#lined up

[seeingivy]

“Sometimes Eren thought you were dead. And he knows that if you were, it was his hands that killed you.”

WHAT WAS THE REASON

WHAT WAS THE FUCKING REASOOOOOOOOOON

(also that ending i will bill your for my antidepressants this month)

I am crazy. deeply so.

that being said, no chapter has made me cry while writing thus far (I momentarily teared up writing the beach scene knowing what was following with that mitski song)

that being said. i've cried twice writing this one. my heart hurts.

#got the big 3 of #depressing songs #lined up #asks! #method acting

[postingcards]

interior of unknown cave rppc, ca. 1950s?

#postcard #postcards #caves #tunnels #lined up #rppc #1950s #they're like ghosts back there #them all looking at the camera makes the slightly unsettling vibe stronger i think. love it #and i'm guessing the decade from clothing but i am not suuuuper well-versed in mid century fashion #🤍

[wildarthings]

Applying for practicums and I don't have any interviews yet and I am considering death or biting if someone doesn't employ me soon.

#either works #it's only been three days #but some of my classmates #have one or two #interviews #lined up #terrifying

[prisonprocess]

If You’re Traveling on a Budget

15.

And what have we here? It’s the happy guests of a Carcel Tours resort, waiting to be told whether their reservations will be extended. We’re guessing that they will!  Our motto is: Carcel--The Tour that Never Ends!

When will YOUR tour begin?

#uniforms #gray #lined up

[nathantwong]

All Major Planets (and our moon) in one shot by nathantw Via Flickr: All 7 major planets in our solar system in one shot. Of course we live on Earth to round out the 8 major planets. Sorry Pluto, you're classified as a minor planet. The moon made a visit to every planet the past few day. Tomorrow will be Venus' turn. Neptune and Uranus are in red because they're too dim to see. Mercury required binoculars to see, but it was right under the label.

#Planets #Mercury #Venus #Mars #moon #luna #lunar #satellite #Jupiter #Uranus #major #Neptune #Saturn #lined up #aligned #nathantw #nathantwong #astrophotography #astronomy #event #flickr

[chloesimaginationthings]

Mike’s POV during the FNAF movie

#myart #chloesimagination #doodles #fnaf #mike schmidt #freddy fazbear #fnaf fanart #fnaf movie #five nights at freddy's #five night’s at Freddy’s snoot #mikes eyes just lines up with the nose #how can you be scared of that face

[inkskinned]

because sometimes there are invisible tests and invisible rules and you're just supposed to ... know the rule. someone you thought of as a friend asks you for book recommendations, so you give her a list of like 30 books, each with a brief blurb and why you like it. later, you find out she screenshotted the list and send it out to a group chat with the note: what an absolute freak can you believe this. you saw the responses: emojis where people are rolling over laughing. too much and obsessive and actually kind of creepy in the comments. you thought you'd been doing the right thing. she'd asked, right? an invisible rule: this is what happens when you get too excited.

you aren't supposed to laugh at your own jokes, so you don't, but then you're too serious. you're not supposed to be too loud, but then people say you're too quiet. you aren't supposed to get passionate about things, but then you're shy, boring. you aren't supposed to talk too much, but then people are mad when you're not good at replying.

you fold yourself into a prettier paper crane. since you never know what is "selfish" and what is "charity," you give yourself over, fully. you'd rather be empty and over-generous - you'd rather eat your own boundaries than have even one person believe that you're mean. since you don't know what the thing is that will make them hate you, you simply scrub yourself clean of any form of roughness. if you are perfect and smiling and funny, they can love you. if you are always there for them and never admit what's happening and never mention your past and never make them uncomfortable - you can make up for it. you can earn it.

don't fuck up. they're all testing you, always. they're tolerating you. whatever secret club happened, over a summer somewhere - during some activity you didn't get to attend - everyone else just... figured it out. like they got some kind of award or examination that allowed them to know how-to-be-normal. how to fit. and for the rest of your life, you've been playing catch-up. you've been trying to prove that - haha! you get it! that the joke they're telling, the people they are, the manual they got- yeah, you've totally read it.

if you can just divide yourself in two - the lovable one, and the one that is you - you can do this. you can walk the line. they can laugh and accept you. if you are always-balanced, never burdensome, a delight to have in class, champagne and glittering and never gawky or florescent or god-forbid cringe: you can get away with it.

you stare at your therapist, whom you can make jokes with, and who laughs at your jokes, because you are so fucking good at people-pleasing. you smile at her, and she asks you how you're doing, and you automatically say i'm good, thanks, how are you? while the answer swims somewhere in your little lizard brain:

how long have you been doing this now? mastering the art of your body and mind like you're piloting a puppet. has it worked? what do you mean that all you feel is... just exhausted. pick yourself up, the tightrope has no net. after all, you're cheating, somehow, but nobody seems to know you actually flunked the test. it's working!

aren't you happy yet?

#almost wrote the champagne line as ''effervescent'' but legit could not write it without saying ''effervescent like a snail'' #ah tumblr... #writeblr #warm up #idk . having trouble writing rn #ps i don't like to talk about it . it is my medical information. but before you ask. yes this is about being on the spectrum #i really don't like when ppl make my writing about how im [whatever ID]. i want it to ring true for the people who it rings true for #i don't want it to be like ''awwwww look at this person!!! she's the EXCEPTION!!! :)" ..... #no.... not really..... #idk something gross happens whenever i admit to certain conditions and i turn into like inspiration p*rnography #like yes they actually let us use keyboards these days #furthermore i just... dont feel comfortable talking about this part of me. i had too bad of a childhood. adhd is one thing... #this one im like. still coming to terms with. which is like. my own journey. #idk. just please be kind. some things are more private than others. this one feels private to me. #i do not know how to help others w/this . and i do not know how to help myself. i will talk about it if im ever ready. idk if that will #actually ever happen #ty in advance i love u im kissing you we are kissing somewhere on the spectrum

[thelostmoongazer]

pomnipomnipomnipomnipomnipomipominpomipipmp,,immpio,iomiopsicdompsiop

#the amazing digital circus #tadc #tadc pomni #tadc fanart #tadc jax #pomni #part of my necessary phycological needs include putting character in a cute lil fashion line up #moon art #/ drugs

[brothertedd]

#lined up #photography #flickr #jrej

[postingcards]

"dead sea" in mammoth cave linen postcard ca. 1940s

#postcard #postcards #caves #mammoth cave #kentucky #lined up #linen #1940s

[jaythejester]

FIVE..

Now five..

#Demantoid #steven universe #Ocs #lined up #gem galaxies

[remages]

Gaggle of Geese

Specifically, Canadian geese. Went to walk by the beach at high tide, on a cold winter morning, under diffused light through gauzy clouds. I noticed a group of random geese, which magically lined up, queued up, and aligned with the distant causeway bridge behind them… Wrote a haiku about them here. Camera: iPhone 15 ProMaxEditing: Hipstamatic iPhone AppPhotographer: Russ Murray aka…

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#canada goose #geese #lined up #photograph #rem #remages #russ murray #russell e murray #water #waterfowl #winter

[believing-is-seeing]

All in a row

Florida

December 2023

#photography #all in a row #Houses #lined up #December 2023

[newttxt]

leashes for zosan

#one piece #zoro #sanji #zosan #nico robin #usopp #ive had this comic sketched for… probably months. but i finally lined and finished it!! #eesh… three comics in three days… this rate is NOT sustainable #im just incapable of not thinking about one piece dkfkdkkckdkc #i normally dont draw at all nov-feb bc i feel unmotivated and sad but hey!! not this year!! skckdkckdkkcdk #anyway i have the nonblurry zoro. featuring more of his uhhh body. but thats not going up here any time soon

[ambrosiagourmet]

I think one of the biggest tragedies of Laios & Falin and their relationship is how much his actions impact her life. But like. Specifically how much they WOULDN’T impact her life as much if they weren’t both stuck in such a shitty abusive situation.

This part of the Falin-tries-makeup daydream hour comic is what got me thinking about it again because truly it just... it seems like such a like an offhand comment that I'm sure Laios didn't mean to be cruel or anything. That's just like. A little kid not thinking about what they are saying. ESPECIALLY when the kid in question is Laios.

But man they depended on each other SO much as kids. Too much. It really feels like they didn't have any other source of positive reinforcement, or anyone else to share themselves with. So of course an offhand comment like that has a huge impact on Falin.

Or this little bit from one of the flashbacks:

This tears me apart. Do you think it tears him apart to think about? I think it does. I think Laios holds every small failure to care for Falin against himself.

And then there's the Bigger stuff. The way that him coping with his own trauma ended up impacting her.

Like his interest in monsters. Like him going to find a ghost, and accidentally revealing Falin's magic to the whole village in the process.

Like him needing to leave. And leaving her behind.

He shaped her life so much, and he carries so much guilt for it. And again, there should have been other people there to help. The same things that made Laios need to leave home are the things that made his leaving so hard on Falin. She ate alone after that. She shouldn't have had to eat alone just because Laios wasn't there.

She was 9 when he left for school, and he was 11.

Nine. And Laios feels like he failed her because he didn't stand by her through this better. As an eleven year old.

Both of these kids deserved so much better from the world.

#dunmeshi analysis #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #falin touden #laios touden #dungeon meshi spoilers #AND this isn't even getting into her leaving the academy & how much it seems like that was directly tied to how poorly he was doing #there's a comic in the adventurer's bible where marcille is like 'yeah she had a job lined up and everything' #and like. do you think he feels bad for that too #like he wrecked her life by leaving #and wrecked her life by showing up #what do you even do at that point. if you feel like a failed protector when you are away & and a burden when you return #unable to make yourself accept. unable to make yourself resist #Laios strongest moment is when he lets himself accept that. the contradiction of his life & his relationship with Falin #that he has to kill her to save her #as a small note this came out a little more focused on Laios' POV with this stuff but Falin's experience of it is v important to me too #didn't mean to sideline her but her feelings about stuff are more speculative and probably need a post of their own

[cemeterything]

sleeping with plushes is humiliating because they're the biggest snitches on your fucked up sleep acrobatics. every night i go to bed with a plush critter in my arms and every morning i wake up and they've somehow migrated to face the wall in shame like this

#🐉 #one time i woke up and they were all lined up against the wall like they were awaiting execution by firing squad