#like...something will happen in the mcyt fandom and i'll just think 'oh! i remember something similar happening with dnp

[blocksruinedme]

Team Rancher (Solidaritek) for the ship ask meme, please?

Do I ship it? WHAT A COMPLICATED QUESTION.

I did, with all my heart and north of 50k words. In an ideal world, in my ideal world, I would still be shipping it. I can't explain how much I want to be okay with Ranchers. I feel like I got dumped by someone I was good friends with before we dated, who really wants to be friends again, but it hurts too much to think about them. (Has that happened recently in my life, yes, lol.) I hope someday we can be friends again, but I'm not good at getting over things.

I've been sitting on a "what's your brutally honest opinion of [ship]" ask since... the doc was last modified march 17. okay. It's a simple chronology

I watched Double Life, was not obsessed with mcyt, checked to see if people were writing it and was pleased. I wasn't even regularly watching their POVS.

I watched 3L and got sucked in hard by Flower Husbands. I started writing a bit multiverse series, and I needed Scott and Jimmy to talk about Jimmy/Tango having happened (they don't remember their pasts while in the life games), so I needed to play that out, and oops I was obsessed. (then smalletho happened in the same way with those people)

The crossover started, tango put those fucking hearts over the reunion scene (no one made him do that), I was possessed by tango/jimmy/fwhip and wrote and published my absolute most popular fic, it was real work to get through "oh i'll never get that many kudos again". (chart below to show you how damn popular it is compared to fic where i'm not actively sad about them). then i started publishing the sequel, and quickly went from "i'll never do a wip" to 'well just this once"

Jimmy built Tango the ranch and i got possessed again and wrote a long fic about it

i said "if that's all ever get, that's fine, this gave me so much to work with". and that would have been fine for a month long crossover, but i think it was 50 more days, every day wishing and hoping that today there would be something, that tango's ep would include the ranch, shit like that

And my heart turned bitter, guys.

This is my first unscripted/whatever fandom. The phrase "content creator" was not part of my life before. Maybe an actor sucked, but they didn't write the words they spoke, they were selling me a character completely distinct from them, it wasn't just that actor doing it all. Maybe a showrunner sucked, but so many people put their hearts and souls into their series.

But this? I don't know how to deal with this, I don't know how to separate annoyance with a creator from a character, not when they say all the same things and make the same weird noises and are, y'know, pretty much the same cause it's not like Tango's out there doing heavy roleplay. I just have no experience, and I can not express strongly enough how frustrated I am with myself that I'm so worked up over it. I was briefly annoyed with Scott about something around the same time (it's stupid, i'm not going to talk about it) and I worked SO HARD to not let it be a thing, i made myself watch scott content i knew made me happy, i was not going to let myself have an issue with scott, as we all know he's everywhere - and flower husbands will always be my first ship.

If I didn't have a god damned wip in tango pov I might be over this now. I would have been able to try and not think about it - I have ranchers pretty well filtered, but did you know filters don't catch text in an ask? They don't! But I thought about the wip every day, as it seemed harder and harder to imagine every writing tango pov, and it spiraled. It was very bad! I know I am allowed to drop a wip, but it doesn't line up with how I want to be conducting my affairs.

But then @that-tall-queer-bassist interrupted one of my wailing session to say they'd finish it. I have it all outlined, I had I think the first page written, and crucially i wrote the final conversation, the end of this damn series.

So now Limited Life is over, I don't watch much HC and it's sounds like Tango's just working on decked out all the time, so I can maybe get some space. I watched some 3rd Life last night and was doing find with Tango being around. Maybe I can CHILL OUT and someday I can go back to my Double Life wips, I know exactly what that Tango did and nothing can surprise me.

I would like to be chill again. I would like it so bad. I would like to un filter content on tumblr, and finish "Swinging Soulmates" which i think is actually fantastic, and put my ranchers fanart back in the frame. I'd like to do the main part of the larpers au and not just the side fics. (Though i wrote tango being around and being jimmy's bf in the smalletho morning after larper fic, i was very proud of myself.) Maybe after the wip is done, and I can exist neutrally. I don't know why the series is so popular, fwhip/tango had one more interaction ever (and fwhip wanting to trap him in a hole forever....) I guess it's fix it? I wish it felt like fix it for meeeeee

Ship It

What made you ship it? They were so dumb and sweet and they vibed together so well. So much chaos going on, but hey were 200% loyal and ready to do whatever the hell the other one wanted. I love that. Also, uh, Jimmy.

What are your favorite things about the ship? I want to explore most dynamics with Jimmy, right, I keep writing brand new ships and stuff? And Tango gave me opportunities other people don't, because, for better or worse, there's no one else like tango.

Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship? idk i'm a mess

Don’t Ship It

Why don’t you ship it? Because it hurts my heart

What would have made you like it? No crossover, or different crossover, or... just different stuff on the cc level

Despite not shipping it, do you have anything positive to say about it? Yeah man it's a beautiful ship. It's so fun, they're so fun, I was really pleased with what I could easily do with the sexual dynamics, i loved them so much

My kudos over time. (if anyone wants to make their own i can make a spreadsheet template and share my tricks and tips

Below the cut is what i had sitting in my drafts in march for brutally honest opinion.

My brutally honest opinion of Ranchers?

Double Life was great. I somehow didn’t get into them until I was writing a multiverse-whatever flower husbands fic and needed to fill in the blanks of “scott and jimmy are talking about DL and obviously they fucked” and i incepted myself into it. I loved it, I wrote a lot, loved art, commissioned art, etc.

Right now we’re on a little bit of a break. This ship, and specifically the crossover, is what got me publishing, not just writing, when I was possessed day one. “MY EX STOLE MY SOULMATE” is still my most popular fic by far, and the unfinished sequel is in second place. After jimmy’s second crossover ep, i got into a fic i loved very much, “love respect joy and ranchin’”. i put so much work and  love into it, i got a fwhimmy consult and a grian consult. I said after that ep that if that was all we got, i’d be okay, cause i’d gotten so much out of it via fic. But then the length of time of “not getting any more” was too long, I spent too long wishing and hoping, and my feelings went sour

#enh #not gonna tag this anything besides my own stuff #i guess you can reblog it if it's to say “this is similar to my experience” #answering asks #me

[gaycaelus]

Making another masterpost because I have went through many character arcs and feel its necessary

Heyo! Welcome to my blog.

you can call me cloud, cloudy, or little/lil cloud. But I mainly go by cloudy.

Here on this blog, I like undertale and mcyt. Also memes. Lots of memes. As a chaos enducing gremlin child it is how I thrive on this hellsite. Memes.

A little about mOi-

Hi yes hello its me, bone apple teeth gamers. 😎

I'm a minor, so don't be creepy. I'm pansexual and polysexual, she/they. :D I actually draw with my finger on just a generic Samsung tablet on IbispaintX.

I simp for many people, mainly fresh. He is very handsome. Do not debate with me on this. I also simp for uhh people from the dream smp.

You can find out who I simp for from the dream SMP on my side account, @the-chaos-den which is MCYT and dream SMP centered.

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My favorite color is blue, I like and do art. Writing too but I'm rlly insecure about my writing so I never post it lmao. I like talking to people!! If you ever wanna talk about dumb shit with me dont be afraid too!! I love talking about dumb shit. Its the bane of my existence.

I'm on this hellsite almost all day every day. So theres a 98 percent chance if you pm me I'll respond almost instantly. though if I dont, please Dont take it personally. Sometimes I just dont dont have the mental strength to form a response and keep a conversation going. Or I simply just don't want to. So please don't think I have anything against you!! :D

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Some important information

Whenever your responding to me, whether it be through a pm, a comment, a reblog- anything! Please dont just respond with "..." "._." "ok" and "-._-." they're kinda like uhh, small triggers, they send me into a small panic attack mode so id really appreciate it if you didnt do that :')

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If you're over the age of 30, lgtbphobic, a MAP (somebody who's attracted to minors), racist, ect. Please do not interact with me!! :D if you are any of the following I just listed please block me. Thank you.

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Please don't make fun of me or make small "jokes" about how I can be annoying, keyboard smash alot, the fandoms I like, my misspellings, or mistakes I may make on my art.

- I'm very self conscious about me being "annoying" and if people really like me or not. This Includes commenting about how I may vent alot. My apartment is toxic as shit, its going to happen. Please READ THE TAGS IN MY VENTS, I will put info there such as not to reblog it.

- keyboard smashing is just something I do for fun, and express emotions/stim, so just please don't.

- I used to be made fun of ALOT for liking "weird" fandoms, so please don't do that.

- just- don't make fun of the things I spell incorrectly. My parents do that enough. I'm very aware of the things I may spell wrong and will edit it quickly if I see I've spelled something wrong.

- giving constructive criticism is completely appreciated!! Just please dont go "hey you drew - insert something I drew - kinda weird/wrong lol" its honestly just kinda mean.

I say things like "lmao/lmfao LMAO/LMFAO" "IM CRYING" and stuff like that a lot, I keyboard smash alot too.

I stim physically and verbally! Meaning I kinda just say gibberish, or repeatedly say "oh my god" "nOoO" "sTOp-" "wHy-". And I sometimes flap my hands around or just slap/hit the closest thing next to me I know won't get damaged or break.

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My favorite food is takis. Best food ever. Fact.

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I have TERRIBLE memory!! I can remember things I did 4 years ago but not the thing you just told me to do. I also have snow vision syndrome and have a very hard time figuring out if people are joking or being serious. If you don't know what snow vision syndrome is just google it im too lazy to explain it rigohsbks.

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Uhh I think thats it. This is long anyways adkgvadjsh-

#will pin this for a while #masterpost