#lineless is growing on me

[reyryz]

my parting gift as school starts back up... when i say i have a lot of kagakuro wips i am NOT joking.

#the one based off that official art is NEVER getting done #(the second to last one) #imma be real w u #unless i start it from scratch #bc i just CANT get kurokos face down #but u guys deserve to see them in third year #bc the height difference grows smaller #kagakuro brainrot. is immense. it has been. SO immense #kagakuro showing off their matching hoop helix piercing. #throws up. #also yes. last one is nba kagakuro #also kuroko isnt taller than kagami hes just sittin on like a counter or smth #the light and shadow one (first) is the BANE of my existence #bc i wanted lineless lolll #but its coming along #kagamis the light!!! kurokos the shadow!!! #seirin had orange shirts in the manga which is rlly funny to me #uh. one and two r first year. third is second year. four and five r third year. and last is nba #if i was smart id slap background colors on all the other wips #but unfortunately.....

[the-pyooster]

OK, now that the "sketchy" style is growing on me, I have three ways I draw:

Lineless

Sketchy

Normal???? Idk what to call it

#pyoo's doodles #lbp #little big planet #littlebigplanet #lbp fanart #sackboy #lbp sackboy

[entguarde]

lupcretia making out in vanished or uncanny... ur call :3

I know we’ll never grow old together // ‘Cause you’ll never grow old to me

[Description: A lineless digital illustration of Lucretia and Lup from The Adventure Zone in a palette of purple, red, pink and yellow.

Lucretia is a young Black woman with shoulder-length ombré locs in a partial bun. She is wearing a yellow tank top with white pants, and has a small golden earring.

Lup is a slim elf woman with medium toned skin. She has dark, shoulder-length wavy hair that is dyed at the tips to resemble flames. She has a long, lion-like tail, but the tuft at the tip isn’t dyed. She is wearing a dark top and lighter shorts.

The two are depicted mid-kiss, with Lup sitting on a bed and Lucretia gently wrapping her arms around her shoulders and leaning in. They are staring at each other wistfully, and both are blushing. Lup’s back is facing the camera at an angle, and Lucretia is gently putting a strand of hair behind the former’s ear.

The background is a gradient of pink going into a darker purple. End description.]

#ent’s art #asked and answered #lupcretia #taz balance #lucretia taz #lup taaco #the adventure zone #the adventure zone balance #watch robin fucking lose it in three two one

[meltypancake]

hellooo!! i love your art sm!! do you have any tips on how to study something effectively? 🤔 how do you approach studying something for your art?

hi anon!! thank you so much 🥹and that's a really good question!

there's a lot of things that can go into it, since it will depend on what kind of artist you are - but here are some general things i look out for.

make sure the study somehow ties back into your personal work. for example, while drawing a character i'll notice that i'm struggling with a certain hand pose, so afterwards i will look up the same or similiar hand refs and do a couple studies of them. i'd approach the study like this: draw a hand based on the reference, then see if there's anything off about it. draw it again with the new knowledge you've gained. try to be careful and put your lines down accurately, since it's less about speed but about understanding the structure. finally, apply it to your personal work. this method works best for me, since it stops me from thinking "i should learn anatomy" which isn't that helpful, but lets me pinpoint something specific i'd like to learn about.

ultimately, it's about keeping the practice sustainable. it can be easy to lose your way when remembering all the things you have yet to learn (perspective, figures, muscles, colors etc.) and you end up frantically studying and studying without a clear goal except "getting good". i know the sentence "you need to practice" gets thrown around a lot, and i get where it's coming from, but i don't find it very helpful. art can be anything you want it to be, and for me, having fun with it and finding joy is a huge part of it. so if you're studying and dreading every second of it, it'll be hard to keep it up in the long term and it might even sour your relationship with your art. so a couple things you could do to study, but also have fun: - figure out what kind of art you want to do. legit, write it down somewhere and think about it. do you prefer more graphic art? more painterly and textured? bold lines, thin lines, lineless? what kinds of artists do you admire (though loving a certain art style doesn't automatically mean you would enjoy their process either!) do you prefer monochrome or greyscale or color? - depending on what kind of art you want to create, choose what you want your studies to focus on. if you just wanna draw everyone in super big poofy dresses, you don't need anatomy nearly as much as someone who's into drawing buff ladies in tanktops! - instead of thinking "i will get good at perspective and then i get to have fun drawing my blorbos", just draw your blorbos in an environment with perspective! you don't need to separate your studies from your personal art at all - you can combine them, having fun and learning from them at the same time. if it doesn't work out the way you wanted it to, set it aside, let it marinate, and try again if you like.

and if something is really hard to do, it just means your brain is changing, growing, adapting, OVERCOMING!! and it'll be a little easier the next time around :]

i hope this helped a little! feel free to hop into my inbox again if anything was unclear. hope you have a great weekend! <3

#waffle (study tag) #ask

[mintaii]

TEACH ME YOUR WAYS O' GLORIOUS ONE!!! Ahem, sorry. Any tips for drawing beautiful linless? trying to be like you when I grow up ❤️

SLFJSLKFJSLKFJ??????

a tip i have for drawing lineless is using linework as training wheels LOL

u can sort of see it in my older work, but i used a blend of linework in certain areas of pieces to assist in illustrating form and shape until i eventually felt comfortable with going completely hands off with linework. it's kind of like learning how to ride a bicycle.

i hope that helps!

#ask mintaii

[m1lkt00th]

YES I DREW MORE OF THEM RAHHH

I subscribe to Tall Ass Nightmare with Short Ass Error and Short Ass Nightmare with Tall Ass Error respectively but i CANNOT remove nightmare just. picking people up??? because of course theyre strong as fuck you think them being a threat is a joke??

Also error :smile: i LOVE the colours I chose for them and it honestly boggles me how much i do... i want to draw them more even if the lineless style choice takes an hour off of my life 💔💔

If you're asking about error's haphephobia.... they uh.... actually wait. they've worked on controlling the fear or at least growing used to touch regularly ever since getting with nightmare. but i guess you can just imagine that they fall to the floor violently after this

Nightmare -> Joku Error -> CQ/CrayonQueen

#imagine posting #my art #art #errormare #error sans #nightmare sans #literally ship art what #got a little too silly #error!sans #error's colours are so... edible i cannot explain it #queue #i love drafting posts at like. morning #why is errormare the only thing i can draw #chibi style #background test #tooth art

[sillybruja]

you know what ? f u c k a n y b o d y who contributed to this bullshit that aging is some fucking problem. fuck ANYONE who made any of us feel like gray/white hairs, wrinkles, smile lines, acne, etc. are negative things. I DESPISE ANYONE who can genuinely sit there & decide a person is no longer "valuable" because they are aging.

y'know what? congratu-fucking-lations for all the gray hairs growing in your hair, your beards, your chins, your side burns. How PROUD I am of you that you get to have smile lines and forehead creases because that tells me you've had some of the best, funniest, memorable moments of your life.

I am sick of feeling like I need to be ashamed of myself for aging. Of feeling like not only my looks define me, but also being pushed to believe that I cannot offer my think pieces or any value because I'm "getting older".

Some of us do not get to make it to 30.

Some of us didn't even get to make it to 20.

Instead of constantly shaming and trying to twist and turn ourselves into tiny, perfect, lineless and wrinkleless fragments of ourselves, we should be proud that we get to age.

Aging is a privilege. Aging is beautiful. Fuck anybody who says otherwise.

#erys ramblings #i mean ffs #aging #is beautiful #im sick of tearing myself apart over some bs fake standard #im tired of other men and women and theys and thems doing the same #life is too short to hate ourselves ffr

[clutchpowers]

Sooooo... i wanted to stick this little rambly thing at the bottom of the redraw but it would have made it look UGLY so im doing this separately... just wanna talk about the whole thing and What Not.

TLDR: its been a slash positive ride thats been worth it to try "something new" every year and my favorite piece out of all of them is the 9th. also for the curious heres the comparison of the 5th anni piece to the recent one (2018 -> 2023)

anyway. personal post time.

oh where to begin *rocks on my rocking chair* i guess it would be with the 5th anniversary piece...at the time it had been a long while since i did lineless art and i thought it would be cool to try it again for that one so i did by redrawing an old piece from 2014... that was the first "finished piece" i made of Them. i think i even made it into a wallpaper for myself lmao. anyway after i posted it i was like "aw man i should draw something every year until the 10th" but i thought yeah right. im going to forget next year like the idiot i am. but i Some How managed to do one every year... th worms got me... i honestly didnt think id make it all the way to the 10th but i did!! AND WITHOUT MISSING A DAY EXCEPT FOR THE 7TH WHERE I WAS A WEEK LATE???? UNREAL especially when fun fact! every year i had no idea what i wanted to do! all i knew for sure is that i wanted each piece to be out of my comfot zone to push me to do something a little different. unfortunately the subjects tm where always the same so it feels a little. samey. but these are my celebratory posts I GET TO ONLY POST ABOUT THE OTP SUPER BLORBOS OF ALL TIME

the 6th anniversary was a redraw of that one scene. you know the one. the helicopter one. fucking hate that scene btw it actually causes me psychic damage i cant watch with the audio or ill scream. but it is my favorite scene of mine despite all the horrors it causes <3 and i wanted to redraw it as if it was a cartoon... like i had taken screencaps from the lcu cartoon in my head. i still remember the backgrounds being such a pain in the ass. honestly id like to go back and redo this one one day too or do something similar to the concept because its a fun one that i always saw done growing up and i wanted to try it myself.

for the 7th anniversary you can see the turn.. no more humans... return to lego... i was getting a little more confident in drawing them in the lego form so i did another redraw this time with the ending!! honestly i still like this one and how it looks even with how late it was but i wanted to test my confidence and do a real True and Finished piece with COLORED LINES and EVERYTHING!!!!! im glad i ended up taking the turn because for the LONGEST TIME i wanted to try and draw them as lego so bad because all i did was draw them as humans and its funny because now its the exact opposite. glad this piece was kinda the solidification in my head that yeah okay im a bit better at drawing the stylized lego toy now i can keep drawing them like this without feeling like im going to want to delete this in 2 weeks.

the 8th anniversary one is so weird. somewhere toward the beginning of the year it got into my head that i wanted to do a comic of them but time/school would have gotten in the way so i ended up opting for a page. another redraw of the ending scene which honestly out of all of them this is my least favorite one and its solely because its all so off. i def could have formated it better so the background shot doesnt take up the entire fucking page but then again im not a comic guy and this was my first time so the layout was bound to look HORRID but this is something id like to come back to ive had the idea of making like a genuine short comic about them since FOREVER and now that im a bit more experienced (lying) i would like to make one day!!!! just gotta stop getting caught up in my scripts!! and going in circles!! Because im obviously not a writer and i keep getting first-hand embarrassment from these!! but ill get over it one day lol.

OH THE 9TH ANNIVERSARY PIECE MY BELOVED. ONE OF MY FAVORITE PIECES ACTUALLY i love this stupid thing so much you have no idea.i know its re-using lineless but i just loved the idea of what it would look like lineless AND IT CAME OUT SO PERFECT I LOVE IT SO MUCH obv it needs a few touch-ups so the main issues dont stand out to me but god. i love this piece so much. idk what came out of me to make this but its so good ill never get over it. and the little lego them as a cake topper ITS JUST SO CUTE I DONT HAVE MUCH TO SAY OTHER THAN I LOVE THIS SO MUCH SORRY

finally. the 10th anniversary piece. oh my god. okay. i need everyone to understand this. i had woken up with this fucking Unbearable pounding headache that was trying to kill me. my body the entire day wanted me to stop and lie down, but last night i was already done with a good chunk of it and all i had to do that day was finish some lines and the coloring?? i literally don't remember all i remember is my body actively trying to shut down and force me to stop and sleep which i took a nap? didnt help. so i said fuck it im finishing this. i was. an entire goddamn corpse arched over my laptop. i was so delirious the entire time its a fucking miracle it even came out as good as it did but honestly. i still hate how it fucking looks. like you can TELL when i gave up (the shading) and it sticks out like a sore fucking thumb to me and it pisses me off because i knew i could have done so much better if i wasnt being stricken down by gods hand and his every attempt to get me to rest. idk like im generally proud ot it, with this one i wanted to go out with a bang tm so i tried to draw every important and relevant character instead of ALL of them like I was originally planning LMAO but ah well. maybe one day when im faster at drawing. this one i defiantly wanna go back and touch up but i everytime i open the file i can see 40 more things wrong with it and it drives me nuts. so ill just have to wait for when im ready. i guess.

can i just say though. the improvement is crazy. it always catches me off guard because tbh i uh. dont like my own art. im getting better at not fucking hating it because i can pinpoint everything wrong with it but whenever i see the side by sides it always surprises me. i always dont think im improving but then i see it and its like wow i really am getting better! i still suck at 3000 things but im getting better! and its overall just a nice thing to see after having drawn them for as long as i have... the power of the worms is strong and has ruined my brain...... speaking of i know ive said a few times that i fucking hate certain pieces, not just LCU related ones but almost anything i post, but if you love them and are able to look at them with a twinkle in your eye then thank you. genuinely. i honestly love looking over the tags of people exploding and saying nice things. it warms my cold little heart and im glad there are people out there that genuinely love some of the things what i do! even if its just fanart and its just their blorbo. thank you for sticking around even tho all i do is draw my otp super blorbos :'^) this game means the world to me and im glad like more than 2 people wanna spread it around.

to wrap back around to the anniversary stuff and speaking of big love to the people out there THE FREAKING EPIC ZINE i was just a small thing but it came out amazing even for how small it was thank you to the contributors and thank you to everyone whos downloaded it!! its still getting the occasional and i love getting the notif in my email about it. i love that there are still people out there who wanna see it and all the hard work everyone put into it to celebrate the games 10th just thank you again i really does mean alot to me ALSO IF YOU HAVENT CHECKED IT OUT PLEASE DO IT IS 100% WORK YOUR TIME AND ITS DIGITAL WITH PRINT AT HOME STICKERS AND YOU CAN KEEP IT AND LOOK AT IT FOREVER

uh to end this off....would I like to do this again..... I mean I kinda am? by that i mean ill do the big numbers (15, 20, 25, 30, 40, etc) till the day i freaking die!!!! but yeah no countdown stuff ever again!!!!! sorry :^( it was super fun to do though!!!! and im glad i did it that piece is the conclusion to the whole thing but that doesnt mean ill stop drawing them. duh. theyre my characters now! but heres to many more anniversaries and to hopefully another game! or to just see them again in any other lego media! or even better... a mischaracterized cameo in ninjago!

#long ass post lmao congrats if you actually read it all and made it to the bottom :'^) #i typed this all out yesterday thats how i got it out so quick lol

[bintage-veef]

Hey guys, lets talk about smthm real quick. I got into mcyt in august of 2021, and two months later I started drawing fanart.

This was my very first piece, and it's heavily influenced by the fact that I was just leaving the jse and markiplier egos fandom. I didn't like it very much, but I was happy to begin experimenting with lighting (something I still shy away from today.)

I drew this one very shortly after (it's Tango, don't ask me what my design idea was) amd I loved it! And I'm still glad I drew it, I can see the things it began to teach me, but the pride in it isn't there anymore.

At some point, this was one of my favorite drawings I did. And I still really like the sketch! However, I still would grow and see the critiques others had from here. I don't remember much from this time, so I don't have much else to say.

At some point I got to this (the steps now are a bit all over the place, long gaps, back and forths between art styles) and then I refined this sketch style! It was low energy but it worked! This is a begginning example but, there were some better ones too.

Such as this! And this is about when I started getting more consistent designs, too, and took on a different style of shading that ended up staying! Very shortly after, I begin studying different body types and aging and the like.

Then there was the conscious descision to go lineless. This here was the first attempt, and it has room for improvement. This style, still has adapted, but let's look at a favorite piece from this (that isn't super complex)

Now the pen i used for this is a bit different in all honesty because I switched devices now, as up until this point every single one of these had been drawn on a phone that was cracked to all hell, but the general rules to it are the same, same kind of shading, and such. This piece also showcases a bit of my experimentation with body types. I'd also go as far as to say this is my last drawing in that style.

And most recently, we have this. While it's still a variation and a similar style, there are notable differences. It, while still holding true to anatomy on a level, has a cartoonish aspect that wasn't there before, with differences in the shading. I enjoy this style immensly and I thought just my journey in this fandom was interesting. I'd take you through my entire art journey, but most of those are signed with legal names.

If there's anything to take away from this, it's that if you aren't happy with it now, keep going, it does work. And if you are happy, keep going amyways, who knows, maybe you'll improve drastically too. Just keep going, and one day you'll pause and be blown away by what you can do now.

#grian #mumbo jumbo #vintagebeef #tangotek #pearlescentmoon #goodtimeswithscar #welsknight #ijevin #a journey #art progress

[sketchderps]

When did you start liking Tangled the Series and what about it stuck out to you?

aaa sorry if this is a late response I'm not active on here anymore and never check these things (I also haven't updated in like. Forever. But I'm also @ sketchderps on IG and Twitter where I do post my art frequently still!)

Anyway!! Re: your actual question, I started watching the Tangled series when it was first airing and kept up with it in real time. Rapunzel was my fave disney princess when Tangled came out (it was Jasmine growing up though), and I super fell in love with the lineless art style, which has since inspired a lot of my art. But art aside there were so many reasons I fell in love with the show. I loved how it expanded upon Rapunzel's story, I loved the characters and seeing a lead couple in a (mostly) drama free healthy relationship, the music is amazing (I was watching it back to back at one point with Galavant and it blew my mind Alan Menken wrote all of that). I'm also super into d&d stuff and Tangled's s2 felt so much like an adventuring party to me.

So uhh yeah hopefully that answers your question? I'm a storyboard artist professionally and something like Tangled would be a dream show for me to work on. I love to board heavy hitting character moments and action/adventure stuff, and of course, just drawing Disney princess characters in general

[scribble-hell]

Undertale September Day 22: Business Lady, Muffet (and Muffin)

I hate spiders to my very core, but Muffet is starting to grow on me (despite her appetite for humans). Had fun with a lineless style and the posing. I would do anything for a spider donut.

#my art #undertale #muffet #muffet undertale #muffins and tea make for a perfect lunch #undertale september #undertaleseptember

[rowdy-revenant]

When I was just a little lad or so me mammy told me (Away haul away, we'll haul away Joe) That if I didn't kiss the girls me lips would grow a-moldy (Away haul away, we'll haul away Joe)

Tried something different than my usual style with some lineless work and watercolour brushes (partially inspired by @nobodys-baby-now‘s art). I’m so excited to play Silas again!

#silas grymn #my characters #my art #the hair was a bitch so shade but satisfying once I figured it out

[fainthedcherry]

Felt like posting something personal today! Yesterday I was too busy working on something more important LOL. I know I made this sketch 2 years ago approximately by now but...My 2020 art was honestly pretty aight. Still not sure if I'll post my older art here or not, but I've been contempt with my art since 2020, when I broke through my comfort zone and just reformed my style, lol.

I hope to grow here hopefully a more positive space, than the last one turning out unsuccessful for me..I honestly quite like Tumblr so far! I should've made an account already when I was 16, imho, I was just intimidated by the UI being a lil confusing before LOL. It's pretty great, that you can just see the raw posts without anything getting in the way. It lets me also focus on the content posted from other accounts I follow so far and then tune back out immediately and go back to work. I appreciate that you can disable endless scrolling, very good for my productivity in the future! :)

I'm cooking up an experimental lineless piece next of one of my favourite characters I own yet again. Hopefully you'll like it just as much as I am already, not even done and quite contempt is a rare emotion in my art!

#artwork #art #artists on tumblr #character art #digital art #my art #original art #my oc art #drawings #new artist #new on tumblr #new on here #oc #oc artwork #oc art tag #original character #sonic oc #sth #sonic the hedgehog #sonic artist #sonic fan character #sonic fanbase #sonic fankid #sketch #colored art #colored sketch #forgive the many tags lol #my sona #sona stuff #anthro

[sunnetrolls]

1, 2, 6, 8, 12, and 22!

im doing urs first. just for fun

my god holy moly this got so long readmore time

1. Show your most recent wip

pspspspps [waves the prospect of ship art in front of you] if you do artfight i'll draw concordia ex machina next

2. 5 favourites of your own work?

FIVE? i don't draw that much!!! hold on i'll go browse

In no particular order! Veylin's bust painting is my fav ive done of any of those, i'm still rlly proud of nohope and planhz's sprites, i reaaaaaally love how i did the color and overlays on that abby headshot, and the dogy is an artfight attack from last year that is everything i love about my older lineless art style!!!

6. Which artists inspire you right now?

Alright buckle up folks this is a longer one

So I'm gonna answer this in two parts basically. The first part is artists that inspired me to start drawing what I like, especially fantrolls-- so a lot of my friends really!! Wanting to be in this community is what made me start actually doing art as something I was passionate about!!!!! The second part is actually twitter artists that inspired me to actually renovate my art style, try new things, and actually grow as an artist in ways that I really just never did here before.

I know I'm gonna forget a lot of people but the ones that come to mind right away for people who had an Impact on me back in the day are !!U!! gabriel 8bit-mau5, newt indig0trolls, my friend max who's no longer in the community, my friend lumiet who doesn't even do fantrolls but is really cool, and god a lot of old blogs whos muns are just gone now..................... wistful sigh :(

BUUUUUT as for artists who made me want to actually grow again in my. Wait hold on

[sets out a sign that says CRINGE WARNING -- I LIKED DSMP IN LATE 2020-EARLY TO MID 2021]

Okay now that that's out of the way! Some of the artists who made me actually want to learn and change and GROW again are giraffeleggos, mielzy_png, and WolfyTheWitch on twt :3 Mielzy especially is an art streamer who has a huge focus on being introspective and taking criticism and wanting to grow and always be improving in a direction they want. Hella cool to see someone be like, never satisfied in a "i love art and drawing so i want to grow and do it as well as i can as a respect for the craft" type of way. I don't think any of these guys except for Wolfy are actually into dsmp anymore but when I got into their content they were all dsmp fanartists so.

Okay this is really long actually so I'll quit there. Wait no actually here's a list of a handful of folks whose art inspires me to keep learning nowadays (also mostly all my friends)-- nero ramgodd, roe roetrolls, dami ask-the-troll-boys, greg lordtonic, and an extra special shoutout to chase sasster for making me want to write again. I just wanna do the cool art stuff like my really awesome friends so bad yall

8. What do you like most about your own work?

Hrmmmmmmmmmmm okay this one is tough bc both I wanna say "nothing bc I have a lot of strengths" and "nothing bc there's always room for me to grow and improve so even my best strengths aren't as good as they could and will eventually be"

But like. I really like how I paint actually

12. Show your favourite drawing from this year

FROM THIS YEAR.... ok let's comb thru my art tag

Oh wait easy simple. The whole fuckin aliquid ex nihilo comic. That took me so goddamn long but it was a labor of love and I desperately want to do more 1-page song comics like that but unfortunately they take me like 2 weeks if I do full lineart and that shit sucks

There are a lot of things I want to redo on it that are also things I redid in the process of making this comic but as is the nature of being so used to drawing sprites I forget how to draw people in actual poses and also interacting with things. I still think overall just because also of how funky I got with the coloring, framing, the fact that this is the first comic ive ever planned and fully completed ever, etc. that this one's my fav thing I've drawn in 2022 thus far

22. When is your prime time to work on your art?

Nighttime and also whenever I'm medicated LMAO I can NEVER focus on drawing if I'm off my meds idk how I did it before

#sunne speaks #this is so fucking loooooooooooong my bad

[keefwho]

April 09 - 2024 Tuesday

11:19pm

4/10

This morning I cleaned my toilet like I said. I spent a chunk of time figuring out that my spray bottle can't spray vinegar for some reason. I took my shower and made breakfast stir fry again with sausage this time.

For work I warmed up with rabbit sketches. I picked a sort of relevant animal to start practicing since I want to get better at drawing furries in general. I work on 57's commission and it got stressful at the end because he wants me to go above and beyond with the fluids. Its difficult and time consuming.

Before lunch I got in VR and was searching for a cozy wooden bathhouse world to do some writing in. I couldn't find one and settled for a more grand, stone bathhouse. I spent some time writing some thoughts down that I need to communicate soon. For lunch I made a chow mien ramen bowl in the pan with my own mixed vegetables and an applesauce.

The request today happened to be for DS on Unicorn Day of all days and it wasn't even rigged. I did a quick little lineless doodle after looking around for inspiration. Then I started working on my own stuff for an hour. DV wanted to call me while I worked to get some things off his chest regarding that SN person of his. He pointed out some things to me that kinda got me upset but he definitely didn't mean to. I listened to him until he had to go eat and I finished up my work. Then I finished BR's NSFW avatar edit before quitting for the day.

I spent my evening poking around Twitter and watching Twitch. I didn't do much of note. I was mostly waiting for DS since we were gonna do a furry tier list. When she became free, we did that and a couple other tier lists while she job searched. I took great enjoyment doing a live Cartoon Male Hotties list but it was too long for us to finish.

In bed we did puzzles and jumped straight to KH2 since it was so late. I only got a little further in Hallow Bastion. After she was asleep, I had some 'me time' I'm ashamed about because I keep fantasizing about scenarios where I'm put down. It's fun every now and then but continuing to do it has been hurting my self esteem. It seems easy enough to just think of something else but it's hard when I don't even feel worth it in my own fantasies.

~~~

Today was going well until the afternoon. Then I started thinking about some things and spiraling a little bit. And feeling really shitty about my life in general. I realize I'm not proud of any period of my life prior to maybe 2 years ago. I think usually when I say I hate myself, I hate past me. There really is not much to like about how I was back then. I REALLY hate that old me. I am chock full of regret.

On the opposite side I've been thinking about how I really do deserve someone that makes me feel wanted and is heal over heels for me just like I am for them. Its also just starting to seem possible that I could even accept a reality like that. Slowly growing my self worth is opening up a lot of possibilities.

#journal #diary

[sannionette]

any like ....... advice for line drawing s??? the lineless styles growing kinda old on me but i dont want a line style thats too flat in colour either. i also want a good shading balance that goes with the lineart without being too contrast-y