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artificialenvy · 3 years

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@currynahh / @currynya is a shitty person.

I am making this post because I refuse to let them throw around accusations that I'm a predator.

Reasons I believe they are shitty:

I have ADHD, but I'll try not to derail any points.

After not seeing my spouse since Highschool, they invited them to a discord server. I was brought along and given a "+1" role, as in "This person isn't one of us, just @twiranux 's +1. I wouldn't have had a problem with that if it didn't create and "In group" and "out group" where the people in the ingroup treated the +1 role as "not a friend, just a +1."

They have a room for venting in that server, as a lot of people do. I have seen people typing in there on three occasions and decided not to interrupt them for my own needs, however the time I got to start typing in there and posted a couple of messages to indicate I would be typing, someone else came in and made it about them. I doubt they meant harm by that, but I went to @currynahh and explained it hurt to be silenced like that. I wasn't looking for an apology, I was looking for a solution so other people don't get hurt. My proposed suggestion was a second vent room for if there were 2 people needing it at once on that large a server, it would be helpful, or atleast a rule about interrupting vulnerable people. They dismissed this saying "two rooms wouldn't help because what if there were THREE people" which, if there were three people at the same time one would still have to wait, but the line would be split in half and people would be able to use it if it was an emergency and the first space was already taken without interrupting.

When they dismissed this idea, I said (and I dont have the exact quote as I left the channel, something @currynahh is very particular about is exact phrasing.) "If there's no rule against interrupting I guess next time I'm in need to type and someone is already using the safe space, I'll just be That Dickhead[TM] and interrupt? Can't wait." to which they threatened me with a ban, assuming I meant I was going to actively hurt people instead of just pointing out that there being no rule meant ANYONE could be That Dickhead[TM]

I also pointed out the inconsistency of threatening me with a ban for saying I'd do what the other user actually did and cut someone off. (they never spoke to the person who interrupted me about the event, to my knowledge, and I never spoke to them or saw their name) so I referred to them as "the fucker who interrupted me." Not in a mean way, just.. Here people can be called fuckers, like calling kids brats. I apologized once they said they found that rude, but they kept bringing it up saying I was name calling.

This is Hearsay, but apparently they said the person probably interrupted me because of ADHD, they seem a bit too comfortable deciding what is a factor of someone's else disabilities without consulting them.

Them dismissing my problems and threatening me with a ban instead of trying to fix their server made me actually go to name calling, and I still feel it's fair to call them a heartless cunt. Heartless for pretending to care when really they just wanted to defend someone in the in-group, Cunt cause it's a great word and it fits. I know the word Cunt is seen more harshly in some places, again, so much here. They really take offense to regional and class based dialects. They went to a private school and were calling me mean for just calling a dude I had no name for as "a fucker" when to me, someone who's poor and went to public school in a shitty town in Ontario, it's the norm here.

Since they showed they really didn't care I told them they were fake and left their channel, my spouse chose to follow me which I didnt know about at the time.

They DMed my spouse with another person who hasn't spoken to my spouse or I in 6 years to call me toxic, abusive and a predator. My spouse said they wouldn't have that conversation without me, as its childish and unproductive to just talk behind peoples backs. When @currynahh kicked me out of the group chat, refusing to talk like adults, my spouse asked me to log into their account to participate since they didn't want to be cornered by these two people to talk shit about someone they care about.

They call me toxic and abusive because I vaguely know the passwords to @twiranux 's accounts, despite never logging in unless asked to (for example a daily event in a videogame that they won't be able to make in time but wants the rewards.) and because on one occasion while I was napping, my spouse forgot an agreement we made about watching a specific movie together and I was upset about that, as I'm sure most people would be if their partner agreed to not watch something without them. I tried to keep my cool and just stay out of the way of their enjoyment, but my spouse wanted me to join in atleast for the end so I did, still grumpy but trying to make the best of it. If they had waited an hour or chose a different movie, things would've been different but @currynahh doesn't want "excuses."

They call me a predator because the person I'm married to is 2 years younger than me. @twiranux and I have been together almost 9 years now, we started Long Distance Online Dating just playing minecraft, listening to owl city (our song's Honey and The Bee 🐝,) and making Garry's Mod youtube videos. We would've been about 13 and 15 at the time, though it is worth noting that our birthdays were less than a month away from when we started dating so 14 and 16 if you want to make that distinction, I was in class with people the same age as my spouse. They think the age is gross, but we were two neurodivergent kids who were extremely sheltered at the time (helicopter parents/physical disabilities) who could only have freedom online. We had met through liking the same movies and youtubers and knew eachother a year before, while I was asking for advice on asking someone else out, my now spouse confessed attraction to me and I suggested we try "dating" for a bit, which consisted of nothing new except drawing cute pictures and giving eachother nicknames. I dont know if I knew their age at the time, but I did think they were a boy which didn't change anything, just hopefully shows I wasn't some 30 year old neckbeard hunting for kids on the net, I was just a disabled kid who was caught off guard by a confession of attraction and rolled with it.

@currynahh says they have proof that we weren't innocent in highschool, as (they claim) we asked them to write nsfw fanfic about us, which.. we didn't? My spouse has no idea where thats coming from and neither do I so just a blatant lie. Not that it's anyone's business but my spouse and I didnt meet in person for about 4 years and anything physical took place after we were both legal adults, im not comfortable going into more detail.

After my spouse had me log onto their account to show they weren't going to be cornered by those two, I was allowed back into the group chat to try and figure out why they think im problematic, but @currynahh insists im just making excuses when I've just been saying exactly what im saying here. They say I'm sugarcoating it, I disagree. I dont have the exact words I said about everything, but admitting to calling her a Heartless Cunt isn't something I'd do if i were sugarcoating it as she suggests. This is how it played out they keep trying to shove me into this "abuser" box they framed me in without knowing me.

They would repeatedly spew paragraphs of "points" then block me and leave the group chat while I was typing up a response. They don't want excuses (read: explanations) and they don't care about facts (that they misunderstood certain things and was willing to clear up what I meant if they weren't so caught up on semantics.)

I will not go into my partners mental illnesses on this platform, but they have a psychiatrist who I've met and I have to (sometimes in a way that looks controlling to someone who doesn't know the problems) keep my spouse grounded. The Psychiatrist thought I was doing a great job at managing it, but @currynahh disagrees, saying I'm enabling (without even letting us tell them what the problem is or how im helping.)

Which brings us to the next point; they say I can't talk about the mental health of myself or my spouse because it will trigger them, meaning they block any attempt we make at explaining how it works. They treat us as a neurotypical couple and call it abusive when I'm literally just doing what's deemed best by a psychiatrist for my spouse.

For DARING to tell her to stop calling me a predator, she calls me a narcissist, which is just.. Very cool. Love me some armchair diagnosis. They also diagnosed me with anger issues (from one call in which I was grumpy and then me trying to defend myself from these accusations.) So really, I think docs are being paid too much 'cause @currynahh is doing their job for free.

Because they weren't listening to my spouse, my spouse decided to stop typing, especially since she was just going on long rants then leaving the server before we could reply. Whenever @twiranux gets a chance to speak, @currynahh would leave the server claiming it triggers their anxiety to face the consequences of what they said. Then they would tell me to quit speaking over @twiranux when I was just speaking on our behalf, while in a call with @twiranux due to these reasons.

Instead of keeping their nose out of our relationship like we were asking, they kept trying to tell my spouse (who chose to marry me and lives in another country) that im abusive because they think trusting eachother is a sign of abuse.

Instead of listening that we're fine, they throw a tantrum and tell us to go to marriage counseling (which, although I wouldn't be opposed to going, is very telling that they think people can just do things that require money on a whim.)

They say that "instead of saving up to move in together and have kids you should put money towards marriage counseling" which again, what savings do they think I have? My bank account has -$4.00 in it and my spouse can't work right now. We have nothing.

They keep bringing up kids and how would we raise them? Would they not have privacy? Its a stupid point they threw out there as currently there aren't plans to have kids and there's huuuge difference between a married couple knowing eachothers passwords and not letting your kids have privacy.

They keep bringing up the fact that we've lost friends before without knowing why. So if they want to private message me I'd be happy to tell her about how we left our last friend group after a dispute where the other people were claiming the N word was inoffensive. Or the group that actually was trying to get into my spouses pants and we weren't comfortable there. You keep making accusations then refusing to listen to facts.

Idk if I'm missing anything, if they unblock me and see this they will probably say I'm staw-manning again without actually telling me how and while having no counter arguments. They also don't accept my adhd for accidentally derailing, while using theirs to deflect any criticism.

Karina, you don't know us and you say even talking about our mental health will trigger you, so you need to accept that you're unwilling or unable to understand the dynamics of our relationship but just because you don't understand it doesn't mean it's toxic. I wouldn't have made this post if you didn't keep calling me a predator, but I need to clear that accusation publicly before you keep throwing around dangerous labels.

Grow up. Get some help. Learn that your POV isn't the only one.

#they seemed to have changed their blog to currynya now #If you stop calling me a predator and stopped treating me like an abuser without listening and instead had a proper adult conversation on #discord id be willing to take down this post #but as it sits i have no choice since you keep attacking my character #currynya #currynahh

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hellofellowweirdos · 5 years

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Chapter Three

The Avengers are no help whatsoever.

This morning Tony decided that he wants to spend the day with Ava, a chance for them both to get to know each other, so he asks his fellow Avengers for ideas of activities the two could do together. Which is a bad idea because, as soon as the question leaves his mouth, each of their ideas are thrown at him all at once. Tony doesn’t hear any of their suggestions - all of them becoming muddled together. Although this isn’t the worst part. The worst part is that, after hearing each other’s contrasting ideas, they immediately start bickering. Tony sighs; his head falling into his hands - he wishes he never asked.

Five minutes pass and the squabbling doesn’t seem to be stopping. Tony sighs in exasperation: it’s like babysitting a bunch of toddlers.

“Everybody shut up!” Tony orders, removing his head from his hands, “One at a time.” He gestures to Wanda to present her idea first, believing she’s the best consultant on the matter since her and Ava are so close in age.

“Sightseeing,” she beams. Tony doesn’t even get a chance to think over the activity before they're back to bickering.

“She’s probably lived in New York all her life,” Sam interjects; and is interrupted before he can voice his own suggestion.

“Yes, she probably has however there is the possibility that she has moved here recently. Possibly even to come live here,” Vision tries to reason; Tony wonders why he didn’t think to ask her this yesterday - he’ll make sure to ask her today.

“That’s highly unlikely,” Natasha declares, “Children of S.H.I.E.L.D agents tend to stay in the same place their whole lives, doesn’t draw as much attention that way.” That’s a valid point, Tony thinks and turns to Vision - expecting him to retaliate. Instead, it’s Rhodey that speaks.

“Just because she came here from S.H.I.E.L.D facilities in New York doesn’t mean she lives here. She could've lived anywhere in the world,” he points out.

“S.H.I.E.L.D has facilities all over the world: it’s unlikely she would've lived anywhere else,” Steve explains; looking to Natasha for confirmation.

Tony sighs, collapsing back on the couch. He tunes out the argument: annoyed that no ideas are being thrown around that could prove useful to him - he doesn’t even know why he decided to listen for as long as he did.

Instead of attempting to pry their ideas from them one at a time, since that always works so well, he decides to just wait it out. Surely they could all come to a decision by themselves.

***

Tony soon becomes bored, so he tunes back into the argument only to discover that they’re no closer to a decision than they were to begin with. He huffs. Ava will most likely be awake soon and he doesn’t want her first morning here to involve everyone fighting.

As he checks the time on his phone an idea pops into his head, one that might actually be helpful. Swiftly, he marches into the kitchen - his dressing gown billowing out behind him.

Closing the door behind him, to block out the noise, he scrolls through his contact list until he reaches Clint. As the phone rings Tony fills up the coffee machine and takes out a mug, ready to be filled when it’s done.

“Hello?” Clint picks up.

“Hey, I didn’t wake you did I?” Tony starts off, moving away from the low hum of the coffee machine and leaning against the island.

“No, we’re getting the kids ready for school,” he answers; Tony hears one of them complain in the background. This prompts him to wonder what school Ava attends, and makes a mental note to ask her today.

“Good. How’s the little one?” he asks, attempting to make small talk before dumping his problem on him.

“Exhausting, keeps us up most of the night. But at least I’m here to take on half the load from Laura,” Clint responds. Tony’s glad Clint’s enjoying his retirement.

***

“Tony, what do you want?” Clint deadpans causing Tony to panic, not exactly ready to reveal this information.

“What makes you think I want something?” he stalls - not ready to hear the words leave his own mouth.

“Because you called me at half seven in the morning. Get to the point.”

“It’s a wake up call - can’t have you slacking now can we?” he jokes.

Ding. Tony heads over to the coffee machine and pours the hot coffee into the mug.

“Tony,” Clint reprimands as Tony takes a swig of coffee - immediately regretting it as it burns his tongue. He discards the mug, allowing it to cool, and returns to his previous position.

“You have kids right?” he blurts, physically face-palming at his stupid question.

Clint doesn’t answer right away.

“Yeah, you know that,” he finally drawls, confusion prominent in his voice.

“And you get on with them quite well?”

“Yeah. Why're you asking me this?” On the other end of the line Tony hears Laura instructing the kids to put on their shoes; he feels an odd pang of guilt.

“Didn’t you hear? I’d have thought Fury would've told you, considering he’s keeping tabs on us all.”

“No, Tony. Hear what?” Tony can hear the exasperation in his voice. He can sympathise: he’s felt the same quite a bit lately.

“I sort of, kinda…” Even though he knows that stalling isn’t going to make a difference, he still does - not ready to hear the words leave his own mouth.

“Spit it out.”

“I have a daughter.” The words feel strange leaving his mouth; it makes it all seem more real. And, to his own surprise, Tony isn’t as discomforted by the fact like he originally thought. It brings a smile to his face.

“Clint, buddy, you still there?” he asks when Clint doesn’t say anything.

“You have a daughter,” he utters in disbelief, “How?”

“Didn’t your parents ever give you the birds and the bees talk?” Tony chuckles and takes a sip of his coffee, which has cooled enough for him to drink.

“You know what I mean. What’s her name?” Tony surprises himself with his own reaction to this - a swell of pride. He imagines Clint feels the same when talking about his own children.

“Ava. She’s 15…” he trails off - not having anything else to say; he feels a twinge of guilt.

“What else?” Clint prompts him, causing Tony to feel slightly more guilty.

“That’s why I’m calling: I need your help,” he admits; praying that he doesn’t make a big deal out of that fact.

“You need my help? Am I dreaming?” Tony rolls his eyes - of course Clint would make a big deal out of it, he doesn’t know why he even bothered to hope for otherwise.

“Clint, this is serious. I need a way to bond with her; get to know her, you know?” Hopefully Clint will be more help than the squabbling toddlers in the other room.

Clint takes a moment to think.

“What about taking her shopping? I’m assuming her room is very bland, like when I first moved in. So she can buy some furniture and things. Make a whole day out of it - go to the mall, get some lunch. It’ll be a good place to talk, find out what she likes, and shopping will help fill in the gaps in the conversation.” What a brilliant idea, Tony thinks; grimacing as he remembers the blandness of her room.

“That’s actually not a bad idea,” he admits; he faintly hears Laura calling for Clint, “I’ll let you get back to your domestic activities.”

“You’re welcome,” Clint sarcastically mumbles and Tony ends the call.

As if on cue, Tony’s stomach rumbles.

“Right, breakfast,” he mutters to himself.

“Wanda!” he calls, scurrying back into the living room.

~ ~ ~ ~

Ava wakes up slowly; taking in the unfamiliar surroundings with tired eyes. She had trouble sleeping last night: the huge change playing on her mind into the late night hours.

Not ready to face the world just yet, Ava rolls over in an attempt to get more sleep however the rising sun is at the perfect angle to peak through the blinds - which she forgot to close last night - and glare right into her eyes. She just closes her eyes in an attempt to ignore it. 5 more minutes, she thinks, as though the sun will listen to her kind request and humbly retreat.

Although, this isn’t what happens: the sun is persistent in its attempt to force Ava out of bed; and after 30 seconds Ava’s given up on her attempt to ignore.

As she begrudgingly drags herself out of bed she mutters a string of curse words, making her grumpiness known. She glares at the blinds; making a mental note to close them tonight.

She stumbles her way into the bathroom to splash her face with cold water - since she’s not going to get anymore sleep she might as well wake herself up a bit. The bathroom is immaculately clean, causing Ava to wonder who actually cleans the penthouse. Do they have a maid? A whole cleaning team? Or do the Avengers do it themselves? The thought of the Avengers cleaning the tower is laughable to Ava.

“Good morning, Miss Stark,” a sudden voice speaks - from seemingly everywhere. Ava jumps out of her skin at the interruption; whirling around to the door. Although, no one’s there.

“Oh, where are my manners. I am F.R.I.D.A.Y, an artificial intelligence system created by Mr. Stark.” It takes a second for Ava to soak in that information.

“Hi,” she replies rather awkwardly, not knowing where to look, “and it’s not Stark, it’s Fenton.”

“My apologies, Miss Fenton.” Ava isn’t too sure whether to attempt to continue the conversation or not however before she can decide F.R.I.D.A.Y speaks again.

“Miss Maximoff has made breakfast for everyone in the kitchen.”

“Who?” Ava asks as she turns off the tap - coming to the conclusion that she doesn’t really need to look anywhere to acknowledge the AI.

“Wanda,” she clarifies for her.

“Thank you,” Ava says, leaving the bathroom and quickly making her bed. She debates for a second whether to get dressed first, but decides against it; exiting her room.

Luckily, her room is positioned at the top of the staircase so she won’t easily become lost. She’ll have to wander around the place pretty soon: there’s so much she hasn’t explored.

As she descends the stairs she begins to hear loud chatter coming from the kitchen; and, as she gets closer, a wonderful smell invades her senses. Her stomach rumbles in anticipation.

“What’s for breakfast?” she asks when she enters the kitchen. All of the Avengers are either sat or stood around the breakfast island in the middle of the room. They're still in pyjamas, making Ava feel slightly more comfortable about her similar attire.

“Blueberry pancakes,” Wanda announces proudly as a plate of pancakes fly gently towards her. For a moment, Ava observes the plate in awe; glancing between Wanda and the floating plate.

“That’s awesome,” she comments; taking the plate from the air. Her comment prompts chuckles from the Avengers. She slides onto a stool beside Sam, taking the knife and fork that Rhodey offers her and digs in.

“Coffee?” Tony offers cheerfully as he pours himself a cup, seeming not as hesitant to talk to her as he was yesterday.

“Please.” Tony retrieves another mug from the cupboard; proceeding to pour the fresh coffee into it.

“How’d you sleep?” Tony asks as he places the coffee mug beside her plate. Ava finishes her mouthful of food before answering.

“Ok, I guess. F.R.I.D.A.Y introduced herself to me this morning, scared the shit out of me,” she explains lightheartedly.

“Careful, Steve doesn’t like that sort of language,” Natasha teases, eyeing Steve mischievously over the rim of her coffee mug.

“You’re never gonna let that go, are you?” Steve says with a fond sigh, shaking his head. Ava wonders what happened, however decides against asking: it’s obviously an inside joke.

Ava takes a sip of her coffee and, upon doing so, notices the design on the mug - the Avengers logo.

“Nice mug,” she chuckles, placing it back down on the island.

“At least someone appreciates them,” Sam accuses as he sends a glare around the room to his teammates, who are each holding mugs to match.

“Why would someone decide to make these?” Wanda snorts as she examines the mug in her hand.

“Where did you even find them?” Rhodey wonders; Ava picks out a hint of amusement in his voice.

“Gift shop around the corner. They sell loads of this type of stuff,” Sam explains, gesturing in the general direction of the shop. No one gets a chance to say anything else as Vision saunters into the kitchen, fully dressed.

“Morning everyone.” Ava’s eyes widen in disbelief. Did he just walk through a wall?

“He does that a lot,” Wanda answers for her, without Ava even having to utter a word. She looks back to Vision, amazed by his ability.

“How many times have I told you? Use the damn door, it’s what they're there for,” Tony scolds with a sigh, disposing of his empty coffee mug in the dishwasher.

“My apologies.” Vision takes the empty seat beside Natasha. The conversation picks up where it left off.

“Sam just used these mugs to bribe his way into the Avengers,” Steve chuckles; gently nudging Sam with his shoulder.

“I hate all of you,” Sam grumpily states, “except for Ava: she actually likes the mugs.”

“Well, I wouldn’t say that,” she jokes, taking a sip from the mug in question.

“Then I hate you too,” Sam retorts playfully.

***

Once Ava finishes her food, she takes the plate and slots it into the dishwasher; returning back to her seat to finish her coffee.

“So, what’s on the agenda today? Saving the world?” Ava questions cheerfully.

“What do you think about going shopping? You can get some things for your new room, and anything else you want. Sky’s the limit,” Tony offers, his expression hopeful.

“Sounds great. Just us two?” Ava’s actually looking forward to spending time with her dad, which surprises her. Maybe because they seem to be more comfortable talking to one another today.

“Is that ok?” Tony worries.

“Yeah, of course,” Ava finishes off her coffee in one go, “I’ll go get ready.” And with that she’s bouncing out of the kitchen, towards her room.

#mcu #fanfic #civil war #peter parker fic #spider-man fic #dad!tony #love #family #marvel

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kkumabase · 5 years

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[ 190319 / VLIVE ] KKUMA HOSTS A VLIVE WHERE SHE SINGS, TEASES FUTURE PLANS, ANSWERS FAN QUESTIONS & GIVES FANS ADVICE

Below are some brief highlights of the hour-and-45-minute-long broadcast. You can rewatch the entirety of her stream on her VLIVE Channel.

FAN: You probably get asked this every day, but will you be releasing a new album soon?

🐻: I do get asked this quite a lot, but that’s fine with me! I’m more than happy you all are so eager for my music. It doesn’t bother me at all. I will be releasing an album sometime this year, but I can’t give too many details about it. I don’t want to spoil it, and I’m still working with my company to figure out when will be the best time to release it, and to organize all the aspects that will come with and after it. I promise the wait won’t be too long. Please anticipate me warmly.

FAN: Unnie, how do you maintain such a perfect and healthy body?

🐻: First of all, thank you for the compliment! I don’t know if I would consider my body “perfect” [ laughs ] but I do work hard to maintain a good shape, and nice posture as well. Of course the answer is diet and exercise, but the part people tend to leave out is how important mental health is in relation to physical health. If you change your mentality and you want to be healthy for yourself, it becomes a lot easier to put in the hard work to fit regular exercise into your schedule, and to eat better. I focus more on eating well and healthily rather than restricting what I eat to lose weight quickly. I’m more interested in maintaining a healthy weight and a strong body than being incredibly thin. Of course, everyone cheats now and then, and that’s totally fine! Just be sure that you have the motivation and discipline to know when it’s okay to have something that might not be the healthiest thing to eat. Also, if you’re really unsure of where to start, consulting a dietitian is a great idea.

FAN: If you ever go on tour, can you promise to come to Thailand?

🐻: I can promise that, if I ever go on tour, I will work as hard as possible to make sure Thailand is a stop. Just for you.

FAN: Hi, Unnie. I like girls just like you, but I’m not sure how to tell my parents or my friends yet. I’m still in secondary school. Can you help me?

🐻: Hello, sweetheart. Everyone’s situation is different, so I’m not entirely sure if all the advice I can offer will be helpful to you in your situation, but you should definitely wait until you are completely comfortable with the fact that you like girls before you start to tell anyone. Believe it or not, your orientation isn’t anyone’s business and you’re not obligated to tell anyone about it, besides those you want to pursue as romantic partners, really. But romance should also wait until you’re comfortable with who you are as well. Nevertheless, though it’s not [ air quotes ] ‘required’ to tell anyone, it is definitely something you should do when it comes to those who are important in your life. We live in a semi-conservative society, especially when the older generation is considered, so you should start with your friends, and see how they respond. Then eventually tell your parents and anyone else in your family. Make sure you have a support system behind you if things go wrong. But don’t go in assuming they will -- you should always enter a serious space with positive energy. Also, remember that those who truly love and care for you will accept you no matter who you like or feel attracted to. You don’t need anyone who puts you out. It can hurt, but you’re strong and you should love yourself enough to hold your head high and fall back on those who support you, always. I support you. I hope you know that, and I hope this was helpful. Good luck! [ shows many finger hearts to the camera ]

FAN: Hello from Japan! My question is if we can see more choreography videos or dance covers soon? Also, will you ever release music in Japanese, and promote in Japan? ᵔᴥᵔ

🐻: That little bear emoticon is so cute! I’m definitely going to steal that later. [ laughs ] But hello, angel! I definitely want to share more dance-oriented work soon. The last project I worked on was a choreography with my sister, to 5OGUE’95′s “Really,” in case you haven’t seen that yet. It’s on Enigma’s YouTube Channel! A lot of good music has come out lately, so I’m definitely inspired. I’ve just got to find the time to create stuff like that. It’s definitely a priority among others. As for a Kkuma Japanese Debut, it’s definitely on my radar -- considering that my stage name has meaning in both Korean and Japanese, and I adore the language and the culture. When the opportunity comes, you can bet I’ll hop on the first plane to Japan!

FAN: Are there any other idols or musicians that you really want to collab with?

🐻: I’d love to do anything with any of the members of 5OGUE. We’ve worked together already production-wise, and I know most of the members very well, but I have yet to do a song with any of them. It’s definitely something I want, hopefully before this year ends. I finally got to collab with Minnie, though honestly, I couldn’t ever get enough of that. Our styles come together so well, and I just adore her in every possible way. [ pauses ] There are so many artists I’d like to work with, now that I think about it. I couldn’t possibly list them all. And despite me being one of the first artists to sign to Chapel, Cola and I haven’t released anything together either - so, of course, that’s a priority. I’d like to sing with Seongwoo, from Etude; he definite caught my attention after I saw him on “Masked Singer.” Ummm ... Duri, from Brat. Even if it’s just a dance collab. Though she is a woman of many talents. Honestly, I love collaborating with other artists. I can’t imagine myself ever saying no to anyone. [ laughs ]

FAN: How is your brother doing? And your dog?

🐻: Jay is doing very well! He’s still away at school, so I haven’t seen him in a while, but we spoke last night. Summer is getting closer, though, so he’ll be moving back in soon. I’m not sure if that’s a good thing. [ giggles ] I’m kidding. It’s always good to have him home. It’s even better when he cleans up after himself. As for Phillip, he’s doing great as well! Still very round and fluffy. He’s a grumpy boy but as long as he’s full of food and gets tummy rubs, his day is set.

FAN: Will you be returning to the US sometime soon?

🐻: [ in English ] That’s in the plan, for certain. I know a lot of my fanbase is International, which is why I still choose to release a lot of music in English, and I want to keep that connection strong. Plus, as embarrassing as it gets to admit sometimes, the US is my roots, and people say you always find your way back home, one way or another. [ laughs ] I may or may not be coming there to film something soon. Maybe.

FAN: Can you do more modeling, or CFs? I miss Unnie’s face on ads and TV ㅠ ㅠ

🐻: Aww, don’t worry. I may have a few things coming up in the near future. I’m just picky when it comes to collaborating with brands or studios, because I want it to be a product or a message I truly feel positively about.

FAN: Will you come to MoonPride this year?

🐻: If I don’t ever show up to MoonPride as either a performer or a guest, assume that I’ve died.

FAN: Unnie’s rap in “BDE” was so fierce!! You should rap more!!

🐻: Aww, you think so? Thank you! I think I’ve improved a lot, honestly. Rapping is fun, but my heart really lies with singing. Mostly I just do it to mix it up, I never want to become boring or predictable, even if I can do a lot of different things with my voice by this point in my career. It’s just nice to have options, and to never stop improving. You’ll certainly hear more rap from me in the future!!

FAN: How do you deal with hate comments and negative energy ...?

🐻: To be honest, I don’t. I ignore it. I’m always open to kind and thoughtful criticism, but meaningless hate doesn’t deserve any of my energy. Of course I’m only human, and sometimes my curiosity gets the better of me or I have a bad day and it gets me down, but I try to make it into a learning experience, and remember that I’ve come so far and I have a lot of people who love what I do, and who support me. And that I can and have been successful in achieving my dream, regardless of what others have thought -- maybe even in spite of it. Nobody can take that away from me, no matter how much they dislike me.

FAN: Are you keeping up with Drag Race? Who are you rooting for?

🐻: [ in English ] I’m two episodes behind, actually, but I’m planning on catching up as soon as I’ve got the time! This season has been stunning. I was rooting for Soju, but her time came too soon, [ whines ] so now my heart is with Plastique. She’s absolutely gorgeous, and all her looks are stunning. We follow each other on Instagram, actually, and we have been for a while! I had no idea she was going to be on the show.

FAN: Unnie, your voice is so unique and pretty. Do you just sing naturally or have you worked to develop that sound with lessons, trial and error, etc? Either way, I think you have the prettiest voice in the world and I could listen to your music all day.

🐻: Well, thank you! This is the sweetest thing I’ve heard in a while. I’ve been singing as long as I’ve been talking, honestly. Probably before that. [ laughs ] But when I was a trainee under a certain company, of course I had singing lessons. I remember my least favourite was where my vocal coach would make me do a handstand and sing the entire Korean National Anthem. I did like running on the treadmill and singing, though. I still do that when I exercise, and sometimes I even get inspiration for new music while working out. I also had to sing doing cartwheels, sing on a stationary bike, and sing while jumping rope, just to name a few things. As crazy as that sounds, it worked! My voice is pretty stable, and I have no problem singing while dancing. However, I did damage my voice really badly while under that company, because they required me to do a really unhealthy technique to produce a ‘unique’ sound. I was too afraid to do surgery because I didn’t want to lose my voice forever, so I had to undergo injections for the better part of a year, and my doctor told me not to sing at all for all that time - and to not even speak unless I absolutely had to. [ pauses, sighing shakily ] it was really hard. But I got through it, and I re-taught myself how to sing, and a lot of the wacky training I had to do back then came in handy when I put my voice through rehab. So I’ve had to do a lot of work to get to where I am now. [ smiles softly ] I’m proud of myself. Thank you for this comment. I’ll always remember it.

FAN: Is Unnie dating any pretty girls? ㅋ ㅋ ㅋ

🐻: [ laughs heartily ] No, unnie is not. Unnie is very single. Which is fine, I’m not in a rush to get into a relationship at this point in my life. I haven’t been for years, really. But if someone came along, I wouldn’t complain.

[ The chat flooded with ‘date me!’ and ‘I’m here!’ after that, causing Kkuma to burst into laughter. ]

🐻: Guys, guys! You’re so silly, please.

FAN: Unnie, I saw you in Hongdae a few weeks ago, but I was nervous to approach you because I thought you might get uncomfortable or mad ㅠ ㅠ ㅠ

🐻: Really? Aaahh, don’t worry about that! As long as you’re kind and respectful, Unnie won’t get upset. If you see me, you can come say hi! It’s alright. [ shows finger hearts ]

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