. that since i was like maybe 5 or 6 years old. #shouted at me (and still do!!!) if i tan??????? #I'M NOT FUCKING ALLOWED IN THE SUN #BECAUSE GOD FORBID MY SKIN BE A SLIGHTLY DARKER SHADE OF BROWN #i'm not exaggerating i have been told the exact phrase 'you are not allowed in the sun' HUH????? #the reason i remembered this is bc i was thinking about sports days in primary school #and i remember when i had to sit inside and not go with everyone else when they went out #for like outdoor pe whatever #because my parents told the school that i MEDICALLY. *FOR MEDICAL REASONS*. HAD TO STAY OUT OF THE SUN #WHAT THE FUCK??????? #obviously they don't do that now bc i'd be old enough to fucking say something but #they still fucking shout at me if i tan #what the actual fuck #sorry i'm just realising how fucked up that is i haven't really. thought about it properly before #jesus christ #the amount of shit i haven't been allowed to do Just In Case I Tan

[dirt-str1der]

Love all the randos in y0 making fun of majima for being skinny calling him shit like stickman and other insulting things i forgot and they make sure to really cement that majima is your wireframe protagonist and then he takes off his shirt and hes literally normal shaped. Bullshit i want to see a scarecrow i dont like his beefy body , you hyped me up only to lie to me

#Yakuza loveblog #this is a loveblog becUse i likehim #my dog is curling up does anyone care ? does anyone care that ollie looks so cute and baby like ? ... #i hate it whenever majima puts on his glasses because i always want to peel his eyelid open #just had to survive a whole segment of him wearing those slutty translucent shades #and from the side you can see a bit of his left eye and like nghh i want to play with the loose skin so bad #i went back to edit my original post to say more and completely lost this train of thought #but like i would love for kiryu and majima to have drastically different body types. they already have incredibly different fighting styles #i want kiryu to be barrel shaped ........ i want majima to only eat properly when hes with someone he likes (which is never back in y0) #i made him run across the city to enter. resturant and eat two quail eggs #it was because i wasnt very injured but its still an extremely funny thing. to happen #now which would be sadder ... that majima literally cannot gain weight or that his appetite was completely shot after his time in the hole.. #i mean he was alwys kind of bony as seen from the flashback scenes .... i need him to be skinnier ............ #you should be able to wrap your arms around his waist twice over hands wrapped to your shoulders #you guys have no damn clue how much it turned me on to see his skinny little wrist just hanging limp in a manacle. enough space to clamp bot #in one cuff ...... his hands look huge compared to how tiny his wrists are ... need him to be skinnier ..!!! #im so obsessed with his body i want to get inside it and i dont care how .... i want to watch him eat ... i would like to feed him from my #hand and feel his shitty moustache graze my palm .. it was a pleasure to have your son on a leash #i want to see skin stretched tight over his shoulders i want to chew on him ... goe the. the last time i liked a skinny guy ws ... oh my god #it was all might

[ohmeowmy]

h

#i literally feel like paring my skin off with a peeler #self harm tw #suicide tw #i’ve been severely suicidal for the last 4 years but dear god it has never been as bad as it is now #everything is so hazy and yet so in focus at the same time i feel liek crying #i don’t even have the energy left to cry anymore. #i feel like the whole world is against me #i can feel the eyes on me and the whispers behind my back #it hurts so much #i’m so tired. tired of never being enough #never being happy #never being able to do a single thing right #whenever i disagree with my parents something burns inside me #i really don’t know how long i can take this #i’m sorry. im so sorry #i’m sorry i could never be perfect #i’m sorry i could never be enough #i’m sorry for tainting this earth with my existence #vent tw #ah. a painless death is the only kindness i wish to do myself #i’m tired. this is exhausting. i don’t want to live anymore.

[bunnyb34r]

Can my fibro fucking not for once??

#im sure it's not from the 5hr round trip drive yesterday and the 4hr shopping trip which was emotional for [redacted] reasons #no it can't be that 🧐🤔 #we got stuck on a senseless detour that we didnt even need to use and had to Google maps our way back to the road and the road closure was #easily EASILY fixed by just going down two side streets i was so pissed man #my brain was ping ponging the 'its so over/we're so back' emptional states the entire trip and it was so stressful #i had a lot of fun during the good brain moments though and we had a lot of fun especially in the stuffed animal area bc they had so many #fucked up looking penguins it was amazing sgdgdgdg and we saw funny birds at wendy's but god did the drive back kill me #i came inside and immediately ran to the couch i thought i was gonna die on the way home #marquilla #anyway my skin BURNS so bad 😭 i need to peel it off like a wetsuit shdggdgdgd

[hgduo]

GOD- c!Quackity in marnberg- Quackity in Manberg-!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You don't get it!!!!! It's that he was in love- head over heels for L'manburg and infatuated with his husband- but he wasn't just some naïve lovestruck dummy he was resentful- he was vice president- and so when those harsh eyes weren't on him he'd go behind his back and do those little rebellions and curse out his name- but fuck the second they were back on him- it melted away and he'd go from spitting threats to cheering promises that he can make it better- he can make this better- because god when it's good it's so nice and giving up means losing that- all of it- his love, his job, his home, his future- and the good always makes all the bad feel so worth it in the moment- but it didn't matter how much he cared because it got worse and worse right in front of him- and as much as he wanted so desperately too he was never given a chance to fix it- not with those eyes on him- and love mixed with fear- and GOD- JUST ALL OF IT- THE RESENT AND THE LOVE AND THE FEAR-

It all lead up to that moment in the White House... love, fear, and resentment... and resentment won and thank fucking god it did... but-

Even when he had enough he still thought about going back- if it wasn't for c!Tommy he would've gone back- because he was scared, both of c!Schlatt but also being alone- because he didn't want to give up and run away- because he still loved it despite all the bad- he would've gone back-

#okay all of this is to say that- when it comes to portraying c!Quackity in Manberg #you have to remember he was both so in love but also so annoyed- and that's so fucking important- #he'd go from being so heated and furious at his husband to joking around with him the next day- like nothing had happened- #its the fucking mixture of being so fucking done and knowing you deserve better but god... all the nice moments... #it makes you forget how bad it is and how painful it is #and it eats away at you... god- you don't see it immediately but- #c!Quackity post Manberg...... he's never gonna be that optimistic 19 year old jokester ever again #he lives through it but god... it rots you... #c!Quackity in Manberg just fucking breaks me... #yes I am aware I am talking about c!Q back when he was mostly a goofy little man who'd take off his clothes all the time BUT LIKE- #like..... honest to fucking god the lighthearted moments- the 'silly jokes' that get under his skin (because they're suppose to)... #how casual it is... thats what made it feel so real #( also please do NOT fucking read this as shippy... it's not suppose to be shippy at all... ) #( this isn't romance it's tragedy ) #theres just so much about c!Q in manberg- how it reflects him as a character and the way it captures the situation so much- #emotional and verbal abuse rot you inside out and you dont even notice it until you leave